#i didn't have to go let him take me on another fucking pseudo-date like he does every time we start this again

[backtodecembertv]

the funniest way to break up with him for the third time would be to just send him a link to dear john. i don't think he'd get it though. he'd probably just be like lol nice try, i'm not listening to taylor swift

[dreamyfanfix]

Chapter 3: Unsettling

Previously on the Bachelor. The contestants were separated into two teams of eleven and had to put on a play. Things got heated with group A as Claudia and Maria got came to blows. [insert clip of Claudia and Maria fighting over who should be the lead of their play. The group voted for Maria after her plea of having stage experience as a singer]. In the end, it was Maria's inability to remember lines that lasted longer than 3 minutes that gave group B their edge (with Anthony's brother Benedict here to judge) and it was group B that won the outing with The Bachelor, Anthony [insert clip of group B being announced the winners and some members of group A, Claudia and Rachel, complaining about Maria]

Today, the winners of the last episode will have a nice fun time at a salsa dancing class where each of them will get a chance to dance with Anthony but this class is more than education and whoever Anthony feels he has the best dance chemistry with will be the winner of the first one-on-one date of the season. The stakes are high but remember the first one-on-one date could set the tone for the season and the aforementioned winner could get a rose before the ceremony at the end of the day [insert Anthony talking to a mysterious lady about how much chemistry he is feeling]

Just remember dears, Lady Whistledown will be watching.

--

"Daphne, what the fuck are you doing here?" Anthony said immediately after shutting the door to his room.

"I just wanted to see you," she said sheepishly.

"Okay you have seen me now get out of here before anyone gets a long look at you and see that you are pregnant," Anthony gesticulates towards the door.

Daphne sniffles and then starts crying "I'm sorry, I just didn't know who else to talk to,"

Anthony immediately feels bad and embraces his sister while directing her to sit down on his soft couch. "Daf what's wrong? Is it Simon?"

Daphne sniffed "Yes and no. These pregnancy hormones are doing a number on me but it's about you,"

"What about me?"

"I know why you are doing this and I feel bad-" he tried to interject but Daphne held her hand up "-please just let me finish," He nodded and Daphne continued "I know you are doing this so no one finds about me and Simon and I feel bad. You never liked having public relationships and now you are dating multiple women on national television and it's all my fault," 

Anthony took a deep breath. He didn't know what to say. He hadn't known what to say to his sister or his family about this situation for months. "I'll handle it," was kind of his motto at this point.

When Daphne and Simon had shown up on his London doorstep 5 months ago having eloped, he was disappointed. Disappointed in his sister's choice of partner but also that Daphne had forgone all of the things that she had always wanted as a little girl: the big wedding with all her family there and yeah it hurt that one of the few things that Anthony looked forward to as the family's pseudo father figure was the ability to walk his sister down the aisle and he missed that chance with Daphne. Despite it all, Anthony swallowed his disappointment and helped Daphne and Simon announce their situation to the rest of the family. Anthony usually sat at the head of the table so he had a clear view of everyone's reactions. His mother Violet Bridgerton looked at him first and then smiled at Daphne and Simon, taking her daughter's hand. Hyacinth and Gregory who hadn't quite learnt any tact yet asked about Fred and everyone looked at Daphne and Simon, while Anthony took another sip of his drink. It burnt his throat as it went down but he needed it.

Daphne thought she might have been helping the situation because even Eloise joined in on complaining about the suddenness of Daphne's nuptials. Daphne looked to Anthony for help but he shrugged his shoulders, he had warned her. Mostly he warned her that if she could not stand up to the scrutiny of the family when Daphne does eventually go public about her and Simon's relationship the scrutiny would be even more heavy. She then exclaimed, "I'm pregnant!" It silenced the table and Anthony had honestly never seen his family so shocked since Colin had run off a month ago to go chasing after a girl who did not want him. His mother stood up to congratulate Daphne in a hug which got Daphne to finally relax while the siblings all murmured congratulations while Fran, Hyacinth ad Greg spoke about who the favourite Aunt/Uncle was going to be.

