#he woulda said he hated school and wouldn't mention his parents

[batshikns]

i actually love life. gee golly it's crazy.

[strawberrymilk-sunshine]

So helpless...

Here it is, the platonic yandere older brother Jade! (Alien Azul next!)

Hopefully this isn't a disappointment to those who read my summary. lol.

Warning(s): Jade's really controlling, mentions of violence, platonic yandere stuff, probably non-canon info, not proofread

You were something of a miracle.

You hatched later than the rest of your siblings. And because of that, you were not killed like all the rest of them were.

Of the many many children your parents had, only three survived. One of them being you.

Your parents treated you like the miracle you were. They kept you close to them no matter the cost. They wanted to keep their baby safe always...

And... so did your older brother, Jade.

Jade was a special kind of over-protective. He insisted that, because you barely survived being hatched, there was simply no way you could survive on your own out in the dangerous real world. And as such, he needed to be with you every moment of the day to make sure you were safe.

When he left for Night Raven College with his twin brother Floyd, you realized how... odd... the way he treated you was. If he truly just wanted you to be safe, then wouldn't he have wanted you to have your own life...?

You realized you actually didn't like all the things he convinced you to like. You didn't like the food, the sports, the music... you were an entirely different person than you thought you were.

And then, the carriage came for you.

The carriage came to take you to the school your brothers went to.

At orientation, you tripped over your own feet and fell to the ground while walking to the mirror. And then, you heard a very familiar voice.

"I apologize for my younger sibling, Headmage. They've always been quite... helpless. I assure you, nothing like this will happen again."

And thus once again began Jade's vice grip on your life.

Surprise surprise, you were placed in Octavinelle.

Nearly all day every day, Jade was with you.

Your only moments without him were when you had classes.

And one day, you tried to confide in your other older brother about what was happening.

"I think Jade hates me..." You sighed.

"What makes you say that?" Floyd asked. "He literally smothers you with attention every chance he gets."

"But that's the problem... I don't think he wants me to have my own life." You confessed. "I-I don't get it...! Why is he like this?"

"I mean, I have the answer to that." Floyd told you. "I just don't think you want to know."

"What? You know why he's been doing this my whole life?!" You asked.

"Yep. But, like I said, I don't think you want to know. It's not like it'll change how he treats you..."

...he's right. Even if you know why Jade treats you the way he does, it won't change anything-

"Actually! I think it'd be kinda fun to tell ya! Alright, buckle up (Y/N)! You're in for a ride of a story, ehehe!"

"Alrighty. So, mom and dad basically thought you were dead before you even hatched. Mom still had hope, though, and kept your squishy little egg self safe in a box! And as a result, you were kept safe from Jade's little... purge."

"Purge...?" You asked. "What do you mean by that...?"

"Welllllll~ I'm sure you know mom and dad had tons o' kids and only us three survived. And well, a looooot of our siblings were killed by Jade." Floyd told you. "He thinks he was doing the right thing, pre-emptively gettin' rid of the weaker ones to... I dunno, prevent grief or something? In my opinion, he just did it because he wanted to be the only survivor. He spared me for some reason, though. Not too sure why. Aaaaaaanyways, if you'd hatched when everyone else did, Jade woulda killed you."

"He would have... killed me...?" You asked. You didn't even know what to think. You've always viewed Jade as your protective older brother... and sure, he took it a bit far, but... he wanted you dead...?

"I barely remember the day you hatched, ehe... mom wanted to give you a name right off the bat like a human would! Dad was able to convince her to wait, though. But you still got you name sooner than us two. You got your name a year after you were hatched! Can ya believe that? Jade and I were six when we got ours." Floyd patted you on your head. "Anyways yeah Jade wanted you dead in the ground. In his mind, you weren't meant to survive, and he had to do something about that. But he couldn't bare to put mom through that... so he decided that controlling your every move would let him feel, I don't know. Superior? Who knows. And you know, even though he wanted you to die for virtually no reason when he was a kid, he cares about you a lot! He clearly doesn't want you to die anymore."

