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[short-for-jules]

VERY rough concept for a 3d modeled statue of Herbert West, just watched re-animator and it did something to me. Ive wanted to make and sell fan statues for awhile and this really lit a fire under my ass, but before i spend the next Several Weeks working on this it would help my motivation a lot if i got a vibe there are people in the world who would pay money for this lol.

I'm not sure how much it will be, since I'll likely be going through a POD provider since posting stl files online freaks me out, so final price will come up to how much production costs, but the ideal price rang is 20-40$ USD, with as minimal up-charge as i can allow myself. fans w disposable income tell me any and all thoughts <3

[cypress-punk]

When ChatGPT first blew up I was in a meeting about how this would effect my industry. I said "doesn't matter, it's a flash in the pan, the whole market is a bubble (cause it was obvious even then that it was a bubble) and there isn't a practical use for half of these products" and I got called an idiot. But I'm right. No one has produced a real use for things yes, other than the minor cases suggested above, and even then, is it really worth the computational power and energy consumption and water that it takes to run these things to make something like a better facial recognition (a tool mainly used by the state for carceral purposes) or better auto-correct? I don't think so personally.

The bubble is going to burst, just like it burst on crypto. But what worries me is the damage that will be done before the bubble bursts. AI will not replace you or your job, but your boss will stop listing your job and instead hire, at a lower wage, someone to fix the bad outputs the AI is producing. He might even pull a sort of magic trick where he says your position is being eliminated, but offer you that shittier position correcting the AI and it stumbles around "doing your job".

In the time before the bubble bursts AI will fill the internet with useless swill. AI generated images instead of real ones in search results, AI articles that contain nonsense at best and dangerous disinformation at worst. In the time before the bubble bursts the internet may ve sk utterly clogged with machine generated drek that it is simply no longer useful.

In the time that it takes that bubble to burst students will become used to using AI to do their school work for them, losing out on valuable practice in basic skills like writing and research. It doesn't matter if that's cheating, many teachers are being told to just put up with it, or even to explicitly allow AI generated work be turned in. Underfunded and overworked teachers are even now being told to essentially give the fuck up on anything like academic rigor at almost every level of the education system (from what I've seen it's the worst at the college level but I've seen it in primary and secondary education as well). We are gonna lose a generation of kids to this swill.

In the time it takes for this bubble to burst AI will be used to diminish the dignity of workers across the world, make them accessories to a machine that their boss claims does the "real work" and deflate wages and benefits. This tactics will be used to bust unions, casualize work, and make everything just a bit more shit. AI will be used to systematically destroy institutional knowledge in innumerable industries because it represents a new way to attack every executive's worst foe: his own employees. They won't abolish payroll but they will gut it. And in the long run it will probably just kill their company. Because the bubble will burst, it will cease to be possible to sustain these unsustainable systems. The weight of what is lost will pull them down when the tools stop working or continually degrade into mush. No one will have the skills or information necessary to save them. We will witness a genuine hollowing out of our culture and capacity to function on a societal level just to enrich the ruling class.

What happens after that? Well the monied folks are basically already betting on a climate Apocalypse that will land us all in Mad Max world and are building fortified palaces for those contingencies. A lot of them are angling to obliterate the fig leaf of democracy and civil rights we have in the western world and replace it with literally just feudalism. It won't matter when the collapse happens cause they'll still be rich and on top.

I dont think they're right. I dont think the world is going to devolve into the thing they imagine it will because all of these guys are morons, like actually drooling idiots when you listen to them talk about the world. But it could be bad. It could mean a descent into Fascism. It already seems to be heading that way given the complicity of the entire western world in the genocide in Gaza.

So we have to fight. We have to resist this. We can't let the AI hollow out entire industries and institutions, and we do that in part by identifying that it is not the AI that's doing this, it's the capitalists running the show and calling the shots. We have to organize on every level against this power grab by capital, against the genocides, against the climate Apocalypse, because if we don't, and things just keep rolling onward unstopped, it's going to land us in a truly heinous world.

so like I said, I work in the tech industry, and it's been kind of fascinating watching whole new taboos develop at work around this genAI stuff. All we do is talk about genAI, everything is genAI now, "we have to win the AI race," blah blah blah, but nobody asks - you can't ask -

What's it for?

What's it for?

Why would anyone want this?

I sit in so many meetings and listen to genuinely very intelligent people talk until steam is rising off their skulls about genAI, and wonder how fast I'd get fired if I asked: do real people actually want this product, or are the only people excited about this technology the shareholders who want to see lines go up?

like you realize this is a bubble, right, guys? because nobody actually needs this? because it's not actually very good? normal people are excited by the novelty of it, and finance bro capitalists are wetting their shorts about it because they want to get rich quick off of the Next Big Thing In Tech, but the novelty will wear off and the bros will move on to something else and we'll just be left with billions and billions of dollars invested in technology that nobody wants.

and I don't say it, because I need my job. And I wonder how many other people sitting at the same table, in the same meeting, are also not saying it, because they need their jobs.

idk man it's just become a really weird environment.

[beatcroc]

tl;dr+disclaimer: this is NOT intended as some kind overarching review or analysis, just my thoughts on various things, and while i am absolutely enthralled by nge’s narrative tone/style/execution, i dont really give a shit about what the narrative is actually saying. This is not a writeup on its plot or themes, but rather the way they are presented and explored. [actually mostly a lot of obsessing over small details and side characters].  the end of evangelion movie is not included here and will have its own post.

secondary disclaimer: apparently nge has a fuckload of cultural context and stuff about How it exists as a commentary or subversion of stuff of its time or whatever. rest assured i know neither jack nor shit about any of it, and am just seeing how it functions as its own thing in a vaccuum.  alright here we go.

earlygame evangelion was absolutely nothing like i was anticipating, and as a person who Generally Does Not Enjoy Anime, i cannot stress enough how much this was to its benefit. first thing i noticed was a distinctive Lack of those ‘anime visual gag’ type of character expressions/reactions; refreshing just for my own petty disdain for them, but also notably important to its overall tone. eva’s tone is absolutely one of the best things it has going for it; i’ll get into specifics as i go, but even before i would get to seeing how it strengthens both individual plot beats and the narrative at large, it was by far my biggest draw to the earlygame.

i think i can best describe it as “contemplative”. there’s very little real dialogue in the sense of characters having 2-way conversations. there’s a lot of emphasis on weighted silences, a lot of minor exposition delivered through background noise/chatter like radio broadcasts, a lot of just... the world moving around and contrasting with the characters as they Exist. The ep where shinji runs away definitely has the biggest focus on this, but it’s noticeable as a unique tonal thing right out of the gate. I feel like anime often tends to explain things too directly, whether it be story or lore; or a character's feelings or intentions. here, you rarely get more than a simple zoom in on a character’s face to denote They Are having Thoughts About This. No internal monologue rambling walking you through their whole thought process, It’s left to just their expressions and reactions. evangelion’s execution of “show, don't tell” still holds up pretty well in 2022 imo. maybe not the best out there these days, but definitely still effective. I’m far from well-versed in media like this, but i’d still say eva’s fairly standout, and anything that manages to do that after nearly 30 years deserves some kudos

Very related to that, “Doing a lot with a little” i think is the best way to sum up all of eva’s strengths. The subtleties and things left unsaid, as it were. Aside from the obvious jab at their making do with a nonexistent budget, this sort of thing comes through in its somber and down-to-earth tone, its character writing, and most especially, its support cast.

Both in the handling of the characters themselves and their dynamics with the main cast, the nge side characters are really, really good; like, probably the actual best i have encountered in any media ever. Each of them in their own way provide perfect backings and contrasts to everything the main cast has going on, they’re laser-focused efficient to enhance the others’ characters and arcs and the overall narrative messages--and yet they never feel like plot devices and are still really solid and wholly enjoyable as their own individual Characters, all without overstepping their boundaries AS support cast in terms of both screentime and narrative presence/influence. suzuhara and akagi demonstrate this best from very different angles and from here out this thing is pretty much just gonna be a breakdown of thoughts by character, but i’m doing suzuhara first because his being much more narratively dynamic means he gets to shine in a plethora of ways, so most of the Cool Narrative/Tonal Shit i wanna say about nge can be said by talking about him.

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you’d think the character whose introduction is “beating up the kicked puppy protag because he’s pissed” would be pretty one-note and uninteresting; i still wouldn’t really call suzuhara deep, per se, but….well, again, they do a lot with a little.

usually for this role you’d get something like “i’m gonna bully shinji because he’s stupid and lame ”, and it’s not like this would be misplaced because like... shinji IS lame, other kids DON’T like him, but suzuhara’s motivation being his hospitalized sister instead of anything with shinji himself changes the entire dynamic here to a pretty profound degree. it’s still a really simple and understandable motivation, but it lets him say a ton more than you usually could with this kind of role. the overt message still just sits at “we’re gonna make shinji hate himself life a little more“, but instead of just, like, making him feel shitty because there’s Mean People who will beat him up even though he’s trying his best or whatever, the implied message is more along the lines of “you’re hurting people you can’t see, but they’re still people who mean something to somebody, and they can damn well see you.”, and it’s for sure noticeable this is the kind of stuff that’s weighing on him the next couple eps. It’s not that he’s afraid of some random bullies that could jump him at any time, it’s that he’s now acutely aware the consequences of him messing up are exponentially larger than he can see.

it also gives suzuhara much easier room for growth! He doesn’t need some huge distracting character-altering event, he just needs to see that this is all way bigger than him and that he was out of his lane and being a shithead. getting caught face to face with an angel is a pretty effective way to do that, i’d say! Being saved by shinji specifically and having to see his trauma firsthand is an especially great note coming out of that too, realizing that shinji is neither a cocky asshole nor some incompetent coward, but that he’s really just. Yknow. Trying. I also think it’s a really…. Idk, cute? detail that while the scene in the cockpit clearly Affects him, he doesn’t apologize or offer comfort right away and just spends the next few days kind of sulking/angsting about it instead. Just a fun little humanizing err for him i think. 

not a lot happens with him for awhile from there but i do really like him and his little nerd friend as just background pals for shinji. Comic relief isn’t usually a very…esteemed title in terms of narrative value, but in this case he’s earned it. Which isn’t something you’d usually say about comic relief characters! So good for him i guess.

The Fourth Child stuff coming into play is what really made me pog at this guy and his handling though. Just like. the framing of it. not telling the audience directly but showing that it’s someone all the other main characters already knew+the persistent scene cuts to him after someone brings up or asks who the fourth pilot is.

The character familiarity is cool mostly because of how small eva’s cast is overall. Like there are really not any random passerby citizens ever shown, let alone given dialogue, that they could have tossed in to use. Everybody who could be considered even remotely important/main cast is already occupied, and seeing that both asuka and katsuragi recognize him, it’s gotta be someone they would have met fairly recently–most likely someone we’d already seen on the show–and not some random guy from their backstories or something.  They had my curiosity but i wouldn’t have guessed it! At least not without the scene cuts lmao. They do this like 4 times it’s really funny. Oh yeah the 4th pilot? Yeah we won’t say who but heyyyyy check This guy out.

my favorite bit from this is seeing the change in his demeanor in these cuts before vs. after he gets the news; his usual cheeky self in the first couple versus his going out alone to stare forlornly off into the distance in the latter few. I am like such a huge fan of this ok. Once again, things left unsaid: there’s so much he could be thinking about here and refusing to have him say any of it in itself speaks volumes.

What’s in there? Regret? Apprehension? Resignation? You’d need a monologue half as long as this damn post to really get into all the different angles of him unpacking the idea that he could now be the one unwittingly dropping a building on someone's little sister + reflecting back all the fears that he’d left shinji with after that little beatdown, but simply Not Saying It leaves a much stronger impression of the sense that it’s just A Lot for him to be thinking about. very cool in other characters’ reactions to it too; suzuhara himself never explicitly verbally confirms his being a pilot, but everyone notices he’s acting different. Hell, they even used SHINJI to point it out, and he’s usually the guy who’s worst at noticing these things.

small side note but there’s also a delightful bit of last minute  rubbing salt in the wound with how bad his nerd friend wanted to pilot eva….seems like that kid is about the only other one who didn’t realize suzuhara is the 4th pilot too, which. lmao.

anyway then he gets in the eva and doesn’t really get to do anything. i don’t have any comments on that it’s the pretty obligatory “oop we gotta have our Angel Encounter for this ep”+”gotta find a newer and more powerful way to traumatize shinji” quota. There’s really good character moments here for some of the other cast which i’ll get to later but uhhh yeah suzahara just gets his shit fucked.

ok now full disclosure here i’m actually a huge bitch about character deaths like this, it is quite possibly my biggest pet peeve when characters go through something that is 100% presented as fatal or a killing blow, only to Not Actually Have Died At That Moment; either so they can give some kind of Emotional Speech:tm: and then die anyway, or by revealing they actually only got wounded or something bc of some kind bullshit plot armor. i thought eva might possibly be the kind of thing that’s brutal and/or disregarding-of-dramatic-narrative-flair enough to actually just leave it at him being dead there in the mech, but to an even bigger surprise i think this is maybe the only thing i’ve seen that’s played “they didn’t actually die in that horrific scene” to a way bigger impact.

The following hospital scene is already pretty interesting just with neither shinji nor suzahara knowing why the other was there; Shinji never learned who the fourth pilot is, and toji shows no animosity for the fact that shinji[’s eva] just beat the shit out of him so apparently he just wasn’t conscious for anything after his mech got taken over? and it’s just kind of like, spooky, to have what has every right to be an emotionally charged character reunion amount to nothing more than vague confusion between them. They don’t even get to talk to eachother! i don’t often see the thing of “audience knowledge vs. character knowledge” used like this; usually it’s the Characters who are sad or angry beause of some knowlege they lack, and You know that things are actually better than it appears to them; in this case you know things are way worse than they look and the characters are spared that burden. it’s weird and cool and potent but it’s not even my biggest takeaway from this. You know the thing that really fucks me up here?

we never see suzuhara again after this.

he isn’t given any sort of real farewell, he’s just gone. not dead, but gone. i’ve never seen that done before!!! it’s like....haunting to realize a guy who had been a minor but consistent constant is just not part of the picture any more, and it’s an especially odd feeling since you can’t really notice until it’s too late. now yeah, part of it was also that the plot had kinda moved beyond having time for side characters, but most of them do still make brief appearances, and we’re also specifically shown a brief scene in the schoolroom where all four pilot kids are conspicuously absent. their friends comment about how the main 3 are missing, and suzuhara is still never mentioned.

i genuinely feel more strongly about suzuhara’s narrative death than anything else in the show. i dont even care that it doesn’t mean anything this is my hill to die on. i love this dude and i love how every single beat with him makes me ape my shit.

