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3:08 am pdt 17 April 2023 Monday

Incubus has the body language of a thug/killer. He wouldn’t die for anyone. He only would set himself up to get hit with powdered sugar. And know that it was coming and act like he didn’t know. He saved his own *ss. If Q is really his wife then he probably wants no one to believe me and murders me so she and no one has the chance to know that he said he wanted to buy me plane ✈️ tickets 🎫 to see him to have s*x. And if he was really testing me to see if I really wanted him from only his voice and speech 🎤. And if I would say yea. 3:14 am pdt seems smart to set us up 🆙 to be friends but with no true closeness so she would never learn from me what he doesn’t want her to know. A lot of psychological scams. Bcz if the timing ⏱ she would have to question 🙋🏻‍♀️ it. Or maybe 🤔 he did tell her, but only the parts that would make him look 👀 less guilty? Like not tell her that I could do the butterfly 🦋 in bed 🛌 laying down and that I was a long distance runner 🏃🏻‍♀️ for 3 seasons or that I was 1000% into my p.e. Classes for almost all my life. He wouldn’t tell her the stuff that would make her possibly feel insecure. 3:19 am pdt he told her “it wasn’t in my cards” - that he was going to kill me basically. So why would she feel insecure? Then? Incubus probably tells all his kings that same thing. Ra. Rawr. 3:20 am pdt I will be dead ☠️ soon. I wish someone could stop 🛑 this acid brain 🧠 pain! 3:21 am pdt I wish they would stop 🛑 and let me breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ and eat and feel better and then kill me decapitate my head b4 they leave earth 🌍 if they really do have a new earth 🌍. I imagine solar panels in the windows 🪟 inside of the airplanes ✈️ would help. 3:24 am pdt

3:31 am pdt acid brain 🧠 pain 😞😖😭 Brendan Lean was a pimp accord Ming to his friend Carly on Friendster. She spelled it out like this: never mind. It’s hard to do here. She used square brackets? 3:33 am pdt he was soooo s*xy. Hard to imagine that he would spend his time online to flirt with girls. .... so was it really a friend of his using his account? Also I forgot what year, I tried aol instant messenger years? Later and it had a reverse ? Email 📧 lookup directory. Diarrhea. Showed (cramps 😖😭3:37 am pdt) he made addictional screen names. I only remember one: sieclone (autocorrect: die clone sue clone 3:38 am pdt) probably a Coney Island 🏝 inspired. In Scott’s slice of New York mural he spray painted cyclone in sloppy obvious spray painted lettering under a red apple 🍎 with a mischievous grin. I think 💭 it’s a clue he met Brendan Lean and he wants me to know without him admitting it to me my face. 3:41 am pdt you can see it on Yelp. But I guess it doesn’t matter. Bcz I cannot prove it. And even if I could who cares? 3:42 am pdt

3:57 am pdt I found the picture I uploaded it 14 February 2023. The lettering is neater than I remembered (acid brain 🧠 pain 3:58 am pdt) I think 💭 they edited/photoshopped it. Q could have done ✅ it or someone else. 3:59 am pdt they really don’t want me to live. 4 am pdt

Scott’s first name is David. 👑 king 🤴 David . He’s friends with at least one cop 👮‍♂️. Brendan Lean is probably under witness protection program and he probably lied 🤥 to get into it. Probably pretending to be a witness to a fake crime. 4:03 am pdt so he probably has cop 👮‍♂️ friends. And they’re both bros 😎 to incubus. 4:04 am pdt

4:11 am pdt maybe every other window 🪟 so people can still see out side? 4:12 am pdt

4:15 am pdt I guess when they burned me extra extra since 2016/2017 and last year, it was Bcz incubus was proving his love 💗 for Q. Bcz that’s what Q wanted. For me to burn 🔥 in hell. So maybe 🤔 it was jealousy???? And she KNOWS he was flirting with me online!!!!!?????? But I didn’t know incubus was pretending to be Brendan and also I didn’t know Q and incubus are a couple!!!!!! How could she be so CRUEL??????!!!!!! 4:19 am pdt

4:27 am pdt that sweetness looks more and more like a n act. 😖😭😤🥵😤🥵 I wonder 💭 if she would (acid brain 🧠 pain 4:28 am pdt) actually try something (😖😭 brain 🧠 rough4:29 am pdt) on someone if no one was around to see. I bet she would if she didn’t have incubus. 4:30 🕟 am pdt that “not in your cards” sounds more and more like a (😖😭 brain 🧠 rough 4:31 am pdt) threat now. (Brain acid pain 4:32 am pdt) my mom felt it too 😞😖😭. 4:32 am pdt

