#gaguhan?

[thewhizzyhead]

brb gonna speed run my way into launching my musical theatre career through making a musical about Philippine student activism especially in the context of the marcos administrations (yes both the 1970's and the 2020's periods) just to fucking spite the fucking "here lies love" musical and all the fucking marcos propaganda in the world tanayfuckingdana

[silentsanctummanga]

In 1972, a crack commando unit was sent to prison by a military court for a crime they didn’t commit. These men (and woman) promptly escaped from a maximum security stockade to the Los Angeles underground. Today, still wanted by the government, they survive as soldiers of fortune. If you have a problem, If no one else can help and if you can find them. Maybe you can hire, The Ice Ice B-Men!

[neoswift]

got me thinking nonsense! anitwt friends.

PAIRING.    jaemin x fem!oc

WARNINGS.    none

SYNOPSIS.    what are the odds na ‘yung kalandian mo turns out to be the same person na lagi mong kaaway sa twitter? for sab’s case—probably 10/10.

ji / milktobios — brie's best friend and irl, napilit lang ni brie na gumawa ng anitwt acc, pasulpot sulpot lanhlg para magtweet about haikyuu

haechan / J4EGERS — one of brie's closest internet friends, biggest jaegerist, isa sa pasimuno ng briejase agenda kasi mahilig magbasa ng enemies to lovers fics

rj / aobajohsaes — oikawa kinnie, you'd think siya pinaka matino sa gc nila pero really makikisabay yan sa gaguhan

yang / satruegojo — kilalang jjk shitposter sa twitter, ni minsan hindi nagseryoso sa anitwt, kunsintidor pag nag aaway si brie at jase

kari / osaguru — nandito lang daw siya para magvibe

selle / hangeluvr — puro i miss you hange postings, arianator din pero hindi inaaway ni brie

chae / kyouhrus — biggest shoujo stan, paniwalang-paniwala na magkakadevelopan ang briejase kasi she loves love

jen / tenshad0ws — laging nagbbreakdown over jjk sa tl

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NOTE. guys wala ako masyado malagay na seryosong descriptions sa iba dahil puro kagaguhan lang au na to 😭🫵🏼

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[akosichay]

hindi pala kasama sa assessment yung trinabaho ng nov at dec so ano gaguhan na lang? eh nasa november at december nga yung buhos ng trabaho tapos hindi pala icrecredit nag sasayang lang.

[diodellet]

*slides in*

How about 3, 16, 17 and 29 for the fic writer asks?

omg i didnt think id ramble this much (thank u for enabling me ner 🤧💕💕)

3. how you feel about your current WIP

tbh i'm not super confident about my writing any time i come out from from a long long hiatus of not posting anything. also like… i'm not super confident writing other charas aside from jamil since i don't really think ab them as much… (sorry leona-natics* whenever this drabble gets posted, but like fingers crossed the sitch will hopefully be exciting enough)

*i think it might have to do with the fact that i kinda hc leona on the grayspec++have more vv specific hc characterizations i like of him, but ig i do see his appeal (one of m'oomfs is a leona-natic and well ahu her propaganda might've been subconsciously assimilated)

but ahaha i tend to write things that i'm very personally interested in so i'll find a way to have fun with it, i'll be gucci i just get too into my head, it's a vicious cycle as a writer.

16. favorite place to write

uhhh im a very sedentary person, probably a result from the pandemic, and being a thorough homebody even after that

hmm i would say id like a nice ambient public place with coffeeeee my blood my life force Some amount of people engrossed in their own work, but like in the ph, esp in a place populated by a lot of uni students, cafes end up being hella cold (im skin and bones the cold is Evil)++noisy (which i don't see as a big bad thing esp since i like socializing with my friends...at the cost of putting off my own writing oops HAHAHA)

17. talk about your writing and editing process

oh boy. here we go. one thing to note throughout all this: my only consistent practice as a writer is inconsistency. (and ig, if i try hard enough, i can usually put out a passable 200-300 words in one sitting)

sometimes i can outline a fic and take forever chipping away at it

^^(case in point: that sebek x vampire!reader x silver fic... i joked abt waiting until book 7 would drop on EN but it has been Stuck. i wanna write bi-disaster sebek so bad though 🤧🤧)

other times my actual writing veers waaaaay into a diff plotpoint instead of what i have plotted out

^^(there're these 2 now-removed bullet points in wcidfy's outline for ch 3 that went: "do i have the balls to write a fever scene… gaguhan anhirap nito pag walang ob [tl: fuck this is hard (to write) without overblots]" and "i also keep thinking of a scene in the (scarabia) gardens…and lying about bees…weird")

and sometimes i can just shit out 1k-ish words unprompted.

