#fuuuuuck. crying in the club tonight. ...

[trickphotography2]

Damn it, my closest friend in Colorado just told me she’s moving in 2 months. I literally talk to her every day at work, and we trade memes on days off.

But what almost made me cry was when she told me that, last night, her daughter said she’s gonna miss me 😭 Thankfully both kiddos are coming to book club tonight, and I already volunteered to go help her clean the house over the weekend for the realtor to take pictures of their house next week.

Fuuuuuck. Definitely pushing me more toward looking at overseas jobs in a couple years.

[trulymadlysydney]

long anon short half concept lol got inspired by golf!Harry tonight: golf date Harry. Well more, mini golf date Harry. Mid tour, you link up and find one of those arcade/go cart/mini golf places that some towns have. And you have a romantic dinner of super greasy arcade pizza and fountain soda. And during mini golf, god you’re both acting like horny teenagers, can’t take your hands off each other. Harry’s got his arms around you, “helping” you since he’s “much more experienced on the green” and he’s just being so cheeky in your ear, helping you to guide the club to swing. You admire his form as he gets too many holes in one, smacking his ass and giving him a “nice one, you competitive bastard” as he laughs. At one of the trickier parts, he’s got his fingers in the loop of your jeans, to “help adjust your stance” (really, your ass looks so good perked out in your jeans) letting you do all the pushing and swinging as he kissed onto your neck, and nibbles your ear, tickling you to make you mess up your swing. You push at him, with your hand covered in the sleeve of his cardigan he gave you because you were getting cold and it’s gotten a bit chilly outside, lovingly annoyed as you tell him he broke your concentration as he’s laughing at you. And he’s grabbing that hand at his chest to pull you in to make out with you as he apologizes “for cheating against such a fine player” and that “I’m sure the next game we play, you’ll come out on top of me”

OH MY GOD PLEASE I LIVE FOR THIS PLAYFUL SHIT IM GONNA CRY FUUUUUCK

[bellebridgerton]

Mine (Adam Sackler x Reader)

Adam comes home aggravated, he had a long day on set. He felt like he couldn't get anything right today. He throws himself down onto the couch, growling with his hands over his eyes.

(Y/n) walks out from her room, having heard his growls. She closes their front door, then walks over to Adam, "Welcome home." She gently taps his legs, so she can sit down.

As he lays his legs over her lap, he sighs, "I fucked up on set, I couldn't do anything right today."

Sighing, (Y/n) gently rubs his leg affectionately, "Don't beat yourself up, just relax, everyone has bad days. Relax, and let me take care of you." She carefully gets up and opens the oven, getting out the Chinese food she brought home.

Adam wills himself to get up when he hears a knock on the door. He opens the door to see Jessa, and he groans, "What are you fucking doing here?" He was getting over all the stress and trauma Jessa and her friends caused him.

Jessa smirks, "I was missing you, thought I'd come see you."

Adam feels so glad in this moment, that (Y/n) was never part of that group. He had met her when they were in an acting class. (Y/n) went into Broadway, having immense success, while Adam focused mainly on film.

He looks at Jessa, "Go away, I am done with you, I'm done with all your little selfish friends, all of it."

(Y/n) sees Jessa and rolls her eyes, she had seen Adam suffer through all the acrobatics those girls put him through. She was there for the tantrums, the crying, the depression trips. She was never scared of him, only scared for him.

She walks over to the doorway, crosses her arms, looking Jessa in the eye, despite being shorter. (Y/n)has a stone cold sneer, "Get lost. I won't have you crawling back to him because you know you have no one else who would put up with your bullshit."

Jessa looks past (Y/n), "You love me, I know you do."

Adam rolls his eyes at Jessa, keeping his focus mainly on (Y/n).

(Y/n) laughs, "If you come back, I will have a restraining order put on you."

Jessa smirks, "When she stops fucking you, come find me, Adam."

Adam sighs and closes the door, he looks at (Y/n), "I can handle that myself."

(Y/n) looks up at Adam, smiles softly, "Don't take this the wrong way, but you need help when it comes to those girls."

Adam sighs, knowing she's right, he's been best friends with her for years, she's seen his life, he can't lie to her. Except he has been, he's been in love with her, he fell for her when he was messing around with Hannah, but she dated a guy for a minute, and it felt to him like the door closed. Adam hugs her, "But you help me."

