#gotta show Bee Eater

[chiscaralight]

okayyy but has anyone thought about pussy eater kinich??? bc i have and i must speak my truth. or i just need my pussy ate. one or the other.

i don’t think kinich is a virgin, but he’s not that experienced. and he doesn’t feel the need to have sex, it’s not really interesting until he meets you.

he’s hooked on you like bees on honey, constantly asking you to come over so he can fuck all the energy he has into you in every different position.

and there comes a day where you tell him he’s gotta learn how to eat it! he fucks good yeah, but you miss the feeling of a tongue prodding around you, so you decide to teach him. and my god is he a fast learner.

the speed he has isn’t only limited to his body, tongue flicking and twisting fast in and out of your hole as his nose bumps your clit. in serious contrast to the way he behaves, he eats it absolutely sloppy. egregious noises, your slick coating his smooth face and chin as he hums into your cunt softly shaking his head in your heat.

he also likes the way you cum differently depending on what he does. if he takes it slow, you gush hard, slowly dropping out your climax against him as it ruins his shirt.

but if he’s feeling extra impatient, he’ll nibble down on your clit, pushing a finger or two in and curling them just where he knows you like, causing you to squirt. and he’ll smile after, watching the embarrassment wash over your jittery body as he dives back in for one more.

it even gets to a point where hell show up unannounced, god help you don’t lock the door. he’ll barge in and see you on the couch. then quickly take his place on the floor in front of you, offering wet kisses through your panties to get you going. and it always works.

he also can’t admit that it’s not necessarily all he enjoys, he loves the way you tug at his hair, call out his name. he might just have to make you his one of these days, ensuring that no one else has access to the treasure trove that’s between your legs. you (and your pussy) are just like a drug to him; he’ll keep coming back for more.

[saerotonins]

actor!yuuji & actor!sukuna headcanons

ft. itadori yuuji and ryomen sukuna 

content warnings: fluff, itadori twins au, overall cuteness, implied x reader (separated), jjk manga spoilers, characters are aged up to 20+

wc: 2.3k (jesus christ lol)

note: i miss my little actors so much lol. also, i think this is a bit too long, my bad 😭

jjk actor au masterlist

as twin actors:

believe it or not, jjk is like one of the roles that had them cast together 

both of them usually like to play different roles in different shows because they just don't want to be known as each other's twins

love that for them, they're so real for that

but when they were cast, they accepted it since the script and plot were interesting 

yuuji is a sweetheart inside out and sukuna is the quieter one between the two, sukuna is soft for his brother though so don't get fooled by his tough persona

yes, he is the older twin LOL and always holds it against yuuji just to be petty

"dude can you get me that can of soda?""why are you ordering your older brother around? have some shame"

yuuji just rolls his eyes but before he gets up and get it himself, sukuna will wordlessly stands up and does it anyway

checks on yuuji whenever he does intense fight scenes

both of them do the stunt themselves since they ate both so physically active

education wise, yuuji graduated as a marketing major and sukuna has a degree in physical therapy 

which explains why him and his brother always practice fight scenes together and he helps yuuji with his stance and warm ups!

it's adorable really and he's so tsundere about it too

"no not like that, put your legs this way dumbass" like that typa stuff

sukuna started off as a model but was later on casted because casting agencies thought he has that great villain face

yuuji started off as a side character and really likes acting (he is the theatre kid between the two and sukuna is the quiz bee kid, their mom is BOOKED and busy) and later on recognized because he's just THAT good

yuuji is usually a romance lead or 2nd lead and a slice-of-life guy so when fans found out he will be in an action show, they are excited!

sukuna on the other hand has been casted as a tsundere in romance shows, sometimes a bully and an antagonist in action shows, but a villain that is literally so powerful??? that is so new so his fans are anticipating 

both of them usually arrive on the set together (sukuna is the one driving btw and yuuji just sleeps during the trip)

yuuji prepares both of their bento boxes btw

sukuna loves it

he can cook, but that's it LMAO

he won't admit it but yuuji is the better cook

lowkey a picky eater so yeah

ACTOR!SUKUNA HEADCANONS:

sukuna is the intimidating one (obv) so when him and the other casts first met + the first few readings, it was sooo awkward 

turns out he's lowkey a goofy guy

has fun with his costars and helps them with fight scenes too, gotta put that physical therapy degree into good use

both him and nanami have this silent bond because whenever they're together they just don't talk and bask in the silence as they sit, they just peace amidst their crazy schedule

also an avid toji fan so when this guy found out he's in the same show with his idol he's almost shitting bricks

let out a really loud cheer when he found out and only yuuji knew about it LOL

has a deep-rooted respect towards him and it's sooo obvious whenever toji is around

he is such a fucking fangirl

he just thinks he's so badass and feels so honored to be casted in the same show as him

feels bad that he has to beat up almost everyone 😭 he is also a sweetheart deep inside

deep inside, he's such a caring and protective brother for yuuji because even though he doesn't have any scenes to be filmed, he still joins him on set whenever time allows him

he may not show it but he's sometimes lowkey terrified about fans tearing him up into shreds whenever he kills their favorite character 

imagine sukuna dripping big sweats by the time THAT episode with [redacted] aired oh my GOD he was so fucking nervous considering their fanbase is so big

yuuji has never seen his brother THIS nervous before and he's enjoying it

luckily though, not much hate happened and most of the time it's just memes and playful banter

his ass is barely on social media LOL

in the years of his instagram existing he only has like 90+ posts or even below 😭 usually it's just promotion, being an ambassador, magazine shoots— very lowkey 

doesn't have much digital footprint and i love that for him

whenever he posts, his fans are EATING IT UP since it happens every once in a blue moon lmfao

