#guy I'm friendly with asked if he could take a pic of this I said knock yourself out brother I love spreading germs

[sevicia]

the eyes I draw in class

[taesanluv3r]

latte art

kim leehan x reader

sort of love at first sight? barista!leehan improves his latte art just for his very first customer <3 those concept pics possessed me to write this hehe. super cutesy, i love u leehan! lowercase intended. pls excuse any spelling mistakes or grammatical errors! enjoyyyy

wc: 2,008

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ding!

the bell above the door rang as it squeaked opened, alerting the handsome barista that was busy setting up his fancy coffee machines for the opening of his tiny café. kim leehan looked up, eyes widening at the figure that turned around to reveal itself- or rather, herself. the most beautiful girl the boy had ever seen in his entire life that would become his very first customer.

"uh...? hello?"

he must've been too into his head, not realizing that the pretty lady had moved from near the door over to stand right in front of him at the register. "huh? oh! hi! um...what can i- uh" he didn't ever expect to stutter this way- especially not when he had already went through every friendly barista greeting the night before this grand opening, but the boy couldn't help it. not when the very first person to enter the shop was this stupidly gorgeous stranger in front of him.

leehan sighs, "i'm so sorry...today's the opening of this place and you're the first customer so..." she giggles, "no worries...i get it" they share a smile. "would you totally hate me if i asked you to walk out and back in again so we can restart this?" he asks, smiling until his eyes formed crescent shapes. the girl laughs, "if you insist"

the scene replays all over again. this time, he was ready to greet her with a friendly smile as she re-entered the café. "hi there! welcome to kim's coffee. what can i get for ya?" the stranger couldn't stop the giggle from escaping her lips, finding the cute barista's sudden bubbly-ness amusing. "hm..." she begins, fingers against her chin as she looked up at the menu on the wall. "well...uh, leehan..." the girl trails off, learning his name from the tag pinned onto his apron. "what do you recommend?"

the way his name fell out naturally from her mouth sent about a gazillion butterflies to roam free in his stomach, a light pink blush brushing against his pale cheeks. "well uh..." he almost stuttered again from the sudden shyness but quickly straightened his back and regained his almost cocky confidence. "for a pretty girl like you...how 'bout our signature cappuccino? i could do some incredible latte art too" she widens her eyes, shocked by the compliment. "incredible latte art you say? i'll be the judge of that" leehan grins at her playful personality. "iced or hot?" he asks, beginning to click on the buttons displayed on the screen of the register. "hot, please"

"alright...one hot cappuccino for...?"

"yn!" - "one hot cappuccino for yn coming right up!"

yn nods, watching as he retreated to his coffee machines before she allowed herself to explore the café. it was a relatively small place- but the pretty blue paint on the walls made the space feel a little bigger. "you must be really into fishes..." she says, staring at the framed paintings of all kinds of sea-life and spotting the tank filled with fish over at the corner near the bathroom. the barista guy laughs, "yeah...if i weren't a barista i'd be underwater scuba-diving right now" she nods along with his words, finally taking a seat on one of the chairs at the bar-styled table, giving her the clearest view of the working boy.

"so why open a café?'' she asked, revealing to the boy her curious personality. "it's fun!" he says, his voice a little louder now to overpower the buzzing noise from the milk frother. "and..." he said, mindlessly pouring the fluffy milk into the coffee. "there's a possibility i get to meet pretty girls like you" she rolls her eyes at his comment, watching as he adds finishing touches to the coffee.

"et voila, one cappuccino for yn~ enjoy"

the girl chuckles lightly when he dramatically bows, placing the cup of coffee on the table right in front of her. his head that faces the floor lifts up quickly when he hears her breaking out into a fit of laughter. leehan looks up confused, eyebrows furrowing and head tilting off to the side. "so much for incredible latte art..." yn says, still in between catching her breath. he's still confused, but one look down at his creation was enough to understand the girl's reaction.

"ah..." the boy sighs, looking disappointingly at the lame excuse for latte art he had poured into the cup. "i mean what were you going for here? a...an alien?!" the girl exclaimed, causing herself to giggle all over again. he rolls his eyes playfully, "i was actually going for a rose...but i see where you got alien from..." he clicks his tongue, "guess that's something i still need to work on" yn agrees with him, "but try it, as long as it tastes good..." he watches in anticipation as the girl brings the cup to her lips, blowing on the hot beverage slightly before taking a sip. her eyes widen, "oh my god..." leehan is nervous, "what? is it bad?" she shakes her head hastily. "no, no! not at all! this is the best cappuccino i've ever had ever! like seriously"

yn's comments make him sigh in relief, pressing a hand over his chest. "oh thank god...i thought you were gonna bully me like you did my latte art" she laughs, "it wasn't bullying...think of it as harsh feedback!" the sweet smile on her face contradicted the sharp words that she said, it intrigued the barista boy...there was something about her he just seemed to really like- apart from how pretty she was.

a couple minutes went by and soon the cup of coffee was empty. "thank you for the yummy coffee, how much do i owe you?" yn asks, rummaging through her purse in search of her wallet. leehan shook his head, "no! in honor of being my first customer, it's on me" she furrowed her eyebrows, "don't be silly! c'mon give me a price" but he only shook his head once more, "nope! think of it as compensation...for the underwhelming latte art" she sighs, giving up on arguing with the handsome barista. ''if you come again tomorrow though, i'll let you pay~" his smile made her insides melt like chocolate, and she sighs. "sounds good..." she trails off, beginning to get off the chair and closer to the exit. before she leaves she turns to look at him once more.

"better show me that incredible latte art you keep boasting about though!" he laughs, "trust me...i'll be up all night perfecting it...just for you"

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sure enough, the barista boy kept his word. the next morning rolled around and the boy begins to tiredly opened up his shop. slight dark circles evident under his eyes from the sleepless night he spent frothing milk at home and endlessly pouring them into cups of coffee. with a little more trial and error, and about a dozen more cappuccinos later, he finally perfected the art. the girl kept her promise as well, waking up bright and early so she could get dressed and head straight to the brand new coffee shop.

ding!

a feeling of deja vu washed over him at the familiar noise of the doorbell. "look who it is!" leehan cheered, clapping his hands together as the girl he was expecting entered the shop. yn smiled, "i expect you have perfected that latte art?" he nods, "well i promised you, didn't i?" she giggles, "ah yes...if i recall...just for me, right?" the girl teased, repeating the pretty words he had told her the other day. the boy blushes softly, scratching the back of his head.

"why don't you take a seat? one hot cappuccino with incredible latte art for the beautiful yn, coming right up!"

just like the previous day, the girl sits at the bar. patiently waiting for the barista to do his job. this time she notices the droplet of sweat that formed to the side of his forehead, his eyes narrowed like a hawk as he stared at the liquid he was pouring into the cup. "wait!" he suddenly says, frantically stopping himself and turning to his one and only customer. "what?" she asked, just as frantic as he was. "can you like not look at me while i do this...it makes me nervous" yn opens her mouth in shock, rolling her eyes once before she turned around in her seat, her back now facing him.

"okay..." she heard him whisper to himself, assuming he had finally begun pouring the frothed milk into a design on her coffee. then the girl hears him let out a breath, followed by his footsteps and a clink of a cup meeting the surface of the bar-like table. leehan clears his throat before beginning to speak.

"a hot cappuccino with improved latte art, for one pretty lady"

yn took his words as a signal to turn back around. honestly the girl had kept her expectations low, not really believing that anyone could perfect such art overnight. however, a look of pure surprise washed over her complexion as the cup of coffee came into sight. it was perfect. the foam in a clear rose shape, totally different from the alien-looking image she saw just the other day.

"what did i tell ya? perfect, right?" leehan grins widely, overly proud of his professional talent. he watches in amusement as his customer nods, "wow...this is amazing, leehan!" yn exclaims, pulling out her phone from her bag and snapping a couple pictures before she had to ruin it to drink. "and..." she begins, taking a sip out of the drink. "still delicious!" the barista smiles happily at her satisfaction.

"no but seriously, how did you manage to perfect it overnight?! you a wizard or something?" yn asks, editing the picture she had taken so she could upload it on her instagram story. leehan giggles, listening to her talk as he cleaned up his station in case other customers began showing up. "i'm starting to think you've always been good and just messed it up yesterday on purpose so you could get me to come back here" she states, making up scenarios for the boy's sudden perfection. he turns to her with a smirk, "and what if i did?" his teasing question makes her ponder for a moment before she displayed a similar smirk on her lips.

"well then it worked, didn't it?"

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"so how much do i owe you? you promised i could pay if i came back today" yn spoke, her wallet already prepared in the palm of her hand. "fine, it's $4.99" leehan says, pressing on a couple buttons on the screen. "okay, here...sorry, i don't have any small change right now" the girl pouted, handing him a $20 bill. "no worries..." he replied, opening up the cash register to collect her change. "oh shit....looks like there is a worry, i don't have change either..." the girl's eyes widen, "oh no!" she frowns, "what should we do?" they both look up for a minute, trying to come up with a solution. she could tell he thought of something when a cheeky grin takes over his face.

"say..." leehan begins, handing the $20 bill back to her. "you keep this...and you can just give me your number instead! pay me for the coffee at our date this weekend" the barista's sneaky solution surprises her once again. yn rolls her eyes, "now i'm really convinced that everything you do is a rouse to see me again" but her actions contradict the uninterested tone of her voice as she steals the pen from the pocket of his apron, grabbing a piece of tissue and beginning to jot down her digits.

"there...you better call me" he nods happily as he retrieves the tissue from her hands. "i promise, and you know i always keep my word" she giggles, "just for me though, right?" yn asks one last time before making her way over to the door. and right before she leaves leehan replies,

"just for you"

the end.

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AAAAAAH i loved writing this fic sm :3 also i luv barista leehan LIKE THOSE PICS FROM YESTERDAY #needthat 🤤 also cant wait for this comeback heehehsgegehhe i hope u guys liked this! reblogs and feedback r greatly appreciated as always. tysm for reading! love, kona.

[wiidvw]

I Fall to Pieces When I'm With You.

pairing. Dallas Winston x Black ! Fem ! Reader.

summary. After seeing you talking to Soda, Dallas can't help but be jealous.

content. Small angst. Smut—oral sex(m!receiving), P in V sex, unprotected sex. Dallas takes pics of r during sex. Slight themes of a toxic relationship. Not proofread.

𝗟𝗔𝗧𝗘 𝗜𝗡 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗔𝗙𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗡𝗢𝗢𝗡, 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗢𝗗 𝗢𝗨𝗧𝗦𝗜𝗗𝗘 the Curtis’ house, talking to Soda. You smiled softly with each word, nodding when he said anything—like you did with everyone. You were always friendly like that, and you didn't think it could be taken out of any context other than that. 

     However, Dallas, who was a few feet away, stared at you and Soda, clenching his jaw and nearly crushing the cigarette in his hand. He ignored the obvious explanation for you talking to him, which was because he was your friend, and immediately took it as you flirting with him or him flirting with you. He desperately wanted to walk over to you two and snatch you away—and probably yell, which would lead to an argument, but he didn't care.

     He controlled himself—barely—and took a drag from his cigarette as you and soda laughed. 

𝗙𝗢𝗟𝗟𝗢𝗪𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗬𝗢𝗨𝗥 𝗡𝗢𝗥𝗠𝗔𝗟 𝗥𝗢𝗨𝗧𝗜𝗡𝗘, 𝗗𝗔𝗟𝗟𝗔𝗦 walked you home. As you walked quietly side-by-side on the sidewalk, Dallas smoked a cigarette, the smoke filling your nose. “You like Soda?” Dallas asked, breaking the silence.

     You glanced at him. “What?”

     “You heard me.”

     “As a friend, of course. Why are you asking this?”

     “Why are you laughing at him like that then?”

     You stopped walking, glaring at Dallas. “What are you getting at? Soda is just a friend, and he's yours too.”

     “What are you flirting with him for then? Smilin’ at him like that.”

     “I was never flirting with him.”

     “Sure, you weren't. I'm not blind, doll!” He began to raise his voice at you.

      Your eyes burned and your throat ached at his words. You desperately wanted him to stop talking, so you started walking again, ignoring his hateful words. 

     “Where are you going?” He followed you.

     “Stop following me. I can walk myself home,” you said and continued to ignore him when he yelled after you.

𝗟𝗔𝗧𝗘𝗥, 𝗜𝗡 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗘𝗩𝗘𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚, 𝗟𝗢𝗡𝗚 𝗔𝗙𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝗬𝗢𝗨'𝗗 arrived home, you lay in bed, reading a book, until you heard taps at your window. You knew only one person who did that. You stood from your bed and stepped toward the window, opening the curtains to reveal Dallas Winston outside. You opened the window, furrowing your eyebrows. “What are you doing here?”

     “Let me in. I'm freezing my ass off out here,” he said, making you roll your eyes and move to the side, allowing him to climb inside your room. You slid the window down after him.

     “What are you doing here?” You repeated, your voice soft, careful not to wake your parents. 

     “A guy can't see his girl?”

     A pang of guilt struck your stomach. “No, you're right, I'm sorry.” Your head flashed images from earlier with your argument with Dallas. “Dally, I'm sorry about before. You were right, I shouldn't have been talking to Soda like that—”

     “Don't worry ‘bout it—”

     “I'll do anything for you to forgive me.”

      Dallas’ lips curled into a smirk. “Anything?”

     “Anything.”

      An unlimited amount of inappropriate scenarios and fantasies filled Dallas’ mind, in which he forced them away and settled for having you kneel in between his thighs as he sat on your bed. Your hands clawed at his belt, pulling his jeans and boxers down, his hardening cock springing out. Your hand wrapped around the base, pulling a strained sigh from his lips. You leaned forward, wrapping your plump lips around his tip, a salty taste coming onto your tongue as you licked circles around him. 

