#i also get too shy speaking at length abt my thoughts regarding michiru as well. because that's a lot more genuine | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

datastate · 2 months ago

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regardless of what i say toward michiru (or kazumi to a lesser extent), i don't think anything will ever compare to how severe my feelings for lurien were and still are (i've just gotten shy since i rarely post abt hk anymore, i don't want it to solely be 'this bug needs to be real so i can spend the rest of my days tending to him' . . .)

#I FEAR TO SAY IT. BUT AGAIN: THE THINGS I WOULD DO FOR THAT OLD MAN!!!#jestersvaguely #i also get too shy speaking at length abt my thoughts regarding michiru as well. because that's a lot more genuine #'i think we'd have a real connection' - and there isn't even the barrier of 'let's discuss Iurien and aster'#where indulging them is still nice because i get to see glimpses of Iurien's happiness even when not directed toward me as im accustomed to #but i want michiru to look At Me. and after a night of humoring her with the philosophical and morbid i want to have her blood on my tongue #and have her feel my heartbeat and hear it when it's like this and feel the same exhilaration of someone who truly Understands desire #not only in a romantic sense but in the grand scheme of what is worthwhile to pursue or even fantasize. even as individuals #but i digress. ok. ok. ok. nothing wrong with me 🚬

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