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even though i can piss at a urinal, idk why i would. i can't sit down and browse reddit at the urinal. this is my time.
#also i accidentally made eye contact with a dude at the urinal the other day and i think he put a curse on me that threw off my whole week#actually correction#i didn't make eye contact with him#HE made eye contact with ME
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For the Bond goes to Q's night club and does bdsm badly [tags: bdsm, s/D AU, subspace]:
I sometimes indulge in reading the s/D alternate universe fics. I'm sure they are super problematic; subs sort of have to go into subspace regularly to be healty and yada yada. So all of this is, ya, know. Not how it works irl. Don't take sex-ed from fics kids, but here's a thing, yeah? Cause I like you sprinkling up my dash with wild little 00q ingredients, and so I baked some trashcan cake for you:
He's hanging from the cross in one of the private rooms. Q has just managed to clear everyone out and is now standing here studying Bond and his disconcertingly back-to-normal breathing pattern. He can look his fill for once; Bond's eyes are closed.
His mind is still buzzing from the confrontation with the other Dom. From the way his thoughts had screeched to a halt when he recognized exactly who was at the cross.
He's come to some rapid realizations, the major one being that Bond is, in fact, a sub. All those times he's donned that macho agent persona have somehow been an act.
It boils Q's blood to know that--
To know what exactly? It shouldn't change anything. 007 is one of MI6's most competent agents; his denomination doesn't change that. Of course not. It makes it more impressive, probably.
But as Q watches the tightly controled way Bond counts each breath, his eyes tightly shut, inches from subspace but unable to quite reach it, he can't help but burn.
Bond must have been so fucking desperate to seek it out like this. He shoudln't have had to. Q should have figured it out. He should have stepped in. Should have known.
There's always been something there. The way Bond--James, really--would sometimes look all washed out, eyes snapping to Q as soon as he entered the room no matter how tired he was. The way he'd buckle against orders, but then relent beautifully when Q laced his voice with command just so. The way Q hadn't been able to stop himself from watching him, even knowing--wrongly, it turns out--that they were incompatible.
Standing here, now, Q feels like he's been cored out by a lightning strike. His insides burn with the realization, with how possessive he feels, how much he needs to be the one taking care of him. To make this right.
All in due time, though. First he's going to take care of this mess. Then there will be time to take them somewhere more private (home). To give Bond care and safety and what he really needs. Q is going to make that happen even if he has to bend the whole of reality to his will, he knows this the way he knows he could take apart nations. He's going to get what he wants and there will be nothing standing in his way.
He takes a breath and centers himself. He can do this.
"James," he says, the name feeling oh-so-right on his lips, "Open your eyes for me."
HELLO. HI. HELLO.
and yea just to repeat what I said before- anon if bdsm aus are bad then I dont wanna be right dot meme. I love bdsm aus and like. cmon are they any more ""problematic"" so-called than, like, A/B/O, or like what ppl have turned Sentinel/Guide AUs into (like the ones where there's an invented society where guides are systematically oppressed dare I say, even, rather like trafficked or enslaved?) etc etc
but um 😳😳😳😳😳 the fact that u took the concept & made it a BDSM AU.... and Bond is a sub that no one knew is a sub, and the way it being BDSM adds an Edge to the "needs the relief of subspace but Can't so seeking like a brute-force override via an excess of pain"....... ough ough ough. i feel like im chewing on a live wire zzzzzzzzztttt. kisses on the moutb for you too mwa mwa ough ough woof
#asks answered#anonymous#00q#listen. listen if u feel so inspired. i would not mind this expanded into many many more *eyes emoji*#ao3 has an option for you to post anonymously if that's giving u pause- u can post to the Anonymous collection#hrrrrghghh this setup actually gives a good excuse for Bond being out of it and not rly recognizing Q and snapping at him#like with his teeth owo Iii think anyway lol#and then Q risks taking his hand around and petting down Bond's hair and neck and shoulder.... (like when ur trying to socialize a spicy cat#and they kind of warn u but u avoid their mouth and teeth and get ur fingers between their ears....#and they maybe hiss reflexively but then are like hm. okay maybe this is nice)#and THEN once Q's got him gentled down. he starts coming around and recognizes Q maybe#at which pt Q can safely (for his own safety lmao) uncuff Bond and etc#hopefully I didn't leave a dangling parenthesis somewhere#Q gets him home and salve gently massaged into his back and maybe some gauze or a soft shirt or sth to protect it and bundled up in sooo#so many soft blankets... & then ofc cuddles and a lot of skin to skin contact still while he's coming out of his not-really-subspace mindset#lots of soft kissies to his head and gentle pets#and Bond kind of makes a rumbly grumbly sound but it's kind of like when cats don't learn to meow so they kinda grumble growl#but on a human it COULD also kind of sound like a purr <3#and also yes Q makes sure Bond is fed & hydrated to replenish fluids and make sure his blood sugar doesn't crash and etc <3#ye... ye
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Staging concept: Ophelia carries around a book that she uses to press different flowers and plants. At one point we see her actually pressing one of the flowers Hamlet's given her before, and we get the impression that she wouldn't part with this book for the world. During the "Get thee to a nunnery" scene, Hamlet rips the book out of her hands, and she goes diving after it to make sure he didn't damage it. And during her final "mad scene", she starts tearing out the relevant pages (rosemary, pansies, fennel, columbines, etc.) to give to everyone present. Laertes is the only one to get the significance of his sister giving away parts of her prized possession, and it adds an extra layer to his grief.
