#i don't CARE that compared to some of my other f/os. he has the personality of a shoe

[sunflowers-and-sweetviolets]

he's literally so perfect

[eating-plastic]

Getting back into self shipping

So in case the few reblogs here and there didn't give it away, yeah I'm back into self shipping after falling out of love with it for some time. Here's an intro to my f/os because I realized I never actually properly introduced them before (whoops!). There are also a few ground rules I have for self ship stuff on my blog afterward, so if you don't care about who I ship myself with, then just scroll past those. Okay? Cool! Let's get a move on then!

Roller Ricky:

Roller Ricky is a minor character from the game Killer Frequency. He is a laid back, fun-loving guy who runs a roller rink in the fictional small town of Gallows Creek. Though he's friendly and sweet, he is not afraid to scare someone off with his rifle if they threaten his life or the lives of those he loves. Also he has trauma! Due to an awful prank that resulted in the death of one of his peers, he developed severe survivor's guilt that spiraled into him developing an alcohol addiction to deal with the grief. Fortunately, he eventually got help and therapy for his alcoholism and trauma. He also has an emotional support dog named Max, who he adores.

Honestly what's there not to love about Ricky? He's like, the definition of the ideal man (at least to me he is 🤭). He's sweet, he's caring, loves his dog, he's willing to defend the lives of those he loves, he's pretty easy on the eyes (not just in his canon appearance, but I've seen many different looks people have come up with for him and all of them are so handsome. Then again, I did fall in love with his voice and personality first). The first ever full length x reader fic I wrote was with him, which was pure unbridled self indulgence. After writing 3 x reader things with him and finding out what self shipping was, I realized that he was my f/o; that I loved him more than any other character I had written for (with the exception of my other f/o).

Our ship name is Heart Shaped Roller Rink.

Maison Talo:

Maison Talo is the antagonist of the game House Hunted. Though what you predominately see of him looks human, he very much is not. Maison is a REALTOR, one of the many species of creatures that live in the Uncanny Valley. His true body is a for sale house that can eat and digest living things, whereas what you see that looks human is actually a lure (like an angler fish). Soooo yeah, he eats people, but he's not necessarily evil per se, more morally gray if anything; it's just how he and his species eat and you need to eat to live after all. He's not heartless either, as he is still very capable of developing emotional relationships with others and even falling in love.

So when compared to Ricky, why on God's green Earth is Maison my other f/o (besides the fact that his lure form is hot as FUCK)? Well, to be completely honest I'm a lil bit of a "poser" as a lot of the love I feel for him is from headcanons I have written for him and less actual canon (to say that I cherry pick canon when it comes to REALTOR anatomy and such, would be a gross understatement lol). So yeah, I'd probably be considered a fake fan, it's the big reason why I've played around with the idea of him being my f/o, but only now am making it official. Whatever 🤷‍♀️.

To me (and once again, these are headcanons) Maison is very romantic. Like classic gentleman romantic. He'd also highly value his partner because I think he hasn't genuinely loved someone in a long time or even at all, so when he realizes he does love someone, he's gonna cherish them greatly. Also be uber protective over them as the Uncanny Valley is like, super fuckin dangerous. He would definitely spoil the shit out of you too (bro's not beating the sugar daddy allegations lol). Plus, you're getting a boyfriend and a free house! I also fell for him the same way I fell for Ricky: I just wrote for him a lot and realized "Hey, I'm actually not normal about this character at all." While Ricky was my first x reader fic, Maison was my first x reader thing period.

I just feel like I have to justify why Maison is my other f/o because yeah he is a lil pretentious about being the "Number 1 REALTOR in the Uncanny Valley" and the fact that he eats people, but hey no one's perfect.

Our ship name is Home Sweet Home.

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With that outta the way, here are some rules for self ship stuff on my blog:

1.) I am okay with sharing my f/os

2.) Shipping discourse is absolutely NOT allowed on this blog. The whole reason I fell out of love with self shipping was because of the proship vs antiship bullshit. I don't wanna see it, I don't wanna deal with it, which leads into...

3.) Anyone is allowed to interact with my blog and my self ship posts. I also take the time to look at self ship posts to make sure they don't have any form of a DNI on them or in the tags before reblogging them

I want this blog to be a space for positivity always, especially when it comes to self shipping because it is something that has brought me a ton of joy. Be kind, be respectful, and treat yourselves right ❤️

[villain-in-love]

hello . it is me again. how about 5, 8 and 1? (@canarycurse)

Well, it's nice to see you here again~

I honestly intended for this to be a small game, but you asked the kind of interesting questions that the answers got a bit out of hand:

1. Newest F/O? Oldest F/O? Any similarities between them? What's the biggest difference/s between them?

*Heavy sigh* Oh gods.

