#i am formally apologising for taking literally like two years to respond

[calypsoff]

Seven.

We all clinked our glasses together, pre-drinks before we leave for the club “I just want to say! Let me say something bitches!” Sonita shouted “I want to say my sister” she looked at me “I know next year is about to be another good year for you! You are working so hard, and you’re going to be working even harder, you are a free, single woman. I am happy for you, and I am excited for your next album sis. To Robyn Rihanna Fenty” I cooed out raising my glass in the air “you all too kind, I have the best friends a girl can ask for. Next year will be about me, I am not going to put myself in that situation again, I am lucky that Rakim was a man to do it and to accept where we was going, I am not going to let my record label do that again but to us single bitches” we cheered and clinked glasses again, drinking the wine as I shimmied away. I bought my bitches to London, we going to bring in the New Year in the club, but pre-drinks are a must. I don’t care if I can buy drinks there, cheaper to start here then there anyways “Leandra! Put the damn music on, dang. Let’s get this party started and then we can go” she is the worst DJ to hand, feeling an arm around my shoulder “I love you” Mel sounds drunk already “oh no, you can’t be already!?” I spat, looking to the side of me “bitch my drinking started early, I started when I rolled out of bed and you made those waffles” this is not good “so I guess I am the person to be looking after you huh? You know I don’t like drunk people, I think you need to stay at home” she shook her head “no, I need to go and party with some beautiful British men, they better be showing out because I need to get some British dick” I snorted laughing “wow, well I think I will be the one to take it easy, thank the lord for Rich” he is the carer of the group now “happy new year to me” he laughed “and you boo” I winked at him.

I decided to go all out, I mean not so much but I wanted to look good for today, so I am wearing a tiny blush pink fur mini dress with a wrap around fur belt around my waist. I have glittery heels with sheer socks and fluffy white trim. I have my glam curls ready, my hair is laid, lips popping, I look good “I heard from Melissa you have a secret dick appointment?” Leandra blurted out “oh not that skinny guy? The one at the concert?” Jen remembers “I never said a thing! I don’t tell your secrets” Mel is drunk, of course she is talking “not a dick appointment, she is a liar. I hate when she is drunk, stay away from me. Uhm, we just met up. That is it” I pointed at Jen; she is smirking “but you left the concert with him?” She needs to stop putting two and two together “we are here, now be quiet” Rich slid the door open “it’s so cold in London!” Jen spat as she got out first, it is actually freezing here. Shuffling off of the seat and stepping out of the car, pulling my mini dress down and there is a few paparazzi here, of course I mean why wouldn’t there be “Rihanna!” they shouted constantly, I started to walk off to the club as they continued to shout, Rich walking alongside me. I did think they would have got in my way, but they didn’t, I am thankful to be inside.

I shrieked out “hey boo!” hugging Adele “how are you? I thought I would sneak over and see you, are you ok? I heard about the breakup, I loved you both together but it’s mutual” nodding my head “it is, we happy but you look so good!” I shouted, her dress is bomb “not as beautiful as you, happy new year. Speak to you soon” she waved at me as she walked off, there is a lot of celebrities here, I am shocked. I didn’t think there would have been so many celebrities but there is. I don’t think there is any none famous people here, feeling a tug at my arm. Looking to the side of me, seeing where Sonita is pointing. Future raised his glass to me, waving at him. He then pointed at himself and then me, I nodded my head either way because I have a song I need him on, he will add the added spice I need on it. I assumed he would come but no, his whole entourage came, it’s like the whole club just moved, lord have mercy I didn’t ask for that. Placing my wine glass down, Future eventually was in my section “Riri, hey!” hugging him “hey you, been ignoring me!?” I said, moving back from the hug “oh what? No, I have been busy” I snorted “busy making babies with the sixth woman” he laughed out, he knows I am right “this is my cousin, Deavon. He likes you so I was like we going, you coming” I am impressed “he better looking then you, hi” I am so formal I shook his hand, he is handsome “so this is why I ignore your calls but what is up? What can I help you with” I didn’t want to talk work on this day, but I will “my album, your voice?” Future smirked “now, I am busy” poking my lips out trying to not smile “you saying no to me?” he licked his lips smiling “ok, I got you? Happy, I got you now” he hugged me again “that is all it took nigga! Come on!” he is stupid.

