#how tf did I end up writing so much fic for this fandom? i haven't written this much fic in years or ever sheesh

[kaizsche]

You are such an incredible writer, but you’re also an amazing gif maker! So, what’s your favourite gif set that you’ve made this year? Also, what is the fic that you’re most excited to write in the new year? Thanks for being such an incredible friend Kai 🥰

(literally me seeing your ask and am i copying q's answer to her own ask? the answer is yaaaaaaaaas.)

i don't really see myself as an AMAZING gif maker and an INCREDIBLE writer so to hear all these compliments from you is just straight up melting my goddamn heart vis. *teary-eyed emoji cos im in pc*

so to ask your... well... ask, i haven't been kind of productive this year, both in writing and editing stuff so i can't say i have a wide selection to choose from, but here's my ultimate fav gifset. like fr.

which predictably is a gifset from your fic which i've gotten so much interaction on and just having you message me about this was just... it honestly made me cry so yeah...

the freaking 'i know you have a lot of fic planned this year' just cracked me tf up. like... you and q know i go all ramble kai on anything resembling my fic ideas so you know what i already have in store next year...

first off, i am sooo excited to finally enter the spuffy writing fandom so there's that. i already have like 20+ spuffy wips in my docs rn but the most excited i am for next year are these two, i think: (and i'll be letting y'all take a lil peek of them)

sun and moon

“Who are you?” The Slayer demanded. Buffy could hear the restless fear simulating his heart and the cautious steps he took to back away from her. Smart Slayer. So he has honed his skills then? Knew she was different from the other vampires he dealt around the small town. Buffy grinned wickedly. It’ll be fun to dance with this one. “I kill your kind for sport, Slayer.” She let her words stew in the air, watched him put the pieces together—inch by agonizing inch.

spuffy dark fic (warning has possible incest!)

Joyce's heart stopped completely. Because standing at the door, a boy, her son she hadn't seen in years stood before her. Joyce had wanted to believe he changed—hair longer and tied at the back of his neck, still dressed in his boarding school's uniform but a few sizes bigger than she had first seen him—it was his eyes that gave him away.  It was cold and unfeeling. He regarded her as if she wasn't his mother, as if she was nothing to him at all. "Joyce."  "William—" She watched his gaze snap over her shoulder and at once, the piercing cold melted into warm fondness as did the trembling tension in his body. "Hello, cutie." "Will!"  Buffy barrelled past her, leaping in his arms and she wasn't afraid, she trusted him to catch her. William staggered a few feet back from the impact, wrapping one arm across her waist and the other held her bottom to prevent her from falling. "You're here. You're really here."  William held Joyce's gaze, a muscle in his jaw twitching as if to dare her to scold him—to remove him once more out of his Buffy's life.  "Never gonna happen, love. I'll be here forever. I promise."  Buffy sighed happily, enjoying the feel of his warmth, his hands on her. Joyce sighed in resignation, turning away from the challenge in his eyes.  "It's cold outside. Come in." At this, William grinned. "Thanks, mum."

last but not least, how could i forget tvd?

take my breath rewrite (kolena + klena) i mean how can i ever resist kolena theyre like my main otp. i go batshit crazy for them.

Elena gravitates towards the lake, stares at her reflection in the water. Hates her face and her blood more than she realizes. She loved her face and her body once upon a time. Now, all it ever does is haunt her every step and shadow surrounded by men who knew every crevice of her body. They knew her better than she ever did. (It is the face that launched a thousand year curse, damning the girls that carried it. Reduced to nothing but objects in a man’s eyes. Katherine was right. I am always right. She hears her taunting giggle and sees her twin’s knowing smirk. I told you so. Nothing could ever bring more joy to her evil doppelganger than proving that she was right.)

kolena roommates au (this was actually inspired by a spuffy fic i read LOL)

