#i don't wanna be that guy anymore
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Why do I still hate myself for not livin up to the person I used to pretend to be
#i don't wanna be that guy anymore#n it's not like anyone else wants me to be that either#except val maybe but fuck what he wants n also it was still never good enough for him anyway#or i guess it used to be. back home. long as i kept the act up at least.#wanted me to compensate w/ somethin else when i couldn't make him any more money i guess#but even when i put on my best damn performance to be what he wanted he found smth to pick apart#it's been easier than it used to resisting when i feel the pull again but....#i still feel like he was right about everythin. so now that i don't let him have me anymore i'm just a waste of space#still don't know if it's better this way or not#he wasn't always this fucking mean. i think he got worse here than he was back home.#i mean he was always an abusive piece of shit but. it wasn't impossible to keep him happy. just had to keep my head down n do what i'm told.#now if i seem too into it he'll just find a way to ruin it for me#he wants me to want him but not enjoy any of it. i'm supposed to hate every moment but still ask for more.#i don't fucking want that#so idk what it even is anymore that i think i'm supposed to be. i just know it's something else than this.#spdrvent
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Don't even look at each other before marriage
#You guys this took days to finish and i don't even know why OTL#now this was SUPPOSED to be a whole npmd main cast line up#but then i just... didn't wanna anymore haha so just these three :Bc#me realizing i wrote Save instead of Leave: :is big failure 😔😔😔#Hatchetfield#peter spankoffski#stephanie lauter#grace chasity#NPMD#nerdy prudes must die#starkid#taping my mouth closed to prevent the infinite complaints i have for this
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THE HEART KILLERS (2024-2025) เขาจ้างให้ผมจีบนักฆ่า dir. Jojo Tichakorn Phukhaotong
#the heart killers#the heart killers the series#joong archen#dunk natachai#tuserhidden#tusersilence#tobelle#userrlana#userlinnea#vishingwell#zeystuff#gif: thk#you know what I wanted to upload this despite maybe there is already the same set out there... which I rarely upload anymore if I know#but I have things to say about this scene... I feel like this is the first genuine conversation they had in all the episodes so far#as the cautious guy Fadel is he must've searched style beforehand (which we don't see but he must've) so which also means he knew about#his mother not being alive and yes obviously also him working at the garage but this is the first time fadel asked style things out of#curiosity... (even if he knew in my opinion) and style being so comfortable with fadel that he forgot that he's talking to a hitman#it's the guy he's interested in. he forgot for a split second whom he talking to and trusted him enough to tell all about these#things about him which is kinda personal at least for some yet here we are with one who's trusting the other enough to tell things#and fadel is surprised!! no one can convince me otherwise I might be delulu but like i said i believe he already knows all of this#yet he asked and didn't expect that style would be so open about all this to tell him this the 6th and 8th gif tells a lot#fadel is still trying to figure style out but I feel like the conversation here and at the garage where fadel saw himself#style in working mode and how he helps out a lot at the garage and the conversation how his dad became his most important person#added a lot to his trust barometer when it comes to style. he sees him in a different perspective. light whatever you wanna call it#but it definitely trust his view on style a bit. I already talked a lot under my own set so I'll stop
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Bugs when you lift up the rock
#hes so skrunkly you guys i wanna hold him and kiss his forehead#i don't think the selfshipping jokes are jokes anymore#cookie run kingdom#cr kingdom#crk#wind archer cookie#wind archer crk#thanks wind archer <33 for being in kingdom <33 so now i don't have to destroy my phone w ovenbreak
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I'm half convinced that if Vi and Cait hadn't actually kissed and slept together, there would be some people showing up out of nowhere to say that their relationship is supposed to be platonic and seeing it as romantic is harmful to the concept of simple friendship and that two people can be close without it being romantic etc etc (which they are saying about jayvik and silco/vander)
Now since explaining a thousand times that people can have different opinions and they should learn to respect them instead of correcting them as if there is only one true answer does not seem to work, here's an idea: just block those ship tags and let us all have peace in this fandom.
Thank you.
#to be clear what I mean is that there will always be some people who would say anything to not see two people of the same gender as romantic#i don't even ship silco and vander that much but others insisting that they must not be shipped makes me wanna ship it out of spite#no one is even saying that two people can't be close without it being romantic#but people are free to see it however they like#and don't even get me started on jayvik#those bitches are gay and no christian linke can tell me otherwise#as I've repeat again and again once a work of art is published it doesn't belong to the writers anymore since it takes a life of its own#and becomes open to different interpretations by the audience#i will not stop saying this so stop with whatever the linke guy said#arcane#arcane season 2#jayvik#jayce talis#viktor arcane#jayce x viktor#zaundads#vander and silco#silco x vander#vander x silco#vanco#viktor x jayce#caitvi
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Pain reminds us that we are alive or something I guess
#kell maresh#or more like Kay I guess in this one#adsom#the fragile threads of power#tftop spoilers#his whole magic and pain ordeal is driving me nuts someone get a cure for this boy's problem I can't watch him suffer anymore#<- my personal thoughts but also said by Lila at some point probably#I am only halfway through tftop btw so if they do find a solution for it please don't tell me fhskdgkshd#a darker shade of magic#shades of magic#v e schwab#art#shrews art#rkgk#I really rushed this one but I'm still happy with it so that's a win I guess <3#on an unrelated note how are you guys?#I wanna draw Tes next
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Personally I feel like I have the last big laugh in this fandom, Shoto is number 2, Izuku refused to work with Bakugou and all the shippers are freaking out saying that this ruins his character when in reality it's a positive point that shows his maturity as a character, letting go and moving on as a teacher and hero. They may have a popularity pool rigged but I have a chapter that takes away any joy from them.