I am excited for the new year to come in, smiling at the big screen as the countdown went to ten “eight, seven, six, five” I shouted along with Mel and Sonita hugging me “three, two one! Happy New Year!” we all shouted, hugging both of my friends as the cheers rang through. I am happy, like I couldn’t be happier with my situation then I am right now, I think I needed that freedom. I was feeling depressed and now I am me again “woo!” I clapped, Future never left the section I am in for whatever reason but it doesn’t bother me, he is ok as a friend and from afar “happy new year riri” hugging him “and you boo” his cousin really likes me, he is stood just smiling “happy new year” I said to him “can I have a picture?” he asked in the middle of this “sure” waving him over, I might as well. It looks like Future is looking to go, getting closer to him. He leaned down a little, so I rested my arm on his shoulder as he took the selfie, moving my hair to the side “take another” turning to him and kissing his cheek “oh my god! Thank you” smiling at him as I moved away “aye, where the drinks at. Besides Mel! Everyone better be drinking” I pointed, Mel has had enough “I am banning your ass” Mel hugged me as she laughed out.

I did think Future was going but he didn’t we are having shots together now, I ain’t drunk so there is that. I know what I am doing anyways “Leandra!” I spat; she is always taking a video. Putting a finger up at her “actually, take a picture of us” digging into my bag, grabbing my phone from my bag and holding it out to Leandra “when are you going back to California so we can link for the album?” Future asked “I am going Miami actually but I think around two weeks, I am staying here for a while and then travelling, I have some ventures here” pointing at my phone so Leandra can take a picture, Future leaned into me “you better get my best side!” I shouted; she is a bitch at times. She took the picture of us and held the phone out to me “thank you” ok I look good I will take that “I apologise for not responding to you though” least he is sorry “it’s ok” I smiled at him, uploading the image onto Instagram, captioning the picture ‘New year, New music’ pressing send on the image “what you doing after this?” can Future not ask “bed?” side eyeing him “no, I ain’t saying it like that. Because Diddy is throwing a party here too, so I was asking if you going to do that” I assumed something else there “oh no, I am having to take care of that drunk girl there” Mel is a mess, she really is.

It’s like I can’t escape her, I really can’t. How do I end up in magic city and I hear come and put your name on it, I swear I just had to mean mug the stripper, I just cannot escape her. I went to the club before this and they had we found love, it’s like a constant reminder and it made me want to drink more, I can’t escape her at all. I am staring at this stripper and it’s like I am imagining her, like I can see Robyn just there in front of me. It is literally driving me crazy; I am at work I hear her and I be walking and I hear her. I go to my apartment I hear her and now this, drinking from the Patron bottle “enough for you” Seiko moved the bottle back “for me? Or?” she is annoying, getting up from the seat, this stripper is one hundred percent no Rihanna, besides this strippers boobs are big, she winked at and I just turned around “come on” hitting Barry’ shoulder, I need some air right now because I just can’t even deal right now. Seiko wasn’t supposed to be here, she wasn’t supposed to come but she did. She doesn’t mind coming with me to a strip club either, she’s a good girl and I like that but she’s not that.

Standing to the side and lighting my cigarette “we out here in the cold, the fuck?” Barry said, “I am sick of hearing her voice” blowing the smoke out from my lips “you still on that, you said nothing happened?” smiling at Barry “we had sex all weekend, I just didn’t want to say it to TJ. He has a big mouth” Barry’ mouth fell open “no way!? No way? You’re lying” shaking my head with my cigarette between my lips “no way? You had sex with” he looked around him “you had sex with Rihanna?” he said in a loud whisper “I did, all weekend. Pussy is good bro, like really good” Barry hit my arm jumping up and down “it good? Like you taste it, she let you do it all? For real, you go in raw? So you fucked ASAP Rocky girl, nigga you are the boss, oh my god. I am losing my fucking mind, you had sex with her. So it’s good pussy?” nodding my head laughing “good, and she gave me head too, shit. She was up for it all, like bro. I could just give her a look and we just be fucking, like tongue down my throat shit. But she is good, like I can’t compare. Now having sex with Seiko, ain’t it. I need to drop her, I can’t stop thinking of Robyn bro, I can’t shake it off” I really can’t “pussy on your mind that much? Just go and get it again? I mean what does she care” I sniggered “listen here right, she went crazy on my ass. She won’t speak to me because I have Seiko around yeah, so she wants to be with me. She said she thought it was a crush, but she loves me, she kept saying it. I held back, then she went crazy talking about you don’t care. I am here, I am trying to take it in. I can’t take it in when you are riding my dick, you know?” Barry snorted laughing “so yeah, that weekend was interesting. It was good, if I get locked up right now I will go back a happy man. On god” Barry is shocked “love? So you want to leave Seiko for her, you can just lie and still get it?” shaking my head “I ain’t happy with Seiko, she on my dick about shit. Like why is she here, I tried to split with her and she took it for a joke, maybe I am a joke but I” I paused “I miss her” Barry furrowed his eyebrows “you miss that Barbados pussy, that is what you want” shaking my head “nah, see. I feel something for her, I really do. We are good together but it’s like she’s hard to reach? It’s hard to explain, it’s not all about the sex, I am just shocked that we did have sex, you know” I haven’t actually spoke on this to anyone until now.