ACTOR!SUKUNA AS YOUR PARTNER:

as tough as he looks, he actually can be quite clingy, just behind closed doors though

lowkey feels bad when he has to beat up children (LMAO) and his co-actors and asks for cuddles from you for comfort

it's actually kind of adorable 

sometimes if his schedule doesn't allow him to have time to visit you, you'll get messages like "babe i just beat up megumi :(" 

since he's not active on social media, he knows some stuff online through you or yuuji

kind of a sad reason why he doesn't go online as much is because as tough as he looks, he's just a guy scared of the hate he's going to have just because he plays a villain or antagonist most of the time

he knows it's not his fault, he just knows that some people just don't know how to separate reality from acting

especially when that scene where he had to off a certain jujutsu sorcerer actor with a huge fanbase

oh boy was he so fucking scared and ran into your arms for comfort :(

he's a softie deep inside ok

when they have to go out of town or even overseas to film, he gets incredibly homesick and misses you so much 

expect a lot of "i miss you" messages, including selfies and candid pictures that he took around the set to

practicing his lines with you is close to impossible, this guy gets all blushy and shit because you're in front of him

and since most of his lines are mean as hell, he just doesn't want to be mean to you

he wants to impress you so bad but when you're around he just becomes a little high school boy with a big crush LMAO

he's such a sweetheart deep inside oh my god

when he decides he wants to post a new photo in his ig, you're the first and only person he'll ask for opinions

so this just means that most, if not all of his posts were handpicked by you

wears your matching stuff like accessories on set and gets sad when he has to take it off while filming

when he learned that his character would have face tattoos, the first thing he did was come home to you with his face makeup on (he had to ask his makeup artist to let it stay) and imitate it on your face

i have this headcanon that sukuna knows how to draw (and is very good at it) so it takes almost no effort to draw the tattoos on your face

you two then have a mini photoshoot (aka just taking a lot of selfies) with the both of you with sukuna marks on the face

it looks so cute that he made it his lock screen

he's lowkey such a sap don't let the character he's playing fool you

ACTOR!YUUJI HEADCANONS:

THE MAN THE MYTH THE BABY

he is literally a sunshine in or out of acting

so polite and so kind it's hard to hate him (not that he is even worth hating on)

so naturally, everyone on set loves to work with him!

unlike his brother, before acting, he doesn't really know a lot of fighting stance (he's a marketing major ffs lol) BUT ever since he was casted, he doubled up on his working out routine with the help of sukuna

even invested his time learning boxing which later on paid soooo much

can literally make everyone on set "aww" whenever his script requires him so cry or even witness a gruesome death scene *cough* nanami and nobara *cough*

during breaks, him and nobara do tiktok challenges and even those kpop challenges all the time and the crew enjoys watching them do it and the fans like it too

he does it too with choso and todo

this guy literally has 3 older brothers who are protective of him it's so cute

this man is so talented, he can cook, sing, dance, act, and is pretty smart too during his university days, it's so hard not to be in love with him

the greenest of the green flags (just like nanamin!) the girls the guys the folks LOVE him so much, literally the standard 

just like sukuna, he was fangirling so hard when he found out he's going to be in the same drama with THE nanami kento

he's such a big big BIG fan 

has a fan account of him on twitter that is pretty popular but you didn't hear that from me

it's so cute when they're together because they're literally THE father and son duo EVER

has the time of his life whenever he visits nanami and his wife's house and just chill there, sometimes brings his first-year trio besties too (both nanami and his wife don't mind at all)

aside from sukuna, he sometimes practices fight scenes with nanami too!

he is so active on social media 😭 interacts with as many fans as he can and posts all the time on ig and twitter 

has a lot of cute interactions with fans too

by extension, his account is sukuna's behind the scene account LOL

since his brother doesn't post a lot, sukuna's fans tune in to his posts and stories of sukuna behind the scenes or even just some pictures of him that he doesn't post

some of it are just pics of the brothers chilling or going out

yuuji is literally the sukuna fan's saint because of the amount of sukuna content he's giving them LOL

ok but don't get fooled by yuuji's sunshine personality, because he knows how to bite too

whenever he saw hate tweets his brother is getting for playing a villain, he is quick to respond and defend his brother

lowkey a nightmare for the PR team but they know where he's coming from

and despite sukuna telling him to just ignore it, he appreciates his little brother more than anything 

