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medicinemane · 3 months ago

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Jesus fucking christ I get tired of sitting here and hearing my dad loudly ripping ass from the other room

Like listen, I get it, I get that you can't control your guts. Like fuck, for a while... as in like months, I was having trouble even leaving the house... still no clue what was even up which makes me feel like my theory about not eating enough is in the lead given... haven't found any allergies I can identify

So I get it and have sympathy (and fear inheriting my dad's guts), but... it's just so fucking gross man

And it's also like... maybe I'm eating, maybe I'm watching a show... whatever it is the mood's kinda ruined by this just... it almost literally couldn't be louder or grosser

I get you can't control your guts but... do something... anything... see a doctor or... anything

It's just nasty. He's not a bad person, but my dad's just a nasty dude

#and it's not like he means to be; he's just... fucking clueless and... just always finds the way to be gross as possible #he drives the uhaul up here and... of course there's piss bottles... awesome #he walks around scratching his nuts; and it's not like... discreet; it's great big raking motions up and down #it's not like he's got no class or something; it's not like he's some hick with it #imagine a fairly well spoken pseudo academic that's just... crass and nasty all the time without even realizing it #I just... I get tired of it #it's better than my mom by far; at least he helps and means well and knows I'd rather live alone #but fucking hell #and what's more... just imagine if I ever let someone crash here... then he's disgusting someone that's not even family; you know?#I like having... I'd love to have my dad as a neighbor #but I fucking hate having him in the same building; being disgusting #walking in and just kinda peeking through the door; not like in a surveillance kinda way; just a... being dumb and clueless #not getting why that's not cool to do to someone #and then just walking up and blather at me when it's like... if I have food; do not talk to me #if I'm typing; do not talk to me #if I'm watching something; do not talk to me #honestly a lot of the people I know on tumblr could probably break those rules cause I'd be like 'sure; come it; lets talk'#but you also probably would take the hint if I just was busy; and you're also not ripping ass outside my door all the time #one time he literally did it right behind my fan... so guess what that fucking does?#and he just doesn't understand #very smart guy; and despite that very stupid #like I'm kinda clueless; I don't think I always pick up cues well #...certainly can often feel like... everything's risking getting snapped at #cause it'll seem like on thing I do will get huge laughs from someone and they love it #and then almost the exact same thing seems to piss them off... I don't know... I may just be bad at shit #but at least if I have to scratch my groin near other people I'll kinda try and get to a corner and do it discreetly #not fucking rake things while talking with people... are you kidding? that should be so obvious not to be ok #and the shitty thing is... I don't think I've ever done more than imply it; but that recurring infection is right on the taint; dead center #that's why they don't want to touch it; that's why when it flairs up I can hardly walk... but it also itches like hell sometimes #so I probably end up feeling something similar to if not identical to what my dad feels... and alone in my room is one thing

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