#i am just so soft for this horrible fictional man sometimes. i can't help it

[pavlovianfuckery]

i'm very tired so sorry for rambling but. i wonder what blaine was like as a kid? like, i can't imagine him at 5 or 6 years old going "i want to be a drug dealer when i grow up" you know?

we know music in general has always been a thing for him but if i was going to spitball (and i am) i want to say "businessman"? at that age he probably wouldn't know exactly what that means really, except it means that you're Important. like his dad is Important (and i'm sure mr"the strings i pulled" made his expectations clear from pretty early on). and maybe, just maybe, if he was Important enough, his dad wouldn't hate him so much?

even as an adult he still can't keep from getting pulled in after angus goes off the deep end, so i bet he had a "if i'm just Good Enough" phase that victims of abuse go through, the whole bargaining thing, even if it didn't last very long.

blaine and his daddy-issues/angus and his a+ parenting is just so chewsome, to me.