Well...

I mean…

I was a fool for thinking that my tastes have changed in the last ten years. From Ciel Phantomhive to Thistle. I've come full circle.

So here we have two creepy brats with too much power for their own good. Both are of high social standing and work directly for the royal family. Both are traumatized to hell and back, both made contracts with demons, both got way too many responsibilities thrown at them when they were way too young for all this bullshit, but at the same time, they are handling those responsibilities with an astonishing competence? In terms of personality, their personalities are not pleasant. Serious, responsible, driven, intelligent, usually only laugh at other people’s misfortune. Both Ciel and Thistle would probably consider themselves to be a “necessary evil”, as both are quite villainous, but at the same time, don’t exactly have bad intentions…

Also both of them are small, cute, feminine, and are usually dressed in fancy outfits... And both are shotas, I guess. The only two shotas I ever had in my "harem", mind you. Even though I don't really have romantic feelings for Ciel anymore, and I do interpret Thistle as being a late teen going on young adult...

I think that the biggest difference between them is the fact that Ciel admits to being deeply selfish and even takes pride in in it, as that’s what makes him human. Meanwhile Thistle is defined by his selflessness, which, interestingly enough, brought more harm than good to everyone.

Other than that, unlike Ciel, Thistle is way more independent and self-sufficient. But Ciel is much more independent emotionally – something Thistle is very far from (Ciel is certainly dealing with the death of his brother much better than Thistle).

Obviously, Ciel is overall much more emotionally stable and put-together in comparison to Thistle, who grew hot-tempered, paranoid, and erratic as the dungeon took its toll on his sanity.

Ciel is a brilliant liar and an actor, meanwhile Thistle doesn't even try to lie. He doesn't even need to. I mean, Ciel was raised to navigate the noble society and play its games to do his job of policing the British underworld. And Thistle grew up with a 💫jester privilege💫, which later turned into a 💫king's best friend and sworn brother privilege💫, which later turned into "the entire country and the dungeon are under his control and he can kill literally anyone who dares to say a word against him".

...wow, Thistle really is a hot mess in comparison, huh? I still love him, though.

Honestly, I could make an entire essay just about comparing these two, because it is very interesting, but I think that I will stop here.

5. Any common themes or threads between your F/Os, if you have multiple? If you don't have multiple-- what is similar between you and your F/O, and what's different?

...qute a few of them are some kind of older sibling figures, or they otherwise end up taking care of others. Most evident is the connection between three of my main f/os – Thistle, Break and Jamil. Thistle will do anything for Delgal who is basically his adopted younger brother. Jamil has to look after Kalim, plus he has an actual younger sister Najma, who he’s pretty protective over. Then we have Xerxes with his sworn little sister Sharon, and a bunch of other youngsters he accidentally took under his wing.

It was mentioned with Break, and directly shown with Thistle and Jamil, but all three were basically raised from the young age to serve and/or take care of other people, usually in the higher positions than them. Thistle and Break, perhaps because they were treated with more respect and as a part of the family, internalized their position and got attached, later committing atrocities to protect those people. Also Thistle and Jamil are still barely adults themselves, why are they stuck basically parenting someone their own age or even older than themselves? This is all very fucked up.

To a lesser extent – add Portia, who also worked as a servant for several years, but always struggled with being a secondary character in her own life, always caring for and supporting others instead. Also we have Mukuro, who is different from previous characters in that he was always a self-serving leader, but he’s still something of an older brother figure to Chrome and Fran. He is surprisingly caring and responsible towards them, as well as the rest of his subordinates/friends, even if he tries to hide it and pretend that he's not. Then there’s Simeon who is Luke’s guardian…

Wow, I feel like Liang is the only one who doesn't have this going on. Lucky guy. To be honest, he is more likely to be the one who needs supervision himself (someone seriously should supervise this reckless hot-headed moron...)

This is all very strange and I’m honestly not even sure what my affinity for characters like that says about me. It’s not like I even want my f/os to take care of me?..

Uh. Other than that, most of my f/os are kinda mean. Also I tend to fall for arrogant and competent characters. Also, four out of my seven f/os are edgy INTJ boys with long hair!

Additionally... A common occurrence in my ships is my f/os ranging from being tsunderes to straight up wanting my s/i to fuck off (at least at first). Most of them aren't particularly romantic, but also, it definitely has a lot to do with the fact that my s/is tend to be absolute fucking monsters.

8. Anyone you don't have an F/O but like (be it a crush or just affinity)? Why aren't they an F/O? Can you imagine them ever being one? Why or why not?

Okay, there's one individual that I already mentioned here once, and who once again caught my attention as I was rereading some Black Butler chapters now, for the sake of refreshing my memories of certain moments of Ciel...