ACTOR!YUUJI AS YOUR PARTNER:

one word: ANGEL

he's literally so lover coded oh my goodness

leaves you some post-it notes on the fridge every single day before he leaves to film

if the trip goes on for days he will leave at least three long love letters for you to read when you miss him and he's busy

creates personal vlogs JUST FOR YOU so if the both of you can't facetime, you'll still know what he is up to

when he was contacted to be the main character of the show, he confided in you whether or not he should accept the offer

don't get him wrong, he is beyond grateful the people think he's capable enough to be the main lead but it makes him nervous 

this is his first main character role and the pressure of it all is heavy on his shoulders 

he asked for his brother's opinion too but he trusts you enough to talk about his feelings regarding this

of course, when you said that you'll be there with him in every step and support him all the time and do everything to keep the communication between the two of you going despite his soon-to-be hectic schedule, his heart is finally set on accepting the role

you are so proud of him! your baby finally getting the recognition he deserves? hell yeah

his busy schedule was never a barrier between the two of you, yuuji never forgets to update and call you whenever his time permits and he always appreciates every cheer you have given him

type of actor boyfie to show you off his social media platform!

he posts your dates and even hangouts with each other

his fans find it quite adorable and is in love with your whole relationship 

likes to do those couple tiktok challenges with you and post them online, you guys even have shippers lol

of course, if you're the lowkey type, yuuji would respect that and will only include you in his online shenanigans when you feel like it or allow him to post it

practicing lines with you is always exciting but never productive LOL

you both just end up giggling and laughing 

in the end you just both opt to cuddle instead (or even make our LMFAO)

yuuji just feels so lucky to have his ever-supporting partner along the way

[mars-onthe-moon]

hey what our some fandoms you're in but haven't made art of yet recently?

Literally all of them XD

I love so many things but then only end up drawing GF. It’s like the Midas touch, but worse.

I just started the Netflix Bee and Puppy cat! It’s amazing! I rewatched the YouTube series for the millionth time and then started the Netflix, and I’m really liking it.

I also started watching The Arcane. I love the art and the story, wouldn’t say I’m in the fandom, but I appreciate the show.

I guess I’ll just make a list of fandoms I’m in or stalk from time to time.

Cartoons:

Gravity Falls

The Owl House

Bee and Puppy Cat

Adventure time (need to start distant lands)

Over The Garden Wall (mandatory watch in the fall)

Bob’s Burgs

Rick and Morty

Cuphead and Mugman (video game and cartoon… I have like, too many of the pops, love the art to death)

Steven universe (need to start Future, or else my OCD will never let me rest in peace)

Avatar the last Airbender (I watch the whole series like every two yrs, need to finish Legends of K tho)

Helluva Boss (I keep an eye on ‘Hazbin’, I think there is like a legit show in the works, but Helluva is actually great and I would die for most of the characters unlike ‘Hotel.’)

There’s a butt ton more I know I’m missing. I think it’s safe to say cartoons are my fav media so I’ve probably watched most of them or plan on it.

Anime:

I’m such an anime slacker, so like I’ve probably heard of it, but it’s because it’s on my watch list and I’ve never gotten around to it… so here are my comfort animes.

Anything Hayao Miyazaki or studio G

Soul eater

Mob Psycho 100

Tokyo Ghoul

Ouran Host club

Kill la Kill

Kakegurui

Other:

The Arcana - A dating sim video game which I love waaaaaaay too much (I own the art book and tarot cards, btw totally worth it). It has a lot of great representation! …. And my husband Lucio… Who is totally not evil and hot and the reason I question my sanity and sexuality.

MadK - which is a very dark BL manga… obvi NSFW, but it’s amazing. The art is beautiful and the plot is fr interesting and I need the third book like now, because I gotta know how this is gonna end.

The Banquet - a web comic (tho u can get hard copies and exclusive nfsw art books through Patreon). It’s gay and cute and about demons and we stan.

Nightvale - Yo. I tried to do the podcasts in like middle school. They were fun but like, too many, I never finished. But the books are fire so I really like them, they have the same feel, mention OG characters, but have plot and stuff. - In that same vibe….

Alice isn’t dead. It’s another book by Joseph Fink and has that surreal nightvale vibe, but toned down a little, also mc is a lesbian so, finger snaps. (Now that im looking at his books he has a lot more so brb while I spend money I don’t have.)

Undertale will always be in my heart, and I need to play delta rune chpt 2.

So yeah! Thats the stuff im into atm, or have been within the past few yrs. Some more then others, but mostly everything here is what I try to stay up to date on. I also always have the ghosts of superwholockian and bronies past looming over me… but we all have our demons. And if I ever vanish, know that they got to me and I’m rewatching all of Doctor Who because I stopped at the 12th doctor and there’s like a fourteenth one now? And I does’s have to know.

[nadiaportia]

Harpy AU HCs for my OCs

Because I wanna join in on @sad-arcana-au ‘s Harpy AU and I gotta rely on descriptions for them. As a huge bird enthusiast, I saw the bird theme, took it and ran with it, so no bats or insects, I’m very sorrry :/

All of them have wings, bird feet and feather coloring based on and inspired by their individual species. 