Anthony thought it was over, at least for a while, until he got an appointment request from Charlotte Queen. Anthony was prepared to grovel for her forgiveness on behalf of his sister but instead of an angry executive, he got a cool and calm one. Which to be honest, was a lot scarier to him. Charlotte came as a courtesy to let Anthony know that she was going to be making her nephew the new Bachelor. At first, Anthony did not understand why that was news until he realised that that would mean people would be asking questions about why Daphne and Friederich did not work and whatever Fred said on the show could make or break Daphne's reputation. Friederich wasn't a bad guy but he was incredibly sincere and a bit naive, it made it hard for people not to be on his side. It could easily make Daphne look bad especially when news of her pregnancy got out. Anthony asked Charlotte if there was anything he could do to get Frederich out of the next season and Charlotte made it clear that she would someone of equal standing to take her nephew's place. Anthony knew what he had to do next. It was excruciating but after cancelling his meetings for the day and having meetings with all his solicitors and media people it became clear that this could do good things not just for Daphne but as a way to clean up his romantic image as well.

Later that week when Anthony announced that he was going to be the next Bachelor his news gave way to a very mixed reception. Ben and Colin went in on the teasing Hy and Greg were intrigued but it was Eloise who was able to figure out that Anthony had secret motives. That is when Anthony had to come clean about why he was doing it. Everyone understood and no one could offer up any other solutions so Violet then proceeded with the Sunday lunch and the family moved on to lighter topics.

After the lunch was over Anthony went outside to get some fresh, not to smoke a stress cigarette, and Simon came out to speak to him. It was stilted at first, in a lot of ways Anthony had lost one of his oldest and dearest friends to his sister and no one knew how he was feeling. Anthony had a line drawn in the sand for their relationship now: Simon was Daphne's husband and that was that. Things took a turn when Simon commented how this could be a good thing for Anthony and his philandering ways when Anthony lost it. He didn't know when he started but he knew that he was punching Simon relentlessly and Simon did not fight back, it only made him angrier. It was only when Ben came to pull Anthony off Simon did Anthony see the damage he had done. Every one of his siblings looked at him like he was something to be afraid of and Anthony did not stop to speak to any of them as he left Bridgerton House.

It had 4 months since the incident and everyone in the family had moved on. Everyone except Daphne, who he hadn't spoken to in months. He got information about how she was doing from their mother and his siblings but he realised that he could not speak to Daphne or Simon without getting angry and he did not want to be angry around his pregnant little sister.

"Daf I don't know what you want me to say," Anthony said softly.

"I want you to speak to Simon," Daphne said looking at him with those bright teary eyes.

"What would we speak about? I already apologised for the punches. It's done now,"

"Except it's not done. Simon was your best friend. The only other people you are close with are Benedict and Fife, and Fife is terrible and Ben is family,"

"Simon's family now too Daphne, that's what happens when you get married,"

"I know I just didn't think you would lose your friendship over this," she said softly

Anthony got up feeling agitated "Well, we did. He went from being my best friend to your husband that's how these things work,"

"He can still be your friend," Daphne pleaded.

"Except he can't Daf. Not the way he used to be. Simon was the person who I could go to outside of this family, whose loyalty was to me first. It was nice it was freeing at times but now he's your husband and that means his loyalty is to you first," Daphne looked like she wanted to interrupt but Anthony continued "And that's okay. I wouldn't want it any other way for you and my baby niece or nephew in there but it just means I have to keep things a little close to the chest a bit. It may not be this glamourized version of how you thought this was going to go when you married your brother's best friend but it is what it has to be. At least for now,"

Daphne sniffed some more and nodded her head "I wish I had done things differently,"

Before Anthony could answer her there was a knock on the dressing room door.

It took Anthony right out of his moment and he went to go answer it. It was Kate.

