#i don't CARE that compared to some of my other f/os. he has the personality of a shoe

[sunflowers-and-sweetviolets]

he's literally so perfect

[eating-plastic]

Getting back into self shipping

So in case the few reblogs here and there didn't give it away, yeah I'm back into self shipping after falling out of love with it for some time. Here's an intro to my f/os because I realized I never actually properly introduced them before (whoops!). There are also a few ground rules I have for self ship stuff on my blog afterward, so if you don't care about who I ship myself with, then just scroll past those. Okay? Cool! Let's get a move on then!

Roller Ricky:

Roller Ricky is a minor character from the game Killer Frequency. He is a laid back, fun-loving guy who runs a roller rink in the fictional small town of Gallows Creek. Though he's friendly and sweet, he is not afraid to scare someone off with his rifle if they threaten his life or the lives of those he loves. Also he has trauma! Due to an awful prank that resulted in the death of one of his peers, he developed severe survivor's guilt that spiraled into him developing an alcohol addiction to deal with the grief. Fortunately, he eventually got help and therapy for his alcoholism and trauma. He also has an emotional support dog named Max, who he adores.

Honestly what's there not to love about Ricky? He's like, the definition of the ideal man (at least to me he is 🤭). He's sweet, he's caring, loves his dog, he's willing to defend the lives of those he loves, he's pretty easy on the eyes (not just in his canon appearance, but I've seen many different looks people have come up with for him and all of them are so handsome. Then again, I did fall in love with his voice and personality first). The first ever full length x reader fic I wrote was with him, which was pure unbridled self indulgence. After writing 3 x reader things with him and finding out what self shipping was, I realized that he was my f/o; that I loved him more than any other character I had written for (with the exception of my other f/o).

Our ship name is Heart Shaped Roller Rink.

Maison Talo:

Maison Talo is the antagonist of the game House Hunted. Though what you predominately see of him looks human, he very much is not. Maison is a REALTOR, one of the many species of creatures that live in the Uncanny Valley. His true body is a for sale house that can eat and digest living things, whereas what you see that looks human is actually a lure (like an angler fish). Soooo yeah, he eats people, but he's not necessarily evil per se, more morally gray if anything; it's just how he and his species eat and you need to eat to live after all. He's not heartless either, as he is still very capable of developing emotional relationships with others and even falling in love.

So when compared to Ricky, why on God's green Earth is Maison my other f/o (besides the fact that his lure form is hot as FUCK)? Well, to be completely honest I'm a lil bit of a "poser" as a lot of the love I feel for him is from headcanons I have written for him and less actual canon (to say that I cherry pick canon when it comes to REALTOR anatomy and such, would be a gross understatement lol). So yeah, I'd probably be considered a fake fan, it's the big reason why I've played around with the idea of him being my f/o, but only now am making it official. Whatever 🤷‍♀️.

To me (and once again, these are headcanons) Maison is very romantic. Like classic gentleman romantic. He'd also highly value his partner because I think he hasn't genuinely loved someone in a long time or even at all, so when he realizes he does love someone, he's gonna cherish them greatly. Also be uber protective over them as the Uncanny Valley is like, super fuckin dangerous. He would definitely spoil the shit out of you too (bro's not beating the sugar daddy allegations lol). Plus, you're getting a boyfriend and a free house! I also fell for him the same way I fell for Ricky: I just wrote for him a lot and realized "Hey, I'm actually not normal about this character at all." While Ricky was my first x reader fic, Maison was my first x reader thing period.

I just feel like I have to justify why Maison is my other f/o because yeah he is a lil pretentious about being the "Number 1 REALTOR in the Uncanny Valley" and the fact that he eats people, but hey no one's perfect.

Our ship name is Home Sweet Home.

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With that outta the way, here are some rules for self ship stuff on my blog:

1.) I am okay with sharing my f/os

2.) Shipping discourse is absolutely NOT allowed on this blog. The whole reason I fell out of love with self shipping was because of the proship vs antiship bullshit. I don't wanna see it, I don't wanna deal with it, which leads into...

3.) Anyone is allowed to interact with my blog and my self ship posts. I also take the time to look at self ship posts to make sure they don't have any form of a DNI on them or in the tags before reblogging them

I want this blog to be a space for positivity always, especially when it comes to self shipping because it is something that has brought me a ton of joy. Be kind, be respectful, and treat yourselves right ❤️

[villain-in-love]

hello . it is me again. how about 5, 8 and 1? (@canarycurse)

Well, it's nice to see you here again~

I honestly intended for this to be a small game, but you asked the kind of interesting questions that the answers got a bit out of hand:

1. Newest F/O? Oldest F/O? Any similarities between them? What's the biggest difference/s between them?

*Heavy sigh* Oh gods.

