#had someone tell me i'm scary for doing all of this stuff on an alt but little did they know i love x enough to do that :^)c

[hellbatschilt]

Updated X's adventurer plate recently so time to post my guys together

[dcxdpdabbles]

The ballad of Jane doe has me in a choke hold. The lyrics really feel to me and I had an idea of an alternative universe where Jason as Robin and beheaded by Joker as a way to avoid irl identification? Idk he’s insane. 

But the lyrics that really spoke to me were: Oh Saint Peter, let me in!

You must know where I've been

Won't you tell me at last who I am? 

(This can be either Jason revived and never getting his memories back and asking maybe maybe Danny someone who is kinda his minder who he is but Danny never knew him so he can’t say or Batman in a desperate but frustrated way when he’s all vigilante and stuff while fight and takes off his helmet for dramatic effect and maybe Jason never aged and still 15 or he just doesn’t have a head so Danny made one of ecto that is supposed to look like him) 

And I'm asking "why, lord?"

If this is how I die, lord

Why be left with no family

And no friends? 

(Jason never having his memories cries out for any information but maybe someone is blocking his search or some other factor, Jason not having any memories mourns the thought of family and maybe in a fight he’s yelling angrily about the unfairness of his situation and having no one, maybe even a vent to Danny if slimmed him spinned right) 

I’ve got no celebration

Just this consolation

Time eats all his children

In the end 

(Jason not remembering his funeral and his only consolation is his missing head or a scar on his neck from the beheading and this can also relate to clockwork and you know the Kronos correlation, how time has no favorites and everyone will be forgotten just like him in the end of their days wether it be their death or the last time their name is said) 

A melody floats through the air

When silence falls, does no one care? 

(frustration of no one telling him who he is and and maybe there will be a fight scene where he takes off his helmet and asks if anyone- anything cares about his existence in front of Bruce or the batfam) 

how Danny plays into his either this is alternate Jason and Danny being one person and Danny being in an accident which kills him half not and half did or Danny is dead Jason’s minder and they get teleported to another universe where canon is idk :)

I'm not going to lie. This song goes hard for Headless Jason.

I like what you wrote about this being Danny as his alt! Jason, but I also like the idea that Jason's family are descendants of the original Dullahan. He just didn't know it since he didn't know his bio mom.

Anyway, the family gets one extra life, which his bio-mom used up before, and that's why she died in the explosion that took Jason's first life. He wanders Gotham the first year as a zombie because he doesn't have his head until Danny finds it and helps reunite him.

But that year, Jason forgot who he was, and he was filled with nothing but questions and anger. Danny decided to be the bridge between worlds and stuck around to help him. Instead of Jason ending up with the League of Shadows, he is in Ghost King Phantom's court and is living in a small house on the outskirts of Gotham, trying to learn his new ghost powers.

Danny is super excited since this is the closest he's gotten to another Halfa since Vlad, and yeah, it's a little scary that they can't get his head to stick on his body since they've been apart for too long, but Danny is working on it.

In the meantime, they have Jason wear a red Biker helmet that he never takes off. Nothing can go wrong with that! The fact that Joker used to do the same thing as Red Hood meant nothing to Danny and his roommate, who enjoyed gardening, cooking dinner, and sitting together to watch a movie!

The occasional cuddle here and there! Slight domestic bliss sprinkled in!

No, Jazz, that isn't his undead boyfriend. That's just his roommate! So what if they are the same age? Danny is technically hiding from his parents, so he never ventures too far from his property!

Jason likes being in the boonies with him just fine.

[hauntedwoman]

tagged by @youngestdaughtersyndrome and @glassangels (thank you <3333)

are you named after anyone ? yes i'm named after my nana !! (my full name is margaret hehe)

2. when was the last time you cried? a couple of weeks ago when i was saying goodbye to my cousin who moved out of state w her boyfriend so he can complete his residency for med school................. partly bc i miss her a lot but also bc i genuinely feel like i am never going to experience healthy romantic love i feel like it wasn't made for me HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

3. do you have kids? does my cat count bc i raised her from a little baby kitten she was so tiny she fit in the palm of my hand :3

4. what sports do you play/have played? i was on a swim team all throughout junior high and high school and sometimes i miss just mindlessly swimming laps and getting lost in the pure muscle memory of it but then i remember getting up at 5am on saturdays to go to meets and i realize i can live without it 5. do you use sarcasm? my favorite show is daria u tell me

6. what's the first thing you notice about someone? usually eyes or clothing. living in a place where it's rare to find other ppl my age that dress "alt" i'm always looking for ppl that have interesting personal style.

