#got a bit personal here but I'm quite prone to oversharing

[melit0n]

Question 11. 38. 72. 100.

Oooo good ones anon!

11. Do you like who you are around people?

Already answered this one, but no, not really. I'm not confident and I've spent my years convincing myself I'm unlikeable, so, I picked up the habit of making myself into someone new to fit someone else's view. I've still only ended up with three friends, so I'm not really successful there.

I'm much more honest with people and myself online because I know I'm interacting with people who are like me, just without the physical confrontation. Hence why I pay as much attention as I possibly can to all my moots <3

38. What's your favourite move?

Again, I already answered this one, but out of movies I watched recently, it would have to be between Stand By Me, The Fantastic Mr Ripley and Red Eye.

72. What stresses you out more than anything else?

Time. It slips through my fingers like silk and I'm constantly grasping at the threads. I have to keep a strict routine otherwise all my hours are gone and all I've done is rotted in bed.

That and trains. Hate having to remember all the stations and stops I have to get off at.

101. Are you okay?

With full honesty? No. Not at all. Physically I feel like a bad dog that needs to be put down, since everybody in my non-online life has decided to spend their days telling me I'm good at nothing and should just go home if I'm going to mope and fall asleep in half my classes. And mentally I'm very, very tired. Literally and figuratively. Lack of sleep makes you not want to do anything, and mixing that with depression and anxiety makes a very deadly cocktail.

But, so far I've survived the first two (almost three!) months of 2024, which is way further than I told myself in 2020 that I would get, so I think I'm getting somewhere!