#i can stay away for at least 1 more year 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[sleepintro]

oh god everything is going So Wrong in my family this is going to blow up so bad

[sociomoony]

Yo bbg gorl you should totally write some head cannons abt ur top 3 favorite jjk characters.

Also would you be opposed to writing silly little things abt it Ocs if you have any currently. (Feed me wife pls I am starving of ur presence and writing 😫

-Love, your FAVORITE wife 🥰😘

Top 3 favorites head cannons? I can sure try 😭🙏 (and absolutely, I'll have something out about Ocs if that's what you wish!!!) I love you my beautiful wife 🫶

Headcannons- General + Romantics (I am a fanfic wrighter, watchu want from me 😞)

Includes - Megumi, Noritoshi, Takuma

Headcannons!!!

(1) Megumi Fushiguro

•Now we love our little urchin haired boy!! And to be completely honest, his classmates have to had mentioned that at least once to him. I mean it's just so- fitting 😭 spikey on the outside, vulnerable on the inside! For a while, Megumi hated it, but started to think it might actually make him sound cool considering how painful urchins could be (that didn't last long at all)

•Has 100% called Gojo 'Dad' in school before. He has never been able to live it down from Gojo, but after Gojo's end, Megumi started referring to him as dad a little more freely to Yuji and Nobara when mentioning him.

•The bag carrier anytime the friend group goes out. This is more fact than head cannons but I find it funny. Yuji will start out as the carrier, but of course something will catch his eye. He'll give Megumi the bags to hold, and then never grab them again, and Meg's just goes along with it because why not. Not that big of a deal

•Has the little note Gojo wrote him kept tucked away in his wallet at all times. Over time it got older and more frail, so he framed it. It sits on a table at his bedside now.

•Megumi hates to ever admit to anyone, but he deeply misses Gojo, and it's clear as day, he just hates admitting it. He has openly cried ONCE to Yuji about him, and couldn't stop for hours.

---Romantics--~

•Megumi used to hate physical affection, but now when he gets it he sinks into it. It doesn't even have to be romantic actually, if Yuji hugs him, he'll protest, and then just melt.

•Is very cautious of who he's with. You can't blame him, most people that were supposed to be important to him have left or disappeared and randomly came back. He was upset at Yuji for it, and he doesn't make exceptions. It will take months, maybe even years of knowing him before he let's you in, and he won't be quick about it.

•The type of guy to take you out every morning for something to eat. He doesn't have much value for money besides his essentials, for he fears he won't be around long, especially after what happened. Why would he spend money on things he likes when they could go to waste one day?... Don't tell him he's being hypocritcal when he's insisting on you both going somewhere you've been gushing about, but he won't just buy the game he's been talking about for weeks.

•Not big on sweets, but he eats them around you. He's more wary about being different or not exactly ideal, so on your first few go- rounds, he tries eating the sweetest things... Sugar cookie cake pops, red velvet cookies, chocolate moose cake... But when you hear from a passing conversation from him and Yuji of how he doesn't like sweets because they hurt his teeth, you're quick to ask him about it. He tries to ignore it and change the topic, but your firm on it since it truly isn't a big deal. The small detail turns into him breaking down about wanting to be good for you, especially since his flaws chalk him down to being difficult to deal with. Your confused on why such a small thing would make him this upset, but to him it was more than that... He just wanted to be normal for you, not a Jujutsu sorcerer, not a fatherless guy with raging daddy issues, he just wanted to be good for you..

•Comfort goes both ways. If you're in the slightest bit of distress, he's not so quick to tell you to suck it up like he might his friends. Why would he? You're someone who stays with him because you love him, not tolerate, and believe me when I say he'd go lengths to make you feel better. But most of the time you both settle for laying down in one of your rooms and just talking or sleeping for a few hours. When it comes to him, it's almost the exact same thing. It's a routine you both do, with blankets and warm, comforting words or silly stories to ease or distract, and honestly that's enough for both of you.

(2) Noritoshi Kamo

•You guys I'm so normal about this man I swear

•Got made fun of when he first arrived at the sister school. He was awkward and quiet, and anytime he spoke he had that attitude to him that made you double take.

•has thought about cutting his hair multiple times just to try different styles. He tried when he was younger to make a Mohawk, and got majorly chewed out for it.

•Refuses to partake in the few times parents ever came up in conversation. He had grown more accustomed to the others, and became more open to them, but when it came to talking about family he shut down. Todo has tried to speak with him about it, but it just pissed Nori off and ended in him calling Todo nothing but a mindless hunk of meat. The two don't talk much anymore.

•He will be the first to call Miwa useless. He finds her skills pathetic in the real world and doesn't care for her 'theatrics'...

•When Mechamaru died, Noritoshi sat with the same Miwa he hated, called useless, and held her as she cried for hours. He stopped calling her useless, especially after her sacrifice during Shibuya. She became his closest friend in a small amount of time, and she was the first to openly know about his mother.

•A little more random, but I feel like Noritoshi would be the type to listen to She Wants Revenge and Sleep Token

---Romantics--~

•Has used his blood manipulation to form small items like a heart and such for his partner on multiple occasions, even if it hurts him a little in the long run.

•insists on teaching you how to use a bow like him. He gets a little pissy when you continuously get it wrong, but he's quick to realize it himself and correct it to a silly sassy attitude. He apologizes after, even if you didn't see anything of it.

•He dates to marry, especially with rules from his clan. If you come into his life, you'll be damn sure to not leave without a hell of a fight.

