#i can't even be angry cos that's their entire argument

[avaetin]

IG people discussing Percico be like: "Percy’s 18 and Nico's 15. The aUdAciTy to ship an adult with a minor!"

Girl, wait until you find out about this thing called ageing. It totally blew my mind. 🤯😆

[myrmica]

its so funny that all minute—the guy who once upon a time hoped to redeem zam—'s team has accomplished is getting him to consider giving up his remaining honor in order to match the level they're playing on ?

[sweet7simple]

I apologize but a part two my last dratchrod ask where you said rodimus has breakdowns.

Maybe he can be himself around another mech *cough cough* megatron *cough cough* or maybe dratchet get a feeling and catch him breaking down or notice something?

Or maybe its both and they see how easy it is for roddy and *cough* megs *cough cough* to work with each others terrible or hard parts and maybe they want that? Or Maybe its too late & *cough* gray mech *cough* won’t give roddy up because he knew the moment the change happened

I am a slut for when others write Megarod, but I can't personally think of a way to expand upon what you have already written. It summarizes the situation quite well.

Either Drift and Ratchet gets their slag together (which they did in another ask I answered), or someone else swoops in and takes Rodimus off their servos.

The thing is, Rodimus is terribly lovable. Even when you don't want to love him (and I personally found him insufferable for most of the MTMTE/Lost Light series; I prefer the version of him I see in fandom and didn't like his canon characterization until the last few issues), you eventually realize that you're willing to die for him because he is equally willing, if not more so, to die for you.

So if Rodimus can be himself with Megatron where he can't be himself with Drift and Ratchet... If he can look at Megatron and go, "I don't have to be perfect because he's already so fragged up, I can't mess him up even more," then that's good. That's great.

Losing Rodimus would hurt Drift and Ratchet and they'll be angry at him and themselves for a long time, but they would never want to force Rodimus to stay with them if he isn't happy.

If he's happier with the mech he feels is just as imperfect as himself (arguably worse, we all know that), if he's more comfortable being mouthy and selfish and lazy with a bot he knows can handle it and not walk away, than Ratchet and Drift will let him go and they'll work toward rebuilding a friendship when the spark wound isn't so fresh.

It helps that Megatron is medically trained and can keep up with Rodimus's self-injurious shenanigans and self-sacrificing plots.

EDIT:

Not mutch to do with the ask, but I was still thinking about why Rodimus would be more comfortable with Megatron than Drift and Ratchet and the short answer is because Rodimus can't really hurt Megatron.

Yeah, he can get Megatron really, boiling mad and annoyed, but there's not much he can say or do to make Megatron lose faith in him or abandon him. Meanwhile, he can absolutely say the wrong thing and lose Ratchet and Drift so fast, or create wounds so deep just by not thinking before he opens his big mouth.

If Drift says, "This is a bad idea, Roddy," Rodimus can't snap back with, "Oh, like taking boosters was so smart?"

Boom. End of relationship right there. Rodimus has joked about rehabilitating Drift in the past and revoking his rights and no one, I repeat, no one found him funny. Bringing up Drift's history as a drug addict or as an assassin or as a decepticon any time Drift tries to talk some sense to him? Not cool. Drift gets upset, sometimes angry, but it's Ratchet who absolutely will not stand for it.

For Rodimus, Drift's past is just part of Drift, part of what makes him who he is, part of why the way he is and the story to how they met. It's nothing bad, it just is. Which is probably why he doesn't treat Drift's past with the delicacy he should.

Meanwhile, there's Megatron.

Megatron can say, "That's a stupid plan," and Rodimus can snap back, "Oh, like starting a war is a bad idea? Or is it like how forming the DJD was a bad idea? Or is it a bad idea like how -" and the list can go on and on down the entire list of Megatron's crimes, but his co-captain is just waiting him out with the most deadpan expression possible.

"It's because of my mistakes that I can say this is a stupid plan."

"Says the failed warlord," Rodimus mutters sourly because he's losing this one-sided argument and he hates that.

But Megatron isn't even hurt. He's smug because the best Rodimus can do is try to distract him by hurting his feelings so he can go risk his life on some suicidal mission. Megatron has dealt with soldiers and officers speaking sweet things to his face and trying to stab him in the back for millions of years. He's dealt with the Senate and the Functionist universe and war and so many endless cycles of victim impact statements - Rodimus's temper tantrums are nothing to him.

He knows what he is. He knows what he's done. He wants to do better, be better, even atone, but he isn't going to get upset by Rodimus's big mouth (the feelings and thoughts Rodimus's mouth inspire in him are a separate matter, but they are not upsetting things).

What matters to Megatron isn't what Rodimus says - except for those instances when he says something truly inspiring, something so awe-inducing and humbling and empowering that Megatron can't help but be impacted - but what Rodimus does.

One time, Rodimus lost his ship and most of his crew because he wouldn't betray Megatron.

One time, Rodimus reached out to him when he was about to give his life fighting Tarn and saved his life even when he didn't want to be saved.

There's a universe where Megatron dies with a Rodimus star in his servos. There's a universe where Rodimus smuggles him out of their own universe for wild adventures across many others.

Rodimus is so easy to love for someone like Megatron. It helps that Rodimus is a brat and Megatron is Into That (See: Orion Pax before he took on the responsibility of the matrix and the entirety of Starscream).

What I am getting at here is, while Drift and Ratchet would have to work hard to forgive Rodimus - and maybe not even fully forgive him - Megatron sees nothing that actually has to be forgiven.

Megatron says, "Do you even possess a brain module or is there only room for your inflated ego in your helm?"

And Rodimus says, "Talk about egos, pal, I'm not the one who thought Cybertronians were soooo superior that every organic in the galaxy had to die."

"Like recognizes like."

"Ex-squeeze me? Did you just compare my awesome stars to genocide?"

"Even I had to start somewhere."

"I think I'm a long ways off from planning a mass murder of a governing body and then conquering whole planets."

"I am not so sure. You were quite efficient against the Functionists."

"How dare you, that's not the same thing. At least I've never killed a boy by throwing them into a giant smelting chamber."

"Rodimus, you can burst into flames. You have absolutely burned a fair number of bots yourself."

Rodimus can't hurt Megatron the same way he can accidentally (sometimes on purpose when he's being self-destructive) hurt others.

It means he can relax and be himself. Even the not-so-good parts of himself. Even the nasty bits that made him use Rung as bait to catch a sparkeater. Even the nasty bits that once made Ratchet vote to remove him as the Lost Light's captain. Even the nasty bits that made him agree to take Overlord onto his ship. Even the nasty bits that made him let Drift take the blame for Overlord and exile him without a fair trial. Even when he left Ratchet behind on Luna 1 to Pharma's not so merciful tender mercies.

He has fragged up so, so bad. And that's all just since he got on the Lost Light.

It's comforting to be with someone who has messed up worse than he has. They're growing into better captains together.

[wellofdean]

hey just saw your tags on dean's anger. and was just thinking, he needs that external focus to keep himself going, and ... yeah. i guess the flipside to it is that without that external focus, he needs to maintain a need for himself, if that makes sense. i think that's what creates the co-dependance. and youre right, grief turned outwards will become anger. it's a safe emotion for men very often.

Hey! Thanks for the thoughtful ask. Yes, I think an external reason to keep fighting holds Dean together a lot, and I think anger is a 'safe' emotion for a lot of people, not just men. Pain, disappointment, fear, guilt, and all manner of other vulnerable emotions are often manifested as anger, and Dean's defining characteristic is being up to his eyeballs in vulnerable emotions that he can't afford to let breathe, but I think in these scenes that main one is grief with a big side-helping of existential terror because he doesn't know if he's ever known a moment of self-determination with Chuck pulling their strings, and Dean no longer knows what's real.

I'm not sure what you mean, though, by "maintain a need for himself" or which co-dependence you mean...but I'm not a huge believer in the notion that co-dependence is always bad, and I don't think Cas and Dean's dependence on one another is unhealthy; I think it's the most healthy thing about them. Co-dependence CAN be bad, but I think we do, in fact, need other people to love us and be there for us, and we need to rely on others, and I think that's exactly the vulnerable need at the root of Dean's argument with Cas. I think at this point, Cas is, for all intents and purposes, Dean's partner, and they are co-parents in the midst of a devastating loss, compounded on top of all their other losses. At the same time, Dean feels like Cas is defaulting to unilateral solutions to their shared problems, and that scares him. So, fear, grief and love become anger.

When I say Dean's anger is a product of his love, I don't mean to excuse bad behavior. I think we, as a culture, do that far too often for angry men. Dean's lashing out at Cas and he has some good reasons, but he also has a need to hide and doesn't feel entirely righteous about it. I think he feels weak and knows he's hiding, and I think he's surprised when Cas leaves because I think Dean knows that Cas is his in a deep, deep way, even if what way isn't clearly articulated, and I think he thinks Cas can absorb his anger and will still love him...and he's right about that! Cas's love for Dean is an incontrovertible and essential fact. But, just at that moment, Cas is in his own pain. He's also lost too much, and he feels like he's failing again, and losing his powers identity, and losing Dean, whom he loves with everything he is. It's just too much for both of them.

