#i added henry's name to the prompt i hope that isn't cheating lmao
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@barbaro-supremacy this took me so long to write when i saved your ask to my drafts tumblr ate it. like, its gone, anyway
#13 "There's no shame in crying, I promise" - for henry/vito
from here
I'm sorry this took me so long but i hope it's decent, i hope you like it! i've tried this prompt so many times but i'm finally happy with this one so i hope you are too :) and if not well then.. shit lmao
this got long whoops - also forgive me if their dialogue sounds off. and we're post henry chop :) but he lived bitch.
Winter, of course when he had finally felt good enough to stand, to hold himself up right it was winter. Cold, barren streets and grey skies that blocked out the sun. He was sick of Empire Bayâs lack of colour, especially in this part of town, he was sick of the tapping of his cane, an object he realised was to stay by his side for the rest of his life and he wished that werenât so. For the thing, the person, he wished to stay by his side forever, was the person he was about to apologise to.Â
Oyster Bay, Martyâs old apartment, a place he wouldnât have to visit if things went right. Â
Henry knew, no matter how it would go he would see Joe after this, but right now he needed to see Vito. Henry knew he had failed the both of them, he knew that he could recognise the feeling by now, but he needed to talk to them each alone, to have their undivided attention once more, either for the final time or for one of the first of many more to come.  Â
He didnât know how long he stood there for, at the start of the stairs, only a couple metres from Martyâs door, which was now Vitoâs of course. Of course it was Vitoâs, who got him stuck in the can with Brian? who ignored Marty? He looked up at the second set of stairs, soaked with rainwater and dripping onto the concrete below, his uncovered eye squinting when a drop of rain hit his cheek; his clothes were soaked and the smell of wet cotton filled his nose. He couldâve gotten a cab, but that wouldâve meant a shorter trip and less time to think. Though now, he realises, heâll have to walk through that door looking like a wet, lost dog. Pathetic, he thought.Â
He grimaced when the tap of his cane was louder than he wished it was, he made his way up the stairs slowly, one at a time, when finally he stood in front of the door. And suddenly he felt as though he were back bleeding on the concrete again, it was hard to breathe and no matter how hard he tried to fight his throat kept constricting. His cane wobbled slightly, reaching for the door he tapped it - too soft the first time - so he did it harder: knock, knock, knock. Â
Did he regret it already? He couldnât.
He wiped his temple where he felt a raindrop trailing down it, quickly, positioning his arm by his side, calmly, balanced.Â
A chain from the other side of the door tapped against the wooden frame, Henry knew he just had to breathe, no matter how hard that was when the door opened, and a man looked at him with eyes filled with sorrow and wear. There was no sunlight to lift that familiar dark shade of blue, none to make them shimmer, but there wouldnât need to be sunlight if Joe were here instead.   Â
âHey Vito..â A dull grey knife of agate on dark impenetrable walls of sapphire.Â
â..Hey Henry.â Dark sapphires on the black cotton of a three piece suit that looked too alike to another, âWhat do you want?.. Jesus youâre soaked.â His voice was coarse.Â
A ghost of a smile, âYeah. I just want to, talk.â
Silence. Was there ever a fear of silence, he wondered. There mustâve been.Â
Vito nodded towards the living room down the hallway to which Henry slowly made his way in, his cane such a loud thing against the wooden flooring. It echoed off the walls and back into his ears as though thunder had occurred, it threatened to rupture his ear drums. Henry was surprised a little, the radio wasnât on nor the TV, Vito mustâve been sleeping, that was whatever he did when, well whenever, whenever he could.   Â
When he turned around to look at Vito, he stood there still, turned away from him pressing the door closed. Henryâs thoughts were confirmed when he finally noticed Vitoâs attire when he turned around, even when he throws things on to be presentable at the door, his heart aches. Simple slacks, a dress shirt that fitted him perfectly, its top buttons undone and collar wide, where smooth, unscathed skin used to be.Â
âWell, what did you want to talk about, Henry?âÂ
Henry looked up from the now scarred and uneven skin, and his heart sank. Sapphires were finally on grey agate. He couldnât meet both of Vitoâs eyes like he used to be able to in the past, but that did not prevent him from admiring their beauty even if he could only view them with one eye. Â
Well he thought Vito would know, âI wanted to talk about the deal.. About..â About what. About everything, about nothing, all of it, none of it. âAbout.. How you were right, it was a horrible idea.âÂ
Those sapphires looked away, âWell it was, Henry.â
âI understand that now Vito, I do..âÂ
Silence, once more, so familiar yet still so uncomfortable.Â
âI get it, Vito.â Henry, shook his head in disbelief at himself, âI get it now.â he did, heâd been thinking about it the whole walk here, heâd thought about it the entire time he was bed bound covered in bloody bandages and stitched up like a fucking child's toy. Â