(Y/n) hugs back, gently rubbing his back. She giggles softly, "And I always will. Come on, I brought home food from that Chinese place you like so much."

Adam looks at her, "Fuuuuuck, you're amazing." He lets go of her and goes to the kitchen, makes himself a plate. (Y/n) follows suit and makes her plate, she grabs two sodas out of the fridge.

Adam sits on the couch, turns on the TV, waiting for (Y/n). She sits down and hands him his drink, Adam smiles a bit, "Thanks kid." She smiles at the pet name and starts eating. Adam picks a show he knows she likes, and they eat peacefully.

After dinner, (Y/n) went to her room to play around online, so she wouldn't disrupt Adam's woodworking.

"FUCK! WORK MOTHERFUCKER!", and crashing was heard from outside, (Y/n) gets up from her bed and opens her bedroom door. She sees Adam, hunching slightly, his chest heaving. She thinks this must be his release for how today went for him. Their eyes meet and she sees anger, frustration, and sadness. (Y/n) ignores the fact that she's barefoot, walks over to him and wraps her arms around his shoulders. This causes Adam to drop the things in his hands and hold her. He buries his face into her neck and mumbles, "I'm sorry."

She gently plays with his hair, "Shhh, you don't need to be sorry." Adam's grateful to her, he knows some people get scared of him when he gets angry, but she never has. She gently pulls back a little, "How about we go to my room, and just hang out, we don't have to say anything, just be there?"

Adam nods, not trusting his voice right now. He grabs her hand and walks to her room, leaving his mess for later. He lays on her bed, "Lay on me?" He doesn't mean it in a sexual way, he just wants to hold her. (Y/n) nods and gently lays on him, her head on his chest.

She listens to his heartbeat, then looks up at him, kisses his cheek. She rests her chin on his chest, "Hey, you know I'd do anything for you."

Adam smiles, his hands gently rubbing her back, "Anything?"

(Y/n) giggles, "Anything."

Adam nods and looks at her, "Well, the feeling's mutual, kid." He didn't want to say too much right now.

(Y/n) smiles, "Do you work tomorrow?" She uses her eyes to play Connect the Dots with his freckles.

Adam shakes his head, "No, I have tomorrow off, is there anything you want to do?"

(Y/n) smiles, "I want us to be lazy and watch movies!" Adam laughs and nods, hugs her, (Y/n) giggles and cuddles Adam. She plays with his hair, laying her head on his shoulder, "Your hair is so soft."

Adam chuckles, "Thanks, kid."

(Y/n) sits up and gets off of him, grabs her laptop, casts Netflix to her TV, plays a show they both like.

They both pass out after a few hours of the show, (Y/n)'s head on Adam's arm.

Groggily waking up, (Y/n) walks to the kitchen, makes breakfast for her and Adam. She knows that if he makes it, it could very well be boring. Adam eats more for fuel, he rarely eats something because it's tasty.

Smelling the pancakes and sausages, Adam wakes up, trudges his way to the kitchen. He sleepily smiles at (Y/n) and gets himself a glass of milk. He leans against the counter and drinks his milk, "Morning, doll."

(Y/n) smiles and cooks, "Morning, Stretch." She makes them each a plate, then hands him his plate.

Adam chuckles, "Thanks, looks good."

(Y/n) smiles and sits down at the table with her plate, "Thanks." She starts eating, watches Adam nearly scarfing down food like someone is about to take it from him.

After breakfast they go to (Y/n)'s room and hang out, watching movies.

As the evening rolls around, (Y/n)'s friend, Jess, texts her, asking if she'd come out partying. (Y/n) figured Adam might like to go dancing, she looks up at him, "Hey, want to come with me and my friend Jess to a club tonight?"

Adam wasn't really in the mood for other people tonight, he just wants to keep (Y/n) at home with him. He shakes his head, "No thanks kid, why don't we stay home?"

(Y/n) looks at Adam, "You can stay home, I want to go out." She was tired of waiting to see if anything would happen between them.

Adam pouts, "Fine, do whatever you want. Just don't bring home a random guy."

