#fr though what was the kid's upbringing for him to be so infuriating

[sohyuki]

** tsoa spoilers!!

ure right. the fact that everything was written in patroclus’ pov made everything achilles do seem beautiful. the whole time i was in complete awe of him istg. throughout the whole book, i cried during multiple scenes. one of it was when patroclus was facing hector, and he begged for his life not bcs he’s afraid, rather because he knows if hector kills him, achilles will kill hector which will lead to achilles’ death. that one line where it’s like ( "the last thing on my mind was : achilles" ) it’s a crazy type of love when you’re certain that the other would kill for you :( oh and when patroclus died and all achilles could say is his name, holy shit i bawled. OH OH WHEN BRISEIS AND ACHILLES ARGUED. ( “ you’re not the only person who loved him” ) and when priam asked who patroclus is and achilles said "most beloved". GOD. i cried at so many points of this book that my eyes were red after🚶‍♂

dont get me started on the foreshadowing. “what has hector ever done to me?” when all along it should be what / will / hector ever do to me. i wasnt into greek myths before this book so i didnt know there would be a twist to this. that line has made me feel uncomfortable and nervous but i couldn't quite predict what would happen firsthand.

i havent read the circe yet, no! its in my list though!

oh and also. if it makes u feel better. i was told that in the myth, odysseus visited the underworld and saw achilles and patroclus together. in my head they are happy now </3

JSJHSGHJDGS CRYING WDYM ODYSSEUS SAW THEM TOGETHER MAZE YOU CAN'T SPRING THIS ON ME OUT OF THE BLUE

you listing out all those scenes just reminded of how devastated i was during each of them. ESPECIALLY the aftermath of patroclus' death when the first thing achilles wanted to do was slit his throat. i read that line three times before putting down the book and walking away it for a good hour. god, this book was like a warm hug and an execution at the same time. don't even get me started on "most beloved"

i completely get what you mean by being in awe of achilles throughtout the whole book and i feel that through patroclus' pov, you also feel the same anguish while watching achilles slowly lose his self. like i too was hoping to see the golden haired youth just one more time before the inevitable end.

speaking of greek myths, because i grew up as a pjo kid, i knew what i was getting into but oh boy, i did not! expect the emotional distress that came along with it. but you are so right with the foreshadowing!! the one that made me go "oh shit" was the prophecy thetis told achilles about the best of the myrmidons dying before two years is up and then a few chapters later briseis calls patroclus the exact same title and i was like *head in hands* i know where this is going.

in my head, the book ended when patroclus found achilles again. the end. close the book, end of story. nothing happened after. NOTHING.