#haahahhahahahahahah i'm so fucking SICK of being alive ya'll

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Next time, he noted, next time he tries to kill himself, he'll make sure he actually dies.

He made the mistake of choosing to starve himself. Lied to his family that he left the country. But no, of course his brother would need to pick something up from his house. Why the hell did he even give him a key?!

But in the end, the fault was really his own. If he had only picked a less cowardly option like jumping off of the building, then things wouldn't have turned out like this.

It's like an attempted prison break. He tried to kill himself to escape the confines of life and dive straight into the blissful oblivion of nothingness, only to have the prison guards drag him back, kicking and screaming.

They wouldn't leave him alone. Kept a close eye on him to make sure he wouldn't try to off himself again. He had zero freedom.

If this was truly his life, shouldn't he have all rights to decide what to do with it? And if he wanted to die, why couldn't he?!

It's hypocritical. It's disgusting. It's suffocating.

And that's why next time, he'll try harder.

He'll make sure he gets the result he wants.