#for someone who's moved overseas twice and halfway across the US twice you'd think this would be nothing lol

[inqorporeal]

It feels ridiculous to be so nervous about this, after all the other risks I've taken in my life. I'm going to a trade school, full time, for a certification that will hopefully allow me to get and fucking KEEP a job FOR ONCE. It'll be less than a year, but the financial risk is much higher than what I've done previously, which is why I think it has me on edge.

It was tough to decide how to approach it. I have rent and bills to pay, after all, so the smart move would be to go part time in the evening and work during the day. The problem with that is, for me, it's a recipe for burnout and worse. I've been fighting depression my entire life, and having ADHD means that if I don't have a few solid hours per day to decompress and do my own thing, I start to spiral. College was miserable for me and it's honestly a miracle I survived. There's also the lingering issue of me having been engaged in a job hunt since fucking MARCH, sending out 2-5 applications per week, and getting absolutely fucking nothing but rejections or less. The odds of me being able to find a job quickly that will cover my bills, while I take classes for a year and a half, are dogshit.

As the meme says: the time will pass anyway. Better to be actively doing something with it than repeating the same cycle of failure. And if I take the classes full time, I get to work the floor and hopefully earn tips, because cosmetology is still a trade.

I'll still be in dire financial straits, so I'm looking at getting back into doing character art commissions. I need to update my website and my commissions page, but you can find examples of my work here [link to my website], and if you want to just donate a couple dollars to my cat's Food and Litter fund, here's a [link to my ko-fi]. Please send a message if you'd like to discuss getting some character art done, my inbox is open.

(cat tax photo)