"Okay, 20 questions." "Go." "Who's your favorite?" "Favorite who?" Kol groaned. "Favorite Mikaelson sibling," and looked at her bashfully, like he was expecting her to… say his name? "Rebekah." He yelled out an indignant cry, "What a load of bollocks! You're telling me, after everything we've been through, I'm still—" "You are a favorite," She cut him off.  "Really?" He gaped at her, astonished.  "My least favorite." She bit hard on her tongue, seeing the sheer disappointment and anguish encroaching on his face. And somehow, his voice had gotten louder, belting out at a higher register than Mariah Carey. "I rank lower than even bloody Niklaus?!"

i do hope to be as productive as i was in 2022 when it comes to publishing fics cause i'll really wither and die if i don't manage to publish these four.

special fic mentions:

the song of wandering aengus

banish air from air

only, helen (tentative title)

and from your lips she drew the hallelujah

& special user mentions for just being there for me (listening, suggesting, reading) when i was going batshit crazy over my fic ideas. you're all wonderful ppl and i'm glad to have you in my life <3

@katherineholmes @qvnthesia @finnismyoriginalsin

thank you so much for this ask, vis <3 love ya 5ever

[nemobeatrice]

Fic Writing Questions Tag

Thank you for tagging me, @hunter-sylvester!

1. How many fics do you have on AO3?

I have 62. It'll look like I have 53 if you don't have an account. Some of my fic are restricted.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

248,908. Gees...

3. What fandoms do you write for?

JJBA, Elder Scrolls, WoW, Shrek, Saints Row, Elden Ring, and Dragon Age. I also wrote a hate fic about Onision. I hope he goes to jail. It was something I wrote way back in 2012, but I posted it on July 13, 2021. However, I mostly write for JJBA.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

So I got Bored and Wrote this for my Friends (JJBA) E (for explicit)

JoJo's Azeroth Adventures (JJBA and WoW) M

(Was) Stuck in Traffic (JJBA) E

Fugo Meets his Minecraft Boyfriend (JJBA) Gen Aud

Daisies and Roses (JJBA) T

I'm not going to provide a link to my explicit fics, sorry.

5. Do you respond to comments?

Most of the time. When people compliment my fics, I say thanks. I don't know how else to respond. 😅

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I mostly write fluffy feel good fics BUT..........................I did write this, teehee! c:

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Hmm, I've written a lot of stuff. That could be any of them. Uh, this, I guess.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I haven't received any hate, yet. But I do mostly write JJBA fanfic, so I expect a hate message.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do, but I don't write much of it. It's crack.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Oh, yeah! This one is probably the craziest.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of. I hope people alert me if that happens.

12. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

My brother and I have written some chapters for certain fics.

13. What’s your all time favourite ship?

Poly La Squadra and Shrohan (Shrek x Rohan). Oh, and FuGio.

14. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

The Golden Miners is a WIP, but I'll finish the next chapter sometime in December.

15. What are your writing strengths?

Gee, I don't know. I guess people like it when I write something funny.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

I'm not good with grammar. Tbh, I don't know how tf I graduated high school.

Hmm, and I guess details too. I read one of my fics (a smutty one) during stream, and my brother kept wanting more details about certain scenes. I just think some details aren't necessary for the reader to know, but maybe I'm wrong.

Oh, and then there's editing. Omfg, the typos I make.

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I usually avoid doing that. If I'm writing in English, the whole thing is going to be in English.

18. First fandom you wrote for?

Elder Scrolls.

19. Favourite fic you’ve written?

Hiking in Murren, Switzerland because I love how I made Diavolo a disaster. Domestic Life with Diavolo because I enjoy a bit of slice of life. Trip to Crystal Mountain because I loved Crystal Mountain so much that I wrote about it but with one of my fav ships. Liurnia's Burger King because my friend really loves beating children up and calling the enemies Burger King employees.

Oh, and I do love this one chapter my brother and I wrote.

I know two people I could tag, but I don't think they get along. So... anyone who wants to do it.

[piccolina-mina]

Why petend you care about alex and forlex? stick to miluca and go

Why pretend you care about Alex and Forlex? stick to Miluca and go

on and tell folks where to find your rambly impromptu platonic, familial, and romantic multishipping fic? Sure, nonny. #ShamelessSelfPromotionSaturdays.