Sayelle of Bizatena - Merops orientalis (green bee-eater)

four wings, turquoise coloring on her cheeks and throat

originally lived with her large flock of bee-eater harpies on the Magician’s Island

huddled together with her flockmates at night for maximum comfort and does so on instinct after leaving her home

considers hornets and wasps a delicacy and is an absolute champ at removing stingers  

big fascination for humanity, other than her flockmates she doesn’t believe them to be dangerous

has quite the stamina when it comes to flight, since bee-eaters are migratory birds

Deirdra Margalit - Carduelis carduelis (European goldfinch)

two wings, red coloring on their cheeks

very social and hops from island to island but regularly checks up on their people on Strength’s island to see how they’re doing

skeptical of humans and wouldn’t show themself to them but has saved various people from drowning in the waters and brought them to safety on one of the isles outside of the archipelago

has a very melodic harpy song and a big talent for imitating other songs as well as voices

diet is mostly vegetarian and consists of seeds, nuts and fruits and occasionally insects

loves flying a lot but lacks the immense stamina Sayelle possesses

Ximena Rubalcaba -  Pharomachrus mocinno (resplendent quetzal)

four wings, two very long tailfeathers she is extremely proud of and green coloring on her face and red coloring on her torso and shoulders

settled on Death’s isle after leaving her family clan on the Emperor’s island

solitary and territorial, occasionally visits other islands but rarely interacts with its inhabitants

extreme distrust towards humans

very much a hunter and gatherer especially since she mostly needs to get by on her own

prefers to fly short distances from tree to tree or stay on the ground because of not-so-strong wings

sees very good in dim light or the dark

As for Ximena’s family - who are the leaders of their clan, live on the Emperor’s island and seek to take revenge on humanity for forcing them to flee their homes - if I’m going for individual species for each member, Heloisa’s design would be inspired by the crimson rosella (Platycercus elegans) because it’s a flashy little parrot , Cibela’s by the violet sabrewing (Campylopterus hemileucurus) because a colibri being named sabrewing is what I’m here for and purple is the background of the Rubalcaba sigil and their aunt Esmé’s by the actual harpy eagle (Harpia harpyja) because they’re at the top of their respective foodchains, pretty badass which fits with her being a general and also the official symbol of their house (which in total is a silver harpy eagle on a purple background).

The second option would’ve been to make all of the Rubalcabas harpy eagles but c’mon, let’s be creative.

Visuals of the species that served as inspo are underneath the cut in the order of named characters.

[thesumosnipe]

Four Heroes Council

Well, that went better than expected. Bitch (yeeeee!) hasn't learned a thing, still up to her tr-shenanigings....with her new Adventurers name, tricks would be a poor word choice, as I am trying to cut back on the puns. (doctors orders.) Bets she "encouraged"that knight to get all riled and liquored up?

"I am calm. I'm calmly going to dispose of this trash."

Nice touch there showing that bigotry can't be decreed away, it has to be fought. Words are a fine start, but must be backed up by deeds. A bigot won't change their minds or stop running their mouth, a bully won't change thier ways until consequences rear up and smash them in the nose.

Looks like the Stooges 3 are all running slightly different versions of the game? See, this is why I can't stand pay-to-play DLC. Sure their items may work differently, but the game fundimentals and help/tutorials should bee the same, dammit.

Wait..."Soul Eater Shield"? Yaeh, that doesn't sound ominous...

Just when I was happy, why we gotta make Raphtalia sad? And Mr Noble, if you want to do something for the demis, how about ya get cracking on rebuilding the village so they have something to come home to?

Looks like we have a grind and grow arc to finish out the first and hopefully not last season ..... make some noise to let em know if you want a second season!

[fuchsiagrasshopper]

Thanks for the tag @zuxiezendler

Name/Nickname: Bee which isn't remotely similar to my real name

Gender: She/her

Star sign: Capricorn

Height: 5'7

Time currently: 7:45pm

When is your birthday: January 5th

Favorite bands/groups: Tool, puscifer, AFI

Favorite solo artist: Lana del ray, Florence Welch

Song stuck in your head: nothing at the moment

Last movie you watched: Castle of Cagliostro

Last show you binged: Cobra Kai and Schitts Creek

When you created your (main) blog: I think over 2 years ago now.

Last thing you googled: The population of Laurel, Mississippi (been watching home town)

Do you get asks: Not often but I always get excited when I do

Why I chose my URL: I've been fuchsia.grasshopper on every site for the past ten years so it was a no brainer.

How many people are you following: 41

How many followers do you have: 189

Average hours of sleep: gotta try for 7

Lucky numbers: 2

Instruments: Clarinet but it's been awhile

What I'm currently wearing: jammies and a sky blue robe with clouds

Dream job: writer but honestly I'm happy as a nurse at the moment too

Dream trip: African safari or Australia to see the Australian zoo. Anything with seeing animals before humanity messes up and they're all gone.

Favorite food: I love pancit, pizza and beer, and turkey burgers. Not a picky eater just have to get past my allergies.

Favorite song: Right in two by Tool

Top 3 fictional universes you'd like to live in: Peaky blinders because of the fashion, Final Fantasy VII because I would fight for the planet, and Middle Earth because I would be a hobbit.

Alright tagging @pomegranates-and-blood @rena-renata @castielsangelsx @xceafh @banditthewriter

Interview Tag 📝

Tagged by: no one, but it’s been a while since I have done one of these

Rules: answer questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better!

