#gonna leave my icon alone for a while so all my beloved mutuals know it's still me

[the-sparkling-orange]

changed my url bc i'm in a "chop off all my hair" mood & this felt less drastic. back to an og forum name from the pre-tumblr days!

[officialleotolstoy]

Oh Natasha/Andrei brainrot we’re really in it now, aka Natasha/Andrei playlist annotations!

Honestly the age gap is so inherently uncomfortable it’s difficult for me to really ship this but I think in terms of the REALLY low bar of W&P marriages/almost-marriages, it’s one of the better ones because they at least mutually care about each other. It’s also just devastating on principle!

There are several distinct sections of song on here, this is one of the few I’ve actually put in a significant order, so I’m going to break it down into that.

Part 1: Initial Meeting/Falling In Love The First Time/General

Absolutely Smitten - dodie

“She wants to dance around the room, kiss you until her lips turn blue”

This song really reminds me of their first meeting when they’re both like 👀 at each other. I like how it captures the excitement but also nerves of the girl, which I feel like is an important feature of Natasha’s part of the relationship.

Helpless - Philippa Soo

“Tryin' to catch your eye from the side of the ballroom”

Sorry to all the ex-Hamilton stans I jumpscared with this, but it’s about the Philippa Soo Singing About Falling In Love vibe. Also the quoted lyric reminds me of their iconic dance scene, or at least the bits leading up to that.

To Noise Making (Sing) - Hozier

“Honey, the look of it was as sweet as the sound; Your head tilt back, your funny mouth to the clouds”

This reminds me of the scene where she sings for him and he’s like WAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH im in love! I paraphrase, but you get the idea.

Golden Years - David Bowie

“Look at that sky, life's begun”

This is objectively the stupidest song on here. It’s here because I think it’s funny to imagine the iconic Natasha/Andrei dance just being the Golden Years dance from A Knight’s Tale, HOWEVER the quoted lyric is in fact Andreicore.

Stop The World I Wanna Get Off With You - The Arctic Monkeys

“And I know we got places to go, we got people to see/Think we both oughta put 'em on hold”

‘Wren there are several songs that are on this playlist AND your Andrei/Pierre playlist’ Thank you for noticing it’s because if Tolstoy can recycle the same lines of dialogue for these relationships I can recycle the same songs! This song is just. I Hate Everyone Except You :) which is deeply Andrei @ both of them. But also like wanting life to stop so you can just hang out with Your People.

Strawberry Blond - Mitski

“I love everybody because I love you”

I’m pretty sure someone once pointed out how this lyric fit Andrei/Natasha once in a post and I cannot for the life of me remember who but that made an impression on me. Mystery person, thanks <3 Also I forgot this was a Mitski song??

The Anchor - Bastille

“Bring me some hope by wandering into my mind”

One of Thee things about their relationship that sticks out to me is how Natasha is so lifelike and her very existence gives Andrei hope for the world. It’s so. It’s so much!

Something After All - Starry

“You’ve turned my world around”

Like I said above, falling in love with Natasha really changes Andrei’s entire worldview! I also think “I've spent years building up walls” is very Andrei, and Natasha kind of brought them down, like what happens in the song.

Cosmic Love - Florence + The Machine

“A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes”

IT’S ABOUT THE SPACE METAPHORS FOR LOVE. THIS IS NO ONE ELSE FROM GREAT COMET’S FAULT.

Cold Cold Man - Saint Motel

“I know I am a cold cold man: quite slow to pay you compliments or public displayed affections”

It’s about being generally not very emotional or expressive but being devoted to the person anyway...very Andrei-ish.

Ophelia - The Lumineers

“I don't feel nothing at all and you can't feel nothing small”

The quoted lyric just seems like a really good summary of their dynamic, but I also think “Heaven help a fool who falls in love” works well for bitter post-elopement vibes, so this song was difficult to place.

Part 2: Andrei Leaving For Abroad

Misbehavin’ - Pentatonix

For some reason this is on both the Nat/Andrei and Natasha playlists and I’m too lazy to change it. Just go look at those annotations.

