#i HATE the broken clock effect on this website it's always shit like this

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only on tumber dot website can you see a post you fully agree with but you have to hate it now because turns out the OP wants to (/actively is) kiss their sister sexual style

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i think what bugged me the most is i could say ‘they’re literal depression pills/they made me depressed’ and could reel off the side effect word for word (1/10 will experience mood swings (sometimes in the form of depression)) which was literally the first fricking side effect listed and the most common and she would still refer to it as me being sad literally seconds later in a convo. okay i never went to the doctor but when it occurred to me that, hey, something isn’t right, we were in the middle of a fucking pandemic!! i mean, we still are, but you get the point. this was right at the beginning when they basically closed everything as well so even if i wanted to i wouldn’t have been able to go see someone about it. but it’s whatever now, i don’t take them and i don’t have to give her any advice about them ✌️ i completely get the lack of validity about your emotions. that’s exactly how i felt.

i work so im not bothered about seeing people as i see them enough by my standards already but there is a helpful little voice in the back of my head reminding me that i still need to see my friends!! from before i got a job lol. i worked like 55 hours? my first proper week when i wasn’t on reduced hours and now i work maybe 30? which annoys me so i’m gonna ask for more bc i wanna buy a car and insurance. you still go to school, right? i feel like you’re more stressed about work considering you’re studying too. or were. have you just broken up from school? i don’t study, thank fuck, anymore, so i can do full time but i always get put on evenings so i’m thinking of getting a 9 to 5 bc then i can get the money i need.

a woman was rude to me bc her takeaway wasn’t ready bang on the clock when she turned up to pick it up. man it took literally every fibre in my being not to tell her to fucking leave me alone bc i’m a waitress?? what does she expect me to do??? i found out after but apparently our website tells you to allow a 15 minute slot when you order takeaway to pick up. i checked on this woman’s takeaway and told her it’d be ready in 10 minutes and she said sumn along the lines of ‘so 10 past 8?’. imma tell you straight i wasn’t looking at my phone so i assumed that meant the time was 8pm! (it wasn’t) she said to me ‘and i assume you’ll be knocking money off of the bill for that?’ and i politely replied ‘i can’t do that.’ bc i literally cannot. has to be a managerial figure. bearing in mind she’s already paid in full online???????? n she replies ‘do you wanna go suggest that?’ and nods towards the kitchen and i said no and walked off. the AUDACITY??? anyway i told my manager and she rolled her eyes and was like we don’t do partial refunds and said she’d talk to the woman when her order was ready. this woman was all up in my face saying ‘do you think that’s a reasonable time?’ asking if she should come back at 8:10 and im like idfk?? i have things to be doing can you fuck off?? no i didn’t say that but she says ‘i’ve got kids in the car with the engine running’ and i deadpanned ‘i didn’t tell you to leave your kids in the car with the engine running’ bc it was the first thing my brain thought of that wasn’t ‘sounds like a you problem to me’. in the end she left and came back but when she came back she was properly shouting at another waitress i work with and the girl was like 😄 your food was ready 20 minutes ago but you didn’t leave your details to be able to ring you to tell you it’s ready. she even re-mentioned the kids in the car saying they were starving and it was all our fault and the girl was like hmm okay. and then the woman said she was gonna leave a bad review on trip advisor!! and the waitress was like 😃 you do that bestie!! another great day on the grind :D (i forgot to say we were swamped on saturday so that’s why everything was so busy but she was literally the only one complaining that bad, like literally everyone could see we were struggling but they also were saying to wait staff things like ‘i know you can’t make things go quicker back there’ while we were apologising for the phat delay on their food).

another funny one (that made the barman laugh when i told it to him) was a grandma and a grandson in my section. the grandma was dictating his life jesus 😭 (not important but made me go 😳) but one of the girls cleared the table partially when i was doing sumn else so i finished it off and when we get back to kp she tells me the grandma complained the food was cold and without hesitation i said ‘well she fucking ate it all so tell her to fuck off and talk to someone who gives a shit’. she went quiet and i was like,, man i hope i didn’t scare her. but like. they cleared their plates. there was no food left. she didn’t call someone over. she didn’t say anything to anyone when they ask if it was okay. why wait until the end?? anyway i told thé barman and he giggled (he’s got a lovely laugh in my opinion bc it sounds like he’s snickering at everything). i was NOT going to tell my manager bc there’s literally no point. same day, later on, a man said his mussels were cold, i took them back and the kitchen cooked them again. i’d barely put the food down before he called me over (this one is a good one bc he hasn’t eaten EVERYTHING before complaining and therefore we can do something about the problem‼️) respect to that guy.