7. eye color? not to be some annoying white girl on main but they change depending on what i'm wearing. they're usually either blue or gray or a teal color.

8. scary movies or happy endings? considering nothing in my life has ever worked out the way i want it to i can't relate to happy endings. almost all of my favorite films have heavy horror or psychological thriller aspects

9. any talents? i'm a pretty decent singer. i was trained classically and sang in choirs for like seven years, so i also know how to read music. other than that i think i'm really good at interior decorating or just being able to make things "aesthetically pleasing". i also think i'm a pretty good writer and that i manipulate language in a really unique form that gives way to a really clear voice in my work.

10. where were you born? simferopol, ukraine

11. hobbies? journalling, staring into the void, photographing/exploring abandoned buildings, grieving, making playlists for every emotion i've ever felt, clinging onto a past that everyone else has forgotten about except me, reading books that make me feel like i need a lobotomy, antique shopping, blackberry picking, sunbathing, being a heinous bitch

12. any pets? i have two cats (phantasma and smokey), and then my mom and sister have four dogs between the both of them so i am constantly living in autistic hell (they never stop barking and chewing up my stuff)

13. height? 5'4" (162.5cm) i'm so sorry to expose myself as Tiny i know i give off Tall Energy

14. favorite school subject? overall i'd say english but i've also thoroughly enjoyed a bunch of different courses i've taken in college like stage makeup, medieval and modern theatre, and all of my creative writing courses

15. dream job? i simply do not dream of labor but since i can only get a serotonin rush from buying clothes i don't need it would be pretty swaggy if i could be a published author or if i could work in the music industry somehow, perhaps at a radio station with my own radio show or even making my own music. i also deeply miss my job at the used bookstore i had during the worst summer of my life. something about being surrounded by books all day is so comforting.

tagging: @arunima @symptomofloves @discoidal @diabolicjoy @severrance and anyone else that wants to do this <33

[emoticonheart]

Hello, I'm a new anon! (if it's not taken, I could be called Cloud anon! if it is, feel free to choose your own name) I'm a lurker in the community and am currently hesitating to make an alt dedicated to eructo. It's pretty scary, but also I'm like definitely into it and have ideas that I think the community could like LOL yeah.

This is also my first ask im shy aaaaaaa-

I just wanted to share that I have a friend, we became super close in a couple of months, and turns out we are into a lot of the same stuff! We have kinks in common which we sometimes do collab on (but she doesn't know I'm into eructo)

she doesn't know... but honestly I might have to bring it up at some point because sometimes, we're drawing kinks, and she just lets out the raunchiest longest gamer belch I've heard and I like litteraly have to stop not to make a noise on call 😭😭😭 I need an outlet for this holy shit Anyway, hope your day has been going well!

you can absolutely be called cloud anon!! so nice to meet you!!!!

there are a lot of things that i would like to respond to in this ask, so please bear with me throughout this longish post.

first, i'm not sure if you'd made a decision yet, but i can say that for me personally, making this account has been pretty much the best thing for me when it comes to accepting myself and this kink. like just creating a space with likeminded people that don't judge you for the things that you're into does WONDERS for making you feel less like a freaky weirdo. like i remember having so much shame about this kink. and ngl i still do in the sense that i would never tell anyone i know irl about this, but fuck have i learned to accept myself a lot more when i'm here with you all. i know i'm not always here and active, but when i am here it's like i never left. so all of this is to say that i personally would definitely recommend it!!!! but that being said, don't pressure yourself into anything either. lurkers are just as welcome!!!!

(and also i have absolutely no doubt that you have ideas people around here will love. there's an audience for everything, trust me!!)

but also... holy shit. i wish i had a relationship with someone like that where i can be so open about my fetishes with them, but the fact that you even share some of the same kinks with her is just the icing on top!! you have it MADE cloud!!!! and i know nothing about this relationship outside of what you've shared, but it seems like you're close enough with each other to where she would be accepting and understanding if you told her about your kink. at the same time i definitely don't wanna tell you to do anything because i don't wanna risk ruining your dynamic or anything, but if she did know and was still comfortable with burping and everything in front of you... idk. that sounds like a win to me.

anyways, thanks for sharing all this!! hope to see you around more often!!!!

[vampireantihero]

February is coming to an end!

Schedule is in the read more, along with the rest of the newsletter. (you can also read this here or here, if the formatting on tumblr is too rough for long posts.)

Isn’t that a wild thing to think about? We’re nearly a quarter of the way through 2023 already! I hope everyone is having a fantastic start to the year and is surrounded by positive vibes this week.