“You cheated on me again!?” my eyes bulged out looking to the side of me, Seiko is right there just barking “who cheated?” Barry said “him!” she ran at me and started to hit at my chest “relax! I ain’t cheat” moving back, throwing my cigarette to the ground “you know what, I did” it’s out now, we can split “Barbados? Mhm, oh. This nigga had sex with Rihanna!” She screamed out, I felt anger hit me “shut the fuck up, you stupid fucking bitch” Barry got between us because I was ready strangle the bitch “can we all calm down, nobody had any sex with Rihanna. Damn, we wish we all could. He is joking” Barry is calming it down, but I am angry “it’s over Seiko, we are over. You’re dumped, also your ass is stuck here because I am your ride back” walking around Barry “I will scream so loud about you and that fucking bitch, you have changed since you met her again. Love struck speaking on Rihanna, this nigga fucked Rihanna” I lunged at her, gripping her neck and the next sound I hear is sirens, right at that moment and she screamed for help. I moved away from here “you dead, you fucking whore. You a dead bitch” walking off “let’s just move now, come on. Seiko just drop it. He is drunk” I ain’t even drunk and that is the point, she mentions Robyn’ name I am going to kill her “is everything ok here?” the police officer asked, I was waiting for Seiko to say something but she didn’t “usual party vibes” she said “my stupid boyfriend” now why she saying that, I broke up with her “let’s go” Barry patted my back for us to go.

[imagine-loki]

If I could Turn Back Time, I’d Still Choose This

TITLE:  If I could Turn Back Time, I’d Still Choose This

CHAPTER NO./ONE SHOT: Chapter 46

AUTHOR: wolfpawn

ORIGINAL IMAGINE: Imagine that when Odin found Loki on Jotunheim, he did not take him to raise as his son, as Frigga was pregnant at the time, instead he was given to a normal Aesir family. Years later, Loki meets Odin’s daughter Sigyn, and trouble ensues.

Loki stared for a moment trying to process what was in front of him. In the yard of his home was the black horse he knew to be Sigyn's, yet he could not fully get his mind around her being outside the house. ‘How?’

‘I left.’

‘Forever?’ She nodded. ‘Do they…?’

‘They know everything.’ She raised her neck to show him the collar was gone. Immediately, he pulled the door open fully and she rushed into his arms. ‘I’m home.’ Loki could not reply as tears cascaded down his cheeks at her being back by his side. ‘If you’ll have me.’

Loki pulled back and responded by kissing her. ‘I am never letting you away from us again, not for one solitary night.’

‘I wouldn’t leave anyway.’

‘Will he come looking for you?’

‘I don’t know, I really don’t. But we have places we can go if he does.’

‘Jotunheim?’ Sigyn nodded. ‘I got a surprise today.’

‘I was so busy finally seeing you all again yesterday, I never thought to ask if you knew.’

‘That Laufey, king of the Jotnar is my biological father, no I didn’t.’

‘Well, surprise.’ She smiled with a slight giggle.

‘So you will still take me?’

‘I want no other.’ She swore. There was a flickering of a shadow to their side, and on turning, Sigyn was a little startled.

‘Father, it’s nothing to worry about.’ Loki insisted, having his father put down the large and somewhat scary looking weapon in his hand. Loki brought her into the room his father was in, his mother was up the stairs as though the last line of defence for the children. ‘You remember Sigyn.’

‘Well, about time we got a formal introduction.’ Tomás chuckled.

‘I wholeheartedly agree.’ Sigyn nodded.

‘So, you’re what exactly, abdicated from your title, excommunicated…?’

‘Both, I think. They were about to banish me, and I left just as they were about to do so, with words that made clear how I revoked them all willingly.’

