#i dont care for the theme today i'll be real

[operation-penguin]

fujnne dubois for day ii

[kuiperror]

TELL ME ABOUT THE CHIPMUNKS LORE. pretty please.

1st thank you for indulging me (even tho i asked lol) 2nd.maybe dont open this unless you want to get blasted with useless information + unimportant yet dearly held opinions + offtopic addendums + true sincerity. i tried to hold back guys im sorry. hold onto your hats im getting fucking crazy in here

firstly ill summarize and say that my "version" of the story of aatc [1] is basically just an idealized version of the "lore" the 1960s version gave us (i say "lore" in quotations bc there was. none lol).

now a lot of my ideas concerning the "lore" of story are interconnected to my opinions about the actual application of aatc media in real life . for instance, the story is set, vaguely, around the late 1950s - early to mid 1960s, like the irl "run" of the original chipmunks records. i personally believe that, as a real media franchise, aatc really has no reason to exist within our modern world with the technology we have today [2] so aatc as a fictional story is affected similarly. along with that, when the story is played out in the context of 1960s america it creates a richer thematical experience as the themes are compounded and expanded on. [3] a lot of the themes that i consider Essencial to the story deal with acceptance of differences and familial love and questioning of ones own humanity and sense of belonging, both within oneself and within the family unit and within larger society, and conservative 1960s suburban america is just a rlly good backdrop to place all of that. so basically i believe in the Contextuality of 1960s aatc and i love to allude to those contexts within the story.

another thing about my version is that i allow it to be inconsistent both with itself or with real life, just cuz it doesn't really have to be. for instance, this story has a floating timeline and i consider the chipmunk's ages to range from 8 - 10 years old— theodore is 8, alvin is 9, simon is 10. (simon is the oldest in the 1960s era idc who says what, i will die on this hill) however at the same time i think it would make the most sense for them to come from the same litter, which would make them all the same age. so i consider the chipmunks to be different ages while also considering they were born at the same time. i do have an in-world resolution for this discrepancy [4] but you get what im saying: my version of events is a little fictional story for me and me only so inconsistencies like that can be brushed over . mainly so i don't think too deeply about the logistics of things (cuz i tend to do that to avoid any possible criticism cuz i am Afraid of flaw) . like i'll catch myself being like "but how does the development of a real 8yo match theodore's behavior? 🤨" and i have to tell myself "bro.. this is a fictional cartoon world ur literally talking about a talking chipmunk its Not That Serious it doesn't have to be that realistic dude" so i just say its my own little play place and i get to do what i want :)

my version of the backstory of the chipmunks is not really all there in terms of external and internal consistency, but it mostly resembles the 1980s series' backstory where dave finds the chipmunks on his doorstep. (see [4] for entire story) i think that the months after dave took them in were honestly a p dark period for the family. i don't imagine dave had good support system and i think the mental struggle of suddenly caring for 3 incredibly strange children all the while fearing societal reactions to them (which restricted him from getting the help he needed) [5] definitely aged him. ithink hes like, early 30s when the chipmunks arrive, late 30s when the timeline "starts floating"... not as young as most (?) fans/iterations interpret him to be. i think that, before "the chipmunk song" was created, dave had raised the chipmunks for like.. 3-5ish years. what i'm saying is that dave definitely took in the chipmunks out of the kindness of his own heart and not cuz he wanted to capitalize on their singing prowess (aHEM looking at a certain movie 🤨)

also, i like to accentuate the animal-ness of the boys by taking real world information about chipmunks and applying it to them :) in general its a little bit of a pet peeve of mine when ppl just completely disregard the animal part of funny animal characters... esp with alvin and the chipmunks bc thats like. Their Whole Thing . they are chipmunks ? why do you just ignore that 😭

now i have talked a LOT about angsty stuff but i do want to make it clear that legit all this stuff is the subtext and background for interactions shown within the 1960s chipmunk media. the chipmunks are still happy kids who have fun and goof around and piss off david !! its just that they have fears and their own Issues like any real person.

so yeah! thats my chipmunk lore!! ^^ i have a whole document about my version so im definitely. fucking insane about the chipmunks. if any other aatc fans are reading this please be nice to me 😦 i feel as though i am very much a weirdo in my sandbox all alone soo dont h8 me plz :)

and just to send it off with some silly lore here are some random headcanons for each character that i have taken straight from my lore document ^^

alvin: would 100% be a leash kid . just sayin (as a former leash kid myself)

alvin: takes after david musically— when he writes his own music and makes up little songs to himself it sounds very similar to the songs dave writes. alvin doesn't recognize this but dave definitely does :,)

alvin: insecure about his height and constantly reassures himself that he will have a growth spurt when hes older

simon: loves loves LOVEs non-conventional and instrumental music! especially those set in different modes

simon: astronaut kid he loves space and wants to b an astronaut . born at just the right time B)

simon: knows better than to follow along with alvin's troublemaking + rebelliousness, occasionally tries to push back, but often is just like. fuck it we ball and goes along with it, especially if its fun ^^

theodore: LOVES the technical aspect of music + the recording process . he will tell you all about the science behind how vinyl records work unprompted.

theodore: doesnt like to sing solos as much as his brothers do bc of past childhood asthma at age 3 and also because he can not stop himself from giggling when hes singing hes just so happy :)! (THIS ONE IS CANON 💥💥💥 SOURCE: UP ON THE HOUSETOP CHRISTMAS W THE CHIPMUNKS VOL 1 ‼️)

theodore: although he is the most naive of the bunch, he is not dumb . hes just a little kid who likes being silly !

dave: before taking the chipmunks in in his early 30s he was the world's most regular guy . wrote hits for other people, continues to do that occasionally into the boys's careers

dave: literally has a song for everything . he will do everything to a beat .

dave: embroiders and cross-stitches to regulate his anger + knows how to sew really well since he has 2 make all of the boys' clothes. (CANON ⁉️😍) also it was his decision to color-code and embroider their initials onto everything they wear lmfao

FOOTNOTES (color coded for your convenience!)

[1] - in this post i refer to the media franchise as "aatc" (alvin and the chipmunks) and refer to the actual trio of characters as "the chipmunks" to avoid confusion. i just want it to be said that i personally dont like to call the media franchise "alvin & the chipmunks" on account of the whole "uuu if alvins a chipmunk why is it called alvin & the chipmunks" joke, i personally prefer to call the franchise just "the chipmunks" as it is shorter and includes the 1960s era as for most of it the franchise went by several different iterations (if we lived in a perfect world the franchise would still be called "david seville and the chipmunks" . just saying)

[2] - back in the early 60s, combining pitch-shifted vocals and character-acting was an innovative technique that took real time, effort, knowledge and skill to achieve. but nowadays not only is the concept no longer fresh but literally anyone can create their own "chipmunk" vocals in a matter of minutes. the story & characters (also nostalgia) are really the only thing keeping the aatc franchise going, esp since that's what more modern iterations of aatc focus on rather than the actual music.