To kick off the stuff that I have to talk about today, let’s start with the obvious — the newsletter is coming to your screen a little earlier than typical! This is because I’m upping the newsletter to weekly; partially because then I can send out the weekly schedule as I make them and keep you lovely newsletter people in the loop, and partially because it’s actually easier for me to write them Monday mornings. because my heavier workloads are later in the week. If you’re someone who only subscribes to the newsletter and doesn’t pay attention to social media, it’s likely that you haven’t seen a schedule graphic from me yet. These schedules are subject to change at any time, but it’s a nice easy way for me to tell you all what the plan is for the week and what to look forward to from me.

So, here’s this weeks’ schedule!

Alt ID: A schedule graphic with blue neon and a blue background with a heart made out of stone in the grass. Words: "Vampire Antihero Schedule, February 27th to March 5th. Tuesday and Thursday mood and composition pieces. Friday morning upload to Youtube is a video about doing daily studies. Specific dated events: The fundraiser stream has been pushed back a bit! I wanted to do it in March, but I'm pushing it to warmer months where I can be a little bit more comfy in my office for long periods of time. Keep an eye out on Sunday for a potential popup stream!

My Little Brother

As you can see, the schedule has a lot more on it than it did last week. I know for quite a bit of time now this situation has been the elephant in the room. If you’ve been following along, most of the month has been quite stressful for me as my little brother is very, very ill and has been having complications with illness-adjacent problems. I’ve been talking a little bit about it in streams and on Youtube, and I also spoke about it in the last newsletter but I wanted to talk a little bit about it again this time. I want you all to know I’m doing my best in a scary time for my family. That being said, here’s what’s going on.

My little brother is 24 years old, and late in January he found out he had a tumor on his spinal cord and had a surgery to remove it. Because of where it was, he still needs cancer treatments and has been having complications with recovering from his surgery. Last week he was transported to another hospital because of blood clots forming in his lungs and legs, but he’s had surgery to fix the issues and it sounds like he is doing well and recovering alright. He hasn’t started his cancer treatments quite yet because of the other things happening, but it sounds like everything is positive and stabilizing for him.

I’m extremely worried for him, but I’m four states away and haven’t been able to see him in a while. Right now I’m trying to put together a trip to go see him around other obligations and trips we’ve already committed to, but it’s a bit far out in my tentative plans because I want to wait for him to no longer be in the hospital, so I can avoid putting the pressure of too many people around on him when he’s trying to get better. But also, if things take a scary turn and he’s no longer doing well, plans might drop and I’ll be on my way to see him and be there for him.

To be clear, I’m not saying this to garner pity or to put his or my personal business out there (this is the tip of the iceberg), but so that you all know what’s going on and understand that if I miss uploads or sub rewards it’s not for lack of trying. For March, I will do my best to make up for the lack of content in February to the pace that I’m able to keep up with, and I hope you all understand. ♥

Mood and Composition Pieces

This brings me to my next topic — the Mood and Composition pieces that I started back at the end of January for the Mood and Composition class (part of the Fundamentals series on Youtube) is still underway. I have gotten closer to a state where I can start making color keys for the pieces, and am working on the screen casts this week— my goal is to have a speed-paint of each composition, a script written for the color keys portion and talking about why I made the decisions I did, and points talking about the composition breakdown and why it works in a basic sense.

Despite all of the delays with this class, I am really excited to put it together still. These classes do take a lot of time, energy, and work to build, so I hope that you find them useful and enjoy them. In the meantime, I am trying to figure out how to better manage my time so that I can get these classes pulled together for you all sooner. I’ve also been giving myself time aside to work on painting exercises and practice my techniques. The next tip I’m putting up on Youtube will talk a little bit about that.

Doing Daily Studies

Recently I started doing quick daily studies, painting something from a photograph and trying to get it to look as close as possible, as quick as possible. This is something that a concept artist friend told me about in one of the discords I’m a part of, and I did my first one on Friday. I had a lot of fun with it, and it was really cool to see how quickly I could make a scene come together when I let go of my control and anxiety about the piece. Here are two recent guided daily studies I did:

Both of these were done in about an hour, each, with a single hard-round brush. It’s rough, and I work slow, but the more I do these, the more I’ll speed up and be able to take that speed over to my bigger and more impressive work. If you’re interested in seeing the ones I do, then I’ll be sharing them over on Instagram, as well!

