#gonna run some applications for licenses they're graciously providing to people with no college degree

[hremail24]

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honestly the fact im not living with my parents or working at my old job made me realize. im pretty sure my depression is not innate or chronic i think i was just in horrible situations. granted all of that brainspace is taken up by anxiety and PTSD now but its amazing how life is worth living when you're not living with selfish people falling down the alt-right pipeline or working at a job where queerphobic sexual harassers are protected while your job security is held over your head. and that's saying a lot because i'm still jobless and have no fucking clue how i'm going to make rent this month or renew my lease. but at least i'm happier. i would literally rather live like this than (financially) comfortably with people who openly do not like me or care for me enough to get me the help i need. yeah i have new/different worries now, but they don't make me want to genuinely kill myself and that's a stark difference on its own. i like not being suicidal actually.

that being said i'm strongly considering checking in to an inpatient facility because my anxiety symptoms are getting really bad & interfering with my life. and i'd like to stop taking painkillers near daily for something neurological