     You glanced up at him, his head thrown back as a hand went to the back of your head, slowly pushing your head lower and lower. You forced yourself to breathe in through your nose as his cock was close to hitting the back of your throat. You were doing this for him, so you wanted him to feel good.

     However, when the tip of his cock hit the back of your throat, you couldn't stop yourself from gagging. You didn't mind, though, when you heard a groan from Dallas. “Fuck, doll,” his hips bucked, making you gag again, tears pricking at the corners of your eyes, which eventually fell when you allowed Dallas to fuck your mouth.

     It was an image that Dallas wanted to keep forever. He reached for the camera you kept on your bedside table—God, was he happy you kept it there—and snapped a picture of you in your current state. 

     You heard the noise, but you were so focused on Dallas and pleasing him, you didn't care to protest—it's not like you could if you wanted to.

     He nearly tossed the camera back on your nightstand, his hands returning to the back of your head as you swallowed around his cock. Your nails dug into his thighs while you struggled to stop gagging, forcing yourself to breathe through your nose.

      “Goddamn—” he pulled you off, a loud gasp coming from you, coughs following afterward. With the backs of your hands, you wiped the tears and looked up at Dallas. “C'mere,” he said breathlessly, and you quickly followed his demand, straddling his lap. 

     Dallas kissed you roughly, hands traveling underneath your top, cupping your breasts through your bra. You whimpered at his harsh grip while your hands tugged at his shirt. You pulled away, pulling off your top and throwing it somewhere on the floor. Dallas’ hands gripped your waist as you reashed back, removing the claso from your bra, allowing it to slide down your arms, and letting it join your top.

     Dallas attached his lips around one of your nipples, sucking and nibbling softly, making you squirm and tug at his hair while he rested his hands on your back, pushing you closer to him. “Dallas,” you whine, but he ignores you. He switched to your untouched breast and repeated his previous actions until the brown bud peaked, replicating the other. Meanwhile, you tried to silence yourself, covering your mouth with a hand; however, Dallas quickly swatted your hand away, humming around your nipple.

      Without realizing it, you began to grind against his cock. You hoped he couldn't feel how wet you became.

     He pulled away with a pop and guided your body into position, in which you lay on your back while he pulled off his shirt and pants. You pushed down your shorts and underwear, kicking them on the floor. Dallas moved in between your legs, tip teasing your entrance.

     He knew he should give you some type of prep, but you were already so wet. Besides, this was for him, wasn't it? 

     Dallas gripped your thighs, wrapping them around his waist as he slowly pushed his cock inch-by-inch into your cunt. You gasped softly, leaning your head back into your pillow. He rested his hands beside your head. “Goddamn, doll,” he groaned as he buried his head in your neck, softly biting at the flesh. 

     Once he was fully buried in your cunt, he allowed you to adjust for only a few, short seconds before pulling out to the point that only his tip was inside before thrusting harshly inside, pulling a loud moan from your lips, which hoped nobody else heard. 

     He gradually set a fast pace, abusing your cunt, the sound of skin slapping filling the room along with your barely muffled moans. Despite his harsh actions, it felt so good. Your pleasure only increased as Dallas reached a hand down to your clit, rubbing fast circles with his thumb.

     “Dally,” you whine, nails digging into his back. 

     “Yeah, doll?” He spoke, looking down at you with a small smirk on his face. 

     Another whine escaped your lips when he pulled out. You knew this was about him, but God, it felt so good. You glanced up, watching as he pushed both of your thighs to your stomach before sliding his cock back inside your cunt, a groan coming from Dallas.

     Your moans quickly returned as Dallas’ resumed with his fast pace, building up your already close climax.

     “Takin’ me so well, doll,” his voice sounded rough as he spoke. “You're mine, you know that?”

      You nodded, babbling fragments of sentences.

     His hand returned to your clit, watching as your face contorted in pleasure. He felt his climax too, but he wanted you to cum first. “You close?” He asked, placing kisses on your neck. 

     “Yes!” you cried. 

     “Come on, doll, cum for me.”

     With his harsh thrusts, thumb on your clit, and words, you came with a soft moan, clenching around his cock. You were so focused on your release, you didn't hear the click of your camera.

     You also had no idea that the next day, Dallas took those polaroids of you and showed them to Soda, bragging but also telling him to stay away from you.

[cece693]

You're Edward?! Pt. 2 (Edward Cullen x Male Reader)

Here's the first part of this pic, but if you haven't read it, basically male reader goes to Forks to confront Edward for making Bella uncomfortable, yet didn't know Edward was a total hottie. And very much single.

Edward Cullen was a hottie and m/n was intimidated. It always happened whenever he encountered pretty boys, but this was on a whole other level. "Bella, my love, why didn't you disclose that your bully was handsome?!" M/n exclaimed in disbelief after Edward stopped and began talking with equally gorgeous students, presumably his brothers and sisters.

"Did it matter?"

"Yes," M/n quickly replied, his eyes darting between Edward and Bella. "I needed to mentally prepare myself to handle such hotness... Do you think he's all-natural?"

"M/n!" Bella exclaimed, her cheeks flushing with embarrassment.

"What? I'm just being honest. Anyone with sight can agree he looks delectable." M/n defended himself, ignoring the playful slap on his shoulder from Bella. "So, before I confront him, can you pretty please tell me all about him? For research purposes." He added, flashing a grin when Bella raised her eyebrow in a questioning manner.

"Fine. You already know Edward Cullen: standoffish, rude, and an ass to everyone, especially me. The people he's talking to are his adopted siblings. Rosalie—" Bella pointed at the blonde girl who looked like she could kill anyone and not give a fuck. "is dating Emmett, the big, muscular guy."

She paused, noticing M/n's slightly creeped-out expression, and nodded in agreement. "I know, weird, but apparently it's legal."

"Let me guess, the other two are also dating, right?" He mused, looking at the female short stack and blonde guy who looked a mix of pain and constipation.

Bella nodded, confirming M/n's assumption. "Yeah, that's Alice and Jasper. Out of all the siblings, she's the most social and friendly."

Taking in the information, M/n looked out the window once more and noticed that Edward was looking directly at them. However, no smile nor wave was thrown their way. Instead, his features were set in a frown, eyes narrowed in frustration and anger.

"I take back everything I said. Edward's an ass," M/n remarked, his tone laced with irritation. The retort confused Bella, who hadn't noticed Edward's staring. "Just look out the window. He's glaring at us, and I haven't done anything…yet."

It took a few seconds for the realization to sink in, but when it did, it was already too late. "Don't—" Bella hurried out, yet her friend was already out of the truck and walking toward the Cullens. "M/n, hold up," she exclaimed, also getting out of the truck and attempting to match his long strides.

"M/n, please," Bella begged. "Let's not make a scene." Yet all she received was an eye roll.

"I'm simply going over there to have a nice chat. No fighting; I pinky promise." M/n reassured, his tone determined as he continued his stride toward the Cullens. Thankfully, most of the students had already left school; perfect, one less thing to worry about.

"Hey." M/n called out, capturing the attention of all Cullens and causing Bella to fold into herself. "We need to talk." Not even bothering to ask, m/n grabbed Edward and pulled him toward the woods.

"M/n!" Bella yelled, about to step in between her friend and Edward, when Alice let out a laugh. Looking weirdly at the girl, Bella didn't know what she found funny: wasn't she worried about her brother?

"No, not really." She replied, alarming Bella. "You spoke out loud." Alice explained, causing the rest of the Cullens to hide their chuckles. Oh, humans and their stupidity. "Besides, Edward can handle himself."

That and Alice had seen that m/n and Edward's meeting would turn into a makeout session; there were just things that she couldn't handle, but Alice was glad Edward had found his mate. Even Rosalie, who had made her distaste known, came around to the idea after listening to the large impact m/n would have on their family. M/n Cullen sounded perfect, after all.

[valeriwa]

kiss me baby

three: pretty sure

summary: as the head of the very popular newspaper club, you have decided to heed the advice of the miya twins' fanclub and make a volleyball column. however, your club mutually agreed you'd be the one to gather content and coverage. something that started out as professional and friendly spiral out of hand as blushes rise and hearts race and a bunch of volleyball crazed doofuses think it's time you and mr-i-need-memories get together.

warnings: none

suna rintaro x fem!reader

masterlist || two || three || four

(it's a thursday)

"mom, you don't have to," you said, staring at the alarming amount of lunchboxes on the kitchen counter.

"nonsense, he's probably not eating well with all that stress." your mom busied herself in making some last minute onigiris.

"he's not even gonna eat that much."

"oh, this is for that team you're interviewing and doing all that fancy newspaper work with," she said, smiling as she neatly placed the freshly made onigiris into one of the larger lunchboxes.

"i'll have to stop by the school," you groaned, turning your back towards the counter and rested against it.

"you can go to the train station after dropping off the onigiris, i'm sure kane won't mind." she was referring to your older brother who was dropping you off to the train station.

you shrugged. kane was a chill brother, bought you ice-cream and the works. recent uni graduate and he was spending some time at home before he headed out to look for a job.

"nii-san!" you shouted, hoping your voice carried all the way to his room. your mom placed the airtight lunchboxes securely in your suitcase and handed you the onigiris.

"comin'." with his dyed blonde hair ruffled and his thin university jacket hanging off his built frame, kane slipped down the stairs. a clean white shirt loosely tucked into some dark, faded jeans and his wallet prominent in its pocket.

he was dressed nicer than usual. usual meant sweats and the weird set of gray-brown shirts he got on some kind of shoddy thrift shop.

you decided not to comment on it in front of your mom, as you hurry after your brother who's dragging your suitcase along.

a moment of silence passes before you decide to bring it up.

"who you meeting up with?" he coughs and turns at your question.

"how'd you figure that out?"

"jeans. you never wear jeans. or a white shirt; too easy to stain," you said, enjoying the way his face contorts into surprise, "dressing to impress tonight?"

kane does seem like a cool kid. blonde hair messed up with sleep, eyes twinkling with amusement and baggy clothes. a hand running through his hair. seems like the perfect guy.

he's a complete dork. with the lamest degree of course; in accountancy. his ex told him his weird references to anime was a huge turn-off. you laughed in his over the phone when he called you after the breakup.

"the cashier at the convenience store," he mumbled lightly. you whirled around in amused surprise. okay, he had good taste, you'll give him that.

you patted his shoulder in some sort of weird encouragement. he had no chance.

"oh hi y/n-san, what are you doing here?" it was aran, bless him; he's an angel.

"came to deliver some homemade onigris." you raised the box, your brother trailing behind you on his phone.

"you didn't have to," he said, gratefully taking the food from you and leading you inside the gym where practice was ending.

"my mom did, thank her." by now, everybody noticed your presence was known by everyone in the gym. do the coaches just teleport as soon as practice ends?

"senpai!" ichika bounded over to you, leaving atsumu who she was in a conversation with.

"hey ichika, you got any good content?"

"i followed your advice; i got consented ab pics." everybody blinks and slowly turns to you. the ab pics were your idea?

"good girl." you pat her head and point at the box aran was holding.

"my mom made you onigiris." that was all it took and the boys flocked to aran like a moth to flame, save for kita; he walked peacefully and thanked you properly before taking the food.

"tell your mom her onigiris are amazing!" was that osamu? you couldn't be sure but you nodded and yelled out a sure anyways.

you tentatively made it out of the gym with the boys hogging the ongiris. you told ichika to tell the boys that they could return the box after the weekend when you came back on monday.

"aren't you going to the station now?" you whirled around in surprise to be met with suna's blank stare. your brother was barely a few meters away.

"yeah, why do you ask?" you discreetly eyed your brother to make sure he wasn't eavesdropping.

"just 'cause. are you going alone?" did he want to walk you? you swear your mind was doing parkour trying to see if you were picking up the hints correctly.

"with him. why do you wanna walk me?" you pointed to your brother, forgetting to mention he's your sibling. you turn and his face seems a little more blank; impressive.

"no, just curious." he started to turn back but your hand shot out to grab his wrist.

"you can walk me if you want, he has a date to go to anyway." you blinked in anticipation as suna nodded, stepping closer to you. you hadn't let go of his wrist yet.

"who is he anyways?"

"oh him? an idiot of a brother, don't mind him." he parted his mouth in realization before shutting it in embarrassment. you didn't notice his predicament as you dragged him to you brother.

"oh what do we have here?"

"you can go to your little date, suna's gonna walk me." you had let go of his wrist by this point. his lips stretched a little in disappointment.

"oh yeah? mom's gonna-"

"do nothing because she won't know," you stated, crossing your arms over your chest to give it a sense of finality.

"and how do you guarantee that?" suna almost laughed at the interaction. you were usually such a mature person with a sense of togetherness but right now you were just being a younger sibling; one that reminded him of his own.

"because ito-san will find out that you pour milk before cereal." suna blinked. that was a no-no.

"i don't though?!"

"she doesn't know that."

"evil. kid," he was addressing suna here, "you better watch out what you're getting into."

"i'm pretty sure i do, l/n-san." and he's pretty sure he likes it too.

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[brattylikestoeat]

First time ever sending in an Anon, despite following for a while now lol. I think you give good advice and somethings been on my mind. Which full disclosure, I'm kind of clueless with girls (and other genders). So I wanted to ask, do you have any idea what it could mean if a girl is showing what you've said to her friends?