[3] - in the media outside of their albums (the alvin show & the dell comics, specifically) there is always an underlying theme of comparison between david and the boys and the 1960s concept of a nuclear american family. its not exactly an "Intentional" theme, it more or less comes with the (irl) time-period the original aatc media was created in. the seville household is, inherently, a subversion of the ideal of the "perfect family" that households were compared against and strived to be, even at the expense of their own comfort, ideals, safety, etc. this subversion can be played into for drama and angst in a richer, more plausible way than it would be if the story were set in a more modern time period, u know? but yeah i believe that, as a fictional story, aatc shouldn't be divorced from the context of the attitudes and values of what mainstream society thought a family should be in the 1960s.

[4] - essentially in my version of events, dave was given no information about the boys and he basically made up their ages. when david found them in his backyard, they were oversized chipmunks as large as your average cat. they all sort of acted like young human children, but they were a lot more... chipmunk than child. they could only babble— but the sounds were recognizable as human speech. dave was obviously freaked out and resolved to keep an eye on them whenever they were in his backyard. he really only resolved to take them in due to the fact that he could literally see them change throughout a single week. how i imagine the chipmunks' biology is that they are a mixture of human and chipmunk (not literally, mind you, more as a physiological, figurative thing) so they have the intelligence and development of a human while still doing certain things like undertaking hibernation, wanting to forage and stockpile and burrow, things like that. however their growth rate is incredibly fucked up, going from the actual size of a newborn baby chipmunk to the size of a human toddler within like, a year. with this rapid growth also comes more human-like intelligence. once they were actually living in his house, dave knew there was something human about them with these creatures so he couldn't just let them return to the wild, especially since they were becoming more and more dependent on him and more and more human-like as days passed... i definitely think there was a moment of pure clarity for dave where he realized like. wow, that's a child. these things are children. and they are relying on me to provide for them. they are absolutely attached to me by now. and i think i might actually be attached to them too. and thats when he decided to name them and truly care for them like any other human child. overtime the chipmunks slowed their growth rate and matched their developing rate with the same as an average human. the chipmunks don't remember much of their early childhood and nothing can really be disputed so davids word of what happened is gospel. And yeah thats their backstory basically. if you want more on dave's view point on the chipmunks and their fucked up growth process, you can read this post here :)

[5] - he overcame this, of course. he did not want the boys to think that he was ashamed of them. public school was a different story, however, and the boys were more-or-less in a state of homeschooling before the release of "the chipmunk song." knowing that most of their peers would actually look up to them rather than down upon them extremely reassured him.

[akaakeis]

oh nooooo i tripped and fell for u into ur ask box

eating ny ice cream rn ;; strawberry is such a weird flavour like if i had to choose and get one i would not get strawberry but if irs rhere at home im finishinf ALL of it

ALSO, DRAWING ON PEOPLE'S HANDS 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

anyways about the iwa smau!!! genuinely have no motivation rn #tweaks BUT i would like to say that the yn is shamelessly based off me like i have consumed acrylic paint on multiple occasions (today) (with ice cream)

ILYT!!!!! IM WRITING THIS RN SO I CANT RESPOND (CRIES)

lost a mark in my chem test today im tweaking

BUT THE FREAKY ENGLISH TEACHER SAID IM ON THE RIGHT TRACK AND DOING GOOD AND AN ATTENTIVE STUDENT AND LIKR????????? ERMMMM SHES INSANE BUT FHE ACADEMIC VALIDATION GOES SOOO HARD

also like lowkey icl i was hanging around ur blog again rn and thats why i decided to send an ask !! ur blog is so pretty rrrrr

I ALSO BASICALLY JUST PEAKED IN HS CUZ THE LIBRARIAN RECOGNISED ME AND GAVE ME A BOOK RECOMMENDATION AND LET ME TAKE IT EVEN THOUGH IT DIDN'T HAVE THE PROPER STUFF TO BE FILED AS BORROWED (like each book has a code and this one didnt and she STILL gave it to me) SO LIKE BASICALLY SHE TRUSTS ME BC IVE BEEN OVER HERE FOR LIKE A YESR AT LEADT TAKING A BOOK THEN COMING BACK 1-2 DAYS LATER CUZ I FINISHED IT LOLOLS

also about OUR iwa fic i was js thinking like,, fake dating this dumbass b word ushiwaka and hes like ?? why me ??? "ur names rhyme kind of" ?? wth ??

lowkey think im immune to anything thats in acrylic paint now bc i have Eaten So Much Of It

anyways the book is lowkey good i havent finished it YET but irs called the girl on the train and like woahhhhhh smth like that at our super conservative school is iNsane

i hope u feel better soon!!! if u dont ill fly over and idk. magic

i have a maths test tmr rjejsjskssk the topic is fun but I Don't Know what if i Fail

OSHIT I WAS SUPPOSED TO LOCK IN AND DO HW OOPS ERM HRU TELL ME AB UR DAY ETC ETC and also any sav x yaku tidbits youd like to drop <- forgot the ship name AND AND AND THE ANONS THINF IS SO REAK KMFG

ok byebye ily xx

ah thats a shame 😞😞 hope your knee or whatever u banged on the way in heals up well lina 😞

yum yum yum ice cream!! i hope ur enjoying it!! also thats so real i feel like strawberry ice cream is just an odd flavor... but true that i always eat the strawberry ice cream in the freezer just to spite my other roommate (with love!!!) LMAO

also real 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ i adore when people draw on me or let me draw on them it js makes me so happy <3

DONT FEEL PRESSURED TO WORK ON IT!! BE SPORADIC!! DO IT WHENEVER YOU GET IDEAS!!! WE WILL STICK AROUND TO READ WHENEVER U DECIDE TO WRITE

NOOO NOT THE CHEM TEST IM SORRY LINA :((( ITLL ALL WORK OUT THO

NOT THE ENGLISH TEACHER. IM SORRY SHES MY OPP FROM WHAT IVE HEARD ABOUT HER SHES FREAKY I FEAR. BUT FOR THE ACADEMIC VALIDATION I SUPPOSE I GET IT...

HELP i didnt ever realize how much time you spent on my blog like genuinely 😭 BUT THANK YOU SM!! im super proud of this theme even tho its not the most intricate <3

WOOOW THE LIBRARIAN RECOGNIZED YOU AND TRUSTED YOU W AN UNFILED BOOK??? i aspire to be you but i never step foot into my school library i much prefer my public library... there's sm more books that i read there!!! BUT THATS GENUINELY SO COOL WTF

bro that fic will genuinely be so funny 😭 like the quote we were yapping ab earlier "ushijima?? the hell?? you don't even go to the same school as him?? 😨" iwa would be more confused than anything at first AND I THINK THATS HILARIOUS!! and pls ushijima just AGREEING hes a closeted himbo i swear i swear i swear

alina im genuinely concerned over the fact that you CONSUME acrylic paint? but whatever? i guess? please dont eat too much that's definitely not meant to be consumed 🧍‍♀️

im gonna add that book to my tbr list!! i read the synopsis and it sounds pretty good tbh

THANK YOU!! my roomie is taking care of me so i'll probably be fine within the next few days 🙂‍↕️

AND GOOD LUCK!! im sure you'll do amazing dont even play w me rn alina YOU WILL DO SO SO SO WELL YOU LITTLE MATH NERD (affectionate)

