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sleepyfemme · 5 months ago

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for a while now i've been dealing with feelings of things not feeling real. like the whole world doesn't feel real to me in the way it used to and i so easily get sucked into nostalgia for all the years of my life where the world felt real. i miss 2011 and i can never get it back and it feels like the world is actively ending now and it's so impossible for me to feel both present AND joyful in the same body, although at this point i would take just one

#i have been reluctant to talk about this with anyone other than my partner #because i know that all of these feelings trace back to palestine and i never ever ever want to be like #'well here's how that's affecting ME let's talk about that instead' for even a second #but it is true that my entire worldview has been shattered and it feels gross to feel happy literally at all and it feels like the world #is ending in a very real way at this point #and i've been feeling like this for almost a year and if i'm to continue living i do need to find a way through it #oh this has also been compounded MASSIVELY by all of the intense heat/droughts this summer #hard not to feel like you're in end times when it's 96 degrees every single day #personal

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