"Hi," she said softly.

"Hi," Kate was so beautiful sometimes he needed a moment to adjust "Listen I don't have the time right now to speak,"

"Yeah, I didn't come to speak to you. Well, I did but not like that. Sophie and another line producer are coming to get you so that you can record your confessional for some of the contestants,"

Anthony nodded his head and went to close the door but he must have looked confused because Kate stopped the door from closing and said "I'm telling you this because few people know of your guest and the state she is currently in. We all sign NDA's but things get out. You might want her to put on a cap and leave through the back entrance,"

Anthony sighed and nodded "Thanks Kate,"

"No problem. You have 10 minutes," she said as she quickly walked away.

Anthony tried not to get too distracted by Kate's figure walking confidently and rushed to get a 6 months pregnant Daphne out of the studio lot.

--

Edwina was a nice girl. Nice being the operative word here. There was technically nothing wrong with her but as he got mic'ed up for their one-on-one date he could not help but feel like he made the wrong choice. Edwina was just one year younger than Daphne but she had already accomplished a lot, she was a principal dancer with the royal ballet, a dancing ability that helped a lot during today's salsa class, she had a degree in psychology and played the piano splendidly. These were all the things he needed reminding of going into this date because although no one could deny Edwina was a beauty, there was nothing distinct about her looks, bright wide eyes, soft delicate features and a smile that made you want to melt inside. It was usually his type but he could not help make the comparison between her and Kate. He did not know why but every time he saw Edwina he thought of Kate. Where Edwina was polite, Kate was cutting. Where Edwina was soft-spoken, Kate was direct and loud. Edwina was pretty, beautiful even but Kate was stunning. A strong beauty with strong features.

Anthony had to shake himself off from thinking about Kate. It was strange but also it made him uncomfortable that he looked at one Indian woman and saw another. Edwina and Kate may share similarities but it's not like he looked at Josie or Anika and saw Kate so why did Edwina remind him so much of Kate? Was he a racist? No way.

As the date with Edwina went on, they spoke about a few things. Anthony asked if she ever went horseriding and Edwina made a face "No not really. I'm not a big fan of horses. I like the small cute kind of animals that curl up in my lap,"

"The really cute ones like you," Anthony internally cringed at his comment but Edwina seemed to like it.

"Thank you. Tell me about you," Edwina prompted.

"What do you want to know?" He asked.

"What animals do you like? What books have you read? I want to know everything," she said sweetly.

"Everything huh? Well, I like cats and horses. My family owns a breed of horses," Anthony could feel that not only was he losing the interest of Edwina but the crew who seemed bored at the conversation unfolding. It was embarrassing, to say the least, he had never had his romantic charisma on display like this before "But if I had to be honest. The last thing I read was accounts and ledgers for my family company. I know it's incredibly boring,"

Edwina giggled "I don't think so. I love to read so I can keep you appraised about what the shelves are being stocked with for the both of us,"

Anthony chuckled a little bit and said "I'm glad, I always loved being read to. Especially by someone with a smooth voice like yours,"

Edwina visibly blushed and Anthony knew he had her hooked. He really was good at this. They spoke about family, Anthony told her to her shock that he had seven siblings and Edwina was nervous but said she did not have any siblings. Anthony figured her nervousness came from the thought of having seven members of his family she might have to impress.

--

After the end of his date with Edwina, Anthony was feeling invigorated. He liked her. Not as much as someone like Siena, Claudia or Maria but he did not want to give Siena a big head by showing his interest just yet. After recording his confessional, Anthony was able to spot Kate walking around on the grounds.

She was pacing staring at her phone and Anthony knew he should stay clear of her thinking about all the things he has been thinking about since he met her. The way she had already worked her way into his dreams. He convinced himself to go and speak to her by saying it was merely to thank her for the warning about Daphne earlier.

