#gah. maybe i'll start writing it and just figure it out later

[demonzoro]

began to write a fic outline. had a breakdown. bon appetit.

[bokubooo-archived]

kageyama t. + hinata s. — three in one

part of @atsuvu 's that's queer collab

pairing: 1styear!kagehina x 1styear!gn!reader

warnings: poly relationship

notes: is this good?? I hope this is good. it feel sorta rushed but I had to step away from writing this bc the first time I wrote it I lost everything and had to completely rewrite it-

kageyama and hinata had both been unprepared for their mutual feelings for you.

while they'd both been dating for months now, they still couldn't get you out of their head.

did this count as cheating?

after a while, they had a conversation about their feelings, coming to terms they did still love each other while they loved you too.

they'd heard of relationships with multiple people in it. why not try it?

so the two stood in front of ukai's store, a bag of steaming meat buns in kageyama's hand as they anxiously awaited your arrival.

"shoyo! tobio!"

you're sprinting figure entered their field of vision, you waved, holding your bag over your shoulder as you approached.

"sorry I'm late!" yous aid as you skidded to a stop. "club activities ran later than I'd been expecting."

"it's alright y/n!" shoyo said, barreling into you to embrace you in a hug, which you returned.

"we have meat buns," tobio said, offering you the bag.

you took one, blowing on it before biting into it.

"so what did you want to talk to me about?"

the wonder duo exchanged a look, suddenly their demeanor became nervous, fidgety.

"well uh-" shoyo started.

"we wanted to-" tobio said at the same time.

they exchanged another look and sighed, bowing their heads and you look at them almost astonished.

"we wanted to tell you we both have feelings for you!" they said in sync, and honestly if you didn't know any better you'd say it seemed as if they'd practiced saying it for hours.

"wait- HUH?!" you could've dropped the bun in your hand as you took a step back. "but aren't you guys dating?!"

"we are but-"

shoyo cut tobio off. "we still like each other but we also have feelings for you it's kinda complicated but we wanted to discuss having a relationship with you too I think it's called a poly relationship? we talked about it a lot and wanted to maybe see-"

tobio cut off shoyo's rambling with a chop to the head. "stupid, you're freaking them out!'

"gah!! sorry!!"

"what we wanted to ask if mayeb you wanted to try having a relationship with both of us? that is if you want I mean do you like us like that we didn't ask-"

you giggled, cutting off tobio's begun ramble. "you two are such dorks," you say. "yes, I suppose we could try being in a relationship altogether. but it's gonna take a lot of talking."

shoyo brightened, bouncing on the balls of his feet.

"we can meet at my house if you want!" The excited redhead said.

"boke none of use want to take the long-ass trip all the way to the mountains! we can just meet at my place!"

"we can just go to a cafe," you commented.

the two boys agreed, and you walked with them until your had to part ways.

entering the relationship with them was slow. you all agreed baby steps and communication was key to this relationship. you were sure everyone would get equal love and attention and no one would be excluded.

the three of you went on dates together and overall spent a lot of time together trying to get the ropes of this relationship.

and now, a year in, as second years, the three of you truly felt as if you knew what you were doing.

as you stood in the stands, watching your boyfriends, you cheered them on as they battled with the opposing team.

"GO SHOYO! GO TOBIO!"

you whistled as they did one of their famous quick attacks, smiling so brightly as they took match point and won the match.

you ran down from the stands where you'd been watching, sprinting to where the duo were hugging each other as you barreled into them, an arm wrapping around each of their necks as you hugged them.

" I don't think I'll ever get tired of watching you guys," you chuckle as shoyo peppers kisses on your cheeks, and then tobio picks you up to give you a tight hug.

"as long as you cheer me on my spikes will break through! I promise!" shoyo cheers and tobio rolls his eyes.

"dinner on me tonight!" you say and there was a protestant gasp from the both of them. "no buts!"

being in a relationship with them had its ups and downs. sometimes you'd get stuck in the middle of their squabbles, and more often than not they fought over who would pay for dinner but it was always worth it for the shared love.

as you lay in bed with the two men so many years later, your body sandwiched between them as shoyo's arms encircle your waist with his leg thrown over yours and tobio has his arm resting across you and shoyo's bodies, you know this is love and you never want this to end.

"we're in this together," you whisper as you shut your eyes to sleep.

[moonflower-31]

You Found Me - Gabriel x Reader

Warnings: Language? Somewhat? Oh and some self doubt, but not a lot. There is a looot of angst though. This is part of a two part oneshot. Hope you enjoy the feels.