‘We’re not as grand as any palace.’

‘I don’t need a palace, I need my family.’ Sigyn explained. ‘I have no need gold and silk, I need my boys.’

‘They are asleep now.’ Loki informed her.

‘I know, and as much as I want to be with them, I need to let them sleep.’

Loki chuckled. ‘You want to wake them, don’t you?’

‘So much, but I can’t.’

Loki brought her to him. ‘You can be there when they wake in the morning.’

‘And every morning after.’ Sigyn promised.

‘Not wanting to bring anything negative to all of this, but the Allfather?’ Tomás asked worriedly. ‘I somehow doubt he simply left this happen.’

‘My brother, King Laufey and I think the Warriors, or perhaps that is just hoping, are between him and here. I cannot guarantee there will not be trouble, and I know I am nothing but a terrible nuisance for it, I can only apologise. I am nothing but a beacon of trouble to you.’

‘And we are stuck with you now,’ Loki jested.

‘You asked me to marry you, not the other way around.’ Sigyn verified.

‘Well, it is late, so we can argue this in the morning.’ Loki ushered her towards the stairs.

‘I….but Tempest is outside.’

‘Father has stables we can use for him.’ Loki offered.

‘Okay, he needs to be dealt with first.’

‘Why did you bring him?’

Sigyn frowned. ‘He’s my horse, I wouldn’t leave without him.’

‘He’s huge and scary.’

‘How the hell are you a blacksmith, this is literally the bread and butter to you?’

‘Normal horses aren’t like him.’

‘Well, Sleipnir is his sire, so no, you’re right.’

‘That explains a lot.’ Loki commented. ‘Father, you and Mother go back to bed, we will deal with the horse and do the same then.’

‘Very well, call us if you need anything.’ Tomás looked at his son for a moment, since Sigyn had already gone to deal with her horse. ‘And no additional grandchildren tonight, at least let these two walk first.’ He warned.

‘Yes, Father,’ Loki shook his head as he walked out, though there was some hint of pink of embarrassment on his face as he did. When he went out, Sigyn was standing with her horse. ‘This way.’

They put him in the biggest stable and with her seidr, Sigyn organised everything he needed. As soon as the door to the stable was bolted, the pair, who had been silent, turned to look at one another. Loki walked over to her and gently took her hand in his. ‘Will you take me?’ She whispered, worried that after everything, he would think her not worth it all.

Loki pulled her to him. ‘Even knowing it was for show, the mere idea that another man had even been close to you has caused me to have sensations I never before felt.’

Sigyn bit her lip slightly. ‘Such as?’

‘Jealousy.’ He brought them to a stall wall. ‘I am your husband and for the rest of time, there will only be us.’

‘I never wanted anyone else, I always made it in my mind that it was you.’ She promised. ‘There is only you.’

Loki had barely the patience to wait for her to cease speaking before kissing her feavourably, something she reciprocated immediately. ‘Don’t make your body cold.’ He warned her as he started to move their clothing.

‘I won’t. I need to learn how to handle the two we have first.’ She smiled, as she helped him move their clothes out of the way.

*

Sigyn woke early, her mind trying to understand what was the thing around her waist before she recalled the day before entirely. It had been late when she had arrived, even later when they went to bed, having enjoyed each other for the first time in months. Loki’s arm moved slightly around her. ‘Go back to sleep.’ She urged.

‘I can’t with you twitching. Are you really that worried about something?’

‘What?’

‘You twitch when you are worried.’

‘Really?’

‘Yes, you did it when you were pregnant too.’ He kissed the side of her neck. ‘It is odd to have my arm fit around you. It could not do that before.’

Sigyn laughed slightly. ‘What are you saying, exactly?’

‘That you do not have our sons in your stomach.’ He kissed her again. ‘Go back to sleep.’

‘I can’t rest.’

‘Well, there is a way we have dealt with that before.’ He grinned.

‘If I did not have to alter things to have me bear a child, we would have a dozen children before most would have their first.’ She commented as Loki chuckled again, the pair kissing once more.

When she woke again, Sigyn was face to face with a gurgling Vali, who was lying next to her in the bed and excitedly looking at her. ‘Who is this?’ She looked next to her son to see his father smiling at her.

‘Hello, my handsome boy.’ She smiled, Vali gurgling excitedly as she spoke to him. ‘I told you I would be back, didn’t I?’ He made an attempt to answer her in his own way. ‘I missed you too much yesterday.’ He used his little voice again to communicate with her before holding his hand out. As soon as Sigyn’s blue seidr glowed, he beamed almost in elation.