Name/Nickname: Ray

Gender: she/her

Star Sign: Scorpio

Height: 160 cm (5 ft 3 in)

Time Currently: 11:00 am

When is your birthday: October

Favorite Bands/groups: As of right now; BTS, Banda do Mar, Mana

Favorite Solo Artist: Natalia Lafourcade, Mon Laferte, Cicero

Song Stuck in Your Head: Songs I can’t Listen to by The Neon Trees

Last Movie You Watched: Bird Box (my family was curious about it)

Last Show You Binged: Voltron and Avatar: The Last Airbender on Netflix

When You Created Your (Main-)Blog: December 2014 (although I didn’t even know how Tumblr worked and wouldn’t officially use it until later on)

Last Thing You Googled: Detroit: Become Human (I got interested in the game after watching Jacksepticeye)

Do You Get Asks: Rarely 😄

Why I Chose My URL: I got on Tumblr out of curiosity since a lot of people I knew were on it and I wanted to see what the fuss was about, at the time I was watching Doctor Who and Fairy tail. I just mushed the two together and that was it

How Many People Are You Following: 42 - I really have to like the content they share

How Many Followers Do You Have: 351

Average Hours of Sleep: 7 - 8

Lucky Numbers: don’t have one

Instruments: piano, some violin

What I’m Currently Wearing: jeans, a fluffy sweater

Dream Job: I have wanted to be a writer since I was quite young, but honestly if I could just go into work with a smile and be content with it, then I would be fine with a simple job

Dream Trip: Germany - Denmark - Finland - Italy - India - South Korea - Brazil

Favorite Food: tiramisu, posole, tamales, carne en chile colorado con nopales, papas al gratine (at least that’s the name my aunt calls it)

Favorite Song:  Our Own House by MisterWives 😍😍😍

Top Three Fictional Universes You’d Like To Live In: Marvel | Vikings | Doctor Who 

Tag: @xbellaxcarolinax, @princesscornbread, @fairyofvoid, @thenightperson, and I guess anyone else that would like 

[coquuin]

u bet ur fuckin ass im sending myself an ask meme bc fuck you no one else will so shit SOMEONE gotta. all the questions for Ezekiel bay bee

the amount of fucks that i do not give is unreal

1. How does your character think of their father? What do they hate and love about him? What influence - literal or imagined - did the father have?

well shit both of Ezekiel’s parents died when he was 3 so obviously he hardly has any memories of them, but! Ezekiel’s father was.. fucking hilarious! the dude had an amazing sense of humor–mightve been a stand up comedian, although not a huge known one?? he was always smiling and just trying to make people laugh! especially loved to make his son laugh the most.

so as you can easily imagine, 3-year-old Ezekiel obviously loved his father. i mean, why wouldnt he. although now that his father is long dead and ezekiel has pretty much forgotten him by this point, his opinion towards what very little he DOES remember of his dad is just like.. “why were you so fucking happy all the time? what was there to be happy about?” but, like i said, seeing as Ezekiel has completely forgotten him, he’s pretty neutral on him and doesnt really have much of an opinion.

2. Their mother? How do they think of her? What do they hate? Love? What influence - literal or imagined - did the mother have?

opinion wise, it’s the exact same deal as his father–seeing as both parents died at the same time. so he neither dislikes or likes her! hes just neutral.

however, as for her personality, she was honestly like the polar opposite of the dad. she was calm and collected, and a little intense. a very blunt woman who would not be afraid to call you out on your bullshit! sort of like Ezekiel now actually :) a lot of her mannerisms and personality traits literally resemble Ezekiel to a T, which he obviously doesnt even realize seeing as his mom has been, yknow, dead for all his life. but underneath that tough exterior, she was a very sweet woman! she was probably a doctor tbh.

4. What type of discipline was your character subjected to at home? Strict? Lenient?

IN THE CULT.. it was like a literal living hell and EXTREMELY strict. which is exactly what this cult wanted! seeing as it was a Satanic cult especially. BUT UHHH.. i cant go too in depth on how everything was like in that orphanage, but if you REALLY wanna know all the gross details literally just do some research on Satanism or Satanic Cults and youll be sure to find some pretty gross stuff. all of that is what happened to Ezekiel there!

the things i can mention though!! every child had to wear the same uniform every day, they all had the same exact hairstyle (boys had a short bowlcut, girls had long hair which they were absolutely not allowed to style or put up). they were, of course, beaten severely if the orphanage staff saw fit to do so. medieval torture methods were used on them, especially for sacrifices. they were bluntly told, “if you try to leave, the Devil will kill every single one you love and come for you last”–which is honestly why Ezekiel always talks about how “the devil is out to get him” or why Ezekiel feels that he cant get close to anyone, bc he just expects the devil to kill anyone he gets close to! bc, yknow, he ran away. the kids were also often forced to eat or drink bodily fluids which Yeah is fucking disgusting. they only had one meal a day, and said meal was very small–so a lot of the kids starved, and thats why Ezekiel is such a picky eater and refuses to eat a lot of the time! bc hes just so used to having only one tiny meal a day, just enough for him to survive on, and any more than one small meal he always feels like he’s wasted too much money or something. a lot of sexual abuse went on too. YOU GET THE IDEA BY NOW IM SURE SO.. YEAH, IT WAS… BAD BAD BAD.