Pairing: Gabriel x Reader

Character(s): Gabriel, Dean, Sam, Castiel

You were worried, to put it simply. Gabriel had told you three weeks ago he'd start to change. That he would take you out more. See you more in general. Not go off to Chuck knows where, doing who knows what.

You were worried. Yeah. That's the word. You were also pissed. Pissed he hadn't answered your prayers at all in those three weeks. Dean and Sam and Cas had all been through all the ways to try and bring him back, figure out what was going on, except to summon him. You had insisted that be the first thing they do, but Cas had intervened. He had said that if Gabriel was gone somewhere, that it was probably good reason. And that he would answer them in other ways.

But look where that got you?

"Look, kid, I know you miss your archangel douche of a boyfriend but-" Dean starts, looking up from the table he sat at in the main library. You rolled your eyes and looked up from your lore book on angels.

"But what? Dean? He might actually be in real danger! And you're sitting there--eating take out!" You exclaim, gesturing to his heart-attack-inducing food in front of him. Dean immediately gave you an offended glare and wrapped an arm around his food. You rolled your eyes again, and then put your eyes back to the book you were reading. No one would tell you the summoning for an archangel. And since the only archangel that would be able to be summoned would be Gabriel, you figured your chances of getting his ass back here were pretty good.

"Come on, let him live a little! I mean, I don't like the guy but every now and then, a guy has to have his alone time. Find himself. I did it. Sam's done it more than once." Dean reminds. You shake your head. Dean continues. "What I'm saying is maybe you should stop trying to summon him and let him come when he's ready. I'm sure he's fine, alright? He would have let you of all people know he was in danger if he was." Dean reminds again.

You grumble and slam the book in your hands closed. "You know what? I'm done. Done with you, and Sam, and Cas's petty excuses! It's like you don't even care!" You exclaim, and stomp out of the library.

You stomp off and slam the door to your room closed, locking it behind you as you collapse onto your bed, wishing and praying for Gabriel to return.

He hadn't returned in three weeks. Not even when you were in danger on hunts and you prayed to him. It made you question if he even loved you anymore. The thought of it made you sick. But it was possible.

You felt your chest heave and tears began to pour from your eyes as you sat back up and pulled the book from where you had dropped it beside the bed. You began wiping away your tears only for new ones to take their place. You opened the book and kept scouring the pages as a knock came to your door.  You immediately hid the book under your sheets and then stood up, and went to the door.

"Who is it?" You ask.

"Castiel. Dean said you were upset."

"Go away Cas. I'm fine. Just distraught over your damn older brother, nothing new." You grumbled, walking away from the door and sitting back on your bed.

A flutter of wings sounds and you look up, finding the trenchcoated angel standing at the foot of your bed. "Y/N... Gabriel will be okay. I promise." He says, looking at you with as sincere enough eyes as an angel can probably muster.