I'd like to think gotten pretty close with a girl I know, and I'm not going to say we're flirting but we're friendly you know? She's made some jokes about dating or kissing me or us cosplaying a couple together, but I'm not going to jump the ship when she could just be like really friendly. (Typing all this out I am aware I sound like some sort of colossal idiot.)

The other day she showed a screenshot of something I said to her friends because it was funny, and they seemed to pass some sort of judgement on me (my icon, and my normalcy. I've been deemed not normal, but not evil either apparently).

I have some vague understanding that sometimes a guy is brought before the friendship council to get their opinions, but I don't want to read too far into it (unfortunately, I am.) I only saw a snippet of the conversation that she showed to me, and it did made me laugh to see what they said and I think it was all in good fun. But I'm a little lost, was this some sort of test? Did I fail? Should have I been more charming somehow? Help!

Also this turned out wayyy longer than I expected I have the bad habit of over explaining everything, so sorry. No need to respond if you aren't feeling it I think I'm just using your inbox as a confessional a little bit. I also tried asking my tarot deck about it, nothing conclusive. I just wish I could know how she felt about me, because she means a lot to me.

I share 90% of my text messages with my bestie, cause sometimes I want clarity on what I should do, to share something funny, or to get an opinion.

If they all was having fun, then it’s all in jest and should be taken that way.

My situation is a little different, I don’t tell my bestie directly they are hoes or SD, but I share with her most things.

She even sends me text her husband send her, and it’s just so we care share opinions.

It’s all in fun, don’t take it too seriously. If she showed you that means she comfortable. I never show my hoes what my bestie say about them.

I showed her a pic of TG, no backstory, and she was like, he look like he bite bitches, and I was like you got no idea sis.

[shortyisweird9]

'Lonely ghost serie'

Chek and heartache- part III

Tw⚠️:swearing, referring of dark themes such as suicide attempt and mental illness.

The morning rays hit your eyes gently, tangible by their warmth,as you forced yourself from another dream of nothing but blank.

You groaned as your cat,Didi, comes running towards you: purring, meowing and chirping in pure happiness. You knew the reason she does this; your previous cat, Martha or Dildo- your roommate Sergiu called her that because of her dickish attitude with him- used to do this everytime so the little one, Didi, just followed her mother's lead.

Everytime she does that is like a small needle stabs at your heart especially when just 2 weeks passed since Martha died of old age- the black cat was adopted when she was senior, abused and malnourished, your heart knew you couldn't leave her to be laid to rest like a nothing. You adopted her, she bit you and you petted her, she hissed you hugged her, you did everything you could think of to show love even brush her fur with a wet toothbrush end to mimic sweet kisses coming from her mom. The cat soon realized that and started living again. Cautious of your other 3 roommates, cuddly with you.

Anyway, you got sidetracked with reminiscing. You heard your friends in the kitchen, Sabrina throwing away the take out boxes and Sergiu preparing some tea, probably to calm his stomach after all the spicy curry he ate last night.

You fixed the oversized white t-shirt and pull the marine blue shorts out of your bottoms, Didi already waiting you by the door.

You all, Sabrina,Sergiu,Ace and you, live in a quaint apartment, turned from campus housing, right next to one of the malls of the city. It had two small bathrooms, a living room , three petite bedrooms ,a tiny kitchen, a rounded balcony and a hallway. It was much smaller than your family home but it was in a central zone where your family home was outside the city's boundaries. You chose it not only because you wanted to spare your family from driving you to university but also because you needed your freedom, your space. Your parents were very understanding of that.

-Y/n e trează? ( "Is Y/n awake?") Ace asked as he sipped on his black cofee.

Without, he would pretty much be a grumpy hedgehog with spiky tealish mohawk. And who wouldn't love that?

-Nu încă, ah! Uite-o! ("Not yet,ah! There she is") Sabrina exclaimed, getting up to hug you and leaving the smoking tea cup by the window.

"Hello." You said ,voice grungy and eyes shut from the light.

You felt the warm hands of your Arabic friend on your face filled with moles and couple of marks from recently popped pimples, you let yourself be engrossed into it ,the touch starvation you carry like a cross chosing for you.

You hear her laugh, she always had a pretty laugh and a prettier smile . She was the beauty of the group, with big puffy sand yellow curls, brown skin with red undertones and black eyes who glow in pure happiness. She was stunning and a sweetheart with an obsession on the colour red and butterflies.

"Someone is needy." Ace teased.

"Shut up or I will staple those hair triangles on your scalp. "

You wanted to say something better but Sabrina then started massaging your lower face in a circular manner with her thumb. You knew you couldn't do anything anymore except melt.

-Anyway ,unde e Sergiu? ("Anyway, where is Sergiu?")

-Ți-o făcut ceai, cane e pervaz. S-o dus până sus să o ajute pe Florentina.("He made you tea, the cup is on the windowsill. He went upstairs to help Florentina.") He said, taking another sip of his cup.

-Ooooh, Florentina. You two began as Ace shook his head in amusement.

You and Sabrina were known to be ruthless in your teasing of the guitarist with long brown locks and beard.

Florentina was a crush of his, a freshman in the University of Arts who played the violin beautifully. Small,with olive skin, long red hair keept in a 1960s hairstyle and green petite with a triangular shaped face. She was a sweetie with a love for fantasy book ,autumn and ferrets.

-Oh, yeah?

-Dup, iubitul ei se mută cu ea. ("Yup, her boyfriend moves in with her")

-Oh.

Ace sucked in his lip ,his face filled with disappointment just like theirs now.

-That sucks.

-Numai spune,Sabrina.("You don't say,Sabrina")

Just then, the door clicked shut. Sergiu is back, this will be awkward.

-Ce vă uita��i așa la mine?("Why are you looking at me like that?")

Neither of them could properly looked into the warm brown eyes of the man whose glow seemed to fade a bit, Sergiu was a stubborn man who shut his feelings deep inside, only through his song you could tell he was suffering. Just like you, I suppose.

-Am auzit...("We heard...")

You bit your lips as your long fingers played with each other, twisting and tugging while your nerves grew. Last thing you wanted was another fight where you all force the man to open up. He had suicidal tendencies, sometimes he came too close to actually do it but you were there and you needed to be there now too, even if he doesn't like being taking care of.

Sergiu rolled his eyes at you, his heart hurt from how rigid your posture was, eyes were worried about him but also scared, teeth grinding themselves not out of anger but out of care and fear.

He knew you hated arguments and shouts with dying passion. You always cried when someone raised their voice in less than friendly manner, you hated this reaction of complete terror, you hated looking weak but now you hated letting your friend burn himself because of an unfortunate love triangle. So you swallowed your nerves and braved on, it's about him ,not you.

Sergiu wanted to protect you all from this negativity, especially you and Ace. You had a big event to organise , Ace's sex reassignment surgery is coming up soon. You both have your own problems to dwell ,you didn't need to have him as one too.

However somewhere in his head, a voice telling him that he was wrong ,that voice that took the shape of you in the night of July.

You were crying, your grey hoodie wet from the rain as you cling desperately to him, not daring to move.

He was the reason why you crying, why you yelled profanities our of worry for what he was about to do. He...He tried to throw himself off a bridge ,the same bridge you two first shared your kiss.

That dark episode still irked your minds in the darker moments, late in the night nothing but your mind to keep you company and that's torture in itself.

You thought you could help him, change whatever hurts him and make it go away. That was your biggest mistake, you can't change a person that's not your duty , your duty was to support them through tough times and help them see the light at the end of the dark tunnel. A duty you solemnly swore to uphold even if he didn't liked you to. There's no fucking way you let him do that again,not if you can be there for him. Like he was always there for you, your big guardian with a guitar that spews flames in shape of songs.

-Y/n..

-Te rog, Sergiu. Nu ascunde. ("Please, Sergiu. Don't hide.")

Your eyes were desperate for him to talk it out in any shape or form. They implore for him to vent, to not hid between fake lies like " I am okay" or "I'm fine."

-Bine,bine. Tu ești șefa. ("Fine,fine. You're the boss.")

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They talked and talked and cried and laughed and cried again. A never ending circle of venting ,small earthquakes which instead of fracturing the friendship , it onlyakes it stronger as it should.

-Te simți mai bine?("You feeling better?") Your voice ran timidly on the top of your apartment building, watching over the brutalist styled architecture.

-Un pic, doare știi dar asta îmi arată cât de îndrăgostit sunt de ea. Iubirea adevărată pentru mine nu se referă doar la a iubi doar dacă te iubește reciproc, nu , să iubești fără să forțezi persoană să te iubească înapoi. Să îi porți de grijă, să o protejezi, să o ajuți fără să fi un egoist, fără să te aștepți să fi iubit înapoi. ("A little, it hurts you know but this shows how much I love her. True love for me doesn't mean to love just so they will love you back, no, to love someone without forcing them to love you back. To care for them, to protect them, to help them without being an egotistic, to love without expecting to be loved back.")

-Poetic.

He laughed at that , starring at the setting sun ,his lit cigar forgotten fumed between his painted fingers. His hair blown gently by the wind , he looked like a masterpiece.

-Scuze..pentru tot.("Sorry...for everything. ")

-N-ai de ce. Mi-ai făcut chec până la urmă așa că balanța eternă este restabilită.("You don't have a reason to be. You made me chek in the end and thus the eternal balance is restored.") You joked, munching quietly on the piece of cake, his jacket keeping you warm.

-Haha. Cine ar fi crezut că checul are fi o gustare bună când îți dai vent.("Haha. Who would have thought that chek will be a good snack when you vent.")

Indeed, who would have thought of that but one who cried in the sore days filled with heart ache.

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Hey,guys!💖

Hope you like the third part of the serie, I wanted to focus on "your life" and your friends backgrounds this time. The translations are not 100% word to word but enought to give you context.

Anyway, I hope you like it. Stay safe!

Tagged 💗💗:@moolujk @gaysludge @simonsbluee @yoyoanaria @cherry-piee @magenta-skyline @yikesyikesyikes95

[shelby-love]

KELLY SEVERIDE

Good to be back.

Requested: yes

Prompts: none

Warnings: none

Authors note: Sorry for dissappearing! Writers block is an absolute b and it still isn't gone but I guess it's enough to get me back on track. Much love everyone! 💕

"Good luck sis." Your older brother says behind you. The deep breath you tried to hide pushed through and makes you exhale loudly. After turning your body to face him you make your way to hug him once more.

After a decade of being away from the magnificent city of Chicago, the one you were born in, you finally came back.

Firehouse 51 looks intimidating as you stand before it. "Alright. I'll see you at home."

Your brother leaves you be by entering the car and driving away. With your duffle bag thrown over your shoulder you start walking towards the massive house.

You see several vehicles parked in the driveway, one of them being your new ambulance vehicle. Your eyes roam around your surroundings.

"Hey can I help you somehow? I'm Joe." A good looking man comes up to you. His dementor is friendly and he makes you relax instantly.

"Yeah... Um actually I'm here as the new PIC. Ambulance 61?" You state, unsure if you actually came to the right house.

"Y/LN right? Yeah Chief told us. Come let me show you to his office." He starts walking rapidly fast while talking about all the rooms and people at the house. You struggle to keep up with the information so you decide to just watch and memorise the rooms.

"This is Connie. Connie this is our new PIC." He instructes you to the lady that sits at the desk. She looks really intimidating. She just shoots Joe a look and says, "I know. Hello Y/N. Welcome to firehouse 51."

When Joe tries to open the door Connie stops him, "He's busy right now. But he'll be done in a minute and th-"

Her words are cut off by the office door opening. Two men stride out wearing dark blue shirts meaning that they're lieutenants. The man that comes out second makes your heart beat faster instantly. He just seems really fimiliar to you.

When Kelly exited the office, the last thing he thought he would see was you. Literally the last thing.

"Y/N?" His mouth worked faster than his brain. All it took to get your mouth on the floor was him recognizing you after a decade.

He changed. A lot. He wasn't the boy you saw 10 years ago anymore. He grew up, handsomely too.

"Hey Kelly."

"Casey let's go I need to talk to you." He stated monotonous, acting like he didn't even know you anymore. Your name felt bitter in his mouth and you knew it.

As soon as the duo dissappeared Joe didn't try to hide his discomfort, "Well that was...wierd."

Joe wanted to comment more but his words were cut short by the bataillon chief. "Y/LN you can come in. Thank you Joe for showing her the way."

With a small salute Joe took this as his cue to leave. He wondered what was up with Severide, he never acted like that towards anyone new. When he saw him sitting at the squad table he debated whether to press him to get information or just stay put.

"Please Y/N take a seat. Make yourself comfortable." You couldn't really get comfortable until you got the green light from everyone...but after seeing Kelly you knew that wasn't going to be possible.

"I will keep this short. Leslie Shay is going to help you get settled in the ambulance but I'm sure you'll have no problem."

"Ambulance 61, truck 81, squad 3. Truck collision. South Clark 56."

Just great, you thought. Still not fully trusting your orientation in the firehouse you make your way outside with the chief. Once you spot Kelly next to the squad truck you hesitantly smile at him but he breaks contact and jumps inside.

"Hey I'm Shay? You okay if I drive?" A pretty blonde comes up to you. Your eyes are still locked on the squad truck and so the words slip just slip out. "Yeah sure."

"Oh my God! Finally someone with some sense," She rambles on happily while you sit in the passenger seat. "I mean it might take a while for you to get used to this... But take the wheel whenever you want! Or don't. Please don't. But I mean you can. Obviously..."

Fits of laughter overcome the nervousness in the ambo. "I'm Y/N."

Her eyes flash with something unknown to you. It's like she's trying to remember something... Or someone.