Well...

I mean…

I was a fool for thinking that my tastes have changed in the last ten years. From Ciel Phantomhive to Thistle. I've come full circle.

So here we have two creepy brats with too much power for their own good. Both are of high social standing and work directly for the royal family. Both are traumatized to hell and back, both made contracts with demons, both got way too many responsibilities thrown at them when they were way too young for all this bullshit, but at the same time, they are handling those responsibilities with an astonishing competence? In terms of personality, their personalities are not pleasant. Serious, responsible, driven, intelligent, usually only laugh at other people’s misfortune. Both Ciel and Thistle would probably consider themselves to be a “necessary evil”, as both are quite villainous, but at the same time, don’t exactly have bad intentions…

Also both of them are small, cute, feminine, and are usually dressed in fancy outfits... And both are shotas, I guess. The only two shotas I ever had in my "harem", mind you. Even though I don't really have romantic feelings for Ciel anymore, and I do interpret Thistle as being a late teen going on young adult...

I think that the biggest difference between them is the fact that Ciel admits to being deeply selfish and even takes pride in in it, as that’s what makes him human. Meanwhile Thistle is defined by his selflessness, which, interestingly enough, brought more harm than good to everyone.

Other than that, unlike Ciel, Thistle is way more independent and self-sufficient. But Ciel is much more independent emotionally – something Thistle is very far from (Ciel is certainly dealing with the death of his brother much better than Thistle).

Obviously, Ciel is overall much more emotionally stable and put-together in comparison to Thistle, who grew hot-tempered, paranoid, and erratic as the dungeon took its toll on his sanity.

Ciel is a brilliant liar and an actor, meanwhile Thistle doesn't even try to lie. He doesn't even need to. I mean, Ciel was raised to navigate the noble society and play its games to do his job of policing the British underworld. And Thistle grew up with a 💫jester privilege💫, which later turned into a 💫king's best friend and sworn brother privilege💫, which later turned into "the entire country and the dungeon are under his control and he can kill literally anyone who dares to say a word against him".

...wow, Thistle really is a hot mess in comparison, huh? I still love him, though.

Honestly, I could make an entire essay just about comparing these two, because it is very interesting, but I think that I will stop here.

5. Any common themes or threads between your F/Os, if you have multiple? If you don't have multiple-- what is similar between you and your F/O, and what's different?

...qute a few of them are some kind of older sibling figures, or they otherwise end up taking care of others. Most evident is the connection between three of my main f/os – Thistle, Break and Jamil. Thistle will do anything for Delgal who is basically his adopted younger brother. Jamil has to look after Kalim, plus he has an actual younger sister Najma, who he’s pretty protective over. Then we have Xerxes with his sworn little sister Sharon, and a bunch of other youngsters he accidentally took under his wing.

It was mentioned with Break, and directly shown with Thistle and Jamil, but all three were basically raised from the young age to serve and/or take care of other people, usually in the higher positions than them. Thistle and Break, perhaps because they were treated with more respect and as a part of the family, internalized their position and got attached, later committing atrocities to protect those people. Also Thistle and Jamil are still barely adults themselves, why are they stuck basically parenting someone their own age or even older than themselves? This is all very fucked up.

To a lesser extent – add Portia, who also worked as a servant for several years, but always struggled with being a secondary character in her own life, always caring for and supporting others instead. Also we have Mukuro, who is different from previous characters in that he was always a self-serving leader, but he’s still something of an older brother figure to Chrome and Fran. He is surprisingly caring and responsible towards them, as well as the rest of his subordinates/friends, even if he tries to hide it and pretend that he's not. Then there’s Simeon who is Luke’s guardian…

Wow, I feel like Liang is the only one who doesn't have this going on. Lucky guy. To be honest, he is more likely to be the one who needs supervision himself (someone seriously should supervise this reckless hot-headed moron...)

This is all very strange and I’m honestly not even sure what my affinity for characters like that says about me. It’s not like I even want my f/os to take care of me?..

Uh. Other than that, most of my f/os are kinda mean. Also I tend to fall for arrogant and competent characters. Also, four out of my seven f/os are edgy INTJ boys with long hair!

Additionally... A common occurrence in my ships is my f/os ranging from being tsunderes to straight up wanting my s/i to fuck off (at least at first). Most of them aren't particularly romantic, but also, it definitely has a lot to do with the fact that my s/is tend to be absolute fucking monsters.