You let out a sad chuckle. "Really Cas? Same speech as last time? I just want him back... I don't want to lose him..." you say, hugging your arms for a moment as you fight the incoming tears. Castiel walks over and wraps his arms around you in a comforting hug, letting you wrap your own arms around him as he holds you. You're appreciative of the gesture as he lets you cry, and lays you down on the bed when you fall asleep. Your first real sleep in days.

~~~~

When you reawaken, it's later in the day, around midnight. You sigh and check your bed, seeing the book still there. You bring it out and start flipping through it, until you find it. And after a few quick translations, find out what you needed for summoning your absent boyfriend.

You write a quick note of the ingredients you needed, and then got up. You had some of the ingredients. But lacked two. You needed some herbs and some leaves that were hard to come by. So you needed to talk to someone.

"Yeah, those'll do. Thanks. I'll be down to pick them up in a few hours. Thanks." You say, hanging up on the friend who owed you a few favors. He had some of the ingredients that you needed. And all you needed now was to put it all together. And say the chant, of course.

You were walking out of your room, when Sam stopped you. You raise an eyebrow as the tall, moose-like man stood in your way.

"Uh...Sam? What are you doing?" You ask, a bag of essentials on your back.

Sam gives you a bitch face. "Really? You really don't think I didn't see you sneak that book into your room? I've read it. And it has what we've been telling you we shouldn't be doing. Wait it out. Alright? I promise, it's all gonna be okay-" Sam starts.

At this point, you were done of hearing that. After so many instances of Dean, Sam, Cas, hell, even Charlie saying it, you were done. Absolutely done. So you snapped.

You immediately shoved Sam out of the way as soon as his guard was down, pinning his sleeve to the wall with one of your knifes. Sam calls out to Dean to alert him of your escape, but you're too quick. You race up the stairs behind you and then you exit the bunker, racing down the road as adrenaline fills your veins.

You didn't dare take the Impala, knowing Dean would kill you if you did.  He rarely let Sam off the hook when he took it. So what's to say he wouldn't kill you?

You finally slowed down near a gas n' sip, and found an abandoned car. You went into the store for a moment, and picked out a few of Gabriel's favorite sweets. You took them to the counter and payed for them before going back outside, and hotwiring the abandoned car.

The adrenaline had finally left you after you'd been on the road for awhile. You'd left your phone at the Gas n' Sip, so you weren't able to be tracked. Damn Sam and Charlie's hacking abilities.

You finally pulled up to your buddy's place around 4 am, and parked in their driveway.

"Damn, Y/N, you look great for three years gone." Your old pal Brad said as he opened the door. He opened the door for you to come in soon after, drinking a beer.

You smile but shake your head. "I'm sorry, but this is an urgent hunt. I need those ingredients now." You say.  Brad chuckled.

"Really? You ain't gonna sit down and tell me how you've been with those... those uh.." Brad starts.

"Winchesters." You remind, nodding a bit. "Yeah uh... not now. I don't exactly have the time. But uh... I promise, ill come by soon. Okay?" You promise. Brad chuckled.

"I'm just messing with ya. I know you're busy. Just lemme know if I can help at all. Okay? Any time of night or day. I've got open ears." Brad says, smirking at you with a broken smile. You smiled and nodded.

Brad soon disappeared behind the door, and after five minutes returned with the herbs you needed.

"Take care now. Call me if you ever need anything else." He says as he sees you off. You nod, and wave back at him as you climb back into your stolen car and pull back onto the dark road.

It wasn't until 5 am that you found the place. It was old, it was rusty. It was perfect. You found an old table and set everything up. You used your lighter and lit up the ingredients, soon after uttering the chant.

"Rah ah gah ee oh es Vee nu nohno kee ah seh peh teh poh ah ma lah deh zod" you utter, and a bright light enters the room. You shield your eyes and wait a few moments before you hear him.

"Really? You're resulting to summoning me?" Gabriel grumbles, looking at you annoyedly. "Im busy, Sugar." He says.

You weren't listening. You were merely relieved that he was okay. You walk around the table, and then wrap your arms around him, almost too tightly.

Then he pushes you away.

"Sugar, please. I'm busy. Can't this wait?" Gabriel asks. You look up at him dejected.

"Busy? You're just 'busy'?" You ask, venom and hurt in your voice. Gabriel looks a bit hurt by your words, but doesn't react otherwise.

"You promise me that you'll spend more time with me, cuddle more, hang out more, watch more movies, but no. No you're 'busy'" you hiss, looking at Gabriel with tears in your eyes.

"Yeah, I am. I’m not gonna keep having this conversation right now. Like I said, I'm busy. I have somethings I need to do." He says, looking at you.

You furrow your eyebrows. You stomp forward and you grab his collar. "You know what would have been appreciated? Gabriel? If you would let me know you were okay! I've been worried about you this entire time! 'What if he's been kidnapped and he's being tortured? What if it's my fault?' Wow, but you're too busy!" You spat, shoving him back and turning away from him.

Gabriel sighed. "Y/N, please, okay? I couldn't get back to you. And besides, this isn't something you should be worried about. I don't understand why you were so worried-" he says. You nod your head as you turned back around. You were done.

"Why am I so worried? Gabriel I have lost so many people, so many. So yeah, im sorry that I just don't want to lose another. Especially not you. But no, you can't understand that, can you?" You growl back. Gabriel rolled his eyes and went to speak again.

"Don't twist my own words against me-" he starts. You shook your head and pointed in his face.

"No, no you need to listen. You, don't understand how hurt you've made me. How badly, I kept thinking about myself. Thinking that you just didn't love me anymore. So you know what? I'm done. I don't care of you still do, or still don't. I'm done." You snap, shoving him back as you toss the altar over.

Gabriel goes to speak again, panick filling his eyes. But you shake your head.

"No, Gabriel. You've done enough damage." You hiss. "Come find me when you understand how I felt." You say before you cut your hand and start drawing a sigil on the wall.

"Sugar, please, we can talk this out-" he starts, walking towards you just as you finish the sigil and hit against it with your hand, sending him back wherever you'd summoned him.

You felt tears re-emerge from your eyes as you walk out of the building and climb into your car. You turn it back on and start driving down the road, sniffling a bit as you decided that enough was enough. You stopped by another Gas n' Sip and walked up to the pay phone.

You dialed a number in after using the last of the money you'd brought. After a few rings, the line picked up.

"Hey Brad... mind if I cash in that favor?"