âWell you shouldâve understood it before,â Vito shrugged, âbefore all of this, why didnât you listen?âÂ
âI did listen..â Henry swallowed, he did.. but he ignored it, didnât you, âI thought it would be fine in the end Vito. We deserved somethinâ good.â
Vitoâs brows furrowed as he looked at Henry again, âSomethinâ good? What do you mean somethinâ good?â something fierce was etched into his eyes.Â
âMoney, Vito. Youâre in this shithole, you deserve better than this, like youâve always said, like youâve always wanted, a place to call your own.â
âMoney? and so what? Youâd just been accepted into our family, Henry, was that not enough for you?âÂ
..it was enough, âBut you two deserved more..â
âHenry that night was the best night me and Joe had had for weeks, we had everythinâ we wanted, we already had somethinâ good, we had you..â Vito stared, âAnd then you ruined it.â and Vito stared, âYou pushed your luck.âÂ
His cane wobbled again, âI didnât want to ruin it, Vito. I just wanted to do somethinâ good for you.. For you and Joe.â
Vito shook his head, âI thought you said this was all about business Henry and nothinâ to do with friendship.â Vito scowled, âBecause you know thatâs really what it feels like, that's what it felt like then.âÂ
âIt isnât just about business Vito, I know..â Henry repositioned his cane to regain his balance, âI.. care about you. And if I pulled this off you wouldâve been able to get a new house or at least an apartment somewhere that was better than this..âÂ
âWell if you really cared about that Henry you wouldâve listened!âÂ
âI did listen, Vito! I did! But-â
âNo.â Vito stepped closer until he was looking down into Henryâs eye, âNo more fuckinâ butâs, if you really cared Henry you wouldâve listened and you wouldâve thought, you wouldâve really thought about what you were dragginâ us into.â
âI did.. I had been thinkinâ about it for weeks. Because this was supposed to be it Vito, somethinâ good, somethinâ great-âÂ
More creases were forming in Vitoâs face, âAll that time.âÂ
âI was doing somethinâ for you and Joe, Vito. Somethinâ that would repay you for what Iâve done.âÂ
Vito shook his head again, "You had all that time to think it through.."
"Yes and I thought about it in the back of my mind constantly Vito, I thought about it every night and every day because it had to be fuckin' good enough-"
âStop it!âÂ
âNo! I tried to repay you and Joe! And I still need to because I fuckin' failed! I have to.â Henry reasoned.
Vito balled his hands into fists, âYou didnât need to do anythinâ! You donât need to do anythinâ!âÂ
âWell I clearly do! You said in it the car back during the deal, I've put you through so much shit, Vito, don't you think itâs about goddamn time I do somethinâ to make up for it? So let me!âÂ
Vito grabbed him by the arms, âYou are enough Henry! Why donât you get it?!â he shook him a little whether he meant to or not.
If it werenât for the pain in Vitoâs voice he wouldnât have been able to tell he was crying through the blurriness of his own eyes.Â
âItâs my fault youâre here, Vito. I just wanted to do somethinâ right for once.â god was it not already humiliating enough to have to apologise for his foolish behaviour, to cry in front of him too. He sniffed and straightened his posture, âHow am I enough? When everythingâs my fault?â  Â
âBecause I love you you stupid fuck.âÂ
Henry wasnât sure if he could still breathe.Â
âAnd Iâve loved you from the beginninâ. And I forgive you, for everythinâ. I do.âÂ
..no, he couldnât. Henry covered his eye, wiping it with the back of his hand. How could he forgive him? After everything heâs done?
When he could just see clearly again he looked up at Vito who looked the same as him, tears falling down his face and meeting at his chin. He couldnât recall if heâd ever seen Vito like this before, not just upset but completely heartbroken.Â
Vito held out his arms.Â
Henry let go of his cane, and then clung to him, "I fucked up I know, I know.â He held Vito around his shoulders as though there would never be anything to hold onto ever again. âIâm sorry,â as if he would never hold Vito again, âIâm a fuckinâ disgrace, a dishonourable son, that's what they would say.â he pulled back to wipe his tears.
Vito shook his head as he put his arms around Henry and pulled him close again, âThereâs no shame in crying Henry, I promise..â his lips pressing into Henry's hair. "We aren't those guys."
Henry pulled away hesitantly and placed his forehead against Vitoâs, âYou were right.â he sniffed again, "And I'm not goin' to be this stupid ever again."
Vito smiled, âGood.â Â
Henry couldnât hold back a little laugh, it came with a smile. Â
Vito's smile dwindled, "You can talk to us Hen, about anythin', anytime."
Henry nodded, more tears falling down his face, ones that Vito wiped away.
âCome on," he pat Henry on the arm gently, "letâs go see Joe, he'll understand too.âÂ
Vito's smile returned to its former glory and once more there was sapphire blue on grey agate, but this time those sapphires glimmered.
#im so sorry if this is too corny#am i going to regret posting this when i wake up#also i think it was @swiftcola who talked about henry having a cane originally#i do not remember but whoever said it henry with a cane is one of my favourite kinds of henny. i hope im allowed to use him#i added henry's name to the prompt i hope that isn't cheating lmao
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