#he's probably the youngest fictional crush I've had in a while

[sky-is-the-limit]

"Omg Price is older than my parents!!"

Me,a 23yr old, feeling like I need a cane and a membership to the nearest nursing home:

[katierosefun]

71, 81, and 98 for the late night train asks :)

thank you for the asks!! // from these asks

71. Tell me something you don't like telling others.

oh. something i don't like telling others . . . hm.

maybe that i think of all the men (like, actual men, not just celebrities or fictional men) that i've had genuine crushes on (like, lasting crushes and crushes that make my heart flutter and not just in a brief "oh, he's cute" kind of way) were all def . . . older than me, and not just by a year. like, i think the youngest crush crush on a guy that i ever had on someone was 3 years older than me, and that was considered an outlier, and the guy who i liked and dated the most was a good 5 years older than me. i wasn't a minor at the time, but i look back on that time and still wonder, why did i do that? and also, why did he think it was a good idea to date me anyways? don't you think 19 was too young and etc.

but anyways! we're older and wiser now, and even though legally, there's nothing wrong with me dating a guy who's 5 or 10 years older than me, i think i'll still veer away from it for now, just because i know that personally, i can't deal with that kind of stuff, so i'll keep my crushes locked up in a box and etc.

81. What's the worst crime you think you're capable of committing?

oh boy (okay, for legal purposes: i have not committed any of the crimes that i am about to talk about): but probably murder? like, idk, i feel like that's the "end all be all" sort of crime that people would commit if they're just badly pushed enough. i would hope that if i ever committed murder, that it'd at least be somewhat justified.

98. What genre of film or literature do you think your life is? Comedy, romance, action, horror, etc.? Alternatively, if you were written into a fictional universe, what genre would you be best suited for?

oh . . . if my life were film, i feel like it would be a kind of coming-of-age melodrama? sort of like those films that loads of critics whine about how "nothing happens", kind of like movies like columbus (2017) or i am easy to find (2019).

or maybe a psychological thriller? i've been contemplating certain moments in my life a lot lately, and i feel like my life could sometimes easily dig into the same vibes of the anchor (2022), what with themes that are about family + love + how it can be a horrific thing sometimes.

but if i were written into a fictional universe . . . idk, i'd really want it to be a sort of ghost story. i veer away from the genre horror, because i'm not sure if it qualifies as horror--when i talk about ghost stories, i'm talking about ghost stories like the haunting of hill house or the haunting of bly manor (really, anything directed by mike flanagan) or hotel del luna or, arguably, doctor who. i would love to just be. like. a ghost or something that's not-really-a-ghost-but-is-still-very-old-and-might-not-move-on-for-a-while. how do you love something that's already dead and how do you love after feeling like you haven't moved in years kind of stories, stories about choosing kindness after years of hurt or the sadder, uglier kind of story, the one where the characters choose to cave in and turn hollow because enough is enough and etc etc etc.