"Well nice to meet you partner." She smiles and makes a turn. "A little heads up. Collisions aren't that bad here in Chicago. We just have to squeeze into the vehicle. But don't worry! The guys make sure nothing happens to us."

Aren't that bad, she said.

Her words were proven to be false when you arrived at the scene. It was a terrible sight.

Two big loaded trucks smashed right into each other. The bigger truck now hanged over the cliff with the driver in his seat.

"Squeeze in you said Shay." You repeat her words and exit the ambo.

Where you lived you never had calls that big. You now doubted your abilities. Especially because you don't know anyone to ask for help except for Kelly who gave a honest impression that he doesn't like you anymore.

"Okay squad, truck, let's get them out!" A man who's uniform read Casey announced. You grabbed the jump bag and followed them. The man that didn't hang from a cliff seemed to be lost in his thoughts when you came to him.

"Y/N I got him." Shay suddenly appeared beside you. "They need you there."

Confused about her words you told her, "But I don't know them or how they work."

"You're the PIC though," She held the man's head to protect his neck. "Look I know about you and Kelly and trust me when I say that he'll come back to his senses soon. But you can't let that affect the job. Go!"

You didn't have to be told twice as you detached yourself from the truck and ran towards the huddle. "Where do you guys need me?" You asked. To your suprise Kelly ignored the tension and walked towards you.

"We need you inside with him he's in pretty bad shape." He explained and grabbed the ropes, his rough hands and strong arms connected you to his ropes securely. No matter how much you tried you couldn't ignore the different type of connection that was growing between you.

"I'm sorry I left Kelly." You spoke truthfully.

He glanced up at you before putting his hand behind your back and walking you through the plan. "Just be safe."

***

"Sir stay with me okay?!" You were trying to keep him stable while Kelly connected ropes to him as quickly as he could. He won't be able to make it unless you get him out now. "Kelly we don't have a lot of time!"

"Done! Cruz get him out now!!" Both squad and truck were trying hard to get him out without putting too much weight onto the hanging vehicle. After they get him out the two of you were next and until then you were stuck inside.

"You know I didn't have a choice?" You tell him. You want him to know you didn't just abandon what the two of you had.

"Y/N now is not the time."

Words were forming in you brain but before you could say them the weight of the truck shifted and the two of you sank with it. Before you could grab onto the rope your body shifted backwards and you almost flew through the broken window.

"Hey!" Kelly reached out and grabbed you. The look of fear in his eyes was evident and made you realise that this is the right time.

"You do realise we're only going to say what's on our mind not that we're closer to death than life?" Your words are meant to be a bit sarcastic and you voice is supposed to sound light but it turns out to be none of those things.

"Stop joking," Kelly sighs and helps you settle back in as carefully as possible. "You wanna know why I'm acting the way I am?"

You only nod.

"Because you left me when I wanted to tell how much I love you."

You're so struck by his words that you forget where you are.

"And because you left and made me think that I did something wrong."

He tries to avoid your eyes by looking back at the rest of the firefighters that are getting the patient safely on the ground.

"Kelly..."

"No forget it." He waves his hands but you aren't letting it go. Instead you do what you wanted to do for years and years. You lean in and kiss him.

With that one careful kiss you apologise for everything that happened.

You're scared Kelly will pull away but he only returns the kiss. He pulls away only when the other ropes arrive gives you his famous smile that made you fall for him all of those years ago.

"We're not done yet." He starts connecting more ropes to your body and the tension is higher than it ever was before. "You still have a lot to apologise for."

You wonder how to do it and smile.

Six words: It is good to be back.

MASTERLIST

[acommonloon]

TL;DR

I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints

Yes, another Billy Joel song but this one was elicited not only by the name of the place but the lyric was painted on the wall.

<eye roll> be better

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This place was on my radar for some time but not nearly so long as the Cock & Bull still, I was probably more excited for it. I follow several websites posting about food and drink in the Cincy area. At some point this place drew my attention for its Texas style barbecue. This Texas BBQ, like North Carolina pulled pork, is something I am always seeking but rarely never finding. Last October I ate "Texas style" BBQ from a couple running a food truck in Cincy. They were setting up in Cincy's only Belgium Brewery (Humble Monk) on a Saturday and that combo of two my favorite things was too much to resist. Also, D had left to spend the week at the beach so I needed something to tempt my anxious mind. The brisket was mushy and the jalapeno potato salad was bland <sigh> oh well, it filled the hole and the beer was good.

Despite my anticipation, walking into Sinners and Saints, something seemed off. I paused to take a pic of the sign and something about the entry struck a discordant note. This continued to resonate even as the bartender greeted us and welcomed us to sit anywhere. We chose the bar - of course. There was only one other customer and he was watching the game. The place was smallish but they had four large HiDef TVs near the ceiling above the bar and all were tuned to baseball, alternating the Reds game and the Astros. Holy frijoles!

I was particularly interested in the Reds game because they are my favorite National League team (since 75') and my tumblr friend @lunasong365 was at the game. It's a rare experience for me to be in a bar with the baseball game already on. Usually I have to ask to put it on. Even rarer, both the bartender and the only customer were closely following the game. Can't remember that happening ever in the market where I drink. So what was wrong with this place? I wasn't really thinking about it.

They had 20 beer taps, most were craft beer and a good selection of whiskey on the bar. The bartender was friendly and when she asked if we knew what we wanted to eat, I said I came for the BBQ. If she had been busy or less friendly, I'd have merely ordered but, as she seemed (pretended?) to be interested I said I'd been following them for awhile and I was hoping their Texas-style BBQ would fill my craving. I said, most places overcook their brisket and its mushy soft. That's how people like it where I live...now. Also, I was intrigued by the sausage on their menu. It was house made and there was a spicy version. Texas sausage is another thing I miss.

While waiting for our food, a black man and his two teenage daughters came in. Their conversation took place at the other end of the bar but I supposed (hoped) they were ordering BBQ. I'm sure it's stereotyping but most of the best BBQ I've ever eaten was made by black men. I took it as a good sign. I do bemoan the loss of the BBQ Jew at Smoketown USA. Also, the folks at Butchertown Hall in Nashville, where the inside looks like it was designed by Ikea, can Q.

Anyway so how was it? Good enough to take home the leftovers but I wouldn't recommend it to anyone who wanted Texas style BBQ. The brisket was overcooked but not mushy. No noticeable smoke ring but good flavor. Rachel said it was cooked 14 hours which is about 5 hours too long in my estimation. In retrospect, I didn't notice smoke pouring from any part of the property so, I don't even know that it was cooked over wood. The sausage was nicely spiced but the texture was soft. It reminded me of the texture of goetta, a Cincy-sentric sausage incorporating oats. Rachel said she thought they ground the meat too finely. She also thought it could use more spice. They should listen to her. Well, for my tastes.

To be successful, you have to sell what customers want. If they don't buy the English beer at the English pub, give them Guinness and call it a day. If I lived nearby, I'd drink and watch the games at Sinners and Saints. They have local craft beer on tap and I noticed they had a Texas whiskey from Balcones on the bar I wasn't familiar with. After looking it up, Rachel said a 1 1/2 ounce shot was $8.

Give me a shot...neat, I added. I've ordered whiskey in bars in Louisville for years. I instinctively evaluate my bartender as I'm sure they measure me. The best ones do. In any case, I wasn't clear on Rachel so I asked if she had a wide glass she could put it in. She held up a standard rocks glass and I nodded. Perfect. Then things seemed to go off the rails a bit.

I watched bemused as she put the rocks glass and a shot glass next to each other on the back bar. I thought, perhaps she'll measure the whiskey in the shot glass by eye but, then she pulled out a jigger. She proceeded to scoop the rocks glass full of ice. Ooookay! I was very interested to see just what she was going to do. Maybe I was going to learn something. Maybe she would shake my whiskey in the ice but strain it. That's known as "Up" and I wouldn't mind that. Maybe I was going to get the whiskey in a glass of crushed ice. Not what I wanted but TBH I was in a tolerant mood. I'd rather laugh.

She measured the whiskey in the jigger and poured it into the shot glass then she put both the ice filled rocks glass and the shot on the bar in front of me.

I looked at D and she looked at me and she shrugged as if, now what you going to do? Want me to pour the ice into my water glass? she asked. My hero! that would be great. I don't mind a chilled glass, hell I don't mind a chilled whiskey, I just don't want it watered down in a glass full of ice. You don't taste cold things as well.

When Rachel came back I asked, "So, how long have you guys been here?"

"Since October." Rachel replied

[act-addict-actors-matchups]

@ne-nene-ne said,

[1/2] Hi~ May I pls have a matchup? I'm a ♏, ISFP, 5'0 fem w/ medium length dark hair & eyes. I like wearing sweaters/sweatpants a lot! I love to draw & sing especially! I'd sing softly to my s/o if we're close & alone together. I often take endless pics of the sunset bc it's so pretty! Tbh I'm a loner. I'm shy, quiet, awkward and I like my alone time. I'm friendly and good-willing towards others nonetheless! I've been told I have a positive aura. I'm more chill, silly & playful w/ family!

[2/2] I can joke around w/ them! I have a short temper but I forgive just as quickly. I can be hard on myself bc I feel it's necessary to improve. I'm an appreciative person so I'll say "thank you" like 1000 times lol! I highly value family & honesty! My ideal s/o is someone family-oriented, devoted, and genuine. Bonus points if they're funny too! I'd like someone who I can slowdance to soft, jazz music w/. My love language is Acts of Service! Tysm! Take your time, stay healthy & stay safe! ❤

✧ Thank you so much for requesting a matchup love. Tumblr is not letting me tag you so hopefully you’ll see this. 😔 I wish you well during this challenging time. Hope you keep safe as well! 😷

I’d match you with: . . .

➜ HOW YOU TWO FIRST MET ; Juza Hyodo is that typical cold guy in school that everyone is lowkey scared of. That’s how he seems from outside anyway. You were asked by your biology teacher to borrow the books for the class’s current lesson from the library on the spot so you took a beeline for the shelves as fast as you could. But for god’s sake all the books were placed at the topmost part of the science shelves. You stood there for a good minute while glaring at the books overhead. You knew you were damned for good since there were no chairs nearby that were available and the librarian was nowhere to be seen. You stomped you feet in annoyance until you felt a looming presence behind you. A tall one. When you turned around, you saw Juza grabbing the books at ease and handing it to you. You thanked him quietly which surprised him because you actually didn’t quiver with fear or panic in his presence??? and you genuinely thanked him?? It was not usual for him to hear someone express their gratitude towards him. Even the cashiers from sweet shops he’d like to visit secretly we’re scared of him for heaven’s sake. After murmuring a little “‘S nothing.” he walked away. And that was the end of it. Or so you thought. The second time you met the purple haired boy was in a cafe. You were patiently waiting in the line for this so called Peanut Butter Pound Cake S'mores. According to your friends, it was one of the best desserts the cafe ever had. To test that theory, you decided to check the dessert yourself. Everything was perfectly normal until a young teenage boy of average height with fluffy pink hair and light blue eyes bumped into you, spilling a little of his drink on you. Yes, I’m talking about Muku. Baby boy was so scared and flustered, he apologized to you multiple times like crazy. Luckily it wasn’t anything hot so you didn’t burn yourself. Giving the boy a soft smile, you said it was fine and he shouldn’t worry about it. But he is a kind-hearted and modest boy with the motto "doing one good deed each day" so of course he offered you to give some of the Chocolate-Caramel Sandwich Cookies he had ordered before to apologize properly. Normally you would’ve reject the offer but with the way he was looking at you, you couldn’t find the heart to do so. While waiting for your order together, you learned what the boy’s name was and that he came here with his cousin. When you heard that the first image that popped into your mind was a soft looking person just like him you. After you got your order, the two of you made your way towards their table. And with that, your previous thought was thrown out of the window just like that. There he was, one and only Juza Hyodo, the person who helped you in the library, was sitting in a chair, quietly munching on one of the many sweets in front of him. When Muku announced that he was back, his eyes shot up to him and then shifted towards you. Yeah, it was awkward. Nevertheless, you tried to offer the tall boy a smile, which he just nodded his head, cheeks tilted pink to get his sweet tooth exposed to someone from school. After you sat down, Muku began to explain how he accidentally bumped into you and spilled some of his drink on you. Juza got the picture and said nothing. Though, gradually he started to become more comfortable. Before you knew it, you befriend the young teenage boy with fluffy hair. You told Muku how you two first met, which he only exclaimed how cool his cousin was and how the scene was just like from a shoujo manga. So yeah, your friendship with Juza started that day and slowly but steadily developed into something more. You would see him at school and chat with him, give him snacks to eat together on the rooftop etc.

➜ PERSONALITY COMPATIBILITY ; Let me just start of by saying that you two are really similar in terms of personality. A loner who is shy, quiet, awkward, likes alone time yet still friendly and good-willing towards others? Yeah, you get to point. When you're dating someone who has almost identical personality traits as you, reading them becomes easier. Juza is honest and critical of himself but is more than willing to work hard on it to improve himself and so are you. You two motive each other become better versions of yourselves, constantly pushing forward hand in hand ad I think that’s a beautiful thing in a relationship. You two have the same values. He deeply values his comrades and family so he would love it whenever he saw you getting along with Muku or Kumon. He’s very protective of those he holds dear, so watching you interact with them and care for them as if they were your own family would make him fall for you even more. The same goes for him as well. He’ d try his utmost best to get along with your family. Physical affection is OUT the window in the first start of your guys' relationship though. And when you guys DO start attempting physical contact, he'd be so stiff. Baby boy really hasn’t had a lot of experience in regards to how to treat others with affection outside of his family. 🥺 but deep down, Juza has a soft side. He’s a bit shy with showing his affections, but he tries his utmost best to convey his love to you― one of them being if you ever needed him support with ANYTHING honestly, he’ll always make it known to you that you have his full support and that he’s always right beside you through everything.

