#i can still read/understand french pretty well but using it myself is so hard 😭

[lesbienneanarchiste]

Still trying to avoid the library but a) goals are not laws so who gives a shit, b) kids books shouldn't count, and c) these are from my teeny tiny local library that we want to patronize so they stay open so basically I'm helping the community by looking at pretty pictures of planets, plants, and prepositions.

[cosmojjong]

Hi didi! You mentioned German being a hard language, and we all know for a fact you speak English and Korean. How many languages do you speak?? And which one is your favorite?

hi! this is both an interesting and tricky question because growing up i learned different languages but i don't know what my level in each one is atm. i can only speak for english (c1) and korean (topik II). last time i had an exam in french my level was a b2, don't think it changed much but who knows!

it may actually sound impossible but i can fluently speak italian, korean, english and french. as in, i can hold conversations and i can go beyond a textbook-like kind of approach, if it makes sense?

i also studied german for 7 years (still studying it, the literature though)... do i understand german? yeah. do i speak it? eh. i don't know. 😭 i'm probably underestimating myself here, because a university teacher and i practiced a few days ago and he said i am not as rusty as i say, but i still wish i could be better at it, since i'm back into linguistics and need it to pass/graduate. german, in general, technically shouldn't be as easy if you don't speak a language of the same language family. funnily enough i speak english (not my mother tongue) and i still sound pretty insecure in german 😭 i always have had a love-hate relationship with it because it doesn't sound so pretty, but i admire those who speak it well. it is not boring, just hard and not the most approachable 😅

i think i can also hold conversations in spanish but i'm shy and it's probably not as fluent? i used to speak it a lot when i was a child, whenever my aunt and cousins from mexico visited. some time ago someone asked me to take pics of them in spanish and they said thank you, i froze for a moment before replying it was no worries lmao

bonus is that when i was in high school, there was this friend i had that taught me some portuguese, but it has been many years so now i only remember like... oi, boa noite, obrigado/obrigada (you know, the super common words)!

my favorite language has to be korean! i think there are different reasons why i'm choosing it. growing up my parents always directed me to languages and it felt pretty strict and challenging (also because tbh that was never my forte, i learned them because i had to) but learning korean was a personal choice. i started learning it on my own and seeing the progress has always been so satisfying. i don't know what it is but there are some things i just get, maybe it's all the past studying of grammar! i find that it is beautiful and that there are many layers and interesting things to find out and learn about it ;-;

i am so sorry for making this so long and i may even be forgetting something! 😭 when my family talk to me about languages i feel so meh because that's what they always expected from me when music was always my only interest, but at the end of the day i can't deny that languages are a great source and they've enabled me to widen the horizons of my mind and discover the world around me more. i hope this wasn't too boring to read and feel free to ask me anything anytime <3

[sybilmarlowe]

I've always been addicted to fandoms, I use to follow a lot of series and it's very easy to me to grow fond of certain characters. The peculiar thing is, the characters I like the most are usually the ones who have something in common with me (might sound pretty vain, I know, but I'm ENTJ, I don't do it on purpose 😅)

So, my fav characters are figures I relate to. I've already came up with some who were so close to my personality that I was like "ehy, who's f***ing spying me?!"

Well, as you can assume by my fandom-themed profile, I recently started watching Peaky Blinders (I arrived shamefully late) and... What if I say I never saw the worst sides of my personality represented as well as in the character of Thomas Shelby?

Alright, I'm pretty different irl, I'm mostly cheerful and talkative, I'm not the head of any criminal organization (yet), I'm not even that manipulative and I prefer Scotch whisky.

But for the rest... I seriously had to stop the show in many points because seeing some scenes was actually too much. Especially when it came to see the worst parts of Tom's personality, I actually felt awkward watching at something I'd do irl but from an outside critical pov.

First of all, I totally understand that obsession for control, especially after having been through a really hard time. Not going to bother you with my personal story, but I actually lived a bad situation years ago and when it finished I literally told myself "alright, now I'm taking everything under my control, nothing will ever be able to break me again". So that's it, I want/need to have most of things in hand to feel secure.

Feelings? Total control on them too. It's impressivly possibile to put rationality over emotions sometimes. But possible doesn't mean functional. And although it's easy for me to appear calm and balanced to strangers, people next to me will always notice my real state, even more than myself sometimes...

And another thing: I NEED to give a f***ing SENSE to anything I do, I live from purpose to purpose, in the middle there's reaching for the following purpose 😅

Some other examples....

That scene in which Tommy shouted at Arthur for not being able to overcome thing "as he did". That's me, trying to help with logic and not always understanding why others can't do as I do (that was actually unpleasant to watch cause I literally hate that aspect of mine... 😭).

"I can be scared but still carry on": my lifestyle.

I'm rational as f***k but I take spiritual things hella seriously (oh, I read Tarots ✨).

Tough time? Disappear into the woods 😂

....or work to the point I don't have strength to stand anymore, not to allow my mind to "start talking about myself with myrself"

Of course, I hate myself but I have a high consideration of my potential 👌(this thing has never had sense to me tbh 😳 like, how can you be extremely confident and have a low consideration of yourself at the same time?? Well, Thomas Shelby was created to solve my existential doubts, apparently)

Ah, I found the way to calm down my messy way of living, when I met a person who was able to make me feel in the right place... But things went all wrong ☀ (fortunately nobody died hahaha) and here we are again ✨🍷

My greatest fear? STAGNATION. I could actually die from non-action 😱

The fact I speak French and I love reading poetry doesn't count, I guess, just funny 😂

And tbh I could go on, but I think I've already wrote enough. I knows this look like a f***ing teenage journal page (I should add 20s aesthetic stickers here and there, eh?) but I wanted to tell this story 😂

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I actually think Tommy's character is highly realistic, that's what impresses me the most. His reactions, his way of facing things, his vulnerabilities and bad and good sides, they actually did a stunning job in making a non-existing man so credible. And from some point of view... It has been extremely useful to me. Sounds trivial, but it's easier to understand you more and find on which aspects of yours you should work on when you see someone who's similar to you represented.

Now. I'm 28 going for 29 now, if Peaky Blinders taught me something, I'm in the right age to start my climbing for becoming a goddess (and won't promise I'm not trying 😏)🍷 in the meantime, I'll just use my little free time to work on fanarts 😂 next one will be Polly ❤ so keep following, I swear I'm not writing any other stupid thing like this 😂