No One Else - Great Comet

Duh

To a Poet - First Aid Kit

“I got on a plane and flew far away from you, though unwillingly I left”

This song makes me think of Andrei abroad missing Natasha :( Honey you’ve got a big storm coming

Part 3: Post-Elopement Breakup Songs

I Hope Your Husband Dies - Amigo The Devil

“All the distance that we've spent apart will never have to mean a thing”

This song is VERY much Andrei about Anatole. “Now you're with this asshole, you expect me to believe it's going to last” really works because her relationship with Anatole was never going to last, whether or not she knew that. And “I'm not so much afraid of being alone, just kind of feel I've had enough/And time and time again, time reminds me you'll never be my own/We'll never have a house to decorate, a place that we can call our home” as an Andrei thing makes me very sad!!!

Ruins - First Aid Kit

“Ruins, all the things we built assured that they would last”

I think you can safely say their relationship was in ruins after the elopement attempt. I also think “I lost you, didn't I? First I think I lost myself” is something Natasha would think about the whole scenario

Half of My Heart - John Mayer

“Half of my heart's got the right mind to tell you that I can't keep loving you with half of my heart”

I think this is supposed to be more of an “I don’t love you anymore and that’s on me” song, but I like to mentally frame it in the context of Andrei after the elopement refusing to take back Natasha. I also think all the bits about the singer’s love interest changing the singer’s outlook on life before really fits, like “Lonely was the song I sang 'til the day you came, showing me another way”

Love Like Ghosts - Lord Huron

“You don't want me baby please don't lie/Oh but if you're leaving, I gotta know why”

It’s all about the singer being haunted by a love that doesn’t necessarily reciprocate on the same level, and I think that really fits Andrei’s mindset. It breaks my heart to think about him trying to figure out what he did wrong, why he wasn’t enough for Natasha, and so that quoted lyric really makes me just. :(

Cold Day In Heaven - Delta Rae

“Keep thinking bout when we started, so innocent/Your heart was a mess and I was lost in it”

This whole song is so good for them, it’s essentially just a couple being disappointed that their relationship didn’t work out well. The quoted lyric is so. AAAAHHH. because both of their hearts were messes but for different reasons, Andrei was so hopeless and bleak but Natasha was so naive and not ready for it and it’s so. It’s so Much. Also “We watched, the stars fell, and oh you know we let them/We said it’ll never happen, we said it’ll never happen to us/But it’s a cold day in heaven my love” gets me because 1) star/sky references :( and 2) Natasha especially did say it’d never happen to them, she was adamant that she’d love Andrei forever and that uh. I think we all know how well that worked out!

2 Months. - Zach Adkins

Someone You Loved - Lewis Capaldi

“I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug”

This is kind of a generic betrayal/breakup/I-miss-you song, but I think it works. Especially with “I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain” and the focus on the singer’s lover getting them through difficult times and then abandoning them.

The Night We Met - Lord Huron

“Take me back to the night we met”

I think people are legally obligated to have this song on any playlist for a couple that doesn’t end well. It’s generic but it’s good! The entire Strange Trails album my BELOVED!

Careless Whisper - George Michael

“I should have known better than to cheat a friend and waste a chance that I'd been given, so I'm never gonna dance again the way I danced with you”

UNIRONICALLY THIS SONG. I think it’s the focus on dancing as like a significant marker of the relationship for me, especially given how heavily adaptations focus on their dance at that ball. The quoted lyric reminds me of Natasha’s mindset after all of this. Also “We could have been so good together, we could have lived this dance forever, but now, who's gonna dance with me? Please stay” reminds me of Natasha asking him to forgive her. Not to actually get sad over Careless Whisper but. :,(

With Or Without You - U2

“And you give yourself away”

The quoted lyric is in reference to the elopement in my head, and “I can’t live with or without you” is like. Andrei can’t continue on and let her back into his life, he admits that he can’t forgive her, but he also has no real will to live after she betrays him and goes off to die in war.