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rei is the other end of Stuff Eva Is Really Good At. i mostly want to talk about her Big Reveal here but i do also want to give kudos for their committing so hard to the whole uncaring/ambivalent thing with her. feel like a lot of stuff that tries to do ‘emotionless’ characters chickens out and still gives them like one specific personality trait or thing they’ll react to or care about, probably for the sake of still making them relatable or enjoyable or something. granted, the context for this kind of character matters all the more when they’re Supposed to be empty, but even so this kind of thing is usually done to show there’s something Off about the character; rei’s being so aggressively, blatantly nothing and nonreactive about literally everything is just like. oh there is something OFF with you. Her and asuka’s exchange of “i bet you’d even kill yourself if they asked“ “i would, yeah“-said not out of devotion or depression, but pure disinterest, is probably about the strongest extreme you can take this idea to. 

The whole series she’s such a powder keg waiting to blow and they let you smell its smoke in the flashback with akagi’s mom where it seems to be revealed that she’s 1-possibly a clone, and 2-apparently got killed the same day as she was unveiled, which obviously feel like pretty significant revelations but then they move on from it with zero fanfare and i was like huh. Wait. no wait hold on go back. i had actually intended to go back and rewatch that scene just to i’d actually make sure i’d clocked it properly because it was just that was chilling* and disorienting to have left it sitting pretty much unacknowledged for several episodes, but then it comes to ep23 after her dying for real in the eva and she says “i think i’m already the third one” as a soft confirmation and you’re like OH SHIT I WAS RIGHT but then theyre still not done blowing up everything with the actual reveal and it all comes out in the following scenes and it’s just like oh this is all so much worse than i could have imagined. all that was my peak of being Affected By Evangelion. i kinda just sat there In A State for a solid 30 minutes afterwards, just, rotating the series as a whole in my mind. man.

the scene with 01′s awakening is done with a pretty similar structure to this, and even though i actually knew about the twist of eva units being Literally Humans before going into the show, that scene was....hoo. like the knowledge does not prepare you for the presentation. I credit this mostly to its tone as well; there’s something really awesome about how evangelion can pull huge fucked up twists like this, yet the raw shock value of the scene itself [which should not be understated!] never outweighs the gravity of the situation as a whole. Like the takeaway from 01’s awakening isn’t just “oh shit!!!! The government is making fucked up mechs full of blood!!!”, it’s “these measures may be extreme but they are a necessary price to pay for survival[though is it really worth it?]”. And also maaaaybe a little “mankind is hubristic as fuck and we Love to fuck around and find out.” but that’s kind of just the deal throughout the whole series

Coincidentally, it’s also rei’s brief first couple appearances that i think initially help establish that gravity.  very often when a character is badly injured it’s only really used to change how either they or another character engage with a situation; usually to remove them from it and/or spur another to action, which IS exactly what her role in e1 was for shinji. Thing is, unless the injury itself is a plot beat to be built upon, it just sort of gets swept under the rug at soonest convenience -so seeing her still really beat up a few episodes later, for pretty much no real purpose other than to say “yeah no that’s gonna take her a bit to recover from” was defintily a striking moment to me.

*spooky, haunting, chilling, i’ve used these words for these turns a good few times now. I know it’s a bit repetitive, but there really is something just so… hollow, so empty about these scenes; something that you know should be there and just isn’t and it feels weird. nge is damn good at anticipating where its emotional beats should be, and then intentionally leaving you with nothing when they come up. You wanted hype? You wanted catharsis? No get fucked. In most situations this would feel cheap or like some kind of buzzkill but with eva’s tone being how it is it’s just sort of… humbling? i know this is a bit of a pretentious read, but eva seems to make it a point to never go to hard into this being A Story, rather than Just Life; in the sense that life doesn’t always have the satisfying narrative conclusions you can expect in a story. They know enough not to Always do this because then the whole show would be actually lame and unrewarding, but the times they choose Not to deliver definitely have…a palatable contrast.

Also i know i made the jokey post about this already but LITERALLY why did they make rei go to school? There’s no?? Practical advantage to this???  I mean obviously from a narrative perspective it’s just to help sell the illusion that shes a normal human child but like. In-universe. Whose idea was this. Shes not even learning or getting Involved with anything she’s just staring out the window the whole time. She’s regularly absent and they’ve always gotta have people go check on/cover for her, not to mention that she doesn’t retain memories between bodies and they have to cover for her deaths too so like WHAT is the goal here!!!! Literally there are nothing but downsides to sending ur godspawn kid out into the public. Ok anyway. Moving on

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why DO people meme so hard on ‘get in the robot shinji’?? coming into this i really thought it was gonna take him half the damn series to get in the robot and that that was gonna be some kind of Climax, but it actually just happens in the first ep, and no one ever really has to ask or force him do it again after that? yeah he tries to quit half a dozen times, but all it really takes for him to come back around for another go in the eva is a fresh perspective. it’s more or less always his own choice.

i’ve heard a decent bit about shinji being an annoying or difficult-to-like character, and i... don’t get that at all? hes literally just a dude. A fucking babychild. coming into this i understood that he was young but i didn’t know he was Literally Fourteen, good lord dude. he’s definitely not a ‘good’ or standard type of personality for an anime protag but that’s literally the point? Like that is entirely central to what we are doing with this show. I’m not gonna say i’m a shinji Enjoyer; he’s mostly only my fave of the pilot kids by default, since asuka is,,,,,,, well. i’ll get to her in a moment, and rei you’re not Supposed to have an opinion on; but i am a shinji Defender. he has a couple of fun and strong character moments, and doesn’t really do anything egregiously awful or obnoxious so like. Literally leave him alone hes doing his best???

do people dislike him for that little tantrum he threw when he threatened to destory nerv hq? that one i can understand, but personally that was his strongest character moment for me. i’m pretty much always in favor of characters taking bold action for themselves, even if said action is outright a terrible/destructive choice. i think he shoulda done it. i would have supported him. the fact that he didn’t get to though is so.... oof. his most impactful moment for me for sure.  Like he absolutely was not bluffing, and the ONE time he really gets it in him to take charge of his own life and surroundings and he just gets such a harsh reminder that he’s still not the one in control.

this is kind of just the whole show with shinji. A friend pointed him out as being “trapped in the narrative” and wow god yeah. It’s just a cycle with him. he goes out in the eva and something fucked up happens to traumatize him and hes like oh my god why am i doing this and then while hes out trying to sort that out something nice happens to make him accept whatever fucked up thing he had to deal with so he gets back in the eva again and then something fucked up in a totally different way happens and rinse and repeat. it’s pretty good at escalating the different types of trauma each angel inflicts on him; if i really cared about plot or thematic analysis it might be fun to pick apart what exactly each does, BUT i dont. The two final ones dealing with having to hurt other humans is definitely cool though.

the one part i felt his characterization was Questionable was when he was going up against the jaws sphere, it is like. Super not his deal to ignore orders and leap into action? Really kind of a ‘he’s gotta do this because the plot needs him in this position’ moment but it was ultimately pretty minor so whatever

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So yeah asuka……Hm. Asuka. good lord. i’m not a fan of the whole ‘tsundere’ thing in the first place, but that alone wasn’t actually grating just bc it plays up against the much more stiff shinji and rei in really fun ways, and it’s also extremely funny just knowing she’s The Progenitor for that whole Type. her concept is fine and she very easily could have been a thoroughly Fun character but uhhhhhhhhhhh. uh oh. uh oh. oh no.

as the unfortunate vessel for most of nge’s Awful Bullshit i can’t say i was ever looking forward to having her onscreen. in the beginning she wasn’t even instigating it they just loved shoving her ass in shinji’s face for no reason or doing the classic wind blowing up her dress and shit like that. now to be clear i know this wasn’t the first instance of Fanservicey Anime Bullshit in eva, but it was much easier to tolerate before because.. well, one, katsuragi isn’t fucking fourteen, and 2 even when that shit happened with rei she didn’t have a Reaction to it. I think its really the reactions that make it insufferable for me. the kyaa! pervert! nonsense and the self-conscious anime girl yelling and the characters being visibly humiliated, also the halting whatever else was going on at the moment to do all this. this also did not happen with the katsuragi ass shots since she was still just having a normal fuckin conversation and carrying on the plot BUT i digress. asuka did start saying weird shit of her own accord later in but i still didn't hold it against Her Character so much as just "the writers are being weird". Yknow like it would just feel so forced and arbitrary every time she made some comment like that. For the longest time the only thing i blamed her character for is being fuckin sexist all the time. ‘shinji youre a man arent you’ he is 14 and traumatized as fuck leave him alone you are making things worse >:| 

In the end though, and i cannot believe i am saying this,  i do think all of that was at least conceptually justified. Not in execution, because all that came through there is their insistence on shoving naked 14-year-olds in your face, but conceptually the idea of asuka’s desperation to be seen as capable and mature manifesting as forced aggressive sexuality is honestly really solid. She wants to be seen as an Adult, so she jumps to the first idea she has for Things That Adults Do, which i guess is sex. This is kind of a fantastic notion for her character because 1, it’s shallow-showing she’s A Goddamn Child who has no actual understanding of what adulthood really means, and 2, it’s loud-a very visible and hard to ignore thing which bolsters her all the more to stick to it. While portraying this is obviously a super touchy subject, i can’t help but feel it wouldn’t have been. All that hard to so without it being,,, this bad. Don’t show it to the audience? Literally just don’t show the audience. I get they need to make the other characters uncomfortable to land the concept but like. Dont put asuka herself onscreen while it’s happening jfc. i still would have been HARD side-eyeing at it that way too but just. anything had to have been better than this bro.

ANYWAY. that nonsense out of the way, she did end up being kind of fascinating for her own. i have never seen a character so extremely, terminally, self-damning as asuka. i hear a lot about shinji being hopelessly miserable, and like, sure, but asuka has it so, SO much worse??????? shinji is miserable because he’s directionless; he doesn’t know what he wants or how to get it, but he knows a glimmer of hope when he sees it and never squanders it. were he ever given direction or a way to Find his path to happiness–or to at least a way to care about finding his path to happiness, i’m sure he’d be able to chase it pretty easily.

asuka does not have a path to happiness, or at least not for the time presented in the show. While it’s true if half her issue here is just “being 14”, her “i’d rather be dead than pitied” ideology isn’t something that will automatically solve itself with age. It stays mostly out of the way as long as she never fucks up but as soon as she DOES make any kind of big mistake it becomes pretty much her entire character. damaged pride is one thing, but usually the remedy for that is just other characters lifting her up if she can’t do it herself. here, this is not only not an option but also actively detrimental. It’s already incredibly self-destructive on its own, but i still wouldn’t quite call it “damning” yet just because like. If you’re ride or die committed to your personal philosophy, you’ll still die, but there’s probably some kind of underhanded gratification in it to chase it to its end. The thing is though that she’s not committed to it, and it’s honestly kind of hard to say to what extent she even believes in it at all.

this, i feel, is asuka’s defining moment, especially after her extensive agonizing in previous eps about having to be rescued by both shinji and rei. She can’t live with being helped because she wants to be independent, and yet she can’t live without help- with being alone-because she’s desperate to be seen and regarded as worthwhile.  

both of these are damned-if-you-do-damned-if-you-don’t situations! this kid is damned 4 ways ‘till thursday and the only way to get around it would be her undergoing some kind of minor ego death, and she is extremely not interested in letting this happen. shinji takes a blow and goes off to sulk for 3 days, has one positive interaction/experience, and gets a whole second wind. asuka takes a blow and falls into a pit of self-loathing [or really everything-loathing by the sound of it], aggressively refuses positive interactions, and tries to kill herself. It’s just like. Very telling i think that even though “everyone's depressed and miserable and dealing with shit Badly”  is a running theme in this show, asuka is the only one who attempts suicide.

If my interpretation of all this seems a little weird it’s because  “i’d rather be dead than pitied” is uhhhhhh unfortunately an ideology i’m very personally familiar with, and even though characters with that general idea aren’t too rare in media, i’ve never seen it BASICALLY stated verbatim, so. needless to say seeing asuka’s arc go the way it did did some things to me. whoops! anyway.

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i have to talk about katsuragi now ok. Ok. katsuragi is absolutely the hero of this show for me and it’s a little baffling she’s not like, A Recognizable Eva Character in laymen’s circles? Like coming into this I knew the pilot kid trio and a handful of the angels just from seeing stuff floating around the internet, and i could least recognize gendo from memes, but katsuragi? Entirely new territory here. what gives! She’s an incredible character and people should talk about her more because i am NOT about to be out here being the foremost katsuragi enjoyer in 2022. Come on

anyway man where do i even start. she’s everything. she’s got a cool car. she’s fiercely competent. she’s the man with the plan. she’s a domestic disaster. she notoriously cant cook for shit. she has a pet penguin [?!?]. she adopts two kids. shes a little bit crazy. She’s the butt of a lot of jokes. shes a rogue agent. she fucked her ex in an alley [??!?]. She has a drunken breakdown and needs help to get out of it. she hates her father. she has complicated feelings about her father. she’s on a vengeance quest. She accidentally gets attached to the kids in her care. she fucked her ex for government secrets. She’s sick of the expectations on her. she’s petty and emotional and weird, and most of all, she’s allowed to do all this without ever undermining her skill and authority, and the respect other characters have for her. im going to be real i don’t quite think all of her traits and flaws were intentionally written to be enjoyable but damn if i didn’t enjoy them anyway. Katsuragi has this real edge of emotional roughness to her that i feel like most female characters aren’t allowed to get into, and i really just??? Love her for it???? I thought i was gonna have a ton to say about her but honestly it all just comes back to “i really really really like how her flaws are written/handled alongside the rest of her character”.

I don’t have anything to like dissect about this line i just really like it. Eva had built up a pretty good bit of goodwill through its first 7 eps, and this really put a point on it. unfortunately it would then be ruined immediately in ep 8 BUT i did want to bring it up just because it was like. an ‘oh ok i can be justified for liking these characters’ type beat.

Also as far as the series ending goes i do have to be an apologist about her sorry. She literally has not done anything [more] wrong [than any of the other characters]!!  they wanna go through and list out all these characters’ insecurities and flaws and they go after katsuragi to slutshame her like  “Oh you're lonely so you use men to chase simple pleasures” and like. no?

First of all, every character’s breakdown was “you're lonely and/or afraid so that manifests as x”!!!! if she wants to fuck about it that’s her business! There is nothing inherently wrong with that! this COULD have still easily been a fatal flaw, like they could have presented it as a bunch of partners she’d had in a sort of use-and-abuse fashion and i’d have been like ok yeah this is an issue for you but they didn’t do that! the ONLY thing they talked about  was her less-than-stellar relationship--and subsequent messy breakup with kaiji**. Even if said breakup was largely her fault, she already acknowledged this and recognized the issues that led her to it! She has already apologized and openly admitted her fear to him, and that fear was explicitly why she ended the relationship! That is not intentionally “using” someone!!! you cannot call this a fatal flaw without more evidence. she had one messy relationship and she likes to fuck. That's a normal human flaw, try again. 