Interested in me totally not caring about Alex Manes at all, no siree, not me. Nope?

Don’t You Know Who I Think I Am? - Kinda have this thing about Alex and Rosa being kindred spirits in a way, so if you’re into the idea of two emo punks taking a ride into the desert and having a totally emo chat that may or may not be focused on Alex and his ongoing quest to find himself, then hey, knock yourself out. Rosalex feels. 

The Taste of Ink: Here’s the thing, I’ve kinda been trash for Max and Alex since that high school episode. So, I finally had to put my fascination with this into words. Hence, a high school AU about an emo punk musician and his friends-to-lovers relationship with a soft, emo nerd with a knack for cheesy prose. Manevans Rights. They still haven’t fed me this dynamic this season, and I’m bummed about it. But alas, Manevans is still my jam. 

Just Me out here miluca-ing. Only, Miluca, nothing else, just Miluca. Yep. Yep. 

What’s that? Oh, an Echo:

On Wintery Nights: Sometimes, I kinda, accidentally have mushy feelings and like care about people and stuff, so sometimes I write them things. But don’t judge me, Nonny. Against my efforts, I am, sadly, human. But if you’re into sexy fluff, I mean, domesticated Echo, and snow, and showers, and cuteness? I mean, sure, it’s all squishy and cute. Shut up. 

Fire & Lightning: My version of Max returning was pretty damn basic, but heavily elemental. But hey, who doesn’t love a little Echo writhing beneath the moonlight? Rainy days and indie songs set a mood, I guess. 

*looks around* So, as the resident DeLevans fangirl...

Holding the Universe Together: All I’m saying is Max still pining after Liz is kinda adorable, but throwing Maria in makes everything better. It’s totally platonic, but listen, I’m also here for romantic DeLevans too, don’t shame me. 

But listen, Kyliz tho:

Compasses - Kyle is my heart. And Liz had his. And darn it all, I had to pay homage to how adorable they are with snapshots of their relationship, and OK so it’s a lot of feels and angst. Apparently, that’s my thing. Sorry!

Kyle is like a fine wine, and I do mean Fine. That man goes well with just about everything and every freaking one. Haven’t even begun to scratch the surface of Kyle ships TBH...

Muy Calenti? 

Desert Dust’em: Jenna and Kyle get a fire shipname because they're en Fuego.  Muy caliente. You want sweaty, post workout Kyle and Jenna getting a little loving before she skips town? Sure. Knock yourself out. 

Kyluca?

But Who Takes Care of You? - Wild tumbleweeds rolling across this ‘ship, but I don’t care, I don’t care, I don’t care. Kyluca will be absolutely perfect friends and perfect friends to lovers, and this is just how I envision they are or would be because God knows they aren’t giving us much to work with here. *grumbles*

Oh this one is fun...

Something Unexpected - The title literally says it all. Kyle going on an unexpected date with someone no one saw coming. Truly cracked. And gift giving and being a little ish are apparently who I am. I don’t know. ;)

I don't even go here and yet ...

The Art of Reciprocity- I don't even go here. At all. But someone I like does, and I can play in the sandbox. Isobel thirsting for Kyle and not having boundaries? Kyle being as patient as a saint and doling out advice? You like a taste of kysobel/kybel? Sick fic? Isobel attempting to grow? Ozark? Well ...

Of course, there are also what I guess can best be described as Witchmina Productions. And if I’m being honest, this doesn’t even BEGIN to cover the amount of stuff @mercenarywitch and I have spun or came up with, intentional or accidental. Also known as the queer rights collection apparently. 

My Best Friend’s Wedding AU: Malex :( but Kylex :):  Yes, it’s Miluca. But it’s also Malex and Kyles too Because malex angst works, and Kylex is life. 

My Best Friend’s Wedding AU: Echo :( Marliz :) - Honestly, Echo, CamEvans, and Marliz rights, man. 