Atlantis - Seafret

“We've built this town on shaky ground”

“This town” is in reference to their relationship, and I like the acknowledgment that there was never a great foundation to begin with. And “maybe I’m not built for love” as an Andrei lyric is a little heartbreaking! Other than that it’s just a Breakup Song.

I Don’t Wanna See You Cryin’ Anymore - Adam Melchor

“I don't wanna be the reason you can't trust me like before/My head's in my hands as I'm shaking on the bathroom floor”

This reminds me of Natasha’s deep guilt over her betrayal of Andrei. The implication that Andrei would ever let anyone see him cry is a bit much for me, just ignore that HFJAHDHSH

Part 4: Reconciling While Andrei ✨Dies✨

Fake It - Bastille

“We can never go back, we can only do our best to recreate”

This whole is song is about trying to move forward from bad things in the past with your lover which is the whole vibe! But I also think it shows some reluctance on the part of the singer to forget, and a bit of a desperation to be able to leave the mistakes in the past. “Help me turn a blind eye” really captures that. I like this as the early stages of them reconnecting, because I think it’s realistic to have Andrei especially be wary but wanting it to get better.

Bad Blood - Bastille

“All this bad blood here, won’t you let it dry?”

Letting go of a grudge and trying to move on vibes!

Let It All Go - Birdy, Alvaro Soler

“We’re strong enough to let it go”

All their hurt surrounding the elopement is the Thing they’re letting go of in this case.

Flaws - Bastille

“You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve and I have always buried them deep beneath the ground”

The quoted lyric just feels like their general dynamic to me. Natasha is so open about everything and does indeed wear her heart on her sleeve whereas Andrei represses every emotion he’s ever felt. I think this is a post-elopement song because of “Dig them up; let’s finish what we started”. That feels like them reexamining their relationship and what went wrong and trying again.

Moscow - Autoheart

“All I need’s a fraction of your happy heart”

This song is so 🥺. “We both know what we’ve got to do: head back to where the magic grew” reminds me of them accepting their reconnection and moving on and trying to rekindle whatever was between them. And “Let’s get a dog, an Irish red setter, it’s all we need to get better” feels emblematic of them looking forward to domestic happiness as the solution. And the quoted lyric screams Andrei about Natasha.

The Heart Is A Muscle - Gang of Youths

“I will look at love as more than just an instrument of pain”

Not to be off topic but this whole album is so good every single song makes me feel SHRIMP EMOTIONS god. Also the whole thing is very Andreicore and I had to stop myself from adding every song to his playlist. But I digress. This song is all about having been hurt by love in the past (“I let bad love betray me once”) but deciding to open your heart again which is very them! “I haven't had enough and I wanna love someone” AAAAHHHH. “I am human now and terrified, but want it all the same” Mr. GangOfYouths im going INSANE! “I just ask you to be patient if you’ll have me still” HELLO? Not to quote the whole song but “I wanna be loved, I wanna be whole again, so tuck my hair behind my ears and touch my soul again” as an Andrei/Natasha lyric...I need to sit down. Can you all tell this song makes me go all kinds of crazy. And this isn’t even my favorite song off the album!

Shrike - Hozier

“I couldn’t utter my love when it counted, ah but I’m flying like a bird to you now”

This song feels very “we tried to have a relationship a while ago and it didn’t work out that well but I still love you we could try again” to me which fits this time very well!

Part 5: Andrei Goes Splat :( [And The Aftermath]

Work Song - Hozier

“No grave can hold my body down, I’ll crawl home to her”

I can’t say what it is exactly, but something about persistent love framed around the death motif works for me here.

Dancing After Death - Matt Maeson

“As the sun waits to eclipse and the taste teases my lips, I'm too tired to wrestle with it”

The quoted lyric reminds me of Andrei giving up and shutting down when he realizes he’s gonna die :( oh ALSO my brain always mentally fills in “and no one else” after the “you and I” that ends the chorus which does NOT help with my depression!