--

"...Yes, but she may be a bit over her head here. She is only doing this because of her grandparents and what they said," Kate said to Mary, her stepmother over the phone.

"Those people are vile Kate but Edwina can handle herself unless there is another reason why you think Edwina should not be in the running for one of England's most eligible Bachelors?" Mary asked with a sweeter tone

'Yeah, Edwina's gay mom' Kate thought but did not say, this was something Edwina was going to have to figure out on her own and she sure as hell was not going to be the one to out her sister.

Kate then heard someone behind her and saw Anthony heading her way. "Hey, Mom I gotta go. Send my love to Newton please,"

"Will do sweetie. I love you,"

"Love you too," As Kate ended the call Anthony had just reached her. Man, he smelled good. If she did not draw the short straw and had to rally footage for the girls in the house today then she would have been able to see his date with Edwina. She was nervous. Edwina was always good at putting on a show she just hopes that she didn't hurt anyone in the process.

"Who's Newton?" Anthony asked with a quirked eyebrow.

"Why do you want to know?" she asked.

"Why did you answer my question with another question? Is he your boyfriend?" He asked.

Kate was surprised by his boldness then again he had a way of making her heart beat faster. "Would that be any of your business?"

"Maybe not but I feel like I have to know," Anthony said.

Was it just her or did his voice get deeper at the end of that sentence? Kate felt herself heating up and said "He's my dog. A small little corgi,"

Anthony said "A dog huh? Why am I still jealous?"

Kate tried not to be affected by his question but she always loved showing pictures of her little boy so she brought her phone out and asked "Do you want to see how cute he is and how no one stands a chance next to him?"

"Sure,"

Kate showed Anthony a picture of her and Edwina lying on the grass with Newton stretched over her legs. Anthony looked taken back and then pointed at the picture it was then that she realised that Edwina was in the picture "You know Edwina?"

"Yes, she's my little sister. I told you I was here for family reasons just like you," Kate said nervously because she knew she should not have shown him that picture but at the same time hoped that it might prompt him to expel her sooner.

"That's surprising,"

"Surprising? Come on we look alike a bit," Kate said self-consciously about the fact that people liked to make jokes about how Edwina was the pretty one and Kate was the smart one. It was condescending but also opened Edwina up to people who liked to take advantage of her because she might not be historically clever.

"I know you look alike. The minute I saw her I thought of you. It was weird I thought I was racist for a second," Anthony was rambling but Kate found it cute.

"Well, take this as a warning to treat her with kindness," Kate said poking him in the chest.

Anthony grabbed her finger that lingered on her chest and Kate's heart skipped a beat "And why aren't you concerned that she might be the one who would be the mean one?"

"Edwina is kind and sweet and one of the few pure things in this world," she said.

Anthony quirked his brow "Is that so?"

"It is," she said.

"Well, I promise to treat her with the exact amount of kindness she gives out," Anthony said as he dropped Kate's finger to her surprise and disappointment.

Anthony walked away even though wanted him to stay. For what? She doesn't know but Kate knew she had to get a grip quickly because Anthony was supposed to be finding love on this show and she cannot be one of those women who is known for sleeping with people on the job.

Later as Kate watched footage of Edwina's date with Anthony did she realise Anthony's confusion. Edwina did not claim her. To be fair they were only half-sisters and a lot of Western families do not claim siblings that were not full but that was not how she and Edwina were raised so even though it hurt she kept on and tried to find the best angle for Edwina to come out of this date.

[hyooteiihornyjail]

Hearts Game ♥ pt.3 (blurb)

summary ; chishiya and arisu finally admit their status among the friend group.

word count : 1.3k

"Look! They're doing it again!" Kuina whisper yelled, pointing frantically at the boys across the room. Usagi looked up at Kuina with a skeptical look, making the other girl pout.

"Doing what again, Kuina?"

"They're being... oddly romantic!" Usagi rolled her eyes

"It's nod odd, they're just being cute." Usagi turned to watch the two, resting her chin on her fist. Kuina let out a huff, crossing her arms over her chest.