I don't get the impulse, in fandom, to assign blame or applaud one or the other of them in this series of events. Both of them are so emotionally compromised that they are doing what they least want to be doing. But, maybe they need space to breathe, and both of them get it, realise that this is not the way, and mend it. Because ultimately? Love.

[thekatebridgerton]

Okay the bridgerton break ups are killing me, can we please see how they back together cos I need some hea’s here

Okay, I get it, you convinced me, I should stop being lazy and finish the piece lol

First of all Kanthony gets back together the same way they do in the books. Kate has a car accident, the hospital calls him because he's still Kate's emergency contact, and Anthony runs, he doesn't even finish hearing the voicemail from the doctor, he just drops everything and races out. Kate turns out to only have a broken leg, but all the while Kate is getting her cast on Anthony is having the most major freak out of his life, because Kate could die! she could die! and he keeps repeating it to himself and Kate gets really worried about how he looks like he hasn't slept in ages. The next thing he knows, Anthony is hugging her, telling her he loves her so much, that he's been afraid of turning her into his mother who basically stopped functioning when his dad died because he was her world. But Anthony would rather live every day of his life loving Kate than waste another day without her. He lied to protect himself!! he does love her, he doesn't want to think of a world without Kate. And Kate decides to take him back, after he finally convinces her that all this time he did hear her her confession of love and did reciprocate her feelings, ever since they met, he was just lying about it. Anthony does do a 180 because he can't get over the fact that he could have lost Kate and she never would have known his feelings. Meanwhile Kate is pleasantly surprised at how much more free Anthony acts now that he's not lying to himself about loving her

Benophie, well, you guys probably already guessed it, Benedict makes a scene at Violet's birthday party, he gets into an argument with Araminta for harassing Sophie about the breakup and making it sound like it's all Sophie's fault, when he's the one who never deserved her. Finding out that Araminta and Sophie's dad sucked and that Sophie had a terrible home life. When Sophie thanks him for defending her like that, Benedict realizes that after knowing the terrible family Sophie came from, and hearing her talking with Roger about building her true family and raising kids with love and care, that his so called freedom means nothing compared to that. Because he's been trying to fill the void with meaningless hookups when all this time, he could be having something real and lasting with Sophie. the whole thing of having a nice house, doing chores. It suddenly hits him that building a future together with someone as brilliant as Sophie Beckett, sounds like a dream to him. So he apologizes to Sophie profoundly and goes all out to show her he's changed, he gets a permanent job at an art gallery, stops the random hookups, if he needs a date he only asks Sophie to go, and shows up alone to events if she says no. And when Araminta has her arrested on false theft charges, Bendict pays her entire bail out of his own savings, only asking her to give him another chance, this time, with the intention of getting married one day soon, if she'll have him. Sophie says that yes, she'll give him a chance, because she loves him, and eventually after a lot of persistence on Benedict's part, they do get back together.

Polin. I think these two got really angry at each other before the reconciliation, they both try to move on with their lives, but keep coming back to each other. Colin tricks Penelope into the 'we can still be friends right?' thingie that guys do when they're trying to change. But I think what does it for them is that in the dramatic moment when Colin doesn't run when he finds out that his ex, Penelope is the famous anonymous columnist LW. For the first time in the relationship he stays in England and faces her directly, because he's sick of running from his problems with Penelope. And he's sick of her expecting him to run. So he confronts her and they just have the big explosive angry argument they should have had before they broke up. Throwing blame, recriminations, hurt, every verbal weapon every bad memory, everything they hated or hid from each other fearing that their relationship wouldn't survive, they throw it there, out in the open. And then, by the end of the argument, both realize that they still love each other, that even trough all the dirty laundry they mutually aired, they both still think that the other is the best thing to happen to them, so Colin asks Penelope to be his girlfriend again, because he can't live without her, and if this is the worst they can do to each other, then they're going to be fine after all, so he will work hard to earn her trust, and since she also loves him, she agrees to try again. (Makeup sex was probably involved in this)

Philoise, well, that's just Eloise showing up in the middle of the night at Phillip's house, hugging the oversized stuffed animal Phillip got her for Christmas, during a thunderstorm, mumbling the most pathetic excuse, of being in the neighborhood, which basically boils down to a tearful 'Phillip I really really miss you' that just shoots Phillip's defenses to the ground. Because how can he not take her back when she's being so vulnerable and obviously in as much pain as him. He shows her that he built her a home office in his house, for her to use and she cries again, because of course he would, that's the type of idiot he is. Phillip is still angry at her for just breaking up with him without an explanation, but once Eloise does explain herself, and he has a chance of talking about his own trauma, they both agree that being single is terrible when you're inlove with someone this stubborn. The next day Oliver and Amanda find out Eloise is in the house and absolutely snitch on their father about what a pathetic downer he's been and how she needs to come back and 'fix him again'. So Eloise promises she's back with their dad, and here to stay. Although in this case, they do agree to take things slower (And by slower I mean Eloise will be proposing next week, because she saw Colin do it and it felt like a good idea)

Saphne, Ohh this one is the typical party girl x bad boy get back together, Daphne is partying hard till she drops for the third month straight, when Simon just can't take it anymore, because ofc Anthony was like 'Let Daphne make her own choices Simon' when Simon told Anthony to rein her in and watch out for her crazy celebrity friends. So Simon himself starts showing up at the events where Daphne is acting out, and just brining her home before she can be taken advantage of. Because for some reason he's now frequenting the bars she likes. At one point, he confronts her, tells her that she's better than this, Daphne tells him that so is he!. And they have a heart to heart, that brings them closer together. They decide to quit pretending they're okay, and do get back together after finally accepting that the other is not going to change and that relationships mean compromise, and it's not until Anthony has his first child a year later, that Simon revisits the children and marriage conversation with Daphne. Because after thinking about it for so long, he's ready to become a dad, not because Daphne wants to have kids, but rather because he finally healed enough to feel confident that he deserves to be loved and that he's not going to turn into his abusive father.

Franchel: Michael comes back from his travels, he admits defeat, he grovels, Francesca does not take him back, he spends way too long being Violet's plus one to family events just to get close to Fran again. Until literally half her family is begging Francesca to put him out of his misery and either honestly go no contact or take him back. She does finally take him back. But with much more healthier ground rules. (Oh who am I kidding, he seduced himself into forgiveness, because she sure was more forgiving after round 10 of seduction. That man has got a superpower only Francesca can tame. She was brave for holding him off for so long)

Hyacinth and Gareth did eventually find common ground after Sophie took Hyacinth out of the videogame room and made her see the underprivileged side of town so she could appreciate the privilege she was born into. Truthfully Hyacinth still the materialistic younger sibling all the Bridgertons love, but she does make an effort to help people who have less opportunities than her by participating in more activism, when Gareth sees that she's trying to be more sensitive to human issues that don't involve her personal self interest, he falls inlove with her again. Hyacinth asks him if they could start over and Gareth agrees, knowing that he was inmature too and that the best thing they can do is leave the past behind and get together under a fresh start.

Gregory and Lucy. Pretty sure they got back together because Haselby got sick of them and staged an intervention. Haselby made it look like Lucy was being blackmailed by a criminal and had Gregory think her life was in danger, when really it was just Lucy's creepy uncle locking her up at home and not letting her go to school because he found out her relationship with Haselby was a ruse. So Gregory bravely rode to the rescue, practically blew up the door to Lucy's house, and Lucy's bedroom where she was locked up by her uncle, and as an added bonus, Gregory had Lucy's uncle arrested for child neglect. Gregory also asked Simon and Daphne to pull some strings CPS and had Lucy placed with Anthony and Kate temporarily until she turned 18. Even after all this, Gregory was insecure about where he stood with Lucy, but once she was not restricted by her uncle and didn't have to fake her relationship with Haselby, Lucy was free to be honest with him and ask Gregory out for Prom herself, Gregory is obviously over the moon. Because she never stopped loving him and that's all he needs. And although Hermione Watson gets the title of Prom Queen, Gregory gives his own Prom King Crown to his beloved Lucy, because she may not be the diamond of the season for their fancy private school, but she is the Diamond of the season to him. (Bonus of their story is that they do get accepted into the same Ivy League College after graduation)

And that's the tea

[youthworkerb]

My child has 3 parents and I am the non-biological parent. The 3 of us have cared for him equally since birth and we had worked out an arrangement where he spent pretty much equal time between my house and BP1's house (we alternated Sundays). BP2 doesn't have enough room for kid to stay with her and she and I have a good enough relationship that she is here daily when he is with me. Neither of us get along well with BP1, who has essentially forbidden us from setting foot in their house and has on multiple occasions expressed that they feel we are trying to "steal" kid from them.

Recently BP1 and BP2 went to court and made a custody agreement where kid spends Sundays with BP1 instead of alternating. They did not involve me or even tell me about the court proceedings, I found out from an extended family member.

When I confronted BP2 about this, she was defensive and said nothing would actually be different in practice because BP1 wouldn't be able to handle having kid for that long. I also think she isn't that fussed about having equal time because she very highly values having a life outside of being a parent.