•with a female partner, he tries his best to help you with your period. He's been told blood manipulation can help, but he's a little clumsy with it since he wasn't exactly taught about woman's reproductive things. He treats you like royalty when your time comes, though. For his beloved to be hurting to the point she can't get out of bed? Treason would be his deciding fate if he could for what hurts you, but he settles for treating you rather than hating your reproductive organs. He gives you the essentials, chocolate, snacks, medicine, etc, but he doesn't stay with you much unless you need him there. He takes it as more time to train without being worryful if he gets too aggressive with you watching.

•He doesn't like you seeing him angry. He's naturally a calm man, but the few times he's gone overboard, he fears for what you think of him, fears that you might be scared of him..

•His music taste is interesting.. But one of his main love languages would definitely be you listening to his music choices if that was an option. It's actually acts of service, but he gets just as giddy whenever you listen to things with him. Whether it be while he's training you both listen with an earbud, or laying in bed and letting it play on the speakers while you both make out or do something to pass the time.

(3) Ino Takuma

•Nanami's death hit him hard. He didn't know right away, and had to be told by someone. I think that's what hurt worse, is that he wasn't there.. He couldn't help him, couldn't try to save him. He could have showed Nanmi his teaching worked, that he was a good teacher, but he wasn't there. He beats himself up for it a lot, but you best bet he got first grabs on Nanami's things. He wears his watch, used his weapon, he held onto those things like they were too fragile to be touched by another.

•when the situation happened with Toji, he quite literally cried like a baby when he got back, because first, ow, and second, he got beat so quickly, he feared Nanami would think even less of him.

•To be fair, I feel like he saw Nanami as the closest thing to a father figure he'd ever get. He has RAGING daddy issues, and it shows.

•Hasnt washed that mask/beanie in YEARS. Anytime someone steals it or tries to wear it, because he can even argue to give it back, they are shoving it against his chest, coughing like they just opened a century old book.

•Typical skater punk like dude. He has tried to act the part, but in reality if you made a fart joke he's loose his mind in laughter.

•Speaking of that, he has the WORST sense of humor. He unironically quotes Skibidi toilet things or some weird song he heard on tiktok that you can only deter to be the most brain rotting things ever. He's a fucking lunatic for things like that, and will laugh his ass off if he sees or hears it.

•Listens to music on a constant, no matter the condition (unless it's fighting, he doesn't want to loose his precious earbuds) but with training, walking on the streets, making food, anything, he's listening to music. His taste is actually pretty decent

---Romantics--~

(A little bit of NSFW since this man is of age)

•Hes CLINGY. If you go anywhere, he's very quick to follow. You walk into a room? Everyone knows Takuma will be a few steps behind. You're idly talking to someone? His arms are around your midsection with his chin on your shoulder. Walking the streets? He's beside you holding your hand or with an arm around your shoulder.

•Lends you any sweatshirt you want. He has too many, but you can't just get away with it that easily. He will request something back. You jokingly gave him a crop top back once, and he wore it around with style. You know that trend of girls giving their boyfriends makeup only to find out they look better than them? That was basically what Takuma was serving.

•I'm pretty sure we've all agreed Takuma would worship the grounds you walk on. He's deadly respectful, not just to you, but most anyone. Elderly, young, you name it. He will put you on a podium above the rest, he will carry you when your feet hurt, he'll open any door for you, he'll fix your heels for you, all of that. He'd let you step on him if it makes you feel good, as long as your happy, he's happy. However, it's gotten to the point you've had to tell him willingly letting someone do the things he says you can do isn't okay. When you get upset, he offers to be who you take it out on, and you've had to tell him over and over again that you would never lay a hand on him, and that letting people so that isn't okay. He doesn't understand it in all honesty, but he does understand your point when you ask what would happen if the roles were reversed.

•His clinginess is quick to turn into horniness. Let's say he's out talking with Nanami while you sit next to him. His hands on your thigh, and your getting tired of him and Nanami speaking, so you pull his hand to touch lower. He's quick to start stuttering and getting all flushed in the face. He grips exactly where your hand puts him, tightly holding as you jump and hold his arm. Tease for tease, and you best believe when you get home, he'll have a he'll of a fun time with you.

•His relationship with Nanami has gotten in the way of your relationship before. You've had to tell him multiple times that he can't just blow everything off immediately when Nanami asks something of him. He's had to cancel multiple important date nights or other events simply because Nanami wanted to talk or have dinner with him. It's taken a couple fights for the both of you to come to an agreement on how much is too much, but the last thing he wants is for you to think he doesn't want to be with you, or that he cares for one over the other.

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okay so this is kinda my first headcanon, super duper scary but I hope I delivered what you liked ♡♡

- mwah, your writer ♥︎

[undead-potatoes]

Would you be able to tell me about your HoF? 🙏

OH BOY OKAY SO I haven't talked about my Warden in forever on here, and I don't think most people even know about her, despite her being like my nr 1 baby girl of all time

My Warden is a casteless dwarf named Nimri Brosca, and was the catalyst for both my dwarf obsession AND my love for height/size difference romances. Made a lot of self discoveries with that one lmao

(Couldn't find a good screenshot atm, and I don't wanna wait until I've made her in Veilguard, so here's some neat art by @/serenityfails-art)

Nim is a stoic little thing, with resting bitch face and the energy of a small, angry dog who'll bite your hand off unless you're her handler. She cares about exactly one thing, which is to keep those she loves safe and happy, and she'd let the world burn to ashes if it meant keeping Rica from harm.