One Last Time - Jaymes Young

“Could I feel your skin on mine before I have to say goodbye?”

SCREAMS SO LOUDLY. The whole song is like. Someone dying and wanting to see their person one last time and AAAAAAAAAAA. I am a little incoherent maybe. “I'm leavin' this cold world of mine, no pleadin' is gonna turn back time” really Gets Me in the context of Andrei accepting his own death and withdrawing and it’s so. Anyway.

Oblivion - Bastille

“When oblivion is calling out your name, you always take it further than I ever can”

I don’t think this is exactly what the song is talking about, but the quoted lyric in the context of Andrei dying and Natasha watching him fade and withdraw...good Lord. I need emotional support.

Haunt - Bastille

“I’ll come back to haunt you/Memories will taunt you”

Natasha being haunted by the memory of Andrei!!! Help me!!!! Also “I will try to love you/It’s not like I’m above you” as a callback to Andrei’s feelings for Natasha when they start to reconnect is so mental illness inducing. OOOH and “Questioning why as you look to the sky that is cloudless up above our heads and thoughts come to mind that our short little lives haven't left the path that they will tread” any lyric ever about looking at the sky is Andrei’s now.

Without You - for KING & COUNTRY

“What do you do when you don't get better/Strong arms get too, get too weak to hold her”

:( :( :( :( :( Also “I’m not ready to live without you” I am so sad.

Good Grief - Bastille

“Every minute and every hour I miss you, I miss you, I miss you more”

Pain! Agony, even!

I made myself SO sad writing the entire last half of these annotations geez

[lothirielswan]

“His Grandpa Guru” (Ben Solo X Reader)

Author’s Note: Hi Awesome Adventurers! I was going through my Docs and I found some Star Wars Imagines. If you’d like to look at more, I stuck them on Archive Of Our Own. I’m afraid they’re in first person, and I know that this blog’s focus isn’t Star Wars, but I wanted to share them with you guys c: I hope you enjoy! Love, fortune and glory to you!!

A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away...Reader takes on the most dangerous mission in the galaxy: meeting Ben Solo's parents! (Takes place before Kylo Ren transformation)

"You look beautiful."

"Thank you," I replied, "I wanted to look nice–you know, in case I die tonight."

Ben Solo paused at the entrance to the Millenium Falcon. "Don't worry about it–if they're killing anyone tonight, it's probably me. Han's enthusiastic about the topic."

I frowned at how cold his tone was at the mention of his parents. The first time I got to meet his family, formally introduced as Ben's girlfriend. A heavy weight sagged my shoulders, and Ben's current 'rebellion' against his family didn't make it any easier.

"I want you to know that no matter what happens tonight, they won't change my mind about you." Ben pulled me close against the night like I was his personal lantern. Up close, I could see the lively flecks of green in his brown eyes. They were a forest I could always get lost in–and something flickered in those two orbs tonight.

"What do you mean, change your mind about me?" I said.

"You will always be there. Permanently. This," Ben held our entwined hands against his chest, "is you. It always will be."

My entire world popped and buzzed with fireworks. I couldn't find any words at all–sentences and planets ceased to exist. There was only him.

I blinked away embarrassing tears and said, "Yeah...you're pretty great too."

Ben grinned like I had just said the most wittiest response in history. "After you."

Ben's hand clung to mine as we ascended the steps to the Falcon. I knew the faces I would see tonight would shock me–but the first one made my jaw drop.

"Look who it is. My Naughty Nephew and the poor girl he dragged to dinner," Master Luke Skywalker was drawn to my side like a magnet. "If you run, I'll cover you."

"Luke," Ben's voice was surprisingly dark for addressing his uncle.

"I'm here of my own free will." I offered Master Skywalker a hand (the other was currently crushed in Ben's grip), "I'm Y/N. It's nice to meet you, Master Skywalker."