The two in question were Chishiya and Arisu, having been all over each other since coming out of the hotel room. Currently, Chishiya was straddling Arisu's lap as he braided his bangs, bickering about how many pillows they sleep with.

"Look at them being all romantic and shit. I thought that the entire point of being fuck buddies is that no romance was involved." Kuina mumbled. Usagi glanced back to her, squinting her eyes.

"It sounds like someone is jealous~" Kuina deadpanned at the girl.

"Hell no." Usagi shrugged, focusing back on the two boys.

"Seriously though, Chishiya's never been this clingy with a person. Ever. Hell, he doesn't even like me enough to hug me." Usagi giggled a bit.

"People act different when they have feelings for others." Kuina groaned.

"I get that, but why Arisu? There's nothing attractive about him at all." Usagi glanced back at Kuina.

"First of all, you like girls."

"That's fair, but my point still stands."

"Well, there's plenty of things to like about Arisu." Kuina scoffed.

"Name one."

"He's not bloodthirsty."

"To some people, that's a bummer."

"Speak of the fucking devil." Usagi mumbled under her breath as she watched Niragi walk into the common room.

The girls rolled their eyes as he walked over to them, his gun slung over his shoulder as if he was some kind of pseudo cowboy.

"Ladies~" Usagi scrunched her nose as Kuina blew a raspberry. Niragi did the same, making Usagi roll her eyes.

"What's going on? Who are you watching?" Niragi asked, putting his gun down onto the table and taking a seat beside Usagi. Usagi scooted over the slightest bit.

"We're watching the little married couple over there." Kuina pointed to the boys, making Niragi pretend to puke.

"Chishiya's being nice to someone? That's definitely a fucking first-" Niragi sat back in his chair a bit as he watched the two.

"I know, right! It's like he completely changes around Arisu and I don't get it." Kuina complained like a toddler.

"Have you guys ever considered the fact that they might actually like one another?" Both Niragi and Kuina looked at Usagi, breaking out into a fit of laughter. Usagi rolled her eyes, letting out a sigh.

"I didn't think that Chishiya had the ability to like anyone, to be honest." Kuina said, earning Niragi's nod of agreement.

"I wanna go check it out." Niragi said, standing up from his seat and making his way over to the two. Usagi let out an annoyed sigh.

"Why does he always ruin things?" Kuina chuckled.

"I don't know if you've met Niragi, but that's kinda his thing."

Niragi walked up to the two just as Chishiya had pulled Arisu's hair into a half ponytail similar to Niragi's.

"And here I was under the impression that Arisu was straight." At the sound of Niragi's (incredibly annoying) voice, Arisu's eyes darted up to the man.

"You think a lot of things incorrectly. I'm starting to think that you're an idiot, to be honest." Arisu retorted, making Niragi roll his eyes.

"I'm surprised that you gave him enough credit to actually be capable of completing a full thought because I promise you that I didn't." Chishiya said, causing Niragi to let out a huff.

"Anyways, why are you two acting so domestic nowadays? I thought you were just fucking around."

"We are." Arisu answered, his hair getting pulled just slightly by Chishiya.

"We were." Niragi cocked an eyebrow at that.

"So... you're dating now?" The two both looked up at Niragi before going back to what they were doing.

"Neither of us ever said that." Chishiya mumbled. Niragi hummed softly as a terrible idea processed itself through his head.

"Then you won't mind if I borrow Chishiya for a while, right Arisu?" Arisu cocked an eyebrow, wrapping a hand (that didn't go unnoticed) around Chishiya's waist.

"Borrow him for what?" Chishiya glanced down at Arisu before looking back up at Niragi.

"I wasn't going to say, but since you asked.." Niragi shrugged.

"We all heard you guys in that hotel room yesterday. You were super loud, if you didn't know. Since I'm bored, I was gonna take him back to the room and sorta 'recreate the magic', you know?" Arisu's eyes immediately grew darker, very apparent to both Niragi and Chishiya.