CHAT IS THIS REAL
I know the BakuDeku shippers are seething. I was wondering why the BkDk/Bakugou stan hive mind seemed to be extra irritable lately. I just thought it was because IzuOcha is confirmed canon now, but this?? This is better than I could have hoped.
I'll never forgive Horikoshi, but at least he let me have this. Extremely rare Horikoshi W.
Bakugou can eat shit
#anti bakugou katsuki#izuku deserves better#todoroki deserves better#and they GOT better#horikoshi really said “maybe I don't wanna be the bad guy anymore”#I'll still never forgive him#but at least i can have this#anti bakudeku shippers#anti bakugou stans#anti bakudeku#ask#mha leaks#mha spoilers
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#lunar and earth show#earth tsams#earth laes#earth and lunar show#i love her so much#Sorry for this shitty edit#I hate this fandom#y'all bullied kat so much that she doesn't even wanna be a part of the show anymore#you guys are actually disgusting#this is why I don't even want to talk in the discord#or make tsams content accept for memes
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there's something lgbt happening in camp (feat. shadowheart and her messy girlfriend)
#you guys are in a crisis (lack of karlach yuri) i'm on the way#oc#bg3 tav#karlach x tav#i don't know how tagging works. i haven't been on this site in 5000 years anymore#karlach#shadowheart x tav#baldurs gate oc#baldurs gate tav#shadowheart#baldurs gate fanart#rue#cloelia#technically not ship art because rue and karlach are good friends but also if you wanna tag it that way it's fine with me because#there should be more fem karlach pairings
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hsr gifs 2/?
#gamingedit#dailygaming#hsredit#honkaiedit#hsr#honkai star rail#robin hsr#*edit#guys i forgor how to make gifs for a second#and im still struggling#these r just test gifs to get back into the swing of things#g.#hsrgifs#also i feel like the way i do gifs is outdated but idk if I wanna start learning a different method lolz#another fun fact i don't even play this game anymore#bc depression yay#but i have tons of stuff to gif from it
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is a total of three days of screaminktober missed worth it for this?
eh, idk, but I got this done, and it's not like anyone's holding me super accountable for that anyway
plus the funnier ending that I got to work/really wanted to post too
he put a lot of effort into those puns, dude, the least you can do is not call them bad
#i know this kinda paints them in a cynical “i don't wanna be the good guy anymore/i'm tired of being the hero all the time”#but they're just tired#like physically#and mentally#and emotionally#and they wanna see their girlfriend#and i like the idea of them being a bad guy for a little bit#my art#splatoon#splatoon 3#tsunami(captain 3)#ika(new agent 3)#captain 3#new agent 3#dj octavio#splatoon side order#side order bad ending au#side order#tsunami uptempo#those are actual mediocre puns btw if you wanna figure them out#or ask me and i'll tell you lmao
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#can i yap for a moment#im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused#also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting#anyway#made out w a boy tonight#and he wanted to go to his place#and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies#and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid#that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him#i just hate when boys think they're so superior#so i argued with this stupid but hot man#until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things#anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship#but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again#it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times#and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends#anyway and then we left the party#this guy pulls me aside the parking lot#and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it#and i just wanted to die#and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute#but i legit have zero feelings for him </3#and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one#actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3#the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes#but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3
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Gun it while I’m holding on
#gerard way#gerard#my chemical romance#mcr#hang em high#three cheers#three cheers for sweet revenge#mcr tour 2022#my edit#usermeliorn#userangelic#tuserrobin#userbaby#usernaysa#usercy#userparamore#tuserlis01#I don't know who to tag in My Chem sets anymore! Girl help LMAOOO#If one of you guys I did tag don't wanna be tagged in them please let me know!#Was going for a vintage kind of coloring here. Probably doesn't look that way LMAO.#Anyway missing tour. Missing them. :(
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Meet the Polycule!
Isa:
He's the seventh son of a seventh son of a seventh son. (Third generation seventh.)
As such, he's expected to be a very powerful wolf.