**this is actually a blessing in disguise, as it’s most of why i’m willing to look the other way when it comes to interpreting the more, uh, questionable aspects of her dynamic with shinji in nge. Like if the possible sexual implications there had been a Serious Deal for her character/portrayal i feel like it would have been brought up here, but since it wasn’t im happy to sweep it under the rug so it doesn’t ruin a character i otherwise really love. i do have a decent bit to say on this, but i’m saving it for the eoe post because it’s more relevant there and because, unlike eoe, my feelings towards nge are mostly positive so likewise i want to keep this post mostly positive. 

only thing she doesnt get a pass on is the alley sex like come on at least ONE of you has to have more class than that?!?!? It’s gotta be cold and dirty out there you are ON THE CONCRETE GROUND and there is VISIBLY A TRAIN GOING BY someone one is gonna see you!!! You’d have been better off fucking in a goddamn bathroom at that point

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akagi is the other unsung hero of this show, but in an in-universe way. this woman is holding this whole damn operation together. i don’t have much to say on her narratively, she’s got a very small presence, but as with suzuhara i think her lessened involvement really shows how eva lets simplified characters shine. I’m not gonna break down all of her appearances like i did for toji, but she has the same general “every time she’s onscreen they make excellent use of it” thing going on. she’s known the other NERV mainstays pretty far back and they’re really good at showing that familiarity through her dynamics with them. they just Know Things about eachother, and it’s played in a very natural and non-exposition-y way to inform stuff about the other characters’ pasts or motivations or how they’ve changed through the years or something like that. it’s good. she’s good. Always a delight to have you ma’am

Also im gonna say it. She should have been a lesbian. she has the vibes and it would have saved us all from... whatever that lategame nonsense with her and gendo was. c’mon girl LITERALLY anyone but gendo i know you have better taste than this. also x2 her dynamic with katsuragi is already great but i think it could have been even more interesting with some Subtext:tm: at play, even if unrequited. also x3 there is literally official art for this.

its literally right there. come ON

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also on side characters i never learned suzahara’s little nerd friend’s name but he’s really good too. his scene with shinji in e4 is wonderful and i think his being a dweeb does a good bit to enhance suzuhara’s character too, again just showing suzuhara isn’t an indiscriminate bully going after people who are ‘weird’ or lame or whatever since he clearly does not share this guy’s interest in military junk. also him cheerfully apologizing while suzuhara beats shinji up is just a great dynamic.

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I have to bring up penpen real quick just because no one ever told me theres a fucking penguin in this. hello? shinji just opens the door and theres a fucking penguin there and gets told thats his other roommate and we just have to accept that. I was looking at his wiki page and apparently 1. He lives in a spare freezer [very funny], and 2. katsuragi “took him with her from her previous job”  HELLO??? Did she steal a fucking penguin???? and what IS this thing’s level of sapience anyway. he eats out of a little doggy dish on the floor and doesn’t seem to have much capacity for communication, but knows how to use buttons and switches around the house, takes his own showers, and is apparently LITERATE???? lots of questions here but nonetheless i am very happy he exists. little guy :)

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kaji is.....*through gritted teeth*...........okay.......i guess. He does a lot of shit i want to kill him for but he also behaved himself at all the most crucial moments [providing gentle support when katsuragi was at her most vulnerable, and flatly ignoring all of asuka’s advances] so that makes him better than a lot of other characters. there’s a lot about him that easily could have gone way, way worse so ill take what i can fuckin get here. i don’t actually care about his narrative involvement at all sorry. i’m taking a petty point on this one. kind of glad he died just for getting to avoid the painfully obvious cliche of being the love interest katsuragi gets together with in the end, especially after treating her the way he does most of the time, and her still being really into him regardless for some reason. Would have felt like a really cheap and bullshit way to “justify” all of that. the most frustrating admission i have to make with this show is that "well, i'd rather it be between misato's tits, but failing that i'm choosing to die right here in my garden" is kind of unironically a fantastic line...he can have that one. That whole gardening scene was just really nice in general, and i do enjoy him as a sort of guide for shinji but other than that jesus christ dude.

i think he’s probably the most messy and plot device-y feeling character, though i recognize at least part of that is my general distaste for him so i have nothing else to say here.

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The little trio of field operations tech type guys…. Listen i know my fawning over literally every minor character is getting absurd at this point but like. I literally enjoy them. Ok. i think it’s really cool having a handful of just Actually Normal Guys along for the ride on this; seeing how The Horrors affect just the average joe kinda guy. For everyone else their own emotional torment is on pretty equal footing with all the impending physical threats, but these guys aren’t already super traumatized and have a much more surface-level relation to the horrors. Idk !i just think it’s neat seeing a different set of perspectives with them that lacks the tint of the Personal stakes/involvement the rest of the cast has with the whole situation; even if their reactions are pretty “generic” and could have been done with any random passerby in the city, i think it adds to it that it’s done with recurring guys, however minor. they are freshly Going Thru It but they persevere and i love them for this.

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gendo is notable just for how much he sucks. like it’s truly astonishing. i dont even mean in the abusive shitty father way. or, well, i do, because he IS also that, but even moreso he is just. so lame? he’s SO lame. all he does is sit there with his hands folded and say edgy ominous shit. some of that was definitely intentional and i think they also just couldn't afford more than one pose for the guy, but also....come on. Get a life loser.  even the peppermints guy somehow has more personality and intrigue than gendo and im pretty sure his only purpose is to sit in the bg to be intimidating and to mediate between nerv and seele.

anyway in ep18 he CLEANLY crosses the line from “obnoxiously distant and uncaring/nonreactive” to ”oh this guy is Actually evil”, in a... not really unexpected, but still very brutal way. given his interactions with rei it’s easy to think he’s still a somewhat benign dude overall and just hates shinji for being a failure son or whatever, BUT turns out actually shinji is the rule and rei is the exception instead of the other way ‘round. which, given what rei is... lol. lmao. [you of course don’t know that at this point though.] but no yeah this dude is just totally down to physically destroy some random kid by mentally destroying his own kid. oh and he also killed his wife. literally just astonishing how awful he is.

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oh yeah and kaworu exists. i guess. evidently people actually care about this guy? don’t get me wrong he’s a hell of a plot catalyst, but like as a character? Theres nothing there dude. he only exists for like 1.5 episodes and has zero agency, he’s just there to once again fill the quota of “new angel+traumatize shinji”. To be fair he is very good at this. But yeah i cannot give a shit about him, even as an angel. If i wanted to talk about individual angels i think i’d legit have more to say on that glowing one with psychic beams than the guy whose role is “suck up to shinji for an episode to make it extra painful when he inevitably has to die” i do think it’s insanely funny he shows up in so much of eva’s promo art though, what an absurd way to do a red herring.

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I moved this part out of the intro bc it’s a longer sidetrack but another thing that hooked me about the earlygame was actually the coverup explanation of the second impact as a meteor strike. It’s the first one you’re given, and a devastating natural disaster plays perfectly to the Somber tone eva thrives on. something unavoidable and unprovoked…. perhaps it is simply the bio nerd in me but the idea of earth and its life just trying to figure out how to exist again in the wake of something like that is awesome to me and did a ton to keep everything down to earth despite the giant robots and otherworldly horrors and whatnot. Definitely kind of a letdown to hear that’s just the cover-up explanation though, sort of turned it into your generic “humanity brought its own end” post-apocalypse thing, which may have been more novel at the time but it’s become pretty overdone these days. granted, eva’s a lot less overtly About said apocalypse than your typical modern post-apoc thing, and the… circumstances for this cataclysm are definitely a bit different, but still. “You couldn’t have stopped this, you can only repair after the fact” is an angle i’m vastly more interested in, and also one i don’t see as much.

coming out of that, 8-17 are definitely the low stretch for me. the introduction of kaji and asuka their Anime Bullshit™, and the tone turning to a more standard monster of the week mech battle thing definitely killed my engagement there. whether there was actually more dialogue or i had just gotten acclimated to the Usual lack conversation i can’t tell, but all the aforementioned stuff put a pretty big hit on my enjoyment regardless. it picked back up HARD with the fourth child stuff though, and the plot motion of the Really Fucked Up Shit from there was plenty enough to outweigh my other gripes.

As far as the ending goes… yeah it’s good. It’s lame as hell in execution but like conceptually it’s fine and i can’t really be too mad about anything seeing as they were evidently Out Of Money. They stuck the landing effectively enough; really about as well as they could have given such strict limitations, and i do actually think it’s extremely cool that they were able to frame “removing backgrounds and colors and clean lines” and “we literally can only get this part out as storyboards” as a legit storytelling thing. Still sad about the dozen hanging lore threads ofc but getting any followup on those means acknowledging the movie so i’ll gladly cut my losses

I think this might fall under ‘fakedeep’ and ‘not actually good’ but i do genuinely appreciate that while nge looooves to have intentionally confusing presentation, when they Want to say something  it’s never really inscrutable and/or buried in metaphor and symbolism. This isn’t a narrative critique or anything i’m just not very smart so i like that it’s still pretty straightforward.

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Obligatory section about the angel designs. Yeah they’re good too. Anyone knows me knows i am allllll the fuck about creature design, and even though these aren’t as in-depth as what i usually go for[mostly due to budget stuff no doubt, judging by what they did with ramiel in the rebuild] [again i havent seen rebuild but hot damn rebuild ramiel my beloved], i still really appreciate just how diverse most of them are. They don’t stick to any particular type of design logic, and it’s rare to see something actually embrace an “anything goes” ruleset as well as this does. Like you got ones that are sort of just fantasy animals, ones that are a funky combination or suggestion of earth animals, ones that are just arcane imposing shapes, ones that are kind of abstract interesting shapes, some that are humanoid, some that are just and then like…whatever the fuck was going on with that dna halo thing. The humanoid ones do feel a bit samey but also anyone who knows me knows thats pretty much always the opinion i have on human/oid designs fdjsdjkfd. They have pretty funky and diverse sets of shapes which is rad, but their attack methods are all… Pretty boring. Pretty much all of ‘em just attack with their hands in some way and i feel like theres a million other things they coulda done there but oh well. Bland attacks are consistent across a lot of them though, like half were just “extrude something through the guy”, though i don’t think i can really be too mean about it because elaborate fight sequences would Also require money lmao.

Anyway my fave is the spider, followed by the weird fuckin orange splatter comet thing and the eel type guy

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i just have to say this as a standalone point but why do people not meme on the part where an angel starts fucking shit up and they just drop the hallelujah chorus oh my GOD. we make fun of the elevator scene and rightfully so even though that wasn’t the only instance of a single frame lasting over a minute, but like. idk maybe they thought the hallelujah chorus souned cool and dramatic or something but it just made me lose my shit when it came on. asuka is going fucking through it and the most sanctimonious singsongy music is playing.

another really funny thing is how every time they do a scene with an eva unit they’re like “oh no! something is going wrong! cut the power! aaah it’s not responding we can’t stop it!! oh no this is unprecedented!”. yes this is very precedented actually it happens literally every time. i know theres no suspense in an easy mission and they’re trying to drive that controlling the evas is janky as hell but you gotta have SOME standard of success/normalcy to compare to sjkdskdfdsf

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on the rebuilds....yeah no i don’t intend on watching them [unless it’s as a group with friends or something] If i’ve communicated nothing else in all this, i’d hope i got across that i admire nge mostly for the incredible efficiency of its narrative. It’s tight, focused, makes the most of that it’s got, and doesn’t go anywhere it doesn’t need to. i wouldn’t have been able to see a purpose for the rebuilds to have a new character in the first place, and after hearing a bit about said character’s evident production hell, uhhhhh. Lmao. i’d already think it loses something by not having by not having such tight budget restraints-since those no doubt factored into the way its tone was played here, but if they’re also adding shit just to add shit i Really don’t care.

that’s it i dont have a cool conclusion to all this or anything. i just needed to get all the thoughts out so i didn’t go insane. thanks for reading!

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persona characters autism headcanons!

hi im autistic and i started my day with sun so now im !!!!!!!!! some of these headcanons are from elsewhere on tumbr, but i dont know where :(((  so i am hoping someone out there knows that n that everybody knows that i love them <3

(also go check out mollypaup and i think hypeswap if you havent already! they post some good stuff autism+adhd hc too!!! i think.. oh! and thieves-in-the-palace!!!)

P5

Joker

there was some artwork from someone on tublr..where they pointed out that he doesnt really talk outside the metaverse so--hes hyperverbal as joker and just near nonverbal as akiren

he stims ALL THE TIME. that phone thing, the pencil thing, the little tappy tap of his foot, pulling at his bangs when hes embarrassed/smug. someone get him a fidget spinner. he’ll prob learn to do tricks with it

he probably sucks at focusing in class, like i know its just the game design but hes always surprised out of his daily “star out the window at the nearby office building” when his teachers ask him questions

mona mentions when the pt is at Wilton for the first time (after they run into shido) that joker eats like shit, and that could have multiple causes at the start of the story of course, but when i first played i thought that joker was a picky eater and that the variety (and amount of food) at the buffet would be an Ordeal...

tho mona makes that comment bc joker looked pale after having a little ptsd moment from shidos voice, but i didnt know that the first time i played

maybe when joker makes a face at ryuji putting so much ginger in his gyudon? joker probably does not like pickled ginger lol

his favortive foods are all spicy, which is why the curry he makes for his friends is always ‘overly spicy’, and why kasumi makes him a curry bento and joker kept going “...?” .... “....?!”

overly reflective glasses have been a great plus for him bc now he never has to make real eye contact every again!

mona Soft. play with Ann hair. maybe Braid. nice

puns (Gorou the Goroumet)

he has so many options to be straight up rude sometimes in game. he probably no clue on his own, which is why he defaults to Not Talking. people probably mention his constant scary face, which is just him being nonexpressive, squinting at all the fucking bright lights, and Tired

executive function who? we do everything last minute folks

high pain tolerance, which is why he was the kid that was always climbing trees in elementary school to get basketballs unstuck from the branches

his sixth sense lets him see treasure and possible places to climb/crawl bc 1. Shiny? Steal it. Steal it Now. and 2. Could i fit in that? Time to Find Out

probalby a bit of a klepto too oops. he’ll return it tho!! but he has to do it dramatically or he’ll die

cant sit properly to save his life

smells and touch are Great, they can keep him grounded when his brain goes off to police or dead rivals or guilt or

if a friend hung out with him and gave him total reigns of the agenda, he would choose to nap on the floor while his friend does something off to the side quietly

hyperfocuses on handy tasks (i.e. lockpicks, coffee brewing, cleaning, his part time jobs) and some things like movies and books. everything else is a tossup

his (normal) navigation app is his most used app bc he still doesnt know where hes going, even though he only goes to the same few places in the city

hates being sweaty, literally cannot stand it. probably double exhausted during the summer

but Needs Compression so hes often Struggling

Futaba

paraphrase from p5d “i have no motor skills so i cant play rhythm games :(” need i say more? (i will regardless)

echolalia all the time, from anime, memes, the PT

those headphones she wears all the time? noise cancelling ear protectors babey

only talks about her interests, “normal” talking is Not Easy, but she is still communicative w others despite her worries. shes not “hard to understand” at all but she feels the anxiety nonetheless

only talks informally, cannot talk ‘politely’ with out imitating someone around her

shes had meltdowns and anxiety attacks in game :( i relate so hard

Technology. thats it

def had an egypt phase that pops up every few months. probably came from yu-gi-oh

has Immune to Bright Lights buff.  joker is very jealous

“Time to make like a tree and leave!” and 30 other iterations

video game metaphors are the only ones that makes sense to her

probably relates hard to robot characters in anime for their general androgyny and confusion about human emotions and connections

probably gets told that shes “too smart to be on the spectrum” by teachers >:( she fails their classes on purpose

wakaba’s autistic too that just how it is

the Connection that she establishes with Joker is so Warm. my life goals include adopting an older brother like futaba has lsdkfjslkfj

also eater of 5 foods only, i mean, she brings cup ramen to the beach. i just really admire her...

hides in small spaces for comfort

doesnt she have like uhhhhh hyperthymesia or something like that?