You didn't want to be anywhere near Jade after finding this out.

You need something. Anything.

Food.

You need to eat.

You need to convince yourself this is real life.

You feel like you're about to vomit.

Your older brother, your precious over-protective older brother...

He wanted you to die?

That can't be true, right?

You stumble your way to the kitchen of Octavinelle. You need to eat something, you forgot to have dinner tonight... meat, any kind of meat... when you eat it, surely you'll find out whether or not this is real...

The hallways of the dorm were dark, painfully so. It was so dark, too dark...

...you've always been scared of the dark, but it's never been this bad. You were actually shaking, you were absolutely... terrified. And it was because of Jade. Whenever you were scared, Jade was the one who assured you everything would be ok, and that there's nothing to be scared of. Whenever you were swimming through the darkness, Jade would hold your hand to let you know he's there for you and can protect you...

You remember, one of the only times you were outside alone, someone attacked you. You remember that day so vividly in your mind... you remember screaming for help and sobbing uncontrollably, seeing your blood floating in the water in front of you. Then, your brother came for you. He saved you.

While your attacker was receiving a thorough beating from your brother, they said something. You didn't think anything of it at the time, since you were focused more on how much pain you were in, but... looking back on it... "WHAT THE HELL, LEECH?! I THOUGHT YOU ASKED ME TO HURT THIS KID! WHAT IS WITH YOU?!"

...whenever you looked back on that day as a child, you rationalized that in whatever way you could. But now, you realize what was really going on back then.

That must have been the beginning. That must have been when you began to think that you can't defend yourself, that you can't survive on your own, that you will die without him.

Oh, you're at the kitchen.

...better get that food you wanted.

You got the food, and thought about your childhood in this new context.

It's been this way the whole time, hasn't it...?

"You're so helpless, (Y/N). I swear, it's almost like you can't survive on your own. But don't worry. You have your big brother here to protect you."

Jade has always been this way.

You continued eating your food and thinking about your childhood, until... you heard a certain someone's voice.

"Ah, (Y/N), there you are. What are you doing in the kitchen this late at night?"

Jade stared at you, his eyes almost glowing.

"I-I was just... hungry..." You timidly responded.

"(Y/N), please don't lie to me." Jade said to you. "Did Floyd tell you something you weren't supposed to know?"

"No, h-he didn't..." You tried looking away from him. Jade grabbed your face and made you look at him.

"(Y/N), look into my eyes." He told you. "You know I don't want to have to do this. So please tell the truth, don't make me use it on you. What did Floyd tell you, (Y/N)."

He's threatened to use his unique spell on you before. He's threatened to use it on you many times before.

"Like I said, I don't want to use it on you, so it would be better if you just-"

"H-he told me everything...!" You started crying at that exact moment. "He t-told me how you killed everyone, a-and wanted me dead as well!"

Jade just stared at you, a completely blank expression on his face.

"I see." Jade smiled. "Well, as unfortunate as it is... that is completely true, (Y/N). There was a point in my life where I wanted you to die in the most agonizing way possible, and I think a part of me still does... but (Y/N), I assure you, most of me loves you and wants to protect you!"

You were completely petrified. What do you do? What do you feel?

"You have no idea how many times I've considered carving apart your body while you sleep, or choking you to death, drowning you while you're stuck in a human form..." Jade laughed to himself. "I even considered snapping your neck just earlier today~!"

You couldn't stop crying. Your entire world was crashing down around you.

"Oh dear, what's with that face? There's no need to cry." He wiped your tears. "As I've said, there's no need to worry! I would never hurt you, you know that. I'll do everything in my power to protect you."

He pressed a finger to your lips.

"Just promise me you'll never tell mother and father~"

The few friends you'd made at NRC have realized that you've been growing more distant recently.

You're hanging out with your brothers more often, too.

You're also never alone anymore. Except for during class, your older brother Jade is always following you around.

...

Jade was always really controlling.

From what you ate to who your friends were, he controlled your life entirely.

But now moreso than ever, he made sure your every action was determined by him.