4:35 am pdt god has inflicted so much pain in me my whole life. ABC, just air the Backstreet Boys holiday special! Innocent until proven guilty! Just do it. We can’t win 😞incubus won’t let us win. He is killing my brain 🧠 I think I felt needles of acid stab my brain 🧠. I probably lost an inch of my brain 🧠 or more. I’m going right hip pain 4:39 am pdt make Nick drop the suing. Give him his money 💰. 4:40 am pdt

7 am pdt I thought 💭 about solar panels last year on planes ✈️ but only thought 💭 of the windows 🪟 this year. 7:01 am pdt incubus is scaring me with the acid in my brain 🧠 last 5 minutes they attacked me more and is still. Making it harder to breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️. Still heating up 🆙 rib cage area and made it smaller. I think 💭 it’s too small now and so is my brain 🧠 feels rough. They tortured me for many years. He made me think 💭 that he was a bad guy, him and his friends stealing ideas 💡 from me. For many years. B4 2016. 😤🥵😤🥵😤🥵 he’s been toying 🧸 with me a lot. And now he’s doing this to me. He’s officially killing me by eating 🍽 my brain 🧠. He used me. I don’t appreciate being made to feel like this. 7:08 am pdt putting me through this. Bcz he’s an animal 🦔. 7:09 am pdt they all are animals.

7:12 am pdt I regret “Brendan” now, too. B4 I thought 💭 that he and Derek were the best parts of my life Bcz they treated me better than Nick. In retrospect. But now I don’t think 💭 so! Bcz of this! I never would have predicted that this would happen today when I was 16 years old. Now I think 💭 my life probably would have (pain right foot 🦶 top stabbed bones 🦴 7:15 am pdt 😖😭😤🥵😤🥵) great 👍 with out them! 7:16 am pdt

7:24 am pdt a”regrettable” time in my life. That’s how he really feels and thinks. He has no intention to stop 🛑 killing me. Left shin bone 🦴 pain. He mislead me with songs on the radio 📻 as if to promise I will get married and have babies 👶 like Sarai/Sarah and Abraham. But it’s a lie. I see it now. They did not say it with their voices. Chest bones 🦴 pain 7:27 am pdt only with signs 🪧 showing me things. But I guess they meant Q. Not me. 7:28 am pdt I thought 💭 I was going to get some kind of magical 🧙‍♀️ happy life after a really hard part. Like a cartoon I saw 👀 when I was addicted to tv 📺 again in 2015. Anime stuff. I thought 💭 I was fighting evil 🦹‍♀️ last year even though he did horrible things to me. It was all a con to make himself look 👀 nice 👍 even though he is not. He really likes/loves treating people like 🗑 trash 🗑 and dirt. That is his real feelings. He uses triangulation to trick people. He likes hugs 🫂 Bcz he likes to grope women. 7:33 am pdt he’s not a nice person. 7:34 am pdt. He plans to kill me. He is killing my brain 🧠 now after (acid brain 🧠 pain 7:35 am pdt) every time I cannot breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ he applied acid to it the last half hour or more. 7:35 am pdt I can’t stand this. 7:36 am pdt if you want my bones 🦴 kill me by decapitation. Stop 🛑 this madness. 7:37 am pdt

7:38 am pdt Bcz he regrets the phone ☎️ s*x w/me he wants to kill me! 7:39 am pdt

7:40 am pdt you used me to make yourself look nice! I guess Q really isn’t nice so you can’t use her! 7:41 am pdt *sshole

7:42 am pdt I bet you will never touch another woman 👩🏼 again once she’s by your side! 7:43 am pdt she will probably make you a prisoner! Won’t that be lovely! 7:44 am pdt

7:44 am pdt I bet she’ll poison ☠️ you! She’s probably like if I cannot have you no one can. Like in all the tv 📺 shows! 7:46 am pdt

7:47 am pdt pain 😖😭😖😭😖😭😖😭😖😭😰 left hip bone 🦴 acid 2 minutes ago.