Luke stared at my outstretched hand for a minute, his blue eyes studying it like a rare anomaly of space. His gaze turned to his nephew, "You mind-controlled another one? Leia's gonna kick your a*s, boy!"

"Another one?" I hissed at him.

"They said Darth Vader sucked. It was worth it–and not the point." Ben replied, his cloaked shoulders straightening at the name of his beloved, destructive role model.

I knew this conversation would continue later, and ignored it for the time being. "I'm not mind-controlled, sir, I promise."

Master Skywalker poked my hand with a metal index finger. "Not a hologram, either...you're actually real?"

"It's not that hard to believe." Ben remarked.

"Oh, it is." Master Skywalker said. He looked back down one of the curved hallways of the ship and shouted, "It's not a trick! She's real!"

I froze as the legendary Jedi trudged down the metal haul of the ship. Ben's grip tightened on my fingers. "They'll love you, I promise–he didn't cut off your arm, that's always a good sign."

As Ben escorted me down the corridor, I shot him a concerned look, "I'm starting to wish I was a hologram."

The Falcon was colder than I expected, and the floor covered in what I inferred was Chewbacca's winter coat explained why. I pressed close to Ben as we approached silence and death.

We met up with Master Skywalker and two other iconic figures that took my breath away. Han Solo leaned on the side of his ship, hair slightly grayed, standing next to Master Skywalker.

"She's real and pretty," Solo replied, "maybe you are my son."

"I am not your son!"

"Twenty years of your mother yelling at both of us says otherwise."

Solo grunted as he picked himself off the wall and stood before me. "You gotta name, kid?" He said, his leather jacket reflecting the dim lights of the ship around us.

"I'm Y/N, it's so nice to finally meet you, Mr. Solo." I dared to reach out my hand again. Solo took it and squeezed hard.

"Call me Han–no, you know what? Call me dad," Han smirked and raised his eyebrows at his son. "No one else is, so it's an open title."

Ben muttered some unflattering things under his breath, refusing to meet his father's eyes.

"Everything is ready," Her voice was even stronger than I imagined; there was a confidence to it. Not arrogant like Han's, but dutiful. Diplomatic. A voice that commanded you to listen.

Princess Leia appeared at her husband's side, her chocolate hair woven into a long braid. Like her son, she had dark brown eyes that weren't confused with weakness. They were warm, yet feisty at the same time. I didn't know if I felt admiration or intimidation–probably both.

"Welcome, you must be Y/N," Leia's eyes studied me, "Ben's right. You do have beautiful hair."

"Mother!"

She smiled, and leaned in to hug me. I knew she could feel the stiffness in my bones–my face flushed as all eyes lingered on me.

"I don't mean to rush everyone, but if we leave Chewie alone in the room, all the food will be gone." Leia replied.

"Last time he said Ewoks broke in and stole all the food. I have to hide the chips in the cockpit..." Han mumbled as everyone shuffled into another part of the ship.

Three more heart attacks shook me as I saw R2D2, C3PO, and Chewbacca at the dining room table. I was vastly outnumbered. It was my turn to squeeze the life out of Ben's hand underneath the table as Chewbacca set out the cutlery. I was excited–but my eagerness was ripped to bits by panic.

Ben sensed my distress, and his eyes met mine. He covered both of my numb hands with his, holding them gently like my fingers were feathers. His brown-green eyes worked their magic, and the longer I stared, the more I pieced myself back together. I could see the room again, and a delicious dish that smelled like cinnamon was set before me. My attention returned to the table, but Ben was still there. His presence still etched into my side.

"It's nice to see Ben obsessing over somebody else," Master Luke said as his eyes flickered between us. He stirred a bowl of soup with his spoon, "He's always looked up to his Grandpa Guru."

"Grandpa Guru...?" I asked as Ben sent vicious death glares across the table.

"Benny's role model, the Terror of the Galaxy," Han mused as he sipped some alcoholic drink I didn't know the name of, "When he was five, he would dress up like him. Still does–look at him."

"Ben, we've been over this. No capes in the house," Leia's stare hardened.

