#i didn't rly know which blog to post this one on since none of mine are in it... but felix hasn't posted one yet

[recoveringdreamer]

WICKED'S REST as HORROR FILM

( featuring: @wonder-in-wings, @chasseurdeloup, @amonstrousdream, @gossipsnake, @closingwaters, @realmackross, @rn-zane, @honeysmokedham, & @vanishingreyes )

[addedsugars]

sodaa !! can i pls hear anything u want to share or say abt ur dgm insert !! im rly all ears !! (@dmclr)

HIIIII CLARA HIII thank you so much honestly... I have so many thoughts cause none of my friends are into d gray man and there for have. no idea what I'm talking about!

this is a long post so have some songs I listened to while writing it <:3

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I was going to make this like a big lore post but I realized there's a bunch of things I wanna figure out first and a bunch of things I'd have to explain and I don't wanna leave this in my ask box for. Months! So instead I'm gonna use this post to talk about my current design process hell. I'm like aware self insert designs don't need to be complicated or directly match the source material but. Mine does actually! No it can't just be me it needs to fit with the LORE

a big problem I've been having recently is colors... I would consider my s/I to be like... part of the main quartet to some extent and all of them have main colors I associate with them.

Allen is generally white or a pale grey but I could understand if someone argued for red because of his scar and arm, but red is more an accent color than a main color for me. when illustrated in a simpler way Hoshino will usually focus on including his pale-ness before his red accents so I consider that more important in his color hierarchy

Lenalee is obviously purple. her hair is canonically black but whenever hoshino stylized her its just. purple. and she also has purple eyes either way. shes purple.

Lavi's in an orangey red or just orange in the a very "He is a ginger." type way. you could also just say his color is ginger and i'd be like. yeah.

and then finally, Kanda's is very much blue, even in canon I think during the Alma arc when he went insane his hair turned blue. even if that wasn't true, like Lenalee his eyes are blue is canon, and when given the chance his hair is also stylized as blue.

that being said when the characters are so clearly color-coded I find it important to also color code my self insert a little which leads to the dilemma of: which color do I give them?

i know my blog's theme might lead one to believe otherwise but my favorite color is red, so of course that was my first choice, but even with red not being Allen's main color. it's still very prominent in his palette and felt like stepping on his toes a little, plus even excluding Allen, Lavi will often stray into red and i don't want to deprive him of that versatility in my art just to differentiate the two color-wise. there is the option to make them into more of a pinkish red so when i push Lavi into more red, they'd become more pink so palette-wise they stand out from each other but I'm iffy on that.

this is also to say it isn't unheard of for characters to share a main color but it's usually with purpose. Like Alma's main color is arguably blue but i think that's purseful seeing as Kanda and Alma's stories are extremely intertwined. it shows that they're connected to each other in a way others aren't, these two characters' bond is unique.

I also like to think that Kanda and Lanelee having similar colors with Kanda occasionally slipping into more indigo than his usual blue shows that they have a unique bond in their own way too but :3c that's more just wishful thinking on my part...

Allen's mentor Cross's main color is red, which very much makes sense to me with Lavi and Allen's dubious claims to red as their central color since all three of these characters have a connected history. I would get into how the histories are connected but then this post would NEVER END so we can't do that. not today at least.

that being said I DID consider my self insert blue as a central color because my character is obviously very connected to Kanda, but I didn't like the idea of them having the exact same shade of blue so I thought of making it maybe a little lighter or a little darker. i also did not like that though because it reminded me too much of one of my moots ships. WHICH IS NO SHADE TO THEM BTW I love his ship a lot and that's partly why I think my brain has decided they have a claim over that specific color combo.

besides even if all of the above wasn't true I think Alma and Kanda's bond is very specific and unique and I feel like sharing their color might... intrude upon that instead of building upon it, if that makes sense? My s/i is still connected to BOTH in a way but, at the beginning of their relationship especially, not in the way they're connected to each other. I don't like the idea of them signifying a sense of unity with Kanda by sharing a central color with him when that's simply not true for them until WAY later. maybe they'd wear each other's colors to show that or something...

At the moment I'm really considering yellow for multiple reasons...

an orangey yellow to be specific! partly because it would still connect them to Kanda and Alma in a weird way of being their opposite of the color wheel but also showing their distance by again, being their opposite. i think it also goes with some design themes I was playing. them being a warm yellow in contrast to Kanda's cool blue... i also liked the idea of their ability to involve a flash of light somehow. especially since i planned to make them light-sensitive and get migraines like meee :). its funny to me.

i believe that is all my thoughts for now!! at least the coherent ones. i might post some design concept later... for nyow, thank you for coming to my ted talk! like genuinely if you read all this thank you!!! i talk a lot.

[moved-to-void-kissed]

hiii ari !! could i ask 👪 for sapphire (i was mainly thinking abt vandham when thinking up this ask, i rly love it when u talk abt ur dad) and ✨ for lamia? i hope ur having a great day!

Hello Clara!! You can absolutely ask these, thank you so much!!

(question source: this post by hobgayblin)

send me a self-insert of mine and..

👪 – I’ll tell you about a family member of hers (blood-related, adopted, or just something similar to a familial relationship) - Thank you for the permission to ramble about Vandham, hehe. I'm not actually sure whether I actually have the backstory behind him adopting Sapphire on this blog, so if it's alright then I'll just explain that here!

What happened was that Vandham had gone with a group of his mercenaries to the maw of the Urayan Titan, because it was quite common for things to wash in from the Cloud Sea, and these were quite often resources that they could make use of back in Garfont Village. This time around, the mercs found the battered remains of a boat, which had clearly been violently destroyed by the rapids and the mouth of the Titan. Everyone scrambled to search for people, and they found five, all Gormotti - but the only survivor was a very young girl, covered in sparkling abrasions from being dragged by the shipwreck against the side of the Titan. She was about the same age Vandham's own son had been, several years prior.

Most of the mercenaries weren't Drivers, and none of the Blades that had come along were healers, so Vandham rushed back to the village with the girl in his arms, where he and the other mercs were only just able to save her. To this day, a lot of the mercs who were around then aren't sure how she survived, given the extent of her injuries - but she made it, and Vandham hasn't stopped caring dearly for her since.

✨ – I’ll tell you about a friend of hers - Although this isn't exactly a friend that anyone else knows about, Lamia became fast friends with "the thing calling itself" Enjou after both were assigned to the mission in Enkanomiya together. She likes his personality because he is a lot more jovial than a lot of the others, and she pestered him to teach her how to disguise herself as a human like he does, which he eventually agreed to (though she didn't quite get the magic completely right - her hair and her spine are the main things that give her away). She feels a bit bad for essentially running off without telling him first (although she doesn't really think he'll judge her for it), but she knows that she made the right decision, and it's not one she wants to go back on.

..Both of those ended up a bit (and a lot) more serious than perhaps was intended, but I hope that the answers are still okay! Thank you very much once again for sending these, friend ^-^