#he's okay btw but the doctor wasn't sure about something a month ago so idk... | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lilacerull0 · 1 day ago

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i would call my dad to apologise, but knowing him it would just hurt him unnecessarily to be reminded of that because he's not really good with bluntness which is what caused this whole thing and the other issue is that i know i will impulsively act like this many times in the future, so i guess the best thing i can do is continue to be as kind to him as i can be

#crying as i'm typing this :/#idk nino has every reason to act that way towards his dad but i literally had/have none so seeing that behaviour last night in that episode #displayed so plainly really made me hate myself. and my dad is the very opposite of donato my dad is actually the most like enzo #he's infinitely kind and caring but he's better with numbers than words and i always twist whatever he says to something #he absolutely didn't mean and sometimes i even do it knowingly. i know he didn't mean it but #when i get mean i don't have a pause button i just let it all out #and my mom is like that too so we don't really hurt each other when we do that #but my dad and my sister take this kind of thing super personally. and they just stay quiet about it while you're being a monster #so i don't really know. i've been thinking about this a lot this entire semester i just don't want him to get sick again #but then again i can't shake off the feeling that he's interpreting me being less sharp as pity #he's okay btw but the doctor wasn't sure about something a month ago so idk...#this year has been. terrible. all three of them back home aren't having a good time at all #and i literally process all of that as my own problems #needed to put this somewhere just ignore it #letters from stephanie*

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