one of the girls gave me a lift home last night n the barman directed her right to my house without ever having been to my house before (his cousin used to live in the flats down the other end, he says) and when i messaged her later on thanking her and saying it was a bit sus that he directed her perfectly to mine n she said ‘hmm ben seems to go to yours more than he does his own home 🤔🤔🤔🤔’ bc apparently he was absolute shite at giving directions to his flat 😭 n e way he’s a sweetheart n he says he doesn’t like christmas anymore n he made me sad after he said that n i said i’d post coal through his letter box n he said i might as well n i was like okay this is an actual problem n now i’m gone be super nice to him at christmas bc he deserves so much more that the hand he’s been dealt. this convo happened after i let him try this herbal tea he said smelt nice n i said it tasted like christmas to me. he’s such a good person (despite literally everything he tells me about his past) n i cannot have him being a little humbug. god i think this crush i joked to you about is becoming a soft core friendship. like every fucking wattpad story out there. me n the girls agreed someone has to love him 🥺

okay im signing off now ily ~ 🌻

 i am glad you are feeling better though, nobody deserves to suffer. and nobody deserves to have their emotions invalidated. remember that your emotions matter at all times. <3

yesyes i am still in school !! altough my summer break started on july 1st so i am not that stressed about managing many things at once anymore hh,, also you are working so much ??? damn ?? please remember to take some breaks and relax !! and meet your friends !!! have fun. i know you are saving up money but please dont overwork yourself !

wHY ARE PEOPLE SO RUDE OH MY GOD I SWEAR,,, i learned that while working with people. i just,, it feels like they are all looking down on me just because i am young and work there part-time. like bro,,chill. also i feel kind of bad when they ask me where stuff is and i cant tell them bc i have no idea but at the same time if people were all introverts like me i wouldnt have this problem. :) dfjk jk jk i should improve on that. i wish people were more nice to you !!! who do they think they are ?? like,,,,,why are you rude. this is clearly not your problem.

i like it when people tell you respectfully. like the guy you mentioned. because clearly what are you going to do about the cold food when they’ve eaten it all. where’s the logic. 

IT SOUNDS LIKE HE IS OVER AT YOURS EVERY OTHER DAY DFJAKL that’s so funny. also i am bad at giving directions to my flat as well lmaoo poor ladies that drive me home from work sometimes. also i hate christmas as well lmaoo i feel that boy. its a little hard for me and i hope he doesn’t feel as bad during christmas this year when he has you around hihi,,, i fully stan this friendship. altough i am a big fan of friends to lovers if you know what i mean. in the energy of wattpad :))

ily !!!

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20xx/06/18

The site didn't work.

I left the info on the manager's desk. She's always been the nosy type, and I was certain she'd check out the information for shits and giggles. She did, and even made a point about calling me and my coworkers over.

Apparently it linked her to some weird site for purchasing sexy clown dolls. I'm just not sure what to think at this point. The site worked fine when I got home.

The hidden mic vanished too. No sign of it anywhere. I'm pissed off. But I just thought of a better idea anyways.

_____________________________________ 20xx/06/22

Once again, it's meeting time. Today, I made a point of getting there before the event was set to begin, mainly to get a better look at the full website before my stomach started churning.

Without the restrictions of being a Level 1, there's certainly a lot more available for purchase, and certainly not stuff as innocuous as garden tools. Some of the items available are huge, bizarre torture contraptions, available for rental at hundreds of dollars, or a full purchase at thousands.

There's also hundreds of videos archived for viewing, depicting the torture and murder of an indescribable number of people, mostly young men. Women only seem to get involved as a secondary effect, rather than being outright targeted. It's not all of them, however. Some of them are still stuck behind a paywall.