➜ SHARED ACTIVITIES ; With an delinquent-like appearance that often gives people a "scary" impression of him, I feel like Juza would rather spend time inside rather than outside. For those with a serious sweet tooth, baking, especially with a lover has a double benefit: It engages the two of you in an activity you probably don't do often, and you get to enjoy something delicious afterward. You two make an especially decadent dessert when you're feeling ambitious, or simply break out a boxed mix if you're short on time — or baking skills. At first times, there is a lot of trial and error and you guys end up getting covered in flour and such, a cheeky smile present on your face. These are usually the times where you get to hear Juza’s rare laughs as he joined in your joy. Feeling too lazy to bake something? Have a candy tasting. Satisfying your sweet tooth is a foolproof way to survive. Stock up on different colors of Starbursts, Gummi Bears or Worms, Sour Straws, Hi-Chews, and whatever else you are craving— and then eat your way through the rainbow together. Bonus points if you’re lounging off your sugar coma with a movie on the couch afterwards, he doesn’t particularly mind what kind so it’s totally up to you which genre you want to watch. This one is technically not a date but sometimes you, Juza, Muku and Kumon play board games. Depending on how competitive you are, this idea can be a little dangerous. (looking at you monopoly.) But it’s always a blast to spend time with people you love and cherish.

➜ ZODIAC COMPATIBILITY ; Juza’s birthday is on September 27, which makes him a Libra. When Libra and Scorpio come together in a love match, they tend to make a very emotionally connected and mutually satisfying union. Though Scorpio is a brooder who can get lost in the confusing welter of their own emotions, Libra’s proclivity for balance and harmony helps keep Scorpio even. Scorpio can return the favor to Libra with their characteristic powers of focus, a trait that Libra usually lacks. These two are very compatible due to their similar needs in a love relationship: Libra is the Sign of Partnership, and Libra is happiest when in a well-balanced and intimate relationship, while Scorpio thrives on emotional and sexual intimacy with their mate. These two Signs can make a very loyal, close and satisfying partnership. What’s the best aspect of the Libra-Scorpio relationship? The power they find in unity. They can accomplish a lot, whether they come together for a cause in the business or romantic sphere. They are both winners and they won’t give up, making theirs a relationship that takes care of business.

[uncloseted]

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1/2 Hi. I think I could use some help, I'll try to make this short. When I was 14yo (I'm 20 now) I dated a 18yo guy, thank God we were taking it slow and never made things official. Now that I'm older I can see that relash was rlly wrong. He was manipulating, used me to boost his ego, forced me to do things I wasn't comfortable doing and I think although we weren't official, he cheated on me? (more on that later). After a few months of fooling around, I found out something about him that I didn't like and confronted him about it, with the intention of ending that relash. He started begging me not to leave him, asking me tricky questions about the things I had heard of him with the intention of "making me realize" he did nothing wrong, and he even became violent with the person who told me those things, to the point I couldn't break up with him because I was scared. I just stopped answering his texts and calls because I was afraid of even talking to him and eventually he took the hint and suggested we broke up. We decided to stay friends, but that only lasted a few days, because one day, via Facebook Messenger, he suggested we got back together and I rejected him, so he blocked me. Months later, I had to close my Facebook due to harassment (not related to him) and opened a new one. Facebook showed me his profile in 'people you may know' and I decided to peek out of curiosity. Turns out, the moment we broke up, he started uploading photos with his new girlfriend. The descriptions of those pics said the exact same things he used to tell me, and I ain't good a math but I did some calcs and he had to be with her while still being with me lmao. I really didn't care, I was just happy I got rid of him, and I moved on with my life. Some time later I fell head over heels for a guy from my workplace, who I still hold close to my heart. I have trust issues and I am a very private person, especially with my relashs, so I didn't tell anyone about this guy except from like 3 friends. One of them was a girl (that we'll call Anne) who was like a sister to me, and was also friends with my ex. Over the next 2 years I had a relash with this guy, everytime I talked to Anne I used to tell her more details about my relash. Then, one day, I got a text from my ex. He texted me like we were besties and nothing had ever happened between us, like he didn't block me TWICE (yeah, he blocked me from my new Facebook too even though I never tried to reach out to him). I was angry at his nerve and told him so, he realized I was upset and changed his persona from confident and tough as nails to regretful and soft, telling me he was sorry for being so immature all those years before, but excusing his shitty behavior by saying he always "kept an eye on me". Um, wtf? He told me he was always asking stuff about me to Anne, looking out for me. I wanted to know what exactly he knew, but, trying to manipulate me again, he said he would only tell me if I accepted to play a game with him: I could ask him one question if he would ask me one in exchange and so on, and we had to be ttly honest with each other. I really didn't wanna get into his shenanigans but I only had one question (wtf do u exactly know about me, creep?) so I accepted. He asked his question first (dID u fEeL sAd wHeN i bLoCkEd U?) and I asked mine. I thought he maybe knew something about my school stuff and MAYBE that I had been dating someone else. Turns out he knew every. single. detail about my personal life. Not only he KNEW I was with other guy...

2/2 Not only he KNEW I was with other guy. He knew his entire name, the school he attended and every little detail from our relationship and other stuff about my personal life. Every single thing I told Anne, opening my heart to her, she told him. I felt terribly violated. I felt like a dissected frog, open for anyone to see my most inner parts. I felt ashamed, unprotected, sad and angry, all at the same time. I told him what he did was disgusting, to never reach me again or try to "keep an eye on me", and that I would make that job easier for him by getting Anne out of my life. He apologized, said he understood the situation, would respect my wishes, and wished me a happy life. I thought that was it. It took me a while but I got to heal, to feel safe again, although I still have a hard time trusting my friends. But I was wrong. Months later he sent me a Friend Resquest. I was a lil afraid, but tried to calm myself saying he probably just was checking if I was still upset, so I rejected the request and again convinced myself that was really it. But then he sent some girls to take pictures of me during my high school graduation ceremony and recently, his cousin (who was my friend when we were 14 but haven't talked since) texted me. I know that sometimes nostalgia makes you reach out to old friends, but we weren't close at all. Besides, he acted super weird, didn't even try to make small talk or let the convo flow naturally, but went straight for super specific and weird questions: are you studying college? what are you doing with your life? are you in a relationship? I was really weirded out and considered the possibility he may have been asking all those things because my ex asked him to do so, so I kept my answers short and vague, not giving him the info he wanted, and although I def came out as cutting, he kept asking. I tried to still be friendly because I didn't wanna seem paranoid, but I think he realized I wasn't telling him anything over texts, so he asked me to meet again over some beers with his friends on October 27th and that's when I stopped answering. I thought about that strange invitation for a few days until it hit me: October 27th is my ex's birthday. So much about respecting my wishes. I spent the rest of that month really nervous that cousing would try to reach out again, but nothing happened and I started to feel calmed again. Until, in November, he wrote me again, this time asking me if I wanted to go to the beach with his friends. I haven't even bother to open that text. Since them, I've been super paranoid. I know my ex's attacks aren't that consecutive (more like every two years: he contacted me and sent me that friend request when I was 16, hijacked my graduation at 18 and now sends his cousin at 20) but I can't help but think he's always there "keeping an eye on me" and planning his next move. I stopped accepting any friend requests because I'm afraid he will send someone for me, and if someone I already have on my friend list but idk texts me and after some small talks asks me about my life, I get paranoid and ask them why they wanna know and if they have some hidden intentions. Also, there's a mall near his house, and everytime I have to go there to buy something, I feel like crying because I'm afraid I'll stumble with him. I probably sound crazy. Some people may think I'm exaggerating and I should just let my ex stalk me and act all obsessed, but I feel dirty everytime I think about him knowing my personal stuff. It was just so traumatizing the first time. Do you get me? I feel like nobody gets me. Please help me, what can I do? I don't know how to make him stop, I'm tired of living in fear.

Not to start this off with an unrelated thought, but when did Tumblr get rid of its character limit on asks? I don’t think I’ve ever seen it let someone send in a message this long in one ask.

To get to your situation, I can definitely see why this would be a stressful and uncomfortable situation for you.  The first thing I would do is to stop interacting with your ex and people related to your ex.  You don’t owe his cousin anything.  Block both of their numbers, block their social media accounts, etc., and do that for everyone else who’s friends with your ex (or put them on limited profile/create a “close friends” list on social media).  Tell all of your friends in no uncertain terms that you don’t want them talking about you to your ex, even if it’s stuff that seems harmless, and cut those people off if they do talk to your ex about you.  

The other action you could take is to file a restraining order.  If you go down that route, you’ll have to fill out some forms and file them with the court, and then have a hearing with a judge where you explain your situation.  Then, you’ll have a second appearance in court where the stalker is present, and you both get the opportunity to explain the situation.  The judge will then determine the final order and the conditions of that order.  It can be a bit of an involved process, but it may give you some peace of mind.

The last thing I would suggest is going to therapy.  It seems like you’ve been through something traumatic, and a mental health professional can help you to work through that and move on from it.  There are many options for therapy, both online and in-person.  If you have health insurance, your insurance should cover at least some therapy sessions.  If not, some therapists provide services on a sliding-scale, and online services like BetterHelp can be less expensive than traditional therapy. 

[jaehyunsuh]

Comeback; Ten // part 1

part 2

"Want you to come back,

even your every breath I don't want to forget.

Run to me, come back."

series: songs for you🌃

—pairing: ten x reader

—genre: au/ ex boyfriend ?? Ten/ romance/ cheating

—words count: 910

author's note: ten is one of the best people in the world, i don't think he is like this, this is fiction just for entertaining purposes not meant to hurt or offend anyone💕

summary: Ten and you used to hang out and have dates for around 6 months, until you found out he was doing the same with other girls. You decided to call it quits, stop hanging out and take separate ways but even since that day Ten has been insisting you that you are the only one for him and he is not going to see someone else. He wants you to give him a second chance but you have already said no thousands of times, will this time be different?

6 months ago it's when you met Ten, one of the most cool, friendly, nice and flirty guys ever. The day that you met he immediately asked you on a date, you couldn't deny that he got your attention at that moment and you were curious so you couldn't say no. After you started going out and have some sorta of dates you started liking him even more, after a couple months he told you to take things slow and keep meeting each other better, you agreed since you enjoyed not being in such a serious relationship and you liked his company, but all of that was just a way to trick you.

one day you decided to take a walk around the city and look at some shops and maybe call Ten to grab lunch later, you felt like having a drink so you entered one of your favorite coffee shops to see what you could get. While you were in the line you see around and look at the people sitting in there when you suddenly see Ten you were trying to catch his eye to say hi but when you see clearly there was a girl sitting with him, you didn't overreact or felt jealous because it could be just a friend or a cousin that was visiting, but them they stand up and he grabs her hand and kiss her on the lips that's when you felt so much anger and disappointment inside of you. But then, Ten looks at the line and your sight find his and he realizes how you saw everything, he looks at you shocked but then avoids you and continues to talk to the girl next to him. You decided it was over, you weren't letting anyone play with you and lie to you, you felt sorry since the girl was going through the same but you don't even know here so there wasn't much to do.

later at night on the same day, Ten called you and texted you like 100 times, you were annoyed of your screen lighting up so you picked up.

"Y/n, I'm sorry for all of this, i know it might seem weird but i promise i only like you and that was just a girl that likes me and i didn't knew how to rejected her and that happened." He says desperate through the phone.

"Ten, I'm sorry, i waited for you a lot of time thinking that you liked me and i can't go on if it's gonna be like this all the time, this is the end, bye."

but that wasn't the end for him, he called and texted you everyday and people might think you should give him a chance but the fact that one week later your friends saw him eating with a girl, a few days after that your other friend saw him at a romantic picnic with another girl and then kissed her, and like 3 weeks later you saw him at the cinema with another different girl, it just didn't helped the fact that he kept begging you everyday, he didn't changed at all and just to think that the 6 months you hanged out with him were just like that, was even more disappointing. Maybe that was the reason why he never posted pics with you and never introduced you to some of his friends and you never went out with them, and for sure, he never introduced you to his family. 

a whole 3 months has passed and him hanging around with other girls isn't over, and yes, he stills calling and texting but not everyday maybe just 5 times at week. Tonight you were laying in bed watching a movie, eating and relaxing all by yourself when your phone starts ringing and it's Ten again, you sigh and for some reason decide to pick up after months of not hearing his voice.

"Oh, hi y/n, finally." He sounds kinds confused at the beginning but then it's excited.

"Hey." You say with no emotion.

"So how have you been?"

"Uhm pretty well i guess, what about u?".

"Good, good." He sighs.

"Y/n look, i know i own you a real apologize for what happened, you are a wonderful girl and i truly want to be with you." He talks fast.

"Oh my god Ten, don't come out with that again. I know about you dating a different girl almost everyday, do you think I'm dumb? I don't wanna be in your game anymore, i want to live a nice life free of stress." You say annoyed. He stays silence for a few secs.

"Uhm, but would you let me invite you to have lunch and have a proper conversation?"

"But don't worry! Just as friends." He claims. You hesitate a close your eyes trying to choose on what to do, but it wasn't a date, it's just to apologize so it's okay, right?.    

"Okay, i'll take it."

"Great! I see you tomorrow at 6pm at the hamburger place, okay?" He says excited.

"See you then." You finish the call.

well, even thought of all Ten is a really nice guy, he always listened to you, knew about your favorite stuff, the topics that were the most interesting for you and it was always comfortable to be with him. So maybe now depending on what he says maybe you could end up being friends?