Bad Habit/Whiskey and Wine: Because sometimes when she makes FIRE moodboards, mini-fics just come out. Also, CamLiz are HOT AF. So, hey. Two hot girls flirting at a bar. Good times. 

Family and Friendship Feels, You ask?  

What Matters is the Now: The DelTecho girls with Arturo and Mimi at Christmas with a special appearance by Kyle? Mimi and Maria Feels? Rosa and Liz feels? Arturo and Rosa feels? FEELS? Yup, yup.

Spice Up Your Life:  Young Deltecho girls and Mimi for Halloween. Yes, it’s about the spice girls. Shut up. 

Honorary Ortecho: Because the show still hasn’t delivered on that Arturo and Maria goodness, but screw it. 

Magic In Her Bones: Because Mimi and Maria have all the black girl magic, screw that tiny little town. 

Salsa Sundays - Totally in there somewhere. Mimi, Liz, Maria, Arturo. Kyle. Good times. Fun stuff. 

Pod Squad & Friends on Movie Night - Because sometimes crack is fun. With an eclectic bunch like that, picking a movie when they hang out is an event. 

I’mma let you in on a little secret, Nonny. This isn’t even everything. 

It’s bad. Kinda embarrassing. There are flashfics in the archives that have never seen the light of day, buried in drafts and conversations. 

Oh ... oh damn, I forgot to add the miluca! 

[south-park-meta]

Yeah Stan being a (and arguably 'the') main character is definitely a big part of it. The other part of it is that his problems and his reactions to those problems are the most frequently grounded in reality when they're the focal point of episodes. I mean, look, he goes through the same shit the other kids go through in ways that get a big shoulder shrug too. He's been shot twice. He's been shot at multiple times. The kids have been chased around a hotel by pedophiles-- Stan himself has been stripped at tied up as bait for pedophiles even if nothing 'happened'. Even the 'being held down and forced to drink' thing of YGO I mentioned yesterday is pretty extremist. These sorts of traumas for Stan and all of the other kids get handwaved both in the show and in fandom. Point blank period, you're not going to find tons and tons of 10,000 word fics about how Stan's parents didn't care about him getting shot either time he did because 1. the narrative framed it as unimportant in the show/it was extremist and kind of a joke to the end his parents usually DO care if things that extremely bad happen to him and 2. Frankly you aren't going to have that many people who relate to getting shot twice as kid and having their parents shrug their shoulders about it lol

The traumas you're going to see focused on by and large are going to be the depression. The drinking. The alcoholic dad. The living in a remote place away from your friends. The familial mental health problems that lead to a deterioration of relationships-- Randy used to be quite a bit nicer to Stan and has been increasingly mean to him as his own mental health has gone down. THOSE kind of experiences are more easily transferrable, more easily relatable. Those sorts of experiences aren't uniquely Stan's in the show. Other kids do go through the more 'relatable' negative experiences, too. But they really haven't been the focus nearly as much as Stan's, and they're more likely to be more tied up in the extreme experiences no one relates to. Stan gets more of the 'grounded' portions of episodes (like just more family time) even when nothing bad is happening. And a lot of SP fadom is pretty young, like high school age, so the 'family' and 'depression' and 'drinking' stuff is the part they're going to be gravitating to. And in that vein, they are naturally going to amp up the sympathy for the character they're relating to.

There's a lot of the portrayals of Stan that annoy me. I disagree with a lot of them, including the ways he's portrayed as depressed and whatever. Fandom's made me hate goth Stan and Raisins is one of my favorite episodes lmao-- I feel by and large it's leaned into in a way that misses Stan's entire character and instead just one or two cheap traits that he wasn't even ACTUALLY into in the episode. I'm pretty critical of how people portray Stan both in a 'dude that's OOC' way and 'This is a problematic view of depression/alcoholism/etc'.

And there are reasons I think other characters need more sympathy-- like I said in another post, a lot of the hate for some characters is rooted in things like racism or sexism, and for that reason I think more care needs to be taken in portraying them well and fairly. So there are reasons I think it also needs to be addressed when other characters are being beat tf down in fics that are highly sympathetic to characters like Stan whose hate isn't going to be tied up in any kind of bigotry.