OH YEAH GO DO HOMEWORK WTF 😭 IM GOOD! I FEEL BETTER TODAY <3 IVE BEEN IN BED SINCE I WOKE UP SO THERE ISNT MUCH TO TELL YOU ABOUT BUT UHHHH LAST NIGHT I WATCHED HOWLS MOVING CASTLE WITH MY ROOMMATE!! SAV X YAKU IS SAVORI!!! COURTESY OF BAKERY ANON MY LOVE 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ UMM I DONT HAVE TIDBITS RN BUT ILL DM YOU WITH RANDOM ONES SOMETIME DURING THE DAY TRUST!!

bye bye!! ily ily <3

[ventcode]

I just wanna kinda,, ramble, I guess, so many thoughts on my mind, and I never really ramble on purpose (it's mostly an accidental thing..) so.

my shoulder still hurts kinda. it all hurts alot, actually. i don't know why. no matter what i do. ive stopped bringing it up over and over again though. nobody seems to quite listen. some streches, but the pain only subsides for a little bit.

im hungry, but i ate food all day yesterday. seems no matter how much i eat lately, ill still be hungry, and if i dont eat im starving, it makes my stomach feel horrible, the six and kyoko brain mix surely isn't helping.

im listening to my theme, six's theme part II, it's been calming me down, ive been humming along, im just making sure i dont have another panic attack, it surely does help, afterall its calmed me down before, as six. im not surprised it still helps now.

i keep having to change my shirt, it gets uncomfortable too much, its quite annoying, i put on deodorant too but it seems to wear off and it becomes uncomfortable again, maybe i just need to shower tomorrow (today? i don't count it as the next day until i wake up that morning.), that must be the case, im just not clean.

speaking of, its annoying but i seem to always need reminders to do stuff, or i dont take care of myself and do my own thing, with the food thing its gotten better since im always really hungry lately, so the first thing i try to do when i have time is eat food. but with the other stuff of taking care of myself, i seem to neglect it. showering. cleaning my room (i havent done that in MONTHS). drinking water. brushing my teeth. laundry stuff. i always need reminders. but i cant get reminders from my parents. "you're 14, you need to remember this stuff", and if I set a reminder on my phone, I always swipe away the notification and forget about it without fail. it's annoying. i hate that.

I miss my fort from last year, my matress on the ground next to the window, my tv there, just. ofc it neglected the rest of my room but. i miss my own little space there. it was from a calmer time. it had problems like bugs (i found a cockroach crawling on the tv once at night), but otherwise, everything else was okay, i miss just. i miss that, i guess. maybe I should use that tv again, it still works, just not my PS4, the Wii U works though, so, maybe I'll try that.

I think about holding your hand alot, anywhere, I don't really care where it is, but lately I just. have the feeling it'd be nice to just hold your hand, like you're there with me, I've just been holding onto that pillows sleeve more and more, like im holding onto your hand, it keeps the comfort, it helps just a little, I wish it was real, I want to hold your hand. When we meet, I don't think I'll let go of it. ^^"

My dreams have all been,, upsetting as of late, probably because of my anxieties before I go to bed. it sucks, it gets me in a bad mood in the morning, but I'm trying not to lose my hope for atleast a better dream, if dreams reflect subconscious, then I just have to think good things before bed right? I surely try but, I don't know why they all end up bad, I have alot of bad days, but, during the evening, it gets a bit better, and then bad again, I don't know what's really been happening. A horrible nightmare, they're stressing me, but I need to stop thinking too hard on them, if I do, then nothing good is bound to happen.

I think of those bad opinions on me, I'm really no monster, I'm a traumatized 9 year old, a kid, a child, I'm little. I'm surviving in a world that's trying to kill me. I really just wanted to survive, that's all I wanted. sure I ate a nome and I ate the ladys fucking neck and probably did something else Im unaware of in source atm and didn't save those kids in the maw, but, I really am no monster. I swear and promise. I didn't want to be the "hero who saved the kids", I wanted out, to survive, cause I'm a fucking child. I wish everyone knew that. but who'd believe me, if anything, everyone else would think im crazy, that I'm not really six, that im most likely just delusional, and that upsets me. so I can't be honest. that's such a stupid reason but, yk, the anxieties. (fun not so fun fact! during those hunger pangs when i was playing the game and watching you play as well, my stomach felt like SHIT dude. </3)

Speaking of, depending on the ID, I hate referring to myself in 3rd person (unless im speaking in 3p at the time), it just bothers me and I feel separated from myself, and it hurts. with some its fine and others its not. and sometimes I fuck up, so I'll accidentally refer to myself in 1st person with an irl friend and they'll look confused, I mostly just go oops and correct myself but, god does it really hurt, alot. But I don't wanna be honest abt that since it's easier to just refer in 3rd. even I just do it out of habit, but it just gives me a bad feeling, like I'm not me, and the others aren't. the others. I don't know. maybe I just have issues and shit.

idk why but talking about that just reminded me of that time I met a double and got them banned from using tumblr. bro is that mad !!! but srsly I got like so mad in the dream and spam reported them and Tumblr was on my side and banned the account and ANY NEW ACCOUNTS THEY MADE. bro dream me is winning everyday (/lie im having frequent nightmares!! /silly)

it's hard to talk but also extremely easy to talk, the words come out but I don't want them to, like I don't really want to talk to anyone, of course I make my exceptions, if nobody could tell /silly but, idk, it feels meaningless to talk, I'd rather just. do stuff. not talk unless needed, but, when most your friends are online, you kind of need to talk most of the time, or nobody understands what you're saying, even on voice calls, not like I wanna have my camera on at all times (depending on the person), so, it's still useless, I don't exactly know what to do about this, I feel myself talking more and more even though I wanna talk less and less. oops I guess.

me and toaster talked, we're still friends, but we wont contact for awhile, or atleast not every day, i apologized, and so did he, i really do feel bad for acting like an asshole. but everything's okay now, and it'll all be okay.

seems im getting teary eyed writing,, all this, there's so much I'm saying, yet I say I wanna talk less, that's funny, isn't it? I've written so many thoughts down that it's been like 40 minutes at this point, that's funny, how much is really on my mind.

enjoy my thoughts and rambles, I know atleast one person will read this, waving!! sorry I ruined my sleep schedule again, I'll do better.. :')

Goodnight. ♡

[colorguardsweetheartblurrsgirl]

Totally did something I was not expecting.

Work on story: No

Work On Art: No

Had all the resources infront of me ready to get a few ar Peices done. 😏🥴😖😓😒😒😒 YES!!!

What did I do instead you may ask???

Open the Sheet music app and began retooling my song front two years ago that was originally the main theme for the first act. Or at least the first half of the first act. I took advice from friends and family that it just needed a little something more at the start and end. There was a good oomph as start made me think battle scene... but it needed something. I finally thought of the sound I wanted.

Found the Drum Rills I wanted (Though it took hours to find the exact one I litterlaly typed the exact words in the name and toik hours to find some reason and countless searches).

Found a bell sound I was totally like Yeha that could eb a fun opening..

Theb thought, eh I made the document. Might as well plop the opening down.

