#he's a simp for her slkdjf

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“ after all you’ve done how can i possibly trust you? ”  / brooke to nathan

nathan can't help but wince at her statement . it's ironic because there were a few times when peyton had told him that his asshole behavior would one day come back to rear its ugly karmic head . at the time he hadn't cared much . he had never been in love with peyton . he had only dated her because it seemed like the thing to do - star basketball player and popular cheerleader was a trope written into every cliche story ever . it made him look good . and before brooke , all he cared about was looking good on the outside . no matter how he felt inside . he was nathan scott , perception was all that mattered to him and his family .  it was funny how quickly falling in love with brooke had changed him . she was like a broken bird - beautiful and yet needing protection that he found himself dying to give her . she had been hurt so badly by his brother - the supposed good guy - that nathan couldn't stand to do the same to her . he had seen how she had been . how distant and cold heartbreak had made her . and he couldn't blame her . he just wanted to be there for her to let it all out and hopefully begin to heal . ' look . . . my past . . . it's my past okay ? ' he sighs , running a hand through his damp hair . he hadn't expected to see her today - she had shown up in his bedroom sometime after he had gotten out of the shower . very brooke - like in manner and demanding answers as she always did while he stood before her - bewildered in just gym shorts . he had to admit she was pretty sexy when she was all bossy . ' and that's not an excuse alright ? what I'm saying is - I can't change who I used to be and I can't blame you if who I used to be is enough to send you right back out that door . ' he points lamely at his bedroom door wondering if the dramatics help to make his point . ' but if you stay . . . ' he steps towards her , hands coming up to rest on the sides of her arms and grip the skin there - not too hard but enough so she can feel his desparate passion . the same one that slipped out that night he said i love you in the heat of the moment . ' if you stay then I swear to you that I will make it all up to you . I won't be that guy anymore . I'll be a guy you can count on . someone worthy to be seen with someone like brooke fuckin' davis . and the rest of it ? it won't matter . because we'll be something new and great and . . ' he chuckles out an awkward breath , biting at his lip as he gazes at her . ' and awesome . '