#Some extra foreshadowing and a way to organically work in the book she's given in Act 3 Scene 1...#Listen I have a lot of feelings about how to stage Ophelia's final scene--for me it needs to be about *her*grief first and foremost.#It's so grossly easy to play it voyeuristically but this is a young woman who's been let down by everyone she thought she could trust#and now she's come to her lowest point where nothing feels like it matters anymore.#And that needs to hit the other characters present like a truck--they could have done something to actually *help* her#instead of using her for their own agendas but they didn't.#And for Laertes especially... that's his baby sister and he wasn't there for her and now he's watching her destroy something she loves.#Maybe he tries to give her the page back but she pushes it at him and there's a moment of agonizing eye contact between them#where he knows she still loves him but she's never felt so betrayed by everyone and there's nothing he can do to make it right.#hamlet#ophelia#shakespeare#the schemer speaks
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dedue: animals don't like me. it must be my face
byleth "stop looking at me like that" eisner: I know exactly what you mean. let me help
#fire emblem#fire emblem three houses#dedue molinaro#byleth#as a Horse Guy TM in irl I had no choice but to project that onto my byleth#horses tend to get nervous if you make direct eye contact and walk straight towards them bc they interpret it as aggression#some horses react more strongly than others. my horse didn't really give a shit but some of them freak out#one horse I worked with wouldn't let me get close at all unless I literally approached sideways and stared at a random point in the distanc#I think byleth learned all this as a kid bc he wanted to visit the horses but they didn't like the Byleth Eyes#so he figured it out and now he's really good at teaching horsemanship#anyway dedue ended up as a great knight in my AM run and I was So Fucking Proud Of Him#guy of all time you WILL have animals love you
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I sat here scrolling Tumblr and then I heard my dad snoring on the other side of the wall.
And I've been making it a habit to consciously pay attention to the people I love, because I love them.
And so - I wasn't trying but this just came to me because of observations, and knowing, and perhaps the habit of it - I thought oh, that means he's sleeping.
Its the middle of the day. He does this sometimes. He's a very busy person, between two jobs, and 2-4 disabled kids. He takes power naps after lunch. He has a whole strategy. He's told it to me and I listened and I remembered because I love him.
He's also in burnout. My dad is burnt out and I understand because I am also burnt out. I wish I could help him but I am burnt out, and so all I can do is know him, is listen to him snoring and know that he is tired.
I get to listen to him snoring. He is tired. He is sleeping on the middle of the day because he is tired, from taking care of me, who am autistic, and my brother, with Prader-Willi Syndrome (shoutout to ppl with PWS), and his job 1 to pay the bills and job 2 to pay for the future and his wife and his other children and making sure we all get our enrichment.
And so he is snoring on the other side of the wall, and I can picture him tangled up in his blankets and sleeping because he is tired.
And so I get to listen to him snoring and think about all the things he does and how much he deserves rest, and how glad I am that he CAN rest, that he's worried and busy and anxious, but not too worried to sleep. Because he needs to sleep. And it's a blessing that he can do that.
And I'll sit here and appreciate him and all he does because I can hear him snoring (and it keeps everyone else up at night unless he uses his mouth guard, which we all call his snore-teeth, and I know this because I listen and I pay attention and I love him).
And he might never know that I sit here and think of him and love him and all he does, how grateful I am that he takes care of me when I'm his oldest and I'm autistic, and I don't feel overwhelmingly bad about that but I do wish I could help more than I do. Not be so big of a burden as I am. But all I can do is let him sleep.
He might never know that I take the time to listen to him snore. Maybe one of those days when he's feeling horrible I'll show it to him and say "you are loved and I see you and I am grateful for everything you do, I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you." Maybe I'll make bits of this post into my Father's Day letter. I've been wondering what to do for that because I've been more vocal lately about how much I love him and sometimes it feels like there's nothing left to put in a Father's Day letter that wouldn't just be the same.
