#i am also incredibly delulu i'm afraid

[sncrlynwtms]

i am once again thinking of the implications behind the golden raven as a title. how it could potentially be representative of jean or jeremy. i'm thinking of double entendres and how they don't always serve as humorous literary devices. i'm thinking of metaphorical language and antithesis. i'm thinking of music is the space between the notes. i'm thinking of every saint has a past and every sinner has a future.

“we delight in the beauty of the butterfly but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty"

[lady-phasma]

Is something wrong with me because the mere idea of Aemond x the Madam scene triggers me? It doesn't have anything to do with shipping Aemond with anyone else. I simply don't want to see him retraumatized for shock value's sake. I don't think it could foreshadow his relationship w/Alys, since the Madam's and Alys' actresses don't even look alike. I'm also afraid they are likely to imply Aemond has a mommy kink or something of sorts. Which, in turn, smells like laughing off or diminishing trauma male victims of SA could possibly experience. Honestly, I started to consider not watching HOTD until it's confirmed Aemond doesn't seek comfort in the Madam's arms.

Hi nonnie, no, nothing wrong with you at all! I'm going to be kinda serious here for a moment. (after a hug)

I hope you continue to watch, but please take care of your mental health. As an SA survivor it bothers me a lot that they may go that route, I don't think about it too much or look to deeply into it because we don't have anything other than about 1.25 seconds of footage (I extended my gif to about 1.9 seconds).

A lot of people have heard me get on my soapbox about male SA survivors. Starting right after episode 9 aired and there was a schism in the fandom where a few fans didn't believe that he was assaulted and, instead, that he went willingly. Here's my soapbox post if you're interested. I have been curious since October 2022 to see how the show will treat this assault and if they will even treat it as assault at all.

I can separate my headcanon from canon and those from my delulu wishes, but that doesn't make me any less emotional about a series that I am invested in and thoroughly enjoy. Every time this comes up, the conjecture that it is the madame, I get a little nauseated and try not to dissociate. It will be incredibly difficult to watch this scene if that is the case. But, I have to say, I also trust Ewan. Even though he doesn't write the script he is the reason I love Aemond. He and Leo Ashton made a great character together. I trust that Ewan can help me to not suspend my disbelief as I watch whatever this scene entails.

Trust that I will be back on my soapbox if they do it wrong. I will scream about inclusivity and representation until my throat aches. I will rant and block people (and be blocked). But I will probably keep watching the show because this is only one aspect of Aemond and only one small aspect of the series.

Whether it's in episode one or episode eight (because we don't know yet), here's my advice: have a plan in place. I can't assume that you are an SA survivor as well, but you said "triggered" and that means something very specific for me. If I watch/read something that might be triggering I try to have a plan if I am watching/reading voluntarily. Skip it entirely if that's best for you. My plan: cigarettes, meditation, long rants, and making gifs of other things in the episode that make me happy.

And we always have fanfiction, anon. AU fixes exist for a reason. So just wait for all the AU fixes I'll be writing if the show runners fuck this up. 💕

[kaeyachi]

technically part of the last ask but I didn't want to bring down the Joke Tone, even though this is still said fun and lightheartedly ->

(Jokes aside, when a single person is complaining all of that it doesn't show his legs, doesn't give him the same silhouette as default skin, doesn't emphasize his torso or proportions in exactly the same way as his default skin, they don't like the type of boots and think it should look more like his other boots, not blue enough, uses Sumeru elements instead of an exclusively Khaenri'ah or Monstadt design... I can't take it seriously, because it sure sounds like they just want his default skin, maybe in a slightly edgier color palette. Or want to have a ✨ new skin for their fav ✨, but don't want him to look any different at all.

And of course, everyone is entitled to their own opinions, but soo many of these people state it like these are OBJECTIVE FACTS that are OBJECTIVELY BAD traits and mistakes bc they personally don't like the design choice. When they can just use the default skin if they're upset it diverges from it 😅. Though I don't want anyone to be disappointed and it's too bad they didn't get what they want, that's... how new content works. Preferences exist, I'm afraid, and I for one am incredibly pleased!)

Anyways I think all the complaints that hinge on his legs etc are very silly bc you can switch skins and look at his sliver of boob whenever you want.

I can see why they would prefer a more Khaenri'ahn-only theme, but I think HYV is really hitting on the hints that Kaeya has Sumeru blood in him (and I still want a 5-star kaeya someday that goes all out on the Khaenri'ahn wardrobe hehe let me be delulu)

I will say that Khaenri'ahn clothing so far is very modest. Bodies are fully covered from the neck to feet, usually with loose tunics. Dainsleif just has a fitted top that lets him show the shape of his upper body. These people wouldn't enjoy the idea of a traditional Khaenri'ahn outfit on Kaeya as well if what they're after is seeing more of Kaeya's body now that I think about it...