Little did anyone there know that I've been recording this entire time. I know that Alex doesn't keep anything more than the hidden mic around the house, so I decided to improvise with my phone. I guess it's kind of an obvious trick - I taped the phone down to my chest, just to make sure it wouldn't slide out of place, and disguised the camera as one of the buttons on a black shirt, using a little snap button I've made to keep it in place. Now, at least, even if the audio didn't pick up, I could still get visuals of the clubroom. I emptied my phone of as much data as I could, and made sure it was fully charged before leaving. As of this writing, I haven't checked the video - my phone ended up barely having two percent left by the end of it, so I'm typing this out as I'm waiting for it to charge.

Today, it was another recording from somewhere else. Rather than being a club recording, this was done from the home of one of their contracted killers, [NAME REDACTED AND ALSO INFO BECAUSE IT WOULDNT BE HARD TO FIGURE OUT WHO THIS PERSON IS FROM THAT HOOBOY] who, rather than being shown killing someone, had a bunch of random body parts, that she'd sewn together into a new, full body. I'm pretty sure that some of those parts were from the boys that were killed by Red Fox last week. The announcer had brought up that some of the pieces were donated by other members, but I found myself tuning out most of what she had to say. If the audio is still working in the video, I'll add an entry about what she specifically says later.

More importantly, however, was how the meeting ended.

There's a special lottery being planned out - the prize is a living, human being. It's apparently one of the test subjects from the FDN. The announcement described the subject as a "Type Two" that had "barely been used" and all it took for a chance to win was ten dollars per entry, though more entries could be bought. Everyone seemed really excited about this. I asked [NAME REDACTED] about it.

She told me that FDN subjects are one of the most expensive luxuries available for purchase. I double checked the computer about it before I left, the lowest price for one that I could find cost roughly 75 000 dollars, and most others were vastly more expensive, based on factors like age, test usage, and whether or not they were a type one, or a type two. All the photos looked like the same two people, at varying ages. The apparent reason for their luxury is, in fact, that these FDN test subjects are apparently immortal, most particularily, with Type Twos. Not a single type two, apparently, has even been recorded to have died, even from old age.

It sounds like fantasy bullshit. I have no clue how exactly a scam like that could work, but I can't really imagine that, after finding the key to immortality, that such a thing could be used for the sake of... well, everything I've been typing out in these entries. Regardless of any of that, I entered the draw. 

I hate the fact that I spent any money on the club, even just ten dollars for one entry, but on the off chance I'm lucky enough to actually win this Type Two subject, not only will I have an eyewitness to this clubs' misgivings, but I may, finally, save someone from the clutches of mistreatment, violence, and most likely, a horrible demise. I'll find out if I won or not at the next meeting. They plan on shipping out the subject to the winner so that they get him immediately once the winner's name is announced.

I feel really tired after typing all that out. I'm going to check the footage in the morning. ________________________________________________ 20xx/06/23

My phone is broken.

I found it cracked apart, and everything left plunged in the toilet.

I'm not sure who could've done this. I'm not a heavy sleeper, and if someone was in the house, grabbed my phone, and smashed it, I should've heard it. I at least know how it get broken. I found the hammer in the garage, covered in tiny bits of plastic, plasma, and glass. The window to the garage is slightly ajar, so it might be possible that they managed to sneak in and out without needing to break anything. I checked for fingerprints, but I didn't find any other than my own and Alex's.

Though, last night, I did also have a glass of soda at the meeting, at least as an attempt to make myself look less conspicuous. Perhaps they've known all along, and laced my drink with something. I did wake up later than usual, though that also may have to do with the fact that my phone was also my alarm clock. At least it's a Saturday.

I should be careful when I go to the next meeting. __________________________________________________

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i didn't mention it in the last post, but im pretty sure i know what shes talking about with this fdn stuff

one of those times i got in trouble with the csis involved a bunch of weird documents i found that talked about the existence of a place with that name specifically, it stood for future day neverland

its a lab or something and apparently has some nasty history with [NAME REDACTED] which is pretty funny considering theyre both real involved with warren tech

EDIT: oops i wasnt supposed to say that name