^^though this last example leads to my most rough writing++editing ('ily but leave me tf alone' and 'no id rather pretend'), i only look over for immediate errors, but keep iffy-phrasings and repeated words, but sometimes i still miss incomplete sentences that i jus quickly fix after posting ahahaha.

in terms of my more "polished" writing, i edit as i write (<- i do Not recommend this style. it's very unsustainable if ur planning to do more conventional writing/publishing and it's very easy to get trapped in your writer's block)

and after finishing 80% of it, i try to get a second pair of eyes on it (thanks @jessamine-rose mwaps) because validation of works in progress feels good it also helps to have a trusted outside person look at the work with fresher eyes. also smtimes we get into bouncing ideas back nd forth that we spawn new brainrot lmao like this👇

i like to call my writing a "semi-polished first draft" partly out of self-defense and self-criticism. but really, i think i'd rather have "good enough" writing posted than "my best" because i could spend forever hoarding my wips. i think i'll always have regrets over not fleshing out certain beats/using certain phrasings and references, but i also enjoy looking back on my writing and seeing the incremental, microscopic progress. it makes the process more enjoyable than self-flagellating.

on a personal note, the writing workshop scene can be brutal. with some criticism being needlessly harsh, sure it produced some of my "best" writing but the process was Not Fun. while i get that being able to revise meaningfully is an important thing, i think the endgoal of feedback (from my short exp of betaing for friends) shud always be aimed towards uplifting the writer's aim to create/improving the writer's vision of what they wanna achieve, especially in a craft that is as solitary as writing. wait ill rb a post about making ur shitty pots, very in-line with making art in general

29. how easy is it for you to come up with titles?

very hard. i hate thinking of titles, thats why i yoink lines from songs (who cares if the vibe doesnt fit im adding layers of interpretation or sumn🥴🥴). ACTUALLY wcidfy had like 3 other possible names (it was either *rolls out list* hairtie, nonequivalent exchange, or ben franklin effect* wcidfy was the most bearable one.) *i tried to look up how to distill the psychological phenomenon of someone probably liking u more after u do a small favor for them into 2-3 words, but it had to be a WHITE MAN'S NAME 🤢🤢NAW!!!!

for few other examples:

'say what you mean' was initially titled 'oh how the tables turn'

'roommates? more like roomfoes' was first titled 'pet peeves'

'hypothermia' was first titled 'frigid' but then i thought of paradoxical undressing nd stuff and da pseudo-warmth

i've also moved a bunch of other plot beats from wcidfy's main document into a file called "part 45678 of wcidfy"

as u can see i prioritize making myself laugh wid my wip titles. i wanna put the illusion that my writing's not that serious. unless it is? idk i'm not sure how to describe my writing in terms of its vibes.

(list of fic writer asks, ahaha bug me ab my wips)

[souledead]

patuloy ka pa ring nakatira sa aking isipan. malamig na hangin at mga bote ng alak ang saksi sa pakikipagtawanan, palitan ng kwento at pakikipag-gaguhan sa tuktok ng anumang establisyamento. akala ko mahahanap ko ang kapayapaan at tahanan sa labas at bisig ng sinumang estranghero. ngunit oras na lumisan sila, oras na ako na lang, mas malaking yakap ng kawalan ang bumabalot. mas lumalalim ang iniwan mong puwang. walang antas ng pagod ang makakapag-patulog dahil nakikita ko pa rin na sa mga multo mo ako napapahinga.

[chuplado]

I just want to vent out.

*I will just put this here - I still don’t have the courage to say this out loud yet - since ‘di naman to makikita at wala namang usually ang nagbabasa nito, I will just use this medium to say anything I wanted to say*

Out of nowhere ngayong early in the morning, kakatapos lang ng shift ko, while I am watching Hospital Playlist in Netflix, may dalawang magkaibigan sa eksena. Yung isa, may sakit at yung isa naman, magdodonate ng liver for his bestfriend. Bigla kong naalala yung bestfriend ko sa mga sagutan nila sa eksena, naluha ako. Namiss ko pala yung bestfriend ko.