7:48 am pdt I wish I was never born. They made me feel abnormal and sick 🤕 a lot. They poisoned my brain 🧠 all my life. They did stuff to it like to a gay man 👨 probably. A lot of stuff felt too natural/real? That shouldn’t for a woman 👩🏼. 😞somehow I was very turned on by man 👨 but he also made me attracted to fully grown women too once in a while I would feel nervous looking at a woman 👩🏼 who is fully grown. It would be difficult to breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ lookg at them. But it was once in a while I felt that way. One time in 2018? They made me feel like a man 👨! It was very animalistic! Shocking! A psychological scam. To make me think 💭 I had something to fight for. But I should have realized if all men feel that way then all men are dangerous. And women are doomed. So there’s nothing to fight for. 7:56 am pdt a lot of times it was difficult for me to feel like a woman 👩🏼. To be treasured. I felt so sick 🤕. Weird. I felt like no one will want me. 7:58 am pdt from head trauma. Staying up 🆙 to do homework 📚 or Bcz of my addictions to games and tv 📺. 8 am pdt no one cared about me in my family. They all turned a blind eye 👁 when I hit my head multiple times. 8:01 am pdt

I don’t like god. 8:04 am pdt he used me. To make other people happy. And to make him look 👀 better than he actually is. I rarely was happy. 8:05 am pdt I was only happy alone in 2016 I think 💭. Bcz I finally healed and felt healthy. Left hip bone 🦴 pain 😤🥵😤🥵😤🥵😖😭 usually I was alone but I don’t recall being happy. 8:07 am pdt

8:08 am pdt I guess I’m obligated to say it again. Bcz I lived in I guess peaceful? Cities and had modern conveniences I should have been happy and more appreciative. Health is wealth. Pursuit of happiness in school 🏫 house rock 🪨 is a man chasing a woman 👩🏼 to have s*x. 8:10 am pdt only org*smed 2 times with many years of celibacy. Sometimes I wonder 💭 if the worse people get to have fun and pleasure than I do. Even though I tried to be good. 8:12 am pdt

Right calf stabbing pain acid pain butt bones 🦴 8:13 am pdt 😖😭. I do the littlest things wrong 😑 and I get punished very r BIG. I did things in none lethal ways. But I get the nearly lethal punishments karma left hip bone 🦴 pain 8:16 am pdt karmically. (That’s omitting the car 🚗 stuff 8:17 am pdt) I don’t think 💭 I killed anyone. He rammed me head into thick hard steel and made people punch 🥊 me for very little things (autocorrect: girls crazy liars) 8:18 am pdt it was a very thin Barbie cardboard box 📦. It was a rubber ball. The baby 👶 was fine. No broken bones 🦴. No tears 😭. No crying 😭. It was a very slow tricycle ride. Why was he with out friends? No one liked him? I have to wonder 💭 why god made me feel like I wanted to, like he made men gay. 8:22 am pdt 8:23 am pdt always taking from me. Yes yakity yak. Left shoulder pain bones 🦴. Don’t come back. 8:24 autocorrect: don’t care. Good. Maybe 🤔 people will not like 👍 that you don’t care 🤷🏻‍♀️? Which is why you used me to make it look like you care. 8:25 am pdt

8:25 am pdt stop 🛑 using me. ✋ stop. I resent you for having me be born. To be tortured and stepped on by everybody. 8:27 am pdt

8:27 am pdt in 2017 & 2018 he intentionally turned me on over and over again to electrically shock me down there 👇 with barbed wire 8:29 am pdt.

8:30 🕣 am pdt what you did with me and those matching pictures with Q with yours wasn’t a real test. Bcz you toyed with me about the voice and stereo hearts 💕 and moves like jagger for years b4 that. That stuff with Q was twisted manipulation. 8:32 am pdt

8:33 am pdt to make me feel guilt for a false/phony unbelievable story about rich privileged people being in love and hostage, not being able to do what they really wanted. Which was to be together. And that behati was the villain 🦹‍♀️. He dated so many women for years?! Unbelievable! 8:36 am pdt I did feel guilty. Regretful. But I was overtaken by how I didn’t want to be a sacrifice and I thought 💭 it’s not cool 😎 to do that to me. 8:37 am pdt and when I remember Q saying it is not in my cards... she sounds like a wicked witch 🧙‍♀️ and so does incubus look the part. 8:37 am pdt stop 🛑 using me to make your phony *saws look good. 8:39 am pdt

incubus changed asses to *saws. 8:39 am pdt throat acid pain 8:40 am pdt

8:41 am pdt she said that in 2007.

8:45 am pdt they hurt my stomach again.