I have problem currently staying up all night zi guess.😓🤣😂😅😅😅

Yep, spent all night working on the song. I ahve to admit the guitar part so uh nds coll. The opening including open ik gn chorus. Sounds awesome. Maybe a few tweeks here and there. I restyled and also redid the notations and the octaves of tlntoss as well as their notation time signatures to fit with the new speed and design I'm going foe with the comic. And funny enough didnt even get the main theme in there this was all the themes that combine with it

Later parts are a but messy. But blhoenstly first minute sounds pretty cool, totally plants an image. So I hope it works out. Just have to retools thjnklgs Inliked about the old open in ng a but more before ri works. But after alls said and done what leads into the opening a piano followed by a guitar pick iij ng up thebebat a bit. Can say it sounds far better then the old music.

All the same cnat believe how much time I spent on it. But I got started on the new angle I'm going for. And it kinda gives a real atmosphere to it. Hopefully you guys will like it I've studied both college level and under music practically my whole life but I'll say 25 years practically since I was 5. So writtinflg music is soemthing I often do. I just havent really performed my lyrical stuff. I even have a lyrical song or a few I came up with for the comic. Although, I'm not sure they will fit with the comics main theme.

I will say thebprologues theme has been ready and done for 2 years now. And yeah I'm not changing that puppy. Its... well saying anything will give away a plot point. I'll just say it will get you're heart pumping... in a scary kinda way. Showed it to friends and family and they are like "Okay that was freaking creepy. That, you wrote that miss ray of sunshines?" I just knew what I wanted for teh prologue had a certain tone I wanted setting in. And it worked.

Well heres today's update for you. I'll probably post some pic later today. But till then take care. I'll see if I could post a snippet of the song later tod sass y or in the next few days. Probably will have to use one of my actual music programs to do that without saving and unfinished product.

... but till whatever update comes next.

Take care and have a blast.

(Ps. I knwo how to play the harp and paino. However, I dont own a harp anymore where I used to rent closed its doors long ago. And my piano is a keyboard I've had since 7 whose cord keeps absconding from me, so if your wondering I can play instruments I jsut have difficulty keeping track of them thus I use programs instead) I recently fo uh nd recordings I made at my families property two years ago on the old family piano, just me silently at night alone plucking out cords and slowly creating a song, and occassionally messing up... it was when I was first figuring out Lenna's theme. At the time trying to keep it more towards H.S. in theme and sound. This has since changed and I'm leaning more towards the other inspiration that shaped most of the characters since the start. So the sound has since changed. It used to have a country western sound to it.

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#5

I'm sure some of you have maybe noticed my inactivity. Today marks day 4 of no power and I am trying to conserve my data on my phone for things like the news and such. I'm okay, everyone i live with is okay. The thunderstorm that ripped through the city took out over 100,000 peoples power and its going to take time to get it back. I'll be back to clog your dashes then. Love you all! 💚💖

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#4

For those of you who are waiting for an update for Let Us Waltz From the Dead: I'm sorry. I caught the rona and I am trying to take it easy. I don't have a teaser or anything for you all in the meantime. But! If you have any questions fire them at me and I will do my best to answer them

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#3

I have been at FanExpo Canada for the last 4 days. It has been an experience. Lots of fun stuff, lots of cool events and panels. But most importantly, I found Hannibal Pins in artist's alley.

They have so many more pins, and I am so excited to get more when I get more money!

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Trick or Treating with Trouble

Happy secret friend day to my secret friend @ghostarwarriors I hope you like this little Halloween themed fic. We got Sportarobbie, we got the kids trick or treating, we got wholesome feelings. You can find it on AO3 if Tumblr eats the formatting (again). Please enjoy! and Happy Halloween!

Robbie shoved his hand under his pillow, adjusting his long legs to curl onto the bench better. A sigh slipped from his lips and he could taste the edge of sleep. “Hi Robbie!” The pink menace seemed to have appeared out of nowhere, Robbie opening his eyes into slits to see her standing there with her hands behind her back. “Go away,” he huffed, tossing his body to roll over on the cramped outdoor furniture. “I will. After I ask you something very important. Please?”  Her voice wasn’t loud or grating, just a gentle plea to be heard. And it was just the one kid. What could it hurt? He craned his head to look over his shoulder. “What do you want?” “Can you take us out trick-or-treating?” She batted brown eyes at him, a small hopeful smile on her face. “No.” He flopped his head down hard enough to smack against the rail of the bench and he hissed and rubbed at the spot. “But Robbie! There’s no one else who can take us.” She shifted to stand behind the bench, trying to make eye contact with him. “What about the Blue Kangaroo?” He flopped over again, avoiding her gaze. She ran back around and he covered his face with his pillow. “Sportacus goes to bed so early, so we’re going to do pumpkin carving and stuff with him earlier in the day. But there is no one to take us all out. Our guardians want to stay home to give us candy, thinking someone else will take us.” He could hear the sadness creeping into her tone, but he didn’t have to see her face crumpling, so he told himself he didn’t care. “Plus, no one disguises themselves better than you. We could be going out with a real master of disguise.” He lifts the pillow to look over her again. She certainly knew how to get what she wanted. Certainly appreciated her spunk. “Fine. But I won’t be doing anything else.” “Thank you so much Robbie!” She smiled so hard she rocked on her feet. “Enjoy your nap!” He scowled as he watched her run off, nap ruined since he now had to plan the perfect disguise to take the town terrors out in.

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Robbie wasn’t expecting Sportacus to be dressed in anything other than his hero outfit. But there he was, standing there in a blood stained lab coat, holding a plate with something absolutely drowning in whipped cream. “Thank you so much Robbie.” Robbie frowned, even as the plate was offered out to him. “I would have had to listen to them complain if I didn’t help them. What’s this?” “Pumpkin pie, with extra whipped cream. I couldn’t eat any, but I did convince the kids to try some roasted pumpkin seeds.” The smile aimed at him when he took the plate was practically blinding. Expecting the pie to not be appetizing, even drowning in sugar, he took a small bite using the provided fork. His eyebrows climbed, the pie was sweet. “You can’t eat this can you?” Sport chuckles, scratching at the back of his head, where the hat he normally wears shifts slightly. “No, but the kids really wanted pie, and Bessie was willing to help them. She also has candied pumpkin seeds if you want to try them out.” Robbie scoffs before leaning in to press a quick kiss to Sport’s cheek. “No way in hell, Sportacutie.” He smiles even as Sport’s face pinks and his hand covers the spot that he kissed. “I’ll take care of the kids. You just get your beauty rest. I’ll get you out of town before you know it.” He said the last part loud enough that the head of pink hair jumped, before moving away from the low wall. “The kids are spying on you again.” “I think you mean they’re spying on you. And you know I am always willing to play with you Robbie.” Again that megawatt smile is beamed at him, eyes at risk for permanent damage. “Yeah, sure. Whatever you say. I’ll see you later.” It’s his turn for his cheeks to heat.

