#hihihihih i'm excited

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TAG CHAİN!

anyone who has bbu oc(s), put their image and the song(s) that it would be their song if they we're in the game.

"The Main Character" from Will wood,

"This Hurts" from MSİ,

And "Eyes On Me" from OR3O

@whosralf @sunny-tano19 @sonicphobia0601 @eeveestarstudios-blog @greenghostreal @silver143726 @multi-fandom-official-account @mateom32 @neyanihedgehog @shieldshocker @jjthestarsposts @kek-bebra and any fella who come across!

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Hihihihih omg thanks for the tags!! I too fucking love these games, so let's go!

favorite color and why:

purple, basically because I'm bi lmao. I basically "picked" purple when I was in my recently-picked-a-label-and-am-so-excited-about-being-queer phase yk? like when all your videos are about being queer, and you dress like a walking stereotype, that was really fun!! But I got a bit tired and it just fizzled out, but the purple sticked! (Idk if that's the right conjugation in this tense lmao). But yeah I loved that phase, and I love that it was a phase cause it was so important to me (though I know not everyone goes though it lol), and it passing doesn't make it any less significant like people who say "it's just a phase" like to imply, so that feels very empowering to me lol. Also purple just goes well with my wardrobe and other things lol.

pessimistic, optimistic, or realistic:

depends on for what honestly, for thinking about the future im very much optimistic, probably a bit too much (like in a bad way), but I'm very anxious and like paranoid so usually im more pessimistic, but it can go any way honestly

name a song that speaks to your soul:

I have a bunch so I'll list some and explain:

Do me a favor by Arctic Monkeys- the crying, the implicit nature of the feelings but with clear demonstrations (I repress my feelings but they manage to show off anyway), need to be hurt in order to punish myself when I fuck up, not liking answering questions, shit at communication period, it was one of my first favourite songs as well

What was I made for by Billie Eilish- the feeling lost, the gfeeling of objectification, the not feeling real, the small hope that I'll find it out or figure everything out someday, not wanting to worry my boyfriend with me, not understanding or knowing how to feel or how I am feeling

The Ghost of You by My Chemical Romance- first of all I love MCR so they had to be included lmao, pessimistic paranoid thinking with abandonment and loneliness, deadly scared of losing the one you love, powerlessness, general devastation, always questioning yourself

melhor sozinha :-)-: by Luísa Sonza- the song is called "better alone" and the chorus is "im much better alone, you know? but maybe there's just a little corner around, and it can fit a bit, barely anything, I dont make much room, so think, so try" and like, if im alone, I cant fuck anyone else up, but I love being around people so please please try for me show me I matter because I need you. Yk? That might be a bit TMI lol

Nobody gets me by SZA- jealousy and not liking myself when im alone but feeling like im a better happier person around others and being desperately afraid of losing them

Are you bored yet? by Wallows ft. Clairo- feel like people don't like me and I'm weird and people don't and won't like to talk to me and scared they'll stop wanting me

Heartilation by AJJ- not wanting to feel things emotionally and transferring them to physical cause it's less hard. Also self hate and low self esteem, also the losing speech when nervous thing specifically

Alvorada by Cartola- finally a happy song!!! A very sweet samba or MPB I'm not sure about how in the hills the sun shines and people sing and dance together and nature smiles, it speaks to the hopeful part of my soul and how happy my bf makes me feel (he's the one who showed me this song as well)

Francis forever by Mitski- I actually played this song on bass and sang it at a school presentation cause I love it so much!! It's the needing to be seen and noticed and demanding attention from my partner so much and even though they give so much you feel like you still need them more than they need you, and you're low-key obsessed, while knowing you're not perfect and not needing others to think highly of you, just that special person, and the fleeting of the warmth when you're with someone aaaaa so many feelings

I wasn't made to fall in love by Miko- self descriptive lmao

Last words of a shooting star by Mitski- suicidal thoughts and feeling grateful for the unexpected sometimes despite usually being terrified of it, wanting to appear good but still being distant, shark mention so marine biology which I love

Being so normal by peach pit- this whole album makes my soul weep, but this song especially speaks to a real fear of mine of moving away from people, naturally, and noticing how much you've changed and how everything has changed and you've barely noticed and where has time gone and who actually are you and what are you doing and where are you going you dont know do you. Anyway. This song.

what’s your favorite quote:

honestly I dont really know, there's this one I really like from Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea: "Nature's creative power is far beyond man's instinct of destruction.” as well as one in a book called All the Bright Places which really impacted me and I always randomly remember it- "It's so lovely to be lovely to the one I love" but I also love to quote vines and Tumblr posts

if you could change your name, what would you change it to:

I use hyacinth on the internet and I like it but it's hard to pronounce it in portuguese so I think I'd just go with Ju, which is an abbreviation of my name and a bit gender neutral for when I switch genders

Again thanks for the tags bestie and im so sorry for the massive post lmao

tagging: @donuts4evry1 @greywoman2004 @cherry-bird420

Hey!

So, I decided to create this random chain for no reason (probably because of the sleep deprivation). It's probably not gonna work but... Heh.

Basically, you just have to answer the questions and tag whoever you want.

What's your favorite color and why?

Mine's green and... Well, it's kinda hard to explain. Basically, I was sorted into Slytherin and I was like, really sad because all my friends were Gryffindors. But then I started accepting the fact and after some time I kinda became obsessed with the Slytherin house. I became so obsessed that my favorite color became green after some time. Basically that's the story of why my favorite color is green. I know, boring.

Pessimistic, optimistic or realistic?

I'm a realistic, but I'm rooting towards the pessimistic. I like to see things the way they are, but my anxiety might also exaggerate some bad things that I think might happen to me.

Name a song that speaks to your soul.

Waving Through A Window from Dear Evan Hansen. The lyrics always seem to speak to me, specially these last days. Because... That's how I feel. I'm trying to speak, but I feel like nobody can hear, so I learned how to hide, how to "slam on the break". I'm afraid I'll make a mistake, but I also want to be heard.

What's your favorite quote?

To be honest, I'm not the type of person that memorizes quotes, but if I had to pick one of the ones that I know, I'd choose "Humor was a good way to hide the pain." from Heroes of Olympus, Rick Riordan. Leo is one of the characters that I relate the most in the Camp Half-Blood Chronicles, and quote fits me perfectly.

If you could change your name (and if you want to), what would it be?

Okay, so, I've been thinking a lot about this, since I want to change my name to something neutral. I think I would change my name to Erin. It's a beautiful name, it's not gendered and it sounds good with my surname (that's important for me, since my surname is weird as f*ck). I'm still not sure, but I really think this is it.

Tagging:

@w1s3g1rl @guskinnie @dollythesheepp @im-gay-and-mentally-unstable @kurtkellyisgay @lesbianjaredkleinman @rich-goranksi-stan

I don't know who else to tag.