Yes, I'm talking about the one and only earl Charles Grey himself:

(I am so predictable)

Now, to make things clear, the criteria for a character becoming my f/o is actually simple:

1. I have to be actually in love with them;

2. I have to be able to create a proper lore for a ship with them.

I actually used to be in love with Charles. Out of all f/os I ever had, he was my sixth. Mukuro was the fifth, for the reference. The reason I do not currently have Charles as an official f/o is because he's even less than a secondary character and there's so little information about him, that he couldn't keep my interest for long.

Also I really struggled with coming up with the lore for him and my already existing s/i. Because I created my current Black Butler s/i WAY before I read the manga and fell in love with Charles. And inventing a way for an earl and a mortician's apprentice to date... It's not easy, you know.

BUT. He can possibly become an official f/o (again). Upon rereading the chapters he was in, I once again found him to be very charming... And I did figure out by now that I simply can ship him with the grim reaper version of my s/i, for the most of their story. I just wish he got more screentime and lore in canon...

In any case, I must reread Black Butler, and then we'll see...

[zhongrin]

🎈🧸📷💎🍿🍒 for the ask game!!! u can choose who :)

- sachie (if that's too many, just pick your favs i guess hahahsk)

[ selfship ask game -> ]

SACHIE SWEETIE YOU SPOIL ME HSDLFJSKDJFLKJDSLF <3 <3 <3

super long answer so utc it is shdfksdj

🎈— what is your most precious memory with them?

zhongrin ー when we got married for the first time, millenias ago 💍 meitham ー our reunion when he picked me up at the gate of sumeru city, the first day i decided to move back to sumeru!! wrin ー the night he finally bit the bullet and confessed 💞 jingmei ー the first time i woke up in his bed after spending a night with him renmei ー the first time he's lucid enough as blade to recognize me, after my rebirth and the revelation that we used to be lovers back in the days ;w;

🧸— favourite gifts from each other?

zhongrin ー our marriage ring ᰔᩚ meitham ー for al haitham, a bookmark made from the flowers i gave him on our first anniversary. for me, a custom-made matching guzheng nails & its holder made of clearwater jade wrin ー for wriothesley, it's rinsley; the 'pet' dog gardemek due to be scrapped, which i somehow managed to commission to repair + programmatically override its behaviour into a harmless(well okay maybe not really-) pet dog. for me, it's this promise ring which can be infused with his cryo elemental energy to form a very pretty diamond-like looking stone on its crown; it'll eventually melt away if not properly infused with cryo regularly…. hence it's his promise to always come back (home) to me every day hehe ᰔᩚ jingmei ー a specialized pair of jade abacus disguised as an accessory (for him, an ornate tassel for his guan dao, and for me, it's a jade bracelet) which is interconnected to each other and has a variety of functions ;3 renmei ー for blade, it's a locket with a scent paper of my soap (i don't wear perfumes so yeah). for me, it's the other pair of his earring which i use as a necklace!

📸 — do you have any photos of your f/o? do you use it as your wallpaper?

for my phone, i have custom themes saved for zhongli, jing yuan, and wriothesley (i'm a little picky when it comes to wallpapers haha). though i rarely use them; i mostly have my family as my lock/home screen. my ipad has zhongli as the lock screen, though!

💎 — if you and your f/o were in a fake relationship/marriage, who do you think would lose at falling in love first?

me. i would always fall first. cw. personal rambling-ish. i personally think it's hard to fall in love with me, unless someone really get to know me and gain that trust so i can feel comfortable enough to be vulnerable & open to them (and if i don't seem like this kind of person to your eyes, it's most probably because i don't have any inhibitions being open and honest online, especially due to the anonymity aspect of tumblr). because otherwise, i'm just very normal and boring, sometimes even coming off as cold. and i'm also timid in the way that if someone is too friendly to me, i would just close myself even more. i think i project these traits a lot to my s/i, hence you might notice how 'plain' and/or 'shy' they usually are compared to other people's s/i? but i think it's something i actively project and consciously do, because i don't want to be extraordinary; that's just not who i am, i feel. i just want to be normal and average and broken and still have my f/os love me anyway. i want them to see the smallest, simplest things, and find it endearing/worth loving. unrealistic? maybe. but it's not like they're actually real so who cares lol

🍿 — your perception of them and their perception of you?

i've been contemplating these days… and i have to admit that i have… a high standard when it comes to getting into a serious relationship with someone. especially when it comes to wisdom and maturity. so i'd like to think that all my f/os has a deep understanding of who i am as a person… some of them might even understand me more than i do (zhongli, al haitham, jing yuan). their perception of me is probably just me in my rawest form. i could go in depth about my perception of them but i don't think i can ever have the patience to collate them all into a single post so i'm not going to try hsdkljfksld just know that it wouldn't be 100% canon because obviously personal biases will affect my viewpoint about them.

