#great now I'm itching to make an aesthetic moodboards for the damned bastard

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Who's Eddie?

Well, oof, okay, so Eddie is a character of mine for my personal story, Komorebi, but he is also an embodiment of my nightmares, negative emotions, memories, thoughts, and mental disorders, as in the story, he’s a “clone” to the main character, Caleb and he represents his negativity and such, like he is with mine. Basically, Eddie is my dark coping mechanism ( as life has definitely fucked me up big time, unfortunately, lmfao ) I transfer him over to the story.

I wrote a bunch of notes about him that I don’t mind sharing under the cut in case anyone would be interested in getting to learn more about him ( regardless I need to flesh him out a bit, so there’s that ). Though please heed the tags for trigger warnings first before reading further. Eddie is not a pleasant person.

To start it off, his name, Eddie, is his short name because his real name is usually unable to be pronounced for one’s tongue, which is Eidottnawi ( pronounced “eye-dot-naw-we” ), meaning, “I want to die” in Rorrim’s language, and his surname is Doowron, meaning, “Norwood,” coping Caleb’s surname as he is his “clone”. Though the reason why he chose his first name is unknown.

Though who is Eddie? Or should I ask who is he to Caleb? Is he also known to be the Caleb Norwood, but for some reason, he wasn’t him anymore and became his own self — perhaps Caleb made a deal to someone divine who would take part of his soul that contains his negativity and pessimism as an exchange for him having the capability to be resilient, and Eddie managed to come into his life to teach him how everyone can’t ever be happy and optimistic? Is he the future Caleb and he goes back in time to when Caleb doesn’t have extreme flaws upon his mortals and personality, to remind him that he will eventually change to how he is and show him how would his future self be like because of how cruel and dark the world can make a person? Or is he just a vivid imagination of himself, made intendedly and subconsciously made by Caleb himself, to put himself into traumatizing situations and scenarios he would believe he so deserve, being told by himself, or so Eddie, of the things he refuses to acknowledge of, but as a result in the end, he would with a better reason other than him giving up on himself? Nobody really knows if Eddie is actually a clone of Caleb or he is a separate individual from him, but somehow looks like Caleb and have drastic opposite morals, beliefs, and traits that Caleb doesn’t have.

He is the physical embodiment of the Void, one who isn’t created or born, but just is, as a similar existence approach of Death itself. He isn’t just nothing, but he is quite literally everything that holds us as people together to the point there is nothing else, a something, a place where there is everything to the point that there is nothing else, and wherever you go, no matter how far, you are always in the area of the void where it is infinite, and it is everywhere and everything, and all of these shadows around you, they can lead you through the dimension to the void.

Carrying no vessels and becoming his true/void form, it’ll be extremely overwhelming and intense feelings for him to grasp such tremendous powers into his inner self without having his own flesh to carry them, and becomes the destruction and chaos with his core being unstable. He doesn’t see the reality when he’s in that form, but instead, he would see is death, despairs and destruction. He have antimatters and black holes properties that during his void form, he would suck and absorb every bits of existing sounds and lights in the areas he’s standing in, and his form acts more as a vacuum to everything that surrounds him, to the point that he sucks everything in and makes it non-existential, while at the same time, as a result, it fuels his own existence because as the void, he is made up of everything that exists It simply sucks up everything, and therefore, people think that it’s technically nothing because it takes up anything and everything.

Everything ceases to exist when he reaches to his void form, one really won’t be able to see anything when he absorbs the lights, same along with sounds, he will take away the white silence and the static of radioactive decays, and many more from the universe around us, therefore everything is literally silent when they’re being sucked by the space vacuum, Eddie himself in this case…

He is not just the physical embodiment of the Void, but strangely, he is also part DG-V1rus ( details are found here ), Rorrim ( there are no details about it yet, but it’s pronounced as “ro-reem” and Rorrim is basically an original specie of mine that have to do with mirror-like creatures/“opposite clones” ), and Dream Demon ( hybrid specie of a Dreamwalker and a Demon ). The backstory to how he is part any of them is currently unknown.

As a Dream Demon, he is the Ruler of the Nightmare Realm. He gives out orders to his minions on sending nightmares to those in need as messages and how it affects their current life.

His body skin colour is monochromatic. There are two possible reasons why it’s like that, while no one knows why does his skin colour shows that way, but the first reason is how much emotionally damaged and depressed he is, having his colours fades away to express his misery, and secondly, while he may be the “future” of Caleb, he always thinks about his past and compares whatever appears around him in the present to it, as he can’t ever let go of it, and you know hundreds of years ago, the photos were still in black and white, and it says how really far parts of Eddie’s consciousness is away from the present.

