#him storming off after saying sam is abby’s fiancé

[gregmarriage]

fascinating to me, that while abby was gone, she gained a fiancé and two step daughters, and buck gained a husband and a son, and buck isn’t aware of said husband and son, because he thinks they’re just his best friend and his son, who he sometimes has play dates with 🤦🏼‍♀️

[narniangirl1994]

The scene on the train in 3x18 where Eddie says "It's Abby, his fiancée is Abby" with disgust and then storms off has been interpreted by a lot of people as jealousy. And while I'd like to think that somewhere deep down (or not so deep?) it was, I read it moreso as fear and indignation on behalf of Buck.

How could Buck, this incredible person who has just as much worth as anyone else, so willingly risk his life (above and beyond the call of duty) to save this man on behalf of the very woman who broke his heart? How can he value himself so little to put himself in danger like this (after everything he'd just been through) all for a woman who didn't value him enough to let him go?

I read this scene as Eddie having more care for Buck's life than Abby herself. Yes, Abby was desperate and terrified, but she also knows better than most how selflessly reckless Buck can be and how devoted he always was to her. She knew her fiance was likely in a dangerous predicament and didn't once bother to say "be careful" to Buck as he went off, promising to bring her fiance back.

I know she couldn't know for sure what exactly the situation would entail, but it still struck me as her putting her fiance's life above Buck's own and being ok with any danger he might face as a result of Buck's love for her. Again, I'm not blaming her for the situation or Buck's choices, but as a former first responder who knows what Buck is like, she should know better than anyone what it means for Buck to promise her they'd bring Sam back...

I wish we could have had her acknowledge his worth in that final scene (after Sam hopefully would have enlightened her about what Buck did on the train). On top of thanking him for everything he did to save Sam and apologizing for the way she left things with Buck, a part of me wishes she would have tried to make him understand that he doesn't have to give everything to someone else in order to deserve love or have worth.

But if she had, we might never have had Buck's therapy arc where an objective professional is finally helping Buck realize his own worth. Self worth can't truly come from others, ultimately it has to come from within (although support and affirmation from others certainly helps).

So ultimately I think that scene was critical to Buck's development, but it was still tragic to see Buck (and in some ways, Abby herself) value his life so little. At least it was nice to see just how much Eddie (and Bobby) cared about Buck...

[deluweil]

So as a request was made yesterday for the 3x18 buddie this is my choice of Eddie gif (read gifs coz this may get a little long) for today:

We’ve covered the five stages of Eddie’s reaction yesterday which was - “Oh shit this is Abby, she is rude and ginger (for Dr. Who fans;) ), bitch has a fiancé and will now get my man killed because she knows he is really a big marshmallow inside and will probably get himself killed just so that she can be happy, I hate her.” 

If that wasn’t enough, Buck made a stupid promise to Abby (which seriously, any rookie knows -be it a doctor, a teacher or a first responder - you do not make promises you aren’t 100% sure you can keep, and really even then, don’t.) and as we learn later Eddie knew about that. Either he hung back and waited for Buck to join him, or Buck told him himself, Eddie now knows that this is going to turn dangerous, because Buck, bless his big reckless heart, will do whatever it takes to fulfil that promise, one way or the other, and I bet you all Eddie was praying all the way up the car that 1. the dude is alive and 2. no dangerous rescue will be needed. 

But of course that wasn’t the case, as luck would have it this turned into one life or another and Eddie was put in a position where he’s the one as the medic who has to make the choice. And you can see on his face how much he hates the fact that Bobby puts him in this position because, he has to be the one to look into Buck’s baby blue eyes and tell him that he may have to break that promise.

Moving on Buck continues to insist on saving both Sam and the girl and comes up with one of the craziest ideas ever (it worked, who am I to judge?;)) and really “I know this is a lot heavier than a firetruck”? I wanted  to hit Buck over the head!

This was pretty much the breaking point for Eddie, in my opinion. Eddie who was there when the truck exploded, who had to stand and watch his friend, his best friend being crushed by a firetruck, not two weeks (was it?) after losing Shannon and not being able to go help him, because of some crazy kid and a bomb.

Who was there for the silent tears, and the defeated “kinda numb” and the screaming that followed while trying to get the truck off his leg, and the race to the hospital. 

Why 9-1-1 writers chose for Carla, Maddie and Ali to be the first faces he saw when awake is beyond me. 

We all know it was supposed to be, either the entire team or Eddie and Christopher. Chimney got Christopher, why not Buck? Who is way WAY closer to the Diaz boys than Chimney.

But, I digress. Eddie was not down with his partner sacrificing himself for the woman who hurt him and left him, and moved on without so much as a word.

This scene up there has been the talk of the fandom for ages, because obviously Eddie's face is contorted in a way that can be construed in so many ways.

At this point I think Eddie was expecting Buck to level with Bobby, to tell him the truth. And when Buck doesn't, Eddie is at the end of his rope, because Buck just lied to Bobby, fully expecting Eddie to do the same thing. 

But Eddie knew that Bobby was the only one with the authority to stop Buck’s crazy plan, so he brilliantly (in my opinion anyway) threw Buck under the bus in the hopes that Bobby will see that this is an emotionally based decision and refuse Buck’s plea to go outside the car.

Also knowing that he had no control over the situation, Eddie wasn’t just frustrated at his friend’s refusal to see reason, he was hurt that his voice, his own plea to Buck to not go through with the plan was not heard. 

And yes he was angry that Abby still had such a sway over Buck, because in his opinion (and really everybody else’s) she should have lost that a long time ago.

So really Eddie didn’t have anything else to do but sit back and watch this disastrous conversation with Bobby taking place knowing that their captain is going to lose because really Buck is too stubborn and persuasive for his own good. (Also Bobby is sort of useless when associated with Buck, just saying.)

So he storms off, making his displeasure known quite effectively (and yes dramatically), but really he couldn’t very well turn to his Not-Currently-His-Boyfriend and yell at his face that he shouldn’t be doing this for that ungrateful bitch who up and left him and came back with a fiancé. That Eddie didn’t want to lose him and how the hell is he supposed to go home and tell Christopher that “His Buck” isn’t coming back barely a year after losing his mother. - That'd just be unprofessional. ;)

Obviously, once it was decided that Buck will be going out there, Eddie was completely with him, watching his back as best as he can, he even made it out of the train after the rescue, as quickly as possible, to be at Buck’s side (front) when Abby and Sam were loaded into the ambulance. 

(my take on that scene is in last night’s post.)  

Through the buddie goggles again:

- Before I sum up this rescue and the rest of the episode, there is one thing everyone were overlooking - Buck’s mind was made up the second he learned that Sam was a father. 

Eddie and Bobby lost the argument before it started because Sam was a dad with two daughters waiting for him at home. - In my opinion, it wasn’t about Abby at this point, it was about Eddie and Christopher. 

Even Buck’s argument wasn’t about Sam being Abby’s fiancé, it was about him having two daughters.  🤔🤔

I can go on forever about this episode simply because it was SO GOOD, buy it is 3:20am here so I will leave you with this little gem:

The biggest Buddie gem wasn’t during the rescue, it was at the wrapping song of this episode at May’s party.

The song - Only You is playing in the background and among the couples taking pictures together Eddie and Buck show up too not once, but twice.

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Wow this turned out a hell of a lot longer than I planned 😅 if you made it this far, thank you 💕💕💕

hope you enjoyed this. ❤❤❤