"Like hell you will." Niragi tilted his head a bit, grabbing Chishiya's arm. Chishiya gave Niragi a venomous once over, but didn't try to pull away.

"What's the matter? You two're only fucking, anyways. Shouldn't be a problem, right?" Niragi tried to pull Chishiya off of Arisu's lap, Chishiya sort of slinking into Arisu as he pulled him away from Niragi's grasp.

Arisu carefully placed Chishiya on the couch, grabbing Niragi by the collar and pulling him close. Arisu glared at him with crazed eyes that scarily were more terrifying than Niragi's own (from what Usagi and Kuina could see).

Niragi simply smirked at Arisu, rolling his eyes. He tried to put some space between himself and Arisu by pulling his hands off of him, but Arisu's grip was too strong.

"What's the matter, Arisu? Are you really getting defensive-"

"Don't ever put your disgusting fucking hands on my boyfriend ever again, you worthless piece of shit." Chishiya's eyebrows raised in surprise just as Kuina's mouth dropped.

Usagi giggled softly, gently punching Kuina on the arm.

"Don't look so shocked, we all knew it."

"What the fuck? I didn't!"

Arisu pushed away a surprised Niragi, rejoining Chishiya on the couch. Chishiya reclaimed his position on Arisu's lap, gently kissing him on the forehead.

"I didn't expect that." Arisu rolled his eyes.

"Neither did I. Couldn't help it, I guess." Chishiya smiled softly.

"Thanks, guard dog." Arisu smiled up at him.

"You have to think of better nicknames than just calling me a dog, Chishi." Chishiya shrugged, letting out a content sigh as Arisu wrapped his arms around his waist.

"Well, there's your answer. Almost cost me my fucking head, too." Kuina giggled as Niragi plopped back into his seat, swiping his gun into his lap.

"I would've liked to see that." Niragi stuck his tongue out at her, Kuina doing the same.

"If I had my gun on me, I would've-" Usagi turned back to glare at Niragi, making him pipe down on his threats for once.

"I, for one, think that it's cute that they finally admitted it." The other two shrugged, sitting back in their chairs and letting out huge sighs.

"I bet you 20 bucks that they're gonna start making out in 10 minutes." Kuina said, grabbing both Niragi's and Usagi's attention.

"I bet 40 in 5. What about you, Sagi?" Usagi frowned at the two, making Kuina pout.

"C'mon, Sagi, it's just for fun." After a few moments, of thought, Usagi rolled her eyes, turning back around to face the boys. A smirk came to her face as she pointed at the two.

"100 in the next 5 seconds." Both Kuina's and Niragi's eyebrows furrowed together.

"5 seconds?" Just as their gazes fell back onto the boys, their lips met, quickly escalating as Arisu unzipped Chishiya's jacket and Chishiya's hands wandered under Arisu's shirt.

"Pay up, losers." The two groaned, Kuina pulling out her money from her back pocket. Niragi, on the other hand, began to run.

"You can get you're money if you can catch me!" Kuina watched as Usagi let out a huff, quickly running after the taller man.

She glanced back over to the boys, watching as their hands wandered all over each others bodies. She shuddered at the thought of sitting their and watching them fuck, so she quickly stuffed her money back into her pocket, trying her best to catch up with Usagi.

"Hey! Wait! I don't want to watch them fuck, Sagi! Shit, slow down-!"

[queenlokibeth]

Am i the only one who definitely DIDN'T interpret this as harry talking to a girl with whom they were never "official" but rather to someone (*cough* louis) who isn't the "official" partner.

This is from prior to take me home. Harry had "girlfriends" in the public eye. He's telling this person "you're not my girlfriend, so what! Not the person that the public sees me with, we're not official, there is someone else who the public sees me with, but don't pretend that that invalidates that what we have is real".

