#i dont believe in him using MC to save philos queen MC

[sncrly0urs]

THIS MADE MY HEART ACHE.

࿐ ࿔*:･ A SKY OF LIES.

୨ genre ୧ angst, no comfort, he’s using you so he could save your other self in philos, based on xavier’s lore

: your face was the exact same as i recalled – but i couldn’t feel for you what i once did. you’re a splitting image of what once was, and perhaps if it weren’t for that, i wouldn’t be drawn to you at all.

˚₊·—̳͟͞͞♡ note ! okay this one kinda hurt me

you let out a bittersweet chuckle as you slowly started to process everything you just found out. it was all too much up to the point you didn’t even know what emotion you should feel first – was it anger over only being appreciated for having a striking resemblance with the fragments of someone else, was it pain over knowing none of it was real and you were the only one building a future with him inside the little bubble in your head, or was it jealousy over finding out his feelings weren’t directed towards you at all the whole time? maybe it was everything all at once.

you weren’t even supposed to be rummaging through xavier’s drawer of files and papers and everything else similar, to be fair. a few minutes ago, you were just tossing out every piece of clothing he had neatly stacked inside his closet because you couldn’t find a shirt of his that fits you, but one thing led to another, and now here you were.

at first, you were feeling a mixture of confusion and shock when you opened one of the folders and saw yourself looking like some sort of royalty – and what made you even more bewildered was seeing your name written right beside the photo. this document must have existed for a long time already, given how smudged the words were.

“queen of philos.”

you knew you were supposed to close the folder and put it back its rightful place then, yet you couldn’t help but feel like there was more to it than what it led on. you flipped the first page – and that was when it all started.

apparently, there was an exact duplicate of yourself in another universe named philos – honestly, at this point, you’re starting to have second thoughts if you were the duplicate.

philos was where xavier was originally from, and that’s when you started to piece everything – it perfectly explains why he seems to be shrouded in a cloud of mystery.

much like yourself, your royalty version was tangled up in a problem regarding a heart condition, and xavier needed a specific type of protocore in order to save your other version and his universe at the same time. for hundreds of years, xavier has jumped from one universe to another, desperately trying to find the only thing that could save the two things that mattered to him the most from disappearing.

and it just so happens that the protocore he needed was the one engraved in your heart.

so none of it was real, then? those days you spent taking care of each other’s wounds after defeating wanderers, those mornings you spent nuzzling into each other’s arms with a shared blanket, those afternoons you spent yelling at him and accusing him for cheating just because he keeps winning the video game you two were playing, the nights you spent stargazing at the balcony of his apartment – it was all but a fragment of your imagination.

you heard footsteps gradually becoming more audible with each step, and so you quickly put the folder back where you first found it. you wiped your tears with the fabric of your shirt, trying to fix yourself up as soon as possible.

the moment he opened the door, he found you laying down on his bed with your eyes closed. you heard him quietly chuckle as he walked towards you, and you fought so hard not to burst into a fit of emotions the moment you felt his lips softly touch your forehead.

“i’m so glad to have you by my side.”

sure he was.

♡ , cupidswan.