8:46. Am pdt if he’s yelling no in your head I think 💭 he’s toying with you. It’s basically a roulette game. He started yelling after he hurt my stomach. 8:46 am pdt 😑😖😭

F8:48 am pdt what’s the purpose of having us born to torture us!!!!??? 8:49 am pdt

they’re animals!!!!! I hate them!!!!!! 8:50 am pdt

9:04 am pdt they hurt my upper intestines I think 💭. Felt like they were stretching 🙆‍♀️ it. Not good. 9:05 am pdt I was home a lot most of my life. English teacher 👩‍🏫 yelled at me calling me stupid infront of the whole class Bcz I didn’t understand Elizabethan/ Romeo and Juliet. Freshman year. When I was at UCB on a small bus 🚌 shuttle for students I heard in my thoughts 💭 with a rough monsterous tone that I was taking up too much space even though I was petite and thin. I guess when I found the maroon 5 bus 🚌 2008-2009 year near the Greek (acid brain 🧠 pain 9:08 am pdt - probably Bcz he really doesn’t want people to think 💭 he raped me 9:09 am pdt) he wasn’t there to do husbandly things to me. Probably only to mislead me today and tortured me. Bcz I take up too much space being under 5’2” and about 110 pounds probably at that time. 9:11 am pdt left foot 🦶 pain right butt cheek acid throat acid. I was usually afraid to go out and when I finally do incubus is trying to scare me and I meet people who are very different than what I’m accostimed to. Who seem to also like to toy 🧸 with me. 9:13 am pdt all I meet are weird bullies: incubus. 9:14 am pdt the only purpose I serve? Probably to make incubus look good. When he’s not. He probably raped 11 year old girls everyday when everyone is asleep 😴 since he was 17 years old. 9:15 am pdt that’s what he looks like to me! He lied 🤥 to me. Why? I have no power no wealth no influence. And made me the center of attention. 9:16 am pdt Bcz he’s doing sh*t that no one would approve of. 9:17 am pdt

9:19 am pdt why have me stay home 🏠 most of my life? To be a decoy. He regrets me but he doesn’t regret Jon benet Ramsey probably. Or dugard. Or others. He only has girls with behati? Psychological scam. 9:21 am pdt decoys. Psychological decoys. He said to me in regards to dugard “it ain’t death” ☠️ no regret there it seems for incubus folks. 9:22 am pdt but I am a regrettable period in his life at 16 years old? But not dugard to garrido when she was 11 years old? Was it Bcz it was me? But he’s prefer an 11 year old dugard for himself, but not a 16 year old me? Interesting. He preferred 11 year old behati rather than 14 year old me. 9:24 am pdt he knows what he likes. Really? Sumner. Dugard. Mayb he is obsessed with 11 year old girls. Maybe younger. How do we know he wasn’t with Ramsey nights leading up to her murder and he tried to cover it up 🆙 with someone else? 9:26 am pdt

I never raped any kid. The smallest touch under his devil 👿 influence though and I’m made to be punished severely. 9:27 am pdt garrido is a repeat 🔁 offender (acid pain tongue 👅 9:28 am pdt) and he said he was ignored! I don’t believe I was a repeat 🔁 offender in anything. 9:29 am pdt tried not to do anything ever again but like a Hmong person cursed by incubus I get pulled in to trouble again. So have to stay home 🏠! Again! To stay out of trouble! But garrido kept going out! And he got help! Reinforcements! Incubus family, repeats again and again and they’re allowed to do it their whole lives. Serial killers, serial rapists. Serial rapist killers. 9:31 am pdt incubus understands them Bcz they are all alike. Forgiven! Not me! 9:32 am pdt make me unhappy make me stay home 🏠 all the time! 9:33 am pdt why? To use later to trick! A hair here and there with “bat”. Not real! Phony! He’s killing me!!!!! 9:34 am pdt