Youtube

As it stands at the moment, my Youtube channel is regularly updated every other Friday. I’m trying to up how often I post, but I also don’t want to burn myself out. There are other things starting for me as well this month that may change how I handle my time commitments. For now, the schedule for new content may stick to once every other week, but also I’m thinking of bringing my art VODs over to Youtube as well just to have an example of to-time art that I can show. I also might make short videos of my daily studies as an art vlog, though I haven’t decided whether or not to do that yet. We’ll see!

As it stands, the Youtube will slowly grow as we go. Keep an eye peeled on the community tab, I regularly post there and try to put polls up when I can!

Fundraiser

I mentioned a fundraiser that I wanted to do before the stuff with my brother got really serious. Rebel Alliance Theatre, my theatre troupe, is a non-profit theatre troupe and we’re trying to raise money for lights for our next show. Originally, I wanted to do a fundraiser for them this March, but I’ve decided to push it back to May, when the stuff with my brother should be less stressful and the weather is warmer, so it’ll be easier to sit in my office for longer periods of time. (My downstairs is poorly insulated, and it’s freezing in my office. I’m starting to try to not be at the PC so much because of how cold it is, but I may better insulate the room soon with some soundproofing panels.)

So, when the fundraiser comes closer, I think I’ll talk a little bit more about what the theatre does, what we need, and what my plan is for the fundraiser.

Streams / Community Challenge

Currently, our community challenge stream is to about 70% on Twitch, which means that I’m starting to plan for a marathon! Because of some new things happening, Saturdays don’t work as well for marathon streams for me anymore so there is a large chance that when the marathon stream happens, it will be on a Sunday. Hopefully that works well for everyone and we have a good time!

Speaking of stream, I’m still currently only scheduling twice a week to be on and both are usually art streams. However, that doesn’t mean that I’ll only be streaming twice a week. Twice a week is all I can regularly commit to at the moment, but if I have time outside of that, I’ll be gaming and stuff with you all. I miss being able to hop on with games, so I’m trying to make it happen more often. At the very least, marathon streams will include gameplay! Sometimes there will also be art involved.

I’m also working on cleaning up my timers and bots so that things are less chaotic in my chat. I know sometimes it’s hard to tell what’s going on in chat when I’ve got the PretzelRocks bot and my timers going, and the timers aren’t great at going off one at a time. They’re also text walls, and that can get distracting even for me. So I will be revamping my bot information and controls this week, and we’ll hopefully have a less cluttered chat as a result. Ultimately, my hope is that people feel comfortable and vibe in my chat. I love y’all and I want y’all to be happy while you’re watching and not feel too intimidated to interact.

Rebel Alliance Theatre

Part of the reason I can only commit to two days a week for streaming at the moment is because my theatre troupe is working on a play! Our first play in nearly three years, since the pandemic shut down our last production a few weeks before we were supposed to go up with it. I’m not in this one, I’m learning how to assistant direct, but it’s a play with a subject that I feel is really important and I’m excited to be working on a side of my creativity that has been dormant for too long.

We have three shows that we’re planning on putting on this year for an LGBTQ+ themed season, and there is going to be a lot of work to pull it off. I’m excited, nervous, and ready to tackle this adventure. I need it.

We also have a podcast that is in the editing phase for season 1 — it’s a podcast breaking down Shakespeare in how we think about it as actors, versus how academics break down the material, and how we sniff out themes and recurring messages. The first season is talking about Acts I, II, and III from King Lear. If you’re interested in it, I can share a link once the company has the podcast actively publishing.

If you have any questions, I’ll be happy to answer within what I know/can share!

New Merch Drop Coming Soon

Last thing that I wanted to mention is this— new merch will be coming to the website store, as well as potentially Redbubble either this week or next week. I will make an announcement on the Discord, so check it out! The discord community is rather large, but it’s where all of the announcements are posted as they happen, cancellations, new videos, merch, and a pretty cool community to hang out with and talk about gaming or art. If you’d like to join, you can click here to find The Night Garden.

So! This was a massive newsletter, but I’m pretty sure I covered everything from the last two weeks! I’m looking forward to what this week brings, and I hope that you all enjoy yourselves as March rolls in. Remember to take care of yourselves, drink your water, and do what you can. I love you all.

[msookyspooky]

Okay so I think I have a good question - Based on your hc, IF you had to choose between Billy and Stu, who do you realistically think you'd be more compatible with romantically?

Lmfao get ready for a rant cause I've thought about this before and every point for why or why not ☠️☠️☠️

Billy. The Rat Faced Mama's Boy. Hands down.

We both are introverted

We both latched onto horror as an escape

We both have very similar traumatic issues with our family I think we would have a common understanding of each other when it came to that. I'm more healed than he is obviously but maybe that would zape him out of being a fucking nutjob if someone would have listened and said "Yeah me too. Sometimes family sucks. It gets better." I know it would have helped me and saved me a lot of wasting my teens being an angsty whiney Lydia Deetz; that's for sure.