Yusuke

art

his entire social link is learning how humans work, which i relate

talks seriously all the time

“sarcasm? who is that? are you saying I was sarcastic?...how?”

cant remember to take care of his body, and madarame did not help with that either

lot of uncomfortable staring, hes overdoing the eye contact thingy

infodumps all the time, doesnt know hes doing it

needs a lot of support even if he doesnt think he deserves it. no one ever complains about helping him out tho

visual stims my friends

he didnt know that you could look up pictures on the internet but he does know you can stream live videos of waterfalls and fluffy animales!!

I am certainly in the mood

for something salty today.

he and joker are scared of math. numbers do not interact

Yusuke, futaba, and akiren are a trio and i know this bc their first day of non-thievery interacts is Akiren clearing Futabas room w/o permission, futaba hyperfocusing on destroying medjed, and yusuke rearranging futabas figurines so they are more visually appealing

morgana is a support friend for all of them bc igor knows they need it

P4

Souji/Yu

yes, he mostly wears gray semi formal clothes bc parents tell him to, no, he will not changes this

Schedule or Death

“sorry, could you repeat that?” “huh? oh yeah, i was saying that--” “yeah that’d be cool.”

cats, fishing, he just likes to be quiet. you can literally spend a day at the beach just to think if you want, and that is what yu want

has a lot of scripts for things (of which he shares with nanako!) but if he runs out he just stops talking..

inaba is a godsend bc its so fucking quiet and warm

he Yearns to hold his friends hands, but he shies away from a lot of touch (excepting yosuke, teddie, and nanako)

Cooking and Cleaning makes the world better. he and joker vibe together with this

unlike akiren, he strong arms any executive dysfunction into Be Productive or Else. his punishment is feeling the pure anxiety of having to make up for ‘lost time’. (another symptom of his workaholic parents)

writes everything down, notes are very neat, has pages dedicated for bad doodles when hes not feeling his usual Super Classroom Focus

Cannot handle secondhand embarrassment (most often caused by yosuke) and will quietly slip away to random cats or origami folding

hungry, crunch crunch folks. probably needs chewelry bc he used to chew on his shirt collars when he was younger.

cleans up after everyone in the food court, constantly worries about them accidently hurting themselves. likely spends half of group conversations watching peoples hands

he canonically eats expired food, nanako plz help your brother

really clumsy, but people only notice after they decide that he is a cool person

video games are too chaotic for him

exhausted every night from the pure amount of masking he does, if a friend spends the night (or is like yosuke) they will know his more comfortable weirdo self (tho everyone knows hes a weirdo eventually)

hyperempathetic, sometimes just understands animals and children better than peeople his age or older

Yukiko

her jokes

she and souji get in ‘trouble’ together, she and joker commit crimes together

she and chie have to coordinate outfits, its important

actually understands metaphors, but does not understand people

like me, had no clue that creepy kid was flirting with her

she is very angry when she has meltdowns that might involve slamming doors and shouting. her parents call these ‘tantrums’ and ‘unfitting for a polite daughter’ but really thats because her meltdowns tend to be caused by arguments w her family after a long day of school and TV world traipsing

the metronome meme, except hers goes between Loudest Person in the Room to Quietest Pin Drop in the Planet. she is completely unaware of this

her atmosphere brightens when chie appears. that is not only the lesbian energy within her, but also because chie is like her Favorite Person

Cannot wear Pants. No (tho she wants to try it! but she puts them on and her soul instantly squashes)

happy flappy lesbian! watch out!

Naoto

the pouty face. all the time lskdfjlasdkf

hes really snappy sometimes and i love that for him. he and akechi should fight just to see what would happen (please read Bang Bang Shoot Shoot on AO3)

“do not touch me or my hat, thank you”

no one has ever seen him shutdown and no one ever will (except for his grandpa)(and kanji)(and rise)

probably likes certain food textures and will stand for nothing less, probably feels embarrassed about his preferences with friends

constantly jumps between ‘everybody hates me so i should act like them so they dont hate me’ to ‘i refuse to be anything but very comfortable as myself, and i dont care that im making you upset sir’

he and souji are the king and queen of subtle stims, but for unhappy reasons :(

does not make jokes. cannot joke around. understand? yes, do? no.

loose clothes are the only good clothes, but all tags and obtrusive seams will be obliterated by kanji tatsumi

not very empathetic so he probably comes off as an asshole to strangers (like when he throws away his classmates confession letters without reading them) but he tries so hard to sound comforting when his buds are struggling.

his understanding of others emotions/reactions come from his learning as a detective, which seems cold+clinical to others, especially compared to souji, whos completely unexpressive but very introverted people person

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Hamuko/Minako/Kotone

big personality!! very people-oriented!! koromaru and her are buddies!! when shes having a real bad time, shes very quiet and expressions turn off

interrupts herself in the middle of conversations all the time. no one knows where shes coming from. her brains is thousands of km ahead of her body

bouncey legs, swingin arms, twirlly skirt, little somersaults! when will she stop? never!

very obvious music stims with her hands and arms! people are like “oh there she goes! happy as usual!” shes listening to minatos heavy metal playlist

switches from exhausted to excited within milliseconds. no one can predict, not even her

SEES has to ask her for context all the time cuz she’ll just continue shit from 2 weeks ago without warning

professionals will assume shes very childish bc of how chipper she is, but she is beyond mature for her age and only feels comfortable enough to have serious conversations if a person has proved themself able to handle it

collects every little thing. her room is a mess and she has to get rid of most of it every time she moves :(

hates cleaning! smells bad, feels bad hhhhhgggg

dont let mitsuru-senpai see her bedroom

gets lost in the middle of conversations with others bc shes thinking about a story connected to one(1) word that was said earlier

 no sense of time and place, she just sees her friends and goes “ah, this is the right place, then” but junpei and akihiko are also lost so now theyre all screwed

Minato/Makoto/Sakuya

no talkies, no walkies

his story in the movies is him literally learning how to function around people he cares for

doesnt get jokes, expressions, body language, empathy, subtlety, metaphors, physical contact, or eye contact. aigis is probably the only person he truly understands right away

he is still nice to people because he doesnt see a reason not to be, but also he has very limited energy so only his senpai and old people get his most polite-kindnesses

cannot describe feelings for the life of him. the team wont know hes injured or sick until hes passed out

everything is too loud, time to drown it out with my loud ass music

rocking and chewing stims, ryoji is the first person to point him out for these subtle stims (not accusingly of course, just general pure curiosity and love for the uniqueness of humanity)

likes to cover his face with whatever is available, lives like a bat in a dark dry cave

will wear anything that has pockets and his blue/gray/black palette

sleepy at all times bc he never has much energy

when he was younger he probably needed a lot of support, especially after his parents died, because he wouldnt communicate like a neurotypical and would shutdown for hours in the middle of school without warning. probably missed a lot of lessons and field trips out of pure overstimulation

eating at all times. no preference, just whatevers closest

his meltdowns probalby include humming whining noises and curling up in a ball, which makes people want to touch him, but that is the LAST thing he wants. put a blanket on him! play some music! do not talk and do not expect him to speak

aigis is the only person who can touch him normally bc her hands are cold and he likes cold

never nude, feels mmmmmmmmm without clothes and probalby wears a full robe in the hotsprings

will not do things that take more than one step w/o someone else walking him thru it, which Same

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Katara!

KATARA KATARA KATARA

why I like them

oh god where do i even start. katara just contains so many multitudes - she's sweet and feminine and caring and attentive but she's never reduced to just that, she's never just 'the girl', she's also allowed to get mad, to be petty, to laugh at her brother, to be headstrong and stubborn, to express vulnerability, to cry and to laugh, to make ridiculous facial expressions and *be* very expressive. she's dealing with a lot of trauma not simply from the loss of her mother but that loss represents also how her tribe have been decimated by the fire nation, how she's the last waterbender, how all this pressure exists on her shoulders (but also pride, but also determination, to bring it back) and that is expressed subtly throughout the series with the same depth and love that male characters are afforded with regard to their respective traumatic experiences. and despite all this she never tries to stop making the world good? She's always pushing for change, she's always wanting to make things better, she's relentless and doesn't give up when it comes to her vision for a better world... she has such a big heart. and that coexists with a deep anger in her, and deep hurt. Not to make an ocean metaphor so early on but she's as deadly and deep as the ocean but she chooses to be kind and warm and that's so powerful.

why i don't

honnestly while katara's instincts to mother people are a sad symptom of how she was forced to grow up to soon and automaically asigns herself a role of emotional responsibility she has mixed feelings about, i know that if katara tried to mother me, i would be annoyed. but that sounds more like a me problem.

favourite episode

oh it's either the episode where she beats the fucking shit out of pakku or it's the southern raiders. the first one because it's so gratifying to see how she's grown and developed as a bender and really come into her own. the second because... god i love how *messy* the southern raiders is, and it really taps into what i love about katara - she's flawed, she runs off on an ill-thought out revenge mission with zuko, she's got a great capability for darkness as she quite seriously considers murdering a man she has every right to loathe and to kill - but she chooses against it, in the end. it would not be right for her, if not him. she chooses what's right for her in the end.

favourite season

I'm gonna be a wee bit controversial and say book 1 had the best conception of katara's arc from student to master and really saw her grow and flourish, from someone yelling at her brother' oafish prejudice to a real master, that really solidified her as an idealist and presented that as the strength that is, that showed her struggling with petty jealousy of aang's progress and had her stumble in ways that made her character comeplling and interesting - like what an introduction to her character! book 2 had some fantastic moments but i can't think of anything particularly remarkable about hee character arc - largely because it tied into aang's romantic arc i think at this point. book 3 had some absolutely fantastic moments (scam queens katara and toph!! painted lady!! southern raiders!! the final agni kai) that really shone but also book 3 lays a lot of groundwork for fanon i hate (e.g. katara as the mom friend - wish that headcanon would die tbh)

favourite line

fuck there's a lot of good ones but my underrated fave is when sokka says he's kissed a girl before but she's never met her and katara says 'Who? Gran-gran? I've met gran-gran' and it's bruuutaaall

but my favourite serious line is 'I will never ever give up on people who need me'. powerful.

favourite outfit

water tribe anything!! and i actually think her book one/book two braids are her best hair. underrated katara hair. personally she looks just adorable in her parka in the flashback to when she was like. eight.

OTP

katara/personal fulfilment

katara/happiness

katara/fulfilling her goals and dreams

katara/loving minor background character who is never named

there's some ships i like in AU situations - yuetara is actually one i lov, especially with waterbender yue, i just love the whole sea/moon thing as well as katara and yue rebelling in loud/quiet ways, being girlfriends who refuse to have their lives defined by the expectations of older men, who have a great sense of duty towards their nations and won’t let gendered expectations stop them.

and most of you know i like the messy drama of katara/azula in a lighter AU situation where they're like, school or academic rivals, and the legacy of imperialism isn’t quite so personal (and azula makes better choices, obviously), but it’s not as much as i “ship” them as i just find the potential dynamic interesting, they’re both driven by a sense of duty for their home, it’s just that means *very* different things depending if you’re SWT or FN.

none of them are OTPs though - they’re more just fun thought experiments

brotp

katara & sokka - absolutely love their sibling dynamic its amazing. both have been impacted negatively by the shit in their lives and are not always dealing with it in functional ways but theyre there for each other, through thick and thin, always have each other's backs, they roast each other and bicker and sometimes make stupid decisions and sometimes lash out but at the end of the day their love pulls through, they’re able to work past those conflicts.

katara & aang - honestly while i feel kataang was just so poorly executed in the show (listen guys I just can’t after ember island players, i know that was a bad episode, but i can’t) & i cant imagine katara wanting to leave the south pole after the war for long spells (it would have to be long distance love, lots of profound and heartfelt letters and occasional visits, if anything, but i dont know if that’s what katara wants or needs? so maybe it wouldn’t pan out?), but regardless, i really do think these two had a life-changing friendship where each really represented hope for each other, that's at the core of it, they both truly believe in each other, and inspired each other. katara & aang good.

a headcanon

chief katara anyone?? chief katara?!?! 

oh oh OH i also think that katara, while primarily a combat bender during the war, actually takes to healing a lot more after the show and gets proper healing training at some point with the help of a trained medical expert and maybe yugoda. tbh i feel like the show was a bit dismissive of healing as an ability - i feel like having that is *extremely* useful in any combat situation, you always have a medic on hand - but i understand why katara, who wanted to be recognised as powerful regardless of her gender, and wanted to hold herself in a fight alongside sokka & aang, pushed for combat waterbending training because that is what 'powerful' looks like to her in the moment. obviously katara is capable of incredible healing feats (see: saving aang) but i think given we see her as a healer in lok (not a decision i necessarily disagree with) would mean a shift in focus. i think katara actually comes to realise she likes healing a great deal, but really she excels in all aspects of waterbending and is the south’s most respected master who helped rejuvenate southern style waterbending  

unpopular opinion

the main reason people think katara is straight is because we see her have very few meaningful interactions with other girls outside of toph. ATLA as a show is a bit romance obsessed, and very heteronormative in that regard, and so interactions with minor characters almost always line up with a potential crush for sokka or katara, and later, zuko (suki, haru, jet, yue, song, jin....). we rarely see katara build friendships with other girls and it’s such a damn shame.

