#hour ago so we'll see. that was actually scary yesterday

[stepfordgoth]

I'm so fucking dramatic lmao why was it that yesterday when I was experiencing a painful issue that I thought could've possibly been something life threatening, the first thing I did about it was start posting on tumblr asking for advice? Girl come on

[cat-26]

i have come back to tumblr to find people are deciding who is the mcyt tumblr sexyman and that techno and scar are fighting each other. wild times. 

beacon please sleep. you should not go 25+ hours without sleep. the lab can wait a few hours.

CONGRATS ON YOUR PAPER! i submitted one like 2 weeks ago and i'm still waiting to hear back, but i'm read to be annoyed at the reviewers for just not getting what i meant and making me do more work.

please do wait the recommended 6 weeks for another peircing. but also. after that. GO FOR IT. (i would never do it because i am a coward so i'm content with normal ear piercing i got as a kid)

ugh. i've decided post docs are in general not good for the lab ecosystem. most of them have nothing to lose, they are mean to not-phd people, and they think they don't have to work. i am very happy your toxic post doc is gone and that now you get a new desk. (if you can, i highly recommend a little plant. mine makes me smile when my research sucks).

BEACON i literally learned how to crochet like 1 week ago. i made a little tiny bee (i'll try to remember to post a photo). it is so relaxing. (i used to cross-stitch but i have a grandma's wrists so it hurt if i cross-stitched for too long) (crochet is great so far) and i was thinking i'll ask my labmates what their favorite animals are and if they are easy to crochet i might make little plushies for them! that's a funny coincidence! :D appart from that i'm still doing scrapbooking which is always fun and then i get to actually look at the pictures we all take all the time

i am doing great! my phd is still not done, but we'll get there (i hope). i was an internship in the summer i'm exited about, and after that it's write thesis time to be out by may 2024 at the latest. i've been learning how to fly, i did my first landings yesterday (it is Scary. pointing straight at the ground is scary, and then you have to like rotate the plane close to the ground to be parallel to the runway which is somehow worse because then you can't even see the ground) but my instructor is great so that helps a lot. also i sy scary but it's also so so fun

also i have to say, i want to make like a sign that says "deep in the trenches of scientific research hell and fighting for my life" to put at my desk for when Those Weeks happen. or maybe make it my email signature (haha imagine answering some high-ranking industry guy's email with that)

things that helped me stressing a bit less in grad school so far: no work on weekend (except if big deadline is coming up), no work after i get home if i worked all day in the lab, realizing my advisor is there to help me, not be mean to me.

anyway, i am glad you are doing better now, and i hope your new resolutions help! having whimsy is always good, and i have to remind myself not to lose it too much.

HELLO BEACON!! long time no talk. how's life? how's the lab? i hope you're doing well :) -cat

BELOVED CAT @cat-26

in all honesty, i put off answering this ask for four days bc at the time of receiving this message i was deep in the trenches of scientific research hell and fighting for my life.

but despite being awake for 25 consecutive hours and counting, i am doing much better today and it is cold but it is sunny and a friday and i can probably leave lab early

i got a new ear piercing three weeks ago and i already want another one. but i’m gonna be a responsible adult and wait the full 6 weeks of recovery before getting another one. if not for the physical health of my earlobe, then for my wallet.

finally parted ways w my toxic postdoc. turns out, maybe i don’t hate science maybe i just hate getting repeatedly gaslit and overworked by my mentor 🤪 it’s been a Rough week and a half. and i’m Tired. but it’s Over now and i have a new desk and lab bench and everything. i still gotta move all my equipment over though. hopefully our manuscript is like fully published by may so that smthg good comes out of all of this, i think it’s like 95% done.

i’m trying to get into crocheting. gonna go to the nearest craft store (which is not that near) to get starter supplies. i wanna be able to crochet those cute stuffed animals for my friends.

and my 2023 resolutions are to 1. (over)think less and 2. introduce more whimsy into my life. i’m doing pretty well on both fronts. i saw the green comet on wednesday. pretty neat.

how have you been? i hope 2023 has been going well for you!! are you done w your phD yet? one of my friends got accepted to their second favorite phd program last week