(Y/n) was shocked at Adam, "Don't you know I'd never do that?!"

Adam chuckles, "Then why go out tonight? Am I not fun enough for you?"

(Y/n) rolls her eyes, "I'm going to get ready to go out." She grabs a dress and some shoes, goes to the bathroom.

(Y/n) walks out in a beautiful red dress, clinging to all the right places. Adam looks at her, "You're not going out."

(Y/n) crosses her arms and looks at him, "Oh really?" She was annoyed at this point.

Adam walks closer to her, "Really, at least not in that. I'll rip it off before you get the chance." He bites his lip, placing his hands on her hips.

(Y/n) looks up at him, blushing. She rests her hands on his chest, "I dare you."

Adam smirks, "You're in for it, doll." He picks her up and takes her to her room, kissing her passionately and roughly. She kisses back, holding onto him. She kicks off her shoes, and Adam grabs her shoes, "Put these back on."

(Y/n) blushes and puts them back on, while Adam gets her out of her dress. He picks her up and throws her onto the bed, stripping as fast as he can. (Y/n) kisses him, sitting up on her knees. Adam kisses back and grabs her ass, makes her lay down again. He gets on top, kissing all over her body. She giggles and moans, watching him do what he wants. He smirks, "You're gonna pay for being such a fucking tease." He grabs a condom and opens it, slides it on.

(Y/n) kisses him, whispers against his lips, "Punish me then." Adam grins and roughly slides into her, causing her to gasp and moan. He doesn't let up, goes as hard as he can, for as long as he can.

He grunts in pleasure, "I'm gonna cum!" (Y/n) nods and moans, unable to form intelligible words right now. They both cum shortly after and Adam slides out, throws away the condom and lays next to (Y/n), he kisses her cheek. She kisses his chest and cuddles him. He slaps her ass, "No clubs, unless I say you can."

(Y/n) raises her eyebrow at Adam, "Why?"

He smiles, "Because my woman isn't going to be dancing provocatively in front of other men, unless I'm there to let them know that you're mine."

[cilliankelly]

text 📱 cillian & jude.

Discord text thread featuring: cillian & @judetaylorhq

When: january 4th

Mentions: @claudiafernandez96 & @robinscnfm

Description: long but important. jude and cillian discuss their confusing feelings for claudia. again. it doesn’t go well.

Trigger Warnings: WOW, big angst, like, got me crying in the club type angst.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

do you think you...

nvm

it's stupid

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

no, tell me.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

is it hard to hang out with claudia and not fuck her?

be honest

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i mean we did things other than fucking before. we were friends, you know.

i don’t know. i mean it’s not like i don’t think about it? like you would think about fucking any of your... whatever she is.

but anytime i do i just... i don’t know. i think about you. and it’s not hard.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

it doesn't bother me.

i mean it should.

it should make me jealous and mad, but it just doesn't.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

not at all?

is that just bc it’s claudia or?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i think.

if it was some other girl...or guy...i'd be jealous.

but claudia's...

you know.

somedays i feel like...she's just as much a part of us as we are.

is that weird?

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

maybe.

but i think i get it.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

does it bother you when other people talk about her

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

no. but our... arrangement. it was never exclusive. we had a kind of understanding.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

and what about that night we had with her

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

what about it?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

nothing. i'm...

i'm just

i love you.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

jude.

what’s going on. talk to me.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i keep trying to forget about her.

but then not having her in our life is impossible.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

you don’t want to forget her.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i have to. i want to.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

why?

is it bc of the drugs or is it bc of something else

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

you know, i loved her.

i mean, i really loved her.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

loved?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i had to dump her because...the drugs and...

it just felt like it never really ended

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

sure. i can understand that i think.

and... what. it still hasn’t ended? are you still in love with her?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

no. not like that.

i'm not IN love with her.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

but she matters to you. you care about her.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

of course.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

okay so... why is it that you still want to forget about her?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

sometimes i think about how alone she is.

and she...fits here.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

with us.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

don't you think?

sorry. this is too much.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

jude...