Yesterday I asked BP1 when I should pick up kid today because per the agreement I was involved in making, it's his turn to stay with me. I pointed out that they had not included me in planning the new schedule and since kid is equally bonded to the 3 of us, it's best for him to spend equal time with us. They made several different arguments that straight up did not make sense ("Sat/Sun are my only days off so he should be with me" well those are also my only days off. "I should get more hours with him because he's with me in the afternoons and he is more tired and cranky then than he is during the time he is with you" okay then I'll take the afternoons and you can have him in the morning??) Not one word about what is best for kid, everything was all "I don't trust you and BP2 so why should I give up any time with kid." Eventually they just said no, you can't have him Sundays.

This morning they texted me and proposed a schedule where kid would technically alternate Sunday nights but would still be spending ~10 hours more per week with BP1.

I want to fight for equal time. But since I'm not a biological parent, I'm pretty sure I don't have any legal rights (actually I think I could make a fairly solid argument for de facto custodianship since he has been living with me half the time but going down that road would absolutely turn an already adversarial co-parenting relationship into an all-out war and I don't want that for kid's sake). I'm angry at both of my co-parents and sad for my kid. And I don't feel like I can talk about this with anyone irl because all my friends and family have either never viewed kid as my child or they think the writing has been on the wall this entire time and I just set myself up for heartbreak

[zypria]

Atla The Rift comic sucks part 1

Comparing apples and zucchinis

The past vs future, change vs tradition is very interesting dilemma to explore. And they've chosen two good representatives for each side - Aang, the last of his kind and the avatar vs Toph who refuses to be bound, creates new style of bending utilizing modern structure, does what she wants really. Secondary are acolytes vs factory, same thing. And my God do they suck at pitting these two against each other. Both of these sides take everything in the world and go me. Like those Katara touches necklace memes "lets eat. my mother used to eat". Connecting things that have very little to do each other just so we can have a conflict. misunderstanding but it's unintentional. They just lost the ability to make comprehensive parallels.

100+ year old ritual = bad parenting

Rituals are rooted in tradition. We do them because they are symbolic, we do what we do because that's how it's done. We honor our roots, ancestors etc etc

The phrase triggers unhappy memories for Toph, particularly of her restrictive childhood. Fair enough. But. Some of these aren't even "tradition", her parents were just like that. "This is how it's done" is no logical response to "why can't I play with other kids". There have to be rich kids with friends out there. Blind kids with friends. This is solely Beifong issue. I despise forced parallels

The following statement is just incorrect:

He didn't forget (although 100+ years are justifiable excuse). He was 10 and wasn't paying attention in the first place, figured there is plenty more festivals to remember. It wasn't celebrated because the peeps are dead. A genocide if you will. The world wouldn't end even if there were no humans around, doesn't mean we should just cease all cultural activities

Also it was ESTABLISHED that we're doing this for AANG. You know, our beloved friend the last Airbender? He wants to honor his long gone culture for a special day. Also also past avatar has something important to say, what if something happens (and something ALWAYS happens)

Instead of addressing any of this Aang goes the air nomad philosophy route. just WHY? These are not insults just for the sake of insulting, they have opposing views and should talk about it maybe. Were not even in the place to have change vs tradition argument, we're just having a field trip atm. Simple "this is really important for me and I want to share this day with my found family" solves everything but noooo. Zen mode, it will sort itself out, I'm not actively getting involved (man. this is TOPH. you should know better. rock beats airbender etc etc)

Toph is mean just to be mean. Not the cuddliest character but when did she go around insulting your every move? Especially since they didn't really ask her to do anything. You don't have to actively participate, why are you complaining in every panel? OOC behavior just to keep that gaang rift nice and divided

I can't spend 30 seconds to explain why we're about to be pulverized but I can do ancient history 101

he doesn't deny this! why. to have aang vs toph and co that's why. the most pointless fight in existence. because we have time for that apparently

the spirit is just asshole in the end

I'm not pulling caps for this. Yangchen did everything to keep her promise, not her fault Sozin happened. And let's not forget people ran away in all directions from fire nation for a century, why wouldn't they inhabit this nice empty land? The spirit was angry about his friend's demise (turns out she did that herself and is very chill. And can manifest freely too). Spirit does not ask for balance in any way, shape or form, humans must die so that I can have this land to stare at. What if some spirits decided to reside in Ba Sing Se, we destroy entire city? I thought that refinery screwing nature was going to be the big plot point but nope. Cabbage restaurant -gone. Houses - gone. You can't even walk here, disrespectful, gtfo. Extreme situation that calls for stupid resolution - spirit dead. Although looking back I can find some appreciation for not managing to tie everything nicely, cookie cutter avatar style. But imagine how much better it would've been if conflicts were well written in the first place

We got another festival so all is well?

[freya-rat-face]

Got subjected to it and reacted badly to someone accidentally offending me by coming off wrong

Which is the RSD

I would have said similar under similar circumstances, and I would have gotten defensive if anyone said anything to me about it.

Which is the autism

And I am so FUCKING ANGRY at the bullshit right now

Because the reason I'm sensitive like that is because I learned how many times other people don't actually tell someone they're doing something they don't like or were offensive. I learned to read literally everything remotely negative as a, 'you fucked that up', because people have made clear that when I or anyone else responds with any kind of negativity or the wrong kind of positivity (e.g. nodding and saying 'uh-huh'), it's a fuck-up. They complain to me about other people doing things that I do, and now I know that this Thing can be read badly

I'm context blind/deaf. I'm subtext illiterate. I can't pick up on the underlying shit. I do good to know it's there.

And I'm old, this is with practice and education on what's actually going on, why they are the way they are

But it doesn't really help because I can't work without that information that is literally so far beyond my understanding.

Like the thing the person did that offended was an attempt to be helpful, to direct me to other resources, but it came off as a 'go away'. They answered very shortly after I asked for help, and mentioned the fact that I could do it alone, and this combination of things made it feel bad.

I've done things like that, and I would not have recognized the context, I would not have realized i offended.

Worse, I, the offended party, didn't want to address it because if they did it on purpose, i would be picking a fight and i don't have the spoons for it; and so committed the same sin I get so mad about by failing to let them know it came off wrong.

Someone else did address it, and they got defensive, and I certainly would have, too. I ended up defending them, because I felt it so bad. Been there, done that.

Knowing it wasn't intentional was a lot better. I just assume it is and avoid that person most of the time.

Can only hope the lesson took

Cos I hated apologizing for shit like that for a long time, it felt like I was admitting a wrongdoing

You didn't do anything wrong, but you did mess up. You verbally elbowed someone on accident, it happens. Just take it with grace, say you're sorry, ask if they're okay (DO NOT ATTEMPT TO EXPLAIN YOURSELF FOR THE LOVE OF FUCK) and move on.

They honestly don't care why you did it. I hate this, I really do, but it's not important to the matter. This really is a stupid, irrational thing, but they don't want an explanation, they want a fucking apology.

(I say 'they' because I usually take explanations as apologies, unless your explanation makes it worse, but at that point it's just an argument.)

Like there are a lot of times where I legit Should Not Have Said That, but there's others that are completely beyond my control because they were offensive in a context of which i was completely ignorant

Like calling someone's clothes comfortable for a long time

Badly timed help or genuine suggestions that came out as condescending by making something difficult sound simple (especially when it is for me)

Lots of faux pas that just generally end me up with the adjective 'mean'

Fuck the entire fucking culture that turned compliments into insults by ways of politeness and passive aggressive bullshit, by the way

I've developed a phobia where no matter how well a social interaction went, i don't believe it, because waiting on feedback just gets you kicked out of parties

and then I did the same fucking thing, got touchy because of invisible forces of context and hid the negative response, even knowing the community is rife with the 'tism

The rules are so fucking squishy

And most people don't even know them, even as they follow them

And I did the same fucking thing

So I've learned that there's no fucking learning to do anything but apologize a lot and forgive yourself for it

Good luck, I guess.

[linkspooky]

Hello! So I usually only read your meta but today I was looking through your blog and discovered that you ship nobamai. You're the first person I've found who ships it I was really surprised and so pleased. I also ship them and have infact from their first appearance in the anime, the tension was so thick between them and their opposing views and personalities it was delicious. And then I found that the fandom favours nobamaki which is a good ship and I can see why people ship it but it's just not for me. Really happy someone else ships nobamai too. On the other hand, I never thought I'd like and ship fushiita so much. I usually dislike the friends to lovers trope and any ships associated with it and I'm still sometimes amazed why I like it so much when I don't usually like ships like fushiita. Anyway, thanks for reading my rambling.

I prefer ships that are more conflict-ridden, so while I can understand liking Nobara and Maki for the intense chemistry they have as firends and their more mutual admiration I feel like Nobara and Mai have more to learn from each other so a personal relationship could lead to a lot of positive growth.

I actually share your opinion, I was also surprised I ended up shipping Megumi and Yuji as much as I did. Fushiita is a lot different from both friends -> lovers ships, and when people ship characters that are two Shonen RivalsTM.

