#i didn't even mention toki moli yet and i don't know if i ever will aside from in very specific contexts

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I've obviously been leaning REALLY hard into the Decepticon theming as of late, considering either renaming my blog or creating a new one.

Probably not going to change much, "Hedonistic Gamer Pile" is fairly accurate, relatively unique, and has a certain amount of reverence to me now

However the allure of "Decepticon High Command" is always there, despite the fact that it's probably not unique. But it doesn't need to be, I suppose.

I don't know, maybe once I start writing a bit faster (Coinciding with an improved text editor. I love you obsidian.md but you're no nvim... But I'll keep you around (Sorry I've been having trouble in paradise with my electronic servants and warriors, my fondness for them blinds my ability to make progress sometimes. They'll all be stored. They'll all be saved.)) I'll probably want to eventually find some method of organizing things beyond just tags, but I'm certainly not ready to have a blog in a traditional sense yet.

I still don't know how this website works and don't think I ever will, so advice is helpful but not necessary. Posts will happen regardless, it's just a question of whether they're formatted for anyone other than me. I'm half considering literally just uploading .md files and refusing to care how they look on other people's machines. It's a .md file, make it look how you want to look idiot. Something like that at least.

And a part of me never wants to let go of "Hedonistic Gamer Pile" because, like, that's what I'll always be, a Hedonistic Gamer collecting a pile of shit I care about. This shitty little blog I was forced to learn how to love has been pretty nice and I want to do more with it but I also don't know if I want to change the labels. How vexing...

I've been wanting to spruce up my actual blog page, but I don't know if people actually look at those. I happen to find them a little confusing because when I don't know where buttons are I get a little scared and my brain is specially trained to have fight or flight responses shoot off whenever there is even a hint of (unaddressed) context sensitivity

Anyway expect way more Decepticon propaganda soon, whether it be here, on a new blog, or coming to a state/republic/federation near you!! I don't want to be Megatron, you must understand that I simply am Megatron, but not the one you know (regrettably I cannot turn into a gun yet, for one). This isn't a crisis of identity or anything, I just literally have a lot of identities and overlap and play into each other in weird ways. I just am very autistic and don't quite know how or when to show those overlapping identities in a format understandable to anyone but me or someone with a lot of time to parse and translate.

Time is meaningless and you are being deceived, I'll figure everything out in time, but questions comments concerns prayers battle-cries battle-hymns and strategems are appreciated! Might help me do it more efficiently!