Simula nung nag-pandemic, napakadalang ko na syang makausap and at the same time, since 2019, even if magkalapit lang naman ang Bulacan at Metro, hindi kami nagkikita. May mga dahilan ako kung bakit - yes, he’s my bestfriend pero there are some reasons why I stopped communicating. Ganito yata talaga ako kapag gustong manahimik (on which one of my weird traits) - kahit gaano pa tayo magkalapit sa isa’t isa, maninibago at maninibago ka sa biglang pag-shift ng mood, ugali. at pakikitungo ko. I am not vocal pagdating sa mga nararamdaman ko - as much as possible, gusto kong sinasarili ko na lang, hahayaan ko na lang na sarili ko na lang ang masaktan kaysa makasakit pa ko ng damdamin ng iba. And yes, masama ang loob ko sa bestfriend ko.

Actually, dumating o humantong ako sa point na parang narerealize ko na I am about to cut ties na dahil sa mga pinaggagagawa at mga desisyon ko - thinking na ‘di ko deserved yung treatment  sa akin ng mga tao so I have to cut them out and I don’t think na deserved kong mag-stay sa mga ganung set-up. Pero on this case, para akong jowa na pilit pa ring nagta-try para maayos yung sitwayson at ang relasyon.

I’ve tried to reached out again nitong mga nakaraang buwan pero sobrang awkward na. Yung akala kong scenario na “kapag true friend mo, kahit magkalayo kayo at ‘di kayo nagkausap nang matagla na panahon, once magkausap ulit kayo, parang walang nagbago” eh hindi pala nag-aapply sa amin. Sobrang nagta-try ako bumuo ng conversation pero wala talaga - ang awkward na talaga. Even him, he didn’t even try to prolong the conversation. Wala na rin yung gaguhan sa chats - yes, I know, nagmamature and tumatanda na, pero mararamdaman mo naman yun eh... wala na yata talaga.

Pero kanina, I tried again. I started by mentioning that I missed him, na naalala ko siya dahil nga sa napanood ko. He replied and nangumusta siya - then I answered. I started to share my current state, that I am struggling to know what I really want in life at naguguluhan ako... then he answered quickly, “Sabi ko sa yo, mag part-time ka na sa FA (Financial Advisor) eh...”

Eto na naman nga..

He started to try to solve it again by giving me such statement - really? I just want to vent out eh!

Ganyan siya palagi! Isa yan sa mga dahilan bakit ‘di ko pinapansin ang mga chats niya nung mga nakaraang taon. Everytime magre-reach out ako, palagi isinisingit ang pag-aalok ng insurance at pag-aaya sa akin to be his FA sa team niya. Alam kong mahal niya ang ginagawa niya, pero utang na loob, sumosobra na. Maybe most of the people na makakabasa nito, iisipin na ang kitid ko naman mag-isip pero ito ang nararamdaman ko eh...

There’s a history rin kasi. May mga instances na nayaya ako sa mga businesses and I know, those are “sketchy“, like “too good to be true” pero sumama ako, for the sake of the passive income and yung pagpayag sa mga alok niya. Everything didn’t went well in the end - lahat, scam. ‘Di ko siya sinisisi, alam ko naman una pa lang na ‘di talaga magtatagal at magwowork yun, pero na-tanga lang din ako at sumubok ako sa ganun.

Everytime na magkakausap talaga kami nung mga nakaraang taon, di mawawala yung pag-aalok niya sa akin ng insurance. Yung tipong gusto ko lang talagang makipagkwentuhan, pero nauuwi pa rin dun. Magre-reach out lang din siya kapag di pa niya naaabot yung quota/target niya, pipilitin niya akong kumuha. Sa sobrang pagiging dedicated sa ginagawa niya, ‘di na yata napapansin yung epekto nun sa iba. Dumating sa point na iniiwasan ko na lang siyang kausapin. Kahit may mga pinagdadaanan ako na gusto kong i-share, ‘di ko magawa sa pagwoworry na baka dun na naman mauwi yung usapan.