8. Anyone you don't have an F/O but like (be it a crush or just affinity)? Why aren't they an F/O? Can you imagine them ever being one? Why or why not?

Okay, there's one individual that I already mentioned here once, and who once again caught my attention as I was rereading some Black Butler chapters now, for the sake of refreshing my memories of certain moments of Ciel...

Yes, I'm talking about the one and only earl Charles Grey himself:

(I am so predictable)

Now, to make things clear, the criteria for a character becoming my f/o is actually simple:

1. I have to be actually in love with them;

2. I have to be able to create a proper lore for a ship with them.

I actually used to be in love with Charles. Out of all f/os I ever had, he was my sixth. Mukuro was the fifth, for the reference. The reason I do not currently have Charles as an official f/o is because he's even less than a secondary character and there's so little information about him, that he couldn't keep my interest for long.

Also I really struggled with coming up with the lore for him and my already existing s/i. Because I created my current Black Butler s/i WAY before I read the manga and fell in love with Charles. And inventing a way for an earl and a mortician's apprentice to date... It's not easy, you know.

BUT. He can possibly become an official f/o (again). Upon rereading the chapters he was in, I once again found him to be very charming... And I did figure out by now that I simply can ship him with the grim reaper version of my s/i, for the most of their story. I just wish he got more screentime and lore in canon...

In any case, I must reread Black Butler, and then we'll see...

[zhongrin]

🎈🧸📷💎🍿🍒 for the ask game!!! u can choose who :)

- sachie (if that's too many, just pick your favs i guess hahahsk)

[ selfship ask game -> ]

SACHIE SWEETIE YOU SPOIL ME HSDLFJSKDJFLKJDSLF <3 <3 <3

super long answer so utc it is shdfksdj

🎈— what is your most precious memory with them?

zhongrin ー when we got married for the first time, millenias ago 💍 meitham ー our reunion when he picked me up at the gate of sumeru city, the first day i decided to move back to sumeru!! wrin ー the night he finally bit the bullet and confessed 💞 jingmei ー the first time i woke up in his bed after spending a night with him renmei ー the first time he's lucid enough as blade to recognize me, after my rebirth and the revelation that we used to be lovers back in the days ;w;

🧸— favourite gifts from each other?

zhongrin ー our marriage ring ᰔᩚ meitham ー for al haitham, a bookmark made from the flowers i gave him on our first anniversary. for me, a custom-made matching guzheng nails & its holder made of clearwater jade wrin ー for wriothesley, it's rinsley; the 'pet' dog gardemek due to be scrapped, which i somehow managed to commission to repair + programmatically override its behaviour into a harmless(well okay maybe not really-) pet dog. for me, it's this promise ring which can be infused with his cryo elemental energy to form a very pretty diamond-like looking stone on its crown; it'll eventually melt away if not properly infused with cryo regularly…. hence it's his promise to always come back (home) to me every day hehe ᰔᩚ jingmei ー a specialized pair of jade abacus disguised as an accessory (for him, an ornate tassel for his guan dao, and for me, it's a jade bracelet) which is interconnected to each other and has a variety of functions ;3 renmei ー for blade, it's a locket with a scent paper of my soap (i don't wear perfumes so yeah). for me, it's the other pair of his earring which i use as a necklace!

📸 — do you have any photos of your f/o? do you use it as your wallpaper?

for my phone, i have custom themes saved for zhongli, jing yuan, and wriothesley (i'm a little picky when it comes to wallpapers haha). though i rarely use them; i mostly have my family as my lock/home screen. my ipad has zhongli as the lock screen, though!

💎 — if you and your f/o were in a fake relationship/marriage, who do you think would lose at falling in love first?

me. i would always fall first. cw. personal rambling-ish. i personally think it's hard to fall in love with me, unless someone really get to know me and gain that trust so i can feel comfortable enough to be vulnerable & open to them (and if i don't seem like this kind of person to your eyes, it's most probably because i don't have any inhibitions being open and honest online, especially due to the anonymity aspect of tumblr). because otherwise, i'm just very normal and boring, sometimes even coming off as cold. and i'm also timid in the way that if someone is too friendly to me, i would just close myself even more. i think i project these traits a lot to my s/i, hence you might notice how 'plain' and/or 'shy' they usually are compared to other people's s/i? but i think it's something i actively project and consciously do, because i don't want to be extraordinary; that's just not who i am, i feel. i just want to be normal and average and broken and still have my f/os love me anyway. i want them to see the smallest, simplest things, and find it endearing/worth loving. unrealistic? maybe. but it's not like they're actually real so who cares lol