‘I feel left out with that.’ Loki admitted.

‘To say Sansa was able to carry a Jotun child means she had seidr, so you have some in you. I can help you with it if you would like?’ She offered, but she noticed something in Loki’s features. ‘What?’

‘I don’t know. I feel sort of confused about it all.’

‘Sansa?’ He nodded. ‘She died protecting you, I know she would be happy you were raised in a loving and good home.’

‘How can you say that with any certainty?’

‘Because, before I knew they were with you, that is all I wanted for our sons, I prayed for it.’ She explained, looking at Vali and making funny faces, making him erupt in giggles.

Loki did not say anything for a few minutes as she watched his wife interact with their son. ‘I better get Narfi to wake up, he won’t nap later otherwise.’

‘Where is he?’

‘Next room.’

Sigyn rushed to her feet. ‘I want to get him.’

‘He is hard to wake.’ Loki warned her.

Sigyn laughed. ‘If I can wake Thor, I can wake anyone.’ She stated before going to the next room. In there, there was a large crib, which clearly the twins shared, as it was almost double the size of a normal one. Looking in, she smiled lovingly at Narfi, who was, for all intents and purposes, identical to his uncle in how he slept. She could not wait to tell Thor, who she had little doubt would see it as a trait to be proud of. ‘Narfi?’ The child did not move. ‘Hey, lazy bones.’ She used her seidr to surround him and gently wake him. Confused and with a frown that reminded her of Loki, Narfi began to stir and then wake. ‘Hey, sleepy head.’ He paused and looked at her. ‘Hello, beautiful boy.’

‘Ah!’ He responded, kicking his legs and sticking out his tongue.

‘Hi.’ She leant down and picked him up. ‘Do you want to see your brother and father?’

‘Ah!’

‘I am going to take that as a yes.’ She smiled, walking back into the other room, noticing that Vali was looking at the door for his mother, seemingly irked by her leaving. On seeing her return and with his brother in tow, he smiled again. Sigyn placed Narfi next to his brother and lay on the bed beside them, Loki on the other side. ‘How did we make these two perfect little beings?’

‘Well, we cannot discuss that in front of them.’ Loki joked before looking at them as well. ‘I think we did a good job.’

‘I think so too.’ Sigyn concurred. ‘Do your parents hate me?’

‘No. Why do you think that?’

‘I have uprooted and threw disarray on their family, and now, with all of this, I may end up doing so once more.’

‘You never asked for this.’ Loki pointed out, but the guilty look remained on her face. ‘Would you change it?’

That caused Sigyn to look up at him. ‘No, I would alter certain things. Leave the palace before it got too far, not have it that I was stuck there, but you, them, never.’ She confessed. ‘You?’

‘No, I would have done most everything the same.’

‘What would you have changed?’

‘Not finding out who you were, letting you leave at all that day.’ She gave him a small smile. ‘Do you think he will come?’

‘I honestly cannot say. It all depends, we could walk downstairs and hear that he has restarted the war with Jotunheim, or he could be waiting for us or he may act as though I never existed, he is good at that.’

Loki frowned. ‘Are you alright?’

‘I am….getting on with it. It’s odd, I am mourning the loss of a father that I never had. I realised he will never love me and that is hard, I always used to think, if I did something more, I would succeed in having him accept and love me, now I see that that is madness, but it means accepting things that are difficult to accept.’

‘I am here.’

‘What about you, what about the whole Laufey and Sansa situation?’

‘I am still trying to process it.’

‘Laufey was nothing short of good to me when he arrived in Asgard, ensuring I knew we could depend on them. He respects that this is your life, yet...he sees you as his son.’

‘I don’t know what to do with the information if I am honest.’

‘Accept it, or ignore it, that is your choice, but know you are accepted regardless, as you are.’

‘I have no idea what I am.’ She said nothing but ensured he knew she was listening. ‘I don’t know what the true me looks like, all I know is this facade.’

‘Does that matter to you?’

‘I don’t know what I even look like.’

‘Do you want to know?’

‘Can you change it?’ Sigyn nodded. ‘Do it.’ She looked at him warily. ‘Change me, please.’

Inhaling deeply, Sigyn gently touched him and watched as his alabaster skin turned blue. As soon as it came to change his entire appearance, she stared at her husband, wide-eyed.