5. Were they overprotected as a child? Sheltered?

EXTREMELY SHELTERED. he and the other kids in the orphanage were absolutely not allowed to go outside whatsoever. this was because the caretakers told them “THE OUTSIDE WORLD WANTS TO CORRUPT YOU, SO YOU MUST ABSOLUTELY NOT INTERACT WITH ANYTHING THAT IS OUTSIDE OF THESE DOORS!!!” and were EXTREMELY strict on that rule. one time, Ezekiel had snuck out when he was about 7, and brought in stray kittens, which he hid in his room! it wasnt long until his roommates snitched on him and the caretakers straight up just fucking cut off every kitten’s head right in front of lil Ezekiel and then proceeded to beat him afterward. so that kinda fucked him up!!! this is what led to Ezekiel’s reclusive behavior now and his generally being totally silent when he’s around anyone he doesn’t know (although he has gotten a lot better about the talking thing! albeit the fact when he does talk chances are he is saying something very mean. BUT STILL!). even now, he completely secludes himself in his small apartment, even going so far as boarding up all his windows to block the sunlight altogether. well ok he also boarded them up bc he has an extremely bad habit of trying to break the glass but. the sunlight thing too!

6. Did they feel rejection or affection as a child?

REJECTION OFC. the orphanage caretakers never even referred to him by his name–instead, they called every child by numbers. in Ezekiel’s case, it was #34. even now, that is his least favorite number.

8. How does your character feel about religion?

he may not seem like it, but Ezekiel is VERY VERY VERY religious!!! after he ran away from the orphanage and later moved to L.A., he actually did convert to Christianity! he always wears a golden cross necklace around his neck and he feels like it protects him from evil spirits–obviously thats all in his head as no evil spirits are really out to get him, but it’s a big big BIG comfort item to him. he can easily recite a shit ton of Bible verses bc he reads that damn thing all the fucking time man. in general, his faith in god is a huge fucking comfort for him, as he always fears the devil is out to get him and whatnot–its nice to think that he may actually have god on his side to protect him.

10. Is your character street-smart, book-smart, intelligent, intellectual, slow-witted?

honestly??? hes all over the fuckin place. he surprisingly does have some street smarts to him (from having been literally fucking homeless for a while).

although the only thing he’s really book-smart with is languages–he’s a big linguist! but otherwise, he kinda sucks at smart stuff like math or science or stuff like that–bc he never went to school! he did learn how to read while in the orphanage, but that was really about it.

not too intelligent either??? thats mostly bc he’s literally been secluded from interacting with people like all his life, so he’s just not really good at like.. reading people? and has little to no life skills bc no one ever taught him??

12. How does their education and intelligence – or lack thereof - reflect in their speech pattern, vocabulary, and pronunciations?

ok so despite the fact that Ezekiel never went to school, his vocabulary is actually pretty big! although like i said, he did learn to read in the cult so. that really isnt too much of an issue. but he’s very very interested in literature and language as a whole, and always was even as a child! so even now, he devotes a lot of his time to studying that kind of stuff, and his way of speaking definitely shows it–well, if you can get behind the constant swearing, anyway.

16. What does your character do for a living? How do they see their profession? What do they like about it? Dislike?

he’s the guitarist of the rock band Rogue! his feelings on playing in a band in general is kinda.. conflicting, really. he isnt sure if he enjoys it or hates it. for one, he actually has HUGE stage fright–though he has gotten a bit better about it after playing on stage so many times by now, but it’s still a recurring issue with him and can sometimes cause complications within the band. it certainly is very anxiety-inducing for him, but at the same time… he cant bring himself to just quit, either. not even he himself is sure why he still puts up with the band, but he finds himself drawn to it quite often. he is very very very proud of being able to write music and have it be shown to millions of people though–hearing the band’s singer, Augustine, sing his lyrics to crowds, and the crowd loving it, is probably one of the biggest things that can make Ezekiel happy.

17. Did they travel? Where? Why? When?

well, his first travel was from London, England to Los Angeles, California! and thats where he eventually joined the band! and, yknow, being in a band that tours quite often, now he definitely has to travel a lot. which he absolutely hates. he would much rather just stay home in his stupid secluded cheap ass apartment, but hey, u gotta do what u gotta do

23. What do they want from a partner? What do they think and feel of sex?

when it comes to partners, ezekiel honestly doesnt expect too much from them–just a mutual understanding of each other is all he truly asks for, which should really go without saying in a relationship anyway.

hes not really one for sex! not to say he never wants to do it, though. he does have a lower sex drive than most people though–and the moments he does do it with his partner, it’s gonna have to be very gentle. he couldnt handle anything too rough tbh. also hes a total bottom so jot that down-

26. What does your character’s home look like? Personal taste? Clothing? Hair? Appearance?

his home is a fucking MESS. he has a tendency to destroy the entire room whenever he’s having one of his temper tantrums, and this is pretty evident all over Ezekiel’s apartment, bc he doesnt even bother to clean up afterwards. the only time he really cleans up his own mess at home is if its like, food or a drink or something bc he isnt that bad about it but. every room at his apartment looks like a fucking tornado hit him or something. and he couldnt care less what his home looks like! like as long as Ezekiel has a bed, he’ll be alright. he doesnt even like big homes all that much, and prefers to live in something simple and relatively small.

as for clothing, Ezekiel usually just goes for simple stuff. Especially wears a lot of jackets, hoodies, the like. a lot of baggy-ish clothing going on, but he actually is pretty fashionable believe it or not!

hair wise, Ezekiel just has.. no fucks to give. he hardly puts much care to his hair at all tbh. its just naturally curly and a little messy, but at least he keeps it fairly short so it doesnt get too bad. its probably a lil greasy tho.. someone make this boy take a gotdamn SHOWER

