#fuck OFF with the lovebombing. I know you dont mean any of it. I wish I never came crawling back sometimes. He was right. he was RIGHT.

[yikes-ajax-thats-sad]

"I love you." Show me something real. Prove it. Sick of these empty fucking words, maybe I'll believe it if your actions ever match your mouth. It's like it's not even your own voice, just lip syncing because saying you love me is that horrible.

[transylvanilla]

Oh god.. Where do I begin? Their google doc was upsetting to read for so many reasons. I've never heard of this person in my life but I do want to share some of my thoughts on all of this. Its 4 am and I cant sleep so sorry if this isnt going to make sense, I'm pretty tired. I should also say I didnt read the entire thing because once I got to "Holly's Callout" I was feeling a bit overwhelmed decided to pick up from where I left off later.

I wouldn't wish what Ang has gone through upon my greatest enemy. Nobody deserves what has happened to them. Imo this is one of those situations where when someone thinks someone else is totally vile and morally bankrupt, any harm done unto them is justified, and thats just not true. People forget (either deliberately or subconciously) that the person they are targeting is a human being, and when someone like Ang is in such a vunerable position nothing justifies destroying their only means of survival. People die without a support system. I can't say I've never wished harm upon a person who I think is cruel but death is so fucking final, its not fair, its not the only way these people could've handled the situation.

Both Ang and the people who hurt them used a lot of fallacies that either didn't make sense to me or didn't justify why they did/said/felt what they did and etc. It would take me too long to write all of the annotations I was making in my head, but tldr it was very clear to me (and tbh it doesnt even have to be said) that jera, taylor, holly, etc have problems. Their behavior was so consistently weird and inappropriate and their reasoning would convenientely change or become contradictory, not to mention how obsessed they all were. I have bpd so I honestly *understand* why they did what they did, but ofc I dont *agree* with it. Bpd = emotions are felt more intensely than non-bpd ppl, which leads to really intense reactions like taylor's and jera's and etc. Idolizing is also a common bpd thing, and lovebombing + "splitting" (rapid, extreme change in how a person or situation is perceived). I see people without bpd diagnoses behave this way to varying degrees of intensity, so im not saying all of them have bpd btw. Im just saying they shouldn't have done what they did, they had no good reason to, and therefore they need help.

Ang isn't without vice either, and it bothers me a lot that Ang never (unless I accidentally overlooked) owned up to their many many mistakes. Most of which were just poor judgement imo, but also I really can't agree that the art they made doesn't, by nature, hurt any identifiable victim. Kids will always be harmed by porn drawn of underage muses/pairings/sources. There's no debate. There's no reason to create media like that even if its just intended for an 18+ audience. Not even to cope with trauma, in any deeply personal way. There's better ways to cope. Fiction will and always has influenced the real world. No child will ever be safe in a world where its normal to see a kid/adult pairing in nsfw art, cartoon or otherwise.

This doesn't mean Ang should die. I don't think Ang intends to harm kids with their art, but *it really should've been obvious that thats exactly what they were doing/enabling* and thats unfortunately exactly what makes Ang a dangerous person. People should be allowed to block them on ALL of their accounts, and people should be allowed to warn other anti-proshippers of proshipper accs, but thats IT. Everything else that happened went too far.

What I hope for them (and I know if Ang somehow sees this they will compare my attitude to an "anti-gay fundamentalist Christian's 'I wish I could save you'" attitude) is that they'll realize their art is unacceptable and grow. They will have to show everyone they've grown in order to recieve the life-saving support they need. They have to ask themselves, "Whats more important; drawing shotacon or surviving and potentionally rebuilding my reputation?"

They've tried "rebuilding" their reputation by deleting and remaking accs without actually fixing what led to the majority of their notoriety in the first place, which is their status as a known proshipper. They desperately need to re-evaluate their own priorities because thats honestly going to be the quickest solution, vs asking the aggressive stalkers to *not only* chill out but to set aside their desire to see a another proshipper executed, convinced its justice.

However I think their social isolation isn't 100% their ex-friends fault because people also just very passionately hate proshippers/the type of content Ang creates. Backlash is to be expected when you create content like theirs. Their ex-friends don't deserve all the credit. Ang unfortunately associated themself with some terrible people but from the way I see it, the art Ang continued to make was the catalyst. Ang's art fed fuel to the flames. Maybe 55-75% of this drama could've been avoided if Ang made the smartest choice which was to take any opportunity to do real damage control which would've had to include simply not drawing that type of art anymore.

Theres definitely a lot more I could say but I need to sleep.

Alright, I'm gonna be louder about it now because the situation is dire. Ang/Vee (@/Atherist on Twitter) is in a terrible position, and they will die if nothing improves. They're in full survival mode, and that's not enough anymore. They NEED help. They need more money than I will ever have at once.

I don't know if they would want me giving details since they have locked their Twitter where they've posted about it, and I don't have enough of a reach to make any difference, so I'm going to look for people that do.

This is their Kofi. (https://ko-fi.com/handsomehugs)

They also have a subscription service (SubscribeStar seems to be preferred due to PayPal's... thing) where you can even unlock some content for your money.

https://subscribestar.adult/atherist

https://www.fanbox.cc/@atherist

But again, we need a wave of money, tens of thousands, just so they might live.

If anyone wonders why I would fixate on this one person even though lots of other people are struggling too, I'll be transparent and say, because it's not fair.

Everything that's happening to them is the long-term result of vicious abuse that ruined their career. It was intentional.

Horrible, vindictive, monstrous people DID THIS TO THEM. They did it out of spite, because they could, because they wanted a scapegoat for their own shitty friend drama, whatever. They lied and slandered them and stalked them and caused them IMMENSE trauma, and that. is not. FAIR.

If Ang dies, it will be THOSE people's faults. I don't care how long ago it was. They intended to, and succeeded in, taking away all the income and support they had, and PEOPLE NEED THOSE THINGS TO LIVE.

I will consider them murderers if Ang dies. And this outcome isn't fair.

Buhh buhh "life isn't fair", I know.

But I'm just doing what I can. It's all I can do. There's someone in front of me being killed and I can't just sit there and wait for it. Even if I fail to make a difference.

So I bring this attempt to paint a picture of WHY I care. Why I'm doing this.

I hate injustice. It tears me to shreds more than anything else on this earth. And if I can help, I WILL. I want to.

If Ang sees this: I promise I won't put myself in any financial trouble over this. I have a partner who wouldn't let that happen, and my bills are always paid. But I'm going to do everything I CAN. Because I want to. Because it's right. It's not a burden. You deserve better.