(anyway bi katara for life)

a wish

the version of the puppetmaster we saw was actually fire nation propaganda, i feel like katara would have felt deep compassion for a prisoner of war and after maybe some clashes, would have agreed to help smuggle her out of the fire nation and secure passage home for hama, and tried to assure her that she still has a place there. the treatment of hama in that episode was awful (but also hama was written to be almost cartoonishly evil, very much an evil witch in her cottage in the spooky woods? like the whole horror movie / spooky story opening was such a big tell) and tbh i reject the thesis that we saw ‘katara’s dark potential’ in that episode completely, or that bloodbending as a power is inherently dark, or katara’s use of it to stop hama ‘corrupted’ her. I feel like katara might feel this way as a teenager perhaps but with time (she can be a little black and white at times), and especially with more training as a healer, i think she might realise that’s not the case, she’ll realise that she was right to try and oppose hama, her elder (she was lashing out rather than really trying to oppose the fire nation), and it wasn’t a betrayal of her or her beliefs, but also her use of bloodbending wasn’t wrong or evil inherently at all? and maybe she’d find ways to use it for healing purposes? anyway my wish is that, i like the idea that they meet again, speak about their differences, reconcile a little / come to an understanding, and katara learns more from hama again

an oh-god-please-don't-ever-happen

anything where katara’s character is reduced to a comforter or a healing device for a man and his trauma. particularly zuko. (they don’t have that dynamic in canon thankfully, zuko would never, zuko respects her too much)

5 words to describe them:

idealistic, hard-working, powerful, headstrong, kind

my nickname for them:

chief. or comrade. :^)

[redloftwingfeathers]

Okay, big post time.

2019 was definitely a shit show, especially towards the end of 2018 as it transitioned into January. Work was slow, so I barely had any hours to put in, which meant I was pretty much running on less than $50 a month. Keep in mind I had two jobs in the same field. Neither of them had any work for me, free lancing SUCKS. Summer of 2019 I picked up a third job and waitressed for 6 months. It was great, I had spare cash for gas, I could pay for my cat's meds before his unfortunate passing and I was able to afford some things for christmas when the holidays came round. Ditched waitressing by mid December though bc I couldn't take the stress anymore, and I didn't get along with the head chef so that was my last straw. On top of that, my mom really relies on me as her mode of transportation, so I've been her Uber for a hot while. I'm really looking forward for 2020 this year. Business is starting to pick up with my art jobs again, my first boss finally bought a place we're leasing, so this means we actually have a studio and don't have to travel as much, but she still wants to keep that gig up. Second boss, I can feel her becoming more organized but she's still a bit air headed and I feel like it just...is a chore to keep up with her. I want to leave but it's hard when she keeps complimenting me and loving that I work for her. So maybe something will change for the best.

In other news, as of a month now I've been on my new antidepressant and although I still have a neutral emotion set in place, my intrusive thoughts have been muffled and I don't lay in bed for an extra hour anymore. I feel motivated to get things done and it's such a weird experience. My executive dysfunction was horrible to the point even I was convinced I was just being lazy like a mopey zoo animal. My brain is so surprised at itself for actually functioning like a normal person, i dont even think I'm fully processing everything, I just get up and do it without second thought. Wild. I don't think I can cry though. So we'll see how that plays out.

I've been fucking HOOKED on Fate/Grand Order the past 3 fucking years so if you play, dm me and I'll add you as a friend. These antidepressants are making me actually grind/farm for hours on end it's fuckjng wild.

Apparently I have a vitamin D deficiency, so I'm excited to see where that goes.

And recently my niece has piqued an interest in the legend of zelda franchise, so I've slowly been teaching her the lore and introduced her to Ocarina of Time on my 3ds. I wanted my wii to be hooked up but I can't even find it, let alone the disc so that's concerning.

I'm really looking forward to coming back to this blog, I've treated it more as a side blog when this was my main account..

On top of all that, I super appreciate you guys that do follow for my content, even when I fuck off for like 2 months. I'm literally 5 followers away from 4K. Like. that's fucking NUTS. You like my shitposts?? And Zelda tangents?? Thank you, bless you, what the fuck, that's so cool!! It makes me feel all warm and tingly inside. You guys honestly rock. Thank you, especially to y'all that's been here since 2011. You're the real mvp for dealing with my mod podge of a blog.

Again, I'm really looking forward to good things 2020. I hope good things come to you guys as well!!

[blubberquark]

AsyncIO for the working PyGame programmer (part III) - Pitfalls

Table of Contents

Race Conditions

Resource Conflicts

Architecture and Composability

Future-Proofing

Best Practices

Race Conditions

Here is a simple multithreaded python program to demonstrate race conditions. One thread sequentially increments my_numbers["b"], while two more threads increment my_numbers["a"] in parallel. Can you guess what this program will print out?

import threading my_numbers=dict(a=0, b=0) def incrementer(key, times): for i in range(times): my_numbers[key]+=1 thread_1=threading.Thread(target=incrementer, args=("a", 5_000_000)) thread_2=threading.Thread(target=incrementer, args=("a", 5_000_000)) thread_3=threading.Thread(target=incrementer, args=("b", 10_000_000)) thread_1.start() thread_2.start() thread_3.start() thread_1.join() thread_2.join() thread_3.join() print(my_numbers)

Even a simple line of code like my_numbers[key]+=1 is made up of multiple operations in the python interpreter. Getting the value of my_numbers, resolving the __getitem__ method, getting the value, incrementing, et cetera. CPython's GIL guarantees that all this will never lead to segmentation faults, premature garbage collection, or corrupted memory. It does not guarantee that everything executes in a sensible order. Too often, both threads read my_numbers[key], increment the value at the same time, and write my_numbers[key]+1 back, so one incrementing operation was superfluous. Even worse, there could be a situation where one thread wants to write my_numbers[key]+1 back, but it gets pre-empted. The other thread runs on, incrementing the value hundreds of times, until it itself gets pre-empted, and the first thread finally writes my_numbers[key]+1 back, even though at this time the number is much less that what the other thread had already computed.

It's not as easy to make the same mistake with asyncio, but if you try hard enough, you can also shoot yourself in the foot. At least, you can spot the bug in this version of the code right away: There is an await in between reading a value and writing back the result.

import asyncio import random my_numbers=dict(a=0, b=0) async def bad_async_incrementer(key, times): await asyncio.sleep(random.random()) for i in range(times): x=my_numbers[key] await asyncio.sleep(0.01) my_numbers[key]=x+1 coro1=bad_async_incrementer("a", 50) coro2=bad_async_incrementer("a", 50) coro3=bad_async_incrementer("b", 100) loop=asyncio.get_event_loop() loop.run_until_complete(asyncio.gather(coro1,coro2,coro3)) print(my_numbers)

I had to add random sleep times to overcome the somewhat deterministic nature of the event loop scheduling to make this example work, but in a real-world application, the timing of network input won't be deterministic either, and you can have multiple await statements in one coroutine.

It's probably best not to read and write global state in threads or async tasks. You should rather use local or thread-local variables. If you really have to modify global state, wrap all your critical sections in locks!

Resource Conflicts

I don't know what happens when two threads are trying to read from or write to the same socket in a multi-threaded python program. Maybe the input gets duplicated, maybe the output is interleaved, maybe there is some low-level locking. Even if the underlying OS operations are atomic, I have no clue if the Python standard library maybe splits the data up and processes it via multiple system calls. If you write code on top of well-behaved libraries (which correctly lock a socket before while reading or writing) your code could still invoke multiple of these "atomic" function calls in a row from different threads, leading to interleaved input or output.

When two coroutine tasks inside the same event loop await input from the same source at the same time, the result is usually this: The event loop does not know which one task to wake up next, and raises an exception.

If you have multiple tasks that want to send requests or do back-and-forth handshakes over the same connection, they each need to acquire a lock on the connection before they can communicate, and release it afterwards. Otherwise, your scheduler might raise an exception if you are lucky, or as above, the data coming from different threads could be interleaved or switched around! You must avoid resource conflicts by correctly using locks, and incorrect use of locks can cause deadlocks.

This might not look like a common occurrence in client software, but every time you have a bi-directional request-response protocol, like JSON-RPC, or a chat service where multiple users can send messages, the protocol is already more complicated than the simple, deterministic lock-step of HTTP.

Even though asyncio is completely single-threaded, it still provides concurrency. You will fave to deal with the familiar problems you know and hate from multi-threaded concurrency: Race conditions and deadlocks. The asyncio module does not help you with timing and correctness, is not a way to sidestep the GIL for CPU-heavy multi-core parallel computation, and will not make your programs easier to read. It is just a standardised API for concurrent, single-threaded, asynchronous I/O.

Architecture and Composability

Broadly speaking, you can't call asynchronous code, as in code marked with async def from regular synchronous code. That is also true in other asynchronous, event-based architectures like node.js, and shown with a table like this:

  in synch code in async code can call synch code yes yes can call async code NO yes

This is technically correct, but at the same time somewhat misleading. While you can call synchronous code from async code, and you cannot use await outside of an async function, in practice you cannot just invoke any old bit of synchronous code from async code running inside an event loop. Any blocking I/O inside a coroutine will cause the whole event loop to block. That won't be a problem if you debug your application with a single client, or a single task in your event loop, but it will come back to haunt you in production. Python doesn't track which functions are pure functions, which functions have side effects, and whether they cause I/O or other system calls.

If your "synchronous" code is actually creating threads, you have to be extra careful, as Pythons thread synchronisation mechanisms and data structures in Python are different from those in asyncio. If your async code calls synchronous code that invokes callbacks, you might need to make sure that these callbacks are scheduled as tasks in your event loop again. Probably that means using as callbacks synchronous stubs that create coroutines and submit them to your event loop to be executed as tasks. It gets hairy fast.

Similarly, you can just evaluate a coroutine inside synchronous code if you really want to, by creating a new event loop and using loop.run_until_complete(coroutine). But you probably shouldn't. If you are inside async code, you should just use await instead of messing with the loop. The worst-case scenario here is creating new loop from synchronous code that was called from async code, causing the outer event loop to hang until the inner event loop has been completed. This way, as long as any task in the inner loop is waiting, no task in the outer loop can do anything, even if there is input available.

As a general rule, your asyncio programs should use one thread and one event loop. If you absolutely have to use multiple threads, you should still only use one loop, and have that run in its own thread, and use thread-safe methods to submit tasks to it. Don't have multiple loops in multiple threads, and don't call loop.run_until_complete(coroutine) or loop.run_forever() from different threads.

If you are using a GUI toolkit with asyncio, you will probably have to spawn one GUI thread, and one "worker" thread with the event loop. You could also try handling UI events inside the event loop, or writing your own GUI mainloop that periodically calls the event loop (like my own approach to using asyncio with pygame at 30/60 FPS).

You get the most out of asyncio if you run a single-threaded server with only one event loop that handles all concurrency for you, and any long-running computations are either done by a fancy message queue middleware, or with concurrent.futures.ProcessPoolExecutor.

Further Reading

What Color Is Your Function? - Explanation of what can call what in node.js

I Don't Understand asyncio - Outsider view of the asyncio ecosystem from 2016

Controlling Python Async Creep - Critical view of the asyncio architecture and ecosystem in 2018

Future-Proofing

It gets worse. Application code might do weird things like calling your async library from a thread, or calling your threaded code from a coroutine, but application code might also use something like gevent, twisted or tornado - async frameworks from the Python 2 era. Gevent adds green threads to the Python interpreter, and monkey-patches common i/o operations to allow task switching while waiting on blocking input. Twisted implemented its own event loop, but can now be used on top of a Python 3.6 SelectorEventLoop. The same goes for Tornado.

If your library monkey-patches i/o operations, that could create problems when you use more than one of them. If your library uses its own event loop, or even worse, implements its own event-based scheduling, then two different event-based libraries will block each other.

If you use a non-standard event loop/scheduler, it better be compatible with asyncio coroutines, and you better make sure to schedule all tasks in the same loop. If one library uses the default asyncio loop via get_event_loop(), and another creates a new one with Twisted or Tornado, you have a problem, and the tasks from these two libraries will not be interleaved.

In the future, we might get API improvements for=asyncio, but for backward compatibility, everybody has to support the old API. Somebody might write a nice, stable, thread-like interface on top of asyncio, like thredo (https://github.com/dabeaz/thredo), but if such an interface will need to have a way to call async code that uses the low-level asyncio module. Otherwise, you will get the same problems again, with the event loop and coroutines inaccessible and hidden behind a swanky interface.

Best Practices

If you are doing request-response-request-response things, wrap every request-response cycle in a lock to make sure another task doesn't accidentally get the response to your request.

If you read multiple times from a socket, for instance a first you read a length field, and then you read until you have read that many bytes, then wrap the whole thing in a lock.

If you read and write global or shared data structures, then make sure to either use locks, or to not await in between reading and writing.

If you are writing a library, don't hide away the async behind a synchronous API. Just write coroutines, and let the use create the event loop and schedule tasks.

If you provide a synchronous API, at least allow the user to pass in an event loop.

Do not create more than one event loop per program. You can have one per thread, but even that defeats the purpose of the event loop.

If you write your own high-level asyncio wrapper, please make it interoperable with plain asyncio.

[modiintrainguy]

update... Everybody’s humpin around

Thursday, Dec 19, 2019, 12:48

Ok i meant to put “Getting over that hump” and put this picture:

Anyway, had a good chat today with AL.

Even though ive talked alot about stuff and we haven’t really got to any real practical thingsi think we are making progress to understanding things.

One thing that was interesting was the idea that he usually uses the phrase “the ADHD brain” which leads me to questions like i asked in the previous post, about whewther it is really mr problem and whether i need to get diagnosed.

so he said really irts about working out how “Jeremy Last’s brain” works and the issues this creates and how i can deal with them better to get from A - where i am now (nervous alot of the time, worried about putting things off, stressed, doing everytrhing last minute, getting upset and frustrated and having arguments) to B - where i want to be (happy, fine etc).

So we went over this morning’s post and he made some interesting points, including what i wrote just now about the jeremy last brain (see paragraph 2!).

Executive function

 “It is about not being able to use “executive function” properly so you you find it very hard to make decisions.”

He noted that it’s not only about it being hard to “make decisions” but about “executing” ie doing things.

These things aren’t gonna work

if the problem is the “adhd brain,” then trying to make me “happier” by

giving me drugs to increase serotonin and/or dopamine and norepinephrine to supposedly make me happy

encouraging me to relax and then use my rationality to realise what the real problem is  

think about what made upset as a child and how that influenced me as an adult,

do cbt to focus on the realy problem

isnt going to work.

because even if i feel happier or think rationally, i still dont get over the hump and do what i need to do or become less frustrated because the “adhd” brain stops me from doing the rational thing even if i know what it is and im relaxed.

