#i can't ficx it

[alwaysanovice]

Did nobody tell me there was a keyboard shortcut to make your background on Tmblr light blue or was I just supposed to find that out by attempting to type in the messenger bar myself?

[thegardenandthegrave]

Is anyone else in Ao3 hell or is it just me?

Can't get it to load anything.

Dying of fic withdrawal.

[callofdooty]

5-4-3-2-1 Tag Game!!

Tagged by @alidravana ! Thank you so much for the tag! :D

top 5 works i’m proudest of (not in any particular order):

Since I only have two actual works, I'll just put them both LOL:

Just Us - Keegan and Merrick havea moment after the events of the game

My Bed Is A Pool And The Walls Are On Fire - Keegan being delirious for 1000 Words

top 4 current wips i’m excited about:

Mostly all Whumpuary works since they've got my full attention rn LOL

Woken Up Like An Animal - Fill for the prompt Nightmares. Logan makes friends with Mouse after he accidentally kicks her across a room. Title is a line from Human by Daughter (aka one of the best Logan songs to exist LOL)

Keegan's Hypothermia fic - Prompt fill for Hypothermia and "Stay With Me" - Trying to play into the found family as much as I can because I am a SUCKER for it) Pending title ^^

My Heroes Are Dead (They Died In My Head) - Prompt fill for Betrayal. Bitter stream of consciousness, takes place after Struck Down, from Keegan's perspective (but Ajax's fate will be left ambiguous so he might be dead, might be canon divergence that lets him live) Title is a line from Diluted by Slipknot

I Won't Give Up On You (So Don't Give Up On Me) - Prompt fill for "Don't Do This" and Blurry Vision. Not entirely sure what this will entail but it will probably center around Hesh and Logan :) I love :) Angst :) I'm just hella into the title and the prompts as a combination. Title is a line from The Sadness Will Never End by Bring Me The Horizon

top 3 improvements in my writing:

Actually rewriting drafts. A lot of the time, I don't typically rewrite drafts, but for some of the Ghosts ficxs, I've actually got multiple different versions of fics LOL

Uhh I'd say I've definitely developed a stylised way of writing? Which, is actually pretty much just the way I write normally AHA - a lot pauses in strange places, and of course the angsty internal monologuing. I also like messing with structure when I can (Unfortunate House of Leaves simp over here)

Catching when my tenses slip. I don't know why, it might be due to roleplaying, but I find that I often flip between past and present tense in the middle of writing (where it wouldn't make sense to) But I've been able to catch it, lately. Makes editing fics a bitch LOL

top 2 writing resolutions:

Just posting more honestly. Last fandom I wrote fics for got a grand total of three fics because I didn't get to finish the others LOL, and then I kind of drifted off to other things (it's still some of my best angst work, so hopefully I can bring that energy to the Ghosts. The character I fixated on actually might have some similarities to Logan ssooo 👁 👁)

Maybe trying to branch out more? My two modes of writing are Hurt/No Comfort (hilarious, because I hate reading Hurt/No Comfort) and Whump so maybe I can try smth else? Maybe romance? Definitely not something I'm familiar with writing, but it feels like something I could try. (The real issue is finding ships I wanna write about /hj)

number 1 favourite line:

Hmm, this is hard, so I'm going to make up for all the other ones I can't fill by giving a few LOL

From Just Us, I'm quite fond of this line:

Shame stirs in his stomach, making him nauseous before working its way up, gripping his heart and then balling up to cause a lump in his throat that he tries his best to swallow around. "I miss him." The shame ignites like a gasoline trail, flaring quickly into anger (whether it's at himself or Rorke... it's hard to tell with all the smoke) that only makes him feel more sick. "God damn it, I miss that piece of shit."

From the Nightmares fic I'm working on (almost done with it!):

Her eyes did more than enough talking on that front, strangely expressive for how closed off she otherwise seemed. They told a thousand stories; all indecipherable, written in a language that no one could speak of, but could understand all the same. The mind's exact tales of suffering were locked away, hidden, but their effect still seemed to shine from the soul's very own fractured looking glass. A hint of resignation acted as dust upon the reflection's surface; a house haunted by time more than any other phantom.

and then this giant excerpt from a WIP abt Hesh :)

Occasionally, a glimpse will come to Hesh’s mind. Sometimes it’s intrusive, lightning flashing against a canopy of dark clouds, shaking the foundations of his mind with a deafening roar. Sudden, brief and violent in nature. Other times it’s… slow. Easy and gentle, like ocean waves crawling their way up the beach; soft, hushed. Almost comforting, if not for the deep grief that the tide often brought with it, the wind brushing by carrying the faint echoes of laughter and excited voices.