She can be very cautious and calculating, a consequence of working under Beraht for years and knowing that any little mistake could have dire consequences, not only for her but for Rica too. Unfortunately she's also defiant and spiteful, which isn't the best combo with her goal of staying alive. Over the years she got pretty good at skirting the line, which got her into trouble more than once (and nearly got her killed if not for Duncan). Unstoppable force vs uuuh another unstoppable force.

After years of living in an abusive home, and with a sister who was busy just trying to keep everything afloat, Nimri quickly learned to be fiercely independent. If she needed something done, she would have to do it herself. This attitude follows her in everything, and she's kinda terrible at asking for help or depending on other people for anything.

So with being an aloof control freak and bit of a loner, it's probably no surprise it took her a while to open up to the other companions. In the beginning she stuck mostly to Alistair, who at the very least had earned her uneasy trust, and she didn't socialize much with the others. They had to really work at it to crack that shell, but most of them got there in the end.

Leliana's stories reminds her so much of the stories Rica would tell her to sleep at night, and their little "girl talks" are admittedly kinda fun. Morrigan's pragmatism and dry wit is something she can appreciate, finding a friend where she least expected it. Sten's stubbornness and strange ways infuriate her to no end, but she'd be lying if she said she didn't enjoy mentally sparring with him. And her out-of-left-field best friend Zevran, who may be the only one who truly understands her in ways no-one else can.

Then there's Alistair, the big, comforting, eager mabari to her small, angry dog. It takes her a hot minute to warm up to him, but they eventually fall into this easy friendship and she starts to relax around him. They sorta balance each other out, with her dogged pragmatism tempering some of his naivety and grounds him when his emotions run away with him, while his earnestness and goofy demeanor helps her open up and be just a little bit more vulnerable.

Nim absolutely loves and adores her mabari, Rabbit. I headcanon that the Warden actually got to hang out at Ostagar for a few days between the joining and the battle, and that Rabbit started following her around after he recovered from the taint, annoyingly enough. After doing her best to outrun and outsmart him for a few days she finally gave up, and discovered she quite liked having a dog. He never judges, never falters or betrays, loves her just as she is, and is always there whenever she needs him. Plus he won't give her shitty platitudes when she's crying her heart out while clinging to him like a lifeboat in a storm.

When she's not out fighting for her life she loves to draw and read, once she learns how. She's always had an interest in drawing, but never much chance to practice it, and she wouldn't have had access to many books even if she knew how to read. On the surface there's plenty of paper, both with and without words on them, finally giving her a chance to indulge in both.

Reading in particular starts taking up a large amount of her free time, after her companions so kindly teach her how. In the beginning she'd grab whatever she could, usually nabbed from the libraries at Redcliffe castle whenever they stayed there, but she eventually discovers her love of cheesy romance novels. They're so far from her own life, so idealized and alien, that they become the ultimate form of escapism for her. Though I do think it fries her brain a little bit when Alistair finally comes around with his own cheesy, romantic ways haha

Anyways I could probably go on for another 50 incoherent paragraphs here but I have to stop somewhere 🙈

TL:DR; she's an asocial little control freak who loves her sister, her two dogs, and all the books of the world

Okay quick trivia round before we call it a day:

She's s not picky and will eat almost anything, except fish (she hates the taste, the smell, the bones, the flaky texture, just awful)

Her favorite brand of romance novels are the really smutty ones, and Alistair can always tell when she's reading one because suddenly she's hornier than usual lmao

In line with my own Orzammar headcanons she has no shame around nudity, and doesn't get what the fuss is about (surfacers are such prudes)

She becomes a little obsessed with bread once she has some made with real grain on the surface. It goes well with her other favorite food, soup

She has a big scar on her right calf from a deepstalker encounter, which she discovers starts to ache when it rains (what the fuck???)

If you made it this far thank u and I love u and have a good day

[uncleasad]

For the fanfic director's cut ask game: ⭐

So…it’s taken me forever to get to this 😢 So sorry, and thanks so much for your patience, unsiredtribrid! 🙏

Without further ado, some Director’s Cut fun facts about Have at Least One Totally Epic Love!

(If you are someone who hasn’t read that fic yet and thinks you might want to…BEWARE, MAJOR SPOILERS below! Also TW for discussion of the COVID-19 pandemic.)

. . . . .

With that out of the way…

To quote Hope, “I’ll just start at the beginning.”

I wasn’t a huge The Vampire Diaries fan. I did see part of Season 4, most or all of Season 5, and all of Season 6, and then I stopped watching (though I came back for the finale). I was really intrigued by the family dynamics of the Mikaelsons, though, so I watched most of Season 1 and all of Season 2 of The Originals before growing weary of the constant infighting and betrayal. I never saw Season 3, but for some reason I started watching Season 4…and that’s the reason I’m here today, Summer Fontana as young Hope…she just blew me away. I came back for Season 5 despite Summer having been replaced by Danielle after the time jump, and she portrayed the travails of teen life and being supernatural and a Mikaelson so deftly. When I heard there was a spin-off featuring Hope, I was there for it.

By the end of the first hour, I had found a new reason to stay in Kaylee’s Josie, who was so complex, so very much more than met the eye. By Hope and Josie’s second interaction, ‘The Poking in the Park’ as I like to call it, their chemistry, their connection, their caring…all screamed at me, and I was a Hosie (although I did not know that was ‘a thing’ until I read an article at TV Line or one of those sites about the show after the end of the season, and it mentioned this popular ship fans had dubbed ‘Hosie’). And then the wish AU, and the crush confession, and…Hope and Josie were screaming to the whole world. Well.