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“Well, what a crowd we have here tonight!” Mayor Milford chortled as he grabbed for the bowl with a handful of gift bags for the kids. “Go on Pinkie, it’s your house.” Robbie nudged her towards the door, their final stop of the night. “Come with me?” She held her hand out to him. With a put-upon sigh, he took her hand as they approached the light spilling into her yard. “We have a robot. A ghost.” Milford handed bags to Pixel and Ziggy. “A… archer?” “A Highwayman!” Robbie had to give it to Trixie, she was basically dressed in all brown with a bandanna. “A what?” The mayor blinked at her owlishly. “A type of robber. Mostly done on horseback.” Pixel’s ‘robot’ costume was blinking and whirring softly as he fiddled with his wrist computer to pull up the appropriate information. “Uh. I see.” Milford dropped the treats into Trixie’s bag. His eyes then shifted to Stingy, who was trying to reach for the bowl. “And you are?” “A magpie.” Stingy huffed, and if he had real feathers he was sure they'd be ruffled. “They like shiny objects and like to bring them back home to their nests.” Stephanie brought Robbie into the circle of light. Milford laughed as Stingy practically snatched the candy out of his hand and hummed about it being his. “What do you say, Sticky?” Stingy huffed again. “Thank you for giving me what’s mine.” Robbie sighed through his nose, but let it go. He was tired of the grubby handed child after house two. The other three children also piped up with their thanks. “We also have a fine looking hero in our midst.” Milford held a hand out to his niece, and she slipped from Robbie's grip and gave her uncle a big hug. Her pink hero outfit makes the light seem to shift colors, he wonders if Sport’s would as well. “Thank you Uncle Milford.” She popped up onto her toes to press a kiss to his cheek. He chuckled, squeezing his charge before his eyes shifted to Robbie, lurking just on the outside of the light. “And what a handsome vampire.” Milford smiled, holding out a bag for Robbie. Robbie blinked several times, before pointing to himself. Stephanie and Trixie rushed over to grab his hands and pull him into the group. “You are the only v-vampire!” Ziggy smiled and placed a hand on his cape, making it flap slightly. “Thank you. You didn’t have to.” He held the small bag and looked at the spiderweb and ghost print. “Think of it as my thanks for bringing the kids out.” Milford patted his wrist before turning towards the kids. “Who’s ready for movies?” The kids all scramble past the two adults, mumbling thanks as they rush past Robbie. He even feels the youngest give him a hug against his leg, he lets his fingers brush over the white sheet covered head. Then it’s just him and Stephanie. “I can’t convince you to come in, huh?” “No. You kids have fun. I am tired and would rather sleep. Like you all should be.” Robbie crosses his arms over his chest before freeing one hand to try and shoo her away. Stephanie just smiles. “We have a special bag here for Sportacus. We made it up in case anyone got into trouble. Can you hang onto it for me?” Robbie turned up his nose at the bag probably filled with sports candy or something else. That trail mix that didn’t even have the candies he could pick out. Blech. “Why would I?” “We’re all going to be here until tomorrow, you still have to go home, what if you trip and get hurt? You could give it to him then! If not, I'll come and pick it up tomorrow.” Robbie sniffed, before taking the bag. “Fine. But not before four. I want to sleep.” Stephanie nodded, a knowing glint in her eyes as she closed the door on a bewildered Robbie.

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Sport curled into him when he slipped into the large fluffy bed. “Did you all have a fun time?” “I’m sure the kids had a great time. I don’t know how you wrangle them all day.” Robbie sighed as he tugged Sport to his chest. “It’s easy to do when it’s something you love. Did you not enjoy helping them dress up?” Sport pressed a sleepy kiss to his nose. “I did. They also made you up a bag for Halloween, in case we ran into trouble.” Sportacus pressed his sleepy chuckle into Robbie’s chest. “They couldn’t run into trouble, he went with them.” Robbie squawked, trying to squirm out of Sport’s strong grip. “How dare-!” “It’s okay. Because I love trouble.” Sport pressed another kiss to Robbie’s neck. Robbie was certainly pouting now. “I love you too. Blue Menace.” He pressed his own kiss to Sport’s forehead. “Good night Robbie. Sweet dreams.” “Sleep well, Sportacus.”

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[mysticdragon3md3]

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Earlier today, I saw someone's old post about how they love FE3H but don't care about the discourse. They said they didn't care about all the worldbuilding, lore, character conflicts, etc. They were just in it for the battles and dragons and such.

Despite how much I've come to hate how the discourse and fear of other fans has made me anxious about expressing my fandom for FE3H…I think I have to admit that maybe I like the discourse. I LIKE thinking about the worldbuilding and character backstories. I LIKE thinking about all the character conflicts and allegories in the story themes. I LIKE figuring out what ideals I agree with and what anti-ideals that FE3H has reminded me of, and why I feel so strongly against my personal anti-ideals.

And though it's likely a really toxic trait of mine, I also like only hearing good things about my favorite characters and favorite route (points). I like dumping on the characters I dislike, because they're not real and only fictional characters are acceptable to bully. I like sticking to my FE3H bubble with my specific headcanons about my favorite ship. I don't get into fandom to add extra stress to my life. It's supposed to alleviate my real life stress. So if I only want to fixate on the positive things (from my opinion), then I'll do that.

That tactic served me well in past fandoms. …It's just that, compared to other fandoms I've been in, I've been absolutely perplexed at how much FE3H's different bubbles strangely spill over into differing---CONFLICTING---VITRIOLICALLY CONFLICTING bubbles. Back when I was in Persona 5 fandom, my favorite character was the most hated character in the cast, by the majority of the fandom, for years and years, until P5R released. But I never saw hate for him, because I stayed in the Ryuji bubble. No one's Ryuji-hate, ever spilled into the Ryuji tag. The most I saw of my nOTP were random suggestions by social media algorithms, which I did complain about (to Tumblr. I complaied to the void about Tumblr algorithms showing me my nOTP, because it's a popular ship. I didn't complain about my nOTP on posts fangirling over that ship.) But I never got long ranting posts dumping on my OTP and trying to force my nOTP onto me. All the P5 factions stayed in their bubbles and we left each other alone, to enjoy the series in the way that we each preferred.

So it really confuses me why FE3H fandom never seems to stay in their own bubbles, their own factions, why it's so difficult to avoid seeing hate for your favorite character/route/OTP, etc. In fact, sometimes, others will look down on you for staying in a bubble, for not engaging with the full game, all the routes, and every single character. Staying in your bubble in FE3H is sometimes treated as a derogatory practice, according to some people's opinions, used to invalidate whatever feelings/opinions you may have about FE3H and especially how you choose to enjoy FE3H, even if a corded-off bubble is the way a person gets the most enjoyment and least stress out of FE3H. I'm just thoroughly dumbfounded and stumped. I don't use the Emperor's name in my anti-Emperor posts. I don't even tag my ridiculous bullying of her with her actual name. And i certainly dont comment character-hate onto character-fan posts. And though I seem to have a completely different headcanon for the relationship dynamics of my favorite FE3H ship, compared to the majority of the fanbase, I've created my own tag for that ship, so that the majority of that ship's fanbase and my headcanons, don't have to clash. I don't even tag my fanart of that ship with their common ship name! (And I drew them A LOT…for a while, EVERY SINGLE FREAKING DAY.) And yet, despite the precautions (which I assume SOME others take too), I still see nOTPs and personal anti-ideal interpretations of FE3H on my feeds. Then again, even in terms of our favorite characters, we can't seem to agree on their CHARACTERIZATIONS and what makes them so great. I've seen Claude fans laud him for holding to standards in his methods for achieving his goals, then other Claude fans laud him for being willing to do anything, regardless of moral standards, for his goals. Our perspectives on why we love our favorite, even singular characters, can be so conflicting, it can be frustrating to see our favorite character "misunderstood" by fellow fans of the exact same characters. We can't agree about anything in FE3H, even amongst our own bubble/factions. This has been such a weird fandom for me.