🍒 — what would your contact names be for each other?

answered here ->

[kittyandco-archive]

All the Bad boy self ship asks for Vega? (If you don't mind!!)

GOD YES THANK YOU. i miss him 

1) Have you ever felt guilty for falling in love with someone who’s considered unlovable?

yes, but not because he wasn’t unlovable. he’s lonely, yeah, but that’s because of his own folly, not others. he pushes everyone away unless he can use them, and even then... i only felt guilty because i knew i’d probably hurt myself in the process. 

2) What was the hardest part of forming the relationship?

HIS CLASSIC FUCKERY 

3) Did they stop their antics for you or did they just drag you into it?

no, he didn’t stop at all. but he didn’t really drag me into it either. i dunno, i kind of want to rework my s/i, but... i’m pretty sure she isn’t involved in all that. 

4) How easy was it for them to admit that they love you?

IMPOSSIBLE. 

5) Are they possessive?

GOD YEAH AHFDKJGFKJ... like more than possessive. a fucking cat looks at me wrong and he’s like “alright square up”... more seriously and accurately tho... ken is more of a platonic f/o now, but vega suspected we might have had something going on... and he wasn’t about that. this was before we were even together, but it didn’t matter to him. i was his anyway , 

6) If they’re usually stoic, are they soft around you?

i wouldn’t consider him stoic gkjdjk. he... can be soft, but in his own weird way. mostly with our daughter... 

7) Do you keep the relationship mostly private out of fear or for other reasons?

i have no idea what his cohorts would think about us, so it’s safest that they not know... i don’t think he wants to tell them anyway. he does want to protect me, and no one’s gonna know a thing about his personal life either way. that’s just how he is. 

8) Are you still a little intimidated by them?

Y E A H... but it’s hot, so it all cancels out! 

9) Did you meet them while they were still plotting a scheme? Or were you caught up in the trouble they were causing?

i met him originally when i went to spain on my own - nothing to do with the fights or his schemes or anything else. we were normal people then (uh, he is not normal though, i was baffled by his very existence because HOW can you Look Like That and be real) ... he was the only trouble i encountered that day. 

10) Have they changed for the better since they met you? Have you changed for the worst since you met them?

a little bit! i guess because he finally had someone to care about... and someone to care about him... 

11) How do you like their uniform or alter ego, if they have one or either?

ALRIGHT he has some Choice alternate outfits... and i... wahwhahao 

kind of related: i still have no idea why his hair color changes with almost every game. i know that in S/FV you can change it with the outfit colors when you pick a fighter, though. i’ve never seen it explained, but i definitely prefer him as brunette but... u know 

12) Were you actually attracted to their behavior? Or was it other things?

yes... always slippin’... every single red flag was there but... gosh

though once i was fighting with him, i realized it was WAY WORSE than his aggressive flirtation... he was way too into cuttin’ people up. yes, including me. i dont fucking know but it’s hot alright i see a hot guy splattered in blood and i want to marry him ok? leave me alone 

13) Do you have shared experiences that made you sympathize with them easier?

ahaHAAA it took me... so long to discover his past. and nothing i’ve gone through could even begin to compare to it. of course, i have my trauma, but it’s not like his. so of course i felt for him... but it was hard for both of us. 

14) Were you also considered a villain or were you considered a hero? Or neither?

i’m definitely neither. good, though, because now he doesn’t have to kill me :) 

15) Are you worried you might be split apart?

yes, but it’s just being worried that he’d leave me. 

16) Are your friends supportive or mostly worried about you in this relationship?

chun-li, juri, and ken are all my platonic f/os here, though i don’t really think of them...? juri would probably tease the fuck out of us though, while chun-li and ken are watching from the sidelines, disapprovingly. 

17) Was your f/o afraid of commitment?

yes, definitely. he’s always been a lone wolf... or when he did make connections, they were just selfish. it started selfishly at first, but soon... he was slowly able to promise that he loves me. 

18) What was your first impression of them? What was their first impression of you?

H M WELL 

i thought he was, like i said in another answer, aggressive and some kind of playboy. oh, yeah, target the cute tourist. i get it. when i met up with him again, i was just angry! he was still the same guy to me, but now with an outlet to show his true colors... 

that’s... how he saw me. easy prey for a weekend. but as we met again before a fight, he was impressed that i could handle myself that way, but still saw me as weak. weaker still after he hurt me, and noticed how badly i was hurt. i didn’t try to hide it - i was in so much pain, i couldn’t do anything but cry. so it wasn’t going well for either of us ashdfkfj