I had found Landon Kirby, the townie server who had memorized the attractive girl’s milkshake order (and, honestly, we all would have done the same, right?), sweet. He seemed compassionate and provided a normalcy Hope needed in her life as The Hollow sought to overtake her once again. When Hope met up with him again in the beginning of Legacies, I thought, ‘Oh, it’s that nice boy again.’ Somewhere in that first hour, though, everything changed. He seemed shifty, he started lying to Hope, and then he stole the knife and got a bus full of innocents killed (ultimately neither were his fault, but…). And then Hope and Josie became kindred spirits, and it was all over for Mister Kirby. (The writers’ writing constantly insufferable behavior and repeating the same things over and over again effectively completely sabotaged his character, which, uh, didn’t help.)

Where was I? Ah, yes, so I’d realized I was not alone in liking Hope and Josie together. I’d been reading fanfic off and on for years, initially on random sites, later on FFN, and about that time AO3 won the Hugo, so I learned it existed 😂 Sometime in the fall of 2019/beginning of Season 2 I started reading Hosie fics on AO3. They were awesome, there were a bunch of incredible authors and super-nice folks (👋 @avengerskye), and despite the awkward turns of S2, we were all excited.

My first-ever thing you’d call a fanfic was an extremely awkward follow-up to War and Remembrance I wrote in middle school. I had sixth and seventh grade teachers who encouraged writing, and I wrote a ton…that fanfic, new installments of my long-running (since third grade) sci-fi series, lots of other stuff I can no longer remember. High school really beat the love of reading and writing out of me, and college and grad school drove it further into the ground and piled rubble on its grave. But it was slowly coming back, and Hosie, well, Hosie had me excited again.

In early 2020 😳 during the month-long break between 2x13 and 2x14, I came up with an idea for quick one-shot (famous last words, I would later learn) idea that would honor Hope and Landon’s connection from The Originals and then move on to Hope’s true epic love, Josie, that the series was shoving in our faces yet doggedly refusing to actually pursue. Hope had just chosen saving the twins over saving Landon! I remembered Hayley’s letter to Hope from S5 and went to look that up. And I started writing. Nearly a thousand words later, I’d written…a prologue 😂 But I published it, and people seemed to like it and left lovely comments, even though it was the first fiction I’d written in ages.

So I wrote the second chapter, which clocked in at 2200 words, still covering well-trodden ground, but introducing some Hosie elements into their pasts, including during 1x07 while Hope was trapped in The Necromancer’s mind and the twins were in Europe. And now my one-shot was going to be 3 or 4 chapters. Another 1600 words, officially picking up after the events of 2x13, and I had written the first 1½ scenes of what I was then envisioning as Chapter 3.

Chapter 4 clocked in at almost 4400 words, longer than the entire fic so far…and there was still one more scene from “Chapter 3” to come. Chapter 5, almost 2K words again. From my end note on the chapter:

Incidentally, this concludes where I envisioned the original chapter 2 (in the original 3-chapter conception of this story) ending. That also means this is the end of “past events” and everything going forward will be happening in the present, at least in theory.

😂

Incidentally, that was also the last chapter written and published before the country finally shut down 😢 We had seen one more episode of the show by then, 2x14, the first therapy box/noir-world 😍, where Hope had chosen the twins over Landon again. (And yet! 🤬)

Chapter 6 came next, on March 24, two days before what would become the season finale aired. (We’d seen the Sadistic Seventeen/The Merge episode the prior week.) There’s a line in the chapter’s beginning notes:

I heard on the radio Saturday evening that local-ish band REM’s “It’s the End of the World as We Know It (And I Feel Fine)” was back on the charts again 30-some years after it was originally released, and it felt like kismet while writing this chapter.

That moment is seared in my memory, oddly enough. I was down near the river, harvesting sand that had been deposited by the spring (late winter) floods. I had two 5-gallon contractor buckets full, and I wasn’t going to carry them both all the way back up the hill. So I brought the van down the path, and as I was loading the (quite heavy) buckets in the back, that bit of news came over the radio, followed by, I’m fairly certain, the song itself.

This section from the end notes for Chapter 6 pretty much says it all:

It’s become increasingly difficult for me to write the latter part of this story as things out there worsen; I think these rambling, no-action chapters are my subconscious way of trying to put off the impending battle (and the angst and hurt that will surround it) while the real world is hurting. But I don’t think I can interpolate any more chapters, so either the pain will come or this story will end up on hiatus.

While I had all of the rest of the story in mind at this point (except the epilogue, or parts of it), I think it will surprise no on that the fic did, in fact, go on hiatus. It’s hard to write a potential armageddon in the midst of a viral apocalypse.

In April, to try to get writing again, I started After Ten Long Years; by May, I was 15K words into it and trying to wrangle plot threads, but I had a short fluffy idea that became the first of my seasonal Tales from the Salvatore Kitchen series. By June I was stuck again, and I began writing another new fic, my Old West Hosie WIP.

In August, inspired by AdeleDazeem’s summery treat summer lovin' had me a blast (wait, no, that's just the leaf-blower) (add it to your reading list if you haven’t!), I’d written another Tales from the Salvatore Kitchen installment. By September, I’d gotten stuck on Old West Hosie and begun yet another fic, the Hosie Alternate Realities WIP. In November, another bit of fun in the kitchen—that little series of fluffy one-shots was cooking! 😩 [Bad puns also being a trademark of the Tales from the Salvatore Kitchen…]

At the beginning of February 2021, 10 months since I left off, I was back with the final lead-up to the climactic battle, aka Chapter 7. And then 10 days later, the final chapter! From Chapter 8’s notes:

A year ago(!) when I started writing this story, “Mad World” was showing up all over the place, even before the pandemic had hit the US; as I was plotting the end of the story, that seemed like a fitting lyric for this chapter. (If somehow you missed the quarantine acoustic version from the singer and his teenage daughter last April…go listen!) And, hey…I’ve managed to finish my story involving Malivore’s resurrection before canon got him resurrected…barely! Go, me! (Thanks, pandemic…but not really.)

