#i don't want to feel like im competing against you i want to have wholesome silly conversation lmao

[walkingbomb]

i feel like i've had a lot of conversations in real life the past few years where the person i'm in conversation with is actively trying to like... win the conversation?

as in, they'll often take opportunities to one-up, or subtly boast about something, or outright try to put my opinion down

is this just me, is anyone else experiencing this?

[nyxlewotsit]

I am so feral about From Eden by Hozier being the most Crowley song in existence that i analysed every single line and now i need people to share my pain:

GO2 SPOILERS !! >

Babe

There's something tragic about you (angel/ demon shenanigans / also cus crowley is feeling love like a human would and that's insane to him )

Something so magic about you (literally an angel)

Don't you agree? (you believe you are holier than thou dont deny it)

Babe

There's something lonesome about you (THAT FUCKING SCENE IN GO2 THE "sounds lonely?" WHERE AZIRAPHALE JUST NODS IN RESPONSE I-)

Something so wholesome about you (he is little 🤭🤭 angel)

Get closer to me (it doesn't matter if your own side is lonely because it can be our side)

No tired sigh, no rolling eyes, No irony (he's not a demon, if he were crowley would expect that, but he's not, he's sweet and kind and perfect)

No "Who cares?", no vacant stare (angel - same as above)

No time for me (basically the same but in the fact, he's not an angel, he can't fall for crowley (teehee "fall" 👀))

Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror years ago (not only have they know eachother for 6000 years on earth, i truely believe there is a little bit of crowley that remembers azi from before the fall, just like how gabriel remembered beelzebub)

Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on his sword (it's not a perfect silly little relationship and it never will nor can it be, not ideal, not chivalrous, i know you too well)

Innocence died screaming; honey, ask me, I should know (i fell because i asked questions, i was no less innocent than you, you are not holier than thou, my innocence is gone because of that, but yours isnt)

I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door (i mean he was a literal fucking snake now pining over his silly little angel do i really need to explain this line)

Babe

There's something wretched about this (i can't believe im letting myself feel this way about an angel but i am)

Something so precious about this (genuinely loves him)

Where to begin? (how do you express that you've loved someone for 6000 years who you fundamentally should not love)

Babe

There's something broken about this (they find it impossible to express their feelings to eachother, crowley keeps his feelings locked away so tightly cus he doesn't want to appear vulnerable, so their relationship is so broken)

But I might be hoping about this (he still loves azi and wants their relationship to be something, he wants to go off together, just them)

Oh, what a sin (literally)

To the strand, a picnic planned

For you and me (an alternative to the ritz, just being silly lil guys going out for lunch together yk)

A rope in hand for your other man

To hang from a tree (wants his love for heaven and being holy to die, can't deal with the thought that that is what he is competing against for aziraphale)

Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror years ago

Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on his sword

Innocence died screaming; honey, ask me, I should know

I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door

Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror years ago

Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on his sword

Innocence died screaming; honey, ask me, I should know

I slithered here from Eden just to hide outside your door (i will always be there but i will not always be present, i can't talk to you about my feelings because of this little ball in my chest that tells me you will never love me back, so I'll hide and avoid my feelings whilst doing everything i can for you and outwardly loving you)

i am sobbing /hj