[moonlight-chi77]

|| Straykids // seeing you in a lengha for the first time ||

Request:

Type: Fluff, Ballpoint Reaction

Words: ~600(couldn't do the counting like normally)

Chan:

Was nervous as hell because he never been to an Indian wedding

So when you said that you were invited and he had to come with you he kind of had a breakdown inside of his head

Had no plan what to wear so he wear a suit, hoping it'll be alright

But when he saw you, boy was shocked

"Woah, I never knew that this existed but I'm glad it does" he giggles

Still he would always keep an arm around you on the actual wedding, wanting everyone to see that this beautiful isn't single anymore

Woojin:

Couldn't keep his thought to himself as he saw you walking into the living room in which he was waiting for you

"Woah-that's...I mean...Nevermind I'm speechless" he chuckled while he blushed really hard

"You're so cute?" you giggled and walked to him to hug him

"Is the belly always shown?" he asked

He was really kind about it and asked a lot about it because he was really curious

Always pretty interested into your culture and loved if you were too

"We should go on weddings more often, or other events where you can wear this. You're so beautiful, you should really show this more often" he said and kissed your cheek

Minho:

At first he didn't knew how to react

Not that he didn't thought you looked gorgeous but he never saw something like this before and even though it was your culture it was strange for him

But as he looked at the details and how good you looked in it, boy loved it soo much

Especially the stomach part was his tasted because he loved your body

"You look so gorgeous" he haunted into your ear, as he kissed your neck

"I really hope we'll go to events from your family more often" he said causing you to giggle

"I normally don't wear these because I feel uncomfortable but my mom forced me to" you said to him, making him quite shocked

Like how could you feel uncomfortable while looking so gorgeous?

Changbin:

Blushing mess

He would try to not stare at you the whole time but he just couldn't stand it

But he needed a few minutes to get what the idea of this outfit was before he could tell it was a traditional clothing out of your culture

"I never knew traditional things could be that beautiful" he whispered to himself but you understood it anyway

"Stop making me blush" you whined as he came to you to hug you because you looked so lovable

"I'm not even trying hun" you giggled but he blushed even more because of the face you made

Hyunjin:

He would be kind of interested in your culture but only if you were comfortable with showing him

So he was really happy that you were comfortable, with showing him how you looked in a traditional dress and taking him to such a special event

"You look gorgeous, sweetheart" he whispered into your ear while he was back hugging you infront of your bedroom mirror

"You know, I'm really excited, getting to know more of your traditions is just so beautiful" he said right afterwards not letting you time to respond in any way

"I'm glad you are" you smiled before turning around to give him a soft kiss

Jisung:

Boy would actually tease you

Even if he secretly only was shy because you looked so good in something else than your everyday clothes

"So you guys actually wear these Bollywood dresses? Should I also put one on?" he said with a teasing smile making sure you got that he didn't meant it

"Yeah I guess you should, even though it wouldn't look good on you" you chuckled in return to his friendly words

"Yah, I would look just as handsome as always" he snapped right away

"Of course you would" you said with a cheekily smile as you walked some steps to him

"You don't look bad either" he whispered only centimetres away from your lips

"Oh I don't?" you teased before laying your lips on his, seeing that he had slightly pink cheeks

Felix:

He wouldn't care if you showed him any of your culture or not but still would be grateful if you did

Would learn some about it himself because he wants to

"You look better in this, than the girls I saw before" he would say before his lips formed a big smile including his eyes

You looked at him confused "When did you saw another girl?" you asked him, kind of jealous because you didn't expect him to know other girl's looks that good

"I was just searching about special events and their traditions in your culture when I found some pics" he said before laying his hands soflty on your exposed waist

"Ah, I see. I'm glad you're interested in my culture and won't be too shocked when you'll meet my family today" you smiled

Without knowing that he was excited with no end, he couldn't even sleep all night

But in the end everything would be alright

Seungmin:

Didn't show any interest in anything you told him about your traditions so you stopped telling him about it

But he didn't meant to

He just didn't showed enough reaction because he was too concentrated to remember these informations one day so he couldn't show any emotion

He later on searched in the internet

"I didn't knew you would also wear a lengha" he said when he first saw you in it

"You know what that is?" you asked kinda suprised "Of course, I'm interested in your culture. I just tried learning too much in such a short time" he told you honestly

You of course understood and were very happy that he'll be at a cultural event today

Jeongin:

He was stressed to say the least

School and being an idol was hard enough, learning about your culture wasn't in his schedule because he didn't had enough time

But everytime you told him something, he would remember very well and would be really excited to get to know you and your culture

So the first time he saw you in a lengha he was surprised by your stunning looks

"You're so beautiful" he would whisper all the time until you shut him up with a kiss

"Thanks" you whispered before chuckling about his rosy cheeks

"I'm really happy that I finally have time to get to know your traditions and family, even if it's just one event" he smiled before even knowing what he'll have to go through

[wootaethiccasses]

I Got You Bestie... (+18)

PAIRING: Taehyung X Reader ft. Jungkook

GENRE: Smut, a bit of Fluff. (In the beggining, where I explain the thing with the ex, might be a bit angsty).

DESCRIPTION: It had been such a long time since you last met Kook and Tae, your dear bestfriends. After some weeks of mourning the loss of your ex, you decide that a good party with them is all that you need...

There will be a continuation of this... Don’t worrey;)

💫💫💫

3rd POV:

It was a normal Saturday morning.

Y/N was chilling at home scrolling through her phone. For the whole week, her "job" consisted of deleting every single pic and video she had with her now ex-boyfriend.

He was a complete jerk; he didn't even have the audacity to break up with her in person. The clown just sent her a "this is not working" over text. Not only that, Y/N's kind nature had made her stay strong all that time he would just play around and take her for granted. She spent sleepless nights overthinking. Trying to find out what was she doing wrong to make him act like that. She felt guilty even though she had never done anything bad!

He was a jerk. For making her think those things, and for being the way he was. It would be a lie to say that Y/N didn't feel devastated after the breakup. He treated her as if she meant nothing to him, as if all those months together didn't meant anything.

Now the worst thing comes. After a week she started to feel better, free, glowing! She realised how toxic the thing had been and how happy she was getting now. And then he had to break that peaceful oasis. One night he called her crying, saying how much he missed her, and how wrong he had been, and how much he loved her, blah blah blah... Y/N was lost for words, and being the sweetheart that she is, she took care of him. She held him as if her life depended on it. He tried to sleep with her a lot of times during that night, but she would just politely decline, not wanting to fall again. He left after some more attempts, angry because he couldn't get what he wanted: to get in her pants again. Y/N curled up on her bed and cried herself to sleep.

Jungkook and Taehyung had been worried sick since they found out about the breakup. They were Y/N's bestfriends since primary school, and they knew her the best. When she started going out with her boyfriend, they started meeting less. But the love the three of them had for each other never changed. They would always talk by phone and make video-calls to update each other of their lives. The latest news the two guys had from her bestie was her telling them about the breakup.

They had waited until Y/N would contact them, but they obviously sent her some supportive messages and told her that they loved her dearly.

After some weeks, on this Saturday morning, Y/N was feeling alright again. She felt full of life.

A really cool party was going to be hold at "Fantasy's Bar" that night, and Y/N thought that maybe it would be refreshing to go out with her bestfriends and just let everything go for the night. She had texted them about it on Monday of that week and they eagerly agreed, not wanting more than making her bestie happy.

We go back to Saturday morning, where Y/N, Taehyung and Jungkook had yet to decide what time they would be meeting.

The bar was full of sweaty bodies swaying their hips to one side and the other. Neon lights decorated the dim place and the powerful bass resonated everywhere. The three bestfriends approached a free table and ordered their drinks. They were having the night of their lives; drinking and laughing, sharing embarrassing stories and catching up with each other. They had have way too many drinks, but nothing of that mattered because they were reunited again. Jungkook was cuddling Y/N all the time (well, more like squeezing the life out of her) while Tae's hand caressed her form.

-"Guyssss, let's go to dance!!!!"- A whiny Kook said while pouting and getting up.

Y/N and Taehyung just drunkily giggled and follow their friend through the maze of bodies. They found the perfect spot for their "show". They jumped and sang at the top of their lungs with the upbeat songs. The alcohol was really kicking it, and they couldn't help but laugh at everything.

-"I'm going to get us some more drinksss!!! I'll bring some beers, wait here for me guysss!" -A really drunk Jungkook said while his friends smiled at him warmly.

Suddenly the bass started to get harder, slower, and the vibe more sensual.

-"Come here baby"- Tae said in a fake flirty voice.

Y/N giggled and pressed her body against him while placing her arms around his neck. It wasn't rare for them to play around with each other (in a friendly way of course). They would often fake flirt, but never do something sexual or romantical. Just throwing some lame pick up lines or saying some greasy ass things. They were dancing together and giggling when Tae's face became dead serious. He gulped and Y/N could see the hate in his eyes.

-"That fucking asshole..." -He said while gritting his teeth.

-"Tae, what...?" -Y/N said but when she turned around to look at what her bestfriend was staring at her heart almost stopped.

There was her ex, dancing and placing his hands all over a girl. They were too close and looked as if they wanted to devour each other. Y/N felt her face become red with anger and embarrassment. Taehyung took her face in his hands.

-"You know what? I just want to kill that fucking jerk with my own hands, but I think right now he just needs another kind of lesson and you just need to enjoy your night. Just follow me."- He said staring straight to Y/N's eyes.

She was unsure but the deepness of his stare made her comply. Tae's hands traveled lower and held sensually onto her hips. Their chests were pressed against each other, and so were their crotches. When Taehyung noticed how close they were, he unconsciously licked his lips. They started dancing, still pressed to one another. Y/N realized that Tae was trying to make her ex jealous, so she played around as well and put on her best show. Her hips were moving side to side in a really sexual way, and her lips ghosted over Tae’s neck. The air was starting to change and get thicker. Even though they were just pretending,  Taehyung couldn't get the feeling of his bestfriend's crotch pressed so painfully close to his. He couldn't help but rub them together a bit. He tried to convince himself that he was just trying to make her ex jealous if he was to look at them, but Tae couldn't deny how fucking horny he was getting. A shiver ran down his spine and his hands started to sweat. He was getting a goddamn huge boner, right pressed up against his bestie.

Tae knew that all of that was wrong, but he still held that he was just “pretending to be sexually attracted to Y/N” in order to make her ex go crazy. But it was Taehyung the one going crazy instead. His thoughts were cut short when his bestfriend turned around and changed the angle. Her ass was pressed painfully to his hard-on and his hand went towards her hips. He held onto them trying to prevent the movement but it was impossible. Her scent and the alcohol were making it impossible for Tae to take the wild thoughts out of his mind. How come he had never noticed how fucking hot his bestfriend was? Right now he just wanted to press her against the wall and show everyone how good he could make her feel... His hands traveled up and down Y/N’s sides and she didn’t seem to mind. In fact, she pressed herself even harder and wiggled her butt. Taehyung let out a loud groan he hadn’t notice he was holding.

-”Y/N... Please don’t stop...”- The boy pleaded to his bestfriend in the heat of the moment. He got bold and pressed an opened mouth kiss to her neck.

Anyone who would look at them would probably think they were fucking with their clothes on and in the middle of the dancefloor, but that wasn’t that far from reality... 

Suddenly Y/N looked at her ex and her heart shattered. She was over him, but that didn’t change the fact that seeing him making out so passionately with that girl wouldn’t break Y/N a bit. Taehyung was fuming with that scene. He took Y/N’s hand and exited the bar, noticing how his bestfriend was about to cry. As soon as they stepped outside, Tae hugged Y/N as hard as he could. She just shared a few tears, but the way her bestfriend was holding her so dearly, so lovingly just made her heart warm. They decided to call Jungkook and go back home, but the younger one wasn´t picking up. They deduced that he had either found some friends from college or someone to hook up with. Since Y/N assured Taehyung that she was feeling alright again, they decided to just let Kook be and call him later.

-”I’m so happy you are feeling better now... Really. I know it must have hurted a lot seeing your ex like that... But well, you were too fucking good for him”.

-”I don’t know Tae... Like, I still feel a bit guilty even though I-” Tae cut her words as soon as she started to ramble again about being guilty.

-”That boy was a fucking asshole, Y/N, and you are a fucking angel. You are fucking perfect in every single fucking way. He was and still is fucking stupid for letting something as precious as you go. I mean, sucks to be him! He was the luckiest man alive because he had you, and now? Fuck him! I just hope he realizes everything and fucking drown in pity.” -Y/N laughed at her bestfriend’s speech and kissed his cheeks.

-”You are just the sweetest Tae, I couldn’t ask for a better friend, I love you so much.”

-”AWWWWW YOU ARE THE CUTEST, I LOVE YOU MOREEEE” -Tae said while crushing his bestfriend in his arms. She was a laughing mess and he continued talking. -”You know, I wish you could realise how perfect you are, and by the way, just know that I will do anything for you, you got it? Any fucking thing:” -He said dead serious. His tone and eyes held a deeper meaning that Y/N didn’t noticed and she just giggled while being grateful of having him so close to her.

The night was still young so they decided to go to another club in order to get wasted and dance until dawn.