Nalulungkot ako na ganito ang kinahihinatnan nito. I don’t have a lot of friends and yung nangyayari pa yung ganito, masakit para sa akin.And ending, wala talaga akong nakakausap. Dumating na akio sa point na tumawag na ako sa Employee Assistance Hotline ng company namin para lang may makausap at makapaglabas ng sama ng loob. Sobrang naaanxious na ko.

Hindi ko lang din maintindihan kung bakit parang wala lang para sa kanya na ganito na kami ngayon - hindi ba talaga big deal sa kanya na ‘di talaga kami nagkakausap? balewala lang ba talaga sa kanya?

Nakakapagod mag-isip... Gusto kong ibulalas ang lahat kasi nakakapagod nga. Papaano na lang kapag dumating na yung time sa plan ko na umalis na ng bansa, may magbabago kaya? Or totally back to zero talaga ako?

Sana maging ok na ako. Kahit walang ibang tao. Kahit mismo sa sarili ko na lang, sana maging ok na ako.

[slvrsray]

Parang lahat ng ginawa namin sa boracay. Parang nag gaguhan lang kami.

[biobreak]

I tried talking to other people after you, like a month after you. But no one can replace the gaguhan and bardagulan na ginagawa natin. Also! I can now filter those guys who just want to fuck around lang and magaling mag gaslight hehe. Thanks to you and to your “nagulat nga ako pumayag ka agad makipag meet” natauhan ang gaga. SANA MATAGAL NA AKONG NATAUHAN.

[arevirana]

the fuck sa gaguhan. sige mag gaguhan at maglokohan na lang tayo!

[lyrajinezra]

Para sa iba madali, eh di good para sa inyo. 😅 kayo na malakas. Pero wag niyong kwestyunin yung pakiramdam nung tao. 😆 Di porket masaya na kayo, dapat ganon din sa iba. Ano to? Gaguhan? Hahaha. Eh di kayo nalang magdesisyon sa emosyon ng tao. Hahaa

[aympeculiar]

time check out 10:48

if d jud ka mag chat before monthsary im officially breaking up with you, you didnt even dare to apologize. kung kabalo lang ka genil, ingato nga lihok akong pinaka hate sa lalaki tungod sakong past rs na nag cheat saakoa… mao jud tu exactly iya gibuhat that’s why nag recall back saako ug galain akong kutob. i never cheat, i will never cheat. kabalo ko unsay feeling mafeel betrayed genil. thank u for ur love, for 7months thanks a lot.

wala koy lain, wala taka gipagpalit sa lain. wala koy kachat lain karon FYI. pero siguro it’s time sa na mag move forward ko og ilove nako akong sarili maayo. that’s the reason and exact reason why i am breaking up with u. salamat.

ipagpalit ka sa layo (which is imo permi ginahunahuna) is the most fucking bullshit idea ive ever heard. naa nay duol ipagpalit pag layo? gaguhan?

[laishet]

Gaguhan nanaman kami

[pamparsoutlet]

I was willing to give up everything for you and I was willing give everything just to be with you. Pero ganon yong sinabi mo. Nakakaputangina talaga. Yon yong literal na nakakaputangina. Nagpakatanga ko sa'yo. Sa tuwing kinakausap mo ako nandoon ako. Willing na akong maging mali, maging pangalawa para sayo lahat ng kinagagalitan ko noon, naging ako. Pero tangina biglang ganon? Sasabihin mo wala ka nang nararamdaman. Tapos ngayon may gana ka pang magtanong bakit di ako nagreply. Hindi ba dapat common sense na yon? Tapos na akong magpakatanga sa'yo. Good luck sa buhay mo at sa gaguhan nyong magjowa. Huwag mo na akong idamay. I'm so over you. Tapos na akong magpakatanga sa'yo. Tangina bahala ka na sa buhay mo. Di mo man lang pinag isipan muna bago mo sinabi yon. Ano darating ka lang sa buhay ko sa tuwing gusto mo? Wala ka nang babalikan tangina ka.

[genuine-sushi]

Tama na gaguhan, gusto ko na sineseryoso ako eh sorry. Block well hahahahahah

[lyhblr]

tangina

ang bilis mo naman?

ano 'to gaguhan?

ganon ganon nalang ba yun?

may bago agad?

— nakakaputangina