"It's freezing in here, I have every right–can't we discuss something more interesting?" Ben replied, giving his family dark stares.

Chewie roared in agreement. Han nodded, "Alright kid, how'd you two meet?"

We remained silent.

"Oh good, there's a story." Luke rubbed his hands together. "What did my Naughty Nephew do?"

"Luke, please stop calling my son something so...true."

Ben and I exchanged looks. I nodded, "I ran into him one day. He scared me...and I punched him in the face."

The table was quiet. When I looked up, all I saw were expressions of awe.

"We like you."

All of the tension warred away at that point. I found myself laughing at Han's jokes and exchanging quirky tidbits with Master Luke. Leia chased off Ben as she pulled out a family album full of baby pictures, and it was just me and the Skywalker family.

"While we have a minute alone with you," The three leaned close and knit their fingers together on the counter, "we have some questions."

"Of course," I said, sitting upright in my chair. "What would you like to know?"

"You know of Ben's...rebellion against the family?" Leia rolled her eyes at the mention. "We're glad it's not because of you. But that also makes us more concerned."

"In other words; it was Benny's decision to go to the deep end." Master Luke said, his thick eyebrows raised.

I nodded. Leia took a deep breath and continued, "It's a relief to know you're a wonderful person with true intentions. And as a family, we want to ask something of you."

"Sure," I said. "Anything."

Mutual nods were shared across the room. All turned to me with their request.

"Never break up with him. Ever."

I blinked twice. "Oh, okay."

"And if you do break up with my son, we're gonna have to kill you." Leia said casually.

I mulled the untimely demise over in my head. I shrugged not too long afterwards, "Cool. It's a deal."

Han stood with his arms outstretched. "Welcome to the family, sweetheart."

Luke and Han joined Ben in the other room to team up against C3PO while I lingered in the other room with Leia and Chewie. I stacked the remaining plates as Chewbacca hovered over the sink, scrubbing every surface.

"You should come over again sometime, I love having you," Leia chimed from the other side of the table.

"Thank you, I had a wonderful time," I smiled as I delivered another round of dirty dishes to Chewie. "You and Chewie keep this place spotless."

"Oh, you're too kind."

I skirted the table one more time and Leia caught my arm in the process. I opened my mouth to ask her what was wrong when she held up a finger to her lips.

"I know that the cause of my son's...behavior, is not you. You are not the source. It's all him," Leia whispered.

We glanced down the corridor at the sitting area, where Ben's back was to us. His black locks were puffy clouds like his father's.

"I've seen you two, you move like magnets." Leia murmured. "You keep a part of my son present...Please, no matter what path he chooses, don't give up on him."

I swallowed hard. The confidence that Leia had carried in the short time I knew had vanished, leaving a terrified mother. She was worried about her son, and she trusted me to hold him together like gravity.

I nodded. "Never, Leia."

Leia bowed her head, satisfied. We joined the others and chatted the next hour away until Ben whisked me out the door.

"They adore you, not that I'm surprised." Ben replied as we descended the dark steps into the night. The wind had picked up, tossing sand and the fabric of our clothes at whim. The only thing the breeze couldn't move was Ben's hand locked around mine.

"And I didn't think I would last the night," I smiled up at him as a blast of air pulled my hair to the side.

Ben stopped in his tracks. He said, "They didn't change my mind about you. They couldn't."

His eyes met mine, and his fingers tightened around mine. "But did they change your mind about me?"

"I don't understand." I admitted as my eyebrows furrowed. I squinted in the dark to find the answer written on his face.

"I haven't spoken to my family that much in months, much less be in the same room with them–" Ben's voice faltered.

I licked my lips before I spoke. "Yes. Yes, they did change my mind."

Fear glazed over in Ben's eyes like a crippling layer of frost.

"They convinced me that you are as permanent to me as I am to you." I said shyly. "Like magnets."

I thought about my sappy words and cringed. "Okay, magnets aren't permanent, but you get my point–mmph!"