But there is a lot to it that's difficult for me to criticize when it comes to just the base idea of a main character that far, far more writers are relating to is going to have more OTT-sympathetic indulgent fics about them. Particularly when it comes to characters that don't get much screen time. There's a lot of it that I feel is a numbers game (more people writing about character X than character Y as the POV character) rather than proportionally 'Fans of Character X write more sympathetically about them than Fans of Character Y', and I see that argument more than the huge criticisms I have with the same core issue.

I decided to make an original post kind-of-sort-of about the discourse I saw yesterday since I was mentioned in part of it.

I'm pretty eh to people being annoyed by Stan being babied in fandom. There are elements of that that annoy me personally. I complained to my friend last night that a lot of fans are saying Stan's their fav Post Covid because they love him specifically as a 'loser', and getting in on this weird pathetic middle-aged man trope when, aside from being an alcoholic, he's basically in the exact same boat as Kyle (having a job and a place to live with no marital family; in that vein I also think it's notable that Kyle's living in South Park and his family home specifically, and arguably less independent on this front). There is a weird tendency in fandom to make mental health and addiction issues into something that's SOMEHOW a sign of incompetency, a sign of needing pity, and something cute and charming. Fandom does, on a whole, get pretty patronizing when it comes to addiction and depression. And as a result of that I do think that some fans baby Stan or act like he has it worst. I'm not sure if this is something I feel the need to call out. But it is pretty prevalent and I do think it's annoying.

There are also elements of it where I'm like 'every main character will have people being overly sympathetic and that will be countered by people being annoyed by that character being babied' and it's just something that happens when you have a bunch of fans of different characters talking both to fans of every character AND talking AROUND fans of other characters to just talk to the fans that also like their fav the best. Tumblr (and fandom as a whole) is something that's kind of insulated in niche groups, but it also has a tendency to leak those views out into the open waters of the rest of fandom. So there are some views that are extremist but are kind of meant to be kept to fans of that same thing in the way people are a bit more OTT talking to friends than they are stranger. But it's impossible for that to be actually true in the medium being used. To some extent the 'my fav has it worse' is just a part of it for every fav and is just more obvious when you see it about a character that's not your fav. So my own feelings on all of it is kind of a mix of there are valid criticisms that get muddied up with biases when it comes to pm every character.

Like if you read romantic Style you're going to run into many fics of Stan being a depressed alcoholic who needs all the TLC in the world and Kyle is just so mean and doesn't understand the depths of his pain.

If you read romantic Kyman, you're going to run into many fics of Cartman was a misunderstood baby who harassed Kyle out of misguided love but he's grown up now and so nice and handsome...and he needs to protect Kyle from big mean alcoholic Stan who verbally abuses his SBF.

If you read Bunny or Crenny, you're likely to run into 'all of the other 3 in Stan's gang are so mean and ignore Kenny all the time, he only has one true connection and it's Butters or Craig'.

The eye-rolling sympathy, and the matching eye-roling villainization, is something that is going to change depending on what circle of fandom you like to frequent.

Addressing it as an issue of characterization when Stan tends to be fairly good at handling himself despite being depressed or drinking, or from an angle of 'it's pretty gross to be so patronizing to people who have mental illnesses or substance abuse disorders in acting like they either 1. Are SO incompetent they can't do shit or 2. just can't help themselves in being mean to those they love and have no accountability for their actions' is different than the way I see it addressed a lot of the time.

Most of the time I've seen it addressed it's really more 'babying stan is unfair to my fav' which is like...true I guess, sure, but I feel misses the crux of why it's an actual problem outside of 'everyone's fav is going to be babied depending on what part of fandom you're in' and often does include comments like, "I get so irritated when people say that Stan has "daddy issues". One of the Marsh kids DOES have daddy issues but it isn't him" and delegitimizes the problems Stan does have instead of making a case for why he should be a full functional person despite having problems.