One big thing about Megumi and Yuji is that they genuinely read as friends, and get along with each other well. Here is my hot take, both Naruto + Sasuke, and Bakugo + Midoriya are ships I cannot get invested in at all because they don't seem to have a solid friendship. It's not even the history of Bakugo bullying Midoriya, it's just they do not ever seem to hang out, or even have conversations without Bakugo throwing some kind of tantrum and insulting him.

Megumi and Yuji have the kind of instant chemistry that Killua and Gon have. From the moment they meet Megumi forms a close personal attachment to Yuji from admiration for his good nature, whereas Yuji also admires Megumi for being smart and responsible. Even when the two of them have an argument, in the aftermath Yuji admits he was wrong for getting so angry at Megumi so fast and realizes he should have respected his opinion because Megumi is a really thoughtful person who has reasons for believing that way. Yuji does something rare which is acknowledge that both of their differing opinions can co-exist, because they have their own way of doing things.

The whole point of Megumi and Yuji is that they work together well, the conflict does not come from the fact that they are different, that they argue too much, they are even able to have conflicts like any other friendship without completely breaking apart. It is a nice, solid foundation for a friendship.

HOWEVER, there is still conflict which is where a lot of friends to lovers fall flat. Most friends to lovers I have seen in shipping is like the only conflict comes from the "Will they, Won't they?" part on whether or not they are going to get together. For Megumi and Yuji, they have had a deep conflict in their friendship that drives them apart from the start of the series. They have an obstacle to overcome. This obstacle is the fact that Megumi doesn't care about saving the world, he only wants to save a select few people around him and one of those people is Yuji. Yuji on the other hand is self-sacrificial to a fault. His entire character revolves around the contemplation of his death.

In Yuji's mind everything is set, he is going to die, it's only a matter of when. This is an argument that comes up with them again and again, Megumi keeps reminding Yuji that he's too important to die, while Yuji is looking for a big enough reason to die. Yuji may find a way to sacrifice himself to save the world, but his death won't save Megumi, it will in fact destroy him. That's why the first thing Megumi says when Yuji is in his post Shibuya-Funk is "Save me!" Yuji can't disappear on his own because Megumi needs his help right now saving Tsumiki. Yuji is constantly searching for a reason to die, whereas Megumi is constantly searching for a way Yuji can keep living.

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could you write a one shot or head canon of al haitham or diluc reacting to you taking off your ring during a fight? it could be a wedding ring or promise ring! i wanna feel my heart get ripped out from angst but end it with fluff <3 love u

ly2 <33 and it's someone else than scaramouche ALAS, not that i mind i love everyone sm

i only did alhaitham because i feel like i can't write diluc😭

taking off your ring during a fight

warning: you two fight, kaveh is mentioned like twice i think?? alhaitham can't read the damn room

✧ alhaitham deals with any situation thrown at him with logic - personal feelings aside, it's more important what must be done and not really how others might feel about it

✧ he's always been more of a loner with his personality not being the,, kindest, so to speak. rather, instead of calling him rude, he's just blatantly honest and somewhat ignorant to how others might feel about the things he says (including you at times)

✧ this argument was a testimony of his ignorance. actually, both of you had no idea how quickly it escalated and why exactly you two have been fighting for hours

✧ however, there is something that alhaitham does whenever he feels like an argument is dragging itself into nowhere - he simply ignores whatever comes from your mouth, regardless of how harsh it might be and pretends to not hear you anymore the moment he picks up any random book

✧ he even had the nerve to tell you to finally tone it down as he wanted to continue reading his book that he had found, something that made your blood boil at his sheer audacity

✧ were arguments with him always like this? sometimes

✧ depending on what it was about, alhaitham reacted differently to the things you said or how he would continue talking to you (if at all)

✧ a fight or argument about different viewpoints? surely, he's open to hear you out. in fact, he loves nothing more but to hear you talk about your opinions as long as it was based on actual facts and logic (he'd probably even discuss the probability of the boogeyman existing with you if he wants to)

✧ however, petty arguments (the ones he already has enough with kaveh) are below his usual standard and he is not really afraid to let you see just how annoyed he is at your bickering. and that's also the point alhaitham would suddenly not respond anymore, simply sitting down across the room with a book in his hand and asking you to calm down, otherwise he won't talk to you until your normal again (his words)

✧ he isn't doing anything wrong in his eyes, in fact he believes that this is far more beneficial for either of you. you can simply calm down and do whatever you just did five minutes ago and he doesn't have to argue about petty stuff. it sounds so good in his mind, but the execution is always poor for whatever reason

✧ that day was no different. you knew what you got yourself into when you married alhaitham and you knew how narrow minded he could be, but there were moments in which his behaviour actually hurt

✧ talking to a wall at this point would be far more effective than to say anything to him, so with a loud groan you decided to leave the room for the time being and go outside for a long and well deserved break from your own husband. however, what you missed was alhaitham glancing above his book to watch you taking off your ring and he just,, raised an eyebrow

✧ are you serious? over this?

✧ for a few minutes, he would just watch silently. are you angry at him? so angry that you take off your wedding ring? he can't find any logical explanation to explain your sudden outburst other than the fact that you might disagree with him (obviously)

✧ alhaitham has somewhat troubles to read a room correctly and at first, he really wants to believe you're just overexaggerating this entire ordeal - what he didn't see was that this behavior of his had bothered you for quite some time and not only this time

✧ you can't tell that he's almost overanalysing your every move, and his book is suddenly closed and disregarded on the small coffee table next to his seat - if you would've noticed him, you would've jumped from the sheer intensity in his eyes

✧ "i'm leaving. i don't know when i'm coming back."

✧ it was only then when you were almost ready to leave and you still made no move to put it back on that alhaitham would finally get up with a strange look in his eyes, waltzing over to you with such intensity that it almost caused the ground to vibrate from his heavy steps

✧ at first you're confused by his sudden action and you almost snapped at him for sneaking up on you like this, but one glance down to his hand revealed that he was holding the small golden ring in his other palm, his hand from his wrist slowly sliding down to take your hand into his own

✧ "don't leave. i'm sorry."

✧ and yet, despite the usual coolness to his tone, you could tell he was somewhat distressed about this (much to your shock). considering you even received an apology from him was enough for eyes to grow softer at the sight of alhaitham

✧ whatever anger had been left in your body dissipated within seconds upon seeing how gently he placed the ring back onto your ring finger, a relieved sigh leaving him after you explained to him that you actually only took it off to wash your hands before heading outside

✧ he merely sighs at that and minutes later you're in his arms, reading his book until you eventually fall asleep on his chest (you didn't even bother trying to understand whatever was written in that book, but as long as it made him happy...)

✧ he silently curses you knowing very well that kaveh will waltz in in about half an hour and complain about the two of you - he might as well just move out if he's bothered by that

[sometipsygnostalgic]

Bow for the character bingo

interesting >:)

When it comes to Bow, he's sweet, but his impact is very limited even though he's one of Adora's best friends. He serves the purpose of the foil to Adora and Glimmer, because I think if Bow wasn't around at all, those two would never get along.

While Adora and Glimmer are having these deep arcs, Bow is just.... There. Like Swift Wind and the Princesses. The Horde side does a great job at using every character to enrich Catra's story, neither Entrapta nor Scorpia are Glimmer levels of deep but they get the jpb done. However, the Alliance side seems to be bloated because it only wants to focus on Adora, Light Hope, Mara, and Glimmer.

I actually like Bow a lot more towards the end of season 4 and within season 5, which is when he starts to... actually interact with other characters for once???

He gets into his conflict with Glimmer and finally stands up for himself and you get an investment in that relationship whereas you would take it for granted before. When Glimmer formally apologises to him, you can't help but cheer. It's nice that he got his time to be angry at her rather than just taking it and trying to smooth over every conflict.

Bow gets lots of 1 on 1 time with Adora, and they have a wholesome friendship. These two are remarkably similar and s5 is easily the best showcase of this. I like how he looks out for her during her time of need. They were overshadowed by Glimmer and Adora for most of the show.

Bow also gets lots of screentime with Entrapta and these two are so funny together (especially when Entrapta and Adora have a chaotic synergy and Bow is tearing his hair out), it was nice getting that friendship payoff - Bow had spent the whole show trying to get Entrapta to join the Rebellion, and Entrapta had spent the whole show searching for true friendship, and they finally teamed up and got what they wanted. They were able to relate just a little bit over their struggles, too, and during his own crisis with Glimmer, Bow helped her have faith in friendship again, which saved her life. Very sweet. Also shout out to Don't Go -"I learnt the hand thing from Bow!" - do you think she goes to him for friendship tips and tricks?

And there's their "son" Wrong Hordak. I do think of the entire season, those three got some of the funniest moments and probably made it easier for kids to watch.

Bow and Catra is a fun dynamic, as is Bow and Scorpia, we only got a little bit of time with these two but I would be more than happy to see more especially as Bow is a good foil to Catra and he and Scorpia are like-minded middle-man friends, lmao.

I don't know why he only wears crop tops and I'm afraid to ask.