Ben's lips crashed against mine before I could finish. The kisses burned like fiery magma, every movement quicker than lightspeed as he marked my skin red–

Then time started to slow. Ben's touch turned soft and savory. His lips were tender against mine as vibrant flames of passion turned to warm embers. When Ben pulled back, my toes wiggled in my shoes as I adjusted to the planet's gravity.

"I'll take you home." He said breathlessly.

I smiled sweetly, "I already am."

[maxbronte]

i think i accidentally deleted the super exciting message i got about this two weeks ago but here’s an explanatory guide to my tags + the source creds in case that person is still wondering!!

stuff i came up with because i couldn’t find an appropriate enough quote

╳ 𝙞'𝙡𝙡 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪 — 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙜 𝙩𝙤𝙤.┊re: CHARLIE KING. ▒ a play on the scooby doo villain mantra, except more wholesome.

╳ 𝙞'𝙢 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙝𝙖����.┊re: BOOKER CORMAC. ▒   technically a reference to sage’s characterization of booker as “the ahab” horror trope.

╳ 𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙜𝙖𝙨𝙡𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙨. 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙪𝙣𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙚.┊re: THE BABES VS. BULLSHIT BRIGADE. ▒    cheesy first bit written by me and second bit is a reference to this corny pinterest pin.

╳ 𝙝𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢 𝙦𝙪𝙚𝙚𝙣.┊ANATOMY. ▒ my tagline for this character which is now canonically a reference to the headline from a news report on the “Hooper Port Horror”

╳ 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙙𝙞𝙧𝙜𝙚.┊PLAYLIST. ▒ b/c my max playlist is mostly grotesque creepy love songs that can be interpreted as both murder fantasies and sex fantasies all at once

╳ 𝙖 𝙨𝙪𝙥𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙙𝙡𝙮 𝙛𝙪𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞'𝙡𝙡 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙙𝙤 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣.┊m: FORMER POTENTIAL VALEDICTORIAN. ▒ reference to a David Foster Wallace book + my attempt to condense her former identity into 2 words. for musings on the person she used to be, who she never can be and never wants to be again: the smart cheerleader in a mean clique. her capacity for academics has dropped severely since developing ptsd

╳ 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙤𝙛 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙝.┊m: WHEN AMITY IS THE KISS OF DEATH. ▒ first half is actually from silent hill 3 but the second half is mine, from a paragraph that got cropped out of one of my threads. the tag is for musings about max being terrified of getting close to people b/c 1) anybody could be a killer and 2) she thinks she’s an inherently toxic person who will poison anyone she touches and 3) she’s pretty sure everyone who comes near her becomes slasher fodder

stuff other people came up with:

╳  𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙛𝙖𝙨𝙩 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙪𝙥 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛.┊m: MAX BRONTE SHE’S A HUMMINGBIRD. ▒  both of these are reference to a really horrific passage in this para with @saintjimmys and it’s for musings about how max is this ‘pretty dainty bird’ with a rapid heartbeat because she’s always in a state of extreme stress, & how she used to be this pretty bird who was too fast for him to catch but now she’s all crippled and vulnerable in the palm of his hands (it’s a very creepy passage i hate it i love it)

References to outside material

╳ 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙖𝙞𝙙 𝙞 𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 — 𝙝𝙖𝙪𝙣𝙩 𝙢𝙚, 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣.┊re: JIMMY ST. CLAIR. ▒ from wuthering heights and i just want to say that the parallels between catherine/heathcliff and jimmy/max were actually 100% accidental. sage hasn’t even read any bronte and i didn’t realize when i was naming her that gothic romance would become such a huge part of her character. the quote is extra appropriate b/c jimmy accused max of “killing” the innocent boy he used to be, and max agrees and wants him around to make her confront her guilt.