(It really was wild how “Mad World” had shown up on several shows just before the pandemic exploded; the one I still remember is Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist.)

I’d had the idea to resurrect/reembody Malivore back in 2020, well before the show aired episodes hinting at that direction, so it was wild to see that we’d both had similar ideas!

This chapter was also my first experience with AO3’s lovely habit of not prompting you to update the publication date of a draft chapter before publishing, so it was published in the middle of page two or three of the Hosie tag, and I didn’t notice for two days! So, other than the subscribers, no one knew Chapter 8 existed 😂

But all was not lost! I had one sentence in my notes that I’d wanted to include in Chapter 8 but couldn’t make it fit, so it’s epilogue time! (It’s somewhere in that final paragraph, but I’d have to both find and attempt to decipher, after all these years, my notes to say for sure.) Josie and Hope as a folk duo! The Siphon & The Tribrid, later Persephone & Eurydice! With a song about Landon inspired by a classic Gordon Lightfoot tune! And some very special moments on the Seine to wrap it all up, two days shy of a year after the fic began.

(So, to recap: work title from a Hayley Marshall quote, plus chapter titles from an REM song/lyric, a Tears for Fears lyric, a Winston Churchill book title, a play on a Gabriel García Márquez book title, and another Hayley Marshall quote. And a fake song title that’s a play on a Gordon Lightfoot song title.)

Also to recap: a one-shot became a two-shot became…8 chapters and an epilogue! (Like The Cape, only better 😂) It has never failed that any fic I begin to publish serially before completing the writing always spawns at least one more chapter than I’d planned on writing 😂

If you’ve made it to this point, congratulations! You have far more patience than me, or a morbid curiosity about how my mind works 😂

A few more notes before wrapping up: this is also the only fic that’s first-person POV. I don’t know why it felt right when I began. (I think some of my early writing was first-person, but I think the bulk of it has always been third-person. And all of my subsequent fics are.)

If I everWhen I finally finish those first three WIPs I began during the writing hiatus on Have at Least One Totally Epic Love, it’ll be very odd, because my opinions of both Landon and Alaric have soured considerably since then, Landon as the frustratingly bone-headed writing of his character and his and Hope’s “relationship” persisted, despite all the potential for Hosie they also wrote into the series, and Alaric because, well…

This is the work that has the most hits, most subscriptions, and most bookmarks, and I doubt I’ll ever approach those levels again. (It also held most comment threads until this summer’s The One with Hope’s Wedding and most words until 2022’s And I Will Always Love You; most kudos has belonged since 2021 to You Couldn’t Even Bother To Check On Me?, which is second in just about every other stat.) It’s weird to seem like you peaked with your very first fic 😂 but such are the vagaries of fandom!

I’ve kinda wanted to tell the story of this fic for a while now, before the parts that aren’t documented in the chapter notes get lost to time, and it is so entwined with my becoming a Hosie and finding AO3, and this seemed like the perfect opportunity, so you got a very long, rambling Director’s Cut!

Thanks so much for the ask, my friend, and for your patience until I could find time and space for this to all gel in my head and then write it down 🙏 (I actually got to it faster than I did to Rika’s 😳😂 a little over a month 😂)

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

23 Jan u ary 2023 Monday 6:45 am pdt

incubus + company roasted my brain 🧠 today. I am on the verge of going crazy. Is this what a lobotomy feels like?

6:47 am pdt I draft auto saved I think 2013, my nephew was born. Mom and I visited. We stayed at an in laws house 🏠 while they were on vacation. I think I paid for most if not all of the trip with my savings. It was summer and extremely hot 🥵. East coast. (7:29 am pdt New York.) We grocery shopped and walked back to their place in the heat. I also starved my self to a very anorexic state and walked a lot in the heat to save money 💰. Also when I was at my sister’s place I was too shy to ask 4 food even though we had went shopping 🛒. For some reason I was afraid to take food from them, bcz I did not want for them to be with out food. I had bought skinny pants 👖 (blue jeans mossimo brand) that were fitted snugly when I arrived. When we left I had to use a belt to keep it up. The tsa agent at the airport said she had to put her hands 🙌 into my pants 👖 around the top to check me and I think she might have had a lot of room in pants 👖 to do it. When I stood in a dining area of the airport and let my mom have the chair 🪑 at the table, 2 people ran to me to give me a chair 🪑. For some reason they felt from only looking at me that I needed to sit. Thank you 🙏 for the kind gesture. I hope COVID didn’t touch you both. 7 am pdt

7:17 am pdt 17 mins went by fast. I suspect they did more torture to me and took the memory away. God really is sacrificing me. He doesn’t have the capacity to love ❤️ me. The first time he appeared in front of me he sneered (i had indirectly thought 💭 definition from context of beauty and the beast movie 🎥 I looked it up now. He was NOT smiling at all. He really looked at me with hatred and disgust 7:27 am pdt) at me as he crossed my path. Thanks 🙏 4 letting me know in person back then when I lived in blossom hill. 7:21 am pdt incubus.

