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vaguely-concerned · 3 years ago

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sometimes I'm hit by the niggling suspicion that living in a culture where people like me, if we're lucky enough to not be actively ridiculed or attacked, are still constantly and forcibly reminded just how easily disposable and disregardable we are at someone else's idiotic thoughtless whim... might have left some marks on me psychologically huh

#it's that pervasive sense of powerlessness babEY #it's having to watch who gets to be downright stupid and incompetent and not just not being punished but getting REWARDED #while you have to be better than perfect and set up fucking bullet proof argumentations to justify your own existence #and then they'll still throw you aside like you're nothing and continue to let that asshole who gets to fail upward say anything he likes #...I've started to try to be kinder to myself when I get triggered by 'small things' (like this event) b/c usually #there are some gargantuan fucking issues societal & personal both behind them lol #at least basically the entire lore community agrees that this was some bad shit all round so there's a bit of strength in numbers haha #(it's mostly the visual novel that has me so angry -- in general and specifically the thing the writer did with graves #(as I understand there was one writer in charge of the whole vn and he is now my greatest enemy haha)#like my man... my man if you wanted a self insert character to simp for vayne with...... could you not have taken ANY OTHER MALE CHARACTER #than the one with the established beautiful yet fragile-because-of-who-we-are-as-a-society queer subtext? did you HAVE to het wash this??#have olaf who's from a matriarchal society and would go doki-doki over violent determined women take that bullet #I think jared rosen did a decent job at 'no hetero'-ing the situation in the skin voice lines but the vn... has no such grace I feel #like they disrespected the entire emotional storyline of the shadow isles and that's shit too #but my wounded little queer heart has been battered so many times through the years so that's the kind of stuff that really stings #and for something so poorly conceived and even more poorly written! I'm insulted as a craftsperson and a person #with any luck this whole thing will be soft retconned and we can all go back to pretending this never happened and move on with the stories #I mean there HAVE to have been some behind the scenes drama here; I can't IMAGINE a lot of the writers thought this was good)#well I feel a little better for having gotten that off my chest haha #shoutout to all the tfgraves people around here you guys have made this whole mess so much better #and helped me feel like I'm not just crazy and oversensitive and alone <3

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