╳ 𝙖𝙨 𝙖 𝙢𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙤𝙛 𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙩 — 𝙞𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙜𝙚𝙮𝙢𝙖𝙣.┊re: THE CREEPER. ▒ reference to that iconic Halloween exchange. Laurie: “It was the boogeyman...” Dr. Sam Loomis: “As a matter of fact, it was.” im not that proud of this one im probably gonna change it  to some kind of reference to THIS

╳ 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙣𝙚𝙬𝙨 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙗𝙖𝙙 𝙣𝙚𝙬𝙨.┊re: SYDNEY WURM. ▒ from the modest mouse album title because nina is modest mouse trash and also because max and sid’s co-masochistic relationship is based on a mutual desire for punishment for their sins.

╳ 𝙚𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙥𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙖 𝙣𝙤𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙖 𝙘𝙖𝙨𝙪𝙖𝙡 𝙬𝙖𝙫𝙚.┊re: MITCHELL SARKOZY. ▒ from that She Wants Revenge song everybody knows. their relationship isnt that similar to the song but the line is just to demonstrate that they just have each other as fucktoys and there’s no emotional investment whatsoever. they finish up and she’s all torn up and feeling guilty about using him as a coping mechanism for tyler’s death he’s like okay bye see you next week

╳ 𝙬𝙚'𝙧𝙚 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙣𝙨 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙫𝙚𝙨.┊re: GREY CAVERLY. ▒ reference to an emily dickinson line “i’m out with lanterns-- looking for myself.” because max and grey first met wandering through the woos while max was looking for her phone and said a line about “my whole life is on that thing can you imagine losing your whole life” but also more deeply a reference to them as co-explorers trying to find their old identities and maybe wrap their heads around their new one and their whole relationship is about adventure discovery and this was the first ever tag i was really proud of ok i know where i was going with it i just can’t explain it

╳ 𝙞 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙙 𝙖 𝙛𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙪𝙯𝙯 – 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙙𝙞𝙚𝙙.┊m: IDENTITY MORATORIUM. ▒ from an emily dickinson poem + psychological term for a state of suspended identity. this is kind of a coupled tag with FORMER POTENTIAL VALEDICTORIAN but with more emphasis on the aspect of the person max used to be dying alongside tyler’s corpse in the church fire.

╳ 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙚 - 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙣 𝙤𝙡𝙙 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧.┊re: CYPRESS BRONTE. ▒  reference to another Modest Mouse song. reference to cy wanting max to chill and her wanting him to leave her alone. second bit is a double entente: they see each other as an old friend turned weirder but they’re also both both see each other as so different from the person they grew up with that they’re basically strangers to each other

╳ 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙡 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙚𝙚 .┊BRONTE vs. WURM vs. ST. CLAIR. ▒ reference to that old idiom and plans for a future plot where sid and jimmy wind up getting along and jimmy starts kicking it with them real casually and max looks into the camera very frightened like what the fuck is happening how did i get here

╳ 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮. 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚'𝙨 𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙫𝙞𝙫𝙖𝙡 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙨.┊re: RUBY KANE. ▒ from angels of the get through by andrea gibson. because max and ruby are HOT MESSES but at least theyre surviving and max just wants ruby to celebrate every tiny victory she’s proud of her

╳ 𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙣𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡.┊FLASHBACK. ▒ quote from Fright Night. because after max & co made Jimmy watch a horror movie and pranked him, he made them LIVE one, for real.

╳ 𝙤𝙝 𝙦𝙪𝙞𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩. 𝙗𝙡𝙪𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙨 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙫𝙞𝙧𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙘𝙝𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙖𝙣𝙨.┊re: JONAH B. JAMES. ▒ From a fave book Deathless. because they’re both slutty heretics in their own narratives. it actually doesn’t fit their relationship yet because they still think of each other as pure but once she finds out how filthy hi soul is it’ll be easier for her to interact with him i think. 

╳ 𝙞 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙝𝙚𝙙. 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙝𝙚𝙙. 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙’𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙣𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙝𝙚𝙙.┊re: TYLER ROMERO. ▒  from a series of unfortunate events. self explanatory. everything turned to shit when her beloved douchey boyfriend died

&. i definitely still need tags for: -eve -terence -darby -sheila -axel -dahlia -jupiter -max's super cute parents + cat -dakota