There's something special in just the same, though. Like listening to snoring. There's time. And when you're sitting in the middle of time, in the quiet and the dark and listening to snoring, and wondering when the next snore is gonna come, and contemplating life and love and time - well, I'm not doing anything else. And I'm not getting any younger. And maybe right now I can't mentally DO anything else. But I can do this.
I can contemplate my father, who is wise and loving and who pours himself out constantly, fill my mind with MY DAD instead of something else, because I love him.
I lied. My first thought wasn't "oh, that means he's sleeping." Well, it was subconscious. But right after, I thought, "I wish I had someone to love this way," meaning that I want to get married and have someone to love.
But I do have someone to love. I have my father. I can love him. I DO love him. And why am I pining for something I can't have, or worse, for someONE I can't have, when my lovely beautiful Dad is right there loving me in his sleep, in his waking, in his working, in his eating, in his thoughts, in his research, in his everything. I have him? Why do I need anyone else?
#Spend time thinking about the people you love#Even just start by making sure to look when they talk#Not eye-contact necessarily#But you don't need to be doing something else when he's talking#Don't need to give your attention to someone else if they interrupt#Don't need to interrupt yourself#Don't need to think about something else when he speaks#Look. Regard. Contemplate. Consciously give his words and opinions and thoughts the real weight that they deserve#Because you LOVE him#Or her#Your father or mother or best friend or sister or mentor or guide or#Whoever it is that's important to you#Your child your prayer partner your roleplay buddy your mutual#That's love#Not a feeling#Not an attraction#Not an emotion. Unless the emotion is this thing I feel listening to my Dad snore#Love is respect. Regard. Reverence. Attention#They're all the same thing#Can't you see it they're all the same#This is love#And love is love#You can show it to anyone anything anywhere anytime#Love is love#Start small. I started by making sure to listen when he spoke. I didn't know it'd turn into listening to him snoring with a smile on my fac#Love your beloveds#Asexual#Ace#Actually asexual#Pride
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#David Tennant#Alec Hardy#Ellie Miller#Broadchurch#my gifs#Ellie just keeps sparing him any direct eye contact outside of serious work-related situations#And he only looks at her when she's looking away#The way Ellie lights up when she realizes what he's saying.#That 'mostly' from him is the kindest most genuine and delightfully playful way of expressing how much she means to him#Love how she lets him know she doesn't believe he lost his phone and therefore her number and yet doesn't give him a hard time abt it#he's too brilliant a detective not to have memorized her number or found a way to say hi#It's just that she probably thinks he didn't care enough#I think Tess gave him an ultimatum -- stop contacting his outstanding Miller if they're going to make this work or Tess won't try#How many times do you think he looked at Ellie's number when he was alone and ached to contact her in any way#Especially given how concerned he was abt her at the end of S2#But trying to fix the family came first and honestly he's a wonderful human to do that for his daughter's sake#I think he's relieved Ellie would never in her wildest dreams suspect that's why -- but he still wishes he could tell her.#Complicated doesn't begin to cover it. But he decides basking in her presence for their endless hours of work has to be enough. Oh Alec.#Aww. Look at Ellie's beaming face.#I love them so much! <3
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over the past couple of years, my workplace has put increasing emphasis on addressing the needs of neurodivergent students in our classes, which is great, but i really wish my coworkers would stop using it as an excuse to try and armchair diagnose every child they find challenging or weird :/
#last year i had an assessment for a new student come with the comment ''does not make much eye contact. may be on the spectrum''#only for that kid to come to my class and show zero discomfort making eye contact with me or any of his peers#like girl i think he just didn't like you#it's fine if he's autistic but i don't think you should be trying to apply that label after knowing him for all of 15 minutes#in a situation where he's bound to be nervous anyway bc you're giving him a placement test#personal post
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Say it with me, everyone: dom and bratty sub 🥰🥰
#here again...#'he slammed his palms against the table but OF COURSE i didn't listen'#laia smiling and maintaining eye contact as she disobeys him and makes him angry.... much to think about#less than 24 hours til we have these messy lomls again 🙏🤲🙌#romance club#dracula a love story#dracula: a love story#rc mehmed#mehmed x mc
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feddy fivebears
feddy fivebears.....