I think Bow gets done dirty by fans because he is unequivocally just There as the extra friend, hell if Glimmer and Adora get into a fight Bow is always incredibly passive no matter who is obviously right and wrong. I know there’s precedent for this in the show but sometimes fic makes Glimmer go waaaay too far and Bow is still acting neutral, and then I do feel bad for him if I’m reading a fic where Glimmer and Catra have a lot of romantic tension while he’s dating Glimmer. Also a couple months back I got into a huge fandom argument cos I said he was smarter than Hordak. I don’t think enough fanfic takes advantage of Bow’s friendships with Adora and Entrapta, even if the fic is using those characters a lot. 

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"Caught In The Storm" *Part 2*

Y'all thought I was kidding when I said I was pumped for this story; you just read how long this chapter is.

IT'S POURING OUT. I JUST WANT YOU TO GET WHERE I AM ALREADY.

It's so good guys. Like, SO GOOD.

Okay I'm sorry proceed.

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If you missed part 1: Here!

Part 3 Here!

-----

The next day the SVU squad was having one of their "murder board" meetings when you came storming into the station.

"Well I hope you're happy!!" You looked right at Fin.

"Audition didn't go well, cannoli?" Sonny asked you using his pet name for you.

"No Sonny, it DID NOT," You huffed. "I walked in there and I blew my audition," You circled Fin’s desk. "And I don't mean I forgot the lyrics, or I hit a bad note. No no, ohhhh no," You finally stood in front of him and crossed your arms.

"Halfway through the song I broke down SOBBING. I had a complete mental breakdown, because all I could think was that I had the worst moment of my entire life in that room!!!"

"Hey you can't blame us for your mistakes," Fin retorted.

"I don't blame them, I blame you!" You gestured to the rest of your “family” and then to him.

"Excuse you?" Fin sat up straighter.

"You didn't have to say anything Fin, you really didn't," You sighed.

"What?"

"You could have waited to have your fucking temper tantrum until after my audition,"

"Excuse me no--"

"She has a point" Olivia interjected.

"You too?" Fin took offense.

"Fin she was leaving, it wasn't like she was going to try and jump Rafael's bones right there," She went on. The whole room shivered at the thought of you “jumping” anybody’s bones.

"Look, I don't love it either but you can't help your feelings. And she just has a little crush on him, you can't fault her for that,"

You scoffed in offense.

"You're not helping, sweets," Olivia warned.

"Right…"

"Anyway you could have waited to have it out, is all I’m saying,” Olivia nodded at you with a smile. You mouthed a “thank you”.

"Oh we haven't begun to have it out," Fin huffed.

"Save it" You put a hand up before he started to stand up and get in your face for a fight.

"I already know what you're going to say; he's too old for me, we're a 'family' and he's supposed to be my 'uncle' or 'brother' or some other creepy thing, and we have nothing in common. But we do!"

"You barely know him, Y/N," Nick chimed in.

"I know him better than any of you!" You cried defensively.

"What?" Sonny looked at everyone confused, but they were just as lost as he was.

"That summer….when I was working with him. We got... close," You muttered the ending.

"I fucking knew it, you did bang him begin my back…" Fin growled.

"It wasn't like that! It's not like that, da--FIN," You actually did usually call him dad or daddy, but since he had been trying to use his dominance you persisted to remind him he wasn't actually your father.

"So what, now you two are in love?" Fin rolled his eyes.

"No! He didn't... we've never….it's never gone there, and I don't even know how he feels," You looked down as you talked. But then, you remembered why you were there in the first place and you raised your head up with eyes of fire.

“And it wouldn't matter anyway because it's none of your business.” You snapped.

“It is absolutely my business Y/N he’s my co-worker, he’s ALL of our co-workers, this affects ALL of us,”

“I knew it,” You scoffed, tears coming to your eyes.

“What?”

“I knew you’d blow up, and freak out, and not even ATTEMPT to open your mind or hear what I have to say, it’s just about you and what makes you okay,” You backed away from all of them.

“So I came here willing to say that I’m done,” You raised your hands.

“What do you mean you’re ‘done’?” Fin crossed his arms.

“With you,” You replied straight faced, willing tears not to fall right now. “Olivia’s right, I can’t help the way I feel, and BELIEVE me I have tried, daddy,” You resorted to your old name for a punch in the gut.

“Y’know whenever Sonny and Nick started, I had ‘crushes’ on them too,” You nodded at the two, who quickly looked uncomfortable picturing you that way.

“But those quickly went away, and I accepted them as my uncles, or whatnot,” You continued. “I have done that since I was in Jr. High, come here and meet my new ‘family’. I’ve always felt maternal or paternal vibes from everyone here, Uncle Brian, Grandpa Kragen and Munch, Uncle Stabler who can rot in hell…” You gave Olivia a sad look.

“But it’s ALWAYS been familial love! And the day I met Rafael, something was different,” You couldn’t help the tears choking your throat. “And I have never, EVER no matter HOW hard I have tried, felt anything like I feel about the rest of you. It’s just....different,”

“And now, you all know. And I know that you don’t like it, or it makes you uneasy, or blah blah blah,” You made blah gestures with your hands.

“But I can’t go back to pretending that it doesn’t kill me every time that I see him, and I’m not going to pretend like I’m okay with dad being-- this,” You gestured to Fin who shifted uncomfortably.

“So, I’m not going to come around here, for a while,” You said sadly.

“We didn’t do anything, cannoli! We’re your family too,” Sonny protested.

“Yeah I know, I just--”

“Look, Y/N before anybody does ANYTHING, you need to go talk to Rafael,”

“What?

“WHAT?!”

Both you and Fin exclaimed at the same time.

“Look I’m not thrilled with the idea of...that, but the bottom line none of this arguing means anything if he doesn’t feel the same way. So I’m saying before you start going off and making threats to US, go talk to him first. Without anybody else’s input,”

“Yeah, alright,” You shrugged and left before anyone else could argue.

--------

You walked into Rafael’s office quietly, not really sure how to start the conversation. He was writing a deposition silently so you knocked on the door to get his attention. He looked up at you with a small smile.

“Hey you,” He got up and walked around his desk as you shut the door behind you. “I was worried about you,” He put his hands on both of your shoulders.

“I know,” You gave him a small smile back. “But you’re right we do need to talk about last night,”

“Yeah, I--” He looked away nervously.

“I already went to my da---Fin, and the squad about this,” You bit your lip.

“....About what?” He was now concerned.

“Us,” You looked at him with a small smile.

“I’m sorry, there’s an ‘us’ now?” Rafael half laughed.

“Well that’s what I’m saying, Rafael!” You bit your lip. “Look after all the fighting and what not, what it boils down to is how you and I feel,”

“.....What are you saying?” Rafael asked, backing away from you.

“I’m asking,” You step forward and took both of his hands and looked at him seriously.

“For you to forget about Fin, or the squad, or an age gap, or all the million other things that are ‘against’ us,” You took a deep breath and asked the hardest question you’ve ever asked anyone:

“I’m asking you...do you love me?”

“Of course I love you Y/N, you’re like a--” Rafael immediately responded, moving away from you and gesturing wildly.

“Do NOT say daughter,” You cut him off. “Or sister, or niece, or cousin. You know that’s not what I’m asking,” You grabbed him and made him look at you again.

“Do you want to be with me?”

“I...it’s complicated,” He broke from your hold and paced his office.

“No I’d say it’s pretty damn simple-- do you feel about me the way I feel about you?” You asked him again.

“I just...I don’t want to become between you and Fin, he’s basically your--”

“He’s NOT my father!” You yelled.

“But he’s the closest thing you have!” Rafael argued, putting his hands over his face and taking a deep sigh.

“Christ almighty, Y/N. I don’t...I don’t want this to be a whole ‘thing’, I don’t want to upset Olivia, or the other squad members, I just...want us to go back to normal,” He gave you a sad look as he sank into his chair behind his desk.

“....Yeah well, normal is not an option, Rafael. And you STILL have not answered my question,” You circled his desk to be closer to him again.

“What question?”

“Dammit, Rafa!” You threw up your hands, then took both of your hands and put them on either side of the chair preventing him from evading you again.

“Look me in the eyes right now, and tell me you’re not in love with me,”

A very long pause began, as the two of you just stared at each other. You were searching his green eyes for a hint, a tell of what he was thinking, but he kept himself very guarded. You hated it.

“...No, I’m not,” He said in the tiniest voice as he looked down at the floor.

“You’re lying,” You pulled back with a sarcastic laugh, tears choking your throat yet again.

“Oh so just because I didn’t say what you wanted me to, I’m lying? For fuck’s sake grow up, Y/N,” Rafael spat at you coldly, turning back to his desk in an attempt to resume working.

“Fine, you know what? Fine. That’s great. You believe whatever you wanna believe Rafael, but things are NOT going back to normal,” You shook your head, trying to be cold and direct but failing as tears fell from your eyes.

“Y/N….” He felt his heart breaking, he hated to see you cry.

“No,” You stopped him. “We’re done. I don’t ever want to see you again. Not here, not at the station, not at the fucking Starbucks down my street!” Your voice raised as more tears fell.