🍿 — your perception of them and their perception of you?

i've been contemplating these days… and i have to admit that i have… a high standard when it comes to getting into a serious relationship with someone. especially when it comes to wisdom and maturity. so i'd like to think that all my f/os has a deep understanding of who i am as a person… some of them might even understand me more than i do (zhongli, al haitham, jing yuan). their perception of me is probably just me in my rawest form. i could go in depth about my perception of them but i don't think i can ever have the patience to collate them all into a single post so i'm not going to try hsdkljfksld just know that it wouldn't be 100% canon because obviously personal biases will affect my viewpoint about them.

🍒 — what would your contact names be for each other?

answered here ->

[neerikiffu]

I picked up and maxxed out collar x malice in just a week more (I watch anime on Sundays) ((24.05.24))

maxxed out means, every single cg and every single ending

what can I say

I think it's the best one I played so far, maybe not in terms of themes but

just how heckin …smooth it was

the art is gorgeous it's written just brilliantly maybe it's just me having a bit more experience by now, but

I really felt everyone I really felt immersed I really didn't feel lost at the beginning at all, like I did in most otomes

everything was so believable

but what I DIDN'T like was (and sounds surprising given it's an otome)

…the LI cast in its majority

let's go over them from my most liked to least liked

yanagi

I mean can you blame me he's just objectively the best choice comparing him to others may be more efficient in terms of explaining why I like him most, but, I guess I just love the type as well calm, rational and stable poker face all while sweet and caring, overall embodiment of health

what I hate about this type is that cause they usually have pretty cold resting faces, in fullscreen cgs when they draw them smiling they just … forget about the eyebrows. and they just look like … like they're really evil cause their eyebrows are still resting bitch face while they smile

and they just end up looking like they have really bad intentions smirking like that even when they're being genuinely sweet

this was the deal with akaza in OS, and if I'm not mistaken, with Shelby from cupara as well

as someone who looks like I've gone mad just yesterday with my asymmetrical eyebrows and a permanent resting bitch face I wish they'd compensate for that in some way

we look crazy enough the way we are, no need to worsen it

otherwise, really sweet, wanted more of that, I guess will have to play the fandisk

enomoto

just a dumbass I guess I have two main types - dumbasses and "mature ones"

he's sweet, he's funny, he's chaotic not much about him

sasazuka

I constantly forget what his name is I HATE how hateful he is and I HATE how mc just eats it up

yeah I know he's got good intentions and that he's not being malicious on purpose

but he's a shitass

shiraishi

I just don't get it

the route ending was horrific by the way it was maybe good plot-wise, but I don't buy it no I kinda hate it

the whole route felt quite forced, relationship-wise

bro we don't even get a good ending in the good ending and also that shiraishi is voiced by the same VA that voiced Nicola from piofiore and gill from cupara. instant red flag lmao

okazaki

okay you really f-ed up on him

he would've been at least remotely believable with the right setup but bruh

you set him up as a total weirdo (that walks in through the window with no explanation whatsoever) looking like a total weirdo (ghost-like) talking (sounding) like a ghost lacking common sense (being unable to care for himself)

then just trying to pull normal-human moves on you

I know you tried to go for something like orlok piofiore something kinda ethereal and out of reality, but orlok was raised in a cult-like environment with both mental and physical training/torture lasting for years and he was "weird" through and through, he was consistent in his disconnect from regular life stuff

BUT OKAZAKI HE REALLY IS JUST REAL, JUST HAVING A REGULAR BODYGUARD JOB (AS FAR AS THE SP JOB IS REGULAR)

HE REALLY IS JUST A REAL HUMAN HE HAS NO REASON TO BE QUIRKY and then just go on being totally normal in some aspects

and this whole "I wanna die for you" bullshit I get it he has reasons but bro really doesn't care about our take on this

and he's just casually controlling and overprotective? and mc eats it up? he legit just cuts her off from other people really just gives her no personal space

I hate okazaki least believable most useless my most hated

immersion broken

I didn't even play any of the additional events of the last 3, I just couldn't stand them that much i WILL be going for the fandisk or whatever it was maybe not immediately, but I kinda think that unlike with piofiore where I felt exhausted after finishing the first game, here I don't have that on the contrary, i am not satisfied with what I got

so I probably will just get up and go drop it onto the tablet though idk I kinda wanna sleep

other than that, my middle school is over I have not yet coped with having to make future changes to my routine and having too much on my plate so I'm just stressing out about it