He has 8 million people and a lot of female teens and younger women. Why would he need me? With his powers he can have them anytime anywhere. 7:22 am pdt my body is so VERY absurd. He is an artist 👩🏽‍🎨? 7:23 am pdt

7:49 am pdt in 2013 during that trip in New York I also had rashes/ bumps that took 1-2 years to go away/ heal. 7:50 am pdt 7:59 am pdt as a reminder, I had chronic eczema since I was 7/8 years old, please read previous posts, and the rash mentioned above was somehow different from eczema I had before. 8 am pdt they’re still doing stuff to hurt me it seems. 8:01 am pdt 8:02 I remembered this memory last year, midway I think? And they still punished me a lot afterwards. I anticipate this pattern to continue no matter what. 8:03 am pdt

8:42 am pdt Incubus and company roasted th top 🔝 of my brain 🧠😞😭😤🥵😤🥵 if you lose weight too quickly you can have a lot of loose skin. I saw a man (on tv 📺 8:50 am pdt) lose weight by eating 🍽 a giant bowl of greens and jogging 🏃‍♂️ miles? A day. He had surgery and probably donated the skin to burn 🔥 victims who needed skin replacement surgery. 8:46 am pdt I have a small head and probably a small brain 🧠. This is going to kill me. 8:47 am pdt

9:39 am pdt incubus and company eat my belly with acid. Then I reached 4 my drink/cup that I microwaved 2 mins a while ago this morning, and they put a weird #2 or raw meat🤢 taste to lips and tongue? Somehow I taste it b4 I can sip. When I did running sports in high school I remember there were socks advertising that it can be microwaved to kill bacteria and will deodorize it. 9:42 am pdt this microwave is stronger than the last microwave and at usually 2 mins it reaches a boiling point. 9:43 am pdt incubus thinks he can put one over on me even though he made me grow up with fear of stomach/digestive issues. I was essentially ocd about washing my hands since at least high school. I also had attention deficit too bcz I often lacked focus so much that I wasn’t sure if I locked the door and usually went back TWICE to check when I lived in blossom hill. 8:47 am pdt 😵😑🤗 I h*te you incubus imaginary/fake “husband.” 9:48 am pdt

I have more to write on this but I’m tired. 9:54 am pdt too much pain 😵😖😭😞

10:52 am pdt that hour went by and a lot of stuff happened incubus put a wide needle into bottom lip and pinched the inside I think. Probably extracted flesh. More probably acid burning back of brain 🧠 and there was probably more 🔥 burning in my skull 💀/brain. I’m not sure if it went by faster than I perceived it. 10:56 am pdt feels as if flesh was extracted from arm that is holding phone 📱 #3 pain 😖😭😞 Bella the cat 🐈 jumped high when she was on top 🔝 of my futon wooden couch 🛋🥺😞 and I think when she came down she hit her face. Later I recorded her outside. When I reviewed the video I noticed she was talking weird. I zoomed in and (brain flamed ! 🔥😖😭) I noticed her bottom teeth 🦷 were missing. If you’re a cat 🐈 owner you know that they do a lot of crazy things as if they’re possessed. Even a neighbor who had family visiting noticed this cat 🐈 was possessed and had no filter, and expressed it. 11:04 am pdt the demon lord incubus does a lot of not nice things 11:05 am pdt

1:38 pm pdt incubus and company want to claim that all the good parts of me are to their credit- that they made me do it? I think 🤔 that’s what they are trying to convey to me?? Although I’m not sure 🤔. Or was it something else? That I lied 🤥 about something? But they already altered a memory of mine so that’s the alarming 🚨 part. They will probably continue to do it until I cannot fully remember and a lie takes the place of the truth. 1:43 pm pdt I’m very much afraid 😱 to write ✍️ more Bcz they are doing a lot of petty little things that involve demonic possession. I had to clean up 🧽 a mess in the kitchen today bcz of it. 1:45 am pdt my aunt once almost ate all of my nuts from a relatively big container that was probably new when she started it. There was some left and I decided to try to trust the nuts and ate some and then I got diarrhea. I noticed a pattern back then that usually when someone sticks their hands 🙌 into the container and I try to eat it too, I usually get sick with diarrhea. 1:38 pm pdt incubus doesn’t care that I probably bought it, if he wants her to have it then I guess it’s hers. 1:49 pm pdt that was before we moved in together back at the end of 2014. 1:49 pm pdt

1:51 pm pdt please read the previous posts and see that I was nit picking on hand washing. 1:52 pm pdt now it don’t seem to matter anymore. Some people can do that and they are probably 100% okay. I’m only cursed. Thanks 🙏 incubus you’re a real pal. Not. 1:53 pm pdt

11:13 pm pdt I used to have an ass sexier than sumner stroh’s. 11:14 pm pdt incubus destroyed it.

24 Jan u ary 2023 Tuesday mar test 3:37 am pdt incubus has been roasting my middle and lower back on and off past 5 hours maybe after roasting my skull 💀 and probably flashing my brain 🧠🥺😖😞😖😭😵😵😵😵 I smell 👃 as if I’m cooked. I whimper and wail 😭 in pain. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ which organs are affected. 3:42 am pdt

Jesus body is bread 🥖 pan.pain. Then cut up 🆙 and made into a sandwich 🥪—>> sand + which/wich/witch earl—> early—>> sunrise 🌅. 3:45 am pdt I wonder 💭 if I’m early or late to the party of knowledge/knowing. 3:46 am pdt does anything really matter? Right or wrong, whos got the power? 3:47 am pdt

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If it's alright with you may I ask for Akito for the headcanon thing? Your hcs are SO fucking good 🙏🙏

I’ve almost collected all the Ootoris. Time to show some love to my favorite middle child.