“Y/N, please don’t do this…” Rafael began to panic, realizing what you were saying. He leapt up from his chair and tried grabbing your hands but you pushed him away.

“Don’t call me, don’t text me. Just...leave me hell alone,” And with that you turned on your heels and stormed out of his office, now full on sobbing down the hall.

Unbeknownst to you, Rafael let out an angry scream, running over to his desk and flinging papers everywhere, then proceeded to sink back into his chair behind his desk and cried ever so silently in his office.

-----

It had been about a week since your whole fallout with your “family” and Barba and you weren't doing great.

Then one day you got a phone call from an unknown number.

“Hello?”

“Hey Y/N, this is Sandy from the supper club?” You immediately stopped walking when you heard her voice.

“Oh yes how are you?”

“Great, I was wondering if you could come back in and audition for us again?”

“Are you serious? I know I’m going to regret asking but, what made you change your mind?”

“Well your friend Kelsey called and told us that the day you came in and auditioned, your dog had just died that morning. But you didn't want to stand us up so you came anyway. And to be honest with you, all of the other auditions have kind of sucked so we'd like to give you another try.”

“Oh my God thank you, thank you, thank you so much!!!”

“Great so we'll see you tonight at 8:00?”

“Absolutely,”

You hung up the phone and immediately called Kelsey.

“Hello?”

“I love you so much I love you I love you I love you!”

“Oh so they called did they?”

“YES. I cannot believe that you would do that for me,”

“Well I figured you needed a win right now. Since you know you lost your family, and everybody who actually cares about you,”

“....Wow,”

“ You know what I mean! I mean you still have me, and Kenny obviously,”

“....Right. ANYWAY, the audition is tonight so….”

“Yes?”

“Will you play for me?”

“Let me see if I can free up my busy schedule,”

“Ha, Ha,”

“Oh look I’m free! I'll be there after work. Love you bye”

----

*That Night*

You walked into the Supper Club with a brand new outfit and a nervous smile. You noticed Kelsey was already at the piano, waving at you with a huge smile and a thumbs up.

“Hey Sandy, Hey Kyle…” You shook hands with the owners. “Thank you so much again for this chance,

“Girl we should be thanking you, you should’ve seen the ‘talent’ that has stunk up this stage all week!” Kyle laughed.

“So are you ready?” Sandy asked you.

“Yeah, I think I’m good,” You took a deep breath and smiled at her. She nodded at you while you took your spot on stage once again.

You closed your eyes and blocked out everything and everyone out of your mind, except for your song. It was just you, and the stage. This is what mattered.

-----

“....Good to you,” You finished the last line with a breathy note, your eyes still closed. You had kept them shut the entire time just so you wouldn’t look out into the house and just see the horrified looks of your family's faces burned into your brain.

“That was beautiful!!” Sandy clapped her hands. “Do you think you could come back tomorrow night and do that again?”

“Like for a second audition?” You asked hopefully.

“Like as a job,” She grinned back.

“Really?!”

“Yes really! That was enchanting darling, really,” Kyle placed a hand on your shoulder.

“Thank you, thank you so much!” You nodded for Kelsey to come over as Sandy and Kyle walked away.

“I got the job,” You beamed.

“YOU GOT THE JOB!!!!” She squealed, causing people to stare. You shook your head and lead her out of the club back onto the street.

“Oh my god, Oh my GOD! I’m going to sing to a packed club, night after night after night! Oh my god, I have to call Dad---” Your celebrating tone quickly died when you realized the only people you’d wanna call about this weren’t...there.

“...You can call Kenny,”

“Kenny!” You smiled. “Yes I’ll call Kenny!”

“Hey girl what’s up?”

“I got the job,”

“Wha---at the Supper Club?”

“YES!!!!!!”

“Oh my god you GOT THE JOB!!!” *she got the job!*

You heard him speak to a muffled voice in the background.

“Kenny…”

“Yeah babe what’s up?”

“Who are you with right now?”

“...Alejandro,”

“Oh, Alex! I haven’t seen him in forever, put him on the phone,”

“He uh-- he has food in his mouth,”

“Boy why you lying, tell her she needs to--”

You heard Fin's voice.

“KENNETH,”

“...Yeah?”

“Don’t tell him that! He doesn’t get to know that!”

“Y/N, can’t we just stop all of this--”

“NO. And if you tell him to come tomorrow night I will kill you,”

You hung the phone and noticed Kelsey giving you a look.

“What?” You raised an eyebrow.

“You didn’t have to tell him you were singing tomorrow, you could’ve just texted him so Fin wouldn’t hear,” She smiled mischievously at you. “You want him thereeee,”

"...Maybe," You bit your lip. "Do you think he'll come?"

"I bet they ALL come, baby girl," She winked.

You wondered if she was right. If you'd see Rafael tomorrow, after all this time.

------

“I can’t believe she--” Kenneth stared at the phone, then to Fin.

“Dad, you have to go to her show tomorrow night,”

“Kenny she literally just said she’d kill you--”

“Yeah but dad, we both know her,” He looked at Fin with earnest eyes. “She might be mad at you right now, but she’ll want you there when her dream is coming true,” Fin’s eyes lit up as he finished speaking.

“AND the rest of the squad,” He quickly added, making Fin sigh.

“Yeah,” He agreed.

“AND Barba,”

“...Yeah alright Ken I get it, okay? Finish your food before it gets cold,”

-----

The next day Fin went to see Barba at his office. He knocked softly then entered to see Barba talking with Olivia.

“Detective,” Barba nodded. “Didn’t expect you here, was Olivia not working fast enough?” He teased Liv with a smile.

“Actually I’m glad you’re both here. I need to tell the rest of the guys but-- I wanted to come here first,”

“That sounds ominous, Fin,”

“Actually it’s not,” He shook his head. “Y/N got that job she...auditioned for, a few weeks ago,” He muttered awkwardly not looking Barba in the face.

“Wha--Seriously? How? When?!” Olivia began asking questions rapid fire.

“....Why did you come to tell me this, Fin? You didn’t know Olivia was here,”

“Look, Barba,” Fin sighed, running his hand back across his head. “I don’t-- I don’t need to know the specifics of how close you and my daug---Y/N, are,”

“Oh Fin look I haven’t--”

“Yeah, I figured. She’s iced us all out for a while now,” He chuckled sadly. If he taught you anything, it was how to stand your ground.

“But Kenny said, that as mad as she is we need to be there tomorrow night when she goes on,” He continued. “All of us,”

“Tomorrow?” Barba’s eyes perked up. “Tomorrow night, you want me to go see Y/N?”

“ALL of us,” He emphasized. “But, yeah,”

“Sounds good,” He replied as nonchalant as he could, trying to hide his excitement. He missed you so badly, it scared him how much it hurt not to have you in his life on a daily basis.

“Uh huh,” Fin chuckled, nodding to Olivia. “I’ll see you back at the station,”

“Actually I was on my way out, I’ll see you tomorrow night Rafa,” She winked at him.

As soon as they left his office, Rafael did a fist pump in the air like a kid. He was going to see you, after so long.

He couldn’t wait. He just hoped you couldn’t either.

[sealpup9]

I know what hyperfixations are, I have ADHD. I get that it can be difficult to pull away from media that is problematic.

My thoughts for you are as follows- (because I wanna be reasonable here and the original post was admittedly very angry.)

-The comparison to the lightbulb is invalid. The lightbulb was an invention that innovated the industry and helped households across the world, bringing light. We see them as necessities. A book series is not necissary for living.

-Think about what parts of the media you enjoy. You can likely fill this with other media. I know how hyperfixations work, like I said. We have ADHD. It can be hard, but it's possible. Try to pull away from the problematic stuff and fill the void with something else. (Please read my entire argument here. I'm not saying you can't read a book.)

-It is indeed a book series. A book series that has many, many problematic ideals laced in (racism, anti-semitism, pro-slavery, to name a few). It isn't in the form of a villain that has these ideals, because that would be different (villains are bad, in stories and are given qualities as such to help the audience understand the hero's motives). This is a book series that poses anti-semitic and racist views as casual and common. (I recall a post about Hagrid calling the Goblins beasts, and how they can do magic but aren't allowed wands- Hagrid, who is the kind of person who would give any creature a chance, from what I recall?) These views are what make the source material problematic. And like it or not, people subconsciously take in things like this. Have you seen other art of fictional beings like goblins being depicted in ways similar to Harry Potter? Of course! (Not saying all depictions of goblins are bad, just saying that her books are highly marketed and therefore her fantasy world has become a staple in media, even parody and such.)

Let me also say:

There is nothing wrong with taking in media when you acknowledge its faults.

But this can co-exist with:

Stop buying into the media, stop giving the media money, stop viewing the media on platforms that give them money.

By giving her money, you are supporting her views.

Whether you want to read a book is on you, if you already own the book no one can tell you what to do, take in the media in all of its racist bullshit whatever, if you can look past that that's on you.

What this post is calling out is the fact that people KEEP. GIVING. HER. MONEY.

