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kindacreepy-kindaugly · 8 months ago

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Why do I still hate myself for not livin up to the person I used to pretend to be

#i don't wanna be that guy anymore #n it's not like anyone else wants me to be that either #except val maybe but fuck what he wants n also it was still never good enough for him anyway #or i guess it used to be. back home. long as i kept the act up at least.#wanted me to compensate w/ somethin else when i couldn't make him any more money i guess #but even when i put on my best damn performance to be what he wanted he found smth to pick apart #it's been easier than it used to resisting when i feel the pull again but....#i still feel like he was right about everythin. so now that i don't let him have me anymore i'm just a waste of space #still don't know if it's better this way or not #he wasn't always this fucking mean. i think he got worse here than he was back home.#i mean he was always an abusive piece of shit but. it wasn't impossible to keep him happy. just had to keep my head down n do what i'm told.#now if i seem too into it he'll just find a way to ruin it for me #he wants me to want him but not enjoy any of it. i'm supposed to hate every moment but still ask for more.#i don't fucking want that #so idk what it even is anymore that i think i'm supposed to be. i just know it's something else than this.#spdrvent

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cowardlykrow · 7 months ago

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Don't even look at each other before marriage

#You guys this took days to finish and i don't even know why OTL #now this was SUPPOSED to be a whole npmd main cast line up #but then i just... didn't wanna anymore haha so just these three :Bc #me realizing i wrote Save instead of Leave: :is big failure 😔😔😔#Hatchetfield #peter spankoffski #stephanie lauter #grace chasity #NPMD #nerdy prudes must die #starkid #taping my mouth closed to prevent the infinite complaints i have for this

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sharky-the-idiot · 3 months ago

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Bugs when you lift up the rock

#hes so skrunkly you guys i wanna hold him and kiss his forehead #i don't think the selfshipping jokes are jokes anymore #cookie run kingdom #cr kingdom #crk #wind archer cookie #wind archer crk #thanks wind archer <33 for being in kingdom <33 so now i don't have to destroy my phone w ovenbreak

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shrews-art · 5 months ago

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Pain reminds us that we are alive or something I guess

#kell maresh #or more like Kay I guess in this one #adsom #the fragile threads of power #tftop spoilers #his whole magic and pain ordeal is driving me nuts someone get a cure for this boy's problem I can't watch him suffer anymore #<- my personal thoughts but also said by Lila at some point probably #I am only halfway through tftop btw so if they do find a solution for it please don't tell me fhskdgkshd #a darker shade of magic #shades of magic #v e schwab #art #shrews art #rkgk #I really rushed this one but I'm still happy with it so that's a win I guess <3 #on an unrelated note how are you guys?#I wanna draw Tes next

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birdhousekey · 4 months ago

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there's something lgbt happening in camp (feat. shadowheart and her messy girlfriend)

#you guys are in a crisis (lack of karlach yuri) i'm on the way #oc #bg3 tav #karlach x tav #i don't know how tagging works. i haven't been on this site in 5000 years anymore #karlach #shadowheart x tav #baldurs gate oc #baldurs gate tav #shadowheart #baldurs gate fanart #rue #cloelia #technically not ship art because rue and karlach are good friends but also if you wanna tag it that way it's fine with me because #there should be more fem karlach pairings

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jackkelso · 3 months ago

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hsr gifs 2/?

#gamingedit #dailygaming #hsredit #honkaiedit #hsr #honkai star rail #robin hsr #*edit #guys i forgor how to make gifs for a second #and im still struggling #these r just test gifs to get back into the swing of things #g.#hsrgifs #also i feel like the way i do gifs is outdated but idk if I wanna start learning a different method lolz #another fun fact i don't even play this game anymore #bc depression yay #but i have tons of stuff to gif from it

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galaxyseclipse · 1 month ago

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is a total of three days of screaminktober missed worth it for this?

eh, idk, but I got this done, and it's not like anyone's holding me super accountable for that anyway

plus the funnier ending that I got to work/really wanted to post too

he put a lot of effort into those puns, dude, the least you can do is not call them bad

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sparklingchim · 5 months ago

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#can i yap for a moment #im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused #also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting #anyway #made out w a boy tonight #and he wanted to go to his place #and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies #and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid #that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him #i just hate when boys think they're so superior #so i argued with this stupid but hot man #until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things #anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship #but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again #it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times #and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends #anyway and then we left the party #this guy pulls me aside the parking lot #and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it #and i just wanted to die #and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute #but i legit have zero feelings for him </3 #and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one #actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3 #the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes #but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3

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iero · 2 years ago

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Gun it while I’m holding on

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maddgical-boy · 1 year ago

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i feel like we don't talk about how much madd distorts your sense of identity, especially if you have a paraself that is meant to be the person you want to be and/or cannot currently be. when i look at myself in the mirror i almost don't recognize myself because That's Not Me that's just like. idk. some meat suit i need to be alive on earth??

#OK JUST SO WE'RE CLEAR BC TUMBLR HAS ISSUES WITH PISSING ON THE POOR HERE #when i say ''i feel like we don't talk about'' i mean as in ''i have not seen it mentioned'' and not like ''this is obviously universal''#no blanket statements are being made here. the blanket is for me and i am snug and cozy in it #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #it's like superman and bizarro except irl me is the bizarro one. i am bizarro jerry. i am kevin #especially if you're trans and your paraself is the gender you wanna be then it's like DAMN who am i anymore. some guy?? nah #mark stops daydreaming for a sec.txt

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lloydfrontera · 3 months ago

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actually kind of insane they chose that art style for cpsm now that i think about it. like. i'm not complaining at all. but these are the faces i'm gonna have to look at be physically and psychologically tortured in the latter half of the plot:

and i'm not sure i'm emotionally ready for that. why they gotta make them that cute. it's gonna make it hurt even more later on.