I feel like I've posted before about trying to process all this confusion, but I can never seem to find that exact post. I remember other people trying to address the same confusion in the FE3H fandom. But I can't remember what they said. All I know is that, after a whole new fandom finally broke me away from constantly obsessing over FE3H, the distance has been a relief. Even as that new fandom has started to fade its intensity from my mind, and I find myself drifting back towards FE3H, I find myself thankfully not so intense about FE3H as before. Not so intensely defensive, stubborn, volatile, reactive, etc. The mental/emotional distance has been a blessing.

---even if I don't know what to do with myself, when I don't have a fandom to intensely obsess over. I mean, what is strong enough to make the constant stream of anxious thoughts go away, when there's no intense obsession, always ready to be visualized by default in my brain? What other thoughts besides fandom obsession are strong enough to instantly supersede any anxious intrusive thoughts, reliably and effectively alleviating me of any negative thought spiral? I stay obsessed with one fandom at a time or one OTP persistently, for years at a time. I don't watch as much anime as I used to. and even when I do, I just don't get overtaken by a new obsession. I'm behind on all the new popular series and ships: JJK, Geto/Gojo, Demon Slayer KNY, Mob Psycho 100, Frieren, Chainsaw Man, Blue Lock, HeroAca, Genshin Impact, Honkai Star Rail, Kaiju No.8, etc. …and mostly because I've tried them, but wasn't interested enough to stay, let alone get obsessed over. About the only new series I seem to enjoy are a handful (Dungeon Meshi, Spy x Family, Apothecary Diaries, and what little I see of a few other iyashikei series). Yet, even those, I'm not obsessing over. I like them; they're not my new intensely effective mental/emotional balm to fight back against my anxiety. I miss having a blorbo to obsess over so intensely, that I see everything in life as related to or reminding me of them. I miss having an OTP so intense, that just the idea of them being happy, keeps my depression at bay. It's a really useful thing, to have a fandom to intensely obsess over.

I miss it. But I'm also kind of worried, that until a new one grabs me, I'm drifting back towards FE3H. That wasn't a healthy or safe place to be. It gave me just as much emotional pain and social anxiety, as the real life anxiety, that I was using my FE3H ship to counteract. It's worrisome.

I can only try to enjoy FE3H as a solo fan. That seems to be the safest thing. It keeps FE3H as a positive experience for me, without the fandom adding negative experiences to my life. I used to be a solo fan with everything. (There just weren't many accessible outlets to connect with other niche fans, back in the day, and niche is what anime/manga was back then. Now, I'm starting to get curious about Rumiko Takahashi fandoms, even though I originally enjoyed all that manga/anime, on my own. It's very odd to see arguing over something that I didn't take too far beyond its canon.) So the trick is to apply my old mentality of consuming canon media, to this new age, where I'm too accustomed to interacting with fandom. But it seems like this route is for the best.

[miupow]

hi ive been off tumblr for like a day or 2 but i js caught up on ur blog so time to chat (this is long mbmb 😓)

i saw u were sick but ur feeling better today WOO im glad u can enjoy ur christmas eve and christmas! hopefully it fully goes away soon 🙏 i had hella bad allergies a few days ago cuz of how cold and dusty it was in my room i felt so stuffy

saw u a hp talkinf ab t breaks and omgg it makes me a little sad ive been on a t break for a bit now bc i dont rlly have any money (or a real plug rn😭😭 double homicide PLS) to spend rn BUT HOPEFULLY SOON WISHIJF FOR A CHRISTMAS MIRACLE I CAN MY HANDS ON SOME SOON I MISS IT

ur bf follows u o my god thats so cute bruh hoping i get someone as supportive one day 🤞

THIW THEME IW SO CUTE BTW LIA (AND CICIS) ur themes never miss

i cant wait for the new fic coming out ill be waiting patiently 😈🤭

i had a job interview td but i think i kinda tanked it my answers were kinda shitty LMFAO so if they dont end uo hiring me i wouldnt be surprised but i got a back up plan so hopefully theyd hire me ���

have a good day and christmas eve lia! ofc remember to take care of urself esp since ur sick for a quick recovery u always come first 🗣️‼️

-🌱

hiii honey!!! good to hear from you again <333

i've been blessed with no allergies but i always get sick in the winter T^T hoping it's just a little headcold

manifesting a new plug for u for christmas <33333 hehee and ty ab my theme!! i like it a lot too :33 n my bf.. hehe he's special but i love him a lot... he's in oklahoma rn and i miss him terribly

I BELIEVE IN U NONNIE I HOPE U GET THE JOB!!!! im sure u did fine <3

have a good christmas love!! i'll take care of myself heehee

[lovincomets]

pick a card: the things they want to say to you right now, in a little letter

hello hello hello! this is my first post and my first pick-a-card reading upon here, and i'm so excited! the theme today is black & white, which is not really my aesthetic but it looked really pretty! i'm gonna be doing this reading mostly on what my gut & instinct says, but i'll pull some tarot cards too! also, i'm a beginner on tumblr, so please excuse me for any mistakes, if i make any. thank you! (i do not own any of these pictures, credits go to google)

● please breathe in and out, and then choose, if you're confused between choosing. ● it's perfectly okay to be drawn to more than 1 pile. however, i suggest that pick the one by which you feel more drawn towards.

pile 1 -----> pile 2

pile 3 ----> pile 4 this pick-a-card reading includes :- ● a small and cute letter from the person you're thinking about. ● some channeled messages / things that came in my mind while writing your letter. ● a channeled song. let's start with the reading!

pile 1 dear love, it's been a long time since i've talked to you. every second without talking to you felt like hell. i've missed you so much. i kind of feel like you're ignoring me, are you? i hope not. i just wanna talk to you. please text me, it'll make my day. are you eating well and taking care of yourself? i'm really worried about you. you look sad these days. is everything okay? if not, just know that i'm always there for you and everything is going to be alright soon. my love, i miss you so so much. please talk to me. love you. ♡ channeled messages "i love your eyes", "princess", los angeles, the colour white, "you're my queen", "i love you", a guy looking at a girl with doe eyes as she talks to someone else. ♡ channeled song havana - camila cabello (feat. young thug) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- pile 2 baby, i'm still blushing. you have no idea how much i love talking to you, do you? you probably think that i don't like talking to you, or i dont care about what you say, but, i love it. i really do love it. all the little moments we have, when you're in my arms, when we're laughing and joking around with each other. i love it so much. babe, never ever doubt about my feelings towards you. they're real and i know it. even though i may not show it sometimes, you really do have my heart, my queen. ♡ channeled messages "la la la la la la", a slow mo video of a couple laughing and hugging each other, california (?), cherry by lana del rey, "i wanna kiss you", "let's cuddle". ♡ channeled song last kiss - taylor swift ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ pile 3 hi, i don't think we know each other that well, do we? well, you seem interesting. i would love to know more about you, talk to me the next time you see me. the last time i saw you, were you running? you looked really pretty with all that hair in front of your face, i don't know what i'm even saying, but i loved it. let's be friends, shall we? ♡ channeled messages a chemistry lab, "hey, who is she?", a school/uni/college, "yolo!", a pretty girl with bangs, a guy wearing a checked white shirt. ♡ channeled song can i be him - james arthur ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ pile 4 yo, (such playful energy!) i love you. i don't think you know that. you probably never will. we are so close, i love to tease you and make fun of you, we bully each other sarcastically, i love it. you're my bestest friend. i want to be more than friends, but i'm not sure if you would want that. i'm scared to reveal my feelings to you. maybe you would reject me. i'm not sure. i don't want to ruin this amazing friendship i have with you. i really love you. you as a whole are an extremely gorgeous human being. ♡ channeled messages texting on discord, laughing, "stop hitting me! (in a playful way), "you're so cute!", a tiny room, running on the baseball field. ♡ channeled song olivia - one direction