After a couple of beers and a few shots, Taehyung and Y/N were feeling the alcohol taking over their system. The girl took her friend’s bigger hand and leaded him onto the dancefloor. After a lot of spinning around and laughing Taehyung brought Y/N closer to him and placed his hands on her hips again. As soon as the songs became more sensual, they became more intimate as well. The air no longer thin, and the weird aura from the previous bar was back and stronger. Taehyung was desperately searching to be closer and closer to his bestfriend... Rubbing himself on Y/N didn’t seem enough. Y/N didn’t know what she wanted anymore, but the feeling of her bestfriend’s hard dick against her was driving her crazy. Her panties were soaked wet and both of their heartbeats were going at incredible fast speed. Suddenly their eyes connected and the heaviness of the look was more than enough for them to stop holding back whatever that was holding them back. The alcohol made Tae bold enough to press Y/N’s crotch right to his painfully hard cock and moved it really suggestive and direct. Y/N’s eyes opened huge and looked at him.

-”Tae...” -The girl said, letting out a soft breathy moan. The tent on his pants became impossibly bigger and he groaned at the girl.

-”Why don’t we go home Y/N? You can stay at mine...” -He obviously didn’t said anything explicit, but they both knew the real meaning behind those words. They both knew the heaviness of those words and that statement.

They arrived home with their fingers laced. As soon as they entered the bedroom Taehyung held the girl close to him and started kissing her cheeks softly. He traveled lower sensually.

-”Tae...”

-”Y/N...” -He talked in between pecks at her face. He kissed her really close to her mouth.

-”Y/N, c-can I show you...?” -He was groaning, intoxicated by her scent and the way her mouth would leave some little moans that she couldn’t hold back. His hands moved to hold onto her waist and the grip tightened while she shivered. He was almost shaking at this point, the desire too strong for him.

-”Please... Y/N... Let me show you how you should be really treated like... If you let me, I will worship you like the goddess you are... I will make you come as many times as you pleasure... I will make you scream over and over again, I will make you feel as the only woman in the world... please, just let me fulfill this desire... I need you so fucking bad Y/N...” -The boy was talking between kisses down her neck and she was getting crazy. Her mind was dancing and clouded with desire while the boy started to suck more fervently on her neck. 

Y/N wanted to stay strong, to tell them that bestfriends shouldn’t hook up with each other, but how could she when everything they both wanted was just to fucking make each other a moaning mess? 

-”Yes Tae, god, yes please! I need you too...” 

Taehyung smiled hugely and looked at her bestfriend. His eyes were full of lust and adoration; hers too.

-”I got you bestie... Anything for you...”

They stood still for a few seconds, just staring into each other and thinking of what was about to happen. Then, as if on cue, they both searched for their lips, hungrily. As soon as their mouth connected, nothing could be hold back. Taehyung’s hand squeezed Y/N’s ass while she massaged his scalp.

-”God, what a fucking hot ass you have, you don’t know how many times I have got hard just by looking at it. It is fucking huge and soft and perfect and ahhh I could just come thinking about it...” -He said turned on beyond infinite, while playing with the girl’s butt. 

Soon both fell on the bed and got comfortable. Y/N’s body pressing on top of Tae’s one. She was grinding down on him while her mouth explored his neck. He was a groaning mess but stopped her softly.

-”Babe, you are truly a pro on this things, but tonight I wish I can take care of you properly if you let me. Like, that fucking asshole didn’t treat you 1/4 of how you should be treated, so I’m going to show you how every single man should treat you like at least. Baby, today YOU are the important thing here. Today YOU are going to be treated like the goddess you are, because you deserve that and much more. Son now just relax and enjoy hehe...” 

He kissed her with so much passion that both couldn’t help but sigh. Tae traveled down while leaving love marks all over her neck and chest. He carefully removed the top and bra and stared in awe at her boobs. He swore he had never seen something as beautiful as that.

-”I’m sorry for staring that much but wow... You are truly the most beautiful thing in earth. I think I could come in my pants just by staring at you, shit... And I have just seen your upper part...”.

He caressed her boobs as if he was touching the most precious piece of art. His fingers wandered across her chest and collided onto her nipples. He caressed and circled them softly but sensually, getting faster and faster. While she was moaning he licked a strip from the lower part of her boob until the nipple. He took one of the sensitive buds in his mouth and sucked softly while playing with the other nipple with his hand. The other hand made his way down to her center.  After discarding her shorts and panties,he softly started caressing her pussy as if he was painting a marvelous piece of art. Because she was the most fucking beautiful piece of art in his eyes. 

Her moans were music for his ears, and he craved nothing more than to hear them forever. He kissed her lips again, this time with much more passion. It was slow, sensual, even lovingly. It was one of this kisses that you can only imagine or see in films. But it was real. From that point, he started going down, kissing all the way down to her core. 

-”You are fucking perfect, god...” -He sentenced before placing little kisses on her pussy. His rhythm increased as well as the pressure and he started to place open mouth kisses on it. He licked her pussy as if his life depended on it.

-”Ahhhh Taehyung, you are making me feel so good huh...” -YN moaned over and over, repeating his name as if it was a mantra.

-”You are doing so good baby, you taste like heaven. You are truly an angel”.

Y/N lose it as soon as one of his hands started playing with her right nipple and the other circled softly her clitoris.

-”TAEHYUNG!!!!!” -She screamed while coming undone when the pleasure took all over her.

-”That’s it baby, that’s my baby!!!” -Taehyung held her while she was calming down from her high. He kissed her tenderly.

Y/N was overwhelmed by the intense pleasure she had received. No one had ever made her come as hard as her bestfriend; Taehyung. He was staring at her in such a lovingly way, as if she was the whole fucking world. A hug was shared between the pair, telling much more with that physical gesture than what could be told with words. 

They kissed again, much deeper and more passionate, as if they needed each other to breath. Taehyung discarded his t-shirt as fast as he discarded his pants. Y/N started to palm him through his boxers and Taehyung could’t help but become a moaning mess.He had never been hornier before; never have gotten to the point of having to restrict himself from coming just by looking at someone´s naked body. He had never had a problem with self-control or restraining himself from showing too much reactions or desire in sexual practices.

This was completely different. With Y/N he couldn’t think properly anymore. He didn’t hold back any sound or reaction or anything. He was giving his whole self ti the girl, without any restriction. He was just praying not to come just by her palming him through his boxers. He wanted her whole.

Y/N removed every piece of cloth that was left on her bestfriend’s skin and stared in awe and devotion at his body. He was huge indeed and her mouth salivated just by the image of it. Taehyung groaned loudly while his dick twitched due to the look Y/N was giving him.

-”God, you are so fucking sexy, I don’t think I will be able to hold back much longer...” -Taehyung said while caressing her body softly and pressing kisses to her neck.

They continued kissing and caressing each other until the desire was too hard for them to hold back. They stared into each other’s eye and quickly understood the heaviness of what was about to happen. As soon as they shared a soft smile, Taehyung searched inside of his closet and took a condom. He easily put it on his dick and held Y/N’s hand. 

Taehyung aligned his dick to her hole and as soon as she nodded he pushed it  inside. Both of them gasped and moaned at the sensation. A passionate kiss was shared, shortly followed by a warm hug. They started to pick up the pace and a trail of curses, moans and groans accompanied it as a kind of melody.

-”God Y/N! You feel so fucking good fuck... Your pussy is so tight and soft and wet and ahhh! Yes, yes, please don’t stop!!!” -Taehyung couldn’t help but scream and tremble in pleasure.

The feeling of her bestfriend’s dick going in and out of her pussy in so many different angles made the girl crazy. Hands were caressing each other’s every body parts and in many different ways.

-”Please please, keep fucking me like this Tae! Yes, yes, yes! I love the feeling of your cock inside of me. Don’t stop!”

-”Fuck Y/N, if you keep talking like that and staring at me like that I’m going to fucking cum in seconds. Fuckkkk babe!”

They couldn’t keep their lips from each other, always searching to hungrily meet. The pleasure was starting to be too much to handle and they both came screaming each other’s name. 

Their naked sweaty bodies pressed to one another, lips meeting messily and trying to catch their breaths was how they ended their hot session. A loving long make out was followed after they had thrown the condom away. They were squeezing each other and Taehyung kissed her forehead softly.

-”Y/N... That was the best fuck I have ever had in my whole fucking life, fuck... I hope I was enough to show you how I think everyone should treat you, even though I know it’s not enough. But it is not enough because you are just the most perfect thing in this world and wow, there is nothing or anyone who could compare to you. And right now it’s a bit late to talk, but tomorrow we need to talk about how fucking hot you are and how beautiful and aghfdsazmjihnmus because biTCH my wig had been snatched!!!!!”. - The girl laughed and Taehyung’s heart melted at the sight.

-”But now please please stay the night!!! I want to cuddle you woman” -Taehyung put on his puppy face and the girl couldn’t resist.

-”Alright baby, and tomorrow we will have more time to talk but biTCH HOW ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT SNATCHING WIGS WHEN YOUR DICK IS AS BIG AS MY LEG. LIKE WTF TAE YOU HUGE AS FUCKKKK.” -The boy laughed and turned red while shyly hiding his face behind her back.

-”Ahhhh Y/N, shut uppp! Don’t say that, I become red” -The boy said and she just rolled her eyes while giggling.

They laid down, still naked and cuddled each other while sharing some sweet kisses and caressings. With that they fell to sleep...

What they hadn’t noticed was their bestfriend Kook’s multiple texts and missed calls. And they hadn’t notice how he had entered the apartment while they were fucking. And they obviously hadn’t noticed how he had stayed at the door watching the whole scene, wishing he was Taehyung instead.

But no, no one had ever noticed how Jungkook jerked off at the view of both of his bestfriends fucking each other’s brain out. And no one noticed the unhealthy obsession he got after that moment to masturbate each nigh to the thought of Y/N’s body jumping on the older boys’s one. To how fucking sexy she looked when Tae was fucking her doggy style or to how her boobs bounced and her ass wiggled. Jungkook couldn’t get that image out of his head and he hated how fucking big the desire for the girl was. Jungkook wanted to fuck Y/N, his bestfriend, so sooo badly.

No one noticed until one night...

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OKAY GUYZZZZZZ! This was the first text I post here and I don’t really know of it’s how I wanted it to turn out or not HAHAHAHAHAHA. Anyways, it’s the first one so please don’t judge me too hard hahaha <3. By the way, there will be two more parts and the next one is gonna be a Jungkook’s POV, so please look forward to it;)))). Love you lotsssssssss.

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I don't usually send asks, but I just find the Sam-MacKenzie stuff strange lately. I have no idea whether they're together, and all of the mutual Instagram/Twitter likes seem super friendly. But if Sam hasn't exactly been working, why haven't they spent ANY time together over the past few weeks? I mean, maybe in CA on the down-low when he was there for the SWDM premiere? I'm just genuinely curious. I'm starting to get that icky "he's a really bad boyfriend if they're together..." feeling...

Hi Anon, is your statement “I don’t usually send asks” along the the lines of when a girl tells a guy “I don’t normally do this on a first date?” ;-) Regardless, I’ll take your word for it and suspend disbelief that you’re not just trolling. So, to answer your questions seriously. Yes, Sam and Mackenzie’s social media interactions have been very friendly and they continue to “like” posts of each other and of people in their lives. On the other hand, it does APPEAR that the last time they would have had a chance to spend time together in person would have been the week of July 25, when Sam was in L.A. for TSWDM premiere and Mackenzie was also in L.A. Now Sam is in the UK, waiting to go to South Africa to film Bloodshot, and based on the IG pics Mackenzie posted, it APPEARS she is in the U.S. still. 

Sadly, while I was on vacation my Mackenzie source cut me off and is no longer answering my messages (I guess she didn’t want to get in trouble with Mackenzie), and so now I have no way of knowing the real status of Sam and Mackenzie’s relationship. So, unless I get a new source, or there are sightings, from now on I’ll have to go on what Sam and Mackenzie CHOOSE to SHOW, like everyone else. I hate when that happens hahaha. :-)

I stressed the word APPEAR and APPEARS because unless we know from the inside, all we can do is go by what we’re seeing, that doesn’t mean that’s the reality though. As I’ve said before, in the past, my source confirmed that there were times when Sam and Mackenzie were both off the radar for a few days and they would see each other (NYC being the half way meeting point). Just because WE didn’t SEE any pics, or sightings, doesn’t mean it didn’t happen. Having said that, based on the fact that Sam is in the UK and Mackenzie has SHOWN us she’s in the U.S. it would seem that Sam and Mackenzie’s relationship may not be exactly the same as it once was. BUT, there is always the possibility that Mackenzie is in the UK with Sam and we don’t know this because they are choosing to hide it. The last thing my source had told me was that they were still together.  As for your assertion, Anon, regarding Sam that "he’s a really bad boyfriend if they’re together…“  You don’t have enough information to make that kind of statement. You simply don’t. If you knew the ins and outs 100% of their relationship, then you could give that kind of opinion, but you don’t. I’m not going to vilify the guy when I don’t have all the info, that’s not fair.

Time will tell if Sam and Mackenzie are still together exclusively and simply hiding their relationship; OR if Sam and Mackenzie decided to no longer be exclusive, but continue to date each other and be in each other’s lives when schedules permit, IOW, on a more casual level; OR if they did completely break up, but left the possibility open to reunite in the future; OR if they did completely break up and it was so amicable that they still continue to “like” social media posts involving each other. I wish them BOTH well. I do think they are really good together and hope they can make it work. But if it’s not meant to be, then as a Sam fan, I will support him and any new relationships. 

So, having said all this, I’m not going to drive myself crazy speculating. I’ve said before I don’t like hypotheticals, I like concrete facts. I will concentrate on concrete facts…like the concrete fact that Cait and Tony ARE getting married, and from what I saw in some recent article, possibly in Italy. So romantic. Aside from Extreme Shippers, I don’t think there are any fans who are not happy and excited for Tait–I’m all for rooting Cait and Tony on as they prepare for their upcoming nuptials. Anyone else?