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

it is.

it's a lot.

i know it is. i mean we're trying to figure /us/ out and i'm ... being ridiculous.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

you’re not being ridiculous

but... yeah. it’s kind of a lot.

i just

this isn’t the first time you’ve suggested something like this.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i know.

i don't even know what i'm suggesting.

it's not like i trust her completely.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i just.

i think about her too. like i worry about her.

but sometimes you talk about her and i don’t know i just.

forget it. it’s a lot.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

Pls tell me

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

it’s stupid. and selfish maybe. i don’t know.

i just. i meant what i said last night. like if you were it for me i’d be happy.

and you say you’re not in love with her, but what if that changes?

and i know that it’s not true and i’m being... i don’t know.

but you talk about her and my chest gets all tight and wonder if i’m like. enough for you or something.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

What? Fuck. No. Cil.

Fuck.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

no, i knew it was stupid i shouldn’t have said anything

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

I love you. I want to be with you.

It's not stupid.

You are it for me. I swear.

This claudia thing...I don't know. It's like I think I can save her. But I know I can't.

But if I lost you I'd seriously fall apart.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

like, fuck, i know that. but this is just. it’s really confusing, jude.

after the threesome, and you wanting to bring claudia into our relationship, move her in with us...

fuck, i know you wanna save her. i want that to. but she has to do that for herself.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

I just, I need a break. From her.

Everytime I see her again, my head gets screwed up.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

you invited her over for new years. you asked her to come over. to stay for dinner.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

I know, Cillian.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

okay. i just feel like we’ve tried the whole break thing before. and. well here we are.

i’m sorry i’m just. do whatever you need to do, okay?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

Yeah, I know we have, Cillian.

Just forget it.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i don’t know what you want me to say jude.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

Nothing, babe.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

fine. we’ll just forget about it.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

okay.

i do love you, cil.

i get it if you don't believe me or whatever.

i'll just stay at my gran's tonight.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

fuuuuuck, jude.

don’t do that.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

no it's fine.

i get it. i'm really sorry baby.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i don’t want you to stay at your gran’s.

i’ve been missing you all day and i just. fuck.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i keep fucking up.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

you do not.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i'm sorry babe. seriously.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i know.

it’s fine.

just come home, okay?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

are you sure?

fuck.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

jude. please.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

okay.

i love you.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i know.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

do you really?

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

yes, really.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i think it's better if i just..don't come home tonight.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

alright, fine, whatever.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

fine.

...are you mad?

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i don’t know.

i’m confused.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

you don't believe me.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲BOTToday at 2:50 AM

i know that you love me. i just. fuck, jude.

i don’t want to talk about it anymore. it’s just the same thing every time.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

okay. we won't talk.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i just need.. i don’t know. sleep maybe.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

fine. i'll see you for dinner tomorrow.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

if you have to work late again it’s fine. no big deal.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

so you don't want to see me for dinner?

you know what, fine, Cillian.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i’ll see you whenever i see you.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

yeah. great.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

perfect.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

see you then.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

see you then.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

why are you being like this?

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

like what?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

just forget it.

i'm going to bed.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

don’t let me keep you up.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

yeah i won't.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

read

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i don't like this.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

me neither.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i do love you.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i really want to believe that.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

but you don't.

it's fine.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i did. but then i just. i don’t know. this whole situation with claudia... it’s fucking confusing.

we were just talking about how happy we are. you told me not to run. that you’d do anything to make me happy.

and then you’re asking me if i think about fucking your ex and if i thinks she fits into our relationship.

it’s confusing jude.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

you're the one who said i shouldn't cut her out.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

yeah well maybe i don’t know what the fuck i’m talking about.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

well maybe i don't either.

but if you don't believe i love you, then what's the point of this.

we might as well just end it now before it gets even more fucked up.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

you don’t mean that.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

yeah i do.

you don't trust my word.

so...we're done here.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

jude. please. that’s not what i want.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i have work in the morning.

and i guess...finding a new place after that.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

stop.

jude.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

no, it's fine.

you don't want me to come home tomorrow. so i get it.

let's just...leave it at that.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

fuck, jude, of course i want you to come home tomorrow. i wanted you to come home tonight. i was gonna cook you fucking dinner.

look i’m sorry. i know that you love me i’m just fucking confused okay? but please. don’t do this. you’re the only good thing i’ve got right now. maybe ever. please.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i don't know cil.

it's like ever since we got together i'm supposed to have all the fucking answers

i'm just as much of a fuck up as you. probably worse.

i don't know what the fuck i'm doing here.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i’m sorry. i rely on you too much. for everything. i know that. it’s not fair to you.

but fuck.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i know this claudia thing is fucking with us.

let's just...forget about it.