#eye contact tw#sorry this is a mess. didn't really bother to make it look good </3#but it does the job#and sorry @ poor bonbon. you were in toy freddy's face so I had to put you behind him🫡
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IM AUTISTIC !!!!!! *BLASTS YOU AWAY WITH MY AUTISM*
#personal#soery i just i have to say it outloud sometimes bcs i still can't believe i didnt just like.#lie and scam the system into getting a diagnosis#like i deadass went in there nervous af no eye contact asked this man#no actually i didn't ask him#i let him know his form sucked and that I'd be making a filled out digital copy that I'd email back to him#turns out that in and of itself may have been enough to warrant a diagnosis#but i sat there in shock coming into the 2nd appointment when he went ''well. uh so i read your report. you're autistic''#i was expecting further testing. some brain imagery. some electrodes. NOTHING !#i GOT NO FUCKING ELECTRODES CAN YOU IMAGINE THE AGONY !#if i don't say it out loud enough times my autism dies its tinkerbell rules
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Pasta! I'm so happy you got to meet charlie!!!! We need a play by play of every interaction!!!! I'm going to meet him in a month and I'm so excited and scared haha
I wrote some play-by-plays and posted about our interactions so those are up now! And I can honestly say he is, without a doubt, the kindest, warmest, and most wonderful actor or celeb I've met. I was so, so nervous to meet him as @wonderlandmind4 can confirm. He's my favorite actor, who played what became my favorite character ever, and whose work quite literally changed the course of my life (since his portrayal of DD led to TRT which has snowballed into this massive thing, on top of how seeing Matt's struggle helped me process a lot of heavy stuff I struggled with). On top of that, I wanted to ask him to hold the red thread for our photo and I wasn't entirely sure he'd be down for that, AND I wanted to mention at the autograph how much his portrayal of Matt had helped me. And my anxiety levels were off the charts.
But he made it so, so easy to talk to him, to ask him to hold the thread or do other fun things for photo ops, and to interact with him. I've never seen anyone at events like this engage as easily, as happily, and as warmly as he does. He wants to talk with you, and hear what you have to say. He's genuinely happy to see you and sign things and for you to show him cool DD things (@intricate-melody got to show him her stunning DD tattoo and he signed her arm!). He cares about what you have to say, and his big smile when you come up to him is so kind that you just feel like this weight is off your shoulders, because he's so happy you're there, and that just... makes you feel more confident. Because when someone's happy to see you, so happy they get those little crinkles around their eyes, well, it's a lot easier to talk to them.
So from someone who was CRAZY nervous about meeting Charlie, I can tell you - you're going to have an absolutely AMAZING time meeting him. ❤️
#charlie cox#seriously i've met my share of celebs at photo ops and autograph tables#and he is absolutely the easiest person to meet#as well as the kindest and happiest#he was so so kind and i don't know anyone there who had a bad experience#a friend i didn't know was there spotted me talking to him from four lines away and could tell he was listening#really intently to what i was saying#he is LITERALLY just as nice as he seems#you'll do great! i hope that helps your nerves cause like#i swore i'd clam up with my nerves but he's just so friendly and warm and it's kinda impossible#to NOT want to talk to him and he makes it easy and relaxed#although i will say the first time you make direct eye contact with those warm happy gorgeous eyes#your brain will need to briefly reboot because holy shit#10/10 the most gorgeous eyes i've ever seen and even prettier in person
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another little personal spiel that im adding in the tags, ignore me if you're not interested~
#c.speaks#THIS GUY HOLY SHIT#he makes me feel so delusional i swear to god#he really#GAH#he was putting in so much effort to talk to me one on one#like every time it felt like the conversation would end#he would lean closer to me and say something that would make us talk longer#and he kept up eye contact almost the entire time and the only reason it wasnt the whole time#IS BECAUSE I KEPT LOOKING AWAY#when i said bye to him i could hear him telling his friends about me 😭🥹#we only see each other like every few weeks#and we're not the really the closest okay? he knew one of my cosest friends longer than he knew me#and i talk more to his best friend who's like a big brother to me#so i didnt think im someone he'd want to hang out with one on one#or tell his friends about#and okay i have liked him for a bit now#and im the one who usually initiates our conversations and they didn't used to last as long as a while ago#but recently he's been the one doing that and holding me in conversation for as long as he could#guys im delusional#i cant believe i actually have feelings for a man#SEND HELP???#im done im crazy#good night
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bless these two early college and first semester freshman kids who asked me if i kept contact with anyone from high school with like. the tone of someone who knows what i'm probably say but hey i could also say that i still visit them all the time, friendship is forever, and i had to be like. uh. my boyfriend? and we actually didn't talk for a while after i graduated, we got lucky. that's it. "that's it?" that's it. sowwy. i didn't even tell them about how one of the people from my hs goes to our college and i chose to drop the class that i discovered that in rather than tolerate being in a room with him. or that every day i thank god for the fact that i don't live in that city anymore. every time i go there with my bf we have to dodge people at the mall it's harrowing how does he live like that