I think Kaeya enjoys being a little extra on what he wears, like adding accessories and using various types of fabric on one outfit. If I were him and had 2 different nations with large cultural differences in style, I think I'd pick the more extravagant one too lmao (the nation of freedom told him its ok 💅✨️)

as for the complaint on the pants and lack of boobie window, well, the disappointment is fine tbh, people still have preferences, and being let down by what will be released is understandable because it does not fit their tastes. It's the way they (imo) over-reacted that made it really funny to me. I've seen some say it's not well-thought-out (despite the details and references) and is just a ploy to pull players back to genshin (it worked lol. good for hyv for knowing what sells).

I guess I don't see the need to justify what you don't like, especially if it leads to weird arguments and reasoning?

A simple "it doesn't fit my fantasies/tastes" would suffice, i think

At the end of the day, the outfit is supposed to look different from the usual attire, and it successfully did so and went beyond my personal expectations!

also the previous ask in mention

the kaeya fanclub in Mond clutching their chests in agony at the lack of Kaeya thighs and thigh gap. They are now undergoing a great depression. They are unsure if they will be able to survive for another 24 hours without the skintight leggings providing them the willpower to go on 💔 may Barbatos help them (said Barbatos is drinking in agony as well. Diluc tries not to strangle his archon)

[mexswiftcan]

🐾First Listen🐾

Hi! I'm gonna post my first impressions of TTPD! And probably will make another post when I listen to it a second time reading the lyrics

⚠️MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD⚠️

🐾Fortnight (feat. Post Malone)

omg it sounds amazing

ALCOHOLIC??????

endless February hits home...

Post Malone's voice is incredible

when she says "I want to kill her" is she referring to herself?

daaaamn, nbnc was her telling us she really did want to kill him

MOVE TO FLORIDA????

I want to cry so bad right now

🐾The Tortured Poets Department

nice drums!

straight from TTPD or from the psych ward? lmao

she uses typewriters now haha

sounds kinda like 80's music, I looooove it

f bomb

hahahah name drop was funny

now I'm crying

she really did want to get married, this is so sad

i thought i was gonna be ok because my ex broke up with me over a month ago, but i wasn't prepared, this album has hit home so hard

🐾My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys

you should've seen him when he first got me?? so relatable

still low-key 80's sound

her voice sounds soooooo wonderful

this one is personal too, i can't stop crying

stole my tortured heart sounds like "my heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue"

told me i'm better off, but i'm not... so this is in her delulu era

this is starting to be too much for me

🐾Down Bad

DAMN THE VOCALS

sent me back where i came from

crying at the gym lmao, been there

i think this is my favorite album

in a field? sounds like twilight to me, when Edward leaves Bella

the suicide intrusive thoughts are so loud damn

this is very situationship like imo

i'm not ready for track 5

🐾So Long, London

sounds like voices in your head, like when you go crazy

omggggg the soundssss

i'm crying even harder

stopped cpr? = i can't find a pulse in ylm?

stitches undone = "you drew stars around my scars, but now I'm bleeding"

this is so sad, i can't

where were the clues? = "were there clues I didn't see?"

she's gonna send me to a psych ward

you found someone, did he cheat?

🐾But Daddy I Love Him

dress unbuttoned wedding dress maybe

Florida again????

they protested too much

i know i'm crazy but he's the 1, so delulu and relatable

bitching and moaning lmaoooo, her people really did hate the person she's talking about

thinking they can change the beat of my heat sounds like ylm in some way

i feel the pain of when everyone tells you to run, but you're in love

now everyone loves him but it's over, or did i hear that wrong?

🐾Fresh Out the Slammer

he was with her????

her voice is so pretty

i will never lose my baby again is so sad, like she thought there was a chance

the changeeeeeee omggggggg

HIS AMERICAN DREAMS = "salute to me, I'm your American Queen"

the park = centennial park

imaginary rings, he couldn't even afford paper rings lmao

what did she do her time for?

🐾Florida!!! (feat. Florence + the Machine)

it's true she's a cheat??

woooow the way she sings Florida, the beats

my cheating husband disappeared???? again, nbnc, i probably heard that wrong tbh

all the bodies that have been in my body = "but like the dollar in your pocket, it's been spent and traded in, you can't change where it's been, reminds me of me"

did she say fuck me in Florida? or fuck me up Florida?

this song sounds so chaotic, i love it

who tf lives in Florida? that's all i wanna know

🐾Guilty as Sin?

again, her vocals are amazing

am i allowed to cry?

i will need a dictionary for this one lmao, i can't understand the chorus at all, like i can barely recognize words

inside a vault?

without touching his skin, how can i be guilty as sin? so they both cheated or what

crucify me anyway, like Jesus but also reminds me of "burning witches even if you aren't one"

this has glitter pen hints imo

🐾Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me?

the pianoooo

you don't get to tell me about sad

crash the party, hits different ("I slur your name 'til someone puts me in a car, I stopped receiving invitations") and betty ("but if I just showed up at your party")

we should be afraid??

what scandal was contained?

i mean, in a way i am scared of her

that bass sounded like pink floyd - esque wow

THE ASYLUM

her voiceeeee is just

that's why we're still singing along

her vocals are so raw, yet beautiful

again, the piano

🐾I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can)

sounds like this is about the rat

her voice

sounds like old music, i can't pinpoint which decade

i'll show you heaven = "I could show you incredible things magic, madness, heaven, sin"

dangerous man for her or for her image?

🐾loml

sounds soft, like folklore

from one kiss to getting married

never quite buried

you took me to hell = "Hell was the journey but it brought me heaven"

i felt a hole, i know that feeling

shit talk me under the table = "it's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me, at tea time, everybody agrees"

i wish i could recall how we almost had it all

it was legendary = "i didn't come here to make friends, we were born to be suburban legends"

the pianoooooo

the background vocals sound like tolerate it

🐾I Can Do It With a Broken Heart

she's having the time of her life, is she talking about herself?

who is that in the background? Jack? Sounds English so idk

22 vibes

you know you're good if you can do it with a broken heart

i can pass this test = "never impressed by me acing your tests"

fake it 'til you make it = "and it's fine to fake it 'til you make it 'til you do, 'til it's true"

i love the vibes, kinda glitter pen

the rawnesssssss

🐾The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

how am i already crying?

they ghosted you, great unfollowing

i want to know, me too girl

the breathingggg

your queen had gone, his American dreams? his American queen?

the piano keeps slaying

he definitely cheated damn

she keeps comparing herself to Jesus

now he crashed her party? betty??????? i guess they didn't end up together, like she wanted

🐾The Alchemy

chemicals sounds like meds

oh, yeah, hospital and best sleep lmao

ditch the clowns, get the crown = "when they sent home the horses and the rodeo clowns" / "you were my crown, now I'm in exile seeing you out"

the greatest in the league : smallest man who ever lived

the beats are so good

🐾Clara Bow

who looks like Clara?

she keeps talking about dying

is she talking to herself?

never seeing the lights of Manhattan / the suits in LA = "someday i'll be living in a big old city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean"

dazzling = bejeweled

beauty is a beast in all fours demanding for more

be heavenly

YOU LOOK LIKE TAYLOR SWIFT

So she IS Clara

[kithtaehyung]

Ok you can't understand my excitement when I saw you were writing more parts for 3tan, I LOVE this story so much. Now 3tan Yoongi is a mesmerisingly complicated character (all thanks to your incredible writing ).

Now about Yoongi 🎤:

It seems like he doesn't have conservative thoughts on the dating part and hooks up with anyone he wants. However the absence of any kind of boundary is 🚩🚩🚩.I think he is in a desperate need for a change in his ways. Not being able to say no , going to parties without actually wanting to be there, hooking up without feeling any thrill etc shows to me that he is afraid of change/maturity or doesn't know wtf to do with his life and just let's himself be. I have a feeling OC is gonna challenge that in the future and he is gonna freak out or sth. Or hopefully he'll get his shit together. I might be completely delulu on my perception tho idk 🧍🏻‍♀️

The hot ass brother is Namjoon me thinks bcs oc has a juicy ass as far as I remember and that's probably inherited lmao

Oh my goodness, thank you so much! It's actually a dream for you to call any of my characters complicated bc !! that's what i strive for so🥺🥺🥺 I am the most happy to hear that.

As far as your thoughts on Mr. Min: I enjoy this. Because you pointed out a bunch of things that are so true, and you're looking past what's being presented so I'm hype! For which of your points is pretty dang close, I won't say yet. But I can tell you that you are onto something! And keep in mind that 3tan isn't slated to be super super angsty even though it damn well could be. (Maybe I could do two versions... Of 3tan... Oh shit..) But! Even if your perception isn't spot on, your thoughts are so valuable! Thank you for sharing them, truly.

ALSO.. LMFAOOO THE LAST PART OF YOUR MESSAGE TOOK ME TF OUT HAHAHAHA go sit in the corner and think about what you said!!