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blujayonthewing · 28 days ago

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felix: [takes limerick aside early in the campaign and confides, with difficulty because he's ashamed about it, that he sometimes has trouble speaking at all, because he wants at least someone to have fair warning ahead of it possibly coming up if he's gonna be traveling in a group for any amount of time]

limerick the first time felix mostly loses speech: you've been really quiet, everything okay? do you have any thoughts to add [to this discussion]? :)

limerick last session when simon lowkey assigned felix to go do a social encounter: I'll go with you, to help with the talking :)

limerick as soon as we're in the social encounter: [looks directly at felix, expectantly]

#felix: [dissociating] no yeah that's fine #the thing about the latter bit is that felix could have handled it better if he hadn't been DROPPED on a TRUSTFALL fgkjhdfg #he's not... shy per se or inherently uncomfortable about talking to people he just worries he's going to screw it up #so that was more 'oh perfect I can figure out where that npc is and limerick will talk to her. teamwork!' and relaxing into an expectation #and then getting rugpulled lol #[sigh] anyway none of this effects felix's FEELINGS about limerick really but like. it IS going to effect their relationship #ah boy he is not gonna remember if I tell him important and sensitive things about myself #and he's gonna try to be proactively kind and supportive in ways that are actively worse than if he hadn't #I guess I'd better just not confide in him or let my guard down enough to lean on him for support then :\#WHICH LIKE-- it is what it is but ah beans :')#reminding myself that pulling away from relationships rather than advocate for himself is A Character Flaw I gave the lad on purpose.....#can't set up uncomfortable situations if I'm not prepared to then play in the uncomfortable space.....#you have one(1) friend and he's so so so bad at listening to you or understanding you and you just gotta deal with that #he's gonna actively stress you out A Lot but you'd better not say anything to him about it or you'll end up with No Friends (again)#AH ALSO to be clear: this seems like a lot of projecting based on a couple minor things early in the campaign BUT #I should clarify that a lot of the 'oh god yep here we go' is coming from ME who's played dnd with this friend for many years lmao #no yeah this was Going To Happen and I'm not surprised but AH MAN. AH BEANS......

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