He made a strong point about what he means with “if i think rationally” and why i still dont get overt the hump.

It’s important to note that it’s that when regular people think rationally, it means knowing what the problem is and finding the solution - then they just do it cos they know what to do and why its worth doing. Me, with a “Jeremy Last brain” (see what i did there!) still doesnt do it so i need to stop and think what techniques can i use to move myself from knowing what to do to actualy doing it. 

the obvious classic ones are deadline and visualize the goal, but we haven’t got to working out exactly what will work for me.

Can a pause work?

I kind of dismissed the idea of a “pregnant pause” ie taking a second to consider what im going to say or do before i say or do it.

this could have prevented all the problems with the mrs the last 2 days.

i thought it wont work cos a,. i cant do it and b. even if i do i cant think properly.

he said it can work and is something to consider, but also to see it more as a plaster - it can solve the problem in the moment but better not to get to that moment, e.g. to plan shul on friday night etc.

The issues

The issues therefore are:

is it ok to blame it all (or most of it) on me having an “adhd brain? it seems like it is the main problem but is that a cop out?

one sec, how do i know i have an “adhd brain” - i haven’t been diagnosed, so should i be? is there a real accurate diagnosis u can get anyway. and will i get it done considering my main problem is putting things off!?

even if i am diagnosed and it seems this is the main problem, what the fuck do we do now? can i actually get over the hump and get things done and not be rude when im stressed?

how bad can i be, considering i still get things done ok.

So! re all this he said:

1. no it’s not a cop out - i should never “blame” the adhd/jeremy last brain because i am always 100% responsible for my actions.

Is the “ADHD/Jeremy Last” brain the reason. ultimately it doesnt matter. i act in certain ways and it is up to me to understand what i do, try and work out why and improve it i.e. come up with solutions.

2. diagnosis - it could help but its also likely to be incoonclusive.

3. ahhhh what do we do now - this is hopefully the practical stuff that’s coming up. he b elives i can get from A to B. i hope so after 20 years of drugs and therapy and not getting that close despite improving.

4. I’m not that bad! but it doesnt mean i can’t and dont need to improve. clearly i do. i mean right now ive already cleaned up and hung the washing and almost finished cooking lunch for shabbat (chicken, roast potatoes and sweet potatoes and courgettes!). 

The problem with previous efforts is they were working from the wrong “rule book” - without taking the “adhd/jeremy last” brain into account the answers werent going to get me from A to the ultimate goal of “B” - feeling fine.

That’s it for the moment.

gonna run in a bit when the chickens ready - that’ll be 6 days in a row!

[yazmaeylemi]

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The significant and also is that the majority of, if not all of these cost-free products, are delivered right to the mom's residence. And, with that said, lets obtain right down to the nitty abrasive. Do you have the software you require to start? At some time you are mosting likely to want to transport your infant, so you will certainly need to buy something. Unless you're preparing to hold on to them for your next infant, they're just accumulating dust. With a couple of basic abilities, a convenient collection of "stuff, " as well as simply a little bit of preparation and also preparation, youll be on your means! There is a place for TV in our lives and it desires all the fastest way of absorbing information from worldwide. Taking courses abroad Right here, the poet uses the spiritual narrative to explain the time, place as well as emotions that his love was established on, talking them as if they were in some way implied to take place. Probably she thought that was her area on the planet and also no-one can fault her if she executed her responsibilities to the utmost of her ability. I as soon as had a neighbour that informed the globe and it's mom she believed sanitation was beside Godliness and spent throughout the day every day cleansing her home. It is believed that from this you really have the alternative to take a look at everything prior to you also have to purchase something. Tight neck lines would certainly problem you as well as also the positioning of buttons at odd settings would cause you problems, so check these in advance. At the very same time the buttons and also various other aspects in the design need to be carefully stitched. Yet Betty had the cash money each time I went to prison This tune additionally illustrates using contrasting stories to reveal love. This example better shows the use of initial language in conversational stories. The poet feels it is inappropriate for any individual to "call you out your name ", or simply put, use demeaning language toward his love. A number of the infant shower concepts will help any place, indoors or out. Do you desire your baby to look adorable or amazing with baby clothing however you do not have ideas on where to look for them? Expense is a significant point you would certainly want to think about when buying baby garments. It's very easy, check out an infant clothing shop. Apparel care plays a huge duty in your child's safety. Hence, it is constantly advised that you keep the safety and comfort variable in mind even when you are looking for occasion outfits for your little one. Also when you have actually bought a lacy shirt for your tiny girl, if you wind up getting a dimension that takes place to be a little larger than her real size, she will fit in it. And, moms and dads will be most likely to maintain getting clothes to stay up to date with the alterations in the child's development - dimension, weight, size, and shape. Hence, buying garments that are somewhat bigger than the real size of your infants body presents will certainly be great as it guarantees optimal comfort for the youngster.

However, these immunization processes will only make their systems strong however it doesn't offer an assurance that germs can't penetrate their method. So why did she act this way? The exact same point can be true with, certainly with tube pregnancies, thats why those 2 can be puzzled. Yes it holds true that baby clothing do not last lengthy with kids expanding as quick as they do, yet caring for an infants garments is still simply as, otherwise even more, crucial. Hip-Hop, you the love of my life and also that holds true This flow is one-of-a-kind due to the fact that it makes use of both the metaphoric and also contrasting narrative strategies. The discussion of Hip-Hop like stories is a really uphill struggle. As well as that leads us to the most prominent metaphoric Hip-Hop love story of our time. Children will certainly like this dish. Thick and also cosy outfits will certainly keep the infant cozy from head to toe. Right here is a checklist of popular products that has actually been investigated with some of the largest on-line retailers of infant products. Here are some of the standard things you'll desire to have. Do you intend to offer a gift to a brand-new mom without investing a whole lot of money? They utilize it when cleaning to eliminate smells, soften the materials, and give your baby and also kid apparel a fresh and a lot more natural fragrance. When you are thinking of your kids convenience, its not only regarding the design of the clothes youre buying it will additionally be an issue of just how the product rests on your infants body. Take into consideration exactly how much you have into the product. The next time you are re-assembling your kit, make certain to include that item. I would rather hang around with my household and also good friends, chatting on the phone, going for long strolls or dancing the evening away. With all that having actually been said, Ive discovered a new food that I recognize I'm going to enjoy. Quickly you'll discover that having only a few good outfits comes to be impractical. I had a great totally free website a couple of years ago I saw on a daily basis. Utilize your Road Experience logbook to tape-record everyones comments regarding the day. This will serve no great as purchasing child items indiscriminately will not simply be waste of money but additionally waste of time and also power which you can put for some positive usage. If taking a trip by vehicle you need to always make use of a safety seat as well as comply with the manufacturer's instructions for suitable. If your journey limitation is no even more than a one-hour automobile flight one means, then search for areas of passion within regarding 40 miles of home. Which is not a problem since much like kidneys, similar to testis, ladies with one ovary can have equally as several children as a female with 2 ovaries and 2 tubes. Apparently it is a 2x matrix, indicating those initial two individuals you obtained to sign up with are on your first degree. You need to constantly have 2 pairs at night time, because you never recognize when a child is mosting likely to spew up or have a baby diaper leak that can call for a total garment modification.

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FOR THE LAST YEAR, even before the Brett Kavanaugh hearings, there has been a common conversation happening in conference rooms and executive offices around the country — between men and women. It is some variation on this: a woman says, “Have you seen the news about—” the latest high-profile and powerful man from their industry making headlines for his pattern of sexual harassment and assault.

The man shakes his head. “It’s crazy. We didn’t even know!”

The woman proceeds cautiously. “Well, we sort of did, didn’t we? I mean we hadn’t seen the article yet, but we knew.”

The man is confused. “I didn’t know anything. I mean, I didn’t know it for real. It was all just rumors before the article — and you can’t punish someone based on a rumor. Crazy though — and you’ve always hated him.”

“Yes,” says the woman, “I always have. Because I did know.”

How can it be that prominent men have serially sexually harassed and assaulted women for years — and men are only “finding out” when the story breaks in the press, while women all nod knowingly and explain that we’ve known forever?

It’s because knowing and not knowing — about predatory male behavior — means very different things for men and for women. What counts as knowing? Who needs to know what when?

The Not-Knowing

In most Western countries, the concepts of due process and the presumption of innocence are the foundations of our societal systems of justice and accountability. Over the centuries, men in positions of power created these systems, which rely on a very particular kind of knowing: first, a straightforward “coherent” narrative — a linear story line of events. Second, there must be witnesses, alibis, and other evidence to prove this narrative. And finally, there must be confirmation from others — usually other men, be they judges, senators, or journalists — that the narrative and the evidence match up. Anything short of this is perceived to be just a rumor. And as many people believe, “You can’t punish him based on a rumor.”

These systems were ostensibly set up to protect the weakest, and many of us believe strongly in their ability to do that. But they are not working for women when it comes to sexual violence. These systems are inherently male-centric; they were created by white men with only white men in the room over many centuries, and thus the legal standard of proof is very high, and women are likely to be disbelieved when their accusations are about men.

Women, who have been viewed as full citizens in modern nations only recently, are forced to use those systems to be heard and believed. Post-colonial theorists describe this as forcing the oppressed to speak in the language of the oppressor. The cold, intellectualized distance of due process does not take into account the realities of sexual violence and the needs of those who have suffered trauma. Like all marginalized or oppressed groups, women are asked to convey our experiences within a system created by our abusers in order to be believed, in order for our truth to be knowable.

One of the revelations of the #MeToo moment is the broad understanding that every woman in our society has endured sexual violence in one way or another and all of us carry the effects of those traumas with us in various ways in our lives. This is compounded by the intersectional realities of our identities — women of color face a different layer of discrimination than white women, as do Native women, fat women, Latina women, Jewish women, Muslim women, trans women.

We were the victim of incest, our closest friend in college or high school was drugged and date-raped, we were cat-called every day for three years on our way into our office or outside of our house and never said a word, our boss told us to loosen up and that we “just need a good lay,” we were denied a job we were qualified for because someone thought we seemed too ambitious or too shrill or not charismatic enough or unpresentable, we were made to feel like our husband owned our body and had a right to it whenever he wanted, and on and on.

My husband, a psychoanalyst with training in trauma, says that one of the first indicators that a person has experienced trauma is no speech, or stuttered speech, or dazed speech. When asked what happened, the person has to piece the puzzle together. There’s no narrative memory. The psychoanalytic school understands trauma as an impact that resists symbolization because it doesn’t fit within a person’s existing symbolic coordinates. Trauma is a crash to the entire system, shattering it, breaking it. The traumatic impact puts the system in shock, and the patient feels that it doesn’t make sense. Not what happened or the story. We become scattered.

Trauma makes a coherent narrative impossible. Yet a coherent narrative is a precondition for being believed.

No wonder men “didn’t know.”

The Knowing

People who know me well know that I have a sixth sense about creepy men. It didn’t come from nowhere. I have honed this very particular sensitivity since I hit puberty — not out of interest but out of survival.

I am hyper-vigilant in reading people and in reading a room. I never forget a name or a face. I never sit with my back to the wall where I could be cornered. My peripheral vision is extremely sharp and very little escapes it. And in the #MeToo moment, we are coming to understand that this is a common trait among women.

When I hear a story from another woman about a “creepy man,” a “rumor,” that is enough to put me on full alert if I am ever around this man — and I can feel immediately whether there is a threat. It is like a tingle in the back of my knees. That is my knowing. It is real. It is accurate.

That knowing doesn’t depend on a system of due process. When my safety is at stake, I rely on a more accurate knowing: the intuition born of my trauma. It is enough for me and for most women. We signal to one another. We move our chairs out a bit. Take a step back. Call another person over. Any person. Pretend to get a phone call. Check the exits. Become very small. Try to draw attention away. Don’t make eye contact. Wave a ringed wedding finger. Cross our arms in front of our chest. Zip up our jacket. Run.

When Women Know, and Men Do Not

What does it mean when men and women experience “knowing” in such a different way?

One difference is the stakes. The stakes are higher for women. If I dilly-dally in understanding whether a man is a real threat or not, the result could be my life and/or my dignity. If men take a bit more time to understand “what really happened” and in the interim, this man is out in the field, it is not their bodies that will be the prey. It is not their dignity that will be shattered.

Anyone who has experienced sexual violence by men may experience what I am describing as women’s knowing, no matter our gender, race, or class. But these differences are consequential, mainly because they affect how much power we have to get ourselves out of the situation, to report it to others, and to be believed. I rely on this knowing as a white, Jewish professional woman; those with less positional power than me often need it even more. And often, it isn’t enough to stay safe.

Another difference is what we are protecting. In her groundbreaking Netflix special, Australian comedian Hannah Gadsby notes that, throughout history, we have valued men’s reputations over women’s safety. “We only care about a man’s reputation,” she says. “What about his humanity? These men control our stories. And yet they have a diminishing connection to their own humanity, and we don’t seem to mind so long as they get to hold onto their precious reputation.”

So predatory men continue to roam freely; some now serve on the United States Supreme Court. Those who could have made other decisions don’t take action because they fear for the man’s reputation and value it over our safety. They think, “innocent until proven guilty.” They fear it is unfair to ask him, even in private, that he change anything about his behavior. This fear outweighs the possible harm that his predatory behavior could have on the women and girls in that space for the rest of their lives.

Why do we think “innocent until proven guilty” is an appropriate basis for deciding who we invite into our personal, professional, or public spaces? After all, this is a legal principle — it comes from the part of society that decides who is innocent and who is guilty, and that doles out punishments. In the legal system, the accused man is the center of the story, and what is fair to him is what’s most important.

It is telling that so many powerful men invoke this principle in the #MeToo moment. Any action before the formal proving of guilt is an unfair “punishment” to the man in question. This reveals a lot about how people in power perceive their role. They are judges; not protectors. Not sentries, tasked with guarding the safety of those inside the gates. Not doctors, who must inoculate their patients against disease and protect them from pathogens. They see their primary function in relation to the accused, not those who were harmed, or who could be.

Of course, if we stop caring quite so much about protecting men’s reputations, many worry that innocent men will face consequences when they’ve done nothing wrong. This is probably true. Right now, women are the ones paying the price. We’re the ones who are hurt when “innocent until proven guilty” ends up being guilty. So yes, if we move away from that standard, some men will begin to bear some of the burden too. Some of them will have done nothing wrong and will endure an uncomfortable few days or weeks while that gets resolved. In the Kavanaugh era, we’ve learned that the number of false accusations of sexual assault is minute compared to the number of unreported crimes of this type. And we are not talking about court cases or trials, nor about being locked up for a crime he didn’t commit, but rather asking a man to wait or not attend while the situation is being examined. This can hardly be considered an injustice, compared to the current state of things. And if we consider it an injustice, that says more about our tendency to value men’s reputations, careers, and opportunities over women’s safety and well-being.