Though when he glitches, the outline of his body, with parts of them becoming into pixels, are red and cyan, to make people’s eyes strains, and you do not want him to experience high emotions, such as anger mainly, because when his voice becomes distorted from the glitching, it brings pain and discomfort to their ears.

He sees most of the world in black and white, being close to colourblind. The things he can see, though in a rather intense white colour, are the eyes, because of how the eyes behind a body holds the soul. Except if a person or an animal doesn’t have a soul inside anymore, their eyes are then also a dull grayscale colour as the rest of their body parts and everything around them as Eddie. He also sees the colours of the auras, belonging to the deities, radiating in. Their auras are much more clearer and almost glowing halo-like air surrounding their presence, and even glancing at them under a minute would irritate his eyes before it creates statics to envelop his visions, while it causes him to easily get migraines as well, as his mortal body are unable to take it well. But when he is in his true/void form, everything around him becomes in complete vivid colours, as the saturation and chroma of the world gets shot up to 100%, and not even the Mortal’s eyes can handle them without ending up getting their eyes permanently strained to a worse degree from the overwhelming and intense colours, if lucky to not be blinded.

He sees many different planets and dimensions at once, but he generally only focus on the dimension he is currently in, which is with the planet, Eanmerthas. The other dimensions are seen in different colours, but this is most likely never going to be delved into deeper.

He actually can’t hear anything, working on the same level as his inability to talk due to the vacuum surrounding him. As a result, he is able to sense the waves that others speaks and can imagine a simulation of how it sounds as to where it is coming from.

Going over to his personality now, the most important thing one should always remember when encountering him is do not be friends with him. He will abuse your strengths and manipulate you for his own advantages. He doesn’t see himself having friends or even at least having a partner for businesses and ever will. Friendships means nothing but destruction to him, and dare would anyone suggest being friends with him, they will face the consequence.

He usually kills people if only they ask for their death to come or they get in his way. He honestly can’t be bothered with killing people “for fun” and all of that ridiculous stuff as he finds it a huge waste of time and energy.

You see, Eddie, like Caleb, wants to help the world, to be the hero, because of their creation of the world, to Eddie, he doesn’t want to see it end with a split between beauty and chaos, and unfortunately, it seems impossible because there’s need to a balance with everything to nothing, but rather than attempting to influence people’s negative actions and beliefs, as obvious as it is, he kills them, while this is the general list of his morals:

HE WILL LIE in order to make people feel reassured and happy.

HE WILL KILL “BEAUTIFUL-LOOKING” PEOPLE as he doesn’t want them to experience a moment of them “becoming” ugly.

HE WILL KILL CHILDREN so they could die without having to experience what’s the world really like to them as they grow up.

HE WILL BE RUDE AND OBNOXIOUS TO OTHERS in order for people to get away from him and prevent them from befriending him as he wants best for both him and them to not grow attach each other, otherwise their feelings for each other would rip apart from their chest in the end.

HE WILL KILL THE POOR as to help end their suffering of hunger in desperation and be free and welcomed to heaven or anywhere as a paradise.

HE WILL HARM PEOPLE as to help them have more attention, love and care from their friends, families and loved ones.

HE WILL BULLY PEOPLE to help them improve their ability to stand up for themselves.

HE WILL GIVE DRUGS, ONE NIGHT STANDS, OR ALCOHOL TO PEOPLE to make them feel entertained and satisfied, if only they would ask for it,

HE IS WILLING TO KILL PEOPLE IF THEY ARE SUICIDAL so it would look like a murder case rather than them committing suicides to make their friends and loved ones more dreadful and pity them, much to their dislike.

HE WILL COMMIT CANNIBALISM OF EATING “HIS OWN KIND,” HUMANS AND ENCOURAGE THEM TO DO IT SO to help decrease the overpopulation of the world and there would be food available with human parts if any other isn’t available.

Does he have lack of remorse from doing them just as killing the bad people? Yes, he would lack any sympathy in committing such crimes like that, because, again, he wants to help and he does think what’s listed above is the best way to do them, but to most people, it’s clearly wrong, but at the same time… His beliefs makes it up their reason that makes his crimes more “appropriate” to him committing them. He never thinks of his targets’ friends and families because it’s about them only, and that’s it, as he’s helping them for their own sake only. Plus if anyone wishes to join being with their deceased loved ones, Eddie wouldn’t mind killing them to be with their deceased loved ones once again.

What is even the biggest belief that sticks to his mindset the most of them all is how in the end, everyone will die, so he doesn’t think anything matters, but the people who he kills, are given a ticket to be truly happy and free earlier.

With moral number nine, that’s what his real name, Eidottnawi, comes to play. It is either a gift or a curse, and either someone says what is the backword of his name as a beg or a realization of what his name actually meant, it’s like a kick to his instinct to kill them.

Overall, Eddie is a dangerous being one should never interact with. So if one encounters him, run.