1.) Fuyumi and Akito are twins, and refer to themselves as a “buy one get one free” deal since Yoshio very transparently wanted two sons and Fuyumi is just along for the ride.

2.) In school, Akito was the one who got in trouble most often. Or rather, he’s the one who stayed in trouble the most often.

3.) Akito was a complete stoner in high school, but he made good grades so very few people noticed and just assumed that was his personality.

4.) He’s harder on Kyoya than the others are because he remembers using things like “I’m going to study” and “I have club stuff” as code for doing something stupid and assumes all teenage boys think the same. He was a little terror, so clearly Kyoya must be the same.

5.) He can and will snitch on everyone except Fuyumi. It’s the Twin Code of Conduct.

6.) He has always looked up to Yuichi and spends most of his time trying to get his attention.

7.) Akito is queer, and when he was in late middle school he fell in love with the president of class 3-B. The two of them had a friendly rivalry as the presidents of their respective classes. This boy was the one who taught him how to bend the rules a little and how to use your reputation to get away with things. They “dated” until their third year of high school when Yoshio threatened to remove Akito from the line of succession and give his spot to Kyoya if he didn’t start taking the family image more seriously. Deciding that Class 3-B’s president was too much of a distraction, Akito called it off.

8.) Akito claims to be a tea person to seem more mature, but he usually chugs an energy drink before going into work since he developed a far-too-high caffeine tolerance in College for tea or coffee to wake him up anymore.

9.) Akito doesn’t want to get married, but feels he has to since Yuichi still isn’t married and is showing no signs of ever finding a wife.

10.) Akito has been described as the least charming Ootori, not even bothering to try wit most pleasantries. His demeanor is why Yoshio is pretty insistent on dividing his assets between two of his sons instead of giving the entire company to one. The idea is that Yuichi is pleasant but lacks a cutthroat nature, and Akito is vicious but can’t hold a decent conversation. He’s hoping they will balance each other out (assuming they both stay in his favor).

11.) Akito is great at braiding hair, since Fuyumi never trusted anyone else to do it.

12.) Akito and Fuyumi are the reasons why some of the teachers at Ouran saw Kyoya’s family name on the roster and immediately moved him to the front of the class.

13.) Akito feels a mix of pride and resentment when it comes to Kyoya that makes it hard for him to interact with him. On one hand, he’s really proud of Kyoya’s accomplishments (including the ones he shittalks) but on the other, he also resents how Kyoya has always been his fathers replacement for him if he screws up. It’s complicated.

14.) Akito organizes his favorite siblings into categories: the one he admires the most is Yuichi, the one he connects with the most is Fuyumi, and the one he worries about the most is Kyoya. And if any of them were to ask him who his favorite sibling was, he would answer that it was himself so he wouldn’t have to say “all of them”.

15.) Akito is a spreadsheet bitch. He makes spreadsheets for everything in his day to day life and spends chunks of time editing them.

16.) Akito is a very gifted soccer player, but doesn’t get many opportunities to play ever since he graduated school.

17.) Akito is the only sibling with any domestic skills, mostly because of his distrust in anyone organizing his stuff except for him since they don’t “do it right”.

18.) Akito has diagnosed autism, but Yoshio didn’t see it affecting his school work at all so he decided to leave well enough alone.

19.) Akito is very interested in science, but not in a “getting your hands dirty” kind of way. More in the academic, observed from afar kind of way. He likes knowing how things work.

20.) In the future, Akito is the one to suggest partnering with Kyoya’s business to Yuichi, almost like extending an olive branch after a pretty messed up childhood. He’s also really proud when Kyoya decides to decline the offer.

[mysticsparklewings]

I Got Tickets! (+ Time Lapse)

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I GOT TICKETS TO SEE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IN AUGUST!!! 🎉

And I was so distracted by that fact I decided the best outlet for all that energy was to make art instead of scrolling & clicking & waiting for something to happen! 😄