What Happened?

The conversation that I described in the opening that revealed the difference in men’s and women’s ability to “know” was a real conversation. I was one of the women in an executive meeting room, and we had invited a prominent intellectual from our field to speak at an event. He is someone about whom there have been “rumors” for a long time — and shortly after the invite, an article came out about an incident of sexual assault with an unnamed perpetrator. We heard rumors that the piece was about our speaker, but it did not feel at the time like enough to disinvite him. In fact, at the time it didn’t feel like enough to take any action at all. And so we didn’t.

Several weeks later, after our event, another article came out in the press revealing multiple allegations over many years, in which he was named. We were horrified, and not just because of the allegations themselves. In retrospect, we were horrified about what could have been. I am writing this because I am sleepless most nights since this. I go over and over all the different things that could have happened in the hour he attended our event — and how I would have felt if they had. The thing that haunts me most is what would have happened if he had ended up alone with one of my younger female colleagues. I am writing this because incidents like this have happened so many times I have lost track.

I have spent those sleepless hours thinking about the decision made in that executive room. And through tough conversations, I have gained clarity and insight about this, and so have my colleagues who were in that room.

Unfortunately, like all organizations in all fields, we may find ourselves in this situation again. If we do, we will make different decisions. I regret that we can’t hit rewind and disinvite the speaker, perhaps even have a candid conversation with him — or at least come up with an elegant scheduling excuse. And at minimum, he would not have been left alone for one second while in our space.

These solutions aren’t perfect. But continued inaction is unacceptable.

Before this, we hadn’t considered the issue of the knowing and the not-knowing. We had not realized clearly that the focus on accused men and “innocent until proven guilty” was coming into conflict with our own desire to create a safe workplace. But we get that now. There is a long road of culture-change ahead but we have begun to unravel some of the patriarchy’s tangles.

¤

Libby Lenkinski is vice president for public engagement at the New Israel Fund, an organization that promotes democracy and equality in Israel, where she leads all aspects of NIF’s public efforts in the United States.

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10 Account-Based Marketing Sessions You Don’t Want to Miss at Summit

Author: Anastasia Pavlova

I joined Marketo three years ago, and my first day was at the Marketing Nation Summit 2014 in San Francisco. I still remember the incredible energy, passion, and enthusiasm shared by thousands of Marketo customers, partners, employees, and industry thought leaders to this day.

This year’s Summit promises to be even bigger and better than ever before, featuring an incredible lineup of keynote speakers, including our very own CEO Steve Lucas and CMO Chandar Pattabhiram, Tony Award-winning performer James Corden, Grammy Award-winning musician Queen Latifah, executive-level content in partnership with Adweek, and tons of inspirational sessions showcasing influencers and speakers from notable brands like Visa, Google, San Francisco Giants, Microsoft, and many more. If you haven’t already, register now!

Many marketers attend Summit to stay sharp on different areas of focus, new trends, and best practices. One particular topic of interest is account-based marketing (ABM), which has recently seen a revival as new digital technologies make it easier for companies of all sizes to scale their account-centric efforts and realize improved win rates, faster deal velocity, higher revenues, and ROI from high-value accounts.

Here are 10 sessions on ABM strategies, frameworks, best practices, and results that you don’t want to miss at the Marketing Nation Summit this year:

Get Inspired by Industry Analysts and Influencers

Learn from the brightest minds in the industry and stay up to date on trends, tips, and ABM best practices in these thought leadership sessions.

1. Account-Based Marketing: Yes, It Really Is That Good (and Getting Better All The Time)—Megan Heuer, VP of Research at SiriusDecision

If you’re wondering whether ABM is a real trend and if it’s living up to its hype, Megan Heuer of SiriusDecisions, the leading global B2B research, and advisory firm, will offer proof. In her session, Megan will share the ABM secrets she’s discovered from SiriusDecisions clients and what they’ve found works best. These secrets cover how to set goals and define metrics for ABM and demonstrate business value, what technologies make up the ideal ABM stack, and the biggest ABM mistakes (so you can avoid them).

2. Account-Based Funnel: What You Need to Know for an ABM Strategy That Will Increase ROI—Craig Rosenberg, Founder and Chief Analyst of TOPO

Craig Rosenberg will present the TOPO account-based funnel, which provides the framework that organizations need to design, execute, and measure their account-based marketing strategy. Craig, who I had the pleasure of meeting and hearing speak at internal Marketo functions and many industry conferences, will share specific examples of how companies execute the framework—including how they looked before and after as well as the tools needed to execute immediately. Definitely don’t miss this one!

3. Create an Account-Based Marketing Strategy to Drive Consensus for Complex Sales—Ardath Albee, CEO and B2B Marketing Strategist at Marketing Interactions

Are you curious about how to increase marketing contribution to revenue with ABM? Ardath Albee will explain how personas can help orchestrate buying committee engagement, why content must inform and influence buying committee conversations—and how that works, and how to address shifts in context at each stage of buying to keep the momentum going.

4. What They Didn’t Teach You in ABM School—Joe Chernov, VP Marketing at InsightSquared

Joe Chernov‘s session will be incredibly practical and example-packed. He’ll reveal some of the potholes that can impede ABM progress and dampen ABM effectiveness, and you’ll walk away with tips on how to avoid them, including how to maximize sales participation in ABM and zoom in on the metrics that matter most.

Let Marketo Take You on an ABM Journey

In these Marketo@Marketo sessions and meet-ups, get to know the people behind your favorite platform and those who shaped the latest ABM product vision—your peers who are leading the ABM journey and paving the way for you to succeed.

5. Account-Based Marketing: Marketo’s Secret Sauce—Charm Bianchini, Sr. Director Demand Generation

This is a session particularly dear to me as I’ve been driving an ABM strategy for Marketo’s Commercial business for the last 15 months. If you are unclear how account-based marketing fits into the marketing strategy you currently have in place—join this session! You will learn when ABM makes sense for a business, how Marketo does it, and tips and tricks for a successful ABM program.

6. Account-Based Marketing Meet-Up—Mike Telem, VP of Product Marketing at Marketo and GM of Marketo Israel

Summit consists of numerous opportunities for you to meet with like-minded marketers, experts from Marketo who practice account-based marketing with our product, and partners who can help you get started on your ABM journey. Don’t miss this ABM meet-up facilitated by Mike Telem, the man behind Marketo’s ABM product vision.

Learn From Marketo ABM Customers

We launched Marketo Account-Based Marketing last September, and our early adopters will be speaking at Summit about their unique journeys and the impressive results they’ve achieved. Learn from their experiences.

7. ABM: Hear from Two Experts that Have Successfully Implemented the Strategy—Rebecah Wiegardt, ABM Manager at GoAnimate and Gavin Drake, VP of Marketing at Quark Software

Rebecah Wiegardt and Gavin Drake both run account-based marketing programs and were amongst the first to implement Marketo ABM. In their session, you will learn the benefits of investing in ABM, how to integrate the sales organization into an ABM program, why they selected Marketo ABM, and how it fits into their overall marketing technology stack. Take away real-world ABM tips to ensure your account-centric adventure gets off to the best possible start.

8. How Allocadia Squeezed More Demand Gen, Sales Enablement & ABM Juice Out of Our Marketing Content—Matt Davis, Director of Content and Digital Marketing at Allocadia

Creating personalized content for ABM is something many companies struggle with. Matt Davis will share how Allocadia set out to build a better-organized hub for content using Marketo and Uberflip. The result: content became a pillar of Allocadia’s ABM program, allowing the team to hit MQL targets, reduce the load on marketing operations, and enable sales—ultimately driving better sales and marketing alignment.

9. Beyond Basic Integration: Advanced Lead Lifecycle Workflows and Integration with MS Dynamics CRM—Dan Stevens, Marketo Champion and Director of Digital Platforms and Channels at Avanade

In his session, Dan Stevens will explain how to design and produce a complex, account-centric lead lifecycle in Marketo with MS Dynamics CRM, which enables you to effectively identify, assign, route and qualify leads, and measure marketing contribution to the business. Dan will highlight some of the challenges and how to overcome them, and how they scaled this framework in an environment that consists of 23 workspaces and lead partitions.

10. Building a Lead Mean Lead Gen Machine: Advancing the Engagement Maturity Curve—Kate Cindric Federhar, Manager of Marketing Operations at CenturyLink, and Travis Campbell, Sr. Enterprise Value Advisor at Marketo

Kate Federhar and Travis Campbell will show you how to create a lead generation that machine sales organizations love. They will discuss real-world examples that you can implement today, longer term strategies to aim for, along with the four stages of the Marketo Engagement Maturity Curve to open the floodgates for your sales teams.

With all of this incredible ABM content, I hope you’re as excited as I am to come to this year’s Marketing Nation Summit. What session are you most excited to attend? Or if I won’t see you there, what topic is the most interesting to you?

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10 Account-Based Marketing Sessions You Don’t Want to Miss at Summit

Author: Anastasia Pavlova

I joined Marketo three years ago, and my first day was at the Marketing Nation Summit 2014 in San Francisco. I still remember the incredible energy, passion, and enthusiasm shared by thousands of Marketo customers, partners, employees, and industry thought leaders to this day.

This year’s Summit promises to be even bigger and better than ever before, featuring an incredible lineup of keynote speakers, including our very own CEO Steve Lucas and CMO Chandar Pattabhiram, Tony Award-winning performer James Corden, Grammy Award-winning musician Queen Latifah, executive-level content in partnership with Adweek, and tons of inspirational sessions showcasing influencers and speakers from notable brands like Visa, Google, San Francisco Giants, Microsoft, and many more. If you haven’t already, register now!

Many marketers attend Summit to stay sharp on different areas of focus, new trends, and best practices. One particular topic of interest is account-based marketing (ABM), which has recently seen a revival as new digital technologies make it easier for companies of all sizes to scale their account-centric efforts and realize improved win rates, faster deal velocity, higher revenues, and ROI from high-value accounts.

Here are 10 sessions on ABM strategies, frameworks, best practices, and results that you don’t want to miss at the Marketing Nation Summit this year:

Get Inspired by Industry Analysts and Influencers

Learn from the brightest minds in the industry and stay up to date on trends, tips, and ABM best practices in these thought leadership sessions.

1. Account-Based Marketing: Yes, It Really Is That Good (and Getting Better All The Time)—Megan Heuer, VP of Research at SiriusDecision

If you’re wondering whether ABM is a real trend and if it’s living up to its hype, Megan Heuer of SiriusDecisions, the leading global B2B research, and advisory firm, will offer proof. In her session, Megan will share the ABM secrets she’s discovered from SiriusDecisions clients and what they’ve found works best. These secrets cover how to set goals and define metrics for ABM and demonstrate business value, what technologies make up the ideal ABM stack, and the biggest ABM mistakes (so you can avoid them).

2. Account-Based Funnel: What You Need to Know for an ABM Strategy That Will Increase ROI—Craig Rosenberg, Founder and Chief Analyst of TOPO

Craig Rosenberg will present the TOPO account-based funnel, which provides the framework that organizations need to design, execute, and measure their account-based marketing strategy. Craig, who I had the pleasure of meeting and hearing speak at internal Marketo functions and many industry conferences, will share specific examples of how companies execute the framework—including how they looked before and after as well as the tools needed to execute immediately. Definitely don’t miss this one!

3. Create an Account-Based Marketing Strategy to Drive Consensus for Complex Sales—Ardath Albee, CEO and B2B Marketing Strategist at Marketing Interactions

Are you curious about how to increase marketing contribution to revenue with ABM? Ardath Albee will explain how personas can help orchestrate buying committee engagement, why content must inform and influence buying committee conversations—and how that works, and how to address shifts in context at each stage of buying to keep the momentum going.

4. What They Didn’t Teach You in ABM School—Joe Chernov, VP Marketing at InsightSquared

Joe Chernov‘s session will be incredibly practical and example-packed. He’ll reveal some of the potholes that can impede ABM progress and dampen ABM effectiveness, and you’ll walk away with tips on how to avoid them, including how to maximize sales participation in ABM and zoom in on the metrics that matter most.

Let Marketo Take You on an ABM Journey

In these Marketo@Marketo sessions and meet-ups, get to know the people behind your favorite platform and those who shaped the latest ABM product vision—your peers who are leading the ABM journey and paving the way for you to succeed.

5. Account-Based Marketing: Marketo’s Secret Sauce—Charm Bianchini, Sr. Director Demand Generation

This is a session particularly dear to me as I’ve been driving an ABM strategy for Marketo’s Commercial business for the last 15 months. If you are unclear how account-based marketing fits into the marketing strategy you currently have in place—join this session! You will learn when ABM makes sense for a business, how Marketo does it, and tips and tricks for a successful ABM program.

6. Account-Based Marketing Meet-Up—Mike Telem, VP of Product Marketing at Marketo and GM of Marketo Israel

Summit consists of numerous opportunities for you to meet with like-minded marketers, experts from Marketo who practice account-based marketing with our product, and partners who can help you get started on your ABM journey. Don’t miss this ABM meet-up facilitated by Mike Telem, the man behind Marketo’s ABM product vision.

Learn From Marketo ABM Customers

We launched Marketo Account-Based Marketing last September, and our early adopters will be speaking at Summit about their unique journeys and the impressive results they’ve achieved. Learn from their experiences.

7. ABM: Hear from Two Experts that Have Successfully Implemented the Strategy—Rebecah Wiegardt, ABM Manager at GoAnimate and Gavin Drake, VP of Marketing at Quark Software

Rebecah Wiegardt and Gavin Drake both run account-based marketing programs and were amongst the first to implement Marketo ABM. In their session, you will learn the benefits of investing in ABM, how to integrate the sales organization into an ABM program, why they selected Marketo ABM, and how it fits into their overall marketing technology stack. Take away real-world ABM tips to ensure your account-centric adventure gets off to the best possible start.

8. How Allocadia Squeezed More Demand Gen, Sales Enablement & ABM Juice Out of Our Marketing Content—Matt Davis, Director of Content and Digital Marketing at Allocadia

Creating personalized content for ABM is something many companies struggle with. Matt Davis will share how Allocadia set out to build a better-organized hub for content using Marketo and Uberflip. The result: content became a pillar of Allocadia’s ABM program, allowing the team to hit MQL targets, reduce the load on marketing operations, and enable sales—ultimately driving better sales and marketing alignment.