29. What is your character’s weaknesses? Hubris? Pride? Controlling?

theres probably several tbh IJOISJERIJ

but most of all, probably both his paranoia and his stubbornness? like he can hardly even function in every day life bc he cANT EVEN COME OUT OF HIS HOUSE BC HES SO PARANOID OVER EVERYTHING. and oh my GOD Ezekiel is so goddamn infuriatingly stubborn like GODDAMN. sometimes its just practically impossible to get through to this guy whatsoever. ezekiel can honestly be a pain in the ass

30. Are they holding on to something in the past? Can he or she forgive?

HE REMEMBERS PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING SINGLE FUCKING THING FROM THE CULT.. AND OH GOD DOES IT PLAGUE HIS MIND EVERY SINGLE DAY. like his entire childhood in that orphanage still is so fresh and prevalent in his head that he quite often has hallucinations of the events that happened there, especially when he sees certain things. like cats, for example! seeing a cat will literally send Ezekiel into immediate panic and he genuinely thinks he’s back at the orphanage where he watched those stray kittens i mentioned earlier get their lil heads cut off and he’ll repeat over and over, “their heads are gone, their heads are gone, their heads are gone-” bECAUSE. ITS LIKE HES THERE ALL OVER AGAIN! which is, of course.. yet another reason he hardly ever comes out of his home! bc he thinks “well if i just dont go out then that means i cant see anything triggering that will make me have another panic attack.”

as for forgiving his abusers? OH HAHA ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOT. HE HOPES THEY ALL DIE OR HAVE ALREADY DIED IN THE MOST BRUTAL WAYS POSSIBLE.

32. How does your character react to stress situations? Defensively? Aggressively? Evasively?

Ezekiel either:A) GETS REALLY FUCKING PISSED AND START DESTROYING EVERYTHING IN THE ROOMB) HAVE A WHOLE ASS MENTAL BREAKDOWN AND PANIC

33. Do they drink? Take drugs? What about their health?

unfortunately, Ezekiel is very much an addict :( he’s a big alcoholic, and also does cocaine, ecstasy, pain killers, xanax, and maybe some other shit i cant think of off the top of my head. but! hes.. a mess…. save him

35. Do they always rationalize errors? How do they accept disasters and failures?

it depends on the person/people around him! because with anyone that he hardly knows? then he doesnt really give a shit and easily brushes it off, because he honestly doesnt care what strangers think of him anyway. but around people that hes actually close to and he cares about? THEN OOF. HE CAN POSSIBLY HAVE A WHOLE PANIC ATTACK BC HE REALLY DOESNT WANT TO LET HIS LOVED ONES DOWN..

36. Do they like to suffer? Like to see other people suffering?

of course not!!! although its.. not impossible for him to enjoy someone elses suffering. you would just have to like, REAAALLY fucking do him wrong for him to be like that, which is pretty hard even for him. like the orphanage caretakers! i assure u if they suffered Ezekiel would LOVE that. 

37. How is your character’s imagination? Daydreaming a lot? Worried most of the time? Living in memories?

most of the time hes living in memories, for sure. either that, or he’s just kinda stressed or anxious! but not always necessarily a bad anxious tho! like if hes around someone that he actually likes, he’ll be VERY anxious, but like in a good way! just kinda excited yknow. BUT MOST OF THE TIME, ITS BAD OFC.

38. Are they basically negative when facing new things? Suspicious? Hostile? Scared? Enthusiastic?

VERY SCARED AND DISTRUSTFUL, PRETTY HOSTILE!!! remember hes fucking paranoid about every little thing rip.

40. How is their sense of humor? Do they have one?

well, most of ezekiel’s jokes involve swearing and yelling, so probably that! Angery……

42. What does your character want most? What do they need really badly, compulsively? What are they willing to do, to sacrifice, to obtain?

i think probably like.. parents tbh. or at least a parental figure. he’s only had one person who was like a father to him, but that guy is all the way back in London so Ezekiel hasnt seen him since :( and tbh for like most of his life, he’d always assumed that not having parents was like.. just whatever, yknow? bc you cant really miss something that was never there. but, after he ran away from the cult and he saw like.. people, he saw a lot of happy families and whatnot and just!! hes really jealous of anyone who has a functional, happy family now. it isnt so much that he misses his birth parents, just that he wants to have some kind of parental figure in general. someone that he feels he can actually call family.

44. How badly do they want to obtain their life objectives? How do they pursue them?

what’s sad? the fact that ezekiel… doesnt really have any life objectives! the only objective he really has is to survive. thats literally it. he just doesnt want “the devil” to take him–and to escape the devil’s wrath, ezekiel immerses himself in his religion and staying inside all day and night so that he doesnt have to talk to anyone! thats basically about it

46. Is your character tall? Short? What about size? Weight? Posture? How do they feel about their physical body?

he’s pretty tall! 6′3″! although for his weight, i swear to god hes like.. a fucking twig. i mean theres that whole “he only eats one small meal a day” thing, so ofc you can imagine that probably has an effect on his weight. BUT! that isnt the only reason hes so skinny! it’s also bc he has Klinefelter Syndrome, which is when a male is born with an extra X chromosome. so as a result of that, he is a little taller than most people, is very skinny, has weak bones, and breasts! and some other symptoms but i dont feel like listing every single thing so fuck y

as for posture, Ezekiel is usually a liiiittle slouched, but not terribly so! when hes stressed, however, he always stands up completely straight!

ezekiel absolutely fucking hates his body, though. he knows full well that hes not.. the most attractive–ugly, even. you know that “your toes, hand em over” meme? yeah, he looks like that a little bit. his body honestly looks pretty fucking freaky. ALSO HE HAS A LITERAL MICROPENIS SO THATS A THING! all in all, Ezekiel just… is very very very scared of showing off his body to anyone honestly. extremely insecure!