thank you so much for reading! i hope you all liked it :) please share/reblog/like if you can! it would be much appreciated! <3 also, you can dm me whenever you want! i'll love to be friends with you all!

[sn0tcl0wn]

saw an article saying the reason no one is watching hawkeye is because of its "woke agenda" or w/e earlier today and it's been bothering me for hours because not only is that not the reason but the author was trying so hard to go with that reach that they completely missed the real, much jucier, story behind the lack of interest. like no one wanted this show except for the fans of the specific run of hawkeye the show is adapting, that being the fraction run and specifically borrowing cues and aesthetics from david aja's work in those books. the drama comes directly from that because i and many people learned and were disheartened by the fact that aja gets nothing for the direct inspiration the series and marketing took from his work specifically. it would have been fitting homage but it ended up being literal plagiarism and so many people chose to boycott it. this leaves the remainder of marvel and mcu fans to watch it but, as it was in the case of things like wandavision and loki, the only ones who really cared about and would otherwise be watching the series are the specific group of people who read whatever run is being adapted by disney+.

the reason no one is watching hawkeye is because the main demographic for that show were automatically alienated by the mistreatment of a respected artist who's work resonated with many of us so much that many people, including myself, actually wanted them to do what they did visually and take direct inspiration from that specific artist as he ended up being a fan favorite. and they did that but unfortunately they seemed to think people wouldn't notice or care when our faves get shafted by the mouse.

the other, less scandalous reason no one is watching hawkeye is probably because it's a christmas show and i couldn't have been the only one planning to watch it later in the month when the holiday was closer until i heard the news of the boycott.

like not only did they rip off one of the most influential hawkeye artists of recent memory but they also made it christmas themed and released it too soon for most people to get into it. and you know what? i was actually down for the "i'll be home for christmas" angle that allowed us to get to know his family and their dynamic better. i was ready to binge it the week before christmas to help get into the spirit and see one of my favorite books get semi adapted for screen. like this was a show made for what is ultimately a niche pocket in the expansive world of marvel fans and they chose to alienate those fans on top of releasing it weeks before a lot of people would usually be in the mood for a holiday hijinks action comedy.

the reasons no one is watching are pretty easy to pinpoint with a quick search and are very logical reasons for a show to flop and both of those reasons are far more interesting than reading a guy complaining about how clint barton feels like a secondary character (he is, it was essentially always kate's mask donning story with him as her mentor) and how supposedly no one cares about kate as if she wasn't one of the main selling points of the story they're taking heavy inspiration from to begin with.

like i dont mean to sound like a dork elitist but for fucks sake can people PLEASE read comics and be at lease SOMEWHAT aware of what's going on in the industry before bitching about forced diversity and poor characterization in media based on those books ?? like if he read the book he wouldn't have written that article because his complaints were all literally things that were in the fucking comics. i truly do believe that mcu only fans are the least valid form of superhero fan because they don't know shit and yet complain about things that were literally in the goddamn books as if they're inaccurate or ruining the series. like how can people have such wrong and boring opinions on comic related media with a such sense authority? i can't fathom it and it's been rattling around in my head all day because it's like they can't even introduce female characters that were from the comics without it being seen as forced diversity and they think complaining about that shit is more interesting and insightful than an actual discussion about, oh, i don't know, comic books and the way the people who make them get fucked by corporations like disney every goddamn time some new series drops.

i dunno man i think a much more important discussion could be had here but mcu stans don't seem smart enough to even know about it in the first place, let alone have it.

[yourbleedingh3art]

8 things im grateful for list 3:09am smoking weed in my garage

Went to pride today and 1.they let me bring in my bong 2.my friend drove(so i didnt have to deal w the stress of parking and navigating) 3.her bf paid for all of us to get in and i walked past an 8 dollar necklace that was really cool but that i figured i shouldnt buy bc i was feeling guilty abiut spending 40 dollars on weed when i owe 1k bc i got in a car crash .even though in retrospect, i spend 7-10 dollars on a meal like it's nothingggg and im like umm obviously thats wort it bc its delicious and the highest luxury to have somebdy else prepare u food bc ive been the onky one preparing food for myself prety much for the lat 7 or 6 years but the thing is the necklace wouldve also been worth it so i was like ok get ur head on Straight.. is 8 dollars clutching-my-pearls-too-muchh money to spend or is it whatever-impulse-buy money Uknow, and i was like, (the necklace was a cross btw) it wouldve been fun to get soemthing jesus themed at pride also i love jesus and i lost one of my favorite cross necklaces (I want to call it a crucifix bc thats such a prettier word than cross but technically i think the crucifixes are the oens that have jsesus's body on them) Anyway then i walked into a booth and i was like wait oh em gee a jesus drawstring bracelet i actually thought it was saint judas and i have a green saint judas prayer candle and this was green and black cord w a picture of jesus or saint judas im still not really sure which and then i was like how much and the guy said 5 dolalrs and i was like ok i can do 5 dolalrs but in my head im like damn 5 dollars thats homophobic its pride month im at pride and ur overcharging me like thatt but i just gave him a 5 but he gave me a dollar back its like he read my mind so i ended up getting 4. a $4 jesus themed bracelet from pride and now im wearing three bracelets 2 on my left wrist (where the jesus/saintjudas is now joining the half heart of my invader zim friendship bracelet w gir on it) and 1 on my right this dingy looking ass leather brown thread drawstring bracelet that has a silver bullet w wings on it and the bullet says Love (and i have a ring that matches it on my left pointer finger that is a gold heart that says Love) BUt the wing broke off but it's ok im not taking it off bc i refuse to at this time 5. bestie got me an italian vape, a pack of italian camels aka zebras or sumn, a star candle holder and a star neckalce bc she know i love stars and the star neckalce is so slayful af. never taking it off core..... and a book from the place wheresshe saw david of michelangelo. 6.and i went to an outdoor acoustic guitar show and it was awesome and beautiful honestly and 7. i remembered to do my freckles before bed 8.i have plans tomorrow 8. i quit a job that wasnt serving me and found new employment within a day that was double the salary of my old job which i feel extremely privileged to have been in the position to do 9.i'll be working with my good judy at this job 10. i have weed,a vape,blue hair,a car,piercings,a star tattoo,and im Alive and im 19 and im fucking so grateful ive been so miserable and depressed lately and theres no real Thing i can attribute this negativity to which has, in turn, been making me frustrated i cant understand myself with ease and frustration makes it easier to fall deeper into negativity and im always just fighting myself wishing again for a time of peace but the point is i get so wrapped up in the drama of my mental Fight and while The Struggle isReal life is so much more than THE STRUGGLE. LIFE IS SO MUCH MORE THAN THE STRUGGLE. I am happy i am alive. (It feels so radical to say that rn.When i get depressed it's like i dont care what happens to me or my body and i dont recognize that life is an intense privilege)I am happy i am not dead i am happy i am alive i am happy i am getting older because i am happy i am growing and continuing to grow and i am happy i remember i have endless choices in this world and even if i wanna wear reboks and be in my 'boks my ideas are outside of the box. i am happy i am alive