10:23 am pdt in previous post Q was changed to W. Accidentally by me or intentionally by the incubus. If he does that again I will probably add letters to Q. 10:24 am pdt if you ever read the giver in school 🏫 I guess it’s like that. When they give you feelings that you wouldn’t naturally have. Unfortunately That’s how I see the incubus now. As someone who had animalistic feelings towards women. They only have strong s*xual feelings that turns them into animals. It’s horrifying to know that’s how men feel. And incubus tried to trick us all that he’s not like that. But he is I’m afraid. It’s what he’s demonstrated recently by hurting/killing me and by hooking up 🆙 with Maryka and Stroh. 10:28 am pdt. And I wouldn’t have known otherwise how animal 🦔 human beings are... garrido tried an adult 👩🏼. Then he tried 14 year old. And for some reason god thought 💭 it would be good/okay to kidnap and rape an 11 year old girl 👧 over and over and over and over repeatedly even though it hurt her. This is god’s idea 💡 ok 👌 okay. We don’t know if incubus visited behati when she was 11 years old. With Superman powers or a very fast 💨 plane ✈️. 10:32 am pdt I hear 👂 bass thumping sound. Usually it scares me 😱. 10:33 am pdt

10:34 am pdt so that is probably why, I was born. And stayed home a lot. And found a ring 💍 in the girls bathroom 🚽 at school 🏫 my 8th grade year. Bcz he needed a decoy. His father anticipated it.Bcz it runs in the family. He regretted flirting with me online Bcz he was really into a younger girl 👧 who is now his wife. But now that she’s no longer in her 20s, he’s trying for something younger. How young? If the real owner of the ring 💍 is reading this you know that it’s true! They made me think that the ring 💍 was for me. I kept it in a jewelry box for years. Only wore it the year 2020 until 2022. Left hip pain 10:39 am pdt and the scam he pulled in 2022 confirms it. That it was premeditated probably b4 I was conceived by his father Bcz he knows they’re bad. 10:40 am pdt everything is planned/meant to be. They don’t love 💗 us. They use us. 10:41 am pdt men see females as playthings and baby makers. That’s how god wanted dugard to be treated. And that’s why incubus goes for younger women all the time. 10:43 am pdt they can manipulate men’s testicles to get whichever gender baby 👶 they want. 10:43 am pdt 10:44 am pdt that’s probably why there are 2 testicles. Autocorrect: bye stick. That’s them trying to be deceptive. Bcz faggot means a stick that’s burned. Black lung 🫁. Ash I lay. 10:46 am pdt wow at least I tried to like people. He sets people up to be used thrown away and replaced on a schedule to suit his p*nis. 10:46 am pdt

garrido did not seem to care dugard was under age and he was hurting her. Was this what he intended to do the whole time? Thinking 💭 about what incubus chose 😖😭 10:53 am pdt to do to me. Catfishing me? Pretending to be loving 🥰 and nice? Then using deception upon deception upon deception to (spine bone 🦴 pain 10:55 am pdt I guess he’s breaking my back now here’s the 11:11 movie 🎥 maluma 10:56 am pdt it’s happening now. So much for Bryant. I’ve met a bunch of them. I guess it’s Christine then. Not Daniel. Another fake out. Great 👍 10:57 am pdt) deceive me more. 10:58 am pdt I guess it is really time to die. 10:59 am pdt he was pulling on my spine. He’s burning 🔥 the ribs under breasts. The only truth was the Saint Lucy/Lucia curse. Only some people can fight human trafficking and be praised? But not me? I hope you keep that die 4 u tattoo so people know you were openly hitting on Olivia rodrigo w/ a tattoo. That’s all! 11:03 am pdt

11:21 am pdt it’s only possible with god to be an oxymoron. 11:22 am pdt super sized chicken 🐔 legs 🦵 anyone?

12:22 pmpdt about an hour ago I saw 👀 something but I am not allowed 🚫 to say. Something on Instagram about the incubus related again. Incubus ate my skull 💀 with acid multiple times. This really is death ☠️. He wants me to be breakable and break my heart ♥️ in every way possible. 12:25 pmpdt he likes it when I’m tortured and not happy. He likes it when people don’t help me. He likes it when I’m in pain. That’s why he catfishes me. Bcz he likes to hurt me in every way possible. Then he kills me repeatedly. Slow torturing death ☠️. Bcz he thinks the worse of me. I did not want to drive but I was told (acid skull 💀 brain 🧠 pain 😤🥵😤🥵😤😖😭 12:29 pmpdt more brain 🧠 this time 12:29 pmpdt) I had to learn. Men can be heinous and be rewarded. But me? I made mistakes that didn’t kill anyone but I’m rewarded by being tortured to death ☠️ and I’m not a masicastes (spelling?) it’s too much problems in given. He’s torturing my heart ♥️ and lungs 🫁. He keeps on lying 🤥 to me. Too much bone 🦴 loss. Too much deliberate/intentional pain to my heart ♥️. 12:333 pmpdt