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apazwtsn · 2 days ago

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i can't explain how MUCH i identify with John, like he literally thinks and acts and makes the same mistakes as me at the point that i UNDERSTAND EVERY. ONE. OF HIS ACTIONS AND DECISIONS. CAUSE I DID AND FELT EXACTLY THE SAME. EVEN ON SEASON 4 I CAN TELL YOU IT'S NOT OUT OF CHARACTER. and how i literally connect to him in an incredibly big way. GOD it's like i can see what he's thinking every moment. you may think that i'm exaggerating or making it up but good lord he is literally me we feel literally the same

#the only thing we don't share is the adrenaline addiction and ptsd #yes i also have trust issues #yes i also have some sort of anger issues #yes i also feel incredibly guilty about myself for not being enough and making certain mistakes and having an impulsive personality #<-that sometimes leads me to harm others unintentionally #yes i also seem very social & charming & optimist & full of company but i feel deeply alone inside #yes i'm also not brave enough to say what i feel and when i try i just can't let it out for fear of being judged so i just keep it to me #that's why whenever I write a fanfic I do it from john's pov. because i literally see everything like him and know how he feels #not other tags cause it's more of a rant #john in s4 is not oit of character. it's john in his more pure form. because he's not a saint. he's a human.#he CAN take bad decisions & make mistakes.#and i don't like people saying that john would never do that because they're literally erasing the possibility that he can fuck up thing #he's not a cutie little silly boy that does no harm he's literally the opposite of that LET HIM DO BAD THINGS. AS WE ALL DO.

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