This feels like a mirror of JALBOYH with "And I don't feel the need to know who you're with, I can't even think straight but I can tell, You were just with her" and "i know i'm not your only, but at least i'm one"

To me this reads like a song that he would've written after they had a big fight, before they officially started dating. They were probably still pretending to be just friends at this point, but something had already happened between them, probably had fully confessed their feelings to each other. Harry probably messed up in terms of saying something like "let's not ruin this friendship by dating" (even though they wouldn't STOP acting like a couple) and louis agreed but he was actually hurt (because he didn't want to live with seeing harry constantly "date" other people when he couldn't be one of them, or pretend to just be friendly when harry still looked at him like THAT), harry realised that he had fucked up and that louis definitely wasn't okay with just being the "good friend", and louis distanced himself. Louis probably said something petty like "why do you care what i do, i'm not your girlfriend, we're nothing, i'm just your 'good friend'" throwing harry's words back at him (i'm p sure that louis also referred to themselves as 'just good friends' during one of the bullshit pseudo larry denials, so harry might be mocking his words in here). Louis also possibly put a stop to any not-so-platonic cuddling, nicknames, fooling around, non-friendly stuff (for his own sanity - baby didn't want to fall more in love with someone who said they should just be friends), which is why harry calls him out: "tell me you don't miss the feeling (of doing those things before louis put a stop to it and distanced himself - harry wants louis to say that he misses him)"

Louis wasn't there when harry needed him (and harry needed him precisely because he was sad that he'd lost his best friend and *cough* soulmate - c'mon how many times have we read this exact same scene/sentence in friends-to-lovers trope fics) They're literally in the same band, harry was "always going to hear [his] name".

"Now you rest everything on these three words" really makes me picture an angry louis screaming "what do you mean just friends?! You said I Love You!" BUT ALSO, that's prefaced by "a story you heard" so what if instead Louis heard a rumour about harry getting serious with some "girlfriend" and instead he screamed "you said I Love You to her!" Feeling cheated by harry? I have read countless articles about different celebrity couples that include a sentence along the lines of "sources close to the couple confirm that they are going steady - they have already shared 'I Love Yous' and have met each other's families". It's irritably common.

Harry says that the other person will be fine, but basically that he himself won't be. He thinks that he messed up for good and that louis will basically move on fast. Louis and Harry pretty much unofficially shared a bed in Princess Park - we know that, hence the "I'm gonna sleep alone tonight". (EDIT: @imbellarosa suggested that this could also be a clarification, to louis, to the world, that he's going to sleep by himself, not with another person. This harry is telling you that he wasn't an easy womanizer who slept around as he was constantly said to be. He either slept with his person, or alone. He shared a bed with louis, or with no one at all).

Lastly, this was probably written at the same time as Don't Let Me Go, which is the exact theme.

"I saw in the corner there is a photograph // No doubt in my mind it's a picture of you // It lies there alone in it's bed of broken glass // This bed was never made for two" (also see "Share a single bed and tell each other what we dream about" for happier content, but i digress).

Again there's the theme of sleeping by himself after a fight (read: broken picture frame). Harry also says "i'll keep my eyes wide open, i'll keep my arms wide open" meaning "i promise to start noticing things, i'll notice when i've done something hurtful, i promise to notice how the stunts and how i act with others hurts you".

"Seems like these days I watch you from afar" again, Louis has distanced himself.

In Half The World Away Harry realises that he's lost his best friend and the guy he loves. In Don't Let Me Go he begs Louis not to actually move on as his fear of this sets in. DLMG is Denial, Bargaining and Depression. HTWA is Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance.

Edit: this tweet reflects this whole idea of harry's public "womanizer" perception affecting his personal life:

"In 2013, while the media portrayed Harry as a womanizer, he locked himself in to write songs like JALBOYH, two ghosts, HTWA, DLMG, and many others that we may never hear, because he was insecure and was afraid that that person would leave him".