and i have so many more oppurtunites than i did a motnh ago and it's important for me to sit back. realize that. &be grateful for that

[wrestlezon]

liveblog containment post for aew dynamite 6/15/22

whoa startin with the hair vs hair match already lmao regal right out the gate with the excalibur flirting barber on call... ortiz: (rips off his shirt) excalibur: i like what im seeing! lmaoooo... same, excalibur if ortiz loses this im going to riot btw oh look theres kip sabian eddie vs the world... all alone oh! santana and wheeler backup! yay LMAO YES EDDIE SNEAK ATTACK lmfao william regal "cover him cover him! i want to see this man BALD" OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE KICK OUT fuego???? damn eddie got all the backup FUEGO???????? HOW DARE YOU????????????? THIS IS A LEVEL 9 HEEL MANUEVER AND FOR WHY WHAT NO ORTIZ OH MY GOD FUEGO I'LL MURDER YOU ....................... sammy... you....... YOU.... HEEL...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! blood and guts! blood and guts! jesus ortiz straight up cut himself too

wardlow vs the security guards is this a new theme...? or have i just never heard this much of his regular theme. i dont recognize it... lmfao wardlow just BURSTING out of 20 guys like an anime 18 left! lmfao stacking them for the multi-pin jesus what a ragdoll powerbomb lmao this match rules. 100 man smash i wonder if theyre gonna have a showdown between wardlow and The Final Security Guard The Last Security Guard Standing hey is that dan the dad? same haircut at least ok they didnt have a final showdown but lmao its sterling's time to get-- NO DAN LAMBERT ALERT........... sending his ufc goons against him... wardlow utilizing class consciousness YEAHHHHH!! MARK STERLING GETTIN POWERBOMBED wardlow is unionizing the guys theyre just ufc guys. they dont understand professional wrestling arm raising

dax vs ospreay next oh i have to do some work real quick. im sure dax will do cool moves tho dang has cash and dax lost all their singles nooo theyre beating him up oh yay rocky is here! hes got his fancy new jacket too. roppongi vice in the house OH!! HES BACK!!!! return of orange!! yay!!!! (c... chuck... where is... i KNOW hes backstage too...) orange i did miss u tho

moxley and tanahashi talk it out? settin up the ppv match? moxley earring :)c bruh fuckin' what. why is jericho here. is how they are avoiding having someone speak japanese on tv. fuck off with that. hire an experienced live translator oh! el desperado is here! i dont know anything about him but he is cute excuse me jericho. talking sex on main? bro? augh and you have sammy and tay on here? youre killing me

setting my cope-o-meter to level 9: perhaps in kayfabe chuck hasnt been around because minoru suzuki is working with jericho and hes in hiding

oh hey its toni storm promo-ing against britt baker ...man there is just so much (meta) weirdness going on surrounding thunder rosa. what is up with that. whats going on back there

ethan page! vs miro!!! miro's back :)c this is tough because i like ethan page. but i also like miro. i think miro should win though. sorry ethan page you hang out with dan lambert and i want to have as little exposure to drive-by bigotry as possible miro should win for punching the hell outta dan lambert yay miro did win

whoa, theres a dante martin vs moxley match on rampage this week? wild my friends are mad at me for saying that matt sydal has a small head because now they are so distracted by it every time hes onscreen now sorry not sorry

oh its britt baker. she has a match? britt baker from ........................ pittsburg oh shes fighting toni storm today? already? ok this is aew's one chance to NOT get me mad. do NOT make britt baker win. i dont care if its the dirtiest win in the goddamn world. i dont want to see it. dont make me generate that level of anger oh! thunder rosa is here chasing off jamie hayter... is this how they set up a rosa vs hayter match. i think that would be cool, i guess hmm... glove flung into the air... just sitting in the ring... hell of a hipcheck chekov's glove. the ref still hasn't moved it so... ................................................................ hmmmm ugh the glove is equipped..................... HMMMMMMM... ok toni storm won. danger averted. im no longer on alert

oh! its stokely hathaway and tony schiavone! OH!!!! WILLOW NIGHTINGALE!!!! shes so cute!!!!!!!! i love willow nightingale. infinite charisma

hangman promo time! hi hangman hiiiiii LMFAO self deprecating hangman... buddy its ok. who expected jay white to win the championship wha-- who is interrupt-- aw man! not ADAM COLE.... the thing with adam cole is that while i love him being adam cole, most of that love is wholly dependent on everything blowing up in his face. and its been kind of a while. and im starting to lose my patience jay white is here! i can appreciate jay white being this maniacal bad guy too oh boy! finally! adam cole gets taken down a notch!!! its about fucking time!!! yaayyyyyyyy im satiated. for now

what is even left on this card

oh! its the young bucks jurassic express ladder match jungle boy running up the ladder was cool omg that table OMG JUNGLE ON THE OTHER TABLE is nick gonna get lucha on this table.... OH MY we are 3 people out of 4 through tables and this match has like... not even been going on that long omg poor jungle boy. hes getting laddered... i love the bucks' california gear btw double table... making up for the lack of hardys in this match i feel there are so many kicks happening. im sorry jungle boy... you have so much 2v1s to fight luchasaurus' turn to fight! revenge!! moonsaults!!! lucha climbing up the ladder... but for why oh i forgot the belts are up there LMAO nooo luchasaurus onto the ladders...!! AND the table. rip luchasaurus i forgot about chekov's quad-table out by the ramp lolll... HMMM ohhhhH!! scary when they push the ladders... NOOOO LUCHASAURUS... THE QUAD TABLES... SO SCARY..... whoa nick's face is bloody jungle boy will now have to fend for himself if the young bucks arent going to get the ti-- oh! what the! what the??? young bucks really! oh my dang... christian cage you pushed jungle boy too far... the matches were too hard for him... WHOA WHAT THE!!!!!!!!!!! KILL MURDER??? MR CAGE WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVATIONS HERE i mean im always down for guy turning evil but. for why

oh! theres fite tv post show content

he kill him... LMAO WHY ARE YOU BEING MEAN TO JUNGLE BOY'S MOM... FOR WHY... LMAOOOOO

[sbnkalny]

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