#highever would have been hers if fergus decided he didn't want it and that was her fate for SO LONG

[brokenlegacy]

     WHEN SHE BECAME A GREY WARDEN SHE SWORE OFF RETURNING TO POLITICS.  it felt too close to the world she had just lost.  highever had always been her destiny, and for a long time she believed that if she could she would go back and fight for it harder.  if she was still the woman she had been before howe ripped her life from her, she would gladly return to the ferelden court.  but when she engages in politics and the such, it feels wrong ⏤ the talk of military and construction remind her of her father’s study, the tittering of court gossips make her wish her mother was at her side rolling her eyes without care.  it all seems to belong to a life she can’t go back to.  that is why she so readily accepted the fact that alistair did not wish to become king ( in my world state at least ) because she knew the game of politics and intrigue was not for everyone, even the ferelden game.  she still has the head for it, her lessons and habits learned while still the lady cousland didn’t just disappear.  the point is, politics are not her priority anymore. 

     STILL, she could not say no to becoming the warden commander.  this person and that person promised she would have little to do with the arling itself (  a lie ).  nonetheless, the grey wardens were supposed to be above politics, to busy themselves with the blight and darkspawn, not the petty dramatics of nobles.  it felt like she could still help people as warden commander without feeling too close to the ghosts of her family.  and yes, she is a fucking brat when the seneschal says she has to attend court and half the time she lets him rule in her favor.  in fact, she’s barely at the keep, preferring to travel around ferelden even if it means sleeping under the open sky.  

     UNFORTUNATELY, as much as the ferelden nobility swear they don’t want to involve the grey wardens in their political squabbles, brigid is often pulled back to denerim to sort things out until she dips during inquisition.  her canonically sending the letter to the inquisitor is her finally ridding of herself of the duty of being involved in every damn problem in thedas.