I'm not saying change your hyperfixations (and I gave an alternative there...) Like, listen, I've been here. I used to love Attack on Titan. And then I learned that the media was created by a japanese nationalist, and that those ideals were spread throughout the media. I did not want that plaguing my brain, I did not want to support the media any longer. That's my choice. You have a choice, too.

Either keep buying into the franchise and giving money to JKR to support her views.

Or stop buying into the franchise, and stop giving money to JKR.

It's that simple.

not to be this person but

why the fuck is it so hard for people to just stop taking in harry potter media?

do you just hate trans kids? do you just want people to die? do you not care about the antisemitic propaganda?

saying that you don’t endorse these things and then continuing to give the media attention/clicks/views (MONEY) means you’re giving money to a cause that supports those things. 

If someone opened a shop and sold something you like and then you find out oh this guy is a nazi he’s giving his money to nazi groups and white supremacist groups- and then you keep giving him money?? you’re still handing a nazi money???

You are  literally standing there giving money to a nazi saying ‘but i don’t support his actions’

What happened to ‘You’re allowed to judge someone’s views based on where they put their money’ ? Because the second that applied to you, you played it off and started making excuses

come the FUCK at me, potterheads i want to know what your bullshit excuses are because i can combat every single one:

You’re giving money and attention to someone who wants kids to die and has the power to do so because of the money you give her.

[punkscowardschampions]