...did you just say you were going to cook for me?

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

yeah, you asshole. and you know that’s love because i really suck at it.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

so you really do want me dead, huh?

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

fuck, i hate you so much. don’t fucking scare me like that, jesus.

please just. come home?

i miss you so fucking much.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i mean you want me dead, it's obvious.

fuck i miss you too.

like i seriously can't wait to see you babe.

i don't want to fight again. ever.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

me neither. that was fucking awful.

i just wanna hold you.

and kiss you

and never let you go ever again.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

i want me life to be with YOU.

just you.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

fuck, i love you so much.

i’m sorry i doubted you for even a second.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

no. i was being...

look this thing with claudia. it has nothing to do with you not being enough.

you are everything to me.

you're my best friend. i love you.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i know that, really, i do i just...

i’ve never really been enough for anyone before yknow?

and that has nothing to do with you and i shouldn’t have projected that on you like that i just...

i was upset. and i’m sorry.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

you were right to.

this stuff is confusing.

and i never should have mixed up my confusing with claudia and our relationship.

i think that's why i'm so confused about it all

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

love is hard. feelings are hard.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

but loving you

it's not hard baby

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

i love you so fucking much. i don’t ever wanna lose you.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

let's cook together, yeah?

so you don't kill your boyfriend

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

well, it was supposed to be a surprise.

and i may have enlisted the help of a tiny blonde

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

ellie?

oh my god...

you were being romantic.

that is..

oh my god..that's so hot.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

really? even though the surprise got spoiled?

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

yeah. even though. i like that you can still surprise me.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

yeah? i wanted to do something nice for you. you do so much for me.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

not enough.

𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐲

shh, you do.

𝐣𝐮𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫.

I love you.

[growningupgeek]

Reactions to E05

Finally up on the website! I’m just going to make one long post tonight.

The beginning is creepy, too bad these two kids are gonna die.

Yeah, let’s pick up the creepy mask. Bad move guys.

 Sam is acting weird. What is he up too.

 “How you got laid I’ll never know.”. Let us explain it to you, Dean.

 Send Dean to talk to the traumatized kid, it’ll probably work. (Not sarcastic, he really has a way with kids.) 

 The big family secret doesn’t seem so secret this season. Whatever happened to “we do it job and keep our mouths shut” ? 

 Here’s where that night shoot we saw all the video of comes in.

 What the hell Sam!? First you offer him a beer with breakfast, now you want to go to a strip club? You’re up to something

 Dean’s face is priceless. He really doesn’t know what’s going on.

 Awwwe, Sam is just trying to be a sweetie.

 Oh hells no!

 I don’t even want to know why Dean has a pink bra around his neck. 

 Sam sure has the guilt thing down pat.

 Dean looks a little worse for his night out. 

 Told you taking that mask was a bad idea. Time you’ll listen to me. 

 What the hell, Dean! You are damn lucky Sam didn’t get knocked out.

 Sammy just taking charge! 

 I think we’re going to have to burn another house down.

 OH FUCK NO YOU ARE NOT DOING THIS AGAIN, DEAN WINCHESTER!

 God damn it, Dean you idiot! 

 Some how I never pictured death as having some kind of filling system like that

. Possessed by a ghost is a crappy way to go.

 If Dean’s a ghost, he can’t get into his body if it’s in a salt ring. 

No, no, no, no. I’m upset with him but I don’t…BILLIE WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK IS GOING ON!?

 Is she the new Death?

 HOLY FUUUUUCK!

   Billie is still snarky, I love it. 

 Great, one more entity after Jack.

 “The last thing I need is some big, dumb, Winchester knocking it all down.“

“Yeah, that sounds like us.”

 Bright Lady, Billie is reading Dean like a book.

 This speech is killing me.

 At this point that may be the worst thing she could to him, sentence him to live.

 Sam's face when Dean tells him about Billie. 😂

 That had better be Cas!

 I'm not crying, oh fuck it! Yes I'm bawling like a baby!