9. Beyond Basic Integration: Advanced Lead Lifecycle Workflows and Integration with MS Dynamics CRM—Dan Stevens, Marketo Champion and Director of Digital Platforms and Channels at Avanade

In his session, Dan Stevens will explain how to design and produce a complex, account-centric lead lifecycle in Marketo with MS Dynamics CRM, which enables you to effectively identify, assign, route and qualify leads, and measure marketing contribution to the business. Dan will highlight some of the challenges and how to overcome them, and how they scaled this framework in an environment that consists of 23 workspaces and lead partitions.

10. Building a Lead Mean Lead Gen Machine: Advancing the Engagement Maturity Curve—Kate Cindric Federhar, Manager of Marketing Operations at CenturyLink, and Travis Campbell, Sr. Enterprise Value Advisor at Marketo

Kate Federhar and Travis Campbell will show you how to create a lead generation that machine sales organizations love. They will discuss real-world examples that you can implement today, longer term strategies to aim for, along with the four stages of the Marketo Engagement Maturity Curve to open the floodgates for your sales teams.

With all of this incredible ABM content, I hope you’re as excited as I am to come to this year’s Marketing Nation Summit. What session are you most excited to attend? Or if I won’t see you there, what topic is the most interesting to you?

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10 Account-Based Marketing Sessions You Don’t Want to Miss at Summit

Author: Anastasia Pavlova

I joined Marketo three years ago, and my first day was at the Marketing Nation Summit 2014 in San Francisco. I still remember the incredible energy, passion, and enthusiasm shared by thousands of Marketo customers, partners, employees, and industry thought leaders to this day.

This year’s Summit promises to be even bigger and better than ever before, featuring an incredible lineup of keynote speakers, including our very own CEO Steve Lucas and CMO Chandar Pattabhiram, Tony Award-winning performer James Corden, Grammy Award-winning musician Queen Latifah, executive-level content in partnership with Adweek, and tons of inspirational sessions showcasing influencers and speakers from notable brands like Visa, Google, San Francisco Giants, Microsoft, and many more. If you haven’t already, register now!

Many marketers attend Summit to stay sharp on different areas of focus, new trends, and best practices. One particular topic of interest is account-based marketing (ABM), which has recently seen a revival as new digital technologies make it easier for companies of all sizes to scale their account-centric efforts and realize improved win rates, faster deal velocity, higher revenues, and ROI from high-value accounts.

Here are 10 sessions on ABM strategies, frameworks, best practices, and results that you don’t want to miss at the Marketing Nation Summit this year:

Get Inspired by Industry Analysts and Influencers

Learn from the brightest minds in the industry and stay up to date on trends, tips, and ABM best practices in these thought leadership sessions.

1. Account-Based Marketing: Yes, It Really Is That Good (and Getting Better All The Time)—Megan Heuer, VP of Research at SiriusDecision

If you’re wondering whether ABM is a real trend and if it’s living up to its hype, Megan Heuer of SiriusDecisions, the leading global B2B research, and advisory firm, will offer proof. In her session, Megan will share the ABM secrets she’s discovered from SiriusDecisions clients and what they’ve found works best. These secrets cover how to set goals and define metrics for ABM and demonstrate business value, what technologies make up the ideal ABM stack, and the biggest ABM mistakes (so you can avoid them).

2. Account-Based Funnel: What You Need to Know for an ABM Strategy That Will Increase ROI—Craig Rosenberg, Founder and Chief Analyst of TOPO

Craig Rosenberg will present the TOPO account-based funnel, which provides the framework that organizations need to design, execute, and measure their account-based marketing strategy. Craig, who I had the pleasure of meeting and hearing speak at internal Marketo functions and many industry conferences, will share specific examples of how companies execute the framework—including how they looked before and after as well as the tools needed to execute immediately. Definitely don’t miss this one!

3. Create an Account-Based Marketing Strategy to Drive Consensus for Complex Sales—Ardath Albee, CEO and B2B Marketing Strategist at Marketing Interactions

Are you curious about how to increase marketing contribution to revenue with ABM? Ardath Albee will explain how personas can help orchestrate buying committee engagement, why content must inform and influence buying committee conversations—and how that works, and how to address shifts in context at each stage of buying to keep the momentum going.

4. What They Didn’t Teach You in ABM School—Joe Chernov, VP Marketing at InsightSquared

Joe Chernov‘s session will be incredibly practical and example-packed. He’ll reveal some of the potholes that can impede ABM progress and dampen ABM effectiveness, and you’ll walk away with tips on how to avoid them, including how to maximize sales participation in ABM and zoom in on the metrics that matter most.

Let Marketo Take You on an ABM Journey

In these Marketo@Marketo sessions and meet-ups, get to know the people behind your favorite platform and those who shaped the latest ABM product vision—your peers who are leading the ABM journey and paving the way for you to succeed.

5. Account-Based Marketing: Marketo’s Secret Sauce—Charm Bianchini, Sr. Director Demand Generation

This is a session particularly dear to me as I’ve been driving an ABM strategy for Marketo’s Commercial business for the last 15 months. If you are unclear how account-based marketing fits into the marketing strategy you currently have in place—join this session! You will learn when ABM makes sense for a business, how Marketo does it, and tips and tricks for a successful ABM program.

6. Account-Based Marketing Meet-Up—Mike Telem, VP of Product Marketing at Marketo and GM of Marketo Israel

Summit consists of numerous opportunities for you to meet with like-minded marketers, experts from Marketo who practice account-based marketing with our product, and partners who can help you get started on your ABM journey. Don’t miss this ABM meet-up facilitated by Mike Telem, the man behind Marketo’s ABM product vision.

Learn From Marketo ABM Customers

We launched Marketo Account-Based Marketing last September, and our early adopters will be speaking at Summit about their unique journeys and the impressive results they’ve achieved. Learn from their experiences.

7. ABM: Hear from Two Experts that Have Successfully Implemented the Strategy—Rebecah Wiegardt, ABM Manager at GoAnimate and Gavin Drake, VP of Marketing at Quark Software

Rebecah Wiegardt and Gavin Drake both run account-based marketing programs and were amongst the first to implement Marketo ABM. In their session, you will learn the benefits of investing in ABM, how to integrate the sales organization into an ABM program, why they selected Marketo ABM, and how it fits into their overall marketing technology stack. Take away real-world ABM tips to ensure your account-centric adventure gets off to the best possible start.

8. How Allocadia Squeezed More Demand Gen, Sales Enablement & ABM Juice Out of Our Marketing Content—Matt Davis, Director of Content and Digital Marketing at Allocadia

Creating personalized content for ABM is something many companies struggle with. Matt Davis will share how Allocadia set out to build a better-organized hub for content using Marketo and Uberflip. The result: content became a pillar of Allocadia’s ABM program, allowing the team to hit MQL targets, reduce the load on marketing operations, and enable sales—ultimately driving better sales and marketing alignment.

9. Beyond Basic Integration: Advanced Lead Lifecycle Workflows and Integration with MS Dynamics CRM—Dan Stevens, Marketo Champion and Director of Digital Platforms and Channels at Avanade

In his session, Dan Stevens will explain how to design and produce a complex, account-centric lead lifecycle in Marketo with MS Dynamics CRM, which enables you to effectively identify, assign, route and qualify leads, and measure marketing contribution to the business. Dan will highlight some of the challenges and how to overcome them, and how they scaled this framework in an environment that consists of 23 workspaces and lead partitions.

10. Building a Lead Mean Lead Gen Machine: Advancing the Engagement Maturity Curve—Kate Cindric Federhar, Manager of Marketing Operations at CenturyLink, and Travis Campbell, Sr. Enterprise Value Advisor at Marketo

Kate Federhar and Travis Campbell will show you how to create a lead generation that machine sales organizations love. They will discuss real-world examples that you can implement today, longer term strategies to aim for, along with the four stages of the Marketo Engagement Maturity Curve to open the floodgates for your sales teams.

With all of this incredible ABM content, I hope you’re as excited as I am to come to this year’s Marketing Nation Summit. What session are you most excited to attend? Or if I won’t see you there, what topic is the most interesting to you?

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10 Account-Based Marketing Sessions You Don’t Want to Miss at Summit

Author: Anastasia Pavlova

I joined Marketo three years ago, and my first day was at the Marketing Nation Summit 2014 in San Francisco. I still remember the incredible energy, passion, and enthusiasm shared by thousands of Marketo customers, partners, employees, and industry thought leaders to this day.

This year’s Summit promises to be even bigger and better than ever before, featuring an incredible lineup of keynote speakers, including our very own CEO Steve Lucas and CMO Chandar Pattabhiram, Tony Award-winning performer James Corden, Grammy Award-winning musician Queen Latifah, executive-level content in partnership with Adweek, and tons of inspirational sessions showcasing influencers and speakers from notable brands like Visa, Google, San Francisco Giants, Microsoft, and many more. If you haven’t already, register now!

Many marketers attend Summit to stay sharp on different areas of focus, new trends, and best practices. One particular topic of interest is account-based marketing (ABM), which has recently seen a revival as new digital technologies make it easier for companies of all sizes to scale their account-centric efforts and realize improved win rates, faster deal velocity, higher revenues, and ROI from high-value accounts.

Here are 10 sessions on ABM strategies, frameworks, best practices, and results that you don’t want to miss at the Marketing Nation Summit this year:

Get Inspired by Industry Analysts and Influencers

Learn from the brightest minds in the industry and stay up to date on trends, tips, and ABM best practices in these thought leadership sessions.

1. Account-Based Marketing: Yes, It Really Is That Good (and Getting Better All The Time)—Megan Heuer, VP of Research at SiriusDecision

If you’re wondering whether ABM is a real trend and if it’s living up to its hype, Megan Heuer of SiriusDecisions, the leading global B2B research, and advisory firm, will offer proof. In her session, Megan will share the ABM secrets she’s discovered from SiriusDecisions clients and what they’ve found works best. These secrets cover how to set goals and define metrics for ABM and demonstrate business value, what technologies make up the ideal ABM stack, and the biggest ABM mistakes (so you can avoid them).

2. Account-Based Funnel: What You Need to Know for an ABM Strategy That Will Increase ROI—Craig Rosenberg, Founder and Chief Analyst of TOPO

Craig Rosenberg will present the TOPO account-based funnel, which provides the framework that organizations need to design, execute, and measure their account-based marketing strategy. Craig, who I had the pleasure of meeting and hearing speak at internal Marketo functions and many industry conferences, will share specific examples of how companies execute the framework—including how they looked before and after as well as the tools needed to execute immediately. Definitely don’t miss this one!

3. Create an Account-Based Marketing Strategy to Drive Consensus for Complex Sales—Ardath Albee, CEO and B2B Marketing Strategist at Marketing Interactions

Are you curious about how to increase marketing contribution to revenue with ABM? Ardath Albee will explain how personas can help orchestrate buying committee engagement, why content must inform and influence buying committee conversations—and how that works, and how to address shifts in context at each stage of buying to keep the momentum going.

4. What They Didn’t Teach You in ABM School—Joe Chernov, VP Marketing at InsightSquared

Joe Chernov‘s session will be incredibly practical and example-packed. He’ll reveal some of the potholes that can impede ABM progress and dampen ABM effectiveness, and you’ll walk away with tips on how to avoid them, including how to maximize sales participation in ABM and zoom in on the metrics that matter most.

Let Marketo Take You on an ABM Journey

In these Marketo@Marketo sessions and meet-ups, get to know the people behind your favorite platform and those who shaped the latest ABM product vision—your peers who are leading the ABM journey and paving the way for you to succeed.

5. Account-Based Marketing: Marketo’s Secret Sauce—Charm Bianchini, Sr. Director Demand Generation

This is a session particularly dear to me as I’ve been driving an ABM strategy for Marketo’s Commercial business for the last 15 months. If you are unclear how account-based marketing fits into the marketing strategy you currently have in place—join this session! You will learn when ABM makes sense for a business, how Marketo does it, and tips and tricks for a successful ABM program.

6. Account-Based Marketing Meet-Up—Mike Telem, VP of Product Marketing at Marketo and GM of Marketo Israel

Summit consists of numerous opportunities for you to meet with like-minded marketers, experts from Marketo who practice account-based marketing with our product, and partners who can help you get started on your ABM journey. Don’t miss this ABM meet-up facilitated by Mike Telem, the man behind Marketo’s ABM product vision.

Learn From Marketo ABM Customers

We launched Marketo Account-Based Marketing last September, and our early adopters will be speaking at Summit about their unique journeys and the impressive results they’ve achieved. Learn from their experiences.

7. ABM: Hear from Two Experts that Have Successfully Implemented the Strategy—Rebecah Wiegardt, ABM Manager at GoAnimate and Gavin Drake, VP of Marketing at Quark Software

Rebecah Wiegardt and Gavin Drake both run account-based marketing programs and were amongst the first to implement Marketo ABM. In their session, you will learn the benefits of investing in ABM, how to integrate the sales organization into an ABM program, why they selected Marketo ABM, and how it fits into their overall marketing technology stack. Take away real-world ABM tips to ensure your account-centric adventure gets off to the best possible start.

8. How Allocadia Squeezed More Demand Gen, Sales Enablement & ABM Juice Out of Our Marketing Content—Matt Davis, Director of Content and Digital Marketing at Allocadia

Creating personalized content for ABM is something many companies struggle with. Matt Davis will share how Allocadia set out to build a better-organized hub for content using Marketo and Uberflip. The result: content became a pillar of Allocadia’s ABM program, allowing the team to hit MQL targets, reduce the load on marketing operations, and enable sales—ultimately driving better sales and marketing alignment.

9. Beyond Basic Integration: Advanced Lead Lifecycle Workflows and Integration with MS Dynamics CRM—Dan Stevens, Marketo Champion and Director of Digital Platforms and Channels at Avanade

In his session, Dan Stevens will explain how to design and produce a complex, account-centric lead lifecycle in Marketo with MS Dynamics CRM, which enables you to effectively identify, assign, route and qualify leads, and measure marketing contribution to the business. Dan will highlight some of the challenges and how to overcome them, and how they scaled this framework in an environment that consists of 23 workspaces and lead partitions.

10. Building a Lead Mean Lead Gen Machine: Advancing the Engagement Maturity Curve—Kate Cindric Federhar, Manager of Marketing Operations at CenturyLink, and Travis Campbell, Sr. Enterprise Value Advisor at Marketo

Kate Federhar and Travis Campbell will show you how to create a lead generation that machine sales organizations love. They will discuss real-world examples that you can implement today, longer term strategies to aim for, along with the four stages of the Marketo Engagement Maturity Curve to open the floodgates for your sales teams.

With all of this incredible ABM content, I hope you’re as excited as I am to come to this year’s Marketing Nation Summit. What session are you most excited to attend? Or if I won’t see you there, what topic is the most interesting to you?

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