Buster & Rio

Buster: You're so distractingly beautiful right now Buster: Stop Rio: You're one to talk Rio: Indecent Buster: Come here Buster: I'll show you indecent Rio: I won't wanna leave if I do Rio: Gotta be good first Buster: You don't have to leave Buster: Ever Rio: No but we have to be social and I won't wanna do that if I get any closer to you 'cos I'll just wanna kiss you Rio: Amongst other things Buster: So kiss me Buster: They'll all still be here Rio: Now who's distracting who, boy? 😏 Buster: You started it Rio: And you're tryna finish it Buster: Yeah Buster: You know if I have to come to you I'll distract you even more, don't do it to yourself, babe Rio: Really? Rio: Guess I better had then Rio: Can't have you making a scene 😉 Buster: See, isn't this better Buster: Just stay Rio: I missed you Buster: I know Buster: I missed you too, baby Rio: Even though it's not really that long since we got here and I've been watching you more than I should when people are talking to me Rio: I still missed you Buster: It's okay, I've been the exact same Buster: At this point they expect it of us anyway so we might as well enjoy it Rio: Hate to disappoint, right baby? Buster: You know it Buster: But more than that, I hate that you're scared right now Buster: Let me calm you down, yeah? Rio: It's just Rio: such an awkward thing to have to call people's attention too, like; 'hey, guess what we've been doing, try not to be grossed out and instead happy' Buster: I'm gonna hold you and kiss you until all your nerves go away though Buster: You know I won't stop until you feel confident enough to do anything Rio: I don't think it's happening, babe Rio: but your efforts will be appreciated still Buster: Let's see Buster: Isn't that helping? Rio: Buster Buster: I think you're forgetting about them, already Rio: I think that them overhearing me talking about putting ANOTHER baby inside me isn't the ideal way to do this Buster: There she is Buster: Welcome back Rio: You're silly Rio: but so fucking cute Buster: I can't help but disagree, I'm sorry, I REALLY don't wanna fight but I reckon what you just said is the perfect way to do this Buster: So Buster: [Keeps kissing her and generally being highkey cos he's that bitch] Rio: Oh Rio: That's a plan then, yeah? 'cos I'm fine with getting out of doing this and just getting to be with you instead so Buster: It's just a really fucking good plan Rio: Everyone knows anyway, they're just waiting for me to confirm it to avoid the faux pas of accidentally fat shaming me, like Buster: Don't Buster: You've never looked better Rio: I can feel you think so Buster: I can feel that you're still stressing about them Buster: The only reason your heart should be beating fast is 'cause of me Buster: I need to be more distracting, obviously Rio: Baby Rio: Fuck it, make me feel better, this is stupid Buster: [is being very distracting, sorry everyone] Buster: That's better isn't it? Rio: You're not gonna stop 'til I say it is but maybe I don't want you to Buster: Only maybe? Buster: There's my answer Buster: I can't stop until you definitely don't want me to Rio: Well that's just mean Buster: Nah, it'll be really nice for both of us when you encourage me to carry on Rio: You don't need no encouragement today Rio: You need this bad, don't you? Buster: Do you actually need me to answer that? Buster: Don't you know? Rio: Oh I know Rio: but it's fun to tease you Buster: Baby Buster: It'd be more fun not to, and not just for me Rio: Go on Rio: I'm listening Buster: Well, you know how Indie interrupted us when she came home this morning, let's do everything now that we would have done then if she hadn't Buster: Everything we'd started to do Buster: That'd been fun, yeah? Rio: Poor child Rio: She's seen and heard way too much Rio: not saying it wouldn't, though Buster: And I'm saying I'm down to see how far we get this time before someone else interrupts us Buster: If you are Rio: Of course I am Rio: Have you forgot who I am? Buster: Just making sure you haven't Buster: I lost you for a while back there Rio: Never Rio: I'm still here Buster: Prove it Rio: If I wasn't here could I do Rio: that Buster: Okay, maybe you're not entirely gone Rio: You don't sound very convinced Buster: Well, you better convince me then Rio: Why you paying hard to get? 😠 Rio: You know I could have you close to cumming and whimpering in 5 Buster: Do it then Buster: I'm here waiting Rio: Is that any way to ask Rio: Manners, baby Buster: [Asks nicely with actions cos he's in that kind of mood apparently] Rio: Jesus Rio: you're not in a talking mood either, see Buster: Like I said, you started it Buster: Looking like that Rio: Please Buster: Please what, baby? Rio: I'm hardly bringing my A game for Skerries, like Buster: Bullshit are you not Buster: You look so good Rio: Are you sure you're not just nervous too? Buster: What have I got to be nervous about? Buster: Fuck that Buster: Besides, you 100000% brought your A game last time we were here Buster: Don't pretend you've forgotten Rio: Well had to didn't I Rio: out here flirting with sea bitches Buster: Oh, so what, you're saying you don't have to now? Buster: Rude Rio: You better not be tryna show me I'm irreplaceable now, boy Rio: stay sat where you are, don't be getting in that water, like Buster: I wasn't trying to show you that day either Buster: She came at me Rio: Yeah yeah 😏 Rio: we're not having this argument again nearly a year later, like Buster: We don't need to 'cause you were there, you saw for yourself Rio: I can't believe how much has happened since then Buster: It's so weird Buster: That literally feels so long ago Rio: I know but it isn't even Rio: I see what everyone means by fast Rio: like, not sorry still but Buster: Yeah Rio: Do you ever miss before? Buster: Like when it was a secret? Rio: Yeah but I meant like, before any of it, us Rio: you seemed like you was thinking about it, that's all Buster: What? No Rio: It'd be alright if you did Rio: you were living such a different life just over a year ago, like Rio: I was too Buster: What the fuck is, I seemed like I was thinking about it, meant to mean? Rio: I literally didn't mean anything negative by it, you just said yeah in response so I assumed you were thinking about it Rio: I should've phrased it better Buster: Alright Buster: Whatever Rio: Don't get in a mood Buster: I ain't Rio: Why are you barely talking to me then? Buster: Do you want me to write you an essay or what, like? Rio: No, it's fine Rio: leave you to it Buster: Jesus Buster: Why do you wanna talk so badly, there's gonna be enough of that as soon as everyone finds out Rio: Why do I wanna talk to you, really? Rio: Yeah how crazy Buster: Stop Buster: You know what I mean Rio: Not really but whatever, yeah Buster: Now you're just trying to wind me up Buster: Don't start Rio: I ain't and I ain't Rio: I'm gonna go talk to someone else Buster: Fine Rio: Just let me know when you want to do this, we should whilst everyone is here Buster: We can do it now if you want Rio: That'd come across well, you're angry and we're not speaking, like Buster: I already told you, I ain't Buster: Don't use my imaginary mood as an excuse, like Buster: And we're only not speaking 'cause you'd rather chat to someone else Rio: For God's sake Rio: You snapped my head off for wanting to talk so no, it ain't me Buster: It's alright for you, you've only told Indie Buster: I'm talked out about this and we ain't even started Buster: Cut me some fucking slack, yeah? Christ Rio: Fine, we're not doing this then Rio: if even you can't muster the enthusiasm then what hope does any other fucker stand Buster: Don't talk to me like that Buster: It's not about enthusiasm Rio: Well neither of us want to whatever it's about so let's just fucking not Buster: That's not really an option, is it? Buster: There's too many of them to go round individually Rio: I don't care Rio: I'm not doing it like this Buster: Fuck's sake Buster: Then don't Buster: But we might as well just go home Rio: You go if you want Buster: I'm not leaving you here Buster: Don't be stupid Rio: I'm not stupid Buster: I didn't say you are, but you're acting like it if you think I'm just gonna fuck off home without you Rio: There's plenty of people I can get a lift with it's not like I'll be stranded Buster: Not the point Rio: Well I don't want to go Buster: Do what you want Rio: I am Rio: You too Buster: Whatever Buster: Later then Rio: This is fucking ridiculous Buster: Tell me something I don't know Rio: Then do something about it Rio: what do you want to do Buster: What do you want, Rio? Rio: Just talk to me Buster: We are talking Buster: So what do you want me to say 'cause clearly its not good enough Rio: Why are you being like this Rio: What did I say Buster: It's not you Buster: I just Rio: I know Rio: but are you just nervous and tired of having to prove that this is the right thing too or is it more than that Buster: Don't say that Buster: It's bad enough that everyone else thinks I'm gonna wake up one day and realise I've made a mistake Buster: I can't be second guessed by you too, not now Rio: I didn't mean that Rio: Babe Rio: I just want to know what's going on in your head right now Buster: You think that I've rushed this and I want my old life back Buster: Nance thinks I have too and my parents think I'll want my old life back when its too late or some shit Buster: Why can't anyone just believe me and be happy for me? Rio: I don't Rio: I was just trying to talk out some anxieties Buster: Well fuck this Buster: This isn't who I am, I do what I want and I don't care what anyone thinks Rio: Well sorry I do care Rio: I can't switch it off Buster: I'm not asking you to Buster: I'm saying, let's just do this Rio: Yes you are because you know I'm scared Rio: I get to be scared Buster: I'm scared Buster: And I don't wanna be Buster: Why do they get to do that to us? Rio: I don't know Rio: It's a big deal Rio: we should be scared, right Rio: probably Buster: We should be happy Buster: I am Buster: They don't get to tell us how we should feel Rio: You can be both Rio: it's okay Buster: No, 'cause I wasn't scared until my family fucking started with their bullshit Buster: They aren't even my fears Rio: It's fucked Rio: I wish I could tell you we can just ignore what everyone thinks but Rio: it'd be bullshit Buster: But that's what I'm saying, we can do anything Buster: I'm not carrying their fucking baggage 'cause they think I should Buster: We do what we want, what's best for us Rio: I want to Rio: but how Buster: If you wanna tell everyone now, like this, we will Buster: And if you don't, we'll find another way Rio: I don't know now Rio: I wish they just knew Buster: I can tell them on my own Buster: You don't have to Buster: Or we can just put it online like we did with the wedding Rio: That's not fair Rio: like you said, who have I told Buster: All I care about is you Buster: I'm serious, I'm over worrying everyone else's opinion Buster: So I'll do it Rio: I don't want you to do it alone Rio: I can do it Buster: And I don't want you to stressed out by this Buster: I know I haven't helped Buster: So let me now Rio: Baby Rio: I'm sorry Buster: No, I'm sorry Buster: Go, I'll tell you when to come back Rio: I don't want to seem ashamed though Rio: I'm not Buster: You won't Buster: I'll make sure they know Buster: It's for the baby, not them Buster: It's not good for him either if you feel like this Rio: Buster Rio: are you sure? Buster: Take Indie, she don't need to hear this again. Walk the dog or something Buster: Just breathe, you know Buster: It's alright Rio: It doesn't feel it Rio: Just come talk to me in person, just us for five minutes Rio: I'll feel better then Buster: I promise you, I'll make it better Buster: But of course, anything else you want too Rio: We're a team Rio: I just need you Buster: You've got me Buster: Come on, let's go Rio: Okay Rio: I love you Buster: I love you Buster: So fucking much Rio: You know I know you want this Rio: right Buster: I know you know everything that I want and don't want Buster: Don't worry Buster: You understand me even when I don't Buster: You just get me Rio: I'm just so scared about this right now that it makes me scared about everything else, even shit that I know really isn't true or real Rio: like the idea that I've rushed you somehow like they think, but like you said, that's their shit, not ours Buster: I know, baby. Honestly, I'm not just saying that to shut you up or anything Buster: We're fine Buster: I'm not mad at you, I never was and you don't need to be scared about any of the bullshit they've said Buster: I'm exactly where I wanna be Rio: Good Rio: Me too Rio: I just want to be as happy as we are when it's just us Buster: Come here Buster: Nobody else needs to exist right now Buster: I'm gonna hold you and you're just gonna breathe, okay Rio: That sounds perfect Rio: and all I need Buster: We can stay like this for as long as you need Rio: Carry me from person to person babe Rio: I'm sorry I can only talk like this, bye Buster: You think you're joking but I could Buster: I would Rio: You're strong and I ain't that big yet Rio: people should come to me though, like, come on Rio: 👑 Buster: You know I'll carry you anywhere Buster: The sea, to get a drink, wherever you want Buster: I can make everyone else come to you too, I'm that dramatic, I'll easily make a scene Rio: You're so cute Rio: What's your plan for a scene then? Buster: I could whistle Buster: It works on the dog Rio: Kicking it old hollywood Rio: hot Buster: With a name like this I've basically gotta Rio: Do you do your own stunts too, babe? Buster: Obviously Buster: Can't you tell? 💪 Rio: 😂 Rio: Dork but no denying it shows Buster: You love it Buster: And me Rio: I do Rio: you're soft and warm and you smell nice Buster: Well, you're softer and warmer and you smell even nicer so Rio: Let's keep snuggling then Buster: I'm not gonna say no Buster: I've missed you Rio: I missed you too Buster: How do you feel now? Buster: Tell me honestly Rio: Actually better Rio: I feel safe Buster: You are Buster: I'm never gonna let anything happen to you Rio: or the boy Buster: How is he? Rio: He's happy Rio: he's safe in the middle Buster: Good Rio: He says he wants an icecream Buster: Let's go then Buster: Unless you don't wanna be carried there and you're just all talk, like Rio: Giddy up, babe Rio: I'm a 👑 and so serious Buster: You're so hot Buster: Is what you are Rio: You like that? Buster: I do Rio: Interesting Rio: I'll remember that Buster: You're a nerd Buster: I love you Rio: Erm, I am not, I'm so hot Rio: I love you but keep up Buster: You're a hot nerd Rio: I'll miss our study sessions Rio: Bring on October Buster: It's okay I've got reading to do before I get there Buster: You can help Rio: Yeah I can Rio: you better not have hired a new secretary already Buster: Not while you still want the job, babe Rio: I do Rio: and Imma vet my replacement thank you Buster: You're irreplaceable, you know that Rio: At least all the long distance has my typing speed up Buster: You're welcome Rio: You're welcome, boy, who really benefits here? 😏 Buster: I'm benefiting from a lot right now Buster: It's hard to focus on anything but the visual of you eating that ice cream though Buster: Jesus Rio: 😋 Rio: You wanna lick? Rio: It's good Buster: Yeah Buster: I really want it Rio: Put your tongue out then Buster: [Does] Give me it then Rio: Good boy Rio: Sweet, yeah? Buster: Very Rio: Now I see why that distracts you Buster: Don't let it melt Buster: You'll get proper messy Rio: It's just so hot today Buster: I feel that Rio: Put your hands a little lower babe and you can feel exactly how hot Buster: Oh Rio: I know Rio: You feel my struggle Buster: I know that I'll do anything to make you feel better Buster: Thoughts? Rio: Hmm Rio: I think you should get a can from the cooler Rio: roll it all over my body Buster: Hold on, I'll fight the rest of them away Rio: So brave, baby 😜 Buster: 'Course Buster: Just like my boy Rio: He's just like his daddy, that's for sure Buster: But most like you Rio: You think? Buster: Yeah Buster: I know Rio: You been having father son talks? Buster: I've gotta do something to keep him behaving while you're asleep Rio: Now I'm melting, like, never mind this ice cream Rio: you're the best dad Buster: We'll see if you still reckon that when he's actually here Rio joined the chat 53 minutes ago Rio: I know it so Rio: nothing's gonna change Rio: unless you do and become a whole different person Buster: Been there, done that Buster: I don't do repeats, do I, so? Rio: Thanks for making an exception, like Buster: Cheers for being worth it, like Rio: 😊 Shh Buster: Make me Rio: I intend to Buster: Yeah? Rio: Yep Rio: Not yet though, 'cos missed talking to you Buster: I'm not mad Buster: The sea looks fucking cold, I don't intend to have to get in and cool off Rio: Might work for you but when I see you all dripping wet Rio: Nah, game over, soz not soz everyone Buster: You better behave then Buster: So I can Rio: 😒 Hmpf Rio: Imma need some incentive for that Buster: Be good now and you don't have to later Rio: Okay okay Rio: I promise 😇 Buster: I believe you Rio: I can neither confirm nor deny if that's a mistake Buster: Either way, it's not Rio: I love you Rio: I'm happy again Buster: Good Buster: Me too Rio: I'm gonna go do it Rio: Most of my sisters are sat together right now, I'll go talk to them Buster: Are you sure? Rio: Yeah, I'm sure Rio: I just wanna do it as naturally as possible Buster: Yeah Buster: Okay Rio: That's okay, yeah? Rio: I'm just feeling now or never Buster: Agreed Buster: Like you said before, we should do this while everyone's still here Rio: Yeah, gimme a kiss for luck though Buster: Always Buster: You don't need luck, but you're gonna want this Rio: I love you Buster: I love you too