Even more context:

I'm obviously creative and I think that would be appreciated by him, especially my horror themed stories. I was actually writing a book of short scary stories like the ones we grew up with to self publish and never got back to it....I could see him chiming in to add this element to a story or if he liked that particular story after reading it when I told him not to. 😑

Im drawn to darker stuff and heavily into occult and spirituality something I think would interest him as well and draw him in because I'm 'different' than most of the girls in Woodsboro.

Put it this way; I'm a Sag Sun, Aquarius Moon, Capricorn Mercury. So if you know astrology then nuff said you can see my personality. The closest person to my chart is Billie Ellish but I'm even more intense in relationships because she has a Sagittarius venus while mines a fucking Scorpio venus. I am a ride or die when I fall in love and I fucking hate it. I just know we would both be the same level of intense but also understanding in a dynamic together.

I don't dress nearly as alt as I'd like to irl; none of you would recognize me. I'm a plain jane that puts comfort over looks and I think he would be fine with that.

To top it all off he doesn't seem like the type to rush relationships and I'm as demiromantic as it gets. It feels like if he was genuinely interested in me; he would wait. We'd have an angst filled slow burn lmfao ☠️

Now, I'm not saying we wouldn't be toxic for each other!!

because he would definitely try to control me and I would fight him tooth and nail. We both would piss each other off because I'm not an argumentative person but I'm head strong. You tell me not to do something? Okay...Okay, that's fine. *Closes the door and squeals tires up the road going to do the very thing you told me not to* Like our relationship would be fucked up at times WITHOUT the murder... And Billy is a dramatic bitch. Like, I would definitely roll my eyes at him being dramatic about something microscopic and an argument from Hell would ensue.

But once we reach an understanding that he is not controlling me and I have to learn to let him be a bitch about stuff...I actually think we'd be cool with each other. Just minus the murder.

But Stu? No...Not alone.

Stu is definitely a shallow jackass and I sadly feel like me being overweight and not in a plus sized model way (I gain hardly no boobs or hips when I gain weight and he definitely likes those), a plain jane and not in the in crowd would bother him or even if he himself was cool with it he'd mock me in front of his friend group just to save face something I can't see Billy doing because he doesn't care as much as Stu does about appearances or what others think.

He feels unfaithful I'm just gonna say it...I know Billy did it with Christy while with Sid but I think if he genuinely loved someone he would be as loyal as they come but Stu? That man will always have his eyes wandering, I'm sorry.

He's way too immature for me no matter how charming he is. I would feel like I'm baby sitting him and the conversations would be superficial. We'd be better as friends.

He rushes things and hyperfixates and as a demiromantic there ain't no way. His lovebombing would have me fucking hiding from him.

I HATE being touched if I'm not in the right head space. He would have to let me come to him something I know he wouldn't do.

I don't engage in PDA. He would get his feelings hurt if he tried kissing my neck while I was talking to someone and I shoved him away.

He's insensitive and I would be offended by him ALL the time. Yeah Billy faked the boyfriend thing with Sid but he showed he can be a good boyfriend and probably was before Maureen/Roman happened. If I was upset; Billy would be the most understanding even if he's not affectionate about it while Stu would want a quick fix with a hug and if that didn't work he'd make it worse with an insensitive remark.

He is loud attention seeking manwhore and I just can't see myself being drawn to him

Stu is hot and has his own charm about him that Billy lacks. Billy is boring af but Stu is annoying af. Billy is hot and we match vibes but maybe too well to the point we would go nowhere in a relationship.

Honestly? They work best together. In a relationship they are both such opposites that you get the best of both worlds and they bring both the worst and the best out in each other.

So to answer your question; Billy. But I really can't see myself with him long term either but both of them I could? So the true answer is both or notjing if we're being honest! They just compliment each other and Stu would be go from annoying to endearing with Billy as a reserved emotionally constipated buffer and Billy would be tranquil and understanding compared to Stu being Stu when you need to just chill. They both would keep each other in line...But they'd also tagteam to annoy me and idk how to feel about that other than one of you can take them off my hands for awhile ✋️

And honestly I think I would have them at a lose at times because I wouldn't engage in their dumbass angst bullshit. I'm very chill to the point I could see them trying to make me jealous and I'd just tell them to go fuck each other and leave me alone. And I'm from the country and I love the outdoors and they feel like two rich uppity Cali boys that would be fine with blood but god forbid they get mud on them 🙃