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This was the last conversation I had with Lauren before she passed away...

It’s unedited besides some names and cities. Lauren It hurts me and stresses me out and triggers me to know you're high right now and I just celebrated my 90 days completely sober from everything yesterday and I want to cry and because of that i can't talk to you for my sake and well-being because this is the first time in my life I have put myself first and I feel great except I'm stressed out now. It's nice to have a sober support group to help, but still ?? Lauren I can't talk to you because I cry and it threatens this great thing I have right now and want to hold on to Ryan I've actually been clean. I'd rather have you as a friend than be high. Lauren That's fucking awesome!! But I need time still and I'm learning patience too Ryan No one talks to me, everyone cancels their plans on me, just because I told them about it. I really need a friend. Lauren It's hard to see you and very confusing and uncomfortable I can't talk to you. Ryan what if I flew you to ****on august 26th. no access to anything and the maywether/McGregor fight is on. the pool is heated, it feels awesome I'll do anything to have you as a friend. Going to home was a nice change in my routine. rollcall is banned forever, markets went down. There's no getting anything. Lauren All I can say is if you want people in your life, open yourself to the idea of AA and get yourself a sponsor and find a way to see what the program is all about past the God stuff. Because what it's really all about is a bunch of fucked up people who have lost everybody and everything getting together and making friends and supporting each other. You will find friends and support through AA. Lauren That's all I have to say. Bye. Ryan Hey, please don't do this. I'm totally good. So many people cut me out of their life. I stopped benzos and kratom is down to one small spoon in the morning. i'm lifting weights. I'm feeling good about uber. Lauren Join AA. Ryan ok Lauren not that you join. Just go. Every day. Ryan if that's what you want me to do to be friends with you. I'll do it. Lauren You will find people. Ryan I don't really want people like that. Just my old friends who don't use. Lauren That's what it will take. AA. Just keep going. Ryan I'm glad it's helping you. It is, right? Lauren More than anything. I have legit friends now and most of all I have support for anything that's bothering me Ryan I figured this would happen. But was hoping that you could not cut me out your life. I won't do anything to hurt you or your sobriety. I promise. Keep me at a distance for a while. But please don't cut me out. Lauren I stay away from guys like they suggest because of 13th stepping Ryan I saw your new fetlife. ?? Lauren AA has changed my life. And no, I don't believe in God. Ryan But I'm glad you're not getting 13th stepped. Lauren I have to until you're completely sober and have a sober support network through either smart recovery, na, or aa Ryan Could you be my support if I need it? I don't care about drugs. I just want a friend to bullshit with. Lauren I can't because men stick with men and women with women for distraction purposes Ryan and you've been my best friend for a long time now. I don't care if you have a boyfriend or you're getting tied up and stuff. Lauren Do AA. You'll meet people and see them everyday at meetings. Its nice Ryan I like you so much. It would be devastating. I'll do it. I have a pinball tournament tonight and am possibly meeting up with arielle, her boyfriend, and ashley. But feel like they'll flake. But I'm still playing pinball. I'll go to a meeting ASAP. I promise. I mean it. Lauren It would seriously be the best thing you ever do. You'll thank me, I promise. But you have to keep going even if you think it's a crock of shit at first. People start off going in pissed off all the time until they start to realize it helps. Ryan I'll probably do NA though. The way you're talking feels like you've be indoctrinated into something that excludes people. I'm glad that you're safe and being healthy though. but i want your friendship. It's pretty much the most meaningful thing to me. and to lose that. I would have nothing. I've been hanging on, waiting for you all of this time. I want to be a positive influence for you Lauren I wouldn't say that. I would say check out both. I've found the people in AA are better but na is more relatable People in na tell more war stories so it might be a better place to start off because you'll have stuff to talk about. Thing is though more people go to meetings high than in aa Ryan I met a new girl too. Nothing serious. But it's a confidence boost. And you're still #1 to me. Lauren All I can tell you is that If you keep going every day you will meet people you can relate to and who will be there for you Ryan actually, I probably won't see her for a long time, because she's moving. okay, I love you though and want you to be my best friend. What's the word? Standard? Just, no matter what. Always be available to me. This attitude that you have is good. You're in control and you set the rules. I'm okay with that. I don't want to be abandoned again. It's the shittiest feeling. and I don't want you to say it's selfish. Lauren I'm available if you get sober because once you're sober, in order to stay sober it's a good idea to avoid people who are using or drinking. It makes sense... Ryan Because you're the only person that really knows me and one of the very few humans that will talk to me. Lauren sober Ryan would be like the Ryan I first met biking... trail running... Ryan I didn't do anything bad. I won't in the future either. Lauren POSITIVE. http://www.*****.org/meetings Meetings | ***** Area of Narcotics Anonymous The 8888Area is part of the *** Region of NA with meetings in ***, Brighton, Longmont, and Louisville, Nederland, and Westminster. ********.org Ryan guhhhh, my cardio sucks, but I've been lifting dumb bells and push ups and I gained some weight. I'm like 155-160 Lauren it sucked when you first started doing it years ago but you got past it and felt great! I remember. You were so confident! it's such a relief to hear you're on the right path Ryan shoulder pain still controls me. Lauren really. Ryan yes. Would you want to go to STL with me next month, get an airbnb? or I could fly out there? Lauren Here. Go to the Longmont one at 7pm tonight while it's still fresh from talking to me http://www.*******.org/meetings/wednsday Ryan and you can see me being healthy and sober. I have plans tonight. Pinball and possibly friends. But definitely pinball. Lauren I'm going to be at the halfway house next month. I'm staying with my uncle until a space is available it's a tournament? Ryan yeah Lauren then go tomorrow http://www.*******.org/meetings/thursday Ryan and i wanted to see if arielle and her bf wanted to get happy hour sushi before. Lauren seriously, ignore everything "god" and just meet people Ryan and ashley said she would hang out and smoke weed with me from a guy she knows that grows and she bought a bunch. but everyone flakes out. Even Robin did for camp dick, planned it 2 weeks ahead. Then he tells me his friend is having a going away party that weekend a few days before. Lauren well I hope everything works out Ryan I'll go tomorrow. Lauren let me know how it goes otherwise don't message me because it'll just make me sad ?? Ryan cool well, not the sad part but yeah, i'll do anything to keep our friendship going. Lauren you're going to meet people. that's what I think is going to be the best and when they ask if anyone's there for the first time... introduce yourself as Ryan and say it's your first na meeting ever Ryan okay thanks for the tips, anything else? Lauren people will come find you and introduce themselves. it's cool how friendly people there are. because they remember what it was like yeah... hang around awkwardly afterwards or bum a cigarette from someone and talk to them if no one comes to you lol Ryan If I do well and meet your expectations, can we hang out? people don't even talk to me at pinball. i hate it. sooooo many times, i start talking to someone and they just start talking to someone else Lauren maybe once you have some clean/sober time under your belt Ryan 15 days so far Lauren that's what's so cool! addicts love to talk to other addicts because they're blacksheep too no alcohol? Ryan i drank at my parents less than they did Lauren dude I found not drinking at all has helped with my mood SO much. just saying for me. Ryan I don't really drink alcohol though. Lauren i know you're going to meet people who are a lot like you I think you'll be surprised Ryan that's a possibility, but really. I'd rather just not have anything drug related in my life. Lauren "hey I'm Ryan. I'm an addict. It's my first time at any kind of meeting like this" Ryan I'm going to check it out though. Lauren thanks Ryan You'll be safe in St. Louis. Lauren it's going to be a while Ryan and we could watch the fights Lauren one step at a time. Ryan well, should I sell my vouchers then? Lauren yeah Ryan :( Lauren or find someone else because i can't go Ryan that was a little dramatic of an emoji Lauren oh lol Ryan but i just wanted a sad face Lauren got it Ryan so, how is fetlife? Lauren I have to go but I'll let you know I just chat with people and still haven't met up with anyone Ryan it kind of worries me. Lauren the tail pic is from my friend Richie who we webcammed with the one time (first kiss/high school friend) it was casual. Ryan doesn't seem like a sober living thing to do. But I suppose it's your rules. Lauren yeah, I'm more looking for a girl Ryan nice want to see the girl I've been hanging out with? Lauren no dude! Ryan ok Lauren hah ouch. talking to you hurts me enough Ryan oh Lauren but anyway I have to go Ryan I didn't mean to do that. I got the feeling that you didn't care. Ok, so, can I still talk to you and stuff. I'm so lonely. Lauren I just can't help but want to help you feel like you used to and find friends shit i'm so fucking up you really can't ?? Ryan I don't want rehab friends. I want hobby friends. Lauren it's part of my treatment plan and stuff that's not even AA related Ryan cool, I like hearing that you have a plan. Lauren yeah. i'm just doing what they tell me because i don't ever want to go back to drinking like i was a couple months ago or shooting dope obviously my decisions don't exactly work so i'm letting them make decisions for me... weird as that sounds. but it's working well so far ?? Ryan then don't talk about it until you're good at it. awesome I just hope you don't get taken advantage of mentally or physically. Lauren nah, i'm still ultimately in control of my life Ryan you're my #1 human. I don't want to lose you. I'll go tomorrow. Let you know about it. Lauren anyway, i can't talk to you for a while. but do the na/aa thing to make sure you stay sober (the counting days part is kind of cool too) and then we'll talk in a couple of months. but go everyday as something to do and a way to socialize and get out of that apartment Ryan a couple of months? why? I would never do that to someone. Lauren because i'm still fresh and easily stressed and because i want to make sure you're committed to this sobreity thing Ryan who is asking for help and it's me Lauren i'm letting you know it's what I feel is best for me it's a couple of months. it's not a couple years. Ryan okay, but I'll support you too. Lauren you can randomly message me with how many days you have Ryan I feel like, just empty. i knew this would happen. Lauren if I don't respond don't think I don't care... know that I'm seriously smiling Ryan my intuition, you know it's legit. Lauren you've got this . Ryan we're no different than the hundreds of stories I've read Lauren now go out and meet people! *hug* Ryan I'm willing to support and help you with whatever you want. Lauren bye Ryan You're giving me a "god bless" like southern women do when they really mean something else. it's not necessary. fuck now I have absolutely zero people who I thought care about me. I've reached out to so many people. This isn't helping anything. If it were, I would tell you. You're super hot too. I don't think you realize how much of a difference that makes. Why not make me go to a reddit meetup or something, maybe I could network instead of focusing on drugs with current and former addicts. I've always disliked other users. You know this. Just bringing up counter arguments. annnnd Ashley just flaked out, didn't see that coming. Arielle flaking out should happen in about an hour. I may go camping by myself, just not ask anyone to go, because they just flake out 9/10 times. Dude, I have no one to talk to. and I want to talk to you. I'm going to go crazy talking to myself, without you responding. Can we set up a schedule to talk? Ryan I'm telling you that this hurts me. It does. I hate being abandoned, not invited and flaked out on more than anything. I feel kind of used too. I was there for you all of this time. All of the phone calls. And then I'm abandoned when I'm doing what I consider good. Those people are going to tell you to tell me to fuck off. That's what makes me think about cults and seperation. It's black and white. And I'm not black and white. so, i'm begging you, whatever is in your head. Just treat me like you used to. Please, I'm desperate as can be. So, can we set a scheduled time, so there isn't random ghostings. annnnnd Arielle just cancelled. Lauren And this is why I fucked up in talking to you. Now I feel guilty and stresses out. Learn patience. Good. Bye. Ryan What did I do? I'm asking for help and friendship. I'm being nice as can be. Am I not? Tell me what I'm doing wrong, so I can learn from mistakes. and im blocked wtf, you really just unfriended me? Lauren? please I would never do this to you. You don't feel like it's wrong at all? i'm just going to cry and remember that everyone treats me like shit. I'm some worthless piece of shit. So I deserve to be treated like one. I would never ever treat you or anyone like this. Lauren I blocked you then realized there was a take a break option then unblocked to do that but realized,you can still message me and now I have to wait 48 hours to block you So please let me take a break! Ryan Don't block me Lauren For my Fucking sobriety This is why they tell me not to talk to you! Ryan why, even think about it. I want you to be sober. I'm being supportive. Lauren I'm stressed as fuck now You're NOT! Ryan Yeah, they do that to everyone. It's like a cult. Like I said earlier. I've read hundreds of stories. But you can make exceptions. If you have a friend in need of help. Lauren You're making me feel guilty and stresses and cry because you're not letting me go for a while Ryan I'm not asking for much. I said I would go to an NA meeting tomorrow. Lauren Just PLEASE stop messaging me For me. Ahhhhhhh! PLEASE. Ryan I just want you to respond or have a certain timeframe of when you can respond to me. Otherwise I get upset. Lauren I. don't. Know. Ryan because I have NO ONE to talk to. absolutely no one. Lauren When you're 90 days clean and sober from everything, ok? Use meetings to help Now please Let me go This is killing me Ryan It doesn't have to be so black and white. I'm on your side and you're treating me like an enemy. I've always been on your side. I want to help you. Lauren Because you're being an enemy to my sobriety and my well being and it's selfish. Ryan I didn't do anything. I sent you pictures of a dog and told you77777 that I'm sober. I was being happy and stuff Lauren Leave me alone!!!!!! Don't talk to me. Ryan ok9 Get some sober time and then talk to me. But don't talk to me now. Thank you Ryan I'm fine and the most sober I've been in a long time. it's not a competition. but i will look elsewhere for friendship, or just cut myself or something. This sucks either way. I'm not going to be your enemy. Because I'm not and never will be. I just lost my best friend of 3-4 years. The closest friend I've ever had.