#PERSONALLY i think it's harrowing. it's not for him#it's so funny. he was telling me the other day that i'm way more extroverted than him#which might be true but like. idk that doesn't equate to a winning personality#just means i can talk to people#he sees someone and tells me who they are and when they met and who their cousin is#i see someone and dodge behind him like 'i fucking hate her but if we make eye contact i'm gonna instantly start chattin like she didn't#steal my inhaler in 7th grade. i know that she knows that i know bitch'
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nothing worse than when you see what COULD be a sexy parallel for your favored ship, but to frame it as such would be a misreading of the show's overall themes and character arcs
#okay you know in s5 when buffy is like 'willow said it would be like suicide'#and spike says 'i'd do it. for a person i loved. i'd do it'#that would be SO fun laid over spike agreeing to take on the circle of the black thorn in ats s5 and making eye contact with angel#it would also be fun if you could throw in btvs s2 'i wanna save the world' and him running off with dru#HOWEVER.#UNFORTUNATELY. the whole point of ats s5 is that he stops doing it 'for' angel and instead bc it's the right thing to do#and i think it would be a disservice to throw in his sacrifice in s7 as a parallel too! or at least a betrayal of my own personal readings#but if you didn't think too hard about it? it would be sexy as hell with some cool instrumental laid over it#ughhhhhhhhh WHY must i care about the fidelity of my thematic interpretations of this tv show
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.... OK I really hope I can keep this dude ♥
#miranda talking shit#Like... I just want him around me... Yeah. First visit I thought it may be how I felt. Now I'm like lol yeah#8+ hour visit later... Not even that I just... Am being used for sx like we talk so much#We talked about past experiences and love and children etc. Like... I guess we just vibe. Or rather I feel like we do#We make each other laugh and he seem to want to touch me and want to tell me about things#He talked about metal (or we about music but I'm not a metal head so) and he played songs for me#He found my reactions to them funny. Some song did some guitar thing and I was like “woah!”#He laughed and after the song went into explaining what it was. How it was done and such#“i wonder what you think about this... Or... Well maybe you won't care. But I think you may find it interesting?”#Me already clawing at the phone: yes yes I'm interested show me!!!#I love having people show me things willingly. Like even if it's embarrassing or whatever like hey I am going to love it#He showed Warhammer figures he had painted and talked about that#I love hearing people info dump like omgggg hiiii tell me everything uwu#I took up the... Idea of being fwb and being like... Exclusive about it. And he was like “I mean... I haven't really been seeing anyone els#Mainly bc I don't want to and bc it's so... -makes eye contact with me-“ me: tiring?”-deep sigh-yes so tiring.... “#He shared a lot of personal things in general and one thing in detail he definitely didn't have to#I mean I casually say I got daddy issues but that's like... Yeah my dad never cared for me and my siblings that's just how it is ya know#Idk man. Been a while I... Felt so... At ease and.... Open so quick with anyone. I liked Linus quick but not in this way#I hope I get to keep him around me for more... Like he's.... I think we have things in common but we are definitely still different enough#Want to learn everything I can about him. Plus he let's me be... Overly affectionate and serviceing him like an doting mom (how I want to#Treat everyone in my life but I know majority don't accept it). I get to bring him a drink and help him get dressed to go outside#Men who just goes along with how I want to express affection and not hate it is great#I mean. I don't think he have been touched this... Affectionately before either. I'm very intense and like.... Yeah it's like I'm in love#With you. Sorry I'm stroking your face and looking into your eyes and all :/#He just smiles. Me with basically heart shaped eyes and he's like: :)#Some nerdy brunette: hi (: me: omg? Spend all your free time with me???
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"You're like my grandma's dog, Priscilla. Very sweet and tiny and will come up to you with her tail wagging, but almost constantly trembling with the biggest, saddest eyes." -My friend, talking about me. :')
#And after I started laughing he also made sure to mention that she barks a lot and is very loud.#I'm paraphrasing obviously as I'm not typing that whole convo from memory lol#He doesn't have a tumblr but he basically called me a “sad wet cat” and I had to share because that's just really fucking funny#he didn't mean it as an insult. he's fine. I gave him shit right back. I just wanted to share it as it's funny.#I'm weird about constantly making eye contact and that's already a joke within our friend group#It sounds like she's an elderly dog? She was a mutt so they don't know what breed she is but she looks like a terrier of some sort#Mad rambles
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