On days like this, the wind only seems to carry his own distant screams. The tide now feels lonelier than it ever did. That one set of footprints trailing in the sand was just that; a single set. The second set of imprints settled in his own stride now gone. 

Instead, the ghost of his shadow is embedded yards away, a trench dug out by desperately grasping hands, reaching for anything. Reaching for him.  

It’s still the gentle ease of a memory washing over him, sea foam gathering, swaying and receding slowly, but that’s perhaps what makes it worse. The slowness. The time he has to sit there and dismantle himself from the inside out, while his own head taunts him with things he no longer has, can no longer reach out for. Even the ebb and flow of water can wear down cliffs with enough time, steady and persistent in its movements. 

Imagery galore! LOL

tagging... @bubble-dream-inc , @goorehound and @neon-amnesia (If y'all want to, don't feel pressured to! ^^)

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[knightmareaceblue]

Omfg— I can't—

The lastest chapter is just... It's full of everything— without spoiler for those who haven't read it yet— This chapter gives the the most cry I've even had during this ride... This story, started following it when it's still on it's 8th chapter until now...

I CAN'T STOPPPP, HOW TF DO YOU STYOP CRYING FROM THIS!?!? I LOVE IT SO MUCHHHH THE TEARS WENT FROM A "DEPRESSINGLY SAD" TO A "OVERWHELMED BY RELIEF AND JOY", I—–😭😭😭

(But other than that, thank you so... SO MUCH, for creating this ficx this story, it's been a tons of fun following it... It's an roller coaster ride of an adventure and emotions... Much heart... TwT)

Thank you, LP. I'm happy you've enjoyed my fanfic for so long, and thank you for all the reblogs and nice comments. You've been a constant source of motivation, promotion, and general kindness. Good luck in your web comic, and the art you make in the future!

[high-pot-in-noose]

A big fucking and TRULY SINCERE tgank you to my mother for sittign on the brokn chair Ive repeatedly told her was broken, which was also filled with my book of shadows this occasion, completely destroyed the chair, brokr my book of shadows, and then screemed at me about it

I'm sobbing so fyckin hard riggt now I can't fucking breathe I workef so hard on this fuvkinh thibf put so muxh fukinf time and now the xover is destroyes and all she can't evne manage an sisncere sorry just fuckied off and is watching vids on the other side of tye roon liked I'm not crying right here in front of jer over my baby

I'm not gonna be able to ficx this the binding is all fixkingn up the cocer is completely out of shape and if I try to open it itll tear even more

[annaofthenorthernlights]

@bigfrozenfan

Oh dear oh dear! there was a malfunction with my tumblr Account I still on Support seek to ficx it. I don't know what happened. Seriously! Your Text so shocked me. I didn't withdraw from following on an avtive Account. Please have some patience.. I can't message for the Moment. I will try to reach you on Twitter but I was busy, too... !!!!

😭😭😭

I need technical help that is.... 🥺🥺🥺

2021 Fanfic Year in Review

Thanks @annaofthenorthernlights for tagging me

Total Completed Works: 4 drabbles (one of it deleted), 1 ongoing multichap fic

Word Count: 5.5K (drabbles), 190K multichap fic and counting

Fandoms I’ve written for: Frozen

Looking back, did you write more fics than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you expected? I’m still pretty new as a writer and in the beginning with my first attempts on Tumblr i wasn’t recognized by the fans. I wanted to give up. My second try also wasn’t what i’ve expected but then i created a special blog only for my writing and since then and with the help of my betareader it was successful in my eyes. I now have a handfull readers and some followers.

What’s your own favorite story of the year? It’s The Broken Bridge

Fanfic goals for the new year: To finish The Broken Bridge

Most popular story of the year: The Broken Bridge

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, IMO: I don’t have so many fics that i could answer this

Most fun story to write: I made a few intermission stories between the parts of my multichap fic, all as modern au. But writing to my main fic is the most fun for me.

Most unintentionally telling story: none, and i didn’t participated in bigger challenges so far (not on Tumblr)

Biggest Surprise: that i’ve got 2-3 readers who always make comments to my chapters. Big shoutout to @annaofthenorthernlights and @karma26, and also @true–north

I tag @lelitachay and whoever else wants to join