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So. Loyal Sparklers probably know by now that I am a huge My Chemical Romance fan. It should be fairly obvious by now since I seem to pop out at least one art piece inspired by them every 2 months or so. 😆 That includes this piece I made allll the way back in late 2019 when we were blessed with the news that MCR was, as the fandom had been so dearly hoping for, back after a six-year breakup. And the very tail end of the description for that art, I said then, "Now if MCR can just come within 1-2 hours of my location so I can actually go see them...please... 🙏🥺🤞" Sparklers. It's happening. It's really happening. This past week, on March 9th, MCR dropped a video on social media with a slew of new dates added to their tour, which in case you weren't already aware was announced in 2020 and subsequently postponed because...Well, that part you should know. Something-something stay home, wash your hands, etc. Anyway. I was just waking up when the video was posted, but I saw it right away since I have post notifications for MCR turned on everywhere I can, and it took several minutes of shocked, still slightly groggy blinking, heart-pounding, and replaying the video twice before I could be sure I wasn't imagining it: There, on the list--A date for the city where my brother lives, just about an hour away from me. ❗️👀❗️ I'm not exaggerating when I say I started to lightly shake and I was having a hard time breathing. This is real. They're coming here. I have a chance to see them. I think part of me was holding back a bit since MCR tickets have been known to sell out at the speed of sound and there was a very real chance that would happen again and I wouldn't be lucky enough to grab them in time, or even if none of that was true, I had no way to know ahead of time if I'd be able to actually afford the tickets. The less exciting-in-a-good-way part of this story made short: I WAS ABLE TO GET TICKETS! 😱🤩🎉 And fairly decent ones, as far as I can tell, not nosebleeds! But if nosebleeds had been my only option, that would've been plenty. [And for what it's worth, I would like to pay back the family member that paid for our tickets as much as I possibly can. If you'd like to help me out with that, you can check out this post I made the day the new tour dates were announced.) BUT I will say this experience has taught me I do NOT like Ticketmaster. I don't like that they won't show you prices or a seating map ahead of time, I don't like how clunky the map is to actually navigate, and I especially don't like that they have some kind of algorithm-run, "based on demand" ticket pricing scheme. However, Ticketmaster being annoying to use isn't MCR's fault, and I'm quite sure it's not even MCR's fault Ticketmaster was chosen as the Ticket vendor. So, I'll leave my complaints with them at that and get back to the happy-fun times. This summer I'll be going to see My Chemical Romance in concert with my brother. And my best friend got tickets too. I still can't believe it, I really can't. It probably won't feel real until I'm standing in the arena and they walk out on stage. And now today's artwork probably makes a lot more sense. I was so distracted for the rest of the day after we bought the tickets and even the day after, I decided instead of endlessly scrolling social media waiting for something to happen, I'd turn all that bubbling energy into something more productive: Art! 😄  Much like when I made One Birthday and An Ohuhu Holiday, I opted for a simpler style with some rougher elements to it, mostly because it would be faster to finish, but in this case really leaning into the "grungy" look suited the punkish look I was going for too. I did start with a traditional sketch of the pose I wanted because (as I think I've mentioned before) I usually find that sort of sketching easier to do traditionally than digitally for certain projects. So that's why you see me already starting with essentially a "base" at the beginning of the time-lapse video. My hope with this pose was to get something kinda dynamic, but nothing too complicated since I just wanted to show how happy I am to have the tickets. Which, for what it's worth, the real tickets won't look anything like the ones the figure here is holding--they're entirely digital and Ticketmaster didn't even give an option for physical ones. [Which I found a little disappointing but I assume if I really wanted, Etsy could fix that "problem" for me.] Anyhow. I opted for a little more anime flair in the face--I'd normally draw a big toothy grin a little more curved and a bit smaller than this--and I made the hands these odd sort of mittens largely because I just didn't feel like going through the hassle of drawing them properly, but also it's fair to say now that properly fingered hands might not have meshed with the rest of the drawing super well or might've gotten lost among everything else in the background. From there, I opted to stick to a simplified color palette--Black/White/Red with the initial plan, but I did have to add a gray & opted to add the purple for more visual interest and some extra clarity. I went with purple hair since that's my hair color, even though the person in the drawing wasn't meant to be me originally, just a random punk-ish person. It's still not really me because my hair isn't that short and I was trying to make the body type a little less obviously feminine than usual (not sure how much I succeeded) but if you really want to see it as me, I don't see any harm in it. And perhaps the most interesting thing about this piece; I mostly stuck to a Valentine's-themed Freebie Procreate brush pack made by Manero Brushes. That particular set is not longer available, but I think they still exist in one of his paid brush packs? I'm not sure. But I can tell you guys I really enjoyed using them for this piece. The one smaller brush that works best for line work and the larger one that works best for coloring large areas both have a strong texture that can be a bit odd to work with at times, but I do really enjoy the really rough, vintage-y feel they have. And then the different heart brushes are purely just fun, of course. I did however spend way too long worrying about the exact placements of all those hearts hanging out up there--You can see me go back and add more and adjust them slightly in the video. (Oh, and while we're here, when you see me adding and adjusting a black border in the video, that was my attempt to prepare the image for uploading to places like RedBubble in the future in case I don't like the hard rectangle edge for the design.) There's also no "real" shading going on here. I did try to suggest it in a couple of areas for differentiation (like the skin vs. the background), since the coloring method I used is so heavy on texture, I didn't want to overwhelm things. Though if we're being honest, yes, there's an argument to be made that I still ended up pushing things a bit too far with all the red background hearts, but I kinda don't care. 🤷‍♀️ Well, okay, I cared before I added the white outline and some shading behind the figure so they'd pop more against everything I threw back there, but I think I managed to counter it enough, at least. Oh, fun fact: I didn't think the coloring was quite grungy enough when I first called it done. I went back in and purposefully added some grunge marks around certain lines and areas until it suited me. That goes for the text, too! And the text is simply the title of one of the most popular MCR songs because it's sort of an in-joke in the fandom to say, "I'm not okay," with a positive connotation because of the song. And with how excited I am & was, I think saying, "I'm not okay," is technically accurate--I'm not okay, I'm about a million times better. Double fun fact: The text on the drawing isn't a proper text layer either! I stuck to my enjoyment of Procreate for Hand Lettering here, and one of the brushes in the Valentine's packed worked better than I thought for the look I wanted. My hope was to make something similar to The World is Ugly, where I specifically mimicked The Black Parade's font, but I also still wanted the text here to stand on its own. Ultimately, I kinda love how this thing turned out. 😍 The making process was relatively simple, but the final product doesn't look overly minimal (at least I don't think it does), and while I've had my doubts, I think I did manage to capture what I wanted with the pose and energy, too. Most important of all: I do think it reflects my excitement about the tickets pretty plainly. 😜 Really, if someone had told me back when we first found out MCR was back together that I was actually going to get a chance to see them for myself, without having to take a road trip or rob a bank to do it...I probably would have believed it, but not that said chance would get even this close to being a reality. We've still got a ways to go between now and the actual concert date, so I don't want to completely get my hopes up just in case...but it's too hard to not let myself get excited at all. 🤩 ...Sooo this might not be the last MCR-related artwork you see from me between now and then. We'll just have to wait and see...😉

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