#i talk a lot <3 #cpsm #crown prince sells medicine #the apothecary prince #honestly? i really like the style. it is absolutely my bias and starvation for cute faces in the webtoon we don't talk about anymore.#but whatever i enjoy having something pretty to look at sue me.#still a pretty fascinating choice tho. this was not the way i pictured the adaptation looking like if i'm being honest #i am a little wary of how they're gonna handle the more gory and cosmic horror parts of the plot #so far everything has been pretty and nice and neat #so i wanna see how they handle the blood and guts and gore. especially in the undead arc.#anyway. a lot of my commentary for the webtoon will absolutely be cooing at my little guys so. sorry about that in advance lmao #ch 41

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zeherili-ankhein · 7 months ago

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I think I will start making Chhota Bheem incorrect quotes.

Because nobody else does...

#seriously i need more people on the chhota bheem fandom #where are all the people who watched chhota bheem as a kid??#do you not like it anymore?#or do you guys just don't wanna have a fully functioning fandom just because its a cartoon?#bheem bheem bheem chhota bheem chhota bheem #chhota bheem #desi people #desi teen #desi shit posting #desi humor #desi indian #desi tumblr #desi tag #being desi #desi life #desi #chhota bheem incorrect quotes

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dogboner · 6 months ago

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personal growth is crazy because it seems like nothing has changed until you're crying because you don't want to die. you learn something about yourself that ten years ago would have actually killed you, and now you're thinking about what you can do to heal and make peace with it. nothing may have changed to you, but to the person you were however long ago, you are the "it gets better"

#guy who's very proud of how well he's handling things rn lol #anyways personal time:#but idk man i kinda remembered smthn from my past n #like. if it wasn't for how much effort i've put into my mental health n coping skills #n my support network now #idk id be in a much worse place.#so i'm gonna forgive myself for not really sleeping last night #n having a hard time with my bpd feelings n emotions #because fuck man! i'm doin really good actually!#growth doesn't have to be oh man i'm never ever sad anymore #it's just. idk i don't cry because i Wanna die anymore #sometimes i have an intrusive thought of suicide #and it makes me cry because i DONT wanna die. and i know those thoughts are not good or needed #but i'm not gonna beat myself up for having them. i'm just gonna be patient n gentle w myself #n give myself time #n everything will be okay(:#bc it is okay! it's in the past and i'm safe now. and i wanna make other people feel safe too #growth starts w baby steps. n that's why it's so hard to recognize in yourself a lot of the time #it goes slooooooowly. for me at least lol.#mine #despite everything i am happy because i know my life now is one i love (: and one im actively trying to better for myself

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kingdomsaurushearts · 4 months ago

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Heavy debate on just deleting everything and Peace-ing Out.

#vent #I already uninstalled twitter insta and tumblr from my phone. been kinda nice #tiktok brain rott is real though. sucks #i'm just... tired. I don't want to but I do. the internet is just so toxic.#i'm feeling defeated. ya know?#you make mistakes and suddenly it's all people wanna talk about. just. yeah.#mental health man.. it's a literal killer #i miss the me before the pandemic. before even then. when i had fun creating. where is that me?#my spark is gone guys. i don't know what to do.#I want to do so much.. but i feel like cant. shouldn't. no one should feel like that. but i do.#I feel like i'm not allowed to talk to my ..friends? are they my friends? I dont know anymore. they never talk to me either. so. maybe not.

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eff-plays · 7 months ago

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AA girlies want to choke on Astarion's dick and get slapped around by him because that's true love.

Spawn girlies want to wrap him in 7 layers of bubble wrap so he doesn't hurt himself thinking too hard.

Cool girlies flush him down the toilet and watch him swirl around in the bowl because he's finally where he belongs.

#yes i have opinions like any person but at this point i can't be fucked to articulate them anymore #i have opinions but i'm not dying on any hill anymore because frankly that guy is a bunch of pixels #and i'm tired of pretending he's important #if i wanna take a metaphorical piss on him then i will #cuz that's what fandom and fic is for #and if you have problems with people's fic you don't bully them or let them know you take that shit to your private chats and discords #and clown on them in the privacy of your own home where it won't reach them #*continues to write my tav/astarion fic*#bg3 #astarion discourse #astarion #followers don't worry i'm just goofing<3 you know me i'm a real goofball

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raiiny-bay · 8 months ago

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finished dhes & kel's character pages so here are the lil edits i made for both of em :-)

#myedits #kelly #dhestyn #ik i posted kel’s already but now i am posting both pictures together #i have read through the bios so many times atp that i don't even know if they make sense anymore #i cannot look at them again #i'm just gonna say they're good enough #i might change some stuff here & there but for now #i am over it lol #i'll probably do the rest of the characters eventually..........#maybe...........#but idk. i only really post the boys here so like. yea. yk.#plus i still have the mbz character page to do #which. that has like. so many characters on it. it's a daunting task #i hope the boys' pages are at least somewhat coherent. i tried to be concise & to the point. uh. idk if i was successful in that #but. n e way. i have a few edits & writing things i wanna work on so. character pages are moving to the back burner #i may or may not finally start writing the 90sAU #which btw ty guys for being so nice on that edit???? the comments & tags were all so sweet?????#i really liked that one so i'm glad y'all liked it too

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