47. Do they want to project an image of a younger, older, more important person? Does they want to be visible or invisible?

Ezekiel actually puts on this whole temperamental asshole front specifically to MAKE people hate him! thats why hes so quick to be like “FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT TWAT YOU GODDAMN WANKER FUCK YOU”! because, yknow, most people are usually gonna hate anyone who says that kind of stuff to them and as a result they hopefully wont wanna talk to him! which is exactly what Ezekiel wants. yep, Ezekiel wants everyone to hate him! because if everyone hates him, then they wont talk to him, and if they dont talk to him, then he doesnt risk of getting close to anyone and getting his heart broken all over again! hes a mess……

49. What about voice? Pitch? Strength? Tempo and rhythm of speech? Pronunciation? Accent?

TBH FOR REFERENCE YOU CAN JUST LIKE.. LISTEN TO MURDOC NICCALS’ VOICE BC THATS HIS VC BUT. his voice can switch between either somewhat slow or extremely fast! it all depends on his mood. in his normal speaking voice, when hes neither upset or happy or anything, his words come out a little slow, but not terribly so. pretty normal, mostly. but if hes excited, whether bad or good, he speeds up when he talks a LOT. so much so that he doesnt even let himself breathe when hes talking! just like “FUCKYOUFUCKYOUFUCKYOUIHATEYOUYOUGODDAMNSTUPIDTWATAAAAAA”

his voice in general is a little hoarse! although he has gotten much better about talking to people (even if he is mean when he talks), he did go through practically his whole childhood just.. not talking to people very much at all. so that kinda shows in his voice now? but its not too bad. he has a pretty low-ish voice too.

as for pronounciation and accent, again literally just listen to Murdoc’s voice bc its p much exactly the same as him but. he has a very thick london-cockney accent?? i sure hope thats accurate anyway, im not British so im not 100% sure on British accents but.

50. What are the prevailing facial expressions? Sour? Cheerful? Dominating?

THIS MOTHERFUCKER HAS THE WORST RESTING BITCH FACE IN THE HISTORY OF RESTING BITCH FACE.

ok ill just draw this one

his resting face!

AMGERY!!!!!

talking to his friends!!!

PANICKING

theres probably more i could draw, but in general, Ezekiel is VERY expressive tho! its pretty easy to read all of his expressions and emotions.

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I was tagged by @onemuseleft​

Rules: tag nine users you want to get to know better

How old are you?: 22

Current job: Full-time college student right now? I gotta get a job this semester though for real

Dream job: A-list actor with an international career across Asia

What are you talented at?: I think I’m pretty good at acting. If not, I’m fucked. I’m also really good at playing that app game on my phone where you re-arrange transitional hues according to their sequence between two contrasting colors. I can binge-watch a TV show and grind through RPG levels like no one’s business, and I think I'm good at writing when I feel like writing.

What is a big goal you are working towards, or have already achieved?: My ultimate goal for my career is to pioneer Asian-American roles that challenge the harmful and xenophobic stereotypes that saturate Hollywood.

What is your aesthetic?: Elegant dresses with high necklines, a fresh cup of jasmine tea, European bee eaters, watching the sun rise somewhere you’ve never been before, pearl jewelry, rose gardens, wandering through cobbled roads of historical ruins and old castles, the color lavender, rose gold glitter, mermaid motifs

Do you collect anything?: ...makeup, probably. I have a lot of makeup. I don’t really collect any one thing, like eyeshadow palettes or lipsticks (although I do have a bunch of both). I just have a little of everything and it all adds up to a fucking lot.

What is a topic you’re always up to talk about?: Makeup! Hot gossip! And anything related to my OTPs, honestly. Sarah J. Maas, A Court of Thorns and Roses, etc. I used to always be down to talk about superheroes, but these days........................nah. I love em, I just don’t necessarily like the other people who love em.

What’s a pet peeve of yours?: People who try too hard to be moderates. They’re honestly so preachy and annoying. People who don’t know how to apologize. People who automatically think they’re better than you. People who are negative all the time. So, like...people.

Good advice to give?: If you want to change the world, you’ve first got to fill it up with yourself until you’re too big for the world to hold you anymore. Then you break free.

Recommend three songs?: Machine - MisterWives, Might Not Like Me - Brynn Elliott, American Money -  BØRNS

I’m tagging @ramblingredrose​, @magistrate-of-mediocrity​, @maryam0revna​, @softning​, @eyeslikestarsandthesky​, @pinkboobcones​, @untaintedtea​, aaand that’s probably all I’ve got. If anyone else wants to do it too, I’d love to see your answers! ♥