His first name is actually Isaiah but he doesn't like it. Because it's his dad's name and his grandfather's name. :/
Met Aaron when they were both eight (Isa was about to turn 9) and knew immediately they were meant to be together forever.
He didn't keep it a secret either. He wasn't shy. He and Aaron were attached at the hip growing up!
When Micah brings home his friend Ashley, Isa is hit with the 'holy shit, that's my mate' feeling. Again. And he stresses about it until he talks to his dad and is told it's okay. Some people have more than one.
He has two hands! Yippee. Two mates<33
Big bad scary wolf who gets carsick if he's in the backseat. :(
Had an anxiety problem as a kid but grew out of it.
Aaron:
Was found by Isa's oldest brother (Elijah, age 19 at the time) while he was on a morning run through the forest.
After explaining her situation, Elijah asked if she'd come to his house and tell his mom. So she reluctantly agreed.
He carried her through the woods to his house and sets her down in the yard, then heads inside to get his parents. He explains what she told him, that she smells like vampires, and that she's alone.
They decided to take her in until her parents got back, but they never did.
Became instant-friends with Isa and Micah. The three of them were inseparable.
Isa told them his family's secret a couple months in and then they grew up wanting to be a wolf.
Came out to Isa in the middle of the night at age sixteen and had him chop their hair off. (It was a total hackfest but they liked it.)
Wakes up one night with fangs and glowing eyes, scaring the shit out of Isa.
Ashley:
Grew up with a single mom who really didn't care much about anything, especially him.
Was desperate for her approval so he'd always do his best at school, but was never really noticed.
At age thirteen, he witnessed his mom's death— her boyfriend Mitchell shoved her down a flight of stairs during an argument. He heard everything and knew what really happened but no one believed him, except his best friend Micah.
A couple weeks after the funeral, Mitchell starts trying to get handsy with Ashley. When he takes it too far, Ashley accidentally burns the house down.
It's a miracle he survived, says the EMTs who arrive on scene. But it wasn't a miracle, Ashley knows. The fire didn't come near him at all. It was as if he had a protective bubble around him— because he did.
He goes into foster care for a bit then the wolves snatch him up. (He was over at their house constantly and they're well liked in town so getting custody wasn't super hard.)
Shares Micah's bedroom.
He has some scars on his upper arms from cigarettes being put out on him. (One of his mom's old boyfriends used to call him Ashtray.)
The three of them are all holding hands 5ever and they'll also kill over each other if they have to. :3
#UHHHH this has been a long time coming and i finally have my brain working enough to make this post so yay :)#i know they're cringe and i don't care anymore! also... i know what you're thinking. 'aerie. why do you like the name aaron so much'#well it's because i'm gay okay. also... aaron is afab and they and i have the same deadname but i'm not telling y'all That lol#i read a hundred years ago that if you wanna 'get over' your deadname you should give it to someone/something else#(i think the OP of the post named a pokemon their deadname or smth)#but i don't play pokemon so i created a lil guy yay : )#anyway!!! thank you for looking at them i love you!#aerie's OCs#oc: isa green#oc: aaron hastings#oc: ashley hale#also lol have y'all noticed i post these at night... is it perhaps because i don't want anyone to see them... hmm...#anyway#diaerie#aerie's oc cards
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i feel like we don't talk about how much madd distorts your sense of identity, especially if you have a paraself that is meant to be the person you want to be and/or cannot currently be. when i look at myself in the mirror i almost don't recognize myself because That's Not Me that's just like. idk. some meat suit i need to be alive on earth??
#OK JUST SO WE'RE CLEAR BC TUMBLR HAS ISSUES WITH PISSING ON THE POOR HERE#when i say ''i feel like we don't talk about'' i mean as in ''i have not seen it mentioned'' and not like ''this is obviously universal''#no blanket statements are being made here. the blanket is for me and i am snug and cozy in it#maladaptive daydreaming#madd#it's like superman and bizarro except irl me is the bizarro one. i am bizarro jerry. i am kevin#especially if you're trans and your paraself is the gender you wanna be then it's like DAMN who am i anymore. some guy?? nah#mark stops daydreaming for a sec.txt
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rip to siffrin and loop but I'd get out of the time loops way faster than them and without having to have a complete mental breakdown because I'd tell my party about the loops almost immediately if not immediately and we'd figure it out together as a team
#tbh baffling to me that siffrin never thought to tell them till he couldn't hide it anymore#like?? Odile's a researcher why would you never ask her for her thoughts on it?? she might know something you don't??#Mirabelle's taken more classes than anyone else in the house??? we don't want her input??#like every member of your party could've helped and you just chose not to ask them for it ever??#couldn't be me. even if i didn't wanna ask for help I'd have caved and done it sooner rather than later#even at the very beginning where Siffrin was like “why would i tell them” i was like well why wouldn't you tell them#in stars and time#isat siffrin#im joking guys dw i know i cannot speak for how awful time loops are
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