#i also really hated ak*tagawa back then like. i really didn't like him. did not care about his dynamic with anyone

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as a guy in my twenties the themes i'm interested in + the conclusions i draw from vis a vis bungou stray dogs are very different from what i was thinking at 16. for example i have an entire essay from that era where i'm passionately arguing that dazai isn't actually an abuser and another essay where i'm passionately arguing that dazai is actually the abuser of all time. now i